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For the past few months, I've been noticing myself questioning reality and existence, with thoughts such as "How am I real? How is my life this specific? Is anything real, or is this all some weird illusion?" and sometimes, it'll feel like I'm controlling myself from inside my head, as if my body were a robot. Does anyone else experience these same things? | aspergers |
Hey y'all, I've had nightmares and night sweats for over a decade now, but I had thought these symptoms were mostly taken care of following a lot of EMDR. But since staying with my partner the past few months it's become apparent that it's still happening. He's confirmed that I do yell in my sleep some, but not that often; my night sweats are terrible though, when I do have them. I feel horrible that he already has to work with my anxiety/paranoia/anger/etc, and while I'm still working on those, I'd at least like to not have him wake up every other day to soaked blankets and pillows and a smelly girlfriend. Does anyone have any advice? Were there any medical options that worked for you? Atm I just use a separate blanket and put on deodorant before bed, but it's just not a viable long-term solution. Thanks in advance, and sorry for the ramble | ptsd |
Like calmigo https://calmigo.com/products/2020-calmigo-smart-calming-companion?variant=32381563306066
Or anything that helps guide breathing.
I'm considering trying something like this, but am wondering if anyone has any experience and liked it? I'd hope to find one less expensive, but this seems like a neat option for panic attacks or when I get tense and anxious. | ptsd |
My college sends out these fake sympathetic emails every time a student dies about how much of a tragedy it is and how that student made such a big impact on their community and how great their personality was etc etc. Tbh one of the biggest reasons I’m not going to kill myself before graduation at least is so that they don’t send one about me. I’m sure they’ll have a hard time finding anything to write | depression |
I’ve had ptsd for a few years now (more specifically c-ptsd) and I’ve noticed something kind of strange that I can’t find anything about online. Whenever I get triggered by something I feel the need to do things like scrunch up/tense my shoulders, roll my neck, crack my knuckles, or sometimes scrunch up my face or something. When I do it it feels like I’m sort of channeling all that tenseness and anxiety into whatever I’m physically doing and it’s kinda like a release of all that stuff. And if I don’t do it I just get more and more triggered and anxious. What’s up with that? Would it be considered a tic? Or more like a stim because it’s technically voluntary and not doing it makes me feel extremely uncomfortable? I’ve looked up anxiety tics before but I don’t think that’s what this is, it’s more like I’m trying to release pent up energy rather than something that just happens involuntarily. Does anyone else do this? | ptsd |
I'm 15, and my whole last year has been really hard and depressing (got dumped by my gf, my cat died, my grandma went to hospital, my best friend almost died). I've managed to go through, and I've been fine for the last months.
Suddenly my mom died. I was beginning again. I was good for once in a fucking while. And life decided to punch me again in that infernal spiral. I don't know what to do anymore. I have no mental health left. | depression |
I live in South London. Right on the edge of it. Out of London is a 30 minute bus journey from my house.
When I was asking questions about getting diagnosed early this year, reddit told me to ask to go to Psychiatry UK, because its faster. Ironically I forgot to do this.
I got my refferal in March. I moved out of my parents house and changed GPs in September. I got my refferal in March. I found out about a month ago that my gp gave the refferal the wrong name. I legally changed it August 2020. I definitely told my GP before my ADHD appointment because when I went in with my new passport to confirm the change is when I asked the receptionist about getting diagnosed, then a week later I booked my appointment.
So with my new GP I have spoken to 2 different Doctors about changing my refferal to Psychiatry UK. Both of them had no idea what it was, said they would look into it then didn't. One of them said it was Private Healthcare and didn't listen when I said "Only if you self refer, you can be referred by the NHS".
My reason for this post is to get more information on Psychiatry UK, so my Doctor gives me the refferal to to where I want.
I was told they can only reffer to local places so where are they located?
I don't know what other information I need. I feel like I already got enough just from reading there website which I don't think these Doctors have bothered to done. I also know I have a right to choose where I get my treatment which I will bring up in my next appointment.
I just want to go to my next appointment feeling prepared. | ADHD |
hi all,
my therapist formally diagnosed me with ptsd a couple of sessions ago. I had a feeling that I had it but for whatever reason, receiving that diagnosis was still very heavy. aside from that diagnosis and even before receiving it I've been struggling to take my meds on time, I've had chronic fatigue for years now, and I just generally have swiss cheese for brains. I have an incredibly spotty memory and a horrible attention span and I've recently realized \*just how much\* I dissociate and it fucks me up.
anyway, thanks for letting me vent, I've been spiraling a little and feeling really fucking lost but trying to pick myself back up. going through the posts on this sub has already helped. | ptsd |
Never feel satisfied if I like tap something like usually it’s 4 times and sometimes it’s not enough for me to feel comfortable with what I have done so I stand there just tapping it and it can go on for a while and I just get so stressed out and feel so uneasy about it?ughhh it’s all getting to much and I start school again next week and I’m really scared of this happening when I’m at school cuz idk how to hide it anymore? | OCD |
i started adderall 2 days ago (15mg XR in the morning, 5mg IR in evening) and have noticed muscle twitching (specifically in my thigh/legs) and getting really hot and a tad nauseous when it’s wearing off, i know that there’s obviously a lot of common negative side affects to the drug but i’m overthinking it and wanted to know how many other people deal with this :D | ADHD |
I don’t have much to say but I just gotta share it with the world - with you.
After 11 years - 5 years BA and 6 years MA - I finally did it and finished university.
Today I checked my transcript of records and I somehow managed to get all of my credits.
The past year was wild. A year ago I turned in my MA thesis and defended it in February.
All that was left to do was an assignment worth fucking 4,5 credits out of 120 that was due 3 or 4 (!!) years ago - I don’t even remember probably.
To put it short: my ADHD, depression and anxiety fucked me royally and for the most part of this year it and paralysed me to the point I can’t even begin to describe. In my head it just got bigger than life.
But tomorrow it will be all over. Tomorrow I’ll hand in my de-registration and I’ll be a free fucking elf! | ADHD |
Does executive functioning get better on medication? Cuz my functioning sucks. And I’m on adderall but I feel like it makes my symptoms worse, and it just makes me feel sad, and I’m focusing on the wrong things and my brain is in a constant fog. If I just had better executive functioning I would have such a better time, right now my only real struggle is just getting things done and remembering and actually committing to something to I hope there is a medication that works me for me. | ADHD |
TW: death
Just venting
Every second of every day I obsess over death. It truly sucks because it is inevitable. I feel my entire life up to this point (although I’ve only struggled this much with death for the past 3 or so years) is being wasted. It makes any form of media extremely hard to digest. Every time I go on social media or watch tv I am bombarded with it, consequently sending me into a panic and repeating my rituals over and over again.
My intrusive thoughts ALWAYS include death in some form. Me on my death bed, my parents dying, etc. Therefore, I am not only afraid of dying myself, but others dying as well.
The death theme often shows up in my dreams, and most of my rituals are done in order to prevent death. My least favorite being “do this thing in 5 seconds or else you will die an untimely death.”
I know most people struggle with death, but this is far beyond that. Its like an existential crisis on crack every day.
As much as I would like to believe in heaven, reincarnation or whatever, I can’t force myself to think something I don’t. I do find some solace in knowing that everyone has to do it at some point, but that only works about 10% of the time.
Not really looking for advice or pity, just wondering if anyone else can relate. Thanks for reading. | OCD |
So I've recently picked up chess and I suck at it. Like really bad, I've been playing consistently for a few weeks but I still just drift around 400 - 500. So chess has made me realise I'm really bad at paying attention to details. I will often times forget that existing opposing pieces are defending a particular area and just straight up donate my pieces. Then there are other times where I get so caught up on setting up my pieces for an attack that I forget to pay attention to the opposition and get checkmated by their own attack. and because I'm playing lower ranks, it isn't like a I couldn't recognise the checkmate situation. Its actually painfully obvious but I literally just forgot that I had to pay attention to whatever the opponent was doing. Anybody else find it hard to play chess? | ADHD |
Maybe it is also because of my porn addiction but I feel like I have become emotionally numb. I can still experience emotions and it is relatively easy to feel emotions such as anger. I also occasionally laugh when I think that something is funny. However, I experience nothing intense on a daily basis. I felt like that ever since a few years. Ever since I was 14, I had to suffer from OCD, several types of it. I recently turned 19 and I feel somewhat hollow or shallow when it comes to my emotions. I don't know if that rings a bell for you, but do you know those characters in Anime whose eyes are vacant, devoid of life? I feel like I am walking on that road.
