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I’ve had OCD since what I can remember, maybe about 13 years old however it has only gotten bad within the past year. When I have intrusive thoughts about having to do things a certain amount of times (for example having to shut a door 5 times before it feels right) I tell myself just not to do it but I physically can’t. How do I make it stop because I can’t fight it.
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So in the last month or so I seemed to be getting a lot better with my hernia I started off not eating for a week and then juicing and adding soups into diet and after 2 weeks of slow improvement I went back to eating solid foods and seemed to be fine for a week. Now I’m suffering again been feeling anxiety and major depression especially after eating and thank god it’s only minor acid reflux but I do get horrible bloating and trapped gas. I feel like I’m not going to feel normal again I’m only 21 years old and I wish more than ever I could work and have a normal life. Should I be seeing a therapist or getting meds prescribed? My doctors have been no help and I’m barely eating 500 calories a day and I’m so tired of making my parents sad, I just want to heal I may see about a naturopath. Thanks for reading
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My friends online started sharing their struggles in life due to ADHD which I kept finding myself relating to.
I always suspected I had ADHD as I'm always fidgeting and always have something random coming through my head. I started researching ADHD and found I really didn't much about it! Suddenly lots of my struggles started making sense and I started understanding myself better.
The hyperfixating, constant struggle with routine, struggles with motivation/drive without extreme pressure. Feeling misunderstood. Emotions being overwhelming in the moment and impossible for me to understand/interpret until later. Task avoidance. The way I love to jump between tasks without finishing. The way I set out to do ABC and somehow end up working on XYZ. My constant leg bounce/foot shake or the way I bite my my lip when focusing. Why it feels better to pace around while on the phone.
I always thought I had depression and some anxiety (mostly around confrontation and social situations) but now I believe the depression/anxiety are caused by my ADHD symptoms. A lot of this stuff makes sense. I was so happy to find a tele-health service for diagnosis because I'm unable to afford anything else. It's crazy because I was really at a low point just feeling completely misunderstood and hopeless. Learning about ADHD and it's affects in the brain (lower dopamine + underdeveloped prefrontal cortex) really changed my outlook/mindset completely and has allowed me to not be so hard on myself.
I'm excited to see the results of my diagnosis and hopefully confirm my suspicion. I'm also excited to be doing something to get better. It's a breathe of fresh air. Anyways, I just felt like sharing and had no one better to share with. Thanks for reading 😊
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I’m not sure if other autistics feel this way. I’m always terrified that law enforcement officers will misinterpret my aspie behaviors as suspicious ones (not making eye contact, looking ‘shifty’) or having my stimming mistaken for tweaking.
I don’t do criminal activity that I’m worried about being caught for. It’s just an intense caution I suppose.
(also I’m aware that POC are probably more afraid of cops, I don’t want to seem insensitive)
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When sometimes when make something or like writing something i can sometimes continuously redo it. So for example I create something. And i finished it. Then i feel like I messed up so i redo it. But then RIGHT after redoing it I feel like I messed up something AGAIN
so I redo it again and then it keeps getting in a loop that i think i messed up.. I can be constantly redoing it over and over thinking i messed up even tho i didnt do anything for 10 minutes. I really want this to stop happening because it makes everything take longer. I feel like i messed up something and then have to redo it over and over. I dont know how to stop it. Even if i just move a file to my computer desktop i have to redo ot because I feel like I messed up. And then I will keep thinking if I messed up something and will have to redo it just moving a file! It even happens in real life. I will have to keep redoing it. Even if just drawing a perfect line on a paper I will feel like I messed up even tho I didnt mess up anything. I just want this to stop. I keep thinking i messed up a tiny detail but I then remake it. Even if i just made it and didnt touch it after finishing I feel like I messed up.
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I’ve tried everything and the only thing that helps is once the adderall medication kicks in. However, on my “off med” days I feel so slow and unproductive! I hate feeling slow and almost hungover with immense brain fog on my days I don’t take meds.
I drink lots of water, take omega vitamins, walk my dog, get enough good sleep, and don’t drink alcohol before bed. Sometimes the brain fog lasts a few hours and I feel like my entire morning was a waste.
Does anyone else experience this or have any tips?
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It's been over a year since I lost my job at the grocery store right when Covid came in. I saw the altered schedule(I worked in cleaning) panicked and long story short I'm out of a job....I didn't handle it as well as I could have. If I could have one moment in my life to redo it'd be that one.
Getting that job was the best thing that ever happened to me. For the first time in my life, I felt like I belonged somewhere and I had a purpose even as a janitor. I had work friends and I was part of a community. It felt right. 2019 was the best year of my life. And then 2020 took it all away from me after only a year. Part of me feels like I should go back but...it feels too awkward...and possibly insensitive.
I would have gone back by now but....my area's been really slow when it comes to getting back to normal.
My mom keeps telling me that losing the job wasn't some big tragedy. That all Grocery Stores have high turnover rates. But....I can't. I can't forget it.
I've gotten a new job. Working at the church. But....it's not the same...it's not giving me the same sense of community as the store job did(Not because the Church doesn't have a good community but because all our work happens during the days no one goes there)
I don't know why I'm so hung up on this. I'll have plenty of other jobs in the future especially when Covid dies down....so why can't I let go of this one?
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As the title indicates, I feel like a burden on everyone because I have ADD. Sure, people tell you to "get back up" but that's easier said than done when you have ADD. For instance, let's say that I want to study and I have the best intentions to study but, because of ADD, I feel like I'm in a fog and, no matter how many times I write something down, I always forget a concept or definition for something basic.
I just feel if that person doesn't have ADD, that person can't tell someone to get their "act" together. It's like telling someone with depression to suck it up and expect them to automatically get better.
On a somewhat related note: I feel like this rant goes parallels the inequalities in education and college admissions. But more importantly, this highlights why we need to abolish grades. No, people who have ADD are not lazy whatsoever and they want to do their best BUT if that person has trouble following instructions and is clearly trying their best, why should they be graded? Why should that person feel more stigmatized based off of something genetic and something that they cannot control no matter how hard they try.
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The pharmacist said they were adderall 30mg but I can’t find anything about it online, it’s a circular pill that’s light colored white and has f7 on it. It doesn’t even say manufacturer on the bottle, anyone have adderall tablets like those? I just feel like it’s not adderall and worried to take it
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i saw someone get tortured to death a few months ago. im a 13 year old with the worst case of hyper empathy.
i used to hallucinate it happening to other people, however i dont anymore. when i first saw someone die at 8 i hallucinated it everywhere too.
all of my thoughts eventually go to it, theres not a day i dont think about it. its like my entire existence is witnessing it.
his body was on white tile. i feel like if i step on white tile (half of my house) another person will suffer his fate. no matter how much i try and talk myself out of this and tell myself its fake, i still believe it.
please help me. its taking a huge toll on my life.
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I'm trying so hard to get a part time job. I really need the money, I'm 18 and I have a car that needs petrol in it like every week. I had a job back in christmas time in a supermarket but I was very depressed at the time, and also i think probably because of aspergers, I kept making mistakes not social ones, like mistakes like with money or how i was stacking the shelves and i wasnt aware until i was told etc, so i quit. Now my depression has calmed down, i'm looking for part time jobs again. I'm in the UK, and literally every single job requires you to do some test online, some of them are ridiculously hard, a lot of them are personality tests, and as an aspergic person, there is no way i can answer these honsetly, and so i try and guess what they want, only for me to fail. Did you struggle to get a part time job or any job for that matter, and if you didn't, how did you get one? I often tick i have a disability to get a guaranteed interview, sometimes I don't' there's always situational judgement tests i seem to fail too. Ugh its so frustrating
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Ever since I learned I have OCD I have been super paranoid that I am faking, and I am making up intrusive thoughts in order to “fake” having ocd. I will go a while without having an intrusive thought and then bam “hey you have ocd, that guy over there looks very hot.” It makes me super paranoid that I am faking and I am actually gay/ a pedophile. Anyone else suffer from this??
