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I have a rehearsal with my band Thursday at noon, and we will be playing one song that I sing lead on from the drum kit. I have had the last 5 months off with Covid protocols to actually practice singing, and of course I left it until two days before our rehearsal. So last night I pulled out my guitar to play it while I sang, because the song is transposed to a lower key for my singing range and I can't sing to the recording.
Well, the guitar was out of tune and my tuner's battery was dead. It is one of those flat pancake batteries, so I had to go to the store to buy a new one. I make the trip to the store, get home, completely forget what I had just spent the last half hour doing, and poured myself a bath. Just as I'm getting in I realize I was supposed to be practicing the song.
At least I wasn't cooking something this time. What are your recent stories of just completely forgetting something important you were in the middle of?
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Hey everyone,
I have dealt with OCD since I was 9. I'm 27 now. My theme is both related to health and somatic symptoms, in particular my eyes.
So my new fear is that I have developed HPPD. I've only done psychedelics a handful of times, and they were extremely good experiences. No bad trips at all.
It started with me noticing visual snow in the dark and on shadows. Other than that I didn't have any symptoms... until I read stuff about HPPD.
After doing that, I started noticing other symptoms, especially when I watch TV. It's like a flash of light that moves in my left eye.
I do have compulsions to check for symptoms and read stuff on the HPPD board, but of course it doesn't do any good.
I was just wondering if anyone has had it manifest with visual disturbances, and what are your tips for dealing with it?
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Hi everyone,
I'm looking for advice on how you maintain a healthy relationship with a 9-5 job.
Years ago, I went to the doctor after showing many ADHD traits my whole life. The doctor said "It's absolutely clear you have ADHD however you've made it to your 20s so we won't put you through for an official diagnosis." - This is obviously incredibly problematic for many reasons but the main one is, I'm not protected at work as I don't have an official diagnosis.
I'm now 28, started working when I was 19 and have already got through 15 jobs, some I've been fired from for my lack of motivation/doing things at the last minute and some I've left because I physically can't stand doing the same thing over and over again for a long period of time. My longest job was 1 year and that ended in me having to take strong anti-depressants. My shortest job was 5 hours...
I finally have a job that actually makes me happy, the people are really nice and supportive however I'm starting to get that feeling again where I'm getting stressed doing the same job over and over again. I know at this point that it's likely I'll become depressed again because I'm already losing focus/doing less than the bare minimum. I'm trying so hard to focus and pay attention but it's just getting worse.
This is the best place I've worked and I honestly believe if my brain didn't work this way, I could work here for the rest of my life happily.
Does anyone else struggle with a 9-5? If so, what can I do to get out of this negative cycle?
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Any advice is appreciated.
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I wasnt diagnosed with ADHD (Inattentive Type) until I was in my 30s. It was life changing and I wish I had been diagnosed sooner.
I have spent the last 6 months fighting with my exhusband to get our 8 year old son diagnosed with ADHD so we can get him help. He has had lots of problems at school and his teacher is at a loss as to how to help him anymore. His dad kept saying he'd grow out of it, that it was just a phase, etc. I dont know if he truly believed that or if he just hated the idea that I could be right about the diagnosis.
On Monday, I met with my son's doctor. He reviewed an assessment that my son's teacher did and then asked me a series of questions. He diagnosed him on the spot! Said it was so obvious that there was no need for further assessment unless we wanted it. He wrote a prescription and gave us a referral for a therapist to help him learn about his diagnosis.
My son took his meds for the first time today. We didn't tell the school because we didn't want them to treat him any different. His teacher emailed me today to tell me he had the absolute best day ever and I balled like a baby.
When I picked him up, I asked him how his day was or if he felt any different. He said, "I don't think I feel different. But I got a lot done today. I even did extra work on my story project." I gave him the biggest hug and told him I was proud of him. He just shrugged. Lol.
I'm beyond excited to see how the next few days go. I hope this is just the beginning of a LONG series of better days for him.
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Hi, I've found myself struggling to do more than 10 minutes of anything productive or learning anything new, at a time. Are there any methods that you guys use to focus/stay on task that help you? I really don't want to be on medication but its only been getting worse recently and I'm running out of options lol.
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I was bullied at school, by my family too, I can't turn the page. I have the impression today that it continues when I no longer have contact with anyone.
sometimes I meet in the street an old acquaintance, a former bully with a smirk and it hurts.
I do not know what to do. I just want to ignore them and move on. Part of my depression is because of this. I feel like a sub-man, a coward, a human waste.
I want to move in another place but I have neither the money nor the strength to do so.
Being stuck in the past because of this bullshit, it's horrible.
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depression
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During my 30s I went through multiple miscarriages & failed infertility treatments. After ten years, we ended up adopting our two kids so I thought I was ok. Today (I’m 53) I had to have an invasive & painful procedure (endometrial biopsy) and in the middle of it I began screaming and sobbing uncontrollably. It wasn’t just the physical pain. It was like I was right there again, losing all the pregnancies at once, like I never left that place of grief. I was so horrified I came home & drank a lot. I went through years of therapy for childhood sexual abuse. I guess I’m supposed to deal with this now. Fuck.
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I was always an anxious person before, especially when it came to my health, but I never felt depressed. In fact i loved life so much that I wanted to always make the best of it by being healthy and eating right was a way of doing it, I wanted to be healthy for my kids. But then I gained 8lbs with the lockdown. I felt lethargic and sluggish unable to take care of my two daughters. I wanted more energy but I also wanted to look better. I decided to take a break from my job and concentrate on my kids and health for a while. One month into the break I started doing leg rises, I pushed myself too hard one day after looking at Instagram and seeing fit women looking their best. That was the day I ruined my life, couple of days later I would wake up coughing which never happened before. Then one morning I had trouble swallowing food, didn’t think much of it but made a doctors appointment anyway. When the doctor checked my heartbeat she noticed it was irregular, I freaked out and I was sent to see a cardiologist. I did all kinds of test and the doctor said my heart was fine, he even got upset at me for being concerned. But my difficulty eating was getting worse so I was sent to a gastroenterologist who did all kinds of test including CT scan, x-rays, barium swallow and endoscopy. Everything came back cleared except for a hiatal hernia. Since then my life has been a living hell, everything I eat causes me pain in the stomach, heartburn, pain on my throat, ears, bad breath, dizziness, nausea and irregular heartbeat. It causes pressure on my vagus nerve which triggers panic attacks. My doctors keep telling me to take medication for life, to just manage my condition that they don’t recommend invasive surgery to fix it since it might make things worse. I’m feeling hopeless, my love of life is completely gone, I want to be there for my family but not like this. I’m dead inside, my life has become so limited of what I can do, eat, how I can sleep. I wake up everyday wishing I didn’t. Is a horrible feeling, my husband keeps telling me to pull through this for them. But I just can’t, the guilt is too much. I keep thinking that if I wasn’t comparing myself to other people, if I took things slowly instead of pushing my body too hard, if I would have been more patient none of this would have happened. I got no one to blame but myself. I had a good life and I completely ruined it, and continue to do so with the way I’m feeling. My mother and sister have given up on me, they don’t want to come see me anymore because they feel bad seeing someone who used to thrive in life just give up. I have lost 31lbs in 5 months, I’m literally wasting away. I have never been so depressed in my life. The worse part is knowing that life is never going to be the same, I jeopardize the thing I wanted most in life, being there for my kids healthy physically and mentally. When you don’t have good health you have nothing
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anytime any problem i face in life i have to google it and it causes lots of stress for me
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So I was diagnosed with ADHD about 2 weeks ago. I have serious imposter syndrome and part of me thinks I don’t have ADHD. Despite this I decided to try medication and was put on 40mg of Strattera and after about 3 days I’ve felt nothing really. I know it takes a while to kick in but if nothing changes I’m afraid to try stimulants. I’m afraid of addiction and think I should just not medicate if it doesn’t work on Strattera.
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I watched a video on why I hate religion and love Jesus and now my minds saying that jesus wants me to do bad things and i feel like ive went over the deep end and im crazy now. Why would jesus want me to do these horrible things? Why does it feel like I believe it?