I had a panic attack around 2018 or 2019 and really wanted to cry. I was in the mood for it and desperately tried to cry. But nothing came out of my eyes. | OCD |
Hi all! I’m new here. I’m a 27 yo female in the process of getting a formal ADHD diagnosis in hopes that I can finally get the help I need.
Anyway. For many, many years I’ve struggled to maintain close friendships. While I care about people very deeply and consider myself to have a huge heart, I’m very forgetful and it often comes across as “not caring”. I also go through cycles where I’ll pile new projects and tasks onto my plate, hyper focus on them for several days at a time, ditch them and start new ones - wash, rinse, and repeat until I’m exhausted, mentally, physically, and spiritually. During this repetitive process I severely neglect my relationships and friendships - not because I don’t care about them, but because it’s extremely difficult for me to nourish these connections when I’m “focusing” on things that I view as more urgent/important at the time.
After so many of these instances, people who I considered myself to be close with end up getting their feelings hurt by me (unintentionally on my part) and choose to discard our friendship because of it. I literally am at a loss of how to break this cycle, because it sends me into a depression each time. This has happened to me over and over again with many people - so I know the only common denominator is me. I am the problem. I realize I don’t reach out as often as I’d like to, or I’ll forget to acknowledge something difficult they’re going through, or reciprocate support. I forget their important life events. I forget to follow through on things or respond to texts or phone calls. It’s not that I don’t THINK about doing it, it just either slips my mind as quickly as it comes or I just get immensely overwhelmed by the thought of diving into a conversation with someone about their life issues when I already feel so overwhelmed with my own.
I also get intimidated seeing their bonds with other friends be so much stronger than mine, that I figure they’ve somewhat forgotten about me as well and could care less if they hear from me or not (which ends up being the opposite of true.) All of these things combined make me further isolate myself, which starts my impulsive habits all over again - trying to fill a void, I suppose. How can I be a better friend? Will it ever get easier for me, or is it a lost cause? Can one truly have meaningful, lasting friendships with ADHD, or will I continue to hurt each person I befriend? | ADHD |
these days, it’s been getting worse. every time i try to masturbate, thoughts of my family members keep popping into my head, especially my mom, and it’s been making masturbation kind of traumatizing. it’s been a problem for a while and i’ve tried just “working through it” and not thinking of it as a big deal, but nothing has worked. for me, specifically, i like to listen to audios but i just keep comparing the voices to those of my family members and i fear i’ve created an association between the two. i just want to go back to when i didn’t have these thoughts. btw i’m not diagnosed so i’m not really even sure if this is ocd or not | OCD |
I wanted to see a doctor today and finnaly go into rehab... my addiction and depression left me laying in bed and not going... i just called my mum to force me to go on monday so i can get back on track... this shit is hard. i lost so much weight over the past 2 months... im always vomiting and cant eat or sleep... im severly in danger now... dont ever do drugs to kill a sorrow you should have dealt with | depression |
I’ve been with my partner 5 years, we are engaged and in the process of buying a house together! But deep down I am suffering & nobody knows but me!
I broke up with my long term ex prior to this relationship and I still haven’t fully got over it! I have just seen that my ex has just had her second child with her new BF (the guy she was cheating on me with)
Is it weird I am like this still, a women who caused me so much pain and distress for so long and now I’m feeling like this?
I sometimes get down and my partner doesn’t know why cause I hide it all we’ll try to and I feel like I can cause a rift in this relationship now! She’s a great fiancée and doesn’t deserve the mood swings when I see something about my ex!
What is wrong with me | depression |
I don’t know if connection is the right work for it but I’ve never really felt it. | aspergers |
I could be wrong, but I swear I keep seeing repeated comments in threads, of people shouting out specific websites or YouTubers. They seem to usually be written the exact same way too.
This really pisses me off that people could be capitalising on vulnerable people seeking help under the guise of “so and so knows ALL things OCD”. Most of the time they don’t even reference the specific post they’re replying to. This is also driving people to seek reassurance. I had a big struggle with using YouTube videos for that.
I’m not gonna mention the names I’ve seen so far cos I don’t wanna drive any more traffic towards them. I just wondered if anyone else has noticed this? Maybe I’m wrong and it’s people genuinely wanting to help. But they come off as disingenuous.
*just to clarify* I don’t mean ALL mentions of people are spam. I do understand a lot of the time people are sharing something that genuinely helped them. I’m just concerned when I see the same comment repeatedly mentioning the same person that is some sort of sick bot they’re using to promote themselves. | OCD |
It's when someone goes out of their way to try to convince you that you're crazy and can't trust your own perception of reality- usually in the context of a relationship with a narcissist.
I was like, this is what my whole world seems to be doing to me all the time every day. I'll speak and no one listens or acknowledges my words, do work and it doesn't seem like anything has gotten done, have conversations that no one remembers having, make plans with people and end up being the only one who shows up, etc.
Granted, I (and many of us, I'm sure) am certifiably crazy, but it never ceases to amaze me how my perceptions of reality can't be trusted. Was it a dream or a recollection? Who knows. Am I the only one who saw the lights flicker a second ago? I suppose so. I could've sworn that I cleaned this room recently, but a day later, it's trashed again. I feel like I'm dreaming or floating through the world as a ghost sometimes- not often- but when I get that feeling that I need to pinch myself, it's really unnerving. | aspergers |
Has anyone experienced you arm just saying, nope, not gonna work today. I had a decent couple of days. Woke up this morning and MG back was kind of sore. I take my medication and try to start my day. By 2pm I was so tired I couldn't sit up and dizzy. All vitals are good. Then I started using my phone, writing, and playing switch in bed, my arms goes almost numb and kept dropping things. Checked vitals again, still good. It's close to 9pm now and MG arm is still bumb/weak, still dizzy, and still tired. Also, it's my right arm, not left. With my BP being fine, I think it's not stroke or heart attack related, but it just came out of no where. Thanks for any answer and advice anyone replies with. Going to try and play some games and see if it's just stress. | ptsd |
This is more like me just putting my thoughts on paper than anything else but advise or anything woukd be good as well.
About 4 years ago my ex tried to kill her self by over dozing. She failed but it all went down hill from there.
For background : for 5 years me and my ex dated since we were in year 7ish. It all seemed good to me but only after we broke up and I went through some shit I realised how toxic abusive and 1 sided the relationship was. Every time I tried to make plans to have good time and make good memories she would decline them or be miserable while doing it. Everytime I said something she didn't like I would get kicked in the balls. I have never been complemented during that hell of a realstionship. Shoudk would break up with me once every few months and I would run back to her begging to take me back and she did each time but she would also talk shit about me to her friends behind my back telling them how good I was and all that while telling me how awful I am.
October 2018 I think?
