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Over the past few months, I haven't really been working and been staying home. The reason why I'm not working physically is because I'm about to launch a new brick and mortar for my business and it's currently under construction. My husband and I recently found out we are pregnant with our first baby and I'm excited but not enough to overcome the negative thoughts and depression.
Because of this waiting period, I've had plenty of free time most of which is spent on routine. I workout in the morning, eat breakfast, shower, work on my business and wake up my husband. He gets to sleep in and is much less productive than I am. The baby growing in me is also occupying my mind.
I've been feeling depressed as if my life is unfulfilling. I'm honestly not doing much and can't help but think if other people were in my situation they'd take advantage of all this free time to get into MORE passive streams of incomes. I spend a lot of time trying to grow my cat's Instagram account and watching tiktok videos to get inspiration but I end up feeding myself negative thoughts like "i'm not good enough, i'm not smart enough" and I KNOW that's not healthy. I know I can choose my thoughts but it's so hard when i'm stuck spiraling down the deep dark hole of feeling like i'm nothing.
Today was hard. I broke down twice and to be honest, I'm so scared for my future. My business is my only source of income and I'm scared it wont be enough. Im constantly in fear of what's going to happen in the future, how i'm gonna take care of the kid, and so much more...... I just feel like giving up on everything.. I have no career dreams. All I want is to grow my family and create memories with my kid and husband. Is that stupid? | depression |
Have your OCD ever made you doubt if you did something or not. So something happened with me today
I baught a lock today and while I held the box in my hand and walked towards my home. Upon reaching home I had this thought that did the keys drop on the street in front of my house? Did I pick it up and keep it in the box again? Did it really fell on the ground?
When I try to imagine if I picked it up from the ground or not , I feel as if it might have happened. Like It might have happened and I forgot maybe?
Any advice regarding this issue? | OCD |
I've noticed that since I've known I've had PTSD my anger has been so bad. Like I'll be fine one minute and then I can be so full of rage and hatred. I hate that I do but I don't know how to fix that. It also doesn't help that I'm depressed most of the time and my anxiety gets real bad at times. I'm also obese which makes me more mad because I don't know how to even start to lose weight. I'm sorry for the rant but if anyone has any tips that would help me calm down my anger I would really appreciate it | ptsd |
Hello!
Most of my days, I'm able to function normal, I'm able to mask, I don't mess up... But others (like today) I'm just a mess, I'm barely verbal, my surroundings become completely invisible, I'm not able to think straight, I need to constantly fidget.
How do you deal with those days? How do you cope when you can't stay put?
Thank you in advance | aspergers |
Hey folks,
Had a disappointing visit with my GP.
He had me fill out a self-reporting form, thinks I am consistent with ADHD and prescribed meds without a diagnosis.
Trouble is, I am getting zero support here - just a prescription.
Additionally I am broke.
Is there no way to get therapy, a diagnosis and or meds without throwing lot of money at the issue here? I thought we had healthcare.
Anyways, advice and guidance on how to get assessed and into the system without incurring expenditure would be great. Thank you. | ADHD |
Think about it, if you were in school and you were doing a problem and you know the answer is 5, but you keep getting 6, you would keep doing it over and over until you got it right.
Explain if you think real life is different from this. | OCD |
I’m currently on the waiting list for my diagnosis (have been for 3 years now). So I’m deciding to go private.
But in the meantime I’m overthinking my career path. I’ve had it with being a people pleaser in the hospitality sector, jumping from job to job because the management don’t bother to understand my ADHD.
So I’ve recently started thinking about becoming a teacher & doing a degree course to begin my journey. The issue is I’m fighting with myself over what to do.
I love the idea of being a teacher & even with my ADHD giving me tonnes of weird job ideas, becoming a teacher is something I’ve always come back to.
If there are any ADHD school teachers out there can you tell me how it is being a teacher? Or if there’s anyone out there with ADHD career advice please comment below.
I don’t 100% know why I’m posting this, but I’m in that place where my brain has become white noise & I can’t make sense of anything. I don’t want my forever career to be in retail! ((No disrespect to those that do, that’s your choice)) | ADHD |
Once you have ptsd and go through more traumatic things do those also get included in ur ptsd? I feel as if it happens right away. Something happened in my room tonight and I never wanna look at it again. | ptsd |
I'm taking 72mg of Concerta daily, and I've noticed twice when I have strong coffee or a lot of coffee, I get really anxious. I'm usually anxious internally but I get outwardly anxious and become lightheaded. But it's not every time I have coffee, and it could be a coincidence, so I'm curious if anyone else has this experience? I suppose it makes sense, but I don't want to stop drinking coffee if I don't have to, especially since Concerta doesn't have any typical stimulant effect (alertness, not feeling sleepy, etc) on me and coffee does/I don't have any stimulant replacement for coffee. | ADHD |
You have clicked this title because you were upset by it. I was too when the words came out of my mother’s mouth.
Today I told my mother I’m autistic. Granted I kinda dropped it near the end of our conversation but I couldn’t wait anymore. I was diagnosed in January and haven’t told her because I didn’t think it’d go all that well. Today I was basically validated to think so.
Below is the gist of our exchange.
“So in Jan I was diagnosed autistic.”
“What do you mean?”
“I’m autistic.”
“What do you mean you’re autistic?”
“I mean I’m autistic...I’m not sure how else to say it...”
“Yeah but like are you full-blown autistic or are you ‘on the spectrum’?”
“It’s all autistic...autistic is autistic...”
“Well there’s ‘on the spectrum’ and there’s full blown autistic. I know...my friends have ki-“
“Yeah but I am autistic! I know! It doesn’t matter who you know. I’m autistic and I’m telling you! There is no difference, autistic is autistic!”
She got quiet quick and just listened for the rest of our short conversation (I had friends coining over and they were at the door).
Afterward she texted me saying how she was glad I felt comfortable enough to tell her and that she appreciates me.
I’m guessing it was just the initial shock of hearing your 31 year old son tell you something you missed his entire life. Which I can’t imagine is easy. There’s a lot of work to do and a lot of educating to be done but I hope it turns out well. | aspergers |
Planning to immigrate in any EU country, kinda ambitious and unrealizable idea, but i dont have any other choice. In my country there is no ADHD diagnosis/treatment available and I am suffering
There are a lot of other reasons for me to leave this place, but adhd is one of the main ones because i'm on the verge of being kicked out of the university due to my inability to focus
**So, yes, what are the pros and cons of adhd treatment in other countries? Can people from EU share their experiences?**
Thanks for answers) | ADHD |
I wish I remembered the user who said this, but the anxiety that hits hard for no reason the next morning is an “anxiety hangover”. This is so accurate on so many levels. Something serious or anxiety inducing happens right before bed or for hours before and then the next morning, you don’t have the same anxiety, but it’s there. It’s watching you. It’s so exhausting. | OCD |
I’m 19f in college and for example I was going in a bus today to the grocery store. While I was in there I met a girl who coincidentally had the same major as me, came from the same city, was the same age as me, and other things. We talked a lot and exchanged numbers. I feel bad because the likelihood that we’re gonna stay in touch is really low. I don’t know what it is about texting people but I really suck at it. It’s sad because there are so many potentially good friends I could have but I’m not close to anyone because I never text them. For some reason it feels really boring to me. Part of me wants stay inside all on my own watching Netflix. I’m unhappy doing that but it’s much more comfortable. I don’t have enough energy to do all the things I want to do. | ADHD |
I've been having these recurring dreams for years where I'm treading water in the ocean, fighting the current. Honestly, I wasn't sure why until I had a flashback this morning of my first traumatic experience. When I was four, I got swept away by a riptide and nearly drowned. What's weird, though, is that I did not develop a fear for water or the ocean after my experience. Most of the time it just feels like it never happened. Then I go to sleep and I'm swept right back up into the tide.
This is definitely a lesser way that my life is affected by trauma, but I thought it was interesting. | ptsd |
Like, you want to get out of bed but it feels like something is keeping you bound to it. | depression |
The being is usually a random fictional character who happens to be powerful, I'm fully aware this shit is fictional but I can't help but constantly think about what would happen in those situations. How would I cope, how would I deal, could they be solved or avoided, etc. And I'm sick of it, but don't know what to do anymore. It's like my subconscious simply can't accept that fictional problems are not equal to real ones. | OCD |
Does anyone experience an occasion when because of doing ocd compulsions, some important real life issue is negatively affected as a result? For example, because of excessive checking, missing a job interview, etc. | OCD |
Hi everyone,
I'll save the details of my story for another post, but I went through 2.5 years of what fits the description of narcissistic abuse. I was unable to go out and talk to friends, use the internet, social media, go out on my own, lock the bathroom door, was under cameras and a lock for a few months in my own house... Privacy violation, gaslighting, emotional blackmail, financial control, guilt-tripping, exploitation, withholding, neglect, sabotage in every part of my life, isolation.
I left the situation and have been coping with the repercussions on my mental health for the past 8 months. It's gotten a lot better, and my self-esteem is growing, I don't get cold sweats when I'm near computers anymore, I don't expect others to treat me that way anymore. I'm working a steady job, in a loving and committed relationship, and have healthy friendships.
But I still struggle with making decisions, restlessness, overcommitting, and emotional numbing. And with relaxing, letting down my guard, even when I'm alone with myself. I'm writing this post because I'm looking for success stories and suggestions on how to heal specifically anhedonia.
I've been seeing a therapist, and he tells me that I'm logical. Which I am. Sometimes though, I'll tell him a situation, or a thought, and he'll identify my feelings, and it'll really hit me, like I didn't realize before that this is what I was feeling. For example, I had a dream a couple nights ago in which my little brother was there, but his face was disfigured, and he and my little sister weren't responsive to me. It was like I was a stranger, or a ghost. I woke up, and I told my bf about it, but I didn't cry, I wasn't scared, I didn't feel anything. I just recognized that this is a weird and freaky dream to have, and went on with my day. I told me therapist about it, and he said something like "it sounds like you don't want your family to forget you". And it really hit home. I'm scared of my siblings rejecting me once I'm finally able to talk to them again (controlling dad + corona has created a situation in which I haven't been able to see them. I'm 20, they're 7 and 14).
