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Tw/Psychosis (ik some ppl with ocd fear psychosis)
I’ve had psychosis nos but according to my psychiatrist it’s most likely borderline psychosis. I had it pretty bad i was hospitalised and went pretty bad and was suffering bad with all types of hallucinations and delusions.
Anyways since i’ve been recovering from psychosis i’ve thought like where my delusions came from i think my hallucinations where 100% bpd (i still hear them loads to this day) but a lot of my delusions where kinda existential based like questioning my reality and my main delusions where thinking ppl where ‘imposters’ in a way kinda my thought was like i know i’m alone on this earth and questioning my reality. Is it possible that my bpd was the source of my psychosis but ocd kinda made my delusions more severe. I struggle from existential ocd and other types so i guess it makes sense. Also is there anyone here who has a disorder that caused psychosis but ocd make there delusions worse like me?
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For example I can hardly get out of bed, get distracted for hours easily, and I’m incredibly forgetful but is it fair to say those things are adhds fault?
Idk I just don’t want to blame things on adhd when it could be my fault, or getting used to blaming adhd that I blame things on it that isn’t adhds fault.
( Ik I kinda worded it like adhd is a living thing but I didn’t know how to word it)
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People are Sometimes annoyed by me or treat me like I have Ocd... Well lol. I hate that. But I also understand that. This disorder has it's consequences. My mom actually thought I had psychosis at my worst. People will treat you like you are legit crazy and avoid you, especially online. It's not just the ocd it's the self harm too. Me asking for reassurance online makes others think I cannot be trusted. Which I realized, in that state I probably can't be. I am having a weird time radically accepting I am toxic...
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I have always had ADHD but I didn't know that until uni. I was the smartest kid in primary and middle school and it was something I was proud of. It really boosted my self esteem and I felt confident and happy.
I started struggling during high school. Since I was no longer the best at anything, it made me go through some identity crisis. Things got even worse during uni when I started failing exams. It was at this time that I got diagnosed with ADHD. I later got diagnosed with GAD.
My grades started to improve after my ADHD diagnosis but of course I wasn't "best" at anything. I feel kind of lost in life as I am no longer confident and happy as I was in the past. I feel like that part of me had died and is forever gone. I can't help but feel unhappy about it. These days I lack confidence and feel like I'm not particularly good at anything. Any advice?
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Just wondering if anyone here, especially those of you more in the Pure O department, have considered or tried ketamine infusions, injections or troches. Hearing that there is promise. Research out of Stanford is encouraging. Anyone?
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Hey, I don't know if this belongs here so I'm sorry in advance if not.
Has anyone tried to conceive following sexual assault? I was gang raped eight years ago. I finally addressed this last year and went to therapy etc.
My husband and I are at the point now where we want to start a family. Thing is, we've only ever had sex when we're both in the mood which, given my past trauma, only happens once or twice a month. Recently we've been trying to have sex 3 or 4 times a week, which has been giving me nightmares and flashbacks galore. My husband is super supportive and understanding and I feel safe with him, but I can't stop feeling the way I do.
The obvious thing to do would be to work out when I'm most fertile each month and just have sex around that time...but I have PCOS. So I don't have a proper cycle, and we could do this for years without success.
I don't know what to do. I've applied for more therapy but there's a huge waiting list. The men who assaulted me have taken so much from me, I don't want them to take away my dream of motherhood too. I understand that there are options such as fostering and adoption but I really want to have my own biological children.
Anyone got any words of advice or hope?
EDIT sorry for formatting, on mobile.
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Is it possible to have both OCD and Bipolar disorder?
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OCD
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I realized recently why I miss drinking alcohol so much.. it has this effect on me where most of my symptoms disappear or become manageable.
It’s not a long term solution at all but it certainly felt amazing to feel that relief.
I can handle loud sounds without getting violently angry, I can socialize easily as I don’t feel this amazing amount of shame stopping me from doing so.
I don’t have so much fear over the future.. and I don’t ruminate or have the urge to complain about my life when I am feeling this way.
I started drinking when I was 7, due to alcoholism running in the family.
But I was just wondering if anyone else has had any similar experiences with alcohol or other substances?
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Trying to wrap my mind around this & am curious what your thoughts are..
There is a girl at work who was talking to my boss about hiring another girl, her “bestfriend”. Her friend, turns out, is the ex-girlfriend of the person who sexually assaulted me. I’ve felt triggered by this since hearing her name & the thought of seeing her makes me uneasy. I’m not sure she knows her ex’s history or my story so I feel unfair for being triggered by her, but I also made a valiant effort to cut off all people associated with him after the traumatic event occurred.
Am I wrong for feeling this way? I do feel bad that I’m making her responsible in some way for the actions of another person simply by association..PTSD can have the most frustrating triggers.
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I do desperately want to feel a connection to another human being again. Well simply put. A Woman human being. I’m a dude, 28 and I’ve just gone through the final stages of my divorce. During the 8 years we were married. I think we lost our connection around year 6. We had essentially just been roommates living together since that point. I get asked a lot by the few people close to me how I could be ready for another connection when I literally JUST got divorced. The thing is, things were so bad between us for so long. Yes on paper we were married. But she hasn’t been my wife since longer than I can remember. I recently was diagnosed as having a personality disorder. As I go through the treatment to help condition my life better for myself. I realize my mental health was probably the BIGGEST contributor to my marriage burning to the ground. I’m in a place now where I better understand myself and I’m better able to control my emotions. I’m at a point where I really wish I had someone to just share my day with. Someone to feel special because of or make my priority in life in terms of dating. I’ve tried the social media stuff. Tinder. ETC. in terms of finding people to connect to it’s been reasonably successful. I’ve connected with a few women here and there. But anytime it starts to maybe get to a point where it could get more in depth. Or serious. I self destruct. Having to be a partner and care about someone’s emotions and well being in an intimate way, just the effort that’s required to sustain a serious relationship just seems so exhausting. And I’m terrified of it. Anyone else ever feel that way?
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My clinical psychologist gave me a list of diagnostic impressions, and Unspecified Attention Deficit Hyperactivity (F.90.9) is listed. Does this mean I have ADHD or??? My clinical psychologist gave me a very vague overview of my report and I'm confused. If anyone here's good at reading these kind of reports and would appreciate if anyone here would help me understand it :). If not, it's totally ok!
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Does anyone know of any surveys I can partake in? I've seen the list pinned here and some of them aren't updated/inactive. I'm doing this for myself mostly. I don't care if they pay or not I'm willing to help anyone who's doing this for a school project or for personal use etc. as well. Comment or msg me please
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If someone here has an idea or thought that they do not believe will be accepted by the rest of the community,
they can say it through me by dm if I make a comment of my own idea I will make sure to make it clear
My goal is basically to prevent groupthink from ruining everything, I don't know if the moderators agree, but they don't have a rule against this, so good luck stopping me if you want to.
If multiple people have the same idea, I will say the names of one to another but not to the others that dont have , in addition to that I will say the number of people that think that idea
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[https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9hsWW3CjHmI](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9hsWW3CjHmI)
"Relationships arise on the basis of being physically close to another person over a long period of time. What we call a relationship develops from this physical closeness and its interactions. If there is a real exchange, this results in profound, healing changes in our nervous system and our souls. Feelings of happiness, meaning in life and fulfilment arise, which can lead to ecstatic and transpersonal experiences.
The degree of happiness in our life corresponds exactly to the degree of connection we have with other people. And the degree of connection is determined by the depth of the layers we can share honestly. Connection is happiness we are looking for. Exactly this level of connection is the criteria that brings people together as couples.
Simply bringing the bodies together does not lead to the intimacy and closeness that nourishes us. Only the honest exchange of all layers and feelings leads to relationship heaven. Whoever has lived such intimacy is at the goal of his earthly life,he has learned to love and to be loved, to surrender all barriers to his partner and to life. Such people have gone through the death of their egos and are already living here on earth in paradise."
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This is an entirely selfish post of venting but would like others to share their worst moments of anger and rage connected to triggers so I know i am not alone.
But reallly….Why? Why am I like this? I perceive anything and everyone as some threat and it gets me in trouble. Im an educated, successful woman and yet I am having weekends where my neighbor belligerently yells at me outta nowhere and it triggers me to Hulk Mania level (I hate yelling and if I cannot flee or fawn, will be real nasty in what I say).
I called the cops and 911 so many times this weekend they wouldn't show up (bc there was a shooting in town, but I didn't know that). I felt alone, like I was going to be attacked and like I was screaming for help--oh I was. When they did show up, they called me crazy and pushed me IN to my own home. I called my sheriff friend and had her come pick me up, but not before a MOVIE SCENE of crazy, expletives, and rage.
The only things I can do is embarrassingly and with shame apologize for OVEREACTING, see my psychiatrist, and up my meds but still seems it doesn't help...….at all. I want to run away and change my name and have no friends or family. Just alone, and safe from others and others from me.
This is a prison and I don't like the way it's run.