(sorry all the dates are blury I can't remember even the years coz of all the shit) I was meant to pick her up from her house on a Friday so we could go to mine and have a sleep over. It was a nice blue a little chilly day. I was sitting on the steps outside her house waiting for her. I rang the bell few times no one answered. So I wait. And waited and waited. I waited 5 hours till I saw her mum waking towards the house so I asked her where my ex was and she said that she was in the hospital. I asked her where exactly in the hospital. She told me and I took off running to the bus stop and then running more after. I got there. Found the bed she was laying in. I walk in and she looks me in the eyes and says she is sorry and starts crying. That moment is burnt into my memory. I still remember it clear as day. I spend next few days with her till she got to go home. And then everything was good for a month
November 2018. We went to a party in a park where there was loads of people that I haven't seen for about 2 years so we all were having good time except for my ex she just sat there ignoring me looking at her phone. So pissed off at the fact that I was being ignored I said fuck it and went binge drinking beers with my mates. I have drunk about a create at that point. So shit faced lonely me was seeking so attention from anyone and there was this chick that was getting all touchy with me and all so we went to the bushes to play around. (ik I am. Not proud and I hate myself for it and bla bla bla) basically we made out and we started touching each other, for what ever reason she just dropped down on the floor with her pants down. I assume she passed out so what I wanted to do is pull her pants up to make sure nothing would crawl inside and as soon as I started pulling them up she woke up and said that I raped here. Keep in mind all we have done is made out and liturly barely touched each other. She started crying akaing me what I have done and so on. She ran off shouting that I raped her so I shrugged it off coz I know I haven't done anything. I went back to my mates and thenankther girl from the party got in my face shouting how I could have raped her and bla bla bla. I don't remember what happened next but I remember I ran after my ex to tell her my side of the story coz I wasnt too consundersd with the relationship at that point but I wanted to make sure she knew that I didn't rape anyone. Then next thing I remember this dude got in my face about something and I already was frustrated so I punched him in the face I think? I think I punched him first but idk? So basically out of no where about 15 people circled me and jsut started beating the shit out of me. Some how I didn't break anything. I crawled to berger King that was on the other side of the street washed off my face coz I had my chin split opened from getting kicked in the face few times. And I called my mum to pick me up. We went to ER to get me sorted and went to police station to make a statement. Nothing came out of that statement.
2018-2020
At that point I have lost everything. Absolutely everyone and everything no social life what so ever so I joined cadets and focused on that. I got some random people wanting to fight me once in a while or name calling. Whole school turned against me. Got kicked out of all friend groups so I liturly had no one.
I luckily doing a lot better now but I do intreducess myself with a nick name rather than my name for obvious reasons. Got into a realstionship it's nearly been 2 years we have been together and it feels so much better and so different compared to my ex. Made loads of new friends. Some old friends came back after realising how shit my ex was and what not. So that's good.
But I still do get shit for all of that. I remember going numb for a year and a half after all tgta shit happens. I just kinda zoned out and never zoned back in. I do feel like I am not good enugh for my gf and I do feel like I will fuck shit up again and I do get moments when I jsut relive all those events and this year was the first time I cried after being in very bad and deep depression for 6 and a hf years. I have been depressed since my and exs relationship happened and idk if I have healed yet | depression |
I'm so frustrated. This was literally the only class I had today, and I started folding laundry and watching Crash Course World History and I forgot about it entirely. Gone. I saw the time during class time and the thought didn't even cross my mind.
It's a mandatory class and it was going over what was going to be on the exam on Thursday, so now I'm gonna have to go in blind.
Has this happened to anyone else? Please tell me if y'all have ever experienced something like this and what helps. I set an alarm with a name, but I'm afraid I'm gonna turn it off without looking at what it's for. It's a hybrid class, so some days are in person and some aren't. Any advice? | ADHD |
How do you know? Psychiatrist told me I'm adhd inattentive (not on meds, yet). If I try meds, will there be some way of telling for sure? Some days I can sort of focus and force myself to work on things I dislike doing (for a few hours at most), but most days, not a chance. There's always an excuse in my mind. Yesterday I was banging my head on the wall because I wanted to start being productive but just can't seem to start.
Sometimes I think I'm just dopamine deficient due to too much porn or general over stimulation. Meh, I'm clueless.
Appreciate any thoughts tips etc. Thanks :) | ADHD |
What does it take for someone to actually care? How do you make yourself matter to others and the world? | depression |
I don't want to go thru this crap anymore. I followed all there guidelines. I called on the hour every hour and they still pull this warrant stuff. I just want to stop everything. My fn childrens mother is so idk. I miss my kids. Am I really that bad of a person that I can't get a fn break. I'm TIRED. I want to be gone forever but my fn kids will never be the same. How can I live for them when I don't want to live for me? Brothers and sister want me to turn myself in. I understand where there coming from but this life is so hard. Im think I'm bout done.... | depression |
Hi,i am having repeadetly unintentional feeling,it doesn't come to my mind but whenever i think on this subject i am having unintentional feeling that lasts 1-2 hours,and i have no idea what this is.Anyone has opinions about this matter? | OCD |
Mine is
“Queens of the Stone Age-In my head”
haha played it atleast 1000x this week alone no joke | aspergers |
I’ve started seeing a counsellor lately, and she seems to think I have ptsd. Can a counsellor give you a diagnosis, or do you need to see a psychiatrist? I told my GP about my symptoms a while ago but she belittled the whole thing and tried to put me on anxiety pills which don’t really work for me. I’m in the UK in case that’s important.
I started reading about ptsd after my counsellor said that and suddenly everything I’ve felt these past couple of months is starting to make sense. But I still have this feeling of not being valid, and guilt because other people are having it way worse than me. So I think getting a diagnosis would really help me take my own feelings seriously if you know what I mean... | ptsd |
This may be a long post, sorry if I have bad English
All went wrong in this quarantine, all my life I lived in my father's house but suddenly it changed to my mother's house.
Im just tired, she always yells at me for things that my father will simply say "try it again"
Ig that my father play have a advantage on knowing how I feel because he is a psychologist.
In my life I have only been to the psychologist two times in my life
With my mom because I was too "useless" for my age
And for my dad when I was diagnosed with depression
So... Once I said that I will start telling about what is happening to me
My mom is not the most amorous person, she only yells at me and saying all the things I did wrong, this just make me feel like a shit, they had me at the age of 18 so yeah, I just appeared to ruin their lifes
So being in this house I just don't feel loved until I met this girl, she is just too cute and lovely but now she is leaving me apart and... I just want to cry but I can't because I have to share my room with my step brother.
I just feel lonely, I think that nobody loves me even tho I know of the existance of my friends but... At this point they would'nt even care if they im Alive or not, I haven't seen them in two years.
Once I tell about my mom that I tried to jump off the balcony and she said "that happens because you don't accept god in your heart" what is she even talking about
Literally this song https://youtu.be/_mGiYXBFKQo describes all I want to tell her
I just feel fucking... UGH
I cant tell my problems to anybody because they just dont care and this girl well... If she is in my life I just don't give a fuck about problems, she just makes me happy and makes me forget about everything, I just want to talk with her and even if she dont care of me anymore I still send her messages recording her to drink water because she had a lot of probablems with that and... I still send her messages saying "good night, I love you" and... I don't know... Probably she is why im still Alive... Just for her... | depression |
Hi! I'd like to talk with someone about my ocd and dating. If it's OK. I'm panicking really bad about it. I just need a friend to talk to about this.
I'm a gay woman and despite I'm not actually dating, I am committed to this beautiful girl whom I love so much.
I have this friend (who lives across the world) who is very loving and sweet. And I'm like him very loving and sweet but my feelings for him are only platonic and Im not sure if his are the same. I don't have any feelings for him romantically or otherwise (even if my head tries to convince me otherwise). We have this running joke where I'm his wife and he's my husband.
And this started a few days before I knew that girl liked me back.
I'm afraid that I'm somehow cheating on her because I'm letting all of this run course. (sighs) I don't want to hurt anyone. I'm thinking of talking with my love about this and ask her if she's OK with it. But I also don't want to upset her or anything. God.
And he sometimes ask for snuggles and kisses and I say "yes! Snuggles" but i don't really want kisses from him. In fact, I only want kisses from people who I'm in love with.
God... I'm so sorry. You must think I'm awful. Obviously I don't want to be a cheater. I don't have feelings for him. I am just a loving person who likes to give hugs and be loving. But when you are committed to someone, you have to change your rules...
(sighs) I'm so so stupid... He also keeps talking about my butt. And sporadically I made the joke I'd take a Pic of my butt (fully clothed ofc!!!) to show him that I do have a big butt (I hate my butt) Idk why I said this! It was stupid of me! | OCD |
I had an online midterm this morning. It was going okay but brain fog crept up on me and intensified. I pushed through and got all multiple choice answers done and went back to tackle the short answer ones I missed. But my brain fog was so bad I couldn't barely read and comprehend the question let alone start to think about how to answer them.
So I ended up leaving 4 questions blank. 2 of them were worth 8 points each and the other 2 were worth 4.