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I find institutions that are supposed to be enabling people to better themselves by obtaining careers have shown themselves to be ableist. I feel that society has a eugenic agenda against the neurodivergent
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This is my favorite depression resource. I return to it frequently. The Asperger's story is something I totally ignore. But Stan is clearly depressed. Every part of Stan's experience in this episode is just so true to me.
He goes through and everything is shit. He's obviously depressed so friends distance themselves. He goes to a counselor, and instead of help, he's given a diagnosis. He goes the mental health center, and meets the Matrix people, and they actually listen to what he's saying and agree. But, it's a false connection.
I don't know what it is. But when you're so deeply sad; people just don't want to hear it. It's hard for them to even listen. And they always propose some magical solution; try this chakra balancing bullshit, work through your issues with your dad, exercise, eat healthy; blah blah blah blah. When I'm depressed I just want to be able to tell someone actually how ok feeling and have them accept it. But, it's like impossible for people to do that. It's not that they can't help - I don't expect them to help. But they're unable to even listen to my experience, without me then having to comfort THEM about MY pain. So I just stop sharing with people.
And idk. Maybe it's super nihilistic. But, in the episode, Stan doesn't get better. He just continues. I haven't unalived because I know rationally that things could improve. But I don't expect them too. And I'm sorry, the world is shit. I did the right thing going to college and I'll work shitty jobs and be in debt forever for it. I rent a bedroom, not even an apartment, much less a house. I ate some chicken nuggets earlier and I couldn't tell if liked them or not. So detached I've become from my sensations.
I'll probably delete this post later. How embarrassing to say to strangers on the internet what you should say to a friend. But, I've tried talking with friends and over and over and it's soooo invalidating that I feel worse than I talked to them the first time. It's like when you tell people you're sad, they just have to tell you no that's not true.
My dad is supposed to be dead by February. Gastric cancer, stage 4. And I don't like him. I hate him. He wasn't a good father. And he'll be gone and the chance that he'll ever be a good father is gone too. The family is already tearing apart. Anytime now, I'll return home for a funeral, and then I think my brother's and sister will separate never to see each other again. I'm spending Christmas alone. I'm not terribly sad. I'm just a gaping empty hole. People hurt more than they help. And I've got no Faith in professional mental health services. I have a degree in social services, I work in a residential mental health home. No faith at all. A client told me the other day "I'm just so tired of living" and I comforted him, was there for him. But when I went home I got drunk and kept thinking I feel exactly like he does. But, his depression caused him to do one thing crazy enough to get him in a home; and mine hasn't. It's a long lonely road. And we walk it alone if we intend to walk it at all. Everyone's story is cut off in middle, and it's only called an end in retrospect.
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One of my biggest themes is real event rumination, getting everything "right" and obsessing if I explained everything so the other person understands me. If I feel I didnt, I get triggered, the memory gets "stuck" and I feel an overwhelming feeling to rewind it and think of what I didnt say and what I should've said to make sense.. this creates a very strong urge to go bring up the conversation again to make sure the other person understood to gain clarity. I also find myself anxiously thinking of ways of "how" to bring it up, cause I dont wanna sound weird bringing up something that already passed. This mainly happens with my SO than other people. I try to fight it cause the conversation wasn't very significant, but in not doing it, the compulsion gets stronger and stronger and I know the affects of an obsession getting bad, ;sticking around for a long time until I do it and its considered "solved" in my mind and I can get rid of it. I feel especially anxious now because I didn't bring it up the day after it happened in hopes id forget it, but I haven't, so now I have this anxious feeling because I was "supposed" do it the next day instead of putting it off and letting the obsession linger...it feels so "urgent"
I hate feeling like I have to MAKE sure I'm understood, and if I dont it produces anxiety.
Anyone have any insight?
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I have Aspergers, and my only friend who I talk to regularly does as well, he lives nearby. We have some mutual friends who live 2 hour drive away but I don't think he has seen them in quite a while.
We frequently play games online together, but arranging a meetup is usually a pain. After we hang out he often says how fun it was, how good it is for him to socialise etc. But whenever I ask him to hang out, it is constant excuses, and procrastination from answering the question of whether he wants to meet.
I get that he might be busy, or just not feel like it, needs time to recharge etc. But this is every time I ask him, if I message him he just replies idk to everything, so I have to call him to actually have a conversation, then it takes 45 mins minimum of him procrastinating from answering whether he wants to hang out. (I've tried asking him, giving him time to think about it, then calling back. But it seems he always still hasn't done deciding or hasn't really thought about it.)
I think hanging out and socialising is good for both of us. But when I have to spend over an hour talking about it, all the time being reminded I don't have any other friends I can hang out with, and being made to feel like people will make up any excuse just to not hang out with me, by the time he actually answers, even if he does want to I might not really feel like it anymore.
It kind of just feels not that worth it.
But I don't exactly have any alternatives either.
Any advice?
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That's it. There's point in saying anything else. I'm just a freak
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So, this started when my girlfriend told me something about her past and how much men she dated. At first, not only I was disgusted by the thing I ve just heard, but I realized that it s normal thing to go to parties and kiss people and have fun during High School. Well, the problem is, I ve never did anything of this. Now, I keep feeling depressed and stupid and I keep blaming myself for what I did not do in the past (even thought I now have a caring girlfriend, a good looking physique and friends) and EVERYTIME I meet somebody or just see somebody, and try to analyze things and asks myself: "What did she/he do in the past?Did he have fun like my girflriend or not? Was he/she like me?" And i just can t stop those thoughts, but I always try to discuss them and I say: "Comeon, the past is not important, be realistic." and thigs like this. It's kinda strange because I don t know if this kind of thoughts fit in some categories of OCD (mostly pure O i guess). However, those thougts comes up literally at every moment (and the trigger was like 7 months ago) and it s so hard to focus on something. Hope you can give me some tips, and tell me if it is really OCD or not :). Thanks a lot, bye <3
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Does anyone else suffer from hating and fearing particles like from cars, in the air, from tp, etc I can't stand the thought of something touching my mouth I wear a mask all the time but nothing is helping it's taking over life I can't do this anymore.
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TL;WR: I teach myself illnesses with the true belief I have them, and I don’t even know who I am anymore besides a walking hoax, so I’ve become very suicidal and I NEED to know I;m not the only one with this type of hypochondria.
So, I’ve been diagnosed with OCD forever now, and I have hypochondria with it. However, I don’t have the average hypochondria of being scared of having an illness, I’m scared that I DON’T have the illness. Anytime I do end up “having” the illness, it feels just like a coincidence.
I guess it’s all rooted in my koinophobia- the fear of being normal. It’s weird that I have this, because I was bullied as a kid, but maybe that’s my coping mechanism? “I’ll show them” kind of attitude?
Anyway, I come out of great desperation and thoughts of suicide (good thing I’m too much of a coward to kill myself.) I hate this hypochondria. I KNOW it’s all in my head, and there are LEGITIMATE people suffering while I whine about something I’ve given myself for sh%ts and giggles,
^^^And I don’t even know who I am anymore.^^^
When I was about 8-10, my brother was undergoing cancer treatments. I was jealous of all of the attention, so I prayed to my god that I could get an illness that “Wouldn’t kill me, just make me really really sick.” I ended up with mononucleosis for 8 months (weight loss, migraines, all that jazz) that doctors could never diagnose. Regardless of whether or not this was just a coincidence (it always feels like a coincidence, I can never tell!) I am so ashamed. All of that time, money, and energy WASTED on me, when my brother needed it most. Thankfully he is healthy again, but here I am, throwing my own pity party and inviting new guests each week.
Today, I found out that my sibling has anxious tics. Well, I had been having facial tics for a few months (which have probably just been picked up because I thought they were cute) ands now they’re much more painful, I actually shout things, etc. I CAN control them to an extent, and when i forget about them they go away, but any time I think about them they get moderately severe again.