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I feel like most of the symptoms of ADHD apply to me and my sister has it so I really want to see a psychiatrist. I have felt this way for a while but I’m too scared to ask my mom to make me an appointment out of fear of judgement. I’m also scared that the doctor will say I’m totally normal and I’ll just have to live with my brain as it is. Any advice? This has really been bothering me
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As a child I pretty much never got what I wanted - at best kind of close, but that was it. I can't count how many places I wanted to go, and we are not talking long trips - like to the library, to a bookstore, etc - yet my mom would never take me.
So as an adult I kind of expect to be disappointed. I know it might sound negative but there is a upside - the few times things go perfectly it's like a surprise present.
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Title says it all.
I constantly get berated for 'not listening' because I seriously struggle with making eye contact, and my mind wanders. Long meetings or conversations feel like torture. People will often point out how I am constantly twitching my leg or acting as if I am 'in outer space'
Not that I necessarily owe anybody an explanation... But I find it incredibly hard just to say 'sorry I am diagnosed ADHD, I am trying my best to listen' etc etc. Do you guys have any tips on how to disclose ADHD without feeling incredibly awkward? It might be a me thing. Does anybody else have similar experiences with struggling to be open about ADHD?
Thanks in advance for all your help
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Can't deal with my life, quit my job and I can't afford it. I'm done eating, drinking, done with everything. I wish I had a gun to end this shit faster
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I need some support right now, I’ve had PTSD since an abusive relationship when I was 20. Most of my symptoms are daytime ones like intrusive thoughts, flashbacks etc. In March 2018, I was stabbed in the hand and my chest by my neighbour who went off tap this particular night and tried to murder his wife. I tried to stop him (I hit him over the head with a 10 lb weight twice after he broke into my apartment to get to his wife) and he stabbed me in response.
According to the prosecution, he doesn’t remember what happened, and he thinks that should be a valid defence (it’s not). Anyway, after being on remand for 20 months, he’s finally decided to plead down to one count of recklessly causing injury - for stabbing me twice and one count of recklessly causing serious injury - for stabbing his wife 9 times. So he’s likely going to be released on a community corrections order after sentencing. I think it will be unlikely that he will receive a further custodial sentence because it’s his first offence and he has pre-existing mental health issues.
In all likelihood, the guy who stabbed me is probably going to be coming back to my town. It’s a small town of only 15,000 people and while he doesn’t know where I live and there will be intervention orders in place. But that doesn’t mean I feel safe. I’ve only been coping well with the stabbing because I knew he was in prison. Now that I know he’s going to be in my local community, I’m afraid that I’m going to run into him in the supermarket or the local shopping centre. And, although I rationally have no particular concerns that he’s going to harm me, it’s triggering all of my latent PTSD and I feel extremely anxious.
I don’t feel safe. I want to pack up my stuff and my cats and move somewhere far away. But I have taken the time to build very solid support networks of medical professionals, friends and church, so leaving would be unhelpful. I don’t know how to cope. I just don’t know how I’m supposed to feel okay.
How am I supposed to cope with this? Help?
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Hey everyone!
I am part of a non-profit that we raise money for neurodiverse classrooms. The current logo uses a symbol uses the dreaded puzzle piece and after lots of me saying I didn't agree with it, we are finally getting a new logo! I'm super excited, got to give my speech on why we need to rebrand and I think I got them to understand.
Anyways, are there any symbols that the majority of people feel is appropriate? The infinite symbol? Something else? What else should we definitely avoid?
Thanks for any input :)
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I don't know if this is an aspie thing, so I thought I'd ask. My whole life I've been a very "particular" person about my material possessions. When I get a new phone, Fitbit, headphones, PC parts, movies, games, consoles, TVs, monitors, literally anything of notable value (most of the time, electronics), I have this urge to always, no matter what, use only the cables that came with it unless it makes no logical sense, and when it doesn't make sense, I store the OEM cables with the box the product came with.
For example, I just bought a new Fitbit Charge 5, I don't like the watchbands so I ordered new ones. The old bands go back in the box, and the box goes in my closet with all the paperwork/extras, including protective films and everything. It just feels right to keep everything I bought together.
Now, I'm not a hoarder either, when I get rid of things, I get rid of the extras too. The old Fitbit Charge 3 I had, the box, and everything related to it is already in a box to donate/giveaway/whatever to friends or family who want it.
I do this with literally everything even when I am not using all of it, I have a box in my closet from one of my monitors, inside is all the original packing material, manuals and original cables it came with (my setup required buying dedicated 10ft cables). Repeat same for all my PC parts, my gaming consoles, vacuum cleaner, smart speakers, everything. Every. single. thing. of significant value, I still have the original box and everything it came with, stored away for the day I retire the item and give it away, sell it, etc.
Am I alone in this quirk? I feel like it's a variant of the "Sheldon Cooper Labelling everything" syndrome.
(EDIT: Should also note, when I break an OEM part I am using, I try extremely hard to replace it with an identical OEM part as well, but at the same time, I don't purposely only use OEM to a fault, if I need a longer cable, I'll buy it and put the OEM one in the box. So it's not so much "It needs to work with what it came with", more so, "It needs to have everything it came with")
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I’ve been taking Concerta 54mg and so far feel great, except when eat I get nausea and acid reflux every damn time. Even if I eat something small or plain. Keen to hear how others have helped this or what / how often you eat please when taking it? I don’t want to change the medicine yet as I do really well on it otherwise
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Ok so this started in middle school for me, and I just realized that I’m not the only person with this. Why did it start for you?? I was an extremely anxious and paranoid kid, so when I heard like “Don’t jinx it! Knock on wood!” It became like, “if you don’t do .., then .. will happen” and now I’m here knocking on wood in increments of 5 whenever I have any sort of intrusive thought/say anything that could be “jinxed”. It’s gotten way better in the past couple years, but at one point I’d be laying in bed reduced to tears because I just wanted to sleep but I kept having intrusive thoughts and needed to knock on my bed frame 5,10,15,20,25 times lol. When I’d be in class and I didn’t have any wood I’d try to subtly knock on the side of my head but I honestly probably looked unhinged. Just wanna hear what other people experience, and what’s the deal with specifically knocking on wood
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I found out about a year ago that I have Asperger’s and from that point on word things have gotten slightly more difficult in the sense of now I’m thinking too much on what could be wrong with me even though that this is something that’s normal and the majority of the barriers that most people with Asperger’s have I’ve kind of overcome but some of them or really bad. I.E Overstimulated emotions manic episodes and things like that are harder for me to comprehend and understand why but the social part where it’s hard to communicate is what I find easy does anyone I have bad anger issues and aspergers if so what can I do to try my hardest to stay calm, some things just set me off an example would be I work at a local grocery store and one of the local drunks came through my line and said some out of pocket stuff to an older black lady that came off very racist and it just set me off and I went and bitched him out for even having the audacity to say something so disrespectful, I couldn’t control my emotion I wanted to just tell him he’s being a rude shit that needs to not and the way he was talking back had me more heated cause he called me “kid” when I’m not. Any help would be greatly appreciated or even stories and something that could relate with my situation because I don’t wanna be mad all the time
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It’s one of those days where my COCD gets the best of me. Been feeling really down lately and i feel as if everyone around me either hates or is tired of me. When I feel like this, everything starts to bother me and it piles on to my intrusive thoughts. I’ve been getting a lot of intrusive thoughts about dumb stuff from my past.
I hate that I work so hard to get better and resist compulsion, but one little thing can trigger me and revert all my hard work.
Sorry, I just needed to vent. That helps me. Hopefully this week turns out better.
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I am a long term parter to someone who was diagnosed as having ADHD. As part of my attempt to hold space, learn, grow and be as supportive as possible, I will frequent forums to ask questions to seek some incite and perhaps advice if necessary.
The question is, as someone who is managing ADHD is it possible to come across as a chronic complainer, frequently discontent, dissatisfied and prone to reject any attempts at resolutions?
Is it hard to answer this questions or to have this self awareness? Is perhaps this something that a spouse or partner can speak to observing?
I’m asking because if this can be attributed to her diagnosis, then perhaps I can be and feel less impacted by never feeling like I am able to help, make things better or pacify the situation. Perhaps just listening, being an ear and not taking it personally is the answer? No matter how frequent the complaint?
Is this making sense?
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I would like some guidance with how to stabalise my mindset. I've been diagnosed with Asperger's since I was 17 (23 now) but I still cannot get used to being autistic. In my head there is the real me and the autistic me. In reality there is only one me, right?
There isn't a literal part of my brain that can be blamed for certain actions yet I am clinging to this idea as if it is absolute truth. I've only recently became cognitively aware of this thinking process and how many problems it has caused me. Why is my standard response for failure "it is the autistic part of my brain" but when I prosper I think nothing of it because "that's just who I am".
Is it perhaps low self esteem or cowardice, running away from the truth that I am indeed responsible for how I act?
Apologies if this doesn't make sense.