I'm trying not to beat myself up about it too much because its the first time this semester that my adhd has really fucked up my school work. But its hard. This exam is worth 20% of my grade and I really wanted to finish this semester with top grades. And it fucking sucks. | ADHD |
I don't know how to end social situations, so I just wait until they do. But sadly if they attempt a goodbye script it can be completely misunderstood. "I'll let you go to sleep" may start up the conversation again as I say "no that's OK I'm not tired".
Only just realised despite witnessing others fail to acknowledge this polite wrapping up ritual that I too have been a literal dummy wearing out my welcome when my social partner wants out. Probably been doing it my entire life unknowingly. I was probably someone some people avoided.
I hate that I have to read between the lines with NTs so much. I feel like such a failure talking to them. It kills my self-esteem. I feel like it would be so simple for them to facilitate us with simple tweaks. At least our friends & family anyway. But maybe they're as hard wired as us.
I really wish someone would write a nice simple book for Aspies on how to live in an NT world & avoid all these terrible faux pas. It's taking me way too long to learn this stuff in the wild. It can even be dangerous for a woman when it comes to the opposite sex. We can end up in bad situations with guys who's intentions aren't clear to us. I hate it, but I feel my fear of men is sadly justified given my circumstances. | aspergers |
I, 21afab, have my assessment next Tuesday (FINALLY at) and I have no idea what to expect going into it. I know about childhood assessments because my brother has been diagnosed since he was 4 but adult assessments are foreign to me.
And can anyone tell me their experiences on stimulant meds like Adderall or Vyvanse? I'm super hesitant to take stimulants because I get addicted to things easily (ex, jonesing for another dilauded after 0.5mg) and have a very addictive personality. I've read that they're typically the first line of medication for ADHD and that the non-stimulant drugs don't work as well and take longer to have full effect.
Basically, if anyone can give me their personal experiences of diagnosis and med adjustment that would be awesome! I just want to know what to expect because my anxiety has been through the roof over this (and the classic imposter syndrome of "do I have ADHD or will I be wasting everyone's time" is in full swing too). | ADHD |
tbh sometimes i miss being sad, because at least i'd feel some kind of connection to my body and the world, now i just feel like i'm a huge void just waiting for bed time everyday | depression |
My son, age 10, told me he has been confused for over a year why it’s called something weird like this. Lol. | aspergers |
I ended up touching the right back seat and passenger seat of my mom’s Toyota Prius with pants that touched toilet paper. I also touched them with an unwashed hand after taking out the trash. How do I disinfect the car seats so that I won’t have to stand up all the time? | OCD |
I'm 16 years old, and I'll be 17 in less than two months. I've only ever had one job in my entire life—Subway—and I was fired after one and a half months. My manager was a manipulative woman who lied to my parents about one of my mental illnesses that I had vented to her about.
While working at Subway, I was stressed, anxious, and miserable. I was ostracized by the entire team, treated like a disease. Everything was too loud, too fast, too much. I was absolutely miserable.
My current "dream job" while in high school is working at the public library in my hometown. It's everything I want in a job! A quiet atmosphere, books, occasional visits from happy children, and of course, the library's pets. I really, *really* want to work there!
I've applied once and received no response. I have another application, though they're currently not hiring. The woman at the desk suggested that I hang onto it and wait until a position opens.
How can I make myself stand out, and how can I keep the job once I get it?
I work poorly under pressure, especially if I'm being treated like a disease like I was at Subway. I can't express how much I really want to work at this job. | aspergers |
Many things used to be thought 'incurable' because medical science hadn't advanced far enough yet. Lots of diseases and conditions were just part of life. Would you tell someone back in the 1300s that researching a cure for small pox was pointless? Much of the work that is done for cures and treatments is done hundreds of years before success is found. That's how science works. We start research now, so future generations benefit. I have no delusions that any cure or treatment for my Aspergers/Autism will be found tomorrow, next month, next decade, or even in my life time. I do hope that it will be found one day.
And by cure or treatment, I don't mean the nonsensical and harmful ones that have been peddled to desperate parents and such. No chelation therapy or onions or...tying a fish to your forehead or whatever. I mean scientifically valid, peer reviewed, well tested medical science. Our understanding of the extremely complex dynamics of genes, epigenetics and brain chemistry grows every day. We should not look at the ignorance of the past and the present to shy away from actual progress. Would you tell someone who in the past had tried homeopathy for a tooth ache 'Don't go to the dentist because some people use bad science to treat their teeth'? It's okay to be wary about treatments for anything, especially in things like Autism/Aspergers treatments because there's so much bad science and fear around it (I hate anti-vaxxers with a fiery passion). But that's a reason to be skeptical, not reject everything that even hints at progress.
Now some will say 'But Autism/Aspergers isn't a disease so there's nothing to cure.' I disagree with that, but let's assume it's not. EVEN IF IT'S NOT ONE, would you berate someone for wanting to change part of themselves? 'Don't you dare dye your hair, it's fine. There's nothing wrong with you.' 'Don't you dare get plastic surgery, there's nothing wrong with you.' 'Don't you dare try to have some agency in your life.' There's a lot of fatphobia around, and a lot of people trying to quash that and embrace more body positivity. That's lovely and I support that. But if a friend works hard to lose weight, or expresses a desire to lose weight, I don't automatically berate them by accusing them of 'internal fatphobia' or something like that. Some people just wanna change themselves. AND THAT'S OKAY.
Don't be Storm, berating Rogue for wanting to not have an x-gene because she suffers for having powers she doesn't like.
Again, it is OKAY TO NOT WANT A CURE OR TREATMENT. Please just don't berate or stand in the way of those that do. | aspergers |
I am going through a lot and feeling everything 10 times stronger than a "normal" person. Mostly around sadness, fear, the inevitability that we are all going to die etc... To make things worse my sweet cat who is one of my greatest comforts is dying and we will have to put him to sleep soon.
I am barely coping as it is and I know this is going to be horrific to deal with. My husband is going to be devastated too and I don't want him to have to look after me as well.
Can I ask my doctor for any kind of pill that will just...tone life down a little? I feel like there are normal reactions to stress, grief, and sadness...and then there are mine. Way too OTT. They impact my quality of life hugely and I live in a constant state of being on the verge of tears because if I think too long about anything I find the "sad" angle. E.g., get a cuddle from husband, enjoy it, then immediately think "what is gets cancer and had a long illness and dies." Then I'm out for the rest of the night being sad about a *what if*.
Having an actual, upcoming thing to be sad about scares me. | depression |
I’m trying to make it through and am going into a crisis center ( I’ve been to before ) for the weekend to get more resources to deal with my mental health. My ptsd is so so bad that I’m 24/7 having panic attacks and have barely slept. It’s exhausting but I can’t miss work. Wish me luck and hope I can get through 🤞 | ptsd |
Mine was when I was about to cry at work the other day because of the noise, it was horrible, loud, the lights would you usually bearable just started to really hurt and I wanted to scream and shout and stim
Then I put on head phones to answer a phone call and it was this sense of instant relief (part from the actual phone call but that’s a different story)
Then I had to take them off and start interacting in the environment and was instantly paralysed again | aspergers |
...is hard.
It's crazy to me how much more of a *task* it is for me to do a simple assignment compared to my friends. I graduated high school in 2020 and took a gap year because (I'm sure many of you understand this) I knew if I started college in all online classes I'd start out failing.
As it is, the gap year (traveling volunteer service) was great and refreshing but I also hadn't done homework or taken tests in over a year before this semester started and it's definitely been a culture shock of sorts.
In high school I feel like I had less of a direct look at how much easier it is for others to focus. Here, studying with people in my classes is mind blowing because it's crazy to see how much less it takes out of them to get shit done. For me it's absolutely insane the amount of time I waste just in the effort to focus.
I have a running list of assignments and I've allowed myself to get behind and it's barely even stressing me out. I just let myself play three rounds of Tetris as a reward for opening Google Drive.
How do you other college students do this?? Tips are so welcome. | ADHD |
I accidentally ran a red light today, no one got hurt and the road was almost empty because it was a really randomly placed light. I can’t stop checking the road or thinking I’m running red lights even if it’s green. Now I’m scared I won’t be able to drive if it gets worse. | OCD |
I was wondering if anyone else with ADHD struggles with hypersexuality.