Because I don’t know who I am, I’m EXTREMELY suicidal and having terrible intrusive thoughts (every wall I look at, I imagine myself banging my head against it, all over, and the walls are just covered in large patches of blood everywhere I look). I’m having frequent manic and depressive episodes. I get nothing done. I would pull a stunt to get checked into a mental hospital, but I’d on’t think they could treat anything but my depression, which I have medicine for, anyway :(
(I was very hesitant on posting here, because I hate attention seeking (despite my constant need to stand out), but I’m terrified. I can’t move any further in life until I have some way to deal with this. It’s been years.) I ask that you’re kind and, if you don’t believe or don’t like what I have to say, kindly scroll away. You are saving an argument and my mental health <3
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I was told by someone that they had harmed someone over 25 years ago. If I’m a mandated reporter am I supposed to tell this ? I don’t know where it occurred or to who. Am I overthinking this ? When reporting elder abuse online it asks “ the victim , location , approximate time” … I don’t know ANY of that. How can I be guilty if a misdemeanor but have no facts of what happened ? The law says being a mandated reporter and having ANY knowledge of abuse of an elderly person you are guilty of a misdemeanor if you don’t report. I hate feeling like a criminal. This person shared a story that occurred 25 years ago when an elderly person in their care but them and they reacted. It technically may be considered abuse or just a reaction. Because of my anxiety I feel like I’m breaking a law by now telling. I KNOW it any just be my OCD.
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All my life I've been two steps behind everyone else. I was slow to process information, poor in social situations, and generally low performing in academics. I didn't catch on to new skills as quickly as others, and I couldn't play sports or any games because I didn't understand the rules well.
I'm really dumb and slow and worthless and I've never managed to do anything worthwhile. I failed in school and the highlight of my life has been getting a dead end job and finding an apartment to shut myself inside. I am ashamed of who I am and I don't want to live. My medication is just placebo and doesn't do anything. Others are moving forward and enjoying their lives. I am at a standstill, never mentally moved on from high school.
I am ashamed and disappointed with what I am
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Hi there,
After an uphill battle, I finally have an ADHD diagnosis (and potentially ASD...!) at 31 years old.
4 days ago, I was prescribed 18mg of Concerta. I'm not feeling anything yet except a suppressed appetite but I remember when I was in the chemist that the dispenser asked me if I want generic or non-generic Concerta. I asked what the difference was and she said the only difference is the price. The generic stuff being cheaper, obviously.
However, I've since read online that there actually may be a difference between these two medications and I would like to know what the difference is? At the moment, the pill I take has the word "APO" written on it but I know the branded versions have "ALZA" written on them.
I have 5 days left on 18mg and after that I go up to 27mg. I think when I go to pick up the 27mg I'll ask for the branded version to see if I can feel/notice a difference.
Does anyone have experience around this or have something insightful to share? I'm curious why the chemist would say there is no difference at all except price when there actually may be a difference.
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What to do when your lifestory is too heavy to unpack? I would love to know if some of you can relate as I feel very alone in this right now.
I lived through all of the big T and little T traumas listed in the DSM-5. Even my birth was traumatic. From day one, I experienced death, violence, self harm of all kind, easting disorder, insecurity, no emotional support, sexual assault. Live threatening illness, chronic pain, sleep disorders, extreme loneliness. Loss of career. Homelesness. Mental and physical disability. Literal torture at the hands of people I trusted. Undiagnosed ADHD didn't help my self esteem.
I knew pretty early one that I needed to work on myself if I didn't want the trauma to bit me in the ass later in life. But with life going its merry way and traumas never stopping, it would always come a time when I needed to push things under the rug so i could focus on life itself. For exemple, I had to stop EMDR because it made my panic attacks and chronic pain so much worst that I couldn't work anymore and I needed the money (to get therapy...).
Every time a chronic trauma stopped, a new one would start. I am 32 years old and I can count on my hands the amount of months they wasn't a big trauma happening in my life. There was always a new thing to heal from while I hadn't fully processed the last one. It is becoming increasingly hard to talk to my therapist about one specific topic and hoping we will see the end of it.
Can you guys relate? I cannot be the only one. Did you find a solution? How do you cope? How do you keep some sort of joy in life?
I was in and out of therapy from my whole life. I took every med under the sun. I do my best, I listen to my doctors. I stay healthy as much as possible, exercice, never did drugs or gor drunk or anything like that. I try to build a support system, a better one that the one imposed to me during my childhood.
I hope one day, it will be enough.
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Before you ask, I am the legal age to drink, and I just had 3 glasses of wine in memory of my father's recent passing. For example, my intrusive thoughts suggest I am attracted to men, could be a murderer, or even a pedo. as of this moment, the Intrusive thoughts, to my dismay, seem all the more overpowering, as I need even more mental effort to block them out, as my mind seems a tad slower. I am scared out of my mind; I don't want these thoughts, at all, I some part of me knows that I am none of these, but my Intrusive thoughts are stronger. I don't know what to do.
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I spent time with family. I got into gardening and felt good about life. My mental health improved. For the first time I felt hopeful for the future. I was happy, upbeat, joking, focused. Folks complained about being in lockdown and I honestly was ok.
Being brought back to reality, my depression has returned. I can’t pretend I’m a normal human anymore, because I’m reminded with every interaction I’m a freak.
I’ve been deemed fit for work and am being forced to look for employment, despite suffering with Agoraphobia. My work coach who I thought was a good person, is actually a narcissist and is now condescending towards me. I told them I had a breakdown about getting a job interview [I broke out laughing and crying, hitting myself] and was ignored. I requested a new work coach and was denied.
I spoke to two doctors about my breakdown and they just had a ‘get on with it’ mentality. I get told being diagnosed with Aspergers won’t change anything. I had to look into Wellbeing myself because they wouldn’t refer me to anything. I’ve had to have my anxiety medication upped because I’m not coping.
I feel like giving up on life. I struggle to find the effort to garden or do much of anything anymore. The only thing keeping me going are my parents, because it would destroy them if anything happened to me.
I wish there was a job I could do but I’ve nearly given up hope, because something has always gone wrong. I’m never good enough or work to the level the employer wants and I eventually get let go. The last time I was in employment, I wasn’t treated as part of the team. They didn’t even give me a uniform and would leave me alone all the time to speak amongst themselves. They brought in someone to replace me and I had to work with them while they set up the pretense of my cover role being for hire. The icing on the cake, they invited the new girl to a Christmas party and not me. They also invited the guy who left two weeks ago to the Christmas party as well. I was never given an invite, I had to hear it from the others.
I wish I could get by on volunteering, because the stress and expectation is so much less, but of course it would be. They’re not paying you. I wish I could work with animals, but those roles are rarely ever available.
I wish I could feel the way I did during lockdown. My soul feels like it’s dying and I’m so tired I just want to sleep. What do I do?
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I always have since I was a boy, when I die I don't want to die of a terminal disease or suffer for an extended period of time, I want to be in control of what happens. There is so much that I do no have control of in my life, I should be able to control how and when I die. My only issue is now I think about it daily, my life has gone downhill within the space of a week and I think about it more, my ex dumped me and just doesn't want anything to do with me any more, I have a terrible job and I make barely any money so even if I want to socialise I can't really afford to. I am putting on weight and I can't motivate myself to get in the gym. I just really have had enough, I speak to therapists, I speak to doctors, I speak to my friends, nothing ever changes and nothing is enough. I don't know what to do any more but I am coming to the end of my ability to cope.
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I started this new medication, Latuda, because I was having outbursts of extreme anger and sadness. Like, my depression and anxiety have gotten worse. But, it's for a good reason, because I have mostly joined society again and am trying to adult. At 40, it's high time for this. I have spent the last 17 years in my room for fear that others would hurt me. Basically, I told my shrink that the odds of me dying increase greatly the moment I leave my house. It's a fact. He couldn't dispute it. So, there I sat... for a long time. Until I wasn't satisfied with sitting anymore. I needed to be around people. I wanted to feel love for another again. My trauma, I was beaten up and mugged randomly while away at college. I was the most optimistic, loving person ever. It took me 17 years to find that girl inside myself again. I started to do very well. Then, I got cancer, and had to have surgery on my face. It took me back into a depression. But, not as deep. I found myself quicker this time, in a few months. I do still think of my face. How could I not. I look at it every day, and have to live my life behind it. I'm Scarface now. Lol. That's not even the problem. How messed up is that? All that stuff, and that's not even the problem.