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So I'm from the UK but I live in Brazil. I was dating a girl for years here in Rio de Janeiro, we split up then got back together many times. One of the main reasons for breaking up was my constant reassurance seeking in terms of asking questions (Did I hit you? Did I commit a crime against you? Etc). I would accidently bump into her on the street as we walked and become convinced I had hit her. When she said that I hadn't hit her I would understand it as that I "had hit her" and I would repeat the same question over and over. Now, in my heart of hearts I knew that I hadn't hit her, and I knew what her first answer was. But it's so hard when your mind and your anxiety try to convince you otherwise.
Anyway, we broke up last year again as I reverted back to my old OCD reassurance seeking and she was losing all attraction to me. Recently, I found out she was with another guy and this has broken me. Since then my OCD has went nuts and I've been having a hard time. I've realised that emotional upheaval can be a massive trigger for OCD.
She is the love of my life. I just wish I could get this monster of OCD under control to be 100% in the moment, and capable of having a normal, healthy relationship.
Anybody else have similar experiences? It's good to know that I'm not alone and that's why this subreddit is awesome
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I feel like I'm drowning when I think how my relationship is crippling. It's going to come to an end, I'm reminded of why I'm still with my SO when he tells me it's because he doesn't give up on things. I know it's supposed to be reassuring, but all it does is ring alarm bells. Warning he could be with anyone else(not you) and not give up on them ( doesn't have to be you). The truth is he would be happier with a person that's not broken like me, and I want that for him before I start breaking him.
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Why does ocd trigger old memories that you want to forget and they appear randomly. Why? What is the treatment?
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OCD
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I keep having thoughts that something will happen to my friends and family while i'm sleeping or away from them and that the only way to stop those thoughts from coming true is to do something that i enforce on myself. Alot of the time it's stuff I really don't want to do or am uncomfortable/scared of doing and it's really stressing me out. I just can't seem to talk myself out of it cause I always worry what if something happens because of me. Do you guys have any tips for how to stop doing this/stop believing the what ifs I tell myself?
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Hey everyone. Long time reader first time poster. I recently started a new job and it's great but I'm working with my ex and I can't stop my intrusive thoughts about her having sex with one of my coworkers. Please help.I know I'm supposed to just accept them but I'm afraid I'm manifesting it happening and I don't know what to do. Even now as I'm typing this I'm counting the Os to make sure they're coming out to a multiple of three. Right now there are twenty seven Os in this statement.
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Right now I am DEEPLY obsessed with dogs. I work at a doggie daycare full time, I come in contact with roughly 100 dogs every day. I even just got a part time job working for a dog trainer. My life basically revolves around dogs. I SMELL like dogs. You’d think that when I come home from work I’d be tired of even thinking about dogs, but I’ll end up spending hours reading articles about the human-canine bond, watching compilation videos of pit bulls, telling people in my life what happened at work with this dog or that dog… so much of my day just revolves around thinking about dogs, it gets kinda annoying sometimes. Do you guys have any obsessions that just feel excessive sometimes?
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So some background my mom was mentally abusive, her ex-husband(stepdad) was 1 of 2 sexual abusers of mine, the neighbors daughter my "friend" who was another. Lately I've been relapsing so badly that im shaking, can't breathe but then i breathe in so much that it hurts to breathe in but i wont release the air, its gotten so bad that i can't talk coherently just choppy but understandable sentences, instead of usual 1 memory I've been getting every single memory and more that i forgot about. Lately I've been daydreaming so much, not only that but I'll be having moments where I'll forget who I am for like 5 maybe 10 seconds forget who i am what I'm doing but then I come back. Then there's times I'm so paranoid around people that I don't want to stay around them in school but I want to cry but can't so I panic. There's times that I have out of body experiences but my body continues to do whatever I was doing like I'd be taking notes in class but then I'm out of my body moving in my memories and my body will continue taking notes fully and when I come back they're done. It scares me when that happens because I didn't learn anything but I copied and finished everything done, I've done it while walking as well while carrying a food tray and sat down at a table then snapped back and I looked at my boyfriend confused and asked how did I get hear this was in 8th grade I'm now in tenth and it's only gotten worse even though I've been better I was released from therapy. When my dad is left with my dad I get paranoid and sit there for ages to make sure she's safe and I know that's not healthy my still boyfriend from 8th grade I told him he ever hurts our kids I will leave him in a heartbeat and make sure he gets heck in jail because my mother stopped my abuse from her ex-husband but kept him in the house. I don't know what to do I've been so bad lately that its taking a toll on my relationship and though my boyfriend is so strong and has been helping me so much when i relapse(not usually this bad) I push him away almost ending the relationship for him to have a "happier life and normal life" though he said he's happiest with me and he said his life isn't normal that he's lives a great life and loves helping me he loves caring for me and helping knowing my family is not the best... but lately because my moms ex-husband isn't behind bars he still sees my siblings (which are his blood related kids, and the reason my abuse happened so long was because i believe if it happened to me it wouldn't happen to them that I was protecting them) Hes not behind bars he still sees them and lately my issues have been happening so bad that I'm somehow messing with my memories thinking I made them up, my mom used to yell at me that i was on her Sh\*t list and my aunt was on there knowing she hated my aunt and my mom said I was on there but it didn't hit me that she hated be till I saw the list a physical list right under my aunts name so i knew my mom hated me, and well that aunt said in the beginning when i told my dad what happened she said what if he was brainwashing me which i know isn't true but her saying that made me start thinking i was making this all up that maybe i had a bad dream like the many I've had, I'm starting to doubt myself and I told my boyfriend and he said "no, i know this happened to you with the great detail and breakdowns you've had the fear you show whenever your siblings are alone with your parents, as awful as it is I know it happened and honey I'm hear for you to vent, cry, and be listened and believed in I'm here for you." Many people at school and home life see me as happy but never see this side of me besides my partner, they don't see my paranoia, doubt, the struggle of remembering to eat because I developed eating disorders that I'm healing from, shaking, breathing, the forgetting who I am, and out of body, they never see all the memories that I live, yet they say I'm living the highlight of life which they aren't wrong I'm the happiest my entire life I've finally been happy living life not wanting to disappear or die, but everyone tries to make it seem like I've lived nothing. I overreact so much to little things but I can't control it. I don't know what to do I'm scared for people to see me at school when I can't control it. My family called me a chemical F\*ck up because I'm pansexual and nonbinary, they see that because I chemically have a difference that make me attracted to shes/hes/theys and thems to them all that I'm a screw up because I'm attracted to those and that they compare me to those who want equality out on protest for that when yes I want equality but I'm doing everything for them to not get angry for those out there when I have done anything. Just what can I do to calm down better to heal better to feel better and not doubt my memories, who I am, and everything in life. I'd like advice.
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I have had a couple of mental compulsions in the past weeks which I avoided thinking of or resolving, the anxiety did go down but I'm not sure exactly when I'm able to think of the particular thoughts and not trigger anxiety and compulsions again.
I do feel sometimes that I would relapse if I encounter the things that caused me the compulsions in the past (things like images or actions), it's hard to get my mind to react normally even after the anxiety goes down.
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I am finding dogs bark and growl at me for no reason at all.
In fact they have done this all my life. I have quite severe ADHD and wonder if this is linked?
I love animals and particularly dogs (funnily enough) I’m just not sure what they are picking up on me.
Usually their owners are shocked and apologetic !! I hate it to much as I would love to stroke dogs and talk to their owners but never have been able to :(
I feel like their owners always think I’m a terrible person and I am really not (i wouldn’t hurt a fly and very loving, this is what hurts the most).
Family and friends Dogs that know me allow me to cuddle the pet without an issue, it’s just when I’m walking down the street and I cross paths with a strangers dogs that they growl and bark.
I know it’s crazy to make the link, but wonder to those who are diagnosed have you experienced this?
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I need to do a research for a school project, but everytime I try to focus I end up just watching random videos on YouTube, scrolling through twitter or Reddit, and searching for random topics, like the regions of France or smth like this.
The deadline is due tomorrow and I don't have nothing in my hands, what can I do to be more efficient?
Sorry for any grammatical errors, English is not my first language
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This is not something easy, and it's not going to change your life overnight, but this is a five minute exercise I ask you to try today, and hopefully continue daily if you see that it helps. This reminds me a lot of meditation, but instead focused on working against our active brain.
Set a timer for 5 mins.
Before hitting start, recognize if you're ruminating or not. You probably are, or at least are giving attention to some thought that causes you distress as we with OCD often are. Recognize how that feels.
When the timer starts, focus your attention away. Look out the window, do anything, but actively give zero attention to your obsession. This is not easy, your mind is going to keep wanting to go back to it, and every time it does just bring your attention away. That thought is not going to go anywhere, it'll feel like a nasty cloud in the back of your head, but just let it stay there.
The timer goes off. Now you're done. So maybe you focused and ruminated for 4 mins, that's okay - but maybe 1 min of that five you didn't even notice your. Do you think if you practiced and kept working at it you might be able to build up that time? I think you could.