I feel a constant need for sexual stimulus, especially when I’m stressed out. Sometimes I feel like the behavior is compulsive and out of my control (or maybe I just lack the discipline to even want to control it because I want the sexual release). Sexual release for me often leads to a feeling of calm, which often helps me concentrate.
However, on days where I’m either highly stressed or bored, I find myself seeking sexual stimulus quite often to fill the space.
Does anyone know if ADHD and hypersexuality are linked somehow? Or have any links to research? Just seeking more knowledge and clarity. | ADHD |
I spent years with "pretend friends" because no living humans liked me. Later, still not liked or loved, I gave "lectures" showing people my various expert opinions. I will be 62 years soon. I have never had a date. Never had a love. I have had sex. Rape at 13 years old.Rape at 18. Unwanted sex with a person for severa months because I thought that was what was necessary. Rape at 30. And then I quit with believing that it was even possible. People are liars and I think that people like us get the point. At my age now I believe that I am a "gray" (look it up) and was never interested in sex. I was raped at a young age because I was a very tall girl and looked much older, and after that was seen as a "dike" so called lesbian. -- heck, I would say that I am tender hearted and love people but the way I was put in a bucket that I did not belong in early on was absolutely crazy. Who here can talk about Aspergers and rape. Not necessarily young female/older man. | aspergers |
So - what times has something very special or unique happened in your life that you are willing to talk about? | aspergers |
Doubt ill do it though. Which I dont know why because I want to die so badly | depression |
It's so hard to make friends, I have such bad trust issues and it's like... nobody is perfect. But it's like, i don't even know who to choose as friends because everybody has like flaws that you have to deal with and i'm not saying that it's unreasonable for people to have flaws, it's just that sometimes the flaws can result in them being a bad friend... and also the fact that trauma can't really be cured, but just kind of gets passed on from person to person makes me really sad. Like, say you vent to a friend- then it's like, it becomes their burden to deal with. This is something a friend did to me in middle school: she dumped all her trauma on me, and although I wanted to help her, her trauma traumatized me too. Because there was just so much of it. Ugh. | depression |
i remember hearing somewhere about an app that’s like a to do list and reminder kinda thing but for your social circle, family & friends with each person as a category with like check in with x, remember x’s bday, ask about x’s x
does anyone know what this is? i rlly regret not downloading at the time thinking i could manage this shit in my head lmao
sorry for the awful explanation this is just from memory. thanks! | ADHD |
I feel myself falling into a depressive episode 🙃 just don't feel loved and I feel all alone yet again. I'm isolating myself and not talking to my roomates or family. I just feel like disappearing. | depression |
I'm abysmal at using a calendar/planner, but I've been working with my coach to try getting better at it. My biggest challenge though is getting myself to do it every week.
My coach and I were discussing it today, and I mentioned how cool/helpful it'd be if I had a buddy or group to meet up with every weekend to do our calendars together - kind of like having a study group in college. Which reminded us of those online "ADHD Study Halls."
But as far as I can tell, none of them are calendaring/planning specific, and I think it'd be really helpful to have one that is so that you could get help from others when you can't prioritize or figure out how long something is gonna take.
Does anyone know one of these exists? And if not, would anyone be interested in such a group? My coach said if there wasn't, she knew some other coaches that may be interested in starting one if there was enough interest. | ADHD |
To those of you who are parents of younger (3-7ish) kids who are in school, HOW do you get everything together in the mornings without losing it? I feel like my poor organization and time management result in stressful exits almost daily, and it's making my kids dread going to school. What have you implemented (or stopped doing) to make these mornings easier? Any and all advice appreciated! | ADHD |
i have plans with my boyfriend in two days which honestly sounds too good to be true and that’s giving me a lot of anxiety, knowing it won’t happen. a huge fear is that i’ll develop covid before that and it won’t happen so i’m very hypersensitive to everything happening in my body | OCD |
TLDR; I recently got Ring Fit Adventure on Nintendo Switch and am obsessed. What are your thoughts on/experiences with it? Or, what routine works for you?
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Like many people with ADHD, I struggle to stick to a routine. When I was younger and undiagnosed, the only way my parents could get me to be active in any way was to get me the Wii Fit, otherwise, I would sit there for hours playing other videogames. I loved it so much. I was about 7 when it came out, and I'd continue to play it on and off for years after getting it.
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Lately, I've been craving the Wii Fit again, because I want to be fit again. I haven't properly exercised in a year straight because I couldn't find a routine that works for me and am too anxious to jog in public or go to a gym. But I no longer have a Wii and am not interested in spending the money on one if that's the only game I'd play on it.
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One day I was complaining to my partner about how they should make a new one for Switch, and he mentioned that that's kind of what the Ring Fit Adventure game was. I researched it a bunch, having never heard of it before, and instantly became obsessed with getting it. It's all I've been thinking about for weeks, my current hyper fixation.
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I finally got it yesterday after extensive research. Partially took so long to get because I wanted to see if the urge would go away, but it only got stronger. I played it immediately when I got home from getting it, and it was more fun than I expected. The story is ridiculous and makes me laugh, but it keeps me engaged. Although, I wasn't expecting it to be as intense as it was. After playing for about 15 minutes (or at least that's how long I was moving for, it keeps track of that time separately), I was unable to continue from how much it tired me out (to be fair, it has been about a year since I properly exercised).
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I woke up today way more sore than I had expected to be, but I still had the strong urge to play. I just finished another roughly 15-minute session and am getting ready to go to work now. It feels good to exercise again, especially in such a fun way!
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What are your experiences with/thoughts on Ring Fit Adventure? Obviously, I love it, but I'd love to hear your thoughts. Is there another exercise routine that works better for you or has gotten you excited about exercise? | ADHD |
I love thriller/mystery, but i cannot handle mike myers stabbings and scenes like that, it can be very triggering to my intrusive thoughts, and even cause me nightmares.
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I hate that i have vivid dreams and very vivid thoughts, i fucking hate that if i go ahead and watch a super horror movie, it will make me dissociate and make me have another nightmare drenched in sweat.
what is an acceptable thriller? | OCD |
I hope this doesn't somehow break any rules. I just want to offer an endorsement of a veterans group that's helped me. I've got nothing else to do with them.
People and their families who have been struggling with the bureaucracies of getting benefits and proper treatment at the VA should google "Hadit". They have a podcast that I love and a website with lots of info as well. The podcast helps me tons!
It also has lots of good information for people who are thinking about leaving active duty service.
At any rate, I hope it helps. | ptsd |
So I noticed that whenever I feel my compulsions getting worse I try to counter it with an even power emotion to overwhelm the compulsions to make them simply disappear. One time I was shiny hunting Pokémon and when I found a shiny I was soooo happy that I was able to do things that would usually scare me or make me paranoid and I felt like my old self again but sadly it was only for that day. To try to recover from this I try to focus on a more positive emotion and I know that may seem kinda impossible for some but once you have that feeling that all your worries are gone it feels truly liberating and even if it is short live, it reminds me of what I’m trying to work towards. | OCD |
Forgot to reschedule my med-refill appointment and I just now realized that I have four days of meds to get me through six final exam (all on separate days)… I can’t believe I did this, I’m so frustrated with myself I could cry. I’m applying to vet school next fall semester and I really wanted to/need to finish off my last two semesters strong but I have no idea how this week is going to go… :( | ADHD |
I only ask because I've been dying to explain to someone how I've been absolutely obsessing over the band Glass Animals. I randomly started listening to their album on at 1am on Monday (it's Tuesday) and I've literally listened to and thought about nothing else, nonstop, since then. Something about it just scratches my brain so good. Obsession is kicking in harder than ever and I absolutely love it.
So, what about you guys? | ADHD |
I hear all the time how caffeine helps people with ADHD, but it makes me crazy. I can't have more than half a cup of coffee or a cup of tea. It makes my adhd so much worse. It gives me anxiety and makes me hyperfocus on the wrong things. It also keeps me up at night if I drink it in the afternoon. I've never taken medication, so I don't know if that would have a similar effect or not. Sometimes it makes me question if my adhd is real, but I know it is. Everyone around me is obsessed with coffee, and I just don't see the hype. It makes me miserable. Is this a thing for anyone else? | ADHD |
Hi, all I know right now is that I need help, because for the past few days things have gotten REALLY bad, today I at first didn't want to eat and when I was eating I sat there thinking how I didn't ever want to finish my meal cause then I have to go to the bathroom, which is the one things I feel like dying rather than doing most days because of how it makes me feel, and how bad my OCD gets when I go.