So, I fell in love. Then, my parents moved away to Florida, and I stayed in Maine. For the first time since college I was far away from home, alone. Well, not alone-alone. But, no family to support me, to pick me up when I fell, to tell me I am beautiful when I feel it the least. The people that truly know me inside and out. Which I didn't even know was such a big deal, until trying to socialize. I've always been shy, so people think I'm stuck up. Lovely. PTSD gave me a social anxiety which makes shyness that much worse. It wouldn't bother me so much, except I am kind of getting a reputation for being crazy around here. When my fiancé and I first got together, I was known as "his beautiful new girlfriend." Then, the surgery happened, and I was walking around town with a huge bandage covering half my face. Like, stuff has kind of just gone downhill from there. Any fights we have, he tells his friends everything I did - and nothing he did. So, I look bat shit crazy. All my friends are far away from our real life, and they just tell me to go home to my parents. But, I refuse to go backwards. I keep doing that. I'm as sick of that as I am of my room. Plus, I feel something for Clancy that I have never felt before. He protects me, he cherishes me. Of course when two people are trying to live together for the first time there are going to be squabbles. The good far outweighs the bad, but the bad is still present.
I am currently staying with the friend of a friend while I try to find a place here in Maine. I am still in college, working on my PhD in Psychology, and my homework has just been mounting up as the weeks roll by where I'm, unable to even focus on worldly endeavors. I just sit in my head, watching shows, trying to make myself feel like myself again. I need to find a job, and establish myself here in that way. Have an income, so I can eat. I miss my family. I miss the ease of living with my parents. I miss my nephew. My sunshine, who is in Florida with the rest of my family. I miss knowing I had food shelter accounted for. My friend of a friend just told me it's time to get out. Like, two minutes ago. I started crying, then realized my face was just making sad motions. I'm on too many meds to cry. I guess that's good. But, I feel just bottom of the barrel.
I don't even know why I'm writing this. I'm just super sad, and I wish there was something that could make me not. Sometimes when I pour my heart out on here I get good advice... Thank you for being that last thread I cling to before I go full-tilt. Thank you for being there for me.
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**Here what help me the most (ranking from 1 to 10)**
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Hyperbaric oxygen therapy (7/10) -t its improve my brain after 30 sessions.
SGB injection (8/10) - I sleep good now finally thanks to do this.
CBT THERAPY (1/10) - Just trigger me cause symptoms to get worse.
EMDR (7/10) - Was useful sometimes and other times triggering.
SOMATIC EXPERIENCE (4/10) - I am not sure about this one it might help.
TRE EXERCISES (1/10) - Don't help at all.
SSRI (5/10) -
MINDFULLNESS (5/10)
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ptsd
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Today I tackled about 3 weeks worth of dishes and completed 5 loads of laundry (aside from 4 small piles of black, grey, white, and colored single socks). I finished almost all the dishes before I took a break so my son could dry and put away everything to clear the racks, then my daughter and I worked on the Laundry Couch. I should feel a sense of satisfaction, right? At least a feeling of relief?
No. In fact I feel exhausted, tense, embarrassed that it took me 5 hours to just complete two BASIC chores. I dont feel proud of myself, I feel hopeless about the absolute state of things and I wonder how on earth I'm going to host Thanksgiving in a few weeks.
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ADHD
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My mom claims I don't love her because I don't say it, but I do love her. I just don't think love is a good word because it's unspecific. So another question I can I express love in a specific way so I'm comfortable
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aspergers
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I've been wondering about the positive or profound things to come out of being depressed. Increased empathy and acceptance/appreciation of death are the first that come to mind but there must be more...
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depression
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I have heard of a relationship between sensory processing disorder/intolerance to stimuli and OCD before. I have just found an interesting abstract = https://oxfordmedicine.com/view/10.1093/med/9780190228163.001.0001/med-9780190228163-chapter-11
I don’t know if anyone has any more information/resources on this? I have always had a sensitivity to sound so find this quite interesting (also delayed speech which I have heard could be related).
Thanks! :)
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OCD
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I'm not good at keeping plants alive. I'm not good at eating healthy. Nasty rotting bags of lettuce and spinach are too horrifying to risk a purchase at the store.
My aerogarden flashes lights at me when I need to add nutrients. Other lights flash when i need to add water. With hydroponics, plants grow WAY faster than in the soil and so you get that satisfaction, dopamine and ability to eat that shit remarkably quickly. Its grow light can basically double as a SAD lamp. I've got a bunch of lettuce in there and I just... nibble at it like a rabbit.
And yeah: in the past, I got depressed and let it dry out and everything died and it was gross and sad. But when I was ready to bring it back, cleaning it and establishing a new crop only took a few minutes and the aerogarden don't judge. Highly recommended.
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ADHD
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Diagnosed 15 years ago. Felt shame. Did not tell anyone except my wife. Never seek treatment. With my wife’s help I am able to control my behaviours by recognizing when my condition of ADHD, such as disorganized thoughts, abrupt & forgetful with daily tasks at work and such happens.
I use gaming as tool to control my impulse, however I’m not certain whether gaming is helping me treat my condition.
I’m hoping I get better treatment to control my ADHD behaviours. I do overall good at work, however I noticed there are moments I cannot focus & my thoughts are all over.
I appreciate anyone with experience gives me advice. I really don’t know anything about adult ADHD & treatments.
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ADHD
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I started with Wellbutrin IR 75 once a day and it was ridiculously over stimulating. I’ve gotten myself up to 150mg SR, and I just don’t like the way I feel. My energy is thru the roof, but my head feels like a brick. It literally feels awkward to hold it in certain positions and it feels very “tight”. This is day 3 of SR. Also my blood pressure is up from 120/80 to maybe 136/80.
Keep powering thru?
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ADHD
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MY GF IS TRYING TO OVERDOSE IN IRON SHE DOESNT KNOWNTHE EXACT MEASUREMENTS BECSUSE SHE JUDT GRABBED A HANDFUL. SHEBSAYS SHE FEELS FJNE AND DOESNT THINK ITS ENOUGH AND I CANT CALL THE POLICE BECAUSE SHE SAYS HER MOM KNOWING WILL MAKE ITNWORSE. WHAT DO I DO OH GOD PLEASE HELP.
edit: She’s okay! thank you to everyone who replied
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depression
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I have so much hate inside of me rn I cant even explain, life is just a huge disappointment.
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ptsd
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I was diagnosed with ADHD Combined Type last month and I'm on my 3rd week on the UK version of Vyvanse (Elvanse Adult 30mg). It was good for the first 2 weeks but it's noticably not as effective atm and I was hopi g to speak to someone with more experience to ask some questions? Any help is great thanks
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ADHD
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After four years I feel like I’m finally getting the hang of catching myself when I measure my own self-worth by others’ actions.
For quite a while I’ve been feeling like I’m stuck, or like I’m not good enough, or like I’m stuck in a cycle, or like I haven’t been smart enough to think about the right things to say or the right resources to give to my partner who struggles to appropriately cope with stress.
Tonight I worked through the flashbacks from my previous triggering relationship and told my partner that I wasn’t sure how long I could hold onto our relationship if he was going to continue to temporarily alleviate stress by smoking marijuana or drinking. I was very clear in that I am not against those activities, but that it is very difficult for me to watch someone use drugs and alcohol as a coping mechanism, especially when they have access to a world of resources that myself or an objective counsellor or therapist can help them navigate. I also made it clear that I love him but I am struggling to accept these behaviours as part of our relationship.
I know I can’t make his choices for him. Ultimately I need to make the choices that will fulfill my needs the most, and I’m not sure what choices those are yet. I’m just really proud of myself for setting clear boundaries and letting my partner know that this is something I can’t be around to watch much longer. I know not everyone is always balanced and stable, but I want to be with someone who strives to be balanced and stable. I hope I can continue to support him as he learns how to appropriately cope with stress.
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ptsd
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After taking adderall for about a year, I finally switched to Vyvanse and it feels GREAT. All the anxiety that I felt on 15mg of XR addy is literally gone, and it's putting me in a great headspace. All the side effects are managable except for one, however. Everything I've read online says that dry mouth/feeling thirsty all the time is a side effect of vyvanse and other stims, but I've found that for women, that also translates into like, vaginal dryness. Like even when I'm fully aroused, I'm not physically "wet" down there like EVER, which is so so so annoying. It really diminishes how much I'm enjoying sex. Obviously there's always lube, but it isn't always conveniently available and doesn't feel as good. Does anyone have any other tricks to manage this unfortunate side effect? Like if I really REALLY drink enough water will it go away? Will my body get used to the drug and the side effects will wind down? (I've only been taking it for like two weeks and I don't take it every day). Does anyone else have this problem?