If this helped at all, I ask you dig into the articles of (Dr. Greenberg) [https://drmichaeljgreenberg.com/articles/] and if you are able reach out to his practice. Give it a shot and lets discuss, what worked for you and what hasn't?
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Are they still considered intrusive thoughts if they stem from a real event? I know intrusive thoughts don’t have a origin, and I deal with some that are that way. Although, most of mine comes from something that I really did. Do I still treat these the same way? I always read that intrusive thoughts are just thoughts, but I deal with real event.
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OCD
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There used an OCD support group that met every other Wed that met at a Starbucks in the suburb of Rocky River. The group seemed to fizzle out in late 2018/early 2019. Does anyone know of the group, or if it no longer exists would anyone in the Cleveland area be interested if I (try) and create one?
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OCD
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I thought I could admit my thoughts to her. Thought I can trust her. When we broke up, and yeah I kept annoying her trying to talk and didn't give space but didn't give her the right to post me on Facebook and say I'm a predator and let the world know I've had intrusive thoughts of aweful things. Really painted me to be this monster. And of course people put their 2 sense and judge the fuck out-of me. I'd never act on these thoughts I do not desire them. I thought I could trust her. She deleted the post because my mom's bf spoke to her and she deleted it but still. What the fuck. I fucking already beat myself up over these thoughts and wanted to not exist because of these thoughts. I haven't tried to harm myself but still. I told her I get these thoughts and I showed her this page and videos and I think articles but still. I get left for it? Then put on blast. Wow, really makes me feel better. I hope she sleeps good at night knowing what the fuck she did. With 0 regrets . It feels great .
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OCD
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Have you ever lost anything important or that was valuable to you? Do you easily get frustrated when you search in every possible place that the item could be in and it is nowhere to be found? I wouldn't say that I constantly lose things, but it happens more often than it should. About more than half the time when I lose something, I never end up finding it. I have spent several hours of my life looking for things that I have never ended up finding. I know that we all misplaced things or have lost something at some point. The other night I went out to the bar with some college guys. I have met these college guys before, but I don't know them that well. I was walking downtown where all the bars are last Saturday night and I saw these guys who I have hung out with before. They invited me to tag along with them so I did. We went into 3 different bars, but I didn't drink. I still had to show my driver's license before I entered the bar. On Sunday evening the next day, I noticed that my driver's license was missing from my wallet. I thought that I had put my ID back in my wallet after I had shown it the bouncer. I checked my pockets and I even went to the house of the college guys that I had hung with because I went back to their house after the bars. I couldn't find it there either. My theory as to what happened to it is that I put it loose in my pocket with my phone and when I went to grab my phone out of my pocket, it must have fallen out. I just don't know where it had fallen out or if somebody picked it up. Cards easily stick to my phone and end up falling on the ground without me realizing it. I once had a gift card in my pocket where I keep my phone and I had taken my phone out of my pocket and looked at it for a few minutes and noticed my gift card was lying on the ground. I never felt or heard it fall out. I had to go to the BMV on Monday and get myself another license because I couldn't find mine anywhere. I had to pay $20 to get a new one. While it's not the end of the world that I lost my ID, it is frustrating because I've had that license for 3 years and it was still good for another year until I have to get it renewed. I'm still going to have to get my license renewed next year even with the replacement one that I just got. From now on, I'm not going to put any loose cards in my pocket where I keep my phone.
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recently i’ve been having an issue with sleep. i’ve always had sleep issues but it’s usually with going to bed too late, not waking up too early. every morning, i wake up at 5am-6am, sometimes even earlier, and just can’t go back to bed. it’s like i’m wide awake already. 6 is fine if i’m working that day but wow, is it annoying to be wide awake at 5am on a day off. it’s not even an appropriate time to get stuff done at that point. my cat’s schedule is getting all weird too because i normally feed her after i get up so she’s been expecting breakfast two hours early (she gets real loud for food)
i assume this is an adhd thing because it’s been the cause of my wonky sleep schedules in the past. my dr increased my zenzedi ER by 5mg this week, maybe that’s the issue(?) anyone else have this? how can i fix it??
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ADHD
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Hope that title makes sense. Pretty much, I have OCD (main themes being ROCD and Real Event), and while I have support groups I am a part of, I am wondering if there are any support groups for my partner?
My husband has been incredible through all of this, but I know that he struggles because of it. He also has said that he feels like he can’t really tell his friends or family about his struggles, because they don’t understand OCD and wouldn’t get it. He talks to me, but I know he limits what he says about his suffering because he doesn’t want to make me feel worse/guilty.
So, are there any support groups for people whose partners have OCD that he can join? Anything helps. I just want him to know there’s a community of people who understand what it’s like to live with somebody suffering from OCD, and that he’s not the only one.
Thanks so much
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OCD
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Has anyone taken this for intrusive/obsessive thoughts OCD? What is your opinion?
I’m thinking about ditching Prozac because I don’t feel like it’s working and asking my doctor to try Anfranil.
Thanks!
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OCD
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I was prescribed Focalin, which at first did not work. The second drug I was prescribed to me was Wellbutrin, which just made me angry and mad at the world I don’t know why. Today I want to go back and be treated for my ADHD because lately it’s been getting worse and worst everyday.
Should I talk to my doctor about a different medication?
I’ve recently signed up with HRA so now I have cushion to get better medication to help my ADHD.
Are there any recommendations?
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ADHD
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hi people.
I am looking for recommendations for in ear buds that could help me
I want
- some kind of noise reduction that doesn't muffle the sound
- discreet as I'm going to a big very nt school and don't feel like explaining my neurodivergence to everyone lol
I would like
- not just earplugs, but being able to listen to music and stuff as well
-being able to turn the noise reduction up and down for my needs
- not too expensive (max ~250 usd)
I have looked at the Nuheara IQbuds2 MAX, but they are really pricy.
they would be something that I would use maybe 50% of the time in school, preferably not all the time, but also be comfortable to wear for long periods.
does anyone have any experience?
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aspergers
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These past few days I couldn’t stop thinking about things I used to own that made me happy from my childhood and from my teenage years. I kept getting obsessive thoughts and images of the clothes, movies, toys, and jewelry that I used to have that I gave away too soon in a rush without fully thinking through. Now I completely regret giving though things that had special memories away by donating them to thrift stores and selling them in yard sales. I keep getting random thoughts that they still might be saved in storage or around my home but when I check they aren’t there because my mind thinks that I have those things saved. I start to have thoughts where my mind researches what they exactly look like and then I try to look all over the Internet which then turns stressful trying to buy those because of the prices and sellers. All of these thoughts become so stressful because then I that’s all I start to think about and then it’s also hard for me to sleep and do daily tasks because those thoughts distract me. All I wish for is all the things I gave away to return so that so could have a second chance. Is that possible? How can those things I miss come back? A lot of these thoughts also come from traumas these past few years that have caused me these thoughts and I am hoping to have some happiness back with a second chance to enjoy those things that have some memories. It makes me feel so sad I won’t be able to see those things again and it causes me grief.
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OCD
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Do you ever find that you get random words or phrases stuck in your head? For instance, it could be the phrase "red lorry, yellow lorry" just playing over and over again on an endless loop. This is something I get a lot but it's usually something more disturbing than that. It's driven me insane at times.
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OCD
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Hi guys. I am newly diagnosed with ADHD combined type from a Psychologist at my school. I brought my diagnosis to my home doctor to ask about medications and she made me feel really shitty. She asked me if I had taken calculus yet and if I had done well in it, and I said yes I loved calculus and I got As, and she said "You don't have ADHD. Nobody with ADHD can get an A in calculus." ??? What. Not true. PLEASE respond and back me up if you have ADHD and like calc/math. Also, guess it doesn't matter if I fail other easier classes that I'm just not as interested in. wtf
She also told me that I'm just at a tough point in my life (in college) and that I should reevaluate my goals and expect less of myself. Right now I'm struggling to go to class, do assignments, show up to appointments, eat 3 meals a day, pay parking tickets etc. I started crying about my 5 parking tickets that I've gotten so far this year during the appointment, and she told me that everybody gets parking tickets. Didn't give me any info on meds which was all I was asking for. Anybody have advice on next steps? Or how not to feel like an imposter after this?
thanks :(
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Hey everyone! I'm an engineering student, and I'm struggling a lot in my current internship. I feel that these issues may be caused (or at least worsened) by my ADHD, so I thought I'd share them here and see if anyone has had similar experiences.
With every single engineering job I've had (I'm on my fourth internship), there's always been a huge learning curve at the start, where I feel pretty lost and have to ask a ton of questions to clarify things. My first two companies were pretty good about being patient and giving me the resources I needed to succeed, but I've had much worse experiences at my two most recent companies.
At both of these companies, colleagues have said things like "ask as many questions as possible" and "asking questions is the best way to learn." I've taken these words at face value, and I ask questions almost immediately after running into roadblocks; I do this because getting an answer from a colleague within a few minutes seems much more efficient than spending an hour brute-forcing a solution by myself.