I want to get some kind of treatment, but I have this problem where I am scared to bring it up since everytime I do it gets aggressivley shot down and basically get told that it won't help me and the only way to do it is to put my mind to it and just do it no matter what, but I have been dealing with this for 6 years now and I feel so done that if I can't get any kind of treatment that isn't basically "give yourself anxiety until you cry 10 waterfalls a day while hearing things that make you feel like your not good enough and torture yourself over every little compulsion you have until you don't want live anymore" cause that has been kind of how my days have been going, cause right now my eyes feel sore from crying over things caused by that method.
what should I do? I feel like I need help from someone who knows how to treat this because the method that is the only one my family seems to believe is only making it worse right now. | OCD |
So I'm a bit of a writer. I had this big, long, fancy-pants high lexicon-filled post about how my family has suffered because of me - their son with Asperger's (now high-functioning ASD thank you DSM-V) and I was going to ask someone whom knew a thing or two to post it between r/uslegal (if there is one), r/ADA if there is one, r/.......fuck it. I give up. I've got Asperger's/high-functioning ASD; while I'm luckier than most the decisions my family made on my behalf growing up weren't the best.
Reddit deleted it.
So now I'm going to try and re-create it again.
Despite my ASD (any everyone I knew around me) I graduated with a Bachelor of Science in Nursing in 2016. I was a great nurse. I passed the NCLEX with flying colors. But you tell a co-worker or a friend in the medical field that you have autism (doesn't matter how functioning you are) they're not going to like you if not be scared of you.
Meanwhile my family back home is giving me help with medication, therapy, you name it - all to help me succeed.
And if you've read this far...I don't.
Now I don't know what to do. I'm smart. I can contribute to the the workforce more than just driving a forklift between some warehouse aisle and some truck (nothing against those people that do - it's just not for me). Is there anything I can give my family in the mean time? | aspergers |
This thinking pattern has affected me a lot ,
It's been two years since i think all i do is nonsense , whether i do anything i can't improve my situation . like its controlled by otter stuff not inner things.
Because of these thoughts , i think there is nothing in my hand that i can do and i end up in the first place disappointed.
Do you know what I'm trying to say?
please , if ayone has any advice regarding my situation help me out cause i've been suicidal because of these thoughts
sorry for my bad english | OCD |
There are only a handful of black men/women at my one job and you can tell they have a special bond with each-other that's pretty cool.
I feel the same way with my aspie friend at work, and I know people quietly think we're being weird and awkward when we talk to each-other but I don't care. It's awesome to not have to try to fit in for the times we talk and he can say weird stuff and avoid eye contact and I'll do the same. | aspergers |
Hi, I am unsure if this is the right sub for this, so my apologies in advance if it’s not.
I’m in my early 20s. Last year I broke my back rock climbing, or more specifically suffered an L1 burst fracture with 70% vertebrae loss, unalignment of my spine, spinal stenosis, herniated discs, and torn ligaments.
I recently had major surgery to correct the damage in my back; after the initial accident, conservative methods were used to treat the injury, they all failed.
I have extreme anxiety and fears now that I used to not have. I have dreams about my injury, except the dreams always end in my friends getting injured too, or my injury paralyzing me. I am still a part of the climbing community, and have extreme anxiety every time my friends go on climbing trips. I’m scared they’re going to have to go through what I went through, or I’m scared I’m going to lose them. I have anxiety watching other people climb. I have anxiety driving a car now, fearing I’ll accidentally crash it and reinsure myself. I’m terrified of heights, and can’t even look at pictures of heights. I start thinking about my fall, and having to go through this nightmare with my back again. On top of this, I’m extremely depressed, and have been since the accident. Depressed I can’t work. I miss my job (I nannied full time and miss the kids). Depressed I can’t go to school rn (I’m a university student too).
I miss having structure to my day, I miss adventure. I miss having exciting things to talk about. I miss meeting new people and talking to people. Fuck I miss a lot of things. I miss dressing up, I miss dating. I miss looking sexy. I miss sex. I miss being able to go out when I want to, do what I want to with my body, move it how I want. I miss feeling things, mostly I miss getting excited. All I feel is empty and scared and sad.
I miss moving my body, and participating in the community, not just being a part of it. I miss participating in it, but am also scared as hell to go back to climbing (but I want to, I wish I wasn’t scared of it, I know, it all sounds so messed up).
I’m under one of my parent’s insurance, but obviously still had thousands of dollars of medical bills. I initially paid the medical bills following my accident, but had to ask for help when it was time for surgery and I really couldn’t work anymore. It’s been embarrassing and vulnerable relying on my family, I feel like a little kid again. I’m a young adult who was thriving, gaining my independence, and having fun. I went backwards in my growth. My family has been incredibly understanding and supportive even though I did this to myself. I don’t deserve to be take care of financially or physically. I did this to myself.
I’m in therapy and I’m on antidepressants. Yet I still find myself waking up everyday scrolling the internet for a solution to my feelings. I don’t want to feel this way anymore. I don’t want to be scared anymore. I don’t want this to leave a scar in my life anymore.
Thank you for letting me rant. | ptsd |
Today I remembered some beads I was trying to look for. I was looking for this bead kit that has acrylic/plastic animals and food. I remembered the last time I saw them was at Hobby Lobby a few years ago in the kids craft aisle. I went on the Hobby Lobby app and they weren’t on there. It was this really big kit I wanted to get because I really liked the beads and now I can’t stop thinking about them since I now know they aren’t available anymore in store and online. I keep seeing that bead kit in my vision as my eyes and mind have it memorized and my head hurts and tingles from overthinking about it. I did find and buy from Walmart a similar bead kit from that brand but I still can’t stop thinking about that big specific bead kit because my mind is telling me that it’s in complete, especially since that isn’t sold anywhere online. I did see though that big bead kit sold used on EBay but I’m not gonna end up wasting my time ordering from eBay because that website really triggers me from past experiences where I was scammed from eBay sellers. | OCD |
I got diagnosed with autism about a year ago. It was recommended that I get neuropsych testing. It’s a personalized test that studies how you learn and think. Due to complicated insurance reasons, my family was able to afford the test. I took it fairly recently.
The first thing I did was along the lines of a memory test. I got shown 50 pictures, followed by being asked “which of these two pictures have you seen before” 50 times. Then I had another memory test. This time, the doctor said a list of words, after the full list was said, I was asked to say as many of the words as I could in any order.
Then came the numbers. I would get a short list of numbers, and was asked to repeat them back in reverse order, then from smallest to largest. Then letters got mixed in, which I was asked to say the letters in alphabetical order, followed by the numbers- lowest to smallest. For example, the doctor would say “three, zero, B, seven, J, two, three” and I was supposed to say back “B,J, zero, two, three, seven”
Some of the tests felt really easy, some felt really hard. They’d get harder over time. The tests went from “arrange these blocks to look like this picture” and “which three of these shapes can you combine to form this shape” to things like “list off as many words beginning with the letter S as you can” and “name as many fruits as you can in 60 seconds”. Some of the tests felt really easy, some felt really tricky.
The whole test took several hours. It was neat. I’m curious to see the results. | aspergers |
I realize I can’t feel true love. It isn’t an emotion that I experience. And it makes me super sad…I just want to feel that love that makes your knees drop, but I can’t. | aspergers |
I’m not diagnosed with OCD but I’ve gone through bad episodes and experience daily symptoms that lead me to believe I might have OCD. Lately I’ve been obsessing over my gpa and chances of getting into colleges and it’s making me extremely anxious. I can’t stop googling and looking up acceptance rates and my chances of being accepted into different schools. I feel stuck and I have no idea how to break the cycle. Has anyone else experienced this? | OCD |
I feel like the depression i feel is because of my executive dysfunction, but she put me on prozac anyway.