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I have ocd (my worst type being rocd) and an absolutely terrible time distinguishing between what's an intrusive thought and what is my true feelings, it distresses me because I'm constantly told I'm faking the love I have for my boyfriend and my love for him is fake which stresses me out, is there any way to help me with that? I just need to know how to know what's an obsessive thought and what's not, advice would be appreciated, thank you :)
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tw: PTSD
hello, everyone! i would like to start off by saying i do not experience PTSD, however, a loved one of mine does and i would really like to understand more about it and learn ways on how to support them through it.
they have been dealing with it for about two years now and feel as if they no longer know who they are as an individual. this comes from abandonment from someone they love(d) and not being able to fully trust anyone. i will not explain the full story because that is their business, but if anyone has gone through a similar experience or has ANY tips on how i can help them cope or feel better, please message me or comment as soon as you can (whichever is more comfortable for you).
i really love this person and i want to help them feel better more than anything.
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I feel like I process information much slower than the average NT. Any real-time, unstructured conversation whether its in person, over the phone or even via text or chat, is overwhelming. The only medium I can handle is email since I have minutes or hours (sometimes days) to respond. Video games or any sports that require a fast reaction time are out of the question. I also prefer to stream TV shows or movies because I frequently loose track of what's being said and being able to rewind is really helpful.
It also seems to take me a while to absorb new situations or information. For example, pre-pandemic a new coffee shop opened by my work. A co-worker and I went to get some coffee. When I entered the place I felt overwhelmed by the experience. It was kinda of crowded and the line was moving fast so I didn't have enough time to "process" the menu and ended up defaulting to ordering a small coffee, even though that's not what I wanted. My co-worker appeared to have no issues and ordered what he wanted including something off the menu of specials, which I completely failed to notice. What is worrisome is that I feel like this is getting worse. Is there anything that can be done to improve one's ability to process information?
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I have obsessive compulsive disorder and was pacing in my kitchen with ruminating thoughts that im a bad person, that im going to hell. I paced around and paced around and my anxiety grew to such levels that I felt light headed. I ran to the bathroom and threw up.
Just feel like I needed to vent about this and tell someone
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Lost in this loop
Any angle would do
Give me the power
To see it all through,
Fighting myself for what feels like a reason
Trying to find every answer while bleeding
Coping with crisis, made from my own devices
Looking for clarity, but I feel I can’t fight this,
Can I do it right
While wasting the time
Can I sit with this stare
Thinking unaware,
I don’t want to lose it
I need to get through this
My thoughts are like music
Addicting amusement
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NOTE: Wanted to put this at the start just in case. I'm not trying to diagnose myself or others with Echolalia, instead I'm just trying to see if others understand what I mean or maybe even have a term for it so that I can look more into it. I also want to apologize if my wording and typing sounds a bit strange, I've always been a bit weird or repetitive when it comes to typing and explaining things.
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To start off I want to say that I am diagnosed with ADHD + have been told by my psychiatrist that I do have major signs/symptoms of OCD. (I just state that I have it because it's a lot less complicated and intrusive to say "OCD" instead of "My psychiatrist says I most likely have it but she hasn't given me a definitive answer yet so we're just gonna have to wait.") I do struggle with fixations and intrusive thoughts, but this side affect is very new to me.
Sorry for the long intro, I'll start explaining now.
About a month or two ago, I started noticing that my brain would repeat words with certain syllables or pronunciations in my head, and I would feel a major urge to say them out loud. The words even interrupt my thought process and repeat on and on. I noticed sometimes if the urge to say it out loud was so strong it would make my tongue and throat feel tight or painful either by me trying to prevent myself from saying the word or my body trying to force it out. Whenever I do say it out loud, it either doesn't help that much, or makes it worse because I didn't pronounce a word or syllable the exact way my brain wanted me to do it, as if its unsatisfied with the way I did it.
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For a bit I was very confused, so I talked about it online and a friend of mine responded to me, saying it could be something like Echolalia. The most I found on it online is someone on a Autism/Asperger's forum talking about it, and even though I'm not diagnosed with either of those, the way [this person described their experience](https://www.autismforums.com/threads/silent-echolalia.9729/) was almost exactly how I felt. (Note: not trying to say I might have autism + the person did mention OCD.) I have spoken to my dad about it and he also mentioned it being potentially OCD related.
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I know this may seem like a silly or obvious post because if you do search up something related to this you will get OCD related answers. The thing is most of them mentioned stuff like anxiety or maybe a compulsive fear connected with the words, and I don't feel like I'm repeating the words in a anxiety way like some others might do with physical actions. I also wanted to ask others in general to get a potential variety of opinions on it. My next appointment with my Psychiatrist is in about a month, and I wanted to get some feedback/info/etc. from others with OCD who may be able to point some terms or things out that I can look into more to bring up with my Psychiatrist.
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Don't know if this is necessary but I'll add it regardless: I've been fixating on words that contain letters the "G, R, L", and specifically words that have pronunciations like "Gr, Rhi, Lr" in them. The specific words that I've mainly been repeating are Girl, Great, Lord/Lord have Mercy, and Jesus Christ. "Girl" was the first word I started repeating. I also know it might be a bit strange that 2 of the words (Lord, Jesus Christ) have religious meanings, but I don't have any religious trauma/fixation that could be related to them.
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Once again, sorry if the answer seems obvious to some of you guys. I do know that this is most likely a OCD symptom, but I wanted to hear what others had to say about it as this is one of the first new OCD things I've developed in a long time. I didn't exactly have a proper term for it, which is why I piggybacked off of what that person on the forum said and called it "Silent Echolalia." I hope anyone else who may have more experience with having OCD or others who deal with this same thing like me can help me out or relate their experiences to mine.
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Does anyone else do this? I could be doing just about anything when I’ll feel my eyes/vision get slightly blurry/heavy and then my mind completely zones out. It happens frequently throughout the day and really sucks because I can’t seem to snap myself out of it.
I just started on Adderall 20xr and the first 3 or 4 hours after taking it, it does help me stay present. But after that I’m back to my old self. I will talk to my doctor soon and try increasing my dosage.
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My husband is so wonderful to me, and for the first time ever, I feel safe with a partner, which is such a nice feeling. However, because of how much sexual trauma I’ve experienced over my life, I just don’t enjoy sex with my husband a lot of the time. I do it because I know he likes having sex, but most of the time I’m only pretending to enjoy it and just counting down the moments till we’re done. I’m getting to the point where I dissociate during sex until it’s over which obviously isn’t helpful. I know he’ll stop if I ask him to (I have done so in the past), but lately I just shut down when we get intimate. There have been times when I have enjoyed sex with him, but lately I just get so stressed when he wants to do it. How can I start to feel more comfortable with sex?
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I have always counting things and played with numbers in my head. That, music, and going through things that happened or might happen. But I do not feel compelled to count things. Or to have rituals to make numbers turn out correctly, although I do like odd numbers better than even and multiples of 5 are best. I just do it as a reflex. As far as I know, I do not have OCD. What is/are the defining feature(s) of the type of thinking which brings things like counting or anxious thoughts into the realm of OCD?
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I don’t know if this is the right place, but I’m just curious as to if anyone else can go weeks with an aggravating sadness/anger fueled mind. I do have moments where I am happy to be here. But the last few weeks maybe even months just everything is getting to me. Work, relationship etc. I just can’t maintain a happy spell. I’ve been on medication before but it didn’t help at all. Basically zombified me. It’s all getting to much but the only thing keeping me around is my daughter. And today even she’s getting to be to much for my mindset. I just need some help please.
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I’ve had PTSD for 32 years, knife attack when I was 14 and then two abusive relationships as an adult, finally got treatment EMDR in 2019 which has turned the volume way down on my PTSD but it’s still there. My brother in-law lost his year long battle with lung cancer last Saturday, my body seemed to dump a ton of stress hormones into my body as I was a bit hyper trying to look after hubby who was really upset, yesterday Monday, it was as if I’d run out of steam and could barely think or talk and today Tuesday I just feel completely exhausted, hyper sensitive and irritable which is frustrating as I feel I should be looking after hubby instead of him looking after me. Does anyone else have this stress response and any advice on how to deal with it?