**However (again, at** ***both*** **companies), I've apparently asked "too many" questions, because my colleagues seem to be irritated whenever I bring them new questions; they've also started telling me to figure things out on my own as a "problem-solving exercise" and a "way to challenge myself."** I understand the value of figuring things out on my own, but most of my issues pertain to *really specific* things, like settings on proprietary company software or industry conventions that I would have no way of knowing on my own. In my opinion (as I mentioned above), it doesn't make sense for me to rack my brain for an hour when my colleague can give me a few-word answer within minutes.
Things haven't gotten too bad at my current company, but at my last one, my manager started questioning my work ethic; he said that I was "not invested in the job" and "cutting corners" by asking questions for most issues instead of taking the time to find answers independently.
**It seems like there's an "unspoken rule" regarding how many questions I'm supposed to ask when starting a new job, and everybody knows the rule except for me.** It also seems like things are never explained *completely*, so it takes me much longer than everybody else to wrap my head around small details. I'm capable of problem-solving and creative thinking, but I can't do that if I don't have these base-level details. **Also, turning every question about a minor detail into a problem-solving treasure hunt makes things** ***exhausting*** **for me, and I've encountered it at multiple companies.**
Am I in the wrong? I feel like I'm the bad guy/incompetent employee here, even though I'm only an intern. Can anyone relate to this? If so, are there roles, companies, industries, etc. that are not like this? I feel like most corporate/office jobs are not ADHD-friendly, and this is one of the reasons for that (in my opinion). Do you have any suggestions for how to cope with this?
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ADHD
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how do you manage with procrastination like this? i cleaned my room and got ahead on other assignments but i simply cannot get myself to watch this lecture. i think ot might be executive dysfunction related. i feel a blockage where anything else seems easier. i hate lectures compared to assignments because theyre so boring and hard to focus on. any advice on this is much appreciated.
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ADHD
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i’ve been taking adderall for like a week straight bc of finals but i didn’t take any today and it’s just been fucking awful. it’s like i finally experienced some peace in my everyday life and now im back to being miserable. i know it’s recommended to take tolerance breaks but if its gonna be like this idk if i’d want that
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ADHD
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I'm terrified of intimacy. I'm terrified of getting with a girl as when I do I imagine I've done something with her in the bed, committed some sort of sexual crime. I ask "did I do anything you didn't want?" "Was it OK I did this/that?". Then the girl says "yes, it's all good", but my mind kinda goes blank and I can't accept that she said "yes, it's all good", so I ask again "what did you say?", then this process goes on and on asking the same questions over and over thinking I'm a criminal.
The girl starts off like "it's OK, you can ask as much as you want", but after a few days or weeks they usually get angry and lose attraction to me. I'm a tall, 35 year old handsome man, but I can't hold down a relationship. The girl knows that I'm nervous and I can't perform, as I'm so terrified. This girl that I'm seeing is in love with me but I need to end it as I can't relax. I feel so alone. Lots of girls are interesting in me but I'm so afraid of letting them in, and that's when my OCD goes into overdrive
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OCD
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everything is hopeless. i want to die but i dont. should i go to the ER???? I had one experience when I was 15 and they just sent me home with a social worker. what are your experiences with going to the ER or psych ward?? Can i bring my phone with me if i go? Idk what to do anymore. Is it normal to want to go just to get a break?
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depression
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I can't. Im just done. Not tonight, but soon. This is too much for me. This is too much for anyone. It doesn't matter who you are or what you've been through. There's always a limit. I've been past it for so long. I've been dying for so long. Im not doing this again. This is the last time. At the end of it I'll either die isolate myself away from the world. After this, Im getting rid of my phone and all social media. All electronics. Everything. This is the last time
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depression
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I told her I was depressed and anxious about taking the GED test like I wouldn’t pass and she started saying how she doesn’t believe that I am the way I am and I’m making a big deal over nothing. I’m diagnosed with depression and anxiety and other things and it was sad to know that she doesn’t think it’s real and that I’m struggling all because she says “I love you” to me that I should be ‘normal’
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depression
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Title basically.
And why do they cause side effects in the first place ?
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depression
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So I may be a bit of an oddball. I was diagnosed with OCD and PTSD early last month, but I've been dealing with OCD since I was around 15 (I'm 30 now). My theme has always been my sexual orientation and whether or not I am gay or straight or bi. Basically I obsess with what my label is.
Here's where it gets interesting. I was teased pretty relentlessly for being effeminate and seeming gay by a couple kids in high school and even had a teacher ask me very loudly if I was gay in front of the entire class. This teacher was from Australia (I was living in Africa at the time) and this was back in 2005 when Australians were pretty homophobic still. This trend continued well into my late 20's and I've had many situations throughout my life where people just assumed I was gay. So you can imagine what that did for my obsessions and where the PTSD came from.
So fast forward to now, in short I pretty much just go through life assuming everyone thinks that I am gay from the PTSD and then the OCD makes me freak the hell out about it for hours and hours pretty much every day. It's a terrible mix let me tell ya. Just thought I'd share my story. I'm really trying to stay positive and I know how trivial this can sound, but it really feels like living hell Sometimes. I hope you all are doing well and god speed
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OCD
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I work several hours a week, my boss every time ask fro changes,and he said that i always lating all work, but he ask every time more this the date never will be ok, my healt is very bad and i dont know what i have to do
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depression
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I know jumping from interest to interest is something that we tend to do but I am curious if there was something that you stuck with for a long time without losing interest?
For me, there was one sport that stuck with me until my sophomore year of college, cheerleading! Something about throwing people in the air and trusting your body to flip upside down was always so scary but so exciting.. ugh i miss it lol!
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ADHD
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I do not know how to express what is going on in my head. It has always been difficult for me. I can not talk to people and I do not know why. It used to be a lot easier, but the longer I live, the worse it gets. I really feel like i have never been myself. I do not take any steps for my own development, apart from studying (if you can call it that in my case). I am stuck in time and just looking around while everyone around me moves forward. Everything that used to bring me joy now brings me no relief. I hate people and avoid them. I have lost all my old friends because I can not keep in touch with them. I think there is no place in the world for me anymore. Sometimes I try to get away from it by drinking and taking drugs, but it's pointless. I have sought help from my family, as they are my only support, but they are unable to understand me. I was in a car accident some time ago and often wonder what else am I doing here. I regularly think about killing myself, but each time I am reminded of my family and give up. I'll spend Christmas again at home, thinking about how much life I have already lost and what I am missing. I do not care about the new year because the last few years have already exhausted me and I feel dead.
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depression
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I used to be a pretty sensitive and caring kid but moderate depression/anxiety has slowly eroded my ability to really care about others and made me a very cold person. This of course makes me feel guilty and selfish which only deepens my anger towards my self. I want to to overcome this but the only way I’m able to be ok with myself is by cutting everybody out of my life. Of course this just leads to me feeling like I’m wasting my existence. I don’t really know how to escape this cycle but any advice would be appreciated.
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depression
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Sometimes it's hard to figure out what exposure should be.
What you DON'T want becomes complicated because I WANT to do the therapy right
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OCD
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I'm so tired of my scars. They're like a public mark of shame. People sometimes ask me why I'm always wearing a long-sleeve jacket even in 100+ F heat, and that's why: I'm ashamed of my scars.
They remind me of the worst times of my life. They give me so much pain even to this day. I'm tired of wearing these curses, these burdens. I wish they'd go away. I wish I could fully heal.
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ptsd
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so i found taht typing fanfic shelps my racing/intrusive/pbbsesive thoughts or whatever they are i dont know yet.its curious why does this work is it because my mind is focusing on something else its very curious?pls let me know if you have an idea of why this helps??but i am super pumped i found something to help
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ADHD
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Why do the smallest thing makes me cry … everything feels so overwhelming. I don’t know what to do anymore. I just want it all to end. End my suffering .. I’m so tired of being sad. Why can’t I just be happy for once. Why do I mess up everything I do and every relationship I have. Why am I no one #1. I wish I was never born. I wish I had the guts to actually go through with it. Nothing good ever happens to me. I always feel so empty it’s numbing. Anyway I just needed to write something somewhere.
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depression
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2021 has been the worse year of my life.. I bought a new car and OCD didn’t allow me to enjoy it, I got into my dream school and OCD didn’t allow me to enjoy that either. I’m just really tired of having to give into compulsions, it makes the people around me either look at me like i’m a freak, or worry about me more.. does it get better?
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OCD
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My life is on auto-pilot. I wish I could just stop existing.
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depression
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If I'm doing my thing for quite some time, let's say 2 hours + and someone throws a joke at me or strikes up a short conversation, I can't shift my focus and end up with an evasive response / no response at all, making the situation awkward.
Is it just me or is it an Asperger's thing?