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ADHD
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hi guys, looking for personal anecdotes with vyvanse. i started at 30 mg for a few days but got moved to 20 mg bc of racing heart/heightened anxiety, and stayed on 20 mg for about a month. i worked fine on that dose for a few weeks, until it started to feel like i was over-adjusted and wasn't being helped enough anymore. i started 30 mg again a few days ago and am liking it, except i feel EXTREMELY social and desperately want to talk to people like 24/7. this happened before, but not quite as extreme. i also feel a little too happy at times, like there's this fake sensation of happiness blanketing my brain. almost makes me feel a little ill. also, looking for tips on eating enough, i get mega appetite suppression. thoughts?
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ADHD
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Fucking everything feels dirty. I can’t even live in my own home without constantly feeling dirty. I don’t have the energy to clean anymore and it just keeps getting dirtier and dirtier to me. The house is near spotless besides the dishes but the OCD dirtiness I feel everywhere isn’t. I feel like I’m losing control and nothing is clean to me anymore. I’m too tired to keep it up though and so I’m just constantly anxious :(
Even my cat is dirty to me and he’s so lonely all the time because I can’t get myself to touch him anymore
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OCD
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I know most people are scared of the dentist for basic reasons but I'm so scared of being touched by people I don't know especially in a vulnerable state. Because of the assault I've faced I'm afraid of people hurting me or causing permanent damage to me purposely. I'm vulnerable under anesthesia and they are just hovering over me and have dangerous tools and I can't see what they're doing (or even feel it much.)
Anyways, I went to the dentist today and got cavities taken care of on both sides of the top (I've had great teeth for the most part this was the second time I've gotten it done so it's extra scary since it's unfamiliar). My boyfriend didn't want to stay in the room with me (I don't blame him and I told him it was totally okay for him to sit in the car and wait for me to be done. He needs to drive me around because I cannot drive because of my PTSD it's EXTREMELY overwhelming). I took my medicine to keep me calm but it didn't really work it was much too terrifying, I almost ran out of the office while waiting for the hygienist to pick me up. When it was finally time to go in I told them I was having serious anxiety. The hygienist was so kind, she told me she wasn't having the best day either. She was trying to be upbeat and happy despite having a bad day so I tried to be just as strong! My dentist was also so nice, as always. I love her. She's so educated and informs me of as much as she can on to what she is doing. Always checking in with me. She told me she totally understand my anxieties and that I can take a break whenever I need all I had to do was raise my hand and she would immediately pull away. It's so nice to be validated by people instead of told "you're overreacting!" or "you're just being dramatic!". I had to get numbed 3 separate times in my left side which was pretty horrific. I kept feeling it no matter how much they numbed me and I couldn't handle that needle again even if I couldn't feel it so I dealt with the pain a bit.. I can honestly handle quit a bit of pain.
But I did it and I only asked for a small break once between the sides! I made it through an hour and a half of that anxiety. It was really draining, when I got home I was so exhausted and took a nap. I didn't think I was going to be able to do it but I did! I'd say it wasn't that bad but it was lol. Unfortunately I have to do it again though June 1st but next time I'm prepared, I CAN do it. Thank you for reading. Hang in there.
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ptsd
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Finally gotten to the point where I’ve realized my OCD is out of control and ruining my life, so thankfully I’ve started getting treatment. With treatment I’ve discovered more and more things I thought were normal that have been caused by OCD.
As long as I can remember, I’ve been plagued with “what if?” scenarios and ruminating about the future. As a reaction I’d think about the question in my mind and then go on multiple “yes/no answer, generator, magic 8 ball, etc” sights to get an “answer.” Even after the first click gives me an “answer,” I can’t stop reloading the page/starting over etc.
Anybody else experience something similar? I’ve discovered I primarily rotate through themes, so I guess this one relates to reassurance/checking? I truly thought everyone did this until my boyfriend told me that, no, most people don’t do this.
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OCD
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I just started university, and my program is pretty small, so we're becoming friends, and i mentioned that Im like, off my meds right now, cause i dont have them with me and we were talking about meds, and one person asked to get the ones i didnt take.
It was so, abrupt and rude? I feel really upset, and i kinda dont want to be friends with this person any more. I dunno, validate me fam, im really upset and i cant seem to articulate why
Editing just to say thank you for the overwhelming support, it's really sweet. I was a bit overtired when i posted this, and i feel way better and not upset anymore now that ive had some sleep. As for the person, i think they had been rubbing me the wrong way all day, and that was really just the tipping point, but we'll see where that goes. In the mean time good people, take your meds, eat your lunch and drink some water
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ADHD
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So many NTs in my life have clowned and made fun of me just because I thought have the same thought process as them, well sorry my brain is just wired differently compared to y’all.
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aspergers
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I see a lot of people assume that because I look "so normal" I don't struggle at all and that I overthink too much. Whenever I mention something, I always get the same response "oh I do that too, don't worry!"
Let's see some examples:
I say that I struggle with my surroundings. Every time I'm walking and someone comes in from the opposite direction I don't know what to do. My brain kind of freezes. I most times I end up side stepping and we end end up on this little dance and we both end up not knowing who is going where, it's embarrassing.
Imagine working an 8 hour shift with a colleague in a restaurant and having that person frustrated and ask why the hell I do that. Yeah, I bet that doesn't happen to the person who relates to me so much
Eye contact makes me uncomfortable. "Oh I don't really like making eye contact either!" Well did you also had to look up how to do the eye contact thing? How much eye contact you should be doing? I used to think people wouldn't mind if I just didn't look at them at all. I learned that I should do some eye contact and look away from time to time, don't stare! Should be easy enough. Well it's not. Whenever I do that thing people end up always checking behind them because I looked that way. Then look at me as "wtf are you looking at?" Well it's kinda hard to explain the thing I'm doing with my eyes. Basically I ALWAYS feel uncomfortable.
I could definitely go on, I mean there is SO much shit I struggle with and no one would notice. And those are the little things! Imagine working a 12 hour shift in a restaurant with music blasting through the speakers... of course some "non-sense" is bound to happen on my part! And yet everyone relates to me somehow, and that my autism is mild so I should be fine.
I just wanted to rant a little bit, sorry for the long post. Whenever these things happen I just shrug it off and move on. I can't explain my thought process. So I never share these struggles with anyone and end up doubting my own mental state.
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aspergers
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I feel like the biggest pussy ever. I'm in the US Navy right? I have job security, a decent work group of people I work with (I guess), my leadership is extremely toxic, I leave for a 8 month deployment next week... I am just all over the place right now. I have a 3 year old kid and I am married, granted I love and adore my wife and child, but the amount of time and energy I spend with Navy to miss the amount of time I get with my daughter is NOT worth it. I hate this, I feel so stuck. I have absolutely became an alcoholic, I drink almost a bottle a day when I get off work to keep me sane, the amount of money I make is so stressful especially before I leave my wife and kid when I deploy... I started a dropshipping company and made 80k in 2 months but had to stop it because of how often I'm gone and I had nobody else to run the company. I want out. I need out. This is shit, and I regret every decision I can think of within the Navy.... I'm so lost and feel so alone, idk what to do at this point...
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depression
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Hi guys, I hope you soon come to terms with your insecurities.
I am a 21 year old with a receding hairline and thinning hair. It really, really fucking bothers me.
Ever since I was in Elementary school noticing my Dad go bald , I always worried for him. I didn’t want him to go bald because he looked better with hair. I also was embarrassed of him, especially around females. I worried that females would see my balding father, assume that I would go bald at some point, and judge me for it. I worried that having a bald father would prevent me from finding love. That sounds so dumb but I actually worried about that when I was younger… a lot. I even bought him rogain for Christmas but he never used it 🤣. He didn’t like that he was balding but it didn’t seem to bother him too too much. He has way more to him than his hair.
In High School I grew my hair out super long for the first time and really really loved it. I loved putting my hair up, doing braids, etc. My favorite thing about myself was my locks, not sure why. It’s how I expressed myself and I felt so confident in my appearance and my looks.