But even as I'm writing this, I don't feel that emotion. I'm numb. And I'm numb when it comes to enjoyment, too. I remember experiencing the feeling of happiness before, of excitement, but I never feel these emotions anymore. I feel peaceful sometimes. And smoking gives me a positive head rush, so I think it's the dopamine.
Anyway... I'm looking for help with emotional numbness. I'd love to hear suggestions. Sorry for the long post! | ptsd |
So these two articles are somethings I written in a public forums and I completely understand if you hate me for what I did and I would appreciate if you could help me in anyway
so last year when I was 17 or 18 i guess I accedently gone tona child porn website. After seeing it for sometime and realizing it is illegal and bad thing I came suddenly out it. After some time I remember I masturbated to what I saw. I don't know why I did that. Maybe because of my hypersexuality or maybe because of when I was a kid I always search for girls my age. So maybe it was curiosity. I never remember enjoying what i saw. From that day I got into immense guilt and depression. That is when I remembered a childhood experimentation I did when I was a kid myself. I developed real Event OCD. It lasted for two months. After some time I somehow got recovered from it. After that I was at church. There was a girl who was around 13 standing in the church. She was wearing a tight pants. I suddenly looked at her bottom and that is when I asked myself the question did I looked the girl at the same way I look at a adult? Am I attracted to her? I suddenly remembered some events similar to this happened in the past but I never felt sexuak arousal for kids and I never fantasized sexually about a kid in my life. I masturbated to adult porn all my life.but I am really worried. If I am capable of being aroused of a child porn, does that mean I am capable of harming a child is what the thought that is hearing in my head. When ever I see a kid I just ask myself weather am I attracted to her. I am suffering from immense anxiety and guilt. I had dreams like starting my own family one day and having kids . Now I feel like I should just keep it as a dream.when I see a petite women who is my age I suddenly feel like if I am attracted to her that means I am attracted to a kid because they both are having exactly the same body and thoughts like this makes me feel immense guilt m.i forgot how much happy my life was before I get this thoughs. I am not looking for sympathy. I know a monster like me do not deserve any sympathy. If some one who is suffered from child Abuse sees this, I am sorry. I know I am not deserve to be forgiven for what I did. But I promise it was out of accident and curiosity. I feel like only dying would make this pain go. I no longer feel like me.i am not rich enough to afford a theraphy and I would appreciate if anyone reading this could give me any advice
I am a 19 yo guy. Once when I was 18/17 i watched child porn accedently. But I suddenly closed it because I know it is wrong. After some time I remember masturbating to that. I don't know why o dod that maybe because of my hypersexuality or Curiosity. I never fantasized children in any wrong way in my life. That is the only incident that made me wonder weather I am phedophile or not. These thoughts are just killing me everyday. I don't know how many hours I cried today. I don't know what to do. I have a very love parents and my father don't havelot of time left on this planet as he is very old. I want to spend some time with him and I also want to study Well and give my parents a better future. This ocd is not letting me to do anything. I don't know how many times I thought about commiting suicide. The thing that Stops me from commiting Suicide are my parents. When I get a suicide thought, I just imagine how does the happy face of my parents Change when they came to know their only son which it took them 12 years after their treatment to born as my mom was suffering from some health condition , took his life and they cannot see me ever again. I know I am a monster who does not sympathy. I am more worried about my parents than me because I think for such an amazing parents, they deserve an good son not a pedophile like me. I am not looking for sympathy. A monster like me don't deserve anything like that. I constantly have the thoughts like I will commit a Sexual crime in future and go to jail.i feel like I failed my parents. | OCD |
Lately I cry a lot. (pure) OCD is a really debilitating disease :( | OCD |
Im a fellow OCD sufferer, haven’t had an extremely bad episode in about 2 years.
This one came out of nowhere, the main theme is “how the f*** do i exist, what the hell am I?”, I’m sure people get these thoughts from time to time, but these one’s are overwhelming to the point that I want to disappear. The other one is being able to see, and that time keeps on moving and everything’s a memory.
This happened to me when I was about 15 for ~8 months (Now 26), but the thing is usually my episodes never come back twice. I guess that’s the only glimmer of hope moving forward.
Does anybody have any similar thoughts, advice about this? It’d be greatly appreciated, thanks! | OCD |
I've been thinking about starting up a [Meetup.com](https://Meetup.com) support group for high functioning autistics. I was wondering if anyone out there has experience with starting, running, or participating in a support group.
I'm specifically interested in how such groups are organized and what activities/events they might do.
I've already reached out to a local community college over the possibility of using their facilities to host a monthly meeting.
I would be grateful for any pointers.
Since I am by nature a reclusive introvert, I'm a little worried about taking point on this project because I wouldn't want to be deluged with phone calls or emails; assuming of course that there was any local interest.
I have asked to join a session of another meetup group meeting in a distant city. They allow meets via zoom, so in joining this group, I could observe how the group is organized and how people interact. | aspergers |
After months of trying to get a diagnosis and trying to meet with a professional I have finally secured an appointment. I had a chat with my therapist yesterday she gave me some questions to ask reminded me that they are medical practitioner so they may be a little cold. I have adjusted my expectations for the visit. I don’t expect a diagnosis today I also don’t expect to be given medication. My therapist did mention that I may actually get a diagnosis and I may actually get medication. That was a bit concerning. I know that I’ll have to advocate for myself. Are there any things that I should know? Questions I should ask? Things to keep in mind? | ADHD |
TW: gyno exams, depression, SI, stalking
I've got a lot of sexual trauma, a lot of developmental trauma, just a lot of trauma. And I also had a routine gyno appointment today. As long as the nurse/doctor is a woman I usually don't get *too* anxious about this kind of thing.
But then there was the depression screening... that threw a wrench in the works.
I have worked with more mental healthcare clinicians than I can count. I have done several intensive treatment programs. I have regular psychiatric appointments. I have weekly therapy appointments. I know it's a required part of the exam, but I do *not* want to have to disclose how much I hate myself and my life right before a stranger inserts things into my genitals and touches my breasts, especially when I already receive very consistent mental healthcare.
"How many days out of the past two weeks have you felt sad, empty, or hopeless?" *Fourteen.*
"Do you feel worthless or think poorly of yourself." *Yes.*
"How difficult do these experiences make it for you to complete schoolwork, attend to daily tasks, and get along with others?" *Quite.*
"Do you ever think that you were better off dead?" \*lies\*
I especially didn't need for her to scoot her little rolly chair all the way to the examination table, look at me with soft eyes, and ask "*Why* do you feel this way about yourself?" I know she was only trying to be kind and sympathetic, but if I had even *attempted* to answer that question, I would no doubt have walked (or sprinted) out of the clinic having received none of the health services I came for.
"*Why?"* ?!?!?!
Even if I spent the next 6 hours rattling off my various traumas and diagnoses, what did she expect to be able to do about it that my psychiatric team hasn't figured out yet? It gets better--she proceeded to tell me she just can't understand why I have such a negative self image, because I'm pretty and smart. As if pretty, smart women can't suffer from mental illness.
Maybe I should have told her that I have trauma around being open about my emotional experience. Maybe I should have told her that my stalker loved to gush about how pretty I was. Maybe I should have told her that she was only making things worse.
Instead all I did was politely divert her stream of questions and inform her that my therapist has me covered.
The more I think about it, the more annoyed I am at her display of ignorance. Gentle, well-intentioned ignorance, but unhelpful all the same. Please just perform my pap and let me get dressed.
(wow this vent was not very mini I apologize for the clickbait) | ptsd |
I see a lot of posts around social media about representation in media. Mary & Max (2009) was a movie I watched a few years ago that left a big impact on me in terms of asperger portrayal. Especially since it was the first piece of media that helped me grow more comfortable with my own personal charavteristics. I was curious on if anybody had there own thoughts on how aspergers was portrayed within that movie, or just thoughts on the movie in general? | aspergers |
A few years ago, I was called a narcissist and that has stuck with me. I usually try to be a very selfless and caring person, never trying to overstep. But since then, I have begun to actually feel narcissistic. My brain keeps telling me I am. I keep going to my friends for reassurance and 9/10 will say I’m not narcissistic at all but that 1 person who even says I’m a little narcissistic will make me believe I’m the most self absorbed person to exist. | OCD |
First of all I love learning, I love to spend hours gathering information from books, podcasts and documentaries.
But I really, really hate the education system.
Most of the biggest bullies in my life were teachers and the most of the ableism that I have faced in my life came from the education system, because of which I have a deep distrust of the system at large.
Back in 2007, when I joined High School I was placed in the bottom half of my class due to the school believing that Autism/Aspergers was learning disability and not a social disability and despite me coming on top in almost all my subjects and it's tests and after requesting being moved to the higher classes they still refused because they didn't believe my autism made me intelligent.
I also went through alot of bullying from the teachers, from them mocking my speech impediment to some intentionally causing me to have meltdowns.
I left in 2012 with depression, anxiety and a deep hatred and distrust of the education system, even my parents were disgusted with the way that school treated me and according to a lawyer friend of their I could have had a strong case against the school for discrimination. But still with a love of learning that continues to this day (my special interest at the moment is Joseph Campbell and his Hero With A Thousand Faces)
The in 2019 I decided to give the education system another chance and enrolled in University studying film, Being Autistic in Uni is slightly easier than being autistic but there's still alot of problems.
One of my lecturers is bullying another autistic person in my class, its giving me flashbacks to my time in high school and my uni is working with Autism Speaks on "Autism Awareness Week" \*eye roll\*
To this day if anyone tells me that they're teachers or studying to become a teacher, I start to distrust and dislike them.