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aspergers
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Sometimes they're quite graphic, other times I wake up with an emotion I'd only visit around the time of my trauma. But night terrors always leave me tense and scared in the morning, and I never really fully move on to the day because of how purely painful and terrifying they are. Have been meditating+ therapy. But other than that, any tips to reduce them?
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ptsd
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As a young kid around 6-7, my elementary school noted my lack of attention and I was diagnosed with ADD shortly after by my doctor.
At that age my parents just threw it off as "being a kid" instead of ADD, so I have *never* been medicated for it. I struggled through most of school by forcing myself to pay attention and graduated. After, I went off to college which of course required *much much more attention* than school. More reading, more studying, more attention to lectures, and basically I became the guy who'd constantly zone out.
I would genuinely go into class with high hopes of learning something, just to start zoning out 15 minutes into a 2 hour lecture. Reading became a real struggle as my brain would mindlessly wander a couple paragraphs in just for me to realize that I couldn't remember a single thing I just read. I would get bored and sleepy. Essentially I just cheated my way throughout all of college almost, learning close to nothing, but I did get a piece of paper that landed me a couple interviews and a few jobs at least....
Fast forward to 4 years after college, and 2 jobs in my career field.
My first job was good, had it for about 3.5 years, although I didn't have the best relationship with my boss. He was a great boss, knew his stuff, and an excellent team worker so I can't fault him at all. I feel that my lack of attention, at times motivation, and forgetfulness left the impression that I was one of those "bare minimum" workers that just desired a paycheck, didn't care about learning new things, and overall didn't care about contributing to better the company. Sure he was nice to me, we'd have small talk, but somewhere underneath you could just tell he held a good deal of frustration with me. He was always a bit harder on me than the other employees.
During meetings and group collaborations, we would go other strategies and I would listen but my brain wouldn't absorb the information. Almost like in one ear out the other. So I would ask questions that were answered just prior, and get laughed at. It always seemed like there was some kind of disconnect with me and the team. The team would be focused on an objective that was spoken about as a group, and I would be the one standing there like "What are we supposed to be doing?" This all went on and repeated itself through my employment.
Eventually I ended up moving, got a new job in the same field, been here for about 6 months and I'm starting to find myself in the same predicament, only it feels like things are getting worse. I constantly feel like there's a disconnect between me and the team, like there's something I wasn't told even though we had a group conversation about it. It seems like I'm becoming more forgetful, not just with work but with every day life.
I feel like it's getting to a point where it's not only affecting work now, but my relationship too simply because I can't pay attention and retain information at the same time. My mind is always wandering, but never focused on the matter at hand. It just seems like my motivation, confidence, forgetfulness, and learning capabilities have all been progressively getting worse compared to a few years ago. Sometimes I feel like a different person today then I did 5 years ago.
I genuinely want to do good in life, I'm still young at 25. I have a desire and ambition to learn and succeeded in my career field, but when It comes down to putting in the work to learn and do what I need to do, I hit the ground running for 5 minutes and then become distracted or I don't retain what I learned, or I just forget it the next day. It's genuinely frustrating and discouraging to try anymore.
I just fear that I won't be able to move forward in life anymore if things continue at this rate. If things get worse, then I fear I'm doomed to fail where I stand now.
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ADHD
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I’ve been saying “HOCD dreams” or “same sex dreams” but I haven’t actually told you guys what was going on because I was too scared to, too scared that it might be too much for you guys to even think I’m straight
I have reoccurring dreams of giving oral, and this isn’t a random thing that just happened, I know exactly why it’s happening. With the nature of HOCD it makes your worse thoughts into a reality and at the beginning of HOCD I remember one day before I went to bed I had this thought “imagine if this thing made me dream of giving oral, that would be the gayest thing ever” and though it didn’t happen on that day, my HOCD took note of that thought because on the same week it happened
Now you see the first time it happened to the dream was pretty vague plus I was in third person so while I did have massive anxiety I was able to use the excuse “well I was in third person so it wasn’t really me” to calm myself down, I didn’t have another dream like this until June (this month), for some reason my HOCD got worse and I had more intrusive thoughts about having the dream I had when my HOCD first started and boom it happened again 2 weeks ago, this time it was extremely vague I wasn’t really sure if I actually did it so I was able to use the excuse of I don’t remember actually doing it so maybe I didn’t really do it in my dream, my HOCD remembered that too.
So today as I’m typing and I woke up like an hour ago, I had another vague dream and I woke up from it, not anxious as I didn’t remember doing it and made the stupid decision to go back to sleep after that one thinking “what’s the chances of it happening again” and when I went to sleep again I had the most graphic dream of it, my HOCD did this so I could use no excuses and it made it vivid as hell, I remember I was desperately trying to wake myself up but it wasn’t working and it was too late, now I can actually say for certain that I did and tbh I want to kill myself, I don’t think I’m gay because of this dream but that was an absolutely gay act and my anxiety is through the roof, it’s really hurting guys I don’t know what to do please help me I’m begging, I wish I never went back to sleep
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OCD
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TL;DR below. Statistics say around 80 percent of us don't have full time jobs. For me, I'm so exhausted I struggle to even get out of bed and brush my teeth, let alone hold a job for 40 hours a week, every week, 40 years straight. My issues with energy levels, depression and severe lack of discipline got so bad I became homeless twice. I keep telling myself it will get better, because when I was 14 I was still able to go to school and brush my teeth and shower and all the other normal things that are required of us in life, and if I could do it then why not now, but really I've been unable to keep a job or stay in school/college for longer than 3 months at a time for 6 years now. Last school year I finished was around age 15/16 and despite 4-6 other attempts it just went downhill from that. I'm in therapy, but starting to wonder if I will EVER be able to hold that full time job and financial independence I so desperately want. Go to school/college 5 days a week like when I was younger or if the loss of that ability is permanent. My depression is mostly gone now, but the severe lack of discipline in combination with ridiculous exhaustion has only gotten worse. My therapist says this is a thing many young people with autism struggle with, but hasn't told me the outcome. I wonder if a full time job is an attainable goal at all, maybe in 5 or 10 years, or if I should accept it likely won't happen and try to be happy with my life as it is. I can't be happy now, because all I can think about and compare myself with is a future version of myself that might never happen.
So what I want to know is whether anyone who had the same struggles with severe depression and/or discipline issues (mainly the latter) was able to overcome them after so many years, and is now able to hold a full time job. I know everyone is different and only I can find out for myself what it's going to be, but some realistic examples of other people with the same struggles would help out a lot. I don't want to be spending the next 10 years beating myself up over not being able to do something and desperately trying anyway when it's likely to never happen. Anyway. Thanks so much for reading/commenting, have a nice day
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aspergers
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I don't have anyone to share this with so was hoping to find some perspective here.
My first marriage was controlling and very violently abusive. I am 16 years removed from that situation. I have been married to my wonderful current husband 6 years. It took me 10 years of healing to get into another marriage. I have improved and healed tremendously in that time.
The issue with my current husband is he has a temper. Not towards me or our kids but for instance, if he's trying to fix something and it doesn't go right he will yell loudly and swear. It triggers me. I get nervous and tense. I feel sick, and helpless. Sometimes I will yell at him because I can't handle it. Sometimes I just put in headphones and try to ignore it.
The thing is he isn't doing anything wrong, or doing anything to me. I have talked to him about my PTSD because earlier in our relationship I was more reactionary to things but I have gotten better. He just doesn't understand it at all. To him it was over 15 years ago I should be over it.
How can I improve my response and/or help him understand how I am feeling? Thank you if you read all of this.
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ptsd
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lmao what type of ocd is this?? is this even ocd? I turned 22 this year and for some reason i’m having a melt down over it, i hate my career that i’ve been stuck in since 18 but i feel like it’s too late and this is my life now :( i’m only getting older too?? i was 20 at the start of this pandemic and i feel like this time has just been wasted :( idk what to do this is so scary and overwhelming
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OCD
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I've had depression ever since I can remember. My first memory's of wanting to die was when I was 7 or 8, my first time self harming was also about that age.
It's somewhat gotten better over the years, the depression isn't gone, but I stopped SHing.
The numb phases have mostly gone away, but the sad phases of depression have gotten more common.
I sometimes wake up and just cry my eyes out for hours and hours, feeling overwhelmed and irritated by everything.
The fact that I'm an EMT and covid is killing us right now doesn't help.
Usually I get my bouts of sadness after work, but today I have to work the late shift and ever since I woke up I just can't stop crying.
Everything sets me off. I dropped my croissant and it made me cry for a literal hour.
At work and in my family I am known as the happy, outgoing, confident colleague. People come to me for jokes and I sometimes get laughed at for being "too positive".
Every single day I come into work and greet everyone with a smile and a "this is going to be a great shift!"
Sometimes colleagues confide in me if they have problems and I always make them smile.
Same with my patients.
But I just. I can't anymore. It's all one big fucking act. If I don't smile and pretend to have my shit together I break down.
I never got better, I just learned how to act better.