I think I liked how I looked a little bit too much. At one point in High School I pulled my hair back and thought “damn I kinda have a gigantic forehead” but I didn’t think about it too much. There was this one picture in HS of me with my hair in ponytail where my forehead is showing and my friends noticed and made fun of met. It still did not bother me because I didn’t really foresee that my big forehead = balding. Idk, I’ve always had a big forehead so i didn’t think too much into it. I got a haircut before my freshman year of college and didn’t like it very much. I just like having luscious locks, damnit.
Anyways, freshman year of college class I started getting really bad acne. Like really fuckin bad. I had some in HS but not to this level. I’m talkin huge, cystic, horrible stuff. It was my first time being insecure and it hit me pretty hard. My acne combined with my short hair; I just wasn’t as sexy as I used to be. I struggled to make friends my freshman year for the first time. I ended up going on accutane. It really helped but it made my face flake and took so long before it started working. The only thing worse than having really bad acne is being on accutane and still having bad acne. It was shitty to be on accutane but after it was over, my face was clear and I was free of that insecurity finally. Man, I was pretty happy for the summer after freshman year. I got a job as a lifeguard, was super tan, attractive, a good body. I made new friends that I loved. I was happy to be out of my relationship. Welp, all good things come to an end.
On a road trip to Pittsburgh, a fellow balding friend pointed out that I “wasn’t far behind him” in terms of hair loss. At first I was like wtf but then I realized he was totally right. We had been camping and wearing hats for days so I was hoping that once I had a shower I would realize that I was just geeking myself out. But nope, it was true. I was totally loosing my hair. How could I have missed this In the past few years. Like, it was almost noticeable at this point, so I was shocked that I hadn’t been aware of this until now.
When I got back from the trip, I stayed up night after night reading about treatment and just feeling really anxious and depressed about it. I felt like my life was over. Literally. (I deadass still feel this way) I ordered finesteride like 3 days after getting home but never ended up using it. I didn’t want to commit to it. And it’s expensive as fuck. Anyways, I went back to college and went on with my hopeless life. So much of my mood/happiness had went hand and hand with my appearance. So I felt like my well being will continue to follow in the footsteps of my thinning hair.
I started drinking a lot that year. (which was my sophomore year in college) Not sure if it was related to my hair loss but it became an issue. I was getting drunk every day like all day. I managed to pass my classes because they were still the easy ones. I stopped drinking so much before the end of the semester. I still cared so much about my hair loss. I thought that my mental health would rebound after the hair loss shock was over but it didn’t. I wasn’t shocked about it but I fucking geeked out about it all day. I was always looking at other dudes and comparing myself. I was always worried that no girl was gonna marry me cause I’ll be bald as shit by then.
The worst part about the experience is the feeling of hopelessness. The feeling that your life can only get worse. I, to this day, have not overcome that. The future never excited me once I became aware of my bad genes. The future haunts me. Part of a joyful and happy life is thinking about the future with hope and excitement. All of that was lost when I learned about my hair loss. From now on, I’m just going through the motions of life, hoping somebody will hand me 20,000 dollars for a hair transplant. Or that a magic genie will give me a bunch of hair again. Or that I will stop being a pussy about it and not care. Who the fuck even cares?
Ever since I learned about my hair loss , my feelings of hopelessness have been the same. Additionally, I’ve been through some breakups that have been rough.
The worst thing is this: nobody knows about my hair loss except for the one friend who pointed it out years ago. Either that, or they don’t say anything. My thin hair is a secret and I’m always monitoring everyone around me so they cannot see it. I’m always in this weird defensive cover-up mode. I feel so fucking vulnerable all the time even around my fuckin parents. I always think about the day they’re gonna notice. I bottle up all my feelings and have no way to let them out.
I have this weird thing where I care too much about my looks. Balding is hitting me hard because of how much I value my beautiful hair. The only time I am excited for the future is when I imagine myself when I’m like 45 and older, where I’m already bald and over it. Today I have long hair. It still looks pretty good and luscious when I wash it and brush it. I hate that soon I will be stripped of the very feature that I value the most. I fear that I will be stripped of my happiness in the process. I know I have so much potential and I’m noticing that my hair loss is changing me. I’m affected by this In an extremely unhealthy way. Im hiding all the time. Im so sad about this.
I need your help. I need some encouragement or advice. Writing this has got me feeling really, really down. It’s got me thinking about the future and it feels bad. I feel fucked. I often think about death. Things like, “I wouldn’t mind dying today, at least I’d be out of this.”
I’ve always loved hair! To this day I still braid girls hair and just love it. My favorite thing is falling out so it’s especially a big deal for me .
I feel like balding has stopped me from progressing as a human being. I want to be happy for people for their achievements. I often look at others and are comforted by their hair loss, especially then it’s worse than mine. These are evil, evil thoughts. I want to wish the best for other people. I NEED TO FIND A SOURCE OF HAPPINESS AND JOY THAT COMES EXTERNALLY. Again, my happiness and appearance seems to come hand in hand. I need to beat this or I won’t be here for much longer. I cannot take the feelings that I’m having squandering my life away. I don’t want to spend another night on my god damn phone looking shit up about balding on google. I kind of wish my hair loss would just get super bad so I could embrace it and move the fuck on. I mean seriously, can I worry about something that matters? Can I focus on something larger than myself?
One last thing, I don’t think bald looks good. I mean let’s be honest, it doesn’t. It’s like the worst haircut. I remember being in church when I was little before I knew that men’s hair falls out saying “Dad, why do all these men shave their hair on top and keep the sides?”
I need to beat this. The psychological effects of balding a legitimate I tell you. It’s nonstop, it’s relentless, it’s brutal, it’s fucking intense. I FEEL SO SAD ABOUT THIS, I cannot see myself identifying with being bald. Have any tips? My goal is to not give a shit about my looks and shift that energy to being better to those around me.
People still aren’t noticing my hair loss. I don’t want to shave my head at this point. I want to be able to accept my reality and come to terms with it. If u read this whole thing, u are a trooper. I could barely write it. Thank u. I hope u beat your demons. You have so much potential just get out of ur head!!!!! Mf
Pls help, I can’t keep hiding forever. I wanna get over myself for fuck’s sake.
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depression
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It’s only something like 12mg so I know I’ll probably just sleep for a few hours but I’m so tired of feeling this way I just want to black out and pretend I’m dead for a bit. Hopefully my mom doesn’t find me or hopefully I get lucky and have difficulty breathing. I was supposed to go to my friends birthday party tonight but now all I want to do is cry and lie in bed until I can’t feel anything anymore. Or maybe I’ll drive until I pass out at the wheel and smash into a tree or something that puts me out of my misery. I just wanted to be happy
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depression
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The Adderall was not working in the slightest, so my psychiatrist wanted to try me on concerta. It definitely worked for the second day, the first and the third are the same. Groggy, cold sweats, super shaky, to the point of unbearable, and a super intense mind fog. Is there anything I can do differently to make it work amazingly like on the second day?
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ADHD
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I was wondering what exactly is up with the rise of this in society. I'm not really an expert on medieval society, but I'm pretty sure even back then intellectuals were well respected (so long as they backed the church, obviously). In fact, I'm pretty sure it started in american society around the cold war era, when america decided to become religious in order to be polar opposites to the ussr. I feel like Hollywood definitely endorses this mindset, as nerds in their movies are often the butt of a joke, and the 'cool' characters are stoic and usually the opposite of nerds. I just dont understand why. Nerds are the reason why they have modern technology. I'm not sure whether this is the result of their fear of the unknown, or their egos not handling someone being better than them at something. What do you guys think?
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aspergers
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I've been struggling with OCD for 4 years now, 2021 was especially hard on me because I lost the last chance I had to speak with my father before dying because I was too busy doing my compulsions
Then I began to wonder, how much of my life am I missing? constantly washing my hands, checking there is no one following me, making sure everything is the way my OCD wants.
I'm done with having my life being governed by fear, guilt, and shame, I'm not just an effin' vessel of stress and anxiety, I'M A HUMAN BEING!!! that wants to achieve things, big things
That's why I'm taking the hard path from now on, the path of recovery
I will use a combination of self-kindness, mindfulness, and ERP(exposure response prevention)
Actually, I've done several exposures already!