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Has anyone else experienced this? I haven't been in this subreddit for long so i'm not sure if anyone else has posted something similar. When i think about my internal organs i freak out and i get scared they're just going to explode or stop working if i think about them for too long? Or if i look at my veins for longer than a few seconds i get scared to move my wrists too much because i'm afraid they will just somehow snap and i'm going to die. Is this my OCD??
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Sometimes I wonder if my life is worth living.
I left home because I’m detached from my family.
I cut off my friends because I’m depressed and can’t find the energy to be a good happy person to be around.
My boyfriend doesn’t deserve to the deal with the stuff I hit him with. Part of me feels like I should leave him because then he wouldn’t have to see me like this anymore.
I just feel like I’m falling apart and I feel so alone. I don’t even care if anyone reads this or not, I just had to say it a loud.
I’m just tired of feeling this way, I just started taking anti-depressants and I just want them to work so badly. I don’t want to feel like this anymore
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I think I've been depressed for a long time, but its getting pretty bad now. I basically stopped doing work at my job and am sure I'm going to get fired sooner rather than later. I don't save money or invest because I don't care about the future. No one even knows I'm depressed, never told anyone. To be honest, I'm not even sure if I'm depressed - never got a diagnosis from a doctor. But if this is me "happy" and not depressed, I don't even want to think of what I will be like with actual depression. And yet I still can't bring myself to get help. In my head the way it's going to play out is that I'm going to have a massive breakdown in front of family or friends. But for now just going from day to day smoking weed.
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What's the best research, book or even a long comprehensive article that talks about the correlation between daydreaming and ADHD?
thankfully someone shared with me these,
[First](https://journals.lww.com/jonmd/Abstract/2017/07000/The_Comorbidity_of_Daydreaming_Disorder.4.aspx), [that's the second](https://www.somer.co.il/images/MD/2018_Turkish_MD-ADHD_Thesis.pdf)[ one](https://www.somer.co.il/images/MD/2018_Turkish_MD-ADHD_Thesis.pdf)
Also, did someone read a paper that states what happens after medicating those who have ADHD & MD with ADHD medication?
I saw many posts of people saying that their daydreams decreased significantly after medicating their ADHD.
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All of my life I have felt different and I have seen a lot of symptoms to aspergers that definitely align with me. Not everything but a good amount of things. I feel like if I were to get tested and the test would come back negative that I would be completely dejected. I don’t want to believe that everything I feel is in my head or that all of my faults(the ones that would be linked to being on the spectrum) are my fault. I don’t want my low empathy to be me being a sociopath or that my slower processing speed is because I’m just unintelligent. I honestly want to be on the spectrum because it would explain so many things, things that I have hated myself for but if I am diagnosed with HFA I would believe that these problems aren’t my fault anymore. I’m sorry if this is insensitive because I know that there are many that have symptoms far worse than mine but getting a diagnosis would make me feel complete yknow? Or like I could identify as SOMETHING because my whole life I have never really known who I was as a person. Does that make sense? Does anyone else feel/felt the same?
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I don't know if I'm posting this on the right forum. I'm new to reddit so sorry if this belongs somewhere else.
We've been together for 10+ years but he seems to get worse and worse with communicating towards me about his feelings and how he feels about the relationship.
He's a charmer with other people but closed off with me. I thought maybe he wants to end things and date other people but I've asked him that before and he says he's not interested in doing that.
I don't understand why he can't show some loving feelings towards me like a few years back.
Not sure if anyone can give any advice but it's nice to vent it out because I want this to work but I don't want to come off too strong at him. I'm just trying my best guys.
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Hey everyone! I can handle crowds, and I used to not feel any discomfort from them at all, but after my traumatic event a little over a year ago I have noticed that large crowds (like festival size - more than just a group gathering) make me start to hyperventilate and hunch over. Trying to appear as small as possible, I think.
I was at a festival and I was fine before it got too busy, but later in the day as it got packed I just wanted to leave. Had to sit by myself, pull my mask down, and was holding back tears. I felt uncomfortable all over and kept imagining people getting too close to me and me needing to push them away. I also wouldn’t let my partner touch me after this feeling started because I just don’t feel up to being touched now.
Does anyone experience anything similar, or has in the past? I suspect it is related to the PTSD and it did originate after my sexual assault, but I’d like to not feel as crazy for reacting to large groups in this way.
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I've been on concerta just shy of 7 months now (& Wellbutrin for 9). It has been awesome in allowing me to start and finish my activities of daily living, finishing my final semester of university, being less hesitant/anxious at work, and completing extra tasks that would sit and collect dust.
I've been a casual gamer for years and years, enjoyed reading the odd book or movie too...
But lately I've wanted to have my down time and make the most of it but I feel I can't at the same time. I feel I need to be productive and finish those small things that are not really important at that moment and time.
Does anyone else have a hard time just relaxing and enjoying downtime?
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I’ve (22F) have always had very intricate sexual fantasies that had to include certain ritualistic elements. Aka I’m very kinky. In the media I read a bunch about women with autism not being very interested in sex. I’ve always been very fascinated by it. I wonder if there are any ladies that are the same? Or guys? [delete if this is not allowed]
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Any time I've opened up to people (mostly those closest to me) about depression, and anxiety 9 times out of 10 they either took advantage of me in some way, or held it against me. So, it's really discouraging to open up to others despite being told it's a good thing. Overall, it's been more of a negative experience than a positive one. The funny thing is a lot of seem to be convinced that they've helped or something...not quite sure how that works? Sorry, short rant.
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Hey everyone. So I'm a speech therapy student and I'm doing my oral examination tomorrow. Part of our unprepared oral includes self-reflections. Earlier in the year I mentioned how I made sure to be aware of my fast speech and cluttering so that my clients could receive good service. Now I was wondering if anyone knows of a source on any healthcare professionals (especially in therapy fields - occupational therapists, SLPs and physiotherapists) with disabilities and people with ADHD/autism/dyslexia have increased empathy and understanding, as well as unique ways of giving therapy due to having a different brain structure.
I've read an article on this before but for the life of me, can't phrase anything correctly into Google Scholar to find a source remotely related to what I need. Is there anyone who can help? I really want to do well but also want to show that speech therapists w/ disabilities (especially ADHD) can advocate and engage with clients in a way that's different from other people.
TL;DR - need an article on how healthcare professionals with disorders actually facilitate better healthcare delivery, especially within therapeutic services.
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The other day I took a self assessment for ptsd and received a high score. Which would explain what I feel at times. Almost a year ago now I personally feel like I went through a traumatic experience with my ex. I guess I’m just wondering. Is it normal to feel anger at times? To have nightmares? To have random flashbacks? To have no energy or motivation? I’ve dealt with depression in the past so certain symptoms are familiar to me. However, the anger and agitation is new to me. As well as having random severe flashbacks and no longer feeling comfortable in certain places. I just want to know if dealing with ptsd if that’s, I guess normal?
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Of course if happened at work. So I wasn’t able to use coping methods. I’ve had a ton of panic attacks before , but this is the first PTSD related one and I’m scared of having more. Just the way a guy looked at me triggered me. I can’t have this. I don’t want this. It kills a part of me.
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Hi! I am not a English speaker, bare with me.
I hope you are all doing well😊
I am a university student currently doing my second year. I am struggling so much, of I am not forgetting assessments I am failing them. I have changed courses three times and still struggling. Went from computer science to industrial engineering(now). I really dont know what to do.
I have tried reaching out for help, went to student counselling, student advisors as I thought they could help me. As I was working with them in the first semester, I failed all my modules. I feel so depressed. I promised myself that this semester(2nd) will be different, but its not.
I am out of funding for attending university, so this year will be my last. I dont really have a good support system around me and I am not sure what to tell my parents. Most people around me dont believe there is such a things as adhd. I dont know what to do, I am really scared. My country has a huge unemployment rate, this is whats making me feel so hopeless.