Again it seems that being Autistic means I have to work twice as hard for things that come three times as easy for a neurotypical, but thats the world we live in. | aspergers |
Its all because my fiancé died on me almost 4 months ago. All that was left was his bodily fluids spilled all over the floor when I went to go clear his apartment out with his friends and siblings. I screamed in the hallway the second and last time I was there “HOW HARD IS IT TO CLEAN UP THIS DAMN MESS? WHAT KIND OF LANDLORD DOESNT CALL FOR HAZMAT CLEAN UP?!???”
I was his first responder, I had to call the cops because he wouldn’t answer his door. He was only 34. I know, I know, I need to find a PTSD therapist. I’m only 32 this is bullshit. His family will get the autopsy results soon, but I dont wanna know anymroe. I have his cat, shes 11. | ptsd |
I don't know if it's normal. You know that things that had happend to you were bad, but you kind of missing it(?) Idk, maybe i'm crazy | ptsd |
Pretending is something I've always been pretty good at.. always putting up a front for everyone because that's what society wants. But I feel so bad.. I lie to my girlfriend all the time about what's going on in my head and how I feel. I couldn't ever tell her that I've felt like killing myself a few times or let her know truly how much I despise myself.. but she's the only good thing that I have in my life and I don't want to ruin what we have by making it into some giant depression therapy case. She's got a lot going on too and I just feel like she doesn't need the extra weight on her shoulders. | depression |
I currently work in the military, when i got this job i didnt have ptsd but a little over 6 months ago i was dianosed (been in the army for ~3 years) . What happened had nothing to do with my job, but now im struggling..
its become more and more apparent that i cant handle stress the same way anymore, and its tearing me down and wearing me out alot. And being a soldier i dont want to show myself "weak" and i cant really tell my boss im seriously struggling. He has little to no understanding and mostly think of me as being "weak".
Ive been seriously considering quitting my job, partly because the stress and pressure is too much, and also because my boss isnt exactly making it any easier for me. It makes me really sad though because i love this job. Its the first job i ever had that made me happy, i dont want to quit. But i feel i need to.
So, you who have been in the military and had to quit, how was that journey? And how did you cope? Does anyone have any advice? | ptsd |
I'm trying to hang in there but one of the thing that I felt happening way too frequently is that I lost ability to comprehensively communicate effectively, especially verbally. Anyone else experiencing this, any tips to regain that function?
I had a chat with professional a free days ago, she suggested I could go back into the medication (which I prefer not to) or I could go to a special school that retain you too speak. I'm a bit torn but I don't really want to get into meds again. Quitting meds was one of the worst experience I have had and thinking about taking them again is taking the life out of me.
I think one of the clear symptoms for me is memory loss, I forget things a lot and it seems to creep up into my vocabulary as well. However, it's not just words that escape me if I had to speak for a bit day in a meeting or interview then I'm starting to crack and it affected me. I couldn't emphasize on what I want or end my message with impact at all. Too often I look back and felt that I drag on way too much and with a lot of ummm err malfunctions in between.
Any tips? | depression |
It just now clicked with me that I might have ocd. I assumed I was losing my mind and I do know I have grave anxiety. But just now realized my very intrusive paranoid thoughts might be ocd. But I want to check to see if others have experienced similar issues.
For example I sat on the bus the other day. One man in front of me got of the us and two men got on and took the first mans seat. For whatever reason I started panicking that the first man left a bag and the two new men picked it up and we’re going to detonate it. As there was a bomb in the bad. I started panicking but when I heard a metallic kind of clicking sound I went in to a full blown panic. As in my heart went from 0-100 in a second and I was physically preparing to die from a bomb blast.
Another event example would be that I’ve had pain in my belly for the past two days and loose stool. So I’m sure that my landlady is poising me.
Or today when I walked down the street I saw two juice boxes on the side wall. Just standing up. My son wanted to kick them but I panicked and told hom no because I thought they were bombs. Again my heart went from 0-100 and I could feel it beating in my chest. I’m sweating, shaking.
Now I know there is obviously something wrong with me but I don’t know what. Is what I’m experiencing a panic attack due to anxiety and paranoia due to ocd? I’ve had anxiety attacks but they are triggered by me crying. Is there a difference between a panic attack and an anxiety attack? Is that what I’m experiencing? Or am I really cray-cray?
I have always been a very anxious and paranoid individual. Please help. | OCD |
I'm about to try Zoloft because I believe my current brain fog and working memory problems is unrelated to my ADHD. My Adderall still benefits me my increasing my motivation to finish things one thing at a thing. Anyways and my biggest worry is that this Zoloft medication might decrease my sex drive since erectile dysfunction is listed as a common side effect. | ADHD |
Me: well, this past week was so tough. I had to deal with you and my finals at the same time.
OCD: okay, I have to tell you something
Me: what?
OCD: I'm very sure you didn't wash your hands for 20 seconds after using the restroom three days ago, I believe it was far less than that.
Me: that can't be right; I always wash my hands for 20 seconds
OCD: except this time you did not, and guess what you touched your billow, blankets, and phone, and your hands brushed against your forearm.
Me (starting to panic): How do I fix this?
OCD: Shower for 2 hours, change covers, sanitize phone+ I'm sorry this is what you'll be thinking about for the next four days, but it's a good way to learn. So that you don't make the same mistake again, have fun!
P.S. it took me 4 hours to do all of that
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random question: Do soap containers get contaminated? I got back from college a while ago, and I did wash my hands since i cannot use hand sanitizer because my hands are full of cuts, and now i think that i contaminated the soap container's pump after i touched it with my contaminated hands, now i am thinking of changing it, should i change it? (my logic is impaired) | OCD |
We cried. A lot. And it was good. I’m glad he knows. | ptsd |
I recently was put on 20ir twice a day by my psychiatrist. I noticed after a few days that it wasn’t working like other lower doses had in the past. I get stuff done but I don’t feel the urge or need to work. I don’t feel very motivated.
Is this because the euphoric feeling has gone away and I should just get used to it? I’m only a few months in to being prescribed so I’m not sure how long that feeling of ultimate focus lasts. I also sometimes wonder if I should take more than one pill to help it but I feel guilty and don’t know if that’s going to make it worst. | ADHD |
I lost my new beanie in the train maybe and I am very frustrated. Two weeks ago i lost my wallet in the bus on my way back home.
I liked it (beanie) a lot I am very sad.It had a warm illustration on it. I don't wana tell my relatives because I already know their response what will gonna be. Hope the feeling will go away. | ADHD |
Hi all,
Title sums it up but for context I started Elvanse (referred to as Vyvanse a lot here but mines a different brand same chemical) about a week ago and I was given 28 doses (at 30mg) which I intend to take all of. However, this is my first medication (diagnosed at 20 lol) and the side effects are worse than I expected. For example, I have been getting little to no sleep basically every night I've been taking them, no matter how early in the morning I get up to take them. I also have been sweating a lot and I was already pretty sweaty anyways so it's quite off-putting. It has been helping with my concentration however and so I just wanted to ask others, how do you think you would be able to tell if it wasn't worth it.? The fact I'm on the fence is a little disconcerting to me as I'm used to hearing people be really surprised and happy when they get on ADHD medication specifically. In put from your own experience is great even though I know it won't necessarily relate to me specifically because I'm just wondering what others thought about. Thanks!
Edit: Thanks for all the advice everyone! I really appreciate it. I am definitely going to talk to my doctor about it it’s just that I am having to see him privately (in the UK and didn’t want to have to wait 2 years on a waiting list because I’ll have left uni by then) and so I am trying to keep appointments to a minimum as they are quite expensive. And as a note to everyone recommending a lower dose I am on the minimum dose currently (technically they do have 20mg versions but those are distinctly used in children). | ADHD |
Hey everyone, I wanted to share my story of how I had/have intrusive thoughts and how I am on the path of living a happy life. It’s a bit hard to be super open about my experience, but I was in the same boat as a lot of you a year or two ago, browsing the Internet trying to find a solution. I am going to talk about what worked for me specifically, and the keyword is me, I am not a doctor and am just telling my story in hopes that someone might find it helpful.
In 2019 the thoughts started, which I believed to have been caused by substance abuse (smoked a lot of weed) and by uncertainty in my life regarding my career. All of a sudden I would be sitting around a group of people, and I would get an intrusive thought. Trigger warning for an example of the thoughts:
“What if I took this steak knife I’m eating dinner with and killed the person next to me”.
Having that thought, I started the fighting inside my head. I would be ashamed, guilty, and absolutely petrified with fear. “How could I think a thought like that?” “I must be a monster” “what if I am actually evil” “what if I ruin someone else’s life or my own with my actions”. Scary stuff to think about. It’s also even harder because you feel like you can’t tell anyone, because you think they will view you as that monster that your mind has created.
That’s when the panic attacks started. I would suddenly disassociate with reality. I thought that I was going to die, that reality was crumbling away from me, and that I would never control these thoughts. I would be paralyzed with fear, panic that I could no longer live a normal life, that I would need to be committed to a ward.
It was to the point where I had gone to the ER thinking that I was having a heart attack or stroke, but just having it be a massive panic attack. I would deal with these multiple times a day at the worst of it. I was afraid to go to my bed and try and sleep because the thoughts would get worse in the darkness. I started to think that this was my new permanent state and was beginning to lose hope.
After my ER stay, I decided to try some things to try and stop the attacks.
1. I started walking outside after work. I found that the exercise made it more difficult for my fight or flight reaction to trigger my anxiety and that keeping my heart rate elevated for my walk (5 miles, 90 minutes) I started to be calmer.
2. I got an Apple Watch. I understand not everyone is able to afford one, but having an immediate ECG of my heart beat helped my realize when it was a panic attack and not me dying. It helped me stay a little more grounded in reality.
3. I started eating healthier. Smaller meals and Famatodine (acid reducer) helped restore my gut health. Having had issues with GERD, the high levels of stomach acid seemed to trigger my anxiety so getting the acid under control helped.
4. I started telling people close to me about the thoughts and panic attacks. This was one of the scariest parts of healing, but people want to help. Everyone has had a thought while driving about what if I just drove off the road, and people can relate usually. It also helps you realize that nobody thinks you are a monster like in your head.