I'm scared of what follows ahead, I know it will be rough, I will probably fail multiple times, miserably, but I'll try my absolute hardest!!!
Good luck on your OCD journeys everyone
Nacho
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OCD
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please just kill me i feel so horrible but i wanted to get fucked
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depression
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I feel like I can either be thinking about my awesome idea/performance and how my solution to some problem is workimg so well or I can be thinking about the nature of all the "problems" in my life and what I should be doing to fix them.
These things are stimulating, but I'm starting to think much of my emotional discomfort comes from the fact that I struggle to think about anything besides what's wrong and how to fix it. I don't know what else i could even think about. I have to be thinking about something all the time, and my distressing thoughts are the most interesting. Thinking about anything else feels like a literal chore and I wind up back where I started.
I think I'm giving myself anxiety because I find the novelty and challenge of constant self reflection/"improvement" stimulating.
What the hell else can I do with my brain when I'm driving to and from work or eating or have any spare moment at all?
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ADHD
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So i am doing business studies in which i have 0 interest. I have no idea why did i choose it. I have always been wanted to join navy. I had a great urge to serve my nation and see each and every street of this world. But things never worked out in my favour. Though that after joining college i would be able to make friends and hang out with them. But all i do at college is sit at a lonely place and listen to music. I feel like this world is not a suitable place for me. I need an escape from this world from this human expectations from everything.
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depression
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My Harm OCD has been terrible over the past two weeks. Even making me feel disillusionment and anger and then making me feel like myself and loves are in actual danger... anyone have any tips to stay encouraged during these OCD attacks?
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OCD
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For me is "not entirely". I still blame nature for having OCD. For you that accepted it, how was the progress? How do you feel after accepting it?
[View Poll](https://www.reddit.com/poll/nhi6zp)
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OCD
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So I’ve suffered multiple SAs and I’ve never had consensual s3x while sober. I want to have s3x with my boyfriend but I’m recovering from alcoholism and so I can’t drink. How can I do it without getting triggered?
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ptsd
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Hello, I am always getting very scary phrases such as let your grandma live the last 20 days of her life or someone is going to die I am so afraid are these intrusive thoughts or premonitions???does anyone else have it
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OCD
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For the past 3 years i have felt hopeless i gave up on everything. Everyone left me alone. Last time i hurt myself was about 6 months ago. Finally im feeling like i can stand up for myself and others. I don't give a fuck what strangers think, everything that matters is that I and my closest persons are okay. I have been seeing a therapist for 2 years now and wont stop.
A year ago i wanted to kill myself so hard that I stopped doing anything. I ate pills like they were water to me. I just tested how much do i have to take to overdose. I never ended up taking enough to overdose, thankfully. But now i see that everything will be okay.
After a long brake i have actual goals in my life. They aren't much, but they are enough to keep me going.
I just want to everyone know that things will be better than okay at some point. U will find something that keeps u going.
Never give up.
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depression
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Hello, I am a college junior signing up for some classes and I will be signing up for a bio class (intro) for my major requirement. The ratings for the only prof teaching it are very poor and I have heated there are a lot of slides and I just know I can’t handle that.. I’m getting stressed about something happening in spring that has not even happened yet. I sometimes take my meds when I need it but I don’t like to take it daily. Im also doing bad in another course because i just can’t sit and write 30+ notes on slides in my comfortable room. In addition I also keep playing video games and not doing my work because it’s more entertaining as I procrastinate my other stuff. My gf is repeating things my dad has told me since I was in middle school. And it is just leaning me into a sense of learned helplessness. I don’t want our relationship to suffer because I know it’s hard on her as she tries to help and I get upset. Im not sure what to do I know I can’t use adhd as an excuse because it’s not but it’s just so hard…
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ADHD
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I would like to know how to better accommodate some of my auditory issues. Certain sounds upset me , irritate me. Most sounds that occur outside and I can hear while I'm in my apartment, upset me, unless I can very clearly picture what the sound is coming from. This leaves me with my windows shut all day, wearing headphones all day or switching between the two.
Oddly, sirens, alarms and construction sounds that I can hear from a distance, are the only sounds that don't seem to upset me, even over a long period of time, possibly because they drown out everything else.
I am not a huge fan of head phones , I have headaches all the time from getting upset and blasting my music in my ears, but I am also not a huge fan of laying in my bathroom covering my ears crying when I need to be doing my homework either😹
I have heard of white noise machines but I don't want to spend the money on one that will irritate me as I am particular. I have a small fan that I like to use but the fan alone doesn't help much , just takes the edge off.
Any ideas ?
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Self explanatory, for as long as I’ve been having compulsions, my OCD just will not let me have a consistent self-care routine. I can’t do skincare, I can’t brush my teeth, I can’t exercise, I can’t try to meal prep or eat better, purely bc OCD won’t let me. It convinces me something bad will happen if I have a consistent routine.
It makes my depression so much worse and I just feel so bogged down by OCD all the time bc I have nothing to keep me grounded. It’s insanely frustrating and I’m just desperate to be able to take care of myself despite my OCD. Any tips ?? Thank you :))
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OCD
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Does anyone else find that the only way they can motivate themselves to do boring chores/life stuff, is while they wait for something else to finish?
For example if I know somethings cooking in the oven for 30mins, I'll race around seeing what boring stuff (like emptying the dishwasher, vaccuming etc) I can get done in that time. If I didn't have something else going on, I just wouldn't get the motivation
Also is it quite normal to just randomly get motivation out of nowhere sometimes?
thanks!
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I just got a call from my Dr. they pushed my testing that was supposed to be tomorrow until the 15th of Nov. And it's super shity I just want to get this shit done. Ive been trying to get this taken care of for four years and I had this appointment arranged for like six months or more. I haven't slept well in the last two weeks because of my anxiety related to this appointment and my depression symptoms have been way worse my mood has been shit, and I was feeling better today knowing I was so close to someone figuring out what's wrong with my brain, apart from my mood and anxiety disorders. And one of the things that causes me the worst anxiety is Dr interactions so I was dreading being cooped up in a little room with a Dr for 6 hours and I was so close to having it over with.
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ADHD
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The school system is build around forrest-first learning: they provide you an hollistic network and let the details come later.
This is because most NT's learn this way. This is stated in a book "A field guide to earthlings", by Ian Ford.
As an Aspie however, I learn in a tree-first way. I learn the individual details and then compose a forest.
How do you learn in the forest-first environment, when you have tree-first learning? I feel like at the moment I can manage, but it might take me more energy. I also don't remember the big picture afterwards, because they don't give me enough time to connect all the dots and keep it permanent in memory. One semester is just really short. The things I learnt, I can't instantly use one month after learning them.
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I haven’t been able to find much information about this online, so I’m reaching out to this community. I have sexual trauma from a couple years ago and it has been getting worse recently.
One of the worst symptoms is that when my boyfriend touches me I just can’t handle it sometimes. It doesn’t even have to be in a sexual way - even if we’re just cuddling, I’ll suddenly become aware of his hands on me and I have this feeling that’s hard to describe. It’s an awful combination of disgust and anger.
I can still feel it after he stops and moves away from me, and it makes me want to rip my skin off in that area. It makes me feel bad because he’s always respectful of my boundaries and I trust him completely, but these episodes still happen randomly.
Sometimes they last for a full day after it happens, and it’s hard for me to even take a shower because being naked makes me uncomfortable. Even if it’s just me by myself. I have obsessive thoughts about the trauma that are so vivid I can almost feel it happening again.
I feel really weird about it, and the fact that I haven’t been able to find anything online makes me feel worse. Can anyone relate? Thanks.
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ptsd
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Is anyone completely healed from trauma or depression? How do you do away with suicidal thoughts?