I was wondering, what can I do in terms of finding a something to do for money? Adhd friendly.
Thank you.
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do some ocd themes just give you a 24/7 feeling of it in your brain instead of intrusive thoughts all the time
that’s what i’m going through with hocd it’s just the feeling of it in my head
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I have Pedophelia OCD, aka POCD, and I am absolutely destroyed! My life has been a living hell for the past year. Nearly every time I go somewhere, and everytime I see, think, or even hear about a child, I get horrific thoughts of me sexually assaulting them, engaging in a very vanilla fetish I have (Pedal Pumping), or even worse! And I instantly get mortified! I also get flashbacks sometimes to when I was bullied for liking anime and cartoon characters (which is very different in my eyes). I start shaking in the hands and head, and next thing you know, I feel as if I'm going to crumble and break down! Especially when a false arousal happens. They don't happen often, but when they do, I want to fucking die! In that moment I feel helpless, confused, heartbroken and terrified. I've tried pychiatry, meditation, ERP, pretty much anything you can think of and nothing has been that successful. I'm absolutely hopeless! I can barely go places, I almost never leave the house, I'm contemplating filing for disability, and I need help! A LOT of help! I can't take it anymore!
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I read that autistic people can have phobia of buttons.
It then occurred to me, that applying for jobs involves wearing a shirt and suit, which have buttons on them.
What if the real reason autistics don’t like working jobs, is due to phobia of the buttons on their suits?
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Hello, I recently just did 35 days in jail. I know it doesn't seem like much but the whole thing has left me really fucked up, for lack of a better term. I was originally sentenced to 6 months for headbutting and spitting at a cop when I was drunk having mental health crisis. I was beaten up pretty good by the cops and ended up spending the night in jail, naked and alone. After this, I went to an inpatient mental health facility and complete an out patient program, and I really got my life back together. The entire court process was incredibly long and drawn out, and COVID further extended the length of time I had this hanging over my head. I showed up to court and my lawyer was pretty confident that I would just be sentenced to probation, however the judge sentenced me to 6 months. Luckily, I had a lot of people in my life write letters, and my lawyer filed a motion that allowed me to be out on probation.
Nothing really awful happened to me in jail, the first 4 weeks though we were only allowed out 2 hours a day, and the first week I just spent in a cell by myself with nothing to do other than think. Luckily I received some books eventually and was able to distract myself for the following weeks. The whole lack of social distancing in jail, awful food, and having to spend a 2 weeks in a one person cell with another person wasn't great and was somewhat stressful.
I just feel incredibly anxious all the time now, I have no desire to do things I used to enjoy just a little over a month ago, and I just feel like an incredible sense of impending doom all the time over nothing. I feel guilty for even feeling bad about my experience and that I am letting it effect me this bad. I've dealt with depression for the majority of my adult life and finally started doing something about it 5 years ago (medication/therapy).
Was just wondering if anyone else had a similar experience with being in jail/prison and adjusting to being out. Thanks.
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ptsd
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Recently I’ve got diagnosed and finally my parents got their s**t together and recognised importance of taking meds and providing me help to deal with my ADHD (even though that happened only because of my little brother that also has ADHD). After last visit to my psychiatrist I finally got permission to take higher dose of my meds (from my parents, the psychiatrist was angry that they were not following her recommendations) and I finally see a positive difference.
But I can’t stop thinking how my life would go differently if I was diagnosed in my early school years instead of end of high school (I know I still should be grateful that I got diagnosed at all).
ADHD messed up my grades in school a lot, my memory issues caused a lot of problems and this all led to people constantly being disappointed in me, which really lowered my self esteem. My grades and constant complaints about my inattention from teachers caused a lot of fights with my parents. Every day I was going back from school I was wondering if there was a thing that I messed up or forgot about that would lead to another fight. This really worsened my relationship with my parents and I don’t know if it’s possible to fix it.
So I’m just constantly wondering how different my school, self esteem and relationship with parents would go if I got diagnosed earlier in my life.
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ADHD
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I'm currently teaching a range of students with SEND and a lot of time is spent being told what we can do by other professionals. It'd be nice to hear from people who have actually been through it and some positive experiences they had.
Please only comment serious positive experiences, sarcastic comments won't be helpful.
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aspergers
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You get an intrusive thought, run circles in your mind to try and convince yourself that you’re over thinking and not just a horrible person, and you spend hours running circles around a thought, subject, or moment, and then eventually just give up in exhaustion and accept that maybe you are the worst and you don’t have the energy to care anymore.
Like I could spend days on a thought and eventually I don’t feel theres anyway to beat the thought so I just give up completely, its exhausting, and then I’m just depressed and drained for the day. Am I the only one?
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OCD
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Hi. I'm 23(F) and I just got prescribed Ritalin to try out for 2 weeks. It NEVER crossed my mind that I might have ADD because it was masked by my depression and anxiety for the longest of time. I (funnily) got aware that I might have ADHD through tiktok, and when my new psychologist brought up the fact that I might have it after telling her I had an impulse episode where I bought a shit ton of things to feed my "boredom" and was basically in a week-long hyperfocus state. I tried my first Ritalin today and my mind is blown. I feel so grounded and calm?? The chaos in my head is not bugging me every millisecond??? I am in the present and not in this overstimulating void of thoughts??? I was brushing my teeth and I actually WAS brushing my teeth and nothing else?? It's like I came off autopilot and I'm deciding things as I go??? Is this real? This is how normal people function??? NO WONDER THEY CAN GET THINGS DONE. I have been crashing down like a pancake in university and now it all makes sense. Oh my God, the world makes sense.
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ADHD
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Ok so long story short, as a kid I was considered intellectually gifted or whatever, never learned proper study habits, now I'm 30 and not as educated as I'd like to be. And I'm struggling to learn anything. And I'm questioning how intelligence works exactly and if possibly I've lost some of it after years of depression and inactivity, or if it's just severe adhd plus depression making new information so disorienting even if I'm interested in it (trying to study English grammar using Wikipedia) or maybe a combination of these factors. I know plenty of sparse surface level info about stuff and people sometimes label me as very 'smart' but honestly I feel like an imposter and I also don't want people to overestimate my knowledge or intelligence because I inevitably disappoint by not actually being well educated or knowledgeable about things; and now that I'm trying to improve myself it feels so tedious and challenging too. Just kinda venting, would like some input here.
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ADHD
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I know this is really stupid and flawed thinking but a big part of me doesn’t want to do the things that everyone says will help me feel better. Meditate, journal, go for a run, etc.
I think it’s because I don’t want those things to work. Because if they work… then what does that mean? That I’ve wasted my time all these years? All this pain, all this suffering and misery and overthinking and ruminating and loneliness. What, it could have gone away if I’d just eaten better? If I’d just changed my thinking or meditated? That’s bullshit. That hurts me so bad.
And I don’t want to face facts that it might be true. And I’ve been an idiot and a fool all these years.
this is my first post here and i am just really hoping to see if anyone else feels this way or has felt this way or has any kind of advice
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depression
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I’m sorry if I sound like an idiot, first time poster and first time experiencing something like this.
So I’ve been having a lot of issues with my downstairs neighbour for a few months now, without going into too much detail the neighbour is harassing and stalking me and has threatened to attack me. He has been making my life utterly miserable. Police are involved and he is being evicted soon. All that side of things are being taken care of. Not as swiftly as I’d like, but they’re being taken care of.
I already suffer with depression, anxiety and BPD and have done since I was around 13, I’ve been on and off of medication and in and out of therapy ever since but not in the last couple of years. Off the back of all this horrible stress with my neighbour, I think I’ve developed OCD. I will be scrolling through my apps and say for instance I scroll past a video, I will have to immediately go back and watch it or else my neighbour will attack me the next time I leave the building. If I’m on Reddit, I have to immediately upvote any picture of a cat I see (I’m in a lot of cat subreddits lol) or else he will attack me. It started off with silly things like that, but now it’s bled into things off my phone. I have to shut the door behind me immediately after entering a room, I’m only allowed to use one particular mug if I’m having a hot drink, if I use another one he will attack me. If he comes out and says something to me or does anything, it was my fault for missing something that I was supposed to do to prevent it. There’s other little things that just sound like I’m making it up so I’ll stop there, but I’m scared it’s starting to get out of control.