Not asking for medical advice, just sharing:
I was on it daily for 11 days. this is apparently a tiny dose of only 20mg and all it does is make me wake up with a tmj headache every day. I'm moving to every other day for a week, then every 3 days for 9 days, then every 4th day until gone. | ADHD |
I don't know nothing makes any point. I don't know what's happening. I'm tired of existing. | depression |
hi everyone,
i don’t really post much on reddit but i was hoping someone could help. i’m not looking for reassurance or anything, just want advice.
i was diagnosed w ocd last june after i’ve been suffering from the sexuality side of it. im a guy and i just have had continuous thoughts ever since i was young that wouldn’t stop and i would have to do certain things to bring down my anxiousness.
i tried to tell my parents in april something was wrong. it went horribly wrong. they didn’t accept that i had it and said that everyone gets these types of thoughts and stepped foot in my recovery.
in july they helped me do a blood work test and that was it.
june of 2020 was one of the last times i saw my therapist until october. as of october, i hid my medication from family as well as my therapy sessions would be done in a car, i was put on zoloft. my dosage reached 150 before i decreased cuz i felt like a zombie and lost my sexual drive completely, even my girlfriend noticed it. as a result of my parents not accepting it, i’ve had to use her car, had to use my work washroom after my manager set up a table for myself.
in april, my manager said they were opening washrooms to customers. i took a leave cuz my mental health was plummeting and two days ago my mum found the medication i hid for 6 months.
i’ve been steady on the 100 dosage, it helps out a little, but she dragged me to the pharmacist to try and get me off. i had no other say in what was to be done cuz my mum was eyeing me. so i had to say i want to step off of it. i’m currently, for the next week taking 50mg, then 50mg every other day then cutting it out or taking it once every week until it’s out.
i don’t know what to do since my parents cut my recovery. i was left w some steps but we were just starting my exposure therapy.
and also because of this ontario lockdown, literally everything is closed for myself to continue sessions. i even tried my universities library but they recently locked the study rooms.
anyone have advice? 😔 | OCD |
So tired of this. I feel like i can barely even think anymore. I can feel myself getting dumber. I have been trying to write another text to post later and it's been so exhausting. Just fucking writing something. I felt like I would never get to the end of it.
At every step with everything I do something goes wrong and I find out I should have done the opposite. Why couldn't I just have been a normal person? Why does it all have to be so hard? Why can't you just apply for euthanasia and have it over with? | depression |
Is it possible to get to a point where you can entirely stop listening to your thought? Cause my thoughts are always finding negative things to focus on and when they arent they are incredibly distracting. I am wondering if anyone has gotten to the point where they are confident enough in what they believe in that they can stop listening to the constant noise. | OCD |
I just want to hear your recommendations, dating partners, bosses, etc.
Tell me ones that have worked for you!
Sentences etc. | OCD |
So I was able to talk to a OCD therapist for about 30 minutes for free since I don’t have much money. He told me that my intrusive thoughts aren’t my thoughts and don’t have a meaning or value because they’re not something I created, they’re just thoughts my brain thinks of the scare me because it thinks it in danger. This helped me immensely take the weight off my thoughts but then I realised something, what if I have an intrusive thought, ruminate on it and try to recreate the thought to analyse it, does it become my thought then? When I realised that I got immense anxiety | OCD |
So I have a friend who's in a really bad place right now, I'm going to visit soon and spend some time with them and I'd like to bring some kind of gift basket, just a lot of little things to make their day better, but I'm at a total loss. So far I've got a few food items (premade, just reheat) and I'm thinking maybe a little plant or something? Maybe a candle? Idk everything I think of sounds dumb. What little things would brighten your day when you're really in a dark place? | depression |
So i im 22M I had covid 2 months ago and i recovered from it. today i coughed alot my OCD telling me that i might have caught covid again because i was with my friends at home we were like 8 people in the room no one of them have any symptons and i was wearing double face mask tho. my OCD telling me that i might have caught it even if i was the only one wearing mask lol. i went to doctor he said he could see a pus in my throat it might be the the thing causing me to cough he also scanned my chest and said it's perfectly fine and had cbc test and said it was also fine just little changes that might happen to anyone on his daily basis nothing serious about it . but you know OCD is just hard to live with.. i feel like i still have it after all the tests i took " he gave me medicine and said in 3 days if it dodnt help you improve he is going to give me a pcr test but said it will be 99% negative test | OCD |
What do you do for work? I need some ideas. Thank you. | ptsd |
I’ve recently been diagnosed with adhd and prescribed atomoxetine.
I’m wanting to take my first dose now, but after googling potential side effects which can include, nausea, vomiting, etc I’m super paranoid since I also have emetophobia. So just curious if you’ve experienced these side effects/wanting to see how common they might be and any other experience you’ve had with taking this medication :) | ADHD |
That's my go to response whenever anyone asks how I am. It's not the whole truth, but it's at least partly true because I constantly feel tired. It's much easier to just say that rather than start talking about my problems, because doing that just leads to more trouble. And people will generally accept "I'm tired." It's the all-purpose phrase. | depression |
Hey there! Essentially I’m asking for advice on how to discuss my OCD (specifically relationship-centred OCD) with my partner. My obsessions largely are around the false fear of having been unfaithful despite there being plenty of evidence to the contrary. All my partner knows is that I suffer from OCD and they want to understand more about what I go through, and a lot of me wishes to tell them about the nature of my obsessions and how ridiculous they are. Is there any advice for how to best talk to them about it? I know for example reassurance seeking is not the goal. | OCD |
I've just looked into the fiddle rings you can get on etsy with the lil balls because OH MY GOD ITS DRIVING ME INSANE. I'm in the very early stages of waiting for diagnosis appointment, so very new to adhd, and having the ol imposter syndrome sitting on my back all day getting piggy back rides. I keep finding things that convince me, like this. Ive been so aware of this all day long and I had no idea how often I did this before now im lOsing my mind thanks for listening
Does anyone have any other suggestions | ADHD |
Hello and good evening everyone,
I have recently been formally diagnosed with OCD a couple months ago and have been doing a lot of self readings to educate myself . I am currently working with an OCD specialist as well. I have read approximately 10 OCD workbooks listed below. My OCD specialist had recommended me the starred ones. I think that I have a now pretty good understanding on OCD, CBT (eg, ERP, ACT), meditation (eg, mindfulness), and other cognitive techniques (eg, cognitive reconstructuring).
Mindfulness Workbook for OCD\*
Overcoming Unwanted Intrusive Thoughts
Getting Over OCD
Brain Lock
Needing to Know for Sure
The Complete OCD Workbook
Freedom from Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder\*
The ACT Workbook for OCD
The OCD Workbook\*
The Imp of the Mind
My question is are there any other OCD books you may recommend? Or is this my OCD wanting certainty in knowing I've read everything I could?
Please let me know if this is reassurance seeking as well.
Thank you so much for your support,
Anthony | OCD |
Yesterday my psychiatrist office called and said they have been incorrectly charging me $25 copay when I’m actually suppose to pay $60 so now I owe them over $150. But that was with insurance and now that my insurance has deemed the pandemic officially over, the insurance company has completely dropped the coverage of telehealth. Self-pay of telehealth is $80.