Every single day I drive to work wondering if anything I do is worthwhile.
Outside I am thriving.
I have a job, I have shallow friendships, I get men and women who want to sleep with me.
But I barely have any deep connections and my personal life is crumbling.
At this point, I have pushed away most of my close friends.
I'm not confident, I'm narcissistic and have to look perfect or I'll start obsessively working out and restrict my eating again.
I'm not outgoing, I am paranoid of other people hating me and have to be friends with everyone around me.
I'm not happy, I make jokes so I don't start crying again.
I was always perfect. With the seemingly good family, the friendships, the looks. People want to _be_ me. People are _jealous_ of my life. People see the smile and the Instagram pictures, but they don't realise that I learned how to pretend. They don't realise that self harm can be hidden and social interactions studied.
I am holding on for dear life, but nobody sees me struggle.
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depression
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Hey, everyone. So I’ll cut straight to the point: I did an in-depth study of WWI, including analysis of photographs, diaries, letters, the works. And now, thanks to an overactive imagination aiding the fleshing out of the human side of the war (specifically the Somme), I’m experiencing phenomena that seem to be related to post-traumatic stress. Certain things (fireworks, gunshots, and other sudden, loud noises) are mildly unsettling in good days, and utterly terrifying on bad days. Sometimes, when I’m alone and everything is quiet, I swear I can hear artillery. It’s not as bad as it was, and I’ve gone to a therapist about it, but it sometimes gets to the point that it’s debilitating. I’m wondering if anyone else has experienced something like this? I want to stress: I’m not military in any way; I am very thoroughly a civilian, and have nothing but the utmost respect for the military. This just seemed like the place to ask about this.
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ptsd
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I prefer to not tell others that I was diagnosed unless it's necessary. I have only told a chosen few about my being diagnosed. To my knowledge nobody else is any wiser to the fact
I know I shouldn't be and the chances are it wouldn't happen but I fear opening up about my aspergers to be viewed or treated any differently than I am
I also view it as something personal about myself which I wouldn't readily share with others, unless, as I said, it was necessary, or if I was close to the person
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aspergers
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I’m down to one person for social support. I’m in my late 40s and it’s been a total struggle to find a kind, intelligent, and patient person to socialize with. I had a friend like this back in 2016 but there’s been a huge gap in my social life and my supports.
The offer to pay $28 an hour to be a companion still stands. I gotta finish editing this movie and start producing episodes of Aspie in a Bowtie. Emotional support during these projects are critical and I need a creative yet reliable person for support in the creative process
I’m freaking out because don’t want to get sicker and I need social supports to maintain
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aspergers
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Hello everyone. I’m currently on an ADHD medication (won’t name because I have no clue if my family is on Reddit), and have been for a while now. It has this really bad side effect where my mood becomes really bad right after I take it. My co-workers have noticed this too, and they have asked why I look so damn depressed. It passes after a while, but it really takes a toll on my day.
Has anyone else had this happen? Any tips on overcoming it?
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ADHD
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TLDR: Have some symptoms of ADHD, only became present in high school and are only present (as far as I understand) in one place; however, I don't think its anxiety or depression so I'm looking for answers to make me feel less scared or embarrassed about bringing up the possibility of having ADHD.
So, long story short, I'm a first-year college student who, despite my promises that I would actually get my work done with having a fresh start, can't concentrate for shit, gets distracted, takes hours to read stuff other people finish in 15 minutes, zones out in class, always restless and can't relax, can't sustain any task for over 10 minutes, never finishes what I need to do, forgets about various tasks, etc...
Despite having some symptoms of ADHD I'm scared of even bringing it up to a mental health professional since I lack some of the things that typical diagnoses have. Even my mom (who's a licensed psychiatrist who diagnoses ADHD in people my age) has made it clear that there is absolutely no possibility that I could have it since I only have symptoms in school (and when doing schoolwork at home) and only "developed" symptoms of ADHD in high school.
Now, I know lots of people would say that I might have something else going on with me besides a developmental disorder (i.e. anxiety, depression, etc...). However, I was diagnosed and have since been treated for both depression and anxiety (and no longer exhibit as extreme symptoms due to taking 75mg of Zoloft a day) so I'm unsure if that would actually be the cause (especially since these symptoms were present before I developed extreme depression and anxiety my senior year of high school which I've been able to slowly get over- even making it to the point where I can get up in front of the class without having an anxiety attack).
But I digress. I'm seeing a school counselor on Friday but I'm super scared to bring up even the possibility of maybe having symptoms of ADHD because I'm afraid they'll just dismiss it and laugh at me for even thinking that as a possibility. At the same time, I'm desperate for answers and just want to get to a point where I can read more than a page every 15 minutes or actually stay engaged with a lecture instead of doodling or zoning out completely and missing essential information :(
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ADHD
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So i think i have ptsd from being raped like a year and a half ago and im happy to have gotten away from him and im in a relationship now and sometimes when we have sex i start to have bad anxiety like im on high alert. Then i start to feel confused and scared and my boyfriend is very helpful. But nothing helps, i start to cry i cant really move or talk. I think everything is my fault because i ruin the moment, and i can shake badly or make noises with my mouth or start moving around my arms like im living in a dream but my eyes are always closed. When i try to talk nothing comes out but when stuff does it sounds like ive never talked before. I stutter, move my mouth weird, spread words into pieces. I just want to know if these are normal and what my bf and i could do to try and help me in those situations.
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ptsd
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It seems like my mind gets stuck on embarrassing things I did as a horny teen, ever since I realized I was sexually assaulted as a kid. I know OCD/trauma caused me to do these things, but still, my mind gets stuck until I have something else to worry about usually.
Does it ever go away?
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OCD
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Sorry, but this is my first post. I am kinda confused here.
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OCD
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I made a post about two years ago on here, I deleted it shortly after and came back a year later explaining that it was still not any better.
I am now back again because, well, it's still not any better. It's gotten worse, is getting worse everyday and it's going to continue like this until I give in and kill myself.
I talked about how I felt suicidal and how the feelings were always there but at times they'd get really bad and I'd end up feeling close to acting on the thoughts. I was able to control it and not act on them, mostly due to the fact that I had a lot of guilt and fear surrounding doing it.
That guilt and fear surrounding it is not there anymore.
Back when I last posted here I knew deep down that I wouldn't act on the urges to hurt myself but I knew things were going to get worse and that I would, someday, end up taking my life. I think that day is pretty close. It could be tonight, tomorrow, next week, I don't know when, I just know that I will.
A couple of nights ago I fell asleep next to a bunch of pills I was planning to take, they are still with me and that's going to be my way out.
Everything I talked about then is pretty much still present.
I still have no motivation for anything, my sleeping pattern is still the same, I barely have any friends, I still feel worthless, I see no point in anything and anything positive I try to do somehow always ends up coming crashing down.
I moved to a new school last year (let's just call this school B and my previous one A) around February where I made new friends, two that I was close with for a while. I was happier in that school and more comfortable. I was friends with one of them for a year or so before they became distant. I tried talking to them and they kept saying how they miss me and that we should hang out, we never did and they haven't talked to me since.
The other person I was friends with up until a month or two ago. Their confidence use to be extremely low. They recently became a lot more confident and happier with themselves, along with this change came a sudden shift of personality. We had a couple of arguments and I don't think we're friends anymore. I'm not going to go into detail about that because I feel it's not necessary. I honestly don't know if the main problem of me barely having friends is myself.
Long story short I got kicked out of school B, they gave me permission to work from home then phoned my mum a week later saying I had to go back to my school A due to not attending??? I moved from school A for specific reasons and refused to go back. They made an offer with me that if I attended, I could work in a separate classroom and leave early. I was happy enough with this idea and agreed. Before they kicked me out I was due to sit my exams, when I was moved back to school A they said they didn't have any evidence of my work (they did) and that I had to start over. I was left with no grades and there was no point in me staying, so I left school and decided to look at other options.
I started college a few months ago and it was going well until last week. I had decided to stay behind to continue working on my assessments. My teacher approached me and questioned me about how I was feeling. I told her I didn't want to talk about anything relating to how I feel but she persisted with the questions and I ended up admitting to feeling suicidal. She called someone else into the room and neither of them would let me leave, they kept me there for three hours and had talked about taking me to the hospital. They phoned my mum and told her that *I* had approached my teacher and admitted to all this. They eventually talked about me going home and I said I'd get the bus, they were suspicious of this and said they'd take me home themselves because they didn't trust me and that they'd phone my mum again. My mum told them that it was fine and to let me get the bus.
*This* is specifically the reason I don't talk to anyone about how I feel. They either don't care or they end up taking things too far.
My motivation in doing things isn't there, I try and just get on with things as if there's nothing wrong because if somehow, one day, I end up okay, I don't want to be stuck with nothing.