Obviously I don’t want to self diagnose myself, but does this sound like OCD? If so, what can I do to prevent it from getting out of control? Ideally the neighbour needs to move out asap, they’re having to get the court to evict him and I have no idea how long that takes, then maybe all this might stop and it’ll be a massive weight lifted, but I’m scared it will spiral into something worse. I’m not sure what I want from this post, just needed to get it out to educated ears.
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OCD
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Maintaining friendships is already hard in and of itself. Not to mention, I don’t have one solid friend group that is all friends with one another. So unfortunately, I have to hang out one on one with all my friends which can get extremely exhausting.
My sister has a group of friends who come over a lot and I love being with all of them. I feel totally recharged after socializing in that setting. If I get lost in the conversation, someone is bound to help me figure out the missing details that I zoned out through. Not a big deal if I miss something!
If I’m hanging out one on one with someone, all the focus is on me and I hate that. It feels draining to have to put 100% focus on their stories and doing the dreaded “oh my god” with a thinking face because I have no idea what type of reaction to have since I zoned out through big parts of the conversation. There’s just so much pressure when hanging out one on one, and it took me forever to realize that it’s not that I hate socializing with my friends, I just prefer group settings instead of one on one.
Anyone else relate???
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ADHD
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I have a good memory of looking into the past and remembering random shit. And I keep getting these thoughts when I was younger in middle school I touched a girls butt. When I think back to other middle school memories I can distinctly remember the exact moment and what happened afterwards. But looking back with my good memory I really can’t see that eve happening
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OCD
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My GP recently screened me for ASD (her suggestion) and I qualified for further testing and I'm 99.99% sure the results are going to be positive. I'm cautious not to get ahead of myself but it would mean a lot for me to be able to categorise a lot of the issues I've struggled with my entire life under one label instead of trying to explain everything myself. Does anyone have any advice with how to deal with informing your family and friends etc, I'm a young adult so I'm going through the process solo. Also if anybody would like to share their experiences with the NHS testing and treatment process that would be super helpful.
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aspergers
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I just hate my self I'm the ugliest person In word even my gf said that I'm ugly, I lost my self esteem I can't see my face on the mirror or even take selfies or someone take photos of me I hate me
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depression
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I feel like I desperately need a break and want to be left alone.
The constant pressure of expectations and social tightrope walking feels like its crushing me. I feel like I can’t do anything right. Even around my husband or my dog. The feeling has been compounding for weeks. It’s frustrating and exhausting. Small things annoy me. I just want silence. I don’t know what to do any more or how to make it better. I feel like a complete failure, like I’m failing everyone around me more and more with every misstep.
I just want to freeze time, run away, or most of all, BE INVISIBLE!! Just BE. Exist in some kind of in between for a little while where I can be ME without any expectations at all. No social reprucussions. No one needing or expecting anything from me for a little while.
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aspergers
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hello im 15F and im scared that im a zoophile. so i love cuddling my dog because he’s so cute and he’s really fun to play with. awhile ago, i was rubbing his belly and he was between my legs. suddenly, i felt like an urge of having sex with him. i felt so uncomfortable because i didnt want to think of that. does that mean i want to have sex with my dog? does that mean im attracted to my dog? this is so weird and uncomfortable that i want it to go away. i dont want this to be my new obsession. im not diagnosed with ocd but a few months back, i think i had hocd, tocd, and other types of ocd. i hope that this is not true. i cant imagine being sexually attracted to my dog. i dont want it to be true but since i experienced that, is it true? pls give me an answer. please, thank you
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OCD
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I saw a post who was saying that you're not depressed if you have a lot of friends. I don't really think it's true. I'm actually suffering from three incurable illness that two of them has been diagnosticed about a month ago. But apparently I would not be depressed because I look happy and have lots of friends. But I know it's not true. For me it's so obvious that I'm suffering! I hate school, I'm not in good terms with my family, like I said before I have big illnesses (I lost my left eye, right ear and my colon is destroying himself and I'm shitting blood. my inner ears make me feeling to puke) And everybody around me is just "YoU LoOk In GoOd ShApE fOr SoMeOnE wHo Is IlL!" I mean it's obvious I need emotional support! I'm 16 and I feel like every week that is passing is making my life worst. I feel like because of gen Z of today, I'm not at my place. Lot's of people like to tell me about their problems because I'm apparently a person with "good advice". But it's always painful in my heart. Why couldn't I have just problems of bad grades and things like that !! Why couldn't I just live a normal teenagers life like my friends !
I don't really know what anybody would have to say about what I said but if you read everything thank you and I hope you the best.
PS: My english isn't incredible because I'm french sorry. And I'm already seeing a therapist but it's isn't helping at all because I'm not able to speak about what I wrote before.
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depression
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My mind’s both so busy and so exhausted, I’m just done with it all. The obsessions and ruminations are overwhelming me. I miss back when my head was quiet and peaceful.
I don’t know why I’m saying this, I guess I really just need to vent. But ironically, I don’t feel like I have the mental capacity (as of right now) to actually vent, so I guess I’m just going to type out two paragraphs and call it a day.
EDIT: a word or two.
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OCD
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I was depressed as a teenager... Pushed through because I was told things would get better... Foolishly I believed... I did my apprenticeship got a good job. I earn more than my peers and even managed to buy a house all on my own as a millennial... However to do this I alienated my friends and saved hard thinking the future will be better I just need a house and a good job.
Now I have the house and job I feel empty
Every day I go to work I have fantasies about driving into lamp posts/other cars/my garage. Same fantasies I had as a teenager.
I know I'm skilled and kind and want to help everyone I can but it seems no one is there for me even when I know they are... But how can they begin to help when I just hate life in general?
What's worse is I've never been able to make an attempt because I'm too much of a pussy... I sit there with the desire to jump off a bridge. Slit my wrists.. But I can't do it. This makes me feel more trapped.
I'm trapped in my job
I'm trapped in this life
And I can't get out.
I've taken up skateboarding as a 34yo. People think I'm trying to find new things to do and to make myself happy.
In truth I'm just trying to break that mental block of throwing myself off of something so I can finally find peace.
I don't know how to escape.
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depression
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Holy shit I have waited years to finally say that! When I was 16 I was on antidepressants that never did shit and for years I thought antidepressants just weren't for me and that I was completely fine (Lie, I was basically forced off them by my mom because she said I didn't need them) but now since Im finally 21 I actually have power over this shit!
I was on lexapro for about a 2 months but they made me honestly feel blank, my depression got worse after having my dose increase, and I was having so many intrusive thoughts and flashbacks. Now I'm zoloft and even though I've only been on for a week I feel fucking great! I can actually sleep, my depression is finally under control, I have energy, and I can finally just feel good.
I'm just happy thar I finally have antidepressants that work for me!
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ptsd
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I don't know the name for this but I have this kind of OCD. I just watched a video about a women with glitterphobia who overcome her fears (by exposure therapy). I was genuily surprised and I just started to read the comments...And so many people were telling ableist stuff , saying that glitterphobia is an nonsense (when they do arachnophobia which doesn't make more sense if you don't live in a country with dangerous spider (I do have a fear of spider , and bugs ) and that was just showing how much people don't know a shit about OCD , and phobia in general (which are most of the time irrational fears) and it made me feel very sad because I genuily think I have it and it has gotten worse.
For example :
\-Glitter are very distressing , I have the huge fear of having them on my clothes , or in my body , in the inaccessible part of my body (such as nostrils , bellybutton , ears , eyes and even genitals )
\-I have an HUGE scare about having anything like hair , sand , glass , tissues , small piece of any material near my genitals for no apparent reason to the point I need to shake my towel after every shower to finally dry myself , I need to be sure that the towel is clean so If I'm not sure I'll throw it in the washing machine. I think I have a fear of being dirty here in general so sometimes , even at 02:00 AM I'll jump under the shower to wash there , and look if everything fine and it's driving me nuts.