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depression
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Hey everyone, new here, I’m actually new to posting to Reddit in general. I was diagnosed very young with “high functioning” Aspergers, alongside severe ADHD, and have really struggled in my adult life to find my footing. Though, I feel I lack the resources necessary to get my foot in any doors. I’ve seen where people on here have found great success doing what they love, and I’d love to hear what got them to where they felt more comfortable in life? I had been with a job for a year and 3 months, and I felt somewhat comfortable there, but, I went down the accommodation route, and things felt apart over time. I had adjusted my hours, and was under a special agreement with the employer, and even within the contractual agreement, the company wanted to lessen my hours to near nothing and no longer offer me accommodation, so I resigned. I’ve been super burnt out since, and what little family I still have left doesn’t really understand Aspergers. I attend counseling, but it feels so scripted, I’ve reached out to some organizations, and they always cold shoulder me after a while. I’m currently 23, almost 24, and it’s very hard for me to grow in the environment I’m in,I feel. I’ve never been open about what I have, the few times I have , it seemed to ruin everything I had. How does everyone cope? I constantly tell myself I’ll never be normal, and it’s hard for me to see that it’s a blessing rather than a curse. I’m curious to see if anyone here has ever felt the same. I prefer to not be alone, but I feel that I’m lying wearing a mask and hiding who I really am. It seems where I’m from, people view you as a lesser if you have it. Thank you for reading.
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aspergers
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Am I the only one who finds it weird when people talk at the tv, whether it be a tv show, drama, or sport. The same thing when people talk at all when they are alone. I never talk unless I’m talking to somebody. Why talk to yourself when you can just think to yourself? What about you guys, do you talk out loud to yourself?
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aspergers
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Do any of you have this problem as well? Im new to learning about ADHD and its effects, but i always knew i was "different" for not being able to shut my brain off, even during sex. Its really hard for me to relax and for example during oral, its a lot of work for my bf to get me there and i always feel bad for him and im trying to force myself to speed it up, which makes it of course worse.
Also, my rejection sensitivity makes it really hard to initiate because i get way too emotional over a No.
Im not on meds yet, not that far in the whole ADHD process.
Any advice or experience in this?
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ADHD
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Wikipedia mentioned the following groups without/lack of Theory of Mind.
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[https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Theory\_of\_mind](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Theory_of_mind)
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"Deficits can occur in people with autism spectrum disorders, genetic-based eating disorders, schizophrenia, attention deficit hyperactivity disorder, cocaine addiction, and brain damage suffered from alcohol's neurotoxicity; deficits associated with opiate addiction are reversed after prolonged abstinence."
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Then I wanted to ask why people who NOT in these groups are often being cheated by scams and fraud? By using their magical (bullshit) theory of mind, they should be able to detect who is the scammer.
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No, Theory of Mind do not exist, it's actually the ego of neurotypicals.
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If you are neurotypical, you don't have to hit many communication problems, since most people running the similar outcome as you. Then you are building up the ego that you can understand other people by ascribing their mental states. Because "I think that way, you have to think like my way"...No, people don't have thinking like you.
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And this ego is a part of that reason why NTs being credulous to other people for many obvious scams. They believe they can know "that is not a scam" by their "Theory of Mind".
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Putting the NTs in and another cultural background, their "Theory of Mind" is not going to work usually LOL. It's not just people with "Autism" they feel they can't communicate with. It's the people they can't expand their own ego to... Usually including foreigners. But they use different labels to them.
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The way of NTs handling this issue of - there are people that they can't use the ego to predict... Usually is attack, crazily attacking. War is the NTs group together for boosting up their own ego first, and then starting the crazy attacking behaviour to the group they can't extend their ego to because of the differences. (Usually combine with bad economy situation, that they feel they are nothing to lose). It's the same as the NTs bullying people in the spectrum, except the numbers of scale is different.
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I often feel NTs deserve the cruelty to wars, because they chose it and asked it for self-satisfy their own ego. LOL.
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The "magical" Theory of Mind , it just another thing to boost their own ego and step on the people who can't.
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The reason I'm posting here is , the truth will set you free...at least a bit more free. I want to set people free.
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I think I have ways to help people on the spectrum avoiding suicide , but I found out many of these autism online groups are with heavy censorship many years ago...
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I'm currently studying to get in medical school, the test it's pretty hard and I have less than 6 months to prepare myself (I'm 21 years old, drop out of law school and because of that I feel super old, so I have no time to lose). But when I'm studying, I focus in one specific thing and have this HUGE urge to know *everything* about it, no pause for eating, bathroom or anything. So 10 hours later I figure that I lost the whole day in this one thing. Any of you struggle with this too? What to do about it? I'm literally desperate, feels like I have no control over it, because of that I'm weighing 37 kg (close to 82 pounds I guess) when I should be weighing 50 kg (~110 pounds).
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aspergers
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Has anyone ever had the fear of being late somewhere? I’m wondering if this is an ocd thing because if it is, it will have been my first ocd obsession. In 2nd grade, every morning I had a fear of being late to school. I don’t know why it bothered me so much, but even knowing that I wasn’t going to be late, I still was worried I was going to. It caused me lots of anxiety and sometimes is what made me late to school. This went on for about 3 months? My mom started covering up the time in the car and that helped and it went away. Does this sound like ocd? Has anyone else had this problem?
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OCD
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Best friend became more -
Best friend / became more . I am not sure how but I need to know . My best friend of 20 years , and I have crossed the boundaries of platonic to romantic . Was great for 3 mos and now I am not sure why I am even in their life as I am treated as if I’m beneath them. On top of this , they met their ex - behind my back , lied and ditch me to do so, while I know the ex - there was no physical shit , but it’s still betrayal . Instead of fix this as he promises he lies more and when I feel hurt I’m told “you’re not even grateful for all the other shit I’m doing that’s right and I spend all my time with you “ as if I am to be okay with this and not even have a say .. please help me help him understand that this is not okay - as he says I’m nuts or not right to feel used and abused and treated like I don’t have value. As I’m to only consider the good he does after being so unfair and disrespectful.
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Our mutual friend Wesley died years ago
I found him 14 years ago I saved him the first time and then Wes died , the next week in my absence, I have ptsd for it , and o struggle .
He was there saw me nearly end my life when. We lost Wesley.
He (new boyfriend) starts doing heroin and overdosed , I find him just like our friend who died.
He then tells me to get over it , belittles me and I can’t help some
Of my anxiety stems from this traumatic event.
He then tells me it’s not his fault I’m in a pity party over Wesley dying.
He then instead of meeting me after the overdose , the day after . Instead lies . Meets her. & justifies it as I’m to be grateful he’s good to me in other ways. .
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I've befriended this dude with ADHD for ~a month now.
Every 3 days it seems as though we have the same conversations. In the beginning I let it slide. I don't mind repeating a few things, but after the 5th time of him asking me the same question he's asked me in the last month, I snapped. At the time I wasn't aware that short-memory was a symptom of attention deficit hyperactivity disorder, I just thought he wasn't paying attention to any of our conversations.
Turns out it's not that he hasn't been paying attention to our conversations - he genuinely cares. It's just that he has crap memory, something out of his control.
I feel like shit. I don't want to jeopardize our friendship like that again. I would just like to know if there's anything I should be sensitive/aware about when it comes to interacting with people who suffer from ADHD?
Thanks
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I've always had wierd obsessions that cause me mental pain if I don't do. More recently, more and moe things are triggering that kind of feeling. Like I sometimes cannot accept it if my writing isn't perfect. If my parents ask me to do something, it hurts. If I bite my nail and there isn't a portion I could remove, I lose my shit. I feel like I'm getting OCD, what should I do to stop it.
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Hey there! it's not my first time posting here. Anyways, when I was 18, I was diagnosed with Adjustment Disorder with Anxiety and Depression. It was hard at first but getting diagnosed gave me answers as to why at the time I was just not feeling myself, I was not attending classes, or just randomly felt sad without reason.
Around 2 years ago, I have somewhat "healed" from it, I was doing better at school, I was very outgoing, joining all the events my University could offer. Although I had breakdowns every few months, it wasn't frequent and it was rare.
Fast forward again, the pandemic happened and we all know it really affected our mental health, I felt like I was back to square one.
Now I am working, (I am actually at work while I am writing this), but still, I think my mental health just gets worse and worse. There are weeks where I am just angry, agitated, loathing people. And there are days where I love life, life is good. I really can't understand it, it is really jeopardizing the relationships I have right now. Last week I didn't go to work just because I was scared people might may gossip about me, I don't know if it's true but it did strain on my paycheck because we are a no work no pay policy.
Truth be told, my life today isn't toxic, I have a great family, a good paying job, nice friends and a loving partner. But somehow, my mind keeps messing it up by making scenarios, or rewinding past mistakes and it