Last year this guy pressured me into a relationship with him. If I didn't give him the answer he wanted to things, he'd threaten suicide. He'd constantly have his hands on me (not in a sexual way) unless someone could see us. He asked if he could kiss me and I had said no. He did it anyway, twice and then left to go home. I texted him explaining I had said no and I asked him why he did it anyway. He phoned me, started crying and went on and on about how he felt really bad then gave the excuse that "he just felt like it.", if I hadn't have brought it up he would never have said anything about it. He made me sit on him and sleep in the same bed as him. Despite this only happening for a few months, it felt like longer. I finally got out of it. I feel bad for still feeling bad and disgusted about it because people have gone through much worse. Thinking about what happened makes me feel unclean (?) I don't know any other way to describe it.
I have a lot more I want to write but I think I'm going to end this here. I didn't intend to write this much, I apologize for the long post.
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depression
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Este es el único "r/" con asperger que me interesa pero no entiendo nada
¿Que hago?
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aspergers
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This is a big one.
This particular client was among the first who started hiring me consistently as a freelance writer, and they did in the middle of the whole pandemic thing. To me, this was pre diagnosis, so I've been consistently missing on deadlines and apologizing and not really knowing what was going on.
Yet they kept hiring me somewhat regularly. At some points I've been able to make ends meet thanks to this particular client.
The last couple months have been tough for me, and my performance re: deadlines has been way worse. To the extent that last friday I got an email asking about the last 5 articles I had to write. And I literally froze. The guilt, the shame, you know all that.
Coincidentally, I also started on meds last friday. Although meds have not been a magical solution, they helped me push through and write these articles. Today I delivered them AND explained about my situation. It was a looooong email, and I shared my thoughts and feelings honestly and vulnerably. And I apologized, because despite being my ADHD something beyond my control, not answering emails and consistently proposing unrealistic deadlines were entirely decisions I made.
I did not tell them about my ADHD hoping they'll pity me, I just want them to understand. To understand that, despite them being one of my priorities, I just *couldn't* do the things.
**I know telling clients/bosses about ADHD is a very personal matter, and every situation varies widely.** While for some it might mean termination, telling this particular client about my condition was *liberating*. Now, they very well might decide to let go of me as a collaborator, and honestly, I wouldn't blame them: I made big mistakes beyond my ADHD. If they do, I'll move forward as I've done every time.
**I'm not encouraging anyone to tell their clients/bosses about their ADHD.** I've done it because I know I can afford a living if they drop me, and I don't know what is going to happen now. If you're hesitant, by all means: consider all the possible outcomes. What do you get? Is it worth it?
I know to me it was, whatever comes next.
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ADHD
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Why does life suck why have I never been happy I’m only 16 and I’m so disabled in my head I can’t do anything but it here and watch everone else be happy
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depression
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I've been ... my whole life, I've been upset about the way black people have to live, always afraid of the police. I've been stopped by the cops and never had to think twice. I backed into a cop car, and he directed traffic to help me get out of the parking lot. But now that my mask isn't working anymore, I know I could give a wrong answer or make a wrong move and they're going to murder me.
You need to add the H:
[ttps://www.bbc.co.uk/news/world-us-canada-58414183](https://www.bbc.co.uk/news/world-us-canada-58414183)
It's us, too. Police are killing autistic people all the time. If the police are sued, the community picks up the tab. The victim pays the price again.
Police dedicate themselves to a life of zero productivity, and they spend their professional lives coming AFTER the crime. They can't prevent your murder. Your murder is good business for them. They do not protect. That's a plain lie.
How are police not required to have at least a Bachelor's Degree? They're morons. They're gym teachers, and they're killing people with zero consequences.
They need to be individually sued into destitution. Police who murder must be destroyed. Their kids have to become poor and come to hate their murderer parent.
And that 'thin blue line' flag? It's desecration. Everyone who has a blue line flag is a fascist.
Fascism isn't really an Asperger's topic, but the continuous murder of autistic people is.
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aspergers
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I really need to try good quality NCH for obvious reasons but I am worried I won't hear if something is wrong.
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aspergers
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I was diagnosed with OCD and started meds a year ago, among other things one of my major struggles has been with bugs. I would be terrified of bugs to the point where if I saw one, I would start crying and panicking. my brain would be convinced that my house was infested, that they were living on my skin/hair, in my food and were crawling all over me. I would even get hives just having those thoughts. I still don’t like a lot of bugs, but lately I noticed I haven’t been killing them when I find them inside the house, I’ve been able to take them outside without freaking out, and I actually found myself observing some of them and thinking they were actually cool. I still inspect my food when I make anything at home, but i’m able to eat food i make for myself again & not obsess over my fears. I honestly never thought I could ever be okay with bugs, so this is huge for me.
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OCD
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Basically the title says it all. I feel like I can't ever get on top of anything. The days I feel motivated, my kids decide to be whiny and clingy and I can't get anything done. Which then makes me angry and irritable, so the last thing I want to do is be around my kids. It then sends me into a depression because I feel like I'm failing my kids and my husband because my house is a mess.
Ugh. I just hate ADHD. I wish I didn't have it. I want to be normal.
I'm in Adderall and it works when I take it, but I have to decide which days to take it because I hate wasting that motivation on days my kids are whiny.
Anyways. Just needed to vent to people who get the struggle.
Any advice would be greatly appreciated 💓
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ADHD
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YALL
I 1) WOKE UP ON TIME
2) DID ALMOST ALL MY MORNING CHORES
3) GOT OUT OF THE HOUSE AT 8:30 AM!!!!
I HAVE BEEN STRUGGLING TO DO THIS SINCE LIKE MARCH I AM SO FUCKING PUMPED 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭
note: Started Jornay PM yesterday. Ya take it at night and it dissolves by the time you wake up. Good results so far! I've also *nearly* fulfilled a nearly decade long mission of finding the perfect Todo system for me, which was a big help with the chores. If I could cry I would 🥲
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ADHD
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Things are going pretty decently that I'm afraid it's about time something bad will happen. It's like I know some greater power is ready to pull the rug from under me like normal. It's like I'm afraid to be happy because this state of being is what I know. It's not like I enjoy being sad but it's like what I'm so used to im afraid I don't know how to feel properly. If I get my hopes up too much the fall will hurt even more
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depression
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Major trigger warning for this for paranoid thoughts.
I struggle with thinking that everyone is out to get me all the time. The only people I trust are my parents and my brother, and even they are sometimes scary to me. I want to live alone, but I don’t know if I could ever feel safe. I want to build my own tiny home, so I will be able to control how secure it is.
I’ve thought of putting a reinforced door up, getting guard dogs, a gun license (even though self defence is not really legal in Canada). It just doesn’t feel like it would be enough. I’m scared of being scared. I know the answer to this is actually therapy.
Is there anyone else who lives alone and struggles with paranoia?
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OCD
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Not saying I feel suicidal but lately I been wishing I felt like it like I wish I could have the guts to just end everything but I don’t and don’t think I ever could but I wish I did if that makes sense has anyone felt this like I think about the thought of it and if I would want to but get upset Bc I know I wouldn’t be able to Bc of the hurt I would cause my family members and bf
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OCD
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Hello!
Firstly - I have already asked my titration nurse for more info. I'm asking here because I've done every kind of Reddit/scientific paper/medication side effects search I can think of and have struggled to find clear info. I'm happy to receive both anecdotes and further reading.
I've been titrating for a few months now, first on Concerta XL and now on Elvanse (Vyvanse in US). In the last month of Concerta I began noticing visual snow/static in the evenings, and since I was only really getting other bad side effects too we decided to switch.
Elvanse has done all of the things I'd hoped - laser-like focus, I can do things that before were impossible because of intrusive trauma thoughts etc. Yay! But the visual issue is now constant, even when I close my eyes. It's like static on a TV screen, with some after imaging. If this will never stop I don't think I can continue with Elvanse, which would be a huge blow,
I've learnt about Visual Snow Syndrome (VSS) as much as possible, but since this coincided with starting stimulant medication I'm inclined to believe that it's related and have seen a couple of theories about this - something to do with serotonin uptake in the optic track for example.
I'd love to hear from anyone who has an answer to one or more of these questions:
1. Did you experience something similar, and did it go away with time like other side effects?
2. If you stopped taking stimulant meds due to visual problems, did non-stimulant meds have visual effects?
3. Do you have any further reading or info about this that could be helpful for me/my titration nurse?
Thanks v much for your time <3
**TLDR:** I have persisting visual problems on stimulant meds. If you have had this too I have questions for you. Please see above!
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ADHD
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I've been taking Vyvanse for about two weeks, the symptoms I've experienced are:
Calmness, focusing more/no longer distracted, taking notes quicker and more, talking a lot more than I used to, loss of appetite, and my taste is messed up
I haven't seen anywhere where your taste can be effected by taking this, but I thought it might have something to do with the side effects of loss of appetite and weight loss?
Example-
I ate a food after my medicine wore off, and it tasted fine
I ate it again when my medicine was in effect, and it was hard to eat because it didn't taste good anymore
So, can Vyvanse effect your taste or is it something else? Thank you!
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ADHD
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