\-I have fear of putting hair , glass , sand , or splinter in my eyes or ears and stuff , or poison. (It was really a bummer at school to be stressed out every time I had chemistry because , what if I putted poison in my eye ? ) or even when I worked with ceramics , the teacher said something about the workshop having poison dust that if we breath too much could give us mortal disease (It was just a way of telling us : Wash your hand , and wear blouses ) and I just felt bad for a moment. It wasn't as bad as it is now.
And I didn't saw anything now about little things stuck in your body , clothes or sheets for now ! Do any of you have this too ? I don't want reassurance , just curious ! (As a kid I also had a fear of sleeping near poster in case of a pin fell on my eye )
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OCD
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Has anyone had success with medication for helping control intrusive thoughts?
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OCD
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My birthday is coming up on the 22. I'll be 27 years old. 3 more years left to enjoy my 20s.
I just wish time would slow down....I can still clearly remember last December....
I'm not ready to turn 30. I know 3 years is a long time but....what if they don't FEEL long...
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aspergers
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i am under prozac, i feel so happy and energetic and talkative and motivated and i think it's mania, i really don't know what to do, i can't stop obsessing over how happy i am and how it maybe mania, or maybe it just ocd mimicking mania's symptoms since i've been reading about them 24/24, i hv never been bipolar
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OCD
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1 in 3 posts I see on here reference ADD which is officially an outdated term and no longer a diagnosis. I wouldn’t say I take Offence to the term but it slightly bugs me because I have what would have been considered ADD, which is ADHD-PI, and I don’t like seeing my condition incorrectly labelled or understood.
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ADHD
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Hello! Feel free to remove if this type of post isn't allowed. I recently went from 27mg of methylphenidate ER to 36 mg. Had been on the previous dosage for five years, and it stopped working. I have been experiencing some side effects like occasional dizziness and increased heart rate (though the heart rate could be because I have anxiety about the dizziness lol)... do these go away, or should I see my doctor about it? They're actually working now, so I don't want to have to stop them. 😅
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ADHD
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I (27F) have some nasty habits, I wait a long time to use up most of my clothes before laundry, I rarely clean up after myself unless I know family and friends are over, and my eat habits are atrocious cause of my picky eating. My dad was out for the week and came back to the home in a disaster and with good reason came down hard on me... I'm F@%!ING 27 years old! I should be able to live on my own and not feel like my 16 year old step brother is more mature than I am. Having aspergers I've always been slower in maturity but this being a 'process' should have stoped long ago. Why do i lack such self control and self discipline when it comes to everyday life!? Why!? Why am I the one who on some subjects I'm mature but when it comes to basic household needs like my room, I flunk miserably. What do I do, I REALLY hate myself for this stupid stupid mistake and flaw that constantly appears! the second parents leave its like my mind throws out any remaining self control so i dont have to be judged!
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Please if you have any words of encouragement or advice, please help? I'm crying so hard right now.
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aspergers
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I have no purpose in life. Nothing makes me happy. I have a family and home to go to, I could be in the happiest place on earth and I’m still not happy. I try to work on myself but I have no goals. When people ask what I like to do I stare blankly in the distance. There’s nothing to look forward to. Im such an introvert. Every good opportunity that comes my way I deny it because it’s so untrue that, that something great can happen to me.
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depression
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Hey all, this is my first post in this subreddit. I’ve had undiagnosed ADHD for soooo long and I decided it’s time I finally get some medication and help. I scheduled a meeting with a behavior health therapist to officially get diagnosed. I’m already nervous for some reason, what can I expect in this meeting?
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ADHD
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I’ve seen so many memes of people coming up with arguments hours later but for me it’s with all kinds of social situations, especially with strangers. I’m very shy but I don’t think it comes of as shyness more like standoffish , not interested or possibly even rude. Which is not the case, I do want to get to know people but I’m very shy and scared to initiate conversation because I think they wouldn’t want to talk to me plus I don’t know what to say. So I come up with things I could have said later on which could have started a conversation or kept it going but then it’s to late. Can anyone relate or have any tips?
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aspergers
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Sometimes when I have intrusive thoughts it feels like I'm making myself think about them. Like, I'll be chillin with my grilfriend, then all of a sudden I start thinking thinking about Iraq. I just keep thinking about all the shit from there. It makes me feel like a piece of shit, like I should be strong enough to keep that out of my head. Then I find myself apologizeing to my girl cause I'm in a shitty mood and on edge, and all i do is patrol my appartment. She's never once even giving me a wierd look, she's completely understanding. I just don't feel like I deserve someone as dooe as her, cause I'm like this all the time, and I feel like a fucking scum bag. My question is, how does everone combat negative self talk?
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ptsd
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Does anyone relate to constantly not feeling fully satisfied/ fulfilled in social interactions? I don’t know what I’m looking for but I can’t stand small talk and just want to find out everything I can about everyone ever, or maybe it’s something else. I truly don’t know what I’m searching for out of my relationships— anyone else have this insatiable need for something but they don’t know what?
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ADHD
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This is a vent post, if you're sensitive person or do not want to spoil your mood, ignore this post. I'm analyzing my life so I understand myself more.
I am 15 and I...
* Have undiagnosed autism spectrum disorder
* Have moderate stutter (due to my anxious brain)
* Have undiagnosed moderate social anxiety disorder
* Have some symptoms of dependent personality disorder
* Struggle with undiagnosed moderate generalized anxiety disorder
* Have difficulty making friends with neurotypicals, or people in general
* Become antisocial when I am confident
* Process everything a bit slower, but it's not correlated with my IQ (112), rather with analytical thinking
Other problems
* Father who struggles with autism spectrum disorder
* Mother who struggles with ADHD and Bipolar disorder
Positive things
* I am considered high-functioning (sorry if you got offended), can attend public school, however I avoid extracurricular activities
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aspergers
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Nothing i ever do is good enough. I’ll be sitting watching some YouTube videos as that’s what I like to do to unwind and relax and the voice inside my head is constantly saying ‘you should be doing something more productive than this, etc, etc’. It ruins everything I ever do. I have such black and white thinking that I either end up berating myself for doing anything other than something that society deems ‘productive’ or I do absolutely nothing and just lounge around because there’s no middle ground. I’ve stopped following any ‘motivational/self-help’ gurus because they’re really toxic for me and just make me feel shit about any decision I make in my life, as again, I feel like it’s not enough/not good enough. Has anyone been able to minimise this perfectionism cycle? When I was younger my OCD was focused heavily on contamination/germ compulsions & rituals and it still is but the main focus is now my self-esteem and how nothing I ever do is good enough. With contamination OCD, as horrific as it is at least I could carry out physical compulsions to curb anxiety for at least a few moments, this is more mental and it’s just an endless internal cycle that I can never get a rest from. As much as I hate to say this, it’s really tearing me apart in all honesty.
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OCD
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One of my main ocd themes is fear of anything I need to consume including food, drinks, and medicine. Im extremely scared of medication side effects like feeling high, drowsiness or sedating effects. I’ve tried at least 7 SSRIs for my ocd and i’m just too sensitive to them. they always made my anxiety and thoughts worse. I’m currently on 10mg of celexa because every time i’ve tried to go higher my symptoms get really bad. The 10mg has been enough to hold me over so I can focus on 1 thought at a time instead of a jumbled mess and not completely panic, but the thoughts are still there and i still feel i’m on the verge of panicking every time i even think about having to eat or drink. I desperately need something stronger because I can’t live like this anymore. My psychiatrist prescribed me Clomipramine/ Anafril 25mg. My problem is 1. I need to stop taking my celexa which is the only thing holding me over right now ( I tried coming off of it by going down to 5 and I went back to a frenzy of thoughts and panic attacks) and 2. One of the main side effects of clomipramine is drowsiness. Has anyone tried Clomipramine and did it make you feel high, sedated or tired? and does anyone have any advice or words of encouragement? I’ve had the prescription for 2 weeks and have yet to take it.