I was (mistakenly) paying $75 a month for a total of:
2 therapy visits
1 psychiatric visit
Now I will have to pay $240 if I want to keep that up via telehealth or pay $180 a month for in person which is a 40 minute drive each way. It took a long time to find both a therapist and psychiatrist who listen to me + agree on the medication that works best so trying to finding people closer isn’t an option. I work 40-50 hours a week and am in school part time. I cannot sacrifice that additional time. On top of that, I typically clock out around rush hour and live in a big city so there is no way I can guarantee I’ll make it to in-person appointments or even by the time they close. I can now only afford one appointment a month so it will have to be my psychiatrist to maintain my medication as I am also on a mood stabilizer for bipolar disorder. I woke up about 30 minutes ago having a full blown anxiety attack. Gasping for air, shaking and crying. I am sorry for the length of my post. If no one makes it to the bottom of this post, that’s okay. Focusing on this post has given me a bit of relief. Thank you and best wishes to you all. | ADHD |
I've been struggling with liking food and eating my whole life, and i feel like its only getting worse. the amount of food i enjoy is like 1% of just normal food and it's extremely frustrating.
one week ill be obsessed with a food, say, sandwiches, and then all of a sudden its like a flip switches and the thought of eating it is impossible.
its gotten to the point where im extremely hungry and there *is* plenty of viable options in the home, but no matter how hungry i am if nothing sounds good (and it usually doesnt) i just cant force myself to eat it.
it makes me really upset because i crave being full, i dont want to be hungry, i just want to eat food, enjoy it, and just be normal. it sucks when youre so hungry and everything you look at just looks gross. i dont know how to overcome this, how to fix this issue.
even if i try to fill the house with groceries i know that i like, eventually ill eat all the stuff i like, then im left with expired food or food i thought i liked but apparently now i dont. ugh | ADHD |
I just keep telling myself and others that I'm fine because people have gone through worse than what I'm going through so I just deny my depression that I've been clinically diagnosed with. But I'm not fine and I wish I could admit that in real life to the people around me so I could actually talk to someone about it but I just fucking can't and I don't know why. I've tried therapy before but I don't think that therapy helps as much as talking to someone that actually cares about you and not your wallet. But I just don't know how. They obviously know that I'm not ok because they constantly ask and tell me that I look off, but I just keep lying to myself and them, which obviously is unhealthy and not improving my situation | depression |
Hi! So I’ve been seeing my current psychiatrist for about 6 months now and I’m just not thrilled with him. He’s super hard to get ahold of (literally doesn’t have a phone you can call) and I feel like he doesn’t really listen to me. A little back story I’ve been diagnosed and on and off meds since I was 12. I’m 26 now. I have 2 under 2 and wasn’t medicated during pregnancy but I was after and my dose was 40mg XR with a 10mg IR booster when I needed it. I felt good on it but after my youngest was born I wasn’t really comfortable going back to that dose so we started lower and he put me on IR even though I don’t do well with that. Finally after months he put me on 40 mg XR and it’s fine but not great. And when I ask him options or if we should lower it or increase it he just blows me off. He also seems to think my PPA and PPD will just “level out” and forgets to send in my Zoloft. It’s just frustrating. I’m supposed to make an appointment this month but I kind of want to switch. Do I have to tell him I want to leave? Do I just switch? I don’t want to be rude but I pay him a pretty penny every 3 months and it seems pointless. | ADHD |
Fuck you OCD for taking my life from me, fuck you for robbing me of my happiness, I hope you burn in the deepest pits of hell you annoying ass mental illness, I cant play video games anymore, I cant listen to music, I cant watch movies, I cant do anything I enjoy anymore because of your bitch ass! | OCD |
My girlfriend, with whom I live, has been suffering from depression for a year. Since the diagnosis, she has been constantly sick. I take as much work from her as I can to relieve her. She goes to therapy once a week. In addition, she has been prescribed "homework" and daily rest periods. Unfortunately, she has hardly done these tasks so far.
I have the feeling that I should be stricter with her, because she is slowly getting used to the fact that I run the household alone and take care of her every day. But when I tell her that her exams are coming up soon or ask her if she would like to do sports with me, she always says that she has no strength for it today or is sick. I don't want to put her under more pressure, but it can't go on like this.
How would you deal with it? | depression |
I have experienced this since I was 12, and the only way for me to get past it is for me to do it subconsciously.
I click my neck all the time. And my wrists. If I don't touch something "right", I have to do it again and again and again. Usually when I touch something "wrong" its a concave object and I'm not touching the centre of it. Things like the bottom of a water bottle, the middle of a bowl etc.
Most of the time, inanimate objects are fine unless I am thinking about it (like right now!! on my keyboard!!) so I get into phases of a week or two where it's all I do. Most of the time it's not like that, but the one thing that never fails to set me off is when people put their hands together and the centres of the palm don't touch. That freaks me the fuck out and obviously since I can't go and touch other people's hands, I just have to touch my own. This is my only coping mechanism, so when anything sets me off I have to scratch the centre of my hand.
It's not as bad right now as it has been (I used to have blisters on my palms) but they are always a bit red/raw.
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I remember trying to break myself out of the cycle of clicking my neck (because when I do it once, I have to do it again and again til its right). When I'm really really bad, I struggle to walk anywhere because I am stopping every 10m to click my ankles.
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I have it mostly under control right now, but I'm just sick of this! It's been well over half my life and I just don't know how to break the spell I guess. "Exposure therapy" sounds fucking terrifying because I've tried to do that myself and I just end up crying.
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So basically, if anyone has any tips specifically for "Just Right" OCD or a tactile/touching OCD that would be great | OCD |
So i used to smoke a good deal of weed, and like 4 years ago did a single dose of LSA (not lsa) and a very small amount. And now im in this whole spiral convinced I have HPPD cus im experiencing static in my vision, a disconnected feeling from the world, a sense that im like behind glass and things are wavy, colors seem too gray or too bright, things seem too big or too small. Classic dpdr symptoms, which Ik can come with OCD by itself. But ive somehow got stuck on the obsession that I have HPPD or some serious thing thatll never go away and its making me panic and idek | OCD |
I have never been in a car accident, until tonight. I am an absolute wreck, no pun intended. Busted lip, messed up chest, sore and scared af. Car is 200% totaled.
I feel like a complete failure and my therapist had to call me and talk me down. All parties are okay and the insurance shit is all taken care of... but me being alone with my thoughts right now is not safe.
Any encouragement or words of wisdom would be so appreciated. I already have severe PTSD and BPD and this is pushing me over the edge. | ptsd |
I took a few of the fun quizzes I found, the RAADS-R, AQ, etc, and each of them point to some likelihood of neurodivergance. That, in itself, is fine: it makes sense for my personal history and I'm pretty comfortable where I'm at socially and economically so I'm guessing that the actual impact on my modern life is pretty low.
Having said that, did you notice an improvement when you got your diagnosis? Did you find that the tools and advice traditionally given to Aspies and others made you feel better or have better relationships? I'm most curious about adult diagnoses, since my expectation is that these tools are most helpful when you're more socially and economically reliant on others, ie childhood. I intend to start talk therapy generally, and I kind of want to gauge how urgently I should be approaching getting a diagnosis, or not, since my basis for thinking I'm neurodivergent is no better than a horoscope for all of the vetting and research I did.
Thanks everyone! | aspergers |
I’ve been noticing that my Vyvanse on its own has weakened a little over the past couple months (been in this dose for about 4 years now). Went to my doc and she prescribed a 10mg Addy booster. Anyone on this regiment?
I thought she’d just up my Vyvanse to a 70mg dose, but ended up with this instead. Never heard of this combo before so I figured this would be the place to ask about it. | ADHD |
I (17f) was in a really bad car accident, a week before easter, and everytime i am in a car when my mother or father is driving i get really anxious, and the other day i thought we were going to get in a wreck (thats a long story but we was safe the whole time) but when it was happeneing i got the flashbacks from the accident and afterwords i was hyperventilating and sobbing, i felt like i was dying almost. i have PTSD from other events but those arent triggered to often, but how do i cope with being in a car if i have to be able to drive around places. its going to be very frequent that i get these attacks | ptsd |
Hello all. I am undiagnosed. 53 years old. I'm successful and basically happy.
It has been a struggle over the years to learn to act normal and get by undetected. But, by the time I was 40 or so, no one could tell I had this condition....I was a little eccentric or what have you, but that's about it.
Nowadays, no one can tell at all, unless you are in a relationship with me, in which case, you def start to catch on and you will struggle with my lack of emotional connection.
But, all that aside, I have a question for the group.
If I am looking at a face, which btw is very difficult for me because of the "work" it takes to dead lift the facial translation...if I am looking at a face, I can not think...like almost not at all.
I can't formulate a thoughtful response to someone when I have to look them straight in the face.
Considering that almost all of my thinking is visual (and likely uses a fair amount of the visual cortex), I have a hunch that when I am looking at a face, that resource (the visual cortex) is basically locked up...in use. Thus, I can't form a thought, because my thinking is all visual.
I think that is what has created a lot of my awkwardness over the years. I simply have to look away from someone when I am talking to them. Else, nothing comes out.
Does anyone else experience this ? | aspergers |
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