5. Develop coping mechanisms that work for you. The thoughts are not going to just disappear instantly, it takes time and with practice they can go from the scariest thing ever to an annoying little voice that pops up every once in a while that you tell to shut up and you aren't afraid of. Once you take the power away from the thoughts, it feels more like the thoughts are so weak and ridiculous that nowadays I kind of just roll my eyes at them.
A coping mechanism that really worked well for me is that every time I would have an intrusive thought I would just one up it to the point that it was ridiculously unachievable. Example:
Intrusive thought: punch that old lady sitting across from you in the face
My next thought: punch every person in the world.
My next thought: blow up the moon.
By creating this chain of thoughts, I would go from a thought that was kind of scary to my psyche to something that was laughably not something I could actually accomplish. By doing this, it helped me start to accept that these thoughts were not reality and after doing it for a while I started to just ignore any intrusive thoughts that appeared.
6. Stopped smoking weed. For me personally, weed would cause a disconnect with reality that lead to the panic attacks and thoughts being in higher frequency. About 40-60 days after quitting weed I started to feel less mentally sick.
7. I refound my faith with God. I understand a lot of you might not be religious, but let me tell you that being able to put your trust in a higher power about your life and the path you are on really helped my heart feel light and helped me experience joy for the first time in a long time. At my lowest point its what saved me.
8. I have an app that keeps track of how many days it’s been since I had a panic attack.
The road to recovery takes time. I understand it’s scary and I too once thought that it might never get better. You have the power to take back control, you just have to find out what works for you via trial and error. It is only fear and you are strong enough to overcome those irrational thoughts.
As of today I still experience intrusive thoughts, however it has been 442 days since I last had a panic attack. I can currently see a violent scene in a movie and not be afraid of doing it myself. I can go out to eat at a Korean bbq joint and not have to leave the table out of fear of having a pot of boiling water next to me and my friends. I’ve even reached the point where I can type all of this without having an internal struggle and fear of going back to how I felt at my lowest point. It took time though, my progression was not overnight, and the healing process has to be treated with care.
That is my journey and what worked for me may not work for anyone else. I just hope that this might reach someone who needs it and at minimum let them know they aren’t alone in what they are going through. Thanks for reading. | OCD |
So I recently was prescribed my first stimulant medication (Vyvanse 30mg) after a lot of hasle and a failed bout trying Strattera for a month and a half which went horribly.
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Anyways, it's day three and so far the results have been fantastic! Nice calm focus and no jitters, even is really helping my anxiety alot which sounds contrary to what I was told is normally the case with Stimulants.
This would be perfect... If It didn't also come with a couple concerning side effects.
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So it seems like during the peak effectivness 2 - 4 hours after I take it, I have almost no notably negative side effects. Maybe a slight increase in heart rate like in the 90s while doing light stuff like walking or sometimes even just watching TV.
However iv noticed that after Ive played some intense video games for a couple hours.my heart rate raises to around 100 -120 and even an hour or 2 after I stop playing and try to relax again it still stays around 100 -110
Also it seems like during that time, maybe 8 - 10 ish hours after I took it, I will get mild chest pain (maybe like 2/3 on a scale of 1-10) on my left side coinsiding with the high heart rate. Then it will go away before bedtime and my heart rate will reduce back to around the 80s.
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I know I know, I need to talk to my Doctor, and I'm going to do that tomorrow. (Not seeking medical advice)
Just wondering if anyone else has had a similar experience in their first week taking Vyvanse or any other stimulant?
Not gonna lie, the last few days have been absolutely amazing, it feels like anything's possible and I'm honestly scared that the doctor is going to tell me to stop taking it and while yes my health is most important thing, I'm still sad to think I might have to wait a while to try anything else when this works so well and I'm only having these few effects. | ADHD |
I'm at a loss
My meds changed from cipralex to effexor xr (after 2 years of the same dose) yesterday and late in the evening I was an emotional wreck.
So angry. So fucking angry over nothing. I punched a wall. I scared my kids, I yelled and screamed and I'm so tired of already flying off the handle and this outburst came out of nowhere and I was barely triggered.
How do I cope? Do I just leave the house? I'm afraid of myself. What do you do when the anger is so overwhelming?? | OCD |
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All of this videos on yt about starbucks baristas complaining because of all the shit customers with complicated orders put them through is making me worried that I might've been mean to a worker. I'm not usually the type to speak up if anyone gets my food wrong. But I do remember this one incident from two years back, where someone accidentally printed the wrong thing and I did say something (I asked them to print the first three documents, but there was a repetition. I rechecked to see if I was the one who made the mistake, but I think I told them the right thing. I told the person who was printing and they insisted that they printed the first three and we went back and forth until they gave up and just printed the missing document. when I insisted on paying they refused. It was really crowded that day, I'm a 100% sure I made them more stressed out than they already needed to be) . I was kind of an asshole about it when I should've just left it, and now I'm worried that there are other incidents I conveniently forgot about. | OCD |
A carnival has come here for almost every year aside from last year due to COVID-19, I plan on going there obviously to not only ride rides and play carnival games, but to also have lots of the nice food there. It’s a giant festival practically and on the 4th there’s also gonna be a large parade of people. What are your plans for this nice four days? | aspergers |
Hi, you may remember me from a few months ago. I wrote some pretty bad stuff at least very depressing was pretty obsessed by my OCD since I just realized ten how severe it was when I somehow thought it was mild at best. Haven't done much to help anyone on this subreddit. On my last post I said I won't be returning to Reddit cause it was bad for me and returning my OCD and indeed I haven't been to Reddit for a long time almost 3 months and planned to keep it that way but I changed my mind. At first I only wanted to return to write this post and leave again this time really forever but I changed my mind on that too. Ironically I now think Reddit IS a toxic platform (I said in that post I didn't think Reddit was the problem) however I still beilive Reddit is not to blame for that it's just that I do have more negative of a view towards it especially cause it really is dominated by incels but I think it can still be a good social network if you go to right subs.
But the main point of me making this comment is to clarify something. In some posts I talked about having OCD, in some I talked about how I beat it so that's conflicting. Well I did defeat it on 21. June2020. by doing some final ritual I concocted so my first day without OCD was 22. June 2020 after a looong time of having OCD. If you read my posts you know 8th grade which was the last grade I had OCD (or Ravno how I called it) was especially tough on me so defeating it at it's height made me so much happy cause I sored from the literal bottom to the absolute top quite literally overnight (between 21. and 22. June 2020.). Those were my happiest week or two not only did I defeat my OCD (Ravno) at it's height but it was also the end of 8th grade which meant junior school prom (which is still the best night of my life even thought objectively it shouldn't be so high in my head it is). Then from some July 2020. I fell in a depression that lasted till 1st January 2021. and I was happy again from then to now. Talking about OCD/Ravno like a current thing after I worked so hard to defeat it and said I did and did really feels so scummy to me I just can't afford it to myself to enjoy life till I rewrite the mistake I made by talking about it as if it is the present not the past. Also my posts are gonna be much more positive I'll do what I wanted to do when I joined this subreddit (besides sharing about Ravno, I think dead things should stay dead and not talked about as it's not only the past but underservant of being thought about) to be the "Sensei" that as someone who beat OCD guides you through this shit though I have to add I am NOT a specialist in this field not planning on being one either I plan to make video games when I grow up cause I already have and had so many good ideas narrowed it to the three best that I will try to make into a reality later in life in one way or another. I only want to offer my thoughts on it which are not facts. I don't know has anybody else here thought like this it might seem like i am downplaying your struggles but I legitimately thought this for a long time and that is that my OCD is actually helping my live better just in case someone else beliefs this as someone who beat OCD it doesn't really and real life is better then OCD. If you are on this subreddit there's a very high procent of a chance you really do have OCD so whatever you feel even a little is OCD and not reality it's OCD and not reality. I've seen this subreddit I know 99% of you wouldn't kill an ant I see how ridiculous some of your thoughts become cause of OCD (I probably had the most ridiculous OCD thoughts) and I just beilive that in almost all cases here it is your OCD not reality. If it just saw you on the internet I wouldn't be so sure it's your OCD but in this sub seeing how people are honestly I am. I also won't ever talk about my dead OCD ever again what's dead stays dead period. The final ritual worked, my resolve defeated Ravnos resolve, the good ending. It probably should not have worked but it did and that's it about my thinking about dead mental problems.
All that I have left to say as someone who saw this fight through the end is meet you at the end. You and I deserve the freedom of beating the OCD forever I know that. I'll try being a nice ray of sunshine on this subreddit in contrast to the normally gloomy tone of posts here (it's reasonable they're gloomy given what this subreddit is about but I think you will benefit from hopeful posts)
Also even though it's an old achievement over a year old it's still an achievement hence the tag (: This year I forgot to make a post about it (perhaps I did and forgot I think I didn't) about my national Independence day(s) from OCD/Ravno (21. and 22. June) so I will be sure to do it next year just will wait a lot till next Independence days A.K.A the second one cause June so far away but I will remember of coarse (: | OCD |
Bit of background, my friend who has aspergers says he's like 99% sure I have it as well. I keep asking him for advice with social things I struggle with (patience with other people, irritation with loud noises and too much chaos, dealing with a sudden change and not being able to cope, etc.) and he told me I should look on here for some answers too, just to get a broader perspective. I haven't been medically diagnosed, but I see my regular therapist in a week, and I will bring up these new concerns I have then, so wish me luck with trying to put my problems into words.
My problem is this: I have bouts of sudden irritation with people where I want to scream and lash out at friends for practically no reason at all. Some internet friends and I are in a fan project and we're ending up doing quite a bit of the work. My forte is definitely writing (I wrote a 25 page script in like 2 hours once and I type at 93 wpm which I guess is really fast) and I'm in charge of writing the script. I got really irritated and defensive tonight when they suggested I work with someone else to collaborate. I don't want them seeing it till it's done. They also don't work in a linear progression. I work very much in a point A to point B and so on fashion. They're jumping around from part to part with the project trying to get a bit done everywhere. It's driving me insane because, to me, they're focusing on arbitrary stuff that shouldn't be worked on till the end. They may be my friends, but right now I wish nothing more than for them to just shut up and f off.