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OCD
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I have a question. I posted this before but I'm still bothered by it. My mental health has improved a lot though. This is my situation
On January 18 2020 while waiting in line for bus tickets I felt pain on my lower right leg. I thought about rabies but I chose to ignore it. I said "I don't care if I die." I didn't check my legs nor my surroundings. I went on with my day and forgot about it. Next week, I remembered the incident and started worrying if I was scratched by an animal.
Now, I understand that I have OCD and my theme is rabies. I have no direct evidence I was scratched but I also have no evidence I wasn't scratched. It's possibly just OCD but I'm not sure. Just because it's OCD doesn't mean I wasn't scratched. It's still possible that I was scratched but chose to ignore it. That means I should get rabies shots. My psych tells me not to get it. What do you guys think? What is the rational way to look at it?
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OCD
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And I feel like a proper ass. I broke up with him because I wasn’t sure, but mostly because I don’t like myself. My depression and low self esteem have made me break up with the best thing that ever happened to me and he quite rightly has moved on. I really want to die. What’s done is done and there’s no going back.
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depression
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Autism has Atypical, Love on the Spectrum, The Good Doctor
Borderline has Crazy Ex Girlfriend
Bipolar is portrayed in Spinning Out and Shameless
I don't know how well these are portrayed, but I don't really recall any tv-series or movies about ADHD - except characters like the stereotypical squirrel from Over the Hedge.
Does anyone have any suggestions for movies or series that deals with the struggle of living normal life with ADHD?
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ADHD
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How reliable is the Ritvo test linked in the pinned post?
For example, what traits other than ASDs could swing your results one way or the other?
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aspergers
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We talked for 40 minutes and she wasn't sure I have ADHD. I'm afraid I explained myself too poorly and used wrong words to convey what I was meaning when questioned.
So she prescribed me with Asertin, which is more of antidepressant, and I wonder, if someone used that before?
I will have another meeting in a month because she doesnt exclude a possibility of adhd but wants to see results of this medicine.
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ADHD
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Sorry to take time away from this important topic, but I need some help. Just found out a friend of my husband is really down. His landlord called us. Emergency contact. Apparently he has been surviving on garnola bars and water and no working tiolet. Yes we had no idea. pandemic what can i say. its not an excuse but its the truth. we went to Target today and i got a lot of disposable plates, bowls, silverware, solo cups, paper-towels, tiolet paper (his bathroom is getting fixed today). heres what else i got-
toothpaste, toothbrush, mouthwash
body soap, deodorant and hand-soap
cleaning stuff (he asked for this) Clorox cleaner. Garbage bags (black and kitchen) comet, disinfectant wipes
Aspirin (this he asked for as well)
3 canned soaps, peanut butter & jelly, bread
crackers, pretzels, Mac and cheese (microwave kind)
Some breakfast bars, whole grain snacks (banana nut)
Ramen noodles (6 pack chicken and beef)
Hot pockets (his request) actually his only food suggestion. He says microwave is working
Chicken pot pies (frozen) Im worried about this one
Gatorade
the landlord said something was wrong with fridge right now, so suggested not a lot of perishable foods.
landlord has scheduled a Cleaning crew for tomorrow. Apparently the apartment is really bad and landlord is worried about entire structure of the house. Ie pests, mold, etc.
We are on east coast and Family is on west coast, we just got in contact with them yesterday as well. My husband is bringing goods now to his house to see where we go from here. But I was looking for the basics things I missed. Any staples that should be there that I’m missing? I’m sure this is the first step of many for help I understand that. I just want to make sure we are providing the best first step available to him at this time. Anything obvious thats missing that could help? I appreciate any suggests. Thank you.
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depression
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On top of learning from them...
I won't go into detail over mines otherwise this post will be the size of a full length novel...
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OCD
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The main theme of my ocd is inflicting harm upon myself and my family physocally and sexually. I feel completely drained and my head hurts from the disgusting never ending thoughts. I am o n zoloft and doing exposure therapy myself but some days i feel so tired of this shit. I just wanted to vent to people who share my struggle to a degree and who understand what i am going through. My main fear is that someday i may snap and start acting out on these thoughts and starting harming myself or my family.
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OCD
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Hey,
So I’m a 23 year old male, I have worked with children since the age of 15 I know I’m attracted to woman and not to children. But 1 year ago in February I had a weird dream followed by a weird sensation when I child touched my thigh from
That moment I freaked out and it happend more and more finally therapy and shrink and medication etc etc.
I always had OCD so I just need to beat these groinels anyone advice? From what I know it’s all anxiety and stress what makes my blood flow and makes me think I’m aroused by the child when it’s in reality not so does anyone know how I can get back to normal?? I’m done with therapy she told mee I need to ignore it but I just can’t I feel awfull everytime.
Anyone had any experiences around real children?? Sometimes a month passes and nothing happens so Jeah I just don’t know...
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OCD
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I didn’t eat much before adderall in the first place, and it’s only gotten worse since I started medication. I’m a “just eat when you’re hungry” type of person, but the problem is I don’t really get signals to eat.
Like I know I need to, but I can’t take more than a few bites before I get bored. People always just tell me to “force myself to eat,” but it’s not that easy.
Nothing is appetizing enough to have more than a few bites of, and even if I do, I don’t get satisfaction from the food anyway. I just downed like 5 chicken nuggets since I hadn’t had much to eat all day and I didn’t feel full, but now I have a stomach ache. How do you break the cycle?
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ADHD
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hey i wanted to know if you guys are doing good? whats worrying you at the moment, how is life after knowing you have aspergers, is it different, i know it is for me. tell me your life story!
Edit: sorry if this post seems very nosy, i just wanted to give the kind Aspies of Reddit a thread to talk :)
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aspergers
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No matter what I do to distract it doesn't help long term. I have a t and sessions help but only for the moment. And the last days I didn't hurt myself so I was fine and now everything is back in my mind.
I hope this will end in the next years. I don't think I can do it all my life anymore.
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depression
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Then immediately after you come up with a million reasons why its not ocd 🥲
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OCD
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I used to feel happy when someone would tell me that, because I try so hard to mask things. However, as I have gotten older, I find that to be offensive. What does someone with Asperger's "look like"?
It's like if someone came out as gay, and the response was "you don't seem gay." It's a spectrum people!
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aspergers
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I’ve just come to the realisation that the reason I likely struggle to make my bed, do chores, simple tasks etc etc. is because there’s too many other responsibilities as an adult that withhold my attention subconsciously (even when having plenty of free time) and basically make it seem like it’s impossible to find any energy at all to do those types of tasks. The reason I was fascinated by this is because prior to thinking about that I was trying to discover why as a kid/teen I could make my bed, I could do chores and the simple tasks. I feel like the fact structure with school existed in that time period almost have incentive to do those things which contradicts my whole statement. But idk just thought I’d share that.
Love to everyone in the sub, hope u all made it through today okay ❤️
Would usually procrastinate and triple check my spelling/grammar but I cannot be bothered after a long day, hope all made sense lmao.
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ADHD
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So first time posting here but feel like I need advice as I’ve never really realised I’ve needed it until now, i was diagnosed with ADHD this year and it’s made sense to a lot of things in my life (I’m 21 and male). I’ve never been someone who’s stupid but always had problems with studying thing I’m not interested in what so ever school work for example, I’ve ended up in a shit job making shit money when i feel like if I had some help when I was younger I could’ve achieved so much more and I’m stuck in life. I know 21 is still young enough to go into trying new things but i tend to get distracted from things constantly and my GP recommends not taking medication at the moment and just meeting up with someone to talk about stuff at the moment. Any help would be greatly appreciated
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ADHD
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I am just done and don't know what else to do. I haven't been able to feel love in over a decade and I have wanted to kill myself since 7. And yet Iwas never physically abused or sexually assaulted. I'm just a fucking pussy who can't handle anything. I don't see a future and I can't remember my past all there is is the miserable present. Ive done everything I been told to. I go to the doc I go to therapy I go to rehab I don't do drugs I do drugs. Why am I still miserable. I have never been happy and I'm 23. 23 and I have never had a friend in my life except my boyfriend right now. He is the only fucking person ever in my life I give a fuck about. and I can't even love him cause I feel nothing. I haven't felt anything in years. I go to work and do my job good but I hate it for no reason but I hate everyone and they hate me. I fucking hate my paranoia it just fucking makes me catastraphize and I think everyone hates me. I can't go outside without being scared to death someone will yell at me or hurt me. Ive done all of my goals in life and I am still not happy. I have no motivation I just fucking done. Plan right now is to quit my job and waste away and/or kill myself. don't eve know why I fucking posting this
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depression
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This is kinda a vent..I had to say it.