This isn't the first time I've been like this with friends. I just have a point where I get sick of my friends, which sounds awful to say. I have a terrible track record with losing friends and long episodes of depression afterwards. That mixed with my social anxiety and awkwardness hasn't been creating the best mental state. This mental health "episode" has lasted about a week and a half now. I'm kind of scared...
Whether or not this is actually ASD, I'm not one to say obviously (and I'm not looking for a diagnosis from you guys, I don't wanna make it seem like I'm breaking rule 3) but in case it is, I'd like some advice. Has anyone else experienced this? Like...is this normal or is this just something weird? I don't wanna come across as an a-hole with this situation, but I don't even know how to politely tell them to give me space and leave me alone. Also any advice on how to cope with other people would be very welcomed. I obviously can't do stuff like this at an actual job or something (I have an art degree so collaboration is kind of that field's middle name) so anything to help me calm my temper and mind down would be greatly appreciated.
I also apologize if this is the wrong kind of thing to ask this sub, I'm just very confused and lost on anything ASD. I would like advice soon, though, as every message I get makes me get more and more irritated. (On top of all that, if this doesn't make sense, I apologize. I work in retail and I'm very mentally/socially drained from my shift.)
TLDR; I'm sick of my friends and I'm afraid I will lash out and say things I don't mean. I'm frustrated with their process of getting tasks done and trying to get me to work with another person who doesn't understand my writing style that well. I don't want to lose them as friends and would like advice on how to control my temper/frustration. | aspergers |
I’m 33, and I have no post high school education or job experience. I’ve only just gotten off of anti-anxiety meds that have made me a zombie for the last ten years, because they thought my inability to function like a normal adult was due to depression and anxiety, not (as it turned out) ADHD. I’m on 54mg of Concerta a day, and I’m *still* just lying in bed the whole time. 17 years at most until I start to physically decay, and I’m still incapable of getting myself out of bed until noon.
My parents are in their 70s. They’re in pretty good health, but at that age things can just happen. I could lose them almost any time. I don’t have any friends; never been able to force myself to put in the effort to maintain them. I have a sister, but we’re not close.
I feel like everything I’ve ever done was a mistake, the people who matter the most to me could decline and die at any moment, it’s too late to fix anything, and this is going to end with me old, alone, and with nothing to look back on.
I don’t know what to do. | aspergers |
I have been dealing with treatment resistant depression for years that will absolutely not respond to any medication. I’m currently in an IOP program, and the psychiatrist there wants to put me on latuda. He doesn’t think I’m bipolar, but he feels that this the next best option for me as I have tried almost every antidepressant.
I’m really scared to try this medication. Has anyone here tried it? What was your experience? | depression |
Smokes a cigarette and waits for a friend that knows the Pixies | ptsd |
So I have that one friend I met from work. He is a good soul and I think he just want\`s to be my friend. The thing is, there are a few things that bug me about him. He is in his 30s and has ADHD just like me, wich isn\`t the problem, he just seems like he gave up on his life in a way. He often talks about how he spends all of his time in his room playing video games and doesn\`t do many other things. He also works only part time at our company at a 40% rate because he cant work more due to the ADHD. He also often talks about how he stopped wanting to educate himself. All the time when I turn on my PC and start Steam, he is the first one within 30 second who texts me if I want to play with him and I just have to turn him down everytime because I just dont have the motivation to play with him. I often find excuses to not play with him wich is totaly a dickmove of mine. On one side i just thing that he brings me down everytime we spend time together, even if its not his intention and I know that, on the other side I\`m just scared to end up like him, because I have some bigger goals in my life, despite my ADHD. I have no right to guess if his current situation is good for him or not, nor do I know his full back story wich led to his current situation. I just think he is lame and I should not surround myself with people with his altitude or else I fear to fall into the same hole, but I am also too afraid to tell him why I dont want to hang out with him because I think that will get him into a self-fulfilling prophecy of his negative self talking. Are my feelings justified that I dont want to hang out with him anymore?
Edit: Sorry for my vocabulary, unfortunately Im not a native english speaker | ADHD |
Is this normal or am i in denial.
Hello. Posting here because i was recently diagnosed with ptsd, but don’t know why. I’m going to explain the situation.
My mom continues to express a pathogen eating her brain and tortures herself everyday doing things she says “helps get the disease to leave her body. She’s uses countless products on her skin and vacuums her skin with a vacuum nozzle Especially her eyes. I’ve seen her try and collect why she thinks is her disease and leaves it on the bathroom to prove that she has an illness. I would hear her scream to the top of her lungs when she would do it cry for help because it was eating her alive. Or IS eating her alive. I was 12-14 when this stuff occurred. I would wake up in the middle of the night hearing my sweet mother torturing herself and my step dad being so angry. She would have us leave the house sometimes and I would be with my step dad in such an unfamiliar environment. When I was home it was a complete disaster and was disgusting. I never saw her. And when I did she looked half dead and wished death upon the children of doctors who haven’t diagnosed her. I had to leave that household and move in with my real dad whom I barley knew. There is no closure. I still deal with phone calls of my mother talking about how she is going to die and how the pathogen is eating her brain. My step dad left her and she is alone and dying. My step dad tried to kill himself by driving off of a cliff but failed. My mom thought my dog had the disease and used on him what she does to herself and he is dead now. I haven’t seen her since 2016 and I’m 18 now. Is this a normal? It feels like it. I feel guilty that i struggle because in my mind, trauma is either physical or abuse. (Not saying it is, but other therapists i have been with implied that those situations are worse than mine and so i completely internalized it and it’s been a horrible mental cycle). Anyway, sorry if this didn’t make sense. Please don’t get mad at me i don’t mean any harm I’m sorry. And i know that it’s not the cause it’s the effect, but I’ve been in so much denial that it’s been making me feel ill. The scenarios of people in my head telling me it’s not a big deal and i need to shut up because there’s people who struggle more. | ptsd |
I have acute on chronic on complex ptsd from childhood violence , CSA, combined with an auto accident, sudden blindness from a rare disease, abc loss of profession as a reconstructive surgeon for skin cancer ..
Anyway, lately I’ve been having the above symptoms l, including increased irritability and being triggered all the time .. These symptoms concern me , as I can get almost borderline psychotic , and curious enough often happens around Halloween ., In fact , during that holiday, I have been voluntarily admitted to a psychiatric hospital , which are all hell, and the only thing I really got out of it , is I am actually high functioning , and will never go back ever ..
My question is DAE find it hard to get it together, concentrate, find they are losing things constantly, and doing repeating activities ? How does one snap out of it, as it’s a real drag ..
My thoughts are spend a lot of time getting organized, do grounding activities- running and yoga, sex (seriously), sleep well, and focus on simply taking care of one’s self. Also , give yourself some slack that you are sick , but it will eventually pass .. Does anyone have any other tips that have been helpful ? | ptsd |
I've been talking to her for a couple weeks. last time I talked to her it was mostly about my failing grades and why. Today I emailed that I'm pretty sure I have ADHD when I set the appointment for Thursday. I'm hopeful that talking to her about this will be helpful for me and maybe even lead to a diagnosis in the future | ADHD |
Now I know that struggling with reading faces is practically asd’s trademark, but does anyone else miss read them the way I do?
I tend to imagine that people are looking at me a certain way but they aren’t.
An Example:
Me: “Wait- you look angry. Did I do something? I’m sorry.”
Friend 1: Wait huh? No why’d you think that?
Me: Well you just looked kind of upset and it made me worried and then you looked at me like that...
Friend 2: They looked normal though.
Me: Oh okay. Sorry.
Like I don’t flat out just get them (faces) incorrect, I just over analyze them to the point that I misinterpret them. | aspergers |
My uncle died last week of a very rare form of cancer he was in Pain before that as he was diagnosed with neuropathy. He was diagnosed with cancer in Oct and since he had flight off cancer before I wasn’t worried. But then his health sitar tend to deteriorate badly. The doctors said he had 6 months but after holding him in hospital for 2 weeks they told us he had only a couple weeks. The last conversation I had with him was the day before he got released from hospital with him checking up on me and I wanted to tell him I loved him but the words wouldn’t come out instead I started crying and I could hear him get upset on the phone too. He died 4 days after getting released from hospital with my final texts being how are you uncle. Those texts still haven’t been read. He was under morphine for them remaining 4 days and on the day he passed I was planning to come around then I got the call that he died and couldn’t process it. Caught a cab to his house to see my uncle laying peacefully with a smile on his bed laying in peace. Man I had so much to tell him. Even tho he was going though unimaginable pain he would always have a smile on his face and would give words of wisdom when you needed it. Man I miss him to the point where I can’t sleep or spend one second without thinking of him. The good people who haven’t hurt a sole in the world get taken away whilst bums like me get no punishment. Sorry for the grammar mistakes I was crying writing this and sorry if it’s too cringey. | depression |
I just received a reply from my education provider regarding a special consideration application I applied for for assessments I was unable to complete. I was dealing with a two month long illness that left me bedridden and in pain and had to provide details to them about my suicide attempt, and they just basically said those aren't good enough reasons to not have submitted all of my assessments. Now I'm gonna fail my classes.
It made me realize how mental health issues are still not being taken seriously, which saddens me when my university makes such a big deal about mental health awareness, but when you're going through shit and you're typically a good student, they won't even look at you with an ounce of sympathy.
I know it sounds stupid but university was the one thing in my life that was keeping me going and now I feel I have nothing. | depression |
Please don't leave
Please choose to stay
You are not a loner
You don't deserve to be alone
You don't have to be like anyone else
You deserve to be happy
You're beautiful and quirky
You are thoughtful and caring
You can get through this
None of this is your fault
Someone out there is going to love and hold you close
There's so much out there to wonder about
You're allowed to have the joy and curiosity of a child
Please give yourself a chance
Please realize that you are not the problem
Please stay
Please | aspergers |
I just hate this so much My dad was a gun collector and I always wanted to start my own collection ever since he lost all his guns in a fire.
I just get to nervous with them and with my other problems and the fact I was committed to a psych ward as a kid Ile never be able to be like my dad or even be an average person at this point. | depression |
How does a neurotypical brain work? How do they process information? How do they always seem so in the moment, and not do embarrassing things in public? No NT has ever explained to me how their brain works. How do their brains work? | aspergers |
Does anyone here have short term memory issues?
I moved into a new home a few months ago. My mind draws an automatic blank when trying to recall the address. I have to keep it written down, so I have it handy when needed.
The same with my phone number that I have had since this summer.
With my career, I write down everything I can, so I can refer back to it. It makes it feel like I am keeping a secret, like I am an imposter. Trying to get by daily, without it being noticed by my friends and colleagues.
Also wondering if this ever improves, or if this is just the new “normal”?
What has your experience been? | ptsd |
My new psychiatrist that I am seeing for bipolar disorder thinks I am autistic. She said she frequently works with people on the spectrum and that her son is on it, she thinks I masked my symptoms over the years and am higher on it.
This is the third time this has happened to me. It was first brought up when I was a toddler because of sensitivity to high frequencies, delayed speech+stutter, not playing with the other kids, horrible eye contact, and body rocking. My family didn't really see much of a problem with it and we moved on. Then it was brought up again when I was hospitalized because of the eye contact and body rocking, and although I did my intake my parents thought the whole thing was unnecessary. I just turned 22 and it's been reintroduced yet again for the same reasons, and this time my parents are willing for me to explore this. The doctor also thinks that the intake people at the last appointment at 19 were stereotypically making assumptions (like that I wasn't because I read fiction and I use my imagination and am more feelings based than logic based).
My social skills have gotten a lot better lately, I have a large pool of friends, and I spend time hanging out frequently and have even been getting a lot into dating which I was never really able to do before. My eye contact is a lot better too, I hate doing it but I can do it in bursts. My body rocking is still really bad, but it's only when I'm anxious (which I guess happens more often than I'd like) and the sound sensitivity doesn't produce as bad of a reaction as it used to, now it's just mildly unpleasant.
But I suppose I do feel like I stand out socially, like I'm different or something. Part of me feels like I'm looking for attention by believing that I am, the other part just wants to seek an answer to know the truth and thinks I'm resistant to the doctors' concerns due to stereotypes and fear. But even if I'm not, then why does this question keep coming up? If I wasn't, what is it about me that makes it seem like I am?
It's just a lot, just wanted to vent because I just want answers and I'm both excited yet scared to possibly find them. | aspergers |
I have been hospitalized 8 times this year, and spent a month in rehab. I've lost all motivation, I lost nearly 30 pounds from not eating, I can barely leave my room, I don't want to see anybody. My parents keep yelling at me, calling me lazy, that I need to get a grip, and that they're going to kick me out if I don't change. The only thing that makes me do is feel worse. My mom blames me for her marriage problems (which is bullshit and not my problem).
MULTIPLE doctors have told my parents I have severe depression and anxiety. But they still don't see it. If they kick me out I literally have nowhere to go. If I'm such a burden who would want me in their house anyway. I've already had small relaspes since rehab, but every day I want to use.
How can you watch your son slowly wither away and just call him a lazy no good piece of shit? | depression |
I need to be productive right now. I have to unpack and clean my house, it’s literally so bad. As per usual, when I “have” to do something (I have new windows being installed in 2 weeks so I need to get this place cleaned up) the pressure almost makes it worse? I’m just on my phone a ton, way more than usual. I want to just make myself get up and go but I can’t!!
Probably should mention I am on medication that I do believe is helping but I had went without it for 2 weeks and just started up again so it’s making me feel a little bleh. It seems to “work” better when I’ve been taking it consistently so I do wonder if that’s part of the problem. It feels Ike when I first started them how I would hyper focus on the wrong things, I just don’t know how to change it!
Thanks for any and all advice! | ADHD |
I've been watching Herbs and Altars a lot lately and they have a lot of videos about their ED which I found very relatable. I was wondering if there is some sort of connection between autism and EDs | aspergers |
so...i was protesting until i had to take a break due to my roommate getting covid (not from protests, from her work) and okay, i knew going in that my ptsd would probably get worse. but i had to be there. i feel like i can’t talk to anyone in my life about this, not even the people who were there with me. but sometimes i hear the chanting in my head. i startle more at loud noises than i already did. i had a migraine the other day and i had a white flash across my vision and all i could think of was the tear gas and the noises of the guns.
there was only one day that i was there where things got out of hand. and, for the record, it wasn’t our fault. (i say our as in the protestors). the police shot tear gas from grenade launchers at us while our backs were turned. i can’t be certain, but from my memory and some of the data i’ve been able to gather, they shot rubber bullets too. i’m still not sure if they threw flash bangs or not. we were running away. the faces of the people that were there show up in my head like ghosts. sometimes all i can do is hope they got out okay, that they didn’t get hit. i don’t want this to keep playing out in my head, but my ptsd-brain is just...doing it anyways. i don’t know. just....anyone got advice?
and please don’t tell me i did this to myself, going in to a protest with pre-existing ptsd. trust me, i know. but this is bigger than me | ptsd |
I have one tablet left. I need to do too more days of work after tomorrow before my weekend. I have no idea when my next lot of tablets will be here as the people responsible for arranging this stuff have been useless.
I've done my best to chase it up but now I'm left with one tablet and then nothing.
What's an alternative that will help me focus ect? | ADHD |
Hello guys I(23M) have been depressed for 8 years now. Went to therapy took meds but still didnt work. When i was 19 got into a relationship worked for good 6 months and rest 1.5 years backfired. When she left me i had nothing left, not even the will to move. Then got backlogs in college papers, pushed myself to clear them. Im still proud that i got to clear those papers. Anyways, depression is getting the best of me these days. Everyday I'm losing the will to do things, the necessity to move, unable to even gather the interest to do anything. Everything seems so mundane and plastic. It feels like i want to be unborn, if it even makes sense. Jist is I'm amazingly depressed, therapy failed big time.
Backstory with friends, never had a real friend my entire life. Was always the left out kid. None would socialize. I write good poetry and i kept them to myself too. When will this end? When will i feel love? When will i feel anything. I want this cold rain to end man, it helps I'm losing tether to life everyday dude i cant anymore | depression |
Recently I’ve either lost friends or had them move away. So to change things up with myself and COVID, I thought I’d make a friendly post to try meeting some more “digital” friends.
Tell us who you are, where your from and 1 cool, unique or weird thing about yourselves 😀
I’m Jordan from Manitoba, Canada and 1 weird thing is when I sleep I can’t let me knees touch. | ADHD |
It really helps with making your hands not die of being too dry and helps ME (maby not you) reduce the stress. I always keep a 100ml bottle in my pocket if I feel dirty, it can be a simple thing that makes your life and your hands life 200% better. You can use it almost how much you want without getting dry/irritated hands. Although a downside is mildly sticky hands. You can have a bottle beside all places you usaly compulsively wash your hand to sanitize yourself. But remember it needs to be rehydrating to keep your hands safe from being too dry | OCD |
I want to know more about what's up with my brain but I have trouble looking for resources. I haven't fully accepted myself yet, I can't even spell the name of the disorder correctly. So would any kind person would like to speak or talk or something 😊😊 I am open to talk | aspergers |
I'm wondering if other people have a starring problem. For as long as I can remember I have stared at random things for like 10 sec or more. I think it got ne in trouble before, because I would stair at my friend and then I put my hand on my face with the middle finger not realizing it and eventually she stopped talking to me and kept saying I was flicking her off when I had no idea.
Just curious if it's me or an adhd thing. | ADHD |
Woke up today and felt a wave of emotions and started crying... I didn't even get up from bed yet.
I didn't want to worry my wife in the bathroom so I just sobbed silently in bed. I think I was having a dream where my mom was not understanding me and I was getting frustrated. After I gather my composure, I went downstairs to feed the dog and sat down and started crying again. The dog sensed I was distressed and came for pets.... Good dog... Maybe the stress from work is getting too much.
Listened to [Logic - Anziety](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SyERzwy-4v4) a few times on repeat which made me feel a bit better. Then went on to my morning meetings. Started crying again after meetings.
It is end of the day for me and I am still exhausted and sad. But I talked to my wife about it and told her it wasn't my first time this happened. She's very understanding and supportive. I have to remind myself that
>I am unhappy
>
>Not with life
>
>But with this feeling
Hope y'all are having a better day. | aspergers |
Hi everyone,
I am new to this page, frankly this is my first post here. I was diagnosed with PTSD during my sophomore year in college and i kept it a secret all along. I was on medications for sleep and for day time use but i soon after tapered my self off of them to replace them with hard core studying and do good in school since that was and still is my passion.
I became more and more reserved person and dealing with voices in my head to the point that i get headaches but i kept pushing through for school and work. Family problems did make my journey worst but i dealt with it by pushing more in school.
Now i graduated, and stress has been building up from work, grad school prep and family problems. I am starting to feel like my stomach is tied up, want to vomit, shaking, weak and my muscles rust in place when thinking, get anxious and a family problem happens. Idk if those are PTSD "flair ups" and i would like to know if someone experiences these kind of symptoms as well. I am very ignorant about my past diagnosis. If someone can share their experience or their knowledge/expertise and educate me about the matter i would highly appreciate that help and guidance.
Thank you so much | ptsd |
I’ve been doing pretty good in school so far I have all As and Bs(except for 1 C but we don’t need to talk about that) and it’s been pretty easy now I usually do it is I take time for my assignments and do what I know I can do and miraculously I usually don’t have enough work that fall behind. But once in a while I have one major project or assignment that consumes so much of my time that I completely forget about all other things except that thing I have. when I finally finish it come back to reality my grades are suffering. Now it’s finals season meaning I am going have multiple of these moments and idk how my brain is going survive. I wanna how y’all deal with situations like these. | ADHD |
All I’ve ever wanted was for someone to listen to me, maybe just care a little and show some compassion, and maybe just be like “Yea, that fucking sucks man”, so I know I was heard. I really don’t think that is a lot to ask for as that is exactly how I treat people when they vent to me, always. I don’t know what is so wrong with me that people don’t treat me how I treat them.
LIfE is nothing but a fucking-lie. They got the spelling wrong with that word for sure. | depression |
Hi all, I'm getting my wisdom teeth out soon and a friend told me that I won't say anything embarrassing as long as I don't regularly think or say weird things. I get a lot of intrusive thoughts and I'm really worried about actually saying them.
Has anyone who has intrusive thoughts and got their wisdom teeth out let me know how it went please? | OCD |
So as a female, I know it is exceptionally hard to get an accurate diagnosis. We're constantly under diagnosed with things such as anxiety and depression. Which both I've been diagnosed with. However, once I learned about aspergers/autism, it was a journey.. let me tell you. I've never felt so connected and at ease when I found out about it.
I mean, before hand I was ignorant and only knew the stereotypes that people usually see. Mostly men also. So I never associated it with myself until recently. Each story that I hear from women, I can relate to 98% of them.
My journey started with taking questionnaires on embrace autism. Then from there I found YouTube videos of women speaking about their experiences. I learned about masking, etc. It was all an information overload to say the least. All of the information though, explained so much in my life, from childhood to adulthood.
I had an appointment with a psychiatrist last week. It took me all week to articulate on a wordpad everything that I've been through from childhood til now. I can't even tell you how stressed out I was during that whole ordeal. I also had to get my fiance to help me, because I was just at a loss of words. In my mind it can be clear as day, but when it comes out verbally/text it's just word vomit. I have such a hard time expressing myself, past relationships exacerbated said difficulties as well. So I finally found the courage to do this. I was shaking the whole time and terrified.
She just ignored everything I told her and dismissed it for social anxiety and childhood neglect/abuse. Apparently to her I can't possibly have autism because I seem *very* empathetic. That is such a sad and absurd stereotype. I cried after I got off of the zoom call with her. I just couldn't believe it. I'll keep pushing forward and reaching out, but I can't say this didn't send me a few steps back in the progress I made about expressing my feelings. | aspergers |
Hello! Short-term lurker here.
To sum it up: I've recently started suspecting at least a mild case of adhd. It started with reading a description or questions asking if you relate to different mental issues and the adult adhd thing really really struck a cord with me. I've started looking back at my life and realizing I may have struggled with this my whole life. I've been lucky and have been able to coast through life even though I hardly pay attention in school, work, or home life, mainly because I'm somehow good at testing and I've had good people by my side at different stages of life.
Here's the fun bit: I have a job that requires mental stability to keep my security clearance, so going after medication or even a diagnosis is terrifying to me. I already struggle with imposter syndrome in literally everything, so I don't even *really* know if I really have adhd, and really don't know a good way forward.
If anyone has been through a similar situation, any insight would be appreciated. Kind words would also be appreciated :) | ADHD |
I don't see this talked about enough in this subreddit so I thought I would make a post about it.
One thing I personally struggle with when it comes to my ADHD is being financially independent. I am 20 years old and a full-time college student. I don't have a job while in school because I can't manage both with how bad my mental health is (mostly because of my ADHD). Because of this, I am pretty much financially dependent on my parents. Being a financially dependent adult already has its stigmas. A lot of people frown upon it. But it is NOT that easy for some of us who suffer with ADHD. to be financially independent. *Especially because many of us struggle with impulse spending and money management.*
Being financially dependent on my parents is hard and I'm more then shameful about it. It isn't that I don't WANT to work, it's that if I try to work during school, I will fail and it will cost me thousands of dollars. I try not to spend too much but it can be hard sometimes to control those impulses. I hate asking for money. I hate borrowing from people and I always feel like a horribly irresponsible person for it.
I often find myself thinking about the future. I want to graduate and become financially stable and make good money. But not even for me. I want to do it so I can take care of my mom. She doesn't have that much money and she is nearing retirement. I am constantly breaking down at the idea that I have failed her as a child because I can't take care of myself yet. She loves me and probably doesn't think these things herself but I am so hard on myself about it.
I'm not able to get unemployment, I'm going to be in deep student loan debt once out of college, and housing is so *expensive.* I have set myself up for failure and I am disappointing everyone. I wish I could properly gather my thoughts on the topic and not be so all over the place about it but I really don't know how to truly describe this kind of situation. It's just a lot. It's a massive burden and it effects my loved ones.
I know I can't be the only person who feels this way but maybe I unfortunately am. If anyone has advice or can relate feel free to share in the comments. | ADHD |
If my routine gets disrupted I shut down immediately.
I don't just like routine and I don't just thrive on it, I need it in order to think and function.
Without Routine everything is chaotic.
If the first part of my routine is disrupted everything will collapse like a tower of cards.
I've been burnt out for years.
The Job I have is being a cleaner at a hospital. I get there and I am very satisfied with the order of tasks I have to do. I go to do them and they must be completed well and efficiently. I enjoy following rules, because I assume they are in place for a reason. However, it also delights me to see the logic behind these given rules as well.
Yet at every corner I turn there is something that disrupts my routine. I suppose it's the job. You do certain tasks and get called randomly to clean patient rooms. It just drives me insane because the latter is unpredictable.
So what do you guys think I can do? I have structured my life efficiently in the last week to create a strong routine, but I am suffering at work.
There's no way I can change jobs, because that's very overwhelming for me.
Yet being disrupted leads me to shutting down immediately. | aspergers |
So I sometimes masturbate and there are some left over residue on my underwear. It was dry at this point. After showering, I picked up my dirty clothes and the underwear fell on one of my dogs. I don't know what part of the underwear it touched my dog on but I haven't stopped thinking that it's gross.
I don't think it'll make anyone sick or anything. It's just the idea that it is gross. It's the worst bodily fluid in my opinion. Worse than pee and poop that I have to deal with because I have so many dogs. I don't know why semen is the worst for me but it is.
How do you deal with semen and semen contamination? I'm trying to spin the negative (underwear with a little dried semen) into a more normal thing; I try to think how a person without OCD would think like. And right now I'm thinking "well, it was just a tiny amount and you don't know if that particular part of the underwear fell on your dog. At the end of the day it's just an underwear with some bodily fluids. It may have some pee, sweat, and poop residue because that's normal after it gets worn".
Edit: oh my worry is that someone will pet that particular spot in n my dog and then touch their skin and other parts and it'll all get contaminated with it. Not as a "dangerous" contamination, but just as something gross. | OCD |
I keep having that same memories but at the time it didn’t effect me at all but now it almost like a nightmare it like a feeling of scared but don’t know what it is ,just the feeling of fear and like something is gone | ptsd |
So, I'm a "high functioning" girl with Asperger syndrome. On the surface level, I get along with everyone. I bond with neurotypicals, I laugh at their jokes (sometimes in a genuine fashion). I'm smart, but "normal", I like makeup, the usual clothing, and I'm definitely the funny one in my friend group.
I'm not officially diagnosed, I just want to bring it out there. I have several professional opinions, but my parents refused to have a disabled child, so ... I'm just acting as others are, but eccentric. I've spent my entire life wondering "what's wrong with me". I had teachers say I'm autistic, as well as a therapist recently. I've read up on this an conclude it's likely what's up. Sensory issues, certain social ones... You know.
My biggest issue is that whilst I can fit in fine, and get along with people, it's hard to find those heart to heart friends. I'm social enough albeit introverted, so once I meet people, I can talk to them forever. But how can I find these intelligent people who love politics, philosophy, and literature? I don't mean to sound snobby, I'm just so done with being alone and I've met enough people to know there are people who get me. I just want to find them. I don't care about university degrees, just wish I found people with similar interests. I do have lovely friends, but can barely make more.
I have a flowing mind, and I have a tendency to dream a lot. I've never been grounded, and I'm child-like, but still put together. My appearances make me look like any late 20s girl, and it's hard to look "normal" whilst you're feeling like you belong somewhere else.
Sorry for the ramble. I'm a bit drunk. I'm happy to answer any questions, and I'd appreciate any input. | aspergers |
TW for throw up
I’ve had almost every subtype of ocd. Well, recently mine has developed into an emetophobia of types. I had a bad experience with a cbd/thc gummy in February. Ever since then I developed a panic disorder because I’m scared of ever feeling like that again. I got so high and for some reason, my brain latched onto the experience. I’m haunted by flashbacks constantly. My ocd is scared of losing control. I’ve been dealing with the fear of going into psychosis or turning schizophrenic. Well, when I got high I didn’t have any control. And it’s been hell ever since. I’ve lost a lot of weight. I feel sick quite often. I’ve had to come stay in my childhood home until I get better. Well, sometimes it’s hard to eat. I’ll get flashbacks while I eat. And my ocd goes places like what if this gets you high? What if you get high right now? What if somebody slipped thc into your food? Like complete magical thinking. I know it isn’t true, but ocd makes you think it anyway. The intrusive thoughts make it worse. My dad brought home donut holes. I ate a few, despite feeling quite ill this morning. My ocd and flashback kicked in. So I started feeling sicker. I kept getting intrusive thoughts of maybe I would get high. So, I made myself throw up. I threw it all up. Now I feel gross and insane. I knew it wasn’t true but it was the what if. It was super scary. Now I’m crying because I’ve never done something like that before. I know it’s not true, but it’s so exhausting fighting my brain on it. I started EMDR therapy yesterday and I’m going to a psychiatrist tomorrow.
This subtype has made it to where even taking medication is hard. I’m so terrified of meds because I don’t ever want to feel like I did that night with the gummy. I feel like I’ve hit rock bottom and it’s just going to get worse and worse. I feel like I’ll lose control and have to end up in a psych ward. I can’t believe I did that. That’s the worst compulsion I’ve ever done. | OCD |
Hey guys, how are you today?
So, my girlfriend has been officially diagnosed with an OCD.
She's been seeing both a therapist and a psychiatrist for about 3 weeks, but the journey has just started.
We've been living together for 4 years now, she's had some indication of it for years, but you know, with lockdown and all, it recently blow up.
One other (important) reason might also have been my health.
I've been having various issues lately, and lost about 25kg in the last year.
Let's just say I am NOT at my 100% yet and might not be for a long time unfortunately.
I am sure this also had an impact on her.
About her symptoms... She is really fine 80% of the time, but then has this very strong episodes about once a day:
* Yesterday she had a good 20 minutes fight with me (she had a fight, I sure didn't) because the garbage bag in the bathroom bin was not "positioned properly" (note: the bag, not the bin).
* Today I left the dishes in the sink after lunch while I was drinking coffee, she got all mad because "I do not care and never wash the dishes" (I've been the only one cleaning dishes in this house every day for at least 5 years) and started cleaning her shoes in order to relax.
* Every time I touch the washing machine I have to wash my hands 3 times (before opening it, before loading it, after closing it) or she will get mad and clean everything I've touched afterwards
* She washes here hands all the way up above the elbow, I'd say at least 30 times a day.
What can I do to help her?
Also... She wants to go to the beach for a couple of days, which would be fine but:
1. My health condition makes sun and temperature hit VERY hard
2. I fear that she might find a grain of sand in the bed at night and freak out and wanting to change room (I am not exaggerating)
Of course, with that said, I clearly do not want to go... It might be good for her, but it sure won't be for me, physically and mentally... (I hope it does not sound too egoistic) | OCD |
I've felt depressed for 7 years and I'm only 20. I have nothing to live for. No real life friends. My only friend would be way better without me. I can't make new friends because of my crippling social anxiety, every day is just so humiliating because whenever I try to make friends I just make a fool of myself and it's just impossible for me to be normal. They told me it would get better in university. I'm so fucking dumb, why am I like this. I am an absolutely ridiculous failure who deserves nothing but pain. It hurts so bad right now. Every time I've thought I hit rock bottom it gets worse. Please make it stop. | depression |
I recognize that the friendship was toxic to begin with and I managed to avoid the most serious consequences of the betrayal. However, I feel like I can’t confide in people or be my true self around them anymore, so I can’t form meaningful relationships. I also feel like if i’m badly treated, my options are to either ignore it, and thus accept it in a way, or to retaliate and make myself look bad. There’s no winning either way. I find that I have to keep myself constantly stimulated in order to avoid these thoughts. | depression |
Hi I'm new sorry if this doesnt belong here
I got my evalv done coming up to two months ago and I haven't heard back from the place at all. I tried calling all they said was they'd call me when its ready. Point is how long did it take you guys to hear back? I am in college and I'm struggling, i am struggling and I can't get any accommodations unless I have a diagnosis and I just want to know whether its something that typically takes this long or if I have to wait it out or if its like a red flag for the place idk
Sorry and thanks
Some more info:
Im in the US and have public insurance
My call was last week.
They said I needed to do atleast 2 sessions of therapy before I could get the evalv. I ended up doing 4/5 months before they even got the ball rolling on that. | ADHD |
Just curious see who is embarrassed of ocd and how many people have the guts to write their own account.
[View Poll](https://www.reddit.com/poll/naay7y) | OCD |
Hi! Thank you for reading.
So just for context, im a 18 year old male. I have been struggling a lot with feeling "contaminated" after touching things that have been touched by someone else, I feel like the whole world is covered by an invisible layer of germs and bacteria. I avoid touching doorknobs, water faucets, the fridge and microwave door, and pretty much anything that hasn't been touched by myself before and that I know it is clean/ If I touch anything of these I feel like im contaminated by germs and it makes me extremely anxious until I wash my hands or apply hand sanitizer. I also hate when other people touch me because if they touch me I feel dirty and I will have to apply spray desinfectant or wash the area of my body that was touched by that person. The other day my mom got mad at me because I wouldn't let her touch my shirt for that reason.
I have a very difficult time picking it up and using it normally because I feel like its dirty, and if I continue using that object and then touching my stuff (like my phone), my phone will also be contaminated because I feel like I just contaminated my phone by touching it, resulting in me having to disinfect both objects with clorex wipes. So yeah thats what I've been struggling with for over a year and a half, but its been getting worse and worse. Now when taking a shower I sometimes have to wash my body areas multiple times because it just doesn't feel like I have washed them enough, same goes with hands. I wash them multiple times, all the way from the hands to my elbows and I wash them way too many times in a day. I've tried to control these impulses of feeling contaminated but I've haven't been able to do it.
Sometimes I do have sexually inappropiate and violent thoughts, but that doesn't happen too often. But I do remember like 2 years ago I had this very violent thought for like a day and a half and I couldn't make it go away that I thought I was going insane. What I hate is how much time cleaning and getting rid of this feeling of contamination takes off my day, I also hatethe anxious feeling of feeling contaminated.
Thank you for reading and I really appreciate it, have a good day! | OCD |
Yesterday I had the most intense trigger episode I've had in over a year. Most of the episodes I've had recently I can generally manage somewhat by moving away or distracting myself from the trigger however last night I read something that hit me like a freight train.
Several years ago my son was stillborn and even before that they said he could have major physical/mental health issues if he survived. Following his passing my husband and I went through 2 years of literal hell with trauma after trauma compounded one on top of the other. We are now finally in a financially stable place with a stable home etc so I am finally taking the time to properly get help and support for my c-ptsd. I also now have a health little girl.
Yesterday I read an article about a group of people snatching babies from their strollers. It was in the world news so I didnt expect it to be in my country let alone the county and city near where I live.
I went into shock and couldnt move. All I could see was them snatching my daughter away and I ran after her screaming. All I could see was her slipping away from me like her brother did. I couldnt stop crying and shaking. The flashback, feelings of loss and terror were so overwhelming.
Sometimes I feel like I am making progress with my therapy but other times I feel as though as soon as I plug one whole another opens up. Last night I was too afraid to go too sleep. My dog, who usually is little miss independent lay in bed with me and has been staying close when ever she is inside.
Not really looking for advice just need to share my experience with people who will understand. | ptsd |
I find this puzzling. Certainly I do not like it. People will say, making sourdough bread (or whatever) isn't a personality, or 'people were were saying Free Britney all the time are going to have to find a new personality. But who ever thinks, this one thing I'm doing or saying a lot is all of who I am?
And it makes me so self conscious and worried that people are really thinking about me that fixating on a single thing for a while at a time is some false attempt to be someone people will like (like THAT makes sense!)
I wish this would not be a thing people would get hostile about, I don't know why they seem to. | aspergers |
I was in a traumatic car accident when I was 12, back in 2016, and I almost lost my life. I suffered a traumatic brain injury, I had to relearn everything. 2 years after that I was raped and abused, and I was stripped of my virginity. I was never able to get justice from my predator; he’s living a fantastic life [i.e. new truck, got into the army, traveling the world], but I got left behind and everyone has hated me since. It sucks, and sometimes I just want someone to ask if I’m genuinely okay. | ptsd |
This happens a lot with me. I might be going through some discussion with a friend, and normally both of us present our ideas. I always tend to feel like I want to reply to what they said, but I try so hard not to and let them finish their sentences completely, and when it’s my turn to reply I almost always forget what I was trying to say. So I either obsessively repeat in my mind what I want to reply right after finish, which tbh diminishes any active listening occurring during the conversation, or I interrupt them and more often than not no one really appreciates being interrupted constantly. So, what do you do in case you want to actively listen, and at the same time not wanting to jump from
your chair to reply to a point they mentioned, and remember your replies | ADHD |
I am considering asking for a flexible work schedule as a ADA work place accommodation.
I am not sure it would help though as just working 8 hours block also provides structure I need to be productive.
I am curious what work place accommodations people here have asked for that have worked, in particular if a flexible schedule is one folks have had success with. | ADHD |
When I’m anxious, this weird burning sensation fills my chest area to arms and a bit of legs. Is this what anxiety feels like? My mind goes blank and I stutter a bit.
It does go away though.
Another issue. How do I stop anxiety or decrease it? Communicating to higher ups is the issue.
I’ve been stressing and lost motivation this month, lacked good school performance once again. Scolded by my family, felt more hopeless and tired.
I felt sleepy and yawned a lot even after sleeping for hours; 7-8 hours. | depression |
I hope everyone is doing well, take care and have a great day!
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https://youtu.be/SsCwPIOrAvM | ptsd |
What's up guys.
I suffer from a variety of sex based OCD issues which primarily seem to originate from childhood trauma.
I plan to see a therapist in a month but I'm pretty majorly anxious since my thoughts are significantly intrusive and disturbing, I'm hoping that they'll treat me as normal and not like a complete nut job
Regardless, I just want to ask what keeps you guys going!? What keeps you fighting? What helps you wake up everyday and truck on until the end? I'm only 19 but ive absolutely had some suicidal thoughts thinking "if everyday of my life is going to be like this why continue". I'm about to head to uni for engineering and this is where I plan to seek help.
What keeps you guys going!? | OCD |
Sorry I’m advance if this posted multiple times it failed when I was trying to post. I am 20 years old and recently diagnosed with all encompassing OCD. So I have dark intrusive thoughts such as wanting to kill people, wanting to be a killer, pedo, trans, sexual confusion, weird thoughts of animals and etc. It feels like all these thoughts come from like a “Hyde” side within me a power control sheer anger. Is there anyone who feels anything similar?
Ps- I know it’s hard to be open about stuff like this but it’s good to know your not alone. I am seeking therapy CBT and ERP. | OCD |
I highly recommend the book “Upside: The New Science of Post-Traumatic Growth”. It has stories of people who have gone through terrible things and were able to find meaning in their lives after. It might be a positive push after only hearing so much hopeless stuff about ptsd out there. It also helped me understand how ptsd induced anxiety and panic scientifically works in the brain (amygdala- fear center of brain- not working properly after trauma and not being able to tell what is a real threat or not) and it helped me understand that my ptsd symptoms were just my brain trying to protect me. Hope this will help and hope you all take care. | ptsd |
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