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When i was in the hospital..a boy tried touching my thigh then put his hand on my crotch. I got scared and slapped him and yelled at him for it..
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It took me years to open up about it and when I first tried talking about it, I tried telling my mom. I would tell her about what he did and she would just...dismiss it a lot. She said what he did was fine or normal.. this..caused a lot of troubles deep within me because I felt like I was wrong for feeling invaded with this.. and that maybe he was right for doing this to me..or trying to. There..are kinda a lot of things my mom has done for invalidating me to the point where I have panic attacks over wondering if I'm actually wrong and this is all in my head..that the other person is right or just.. okay for doing this.
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She later apologized for this and said that she thought I was too young to understand and thought if she never brought it up, I wouldn't get scared over it. I was 12 or 13..you learn that stuff kinda earlier now ig
So yeah..please validate your kids traumas
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ptsd
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I'm working on a project for a class today, and I noticed that I kept backing away from the work to adjust something minor to my environment.
*It's too dark in here; I should turn on this lamp. I don't think my trackpad will be enough, so I'll dig out my mouse. This playlist is wrong.*
I'm no stranger to procrastination—it's the only way I've ever managed to clean anything in my apartment in a timely manner. This feels a bit different, though.
I don't know if it's my brain looking for even the slightest out from focusing on something or if I'm just really sensitive to the slightest discomfort when I'm trying to dig down and focus on something. Does anyone else have this problem?
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ADHD
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Ever since my diagnosis I feel like I've known I'm on a spiral but I haven't been able to stop it. I know I've been obsessing over learning everything I can about it and about treatments. I know it's been impossible for me not to talk about it constantly as I draw connections between my diagnosis and so many things from my childhood that are making sense now. I feel for my partner for having to put up with it and I know he just wants me to realize we can't afford treatment right now and that my obsessing over everything is just stressing me out more. I just don't know how to make this stop without finding some kind of help. I dont know how to make him realize that the O in OCD is my biggest problem. I. Cannot. Stop. Obsessing. Of course my diagnosis is going to be the obsession of the month until we get back on our feet and I can find the right therapy. I did find the free app NOCD so if anyone has had any luck with that let me know.
TW for people with trans OCD, I dont have it but I am trans and about to talk about it
I feel like being a transman on top of everything is just making it all that much harder. For the past, oh idk, month or so my partners been telling me I flinch or pull away when he touches my chest. Him touching my chest has never bothered me before so I honestly didnt even know I was doing it. Ever since my diagnosis I've been thinking way more about that and top surgery and looking up a lot of guys results from different doctors then realized the other night that I'm actually feeling extremely dysphoric about my chest right now and I think the pulling away has been a subconscious reaction to it. When I confessed this tonight to my partner, after confessing my struggles with pocd that I've been holding back because I was scared he wouldn't react well and he reacted like a saint so I thought it would be safe, he got so mad he shut down and wouldnt talk to me and went to bed without a word. I laid and cuddled him until he was asleep, and have been chilling in the living room since trying to distract myself with video games and do everything I can to get myself to a point of exhaustion that will allow me to sleep through the onslaught my OCD is unleashing upon me. I feel like a terrible partner for not telling him sooner, I feel like I don't even deserve sleep because I hurt him so I'm forcing my eyes open with everything I have even as i type this. I hate myself with every inch of my being and i just want this all to stop. I just want help.
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OCD
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I know I phrased the title strangely. What I mean is; do you ever force yourself to do/enjoy something that you used to like but no longer do, to avoid feeling like you’re no longer you’re own person? Like forcing yourself to enjoy certain interests or activities, to avoid feeling like you’re losing significant components of your personality?
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aspergers
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Some days the Vyvance works really well. Some days I don't feel it. I thought it was just shit sleep patterns or something from me.
I knew to avoid citric acid (sodas and OJ) an hour before and after taking my dose. However, I did a proper search on what foods are actually acidic.
Oat meal is highly acidic. The cheese I chuck on is also acidic. I think this is what killed the Vyvance. Just looking at it, I would have thought it was basic/neutral.
I like bacon/salami/high fat meats. These also apparently decrease absorbtion.
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Would a more alkaline diet boost medication effectiveness for most people with ADHD as the western diet tends to be fairly acidic? What would the perfect breakfast be? I think spinach and baked beans are good.
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ADHD
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I am 34 and had four major depression in my life, last one ending six months ago.
I take care of myself and keep my mental hygien seriously. I visit a psychiatrist regularly just in case.
During my last depression I was close to dying but thanks to the help of my familiy and mental facilities I pulled through.
I made massive changes to better my life and fend of future depressions but now I get this nagging fear. Deep down I know I won’t survive the next one.
Can somebody relate? How do you handle this fear?
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depression
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I just started with a real OCD therapist. I wanted to jump into my worst kind of OCD. I thought it would be easy. I told him everything. I told him some of my deepest secrets in hope that he would help me.
I have so much anxiety now. All exposure therapy does is dig up nasty memories that I repress so I don't have to remember them.
They are all coming up now. I have told things to my therapist I have never told anyone before. I am in above my head now and I want to drop out of therapy. I don't see what is the point of exposure therapy. It's making me so anxious I have to take my panic medicine. On top of that I am already very anxious and had a terrible doctor's appointment with my psychiatrist who made me cry.
I CAN'T DO IT!
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OCD
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I always have had voices, like everyone you know and sometimes when my mental is pretty bad it gets worse and you get more anxious and paranoid about your casual fears or habits for example someone watching you stuff like that.
The other day I saw a post about psychosis and someone doing one of those checklist of the symptoms or what you hear because it helps them come to terms with it and I was just thinking is that what I get during worse times, like I’ve had breakdowns and mania but never thought psychosis or anything?
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OCD
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Hey ya, yes you, stop doing your compulsions for a second, you're not schizophrenic. Okay, back to what I was saying. Why the fuck are you still doing your compulsions, stop for a minute ! okay so over the past few days i noticed everyone was having a hard time- never ending obsessions, way too much stress, suicidal ideation, losing friends. I just want you guys to know you're not alone in this. I'm with you.
We're stronger together. OCD can be tough at times, maybe even hopeless. It can destroy you, break you down to pieces. But there's light at the end of the tunnel. We're gonna make it together. To the guy who asked if there's an end to the suffering, yes. YES there is. This community is something I can call home. When I was in the throes of hopelessness, you guys lifted me up. Now it's my turn to give back.
And I'm not in remission hah, I'm struggling just like everyone here. :) Yeah it sucks taking meds just to think clearly, it's dehumanizing. Yeah the obsessive thoughts are torture. Yeah, losing friends isn't easy. But yknow what? I'm done living with fear. It's time to live. Live!
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OCD
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Hi all, so I think I've been dealing with depression for as long as I can remember. Probably since middle school, and I'm 21 (going to be 22 this February).
Anyways, my depression has been terrible since the pandemic started... It was probably a combination of all the isolation and weed I smoked tbh.
I'm currently in school and will be receiving my associate's degree; I'm working as an Amazon delivery driver, and I work part-time as an after-school aide. These things would typically bring any average person great happiness, but I feel empty all the time. I don't want to take my meds anymore, and everything that used to be fun (video games, my friends, weed, etc.) doesn't do anything for me anymore. It just feels like I'm killing time
How do I fix my emotions?
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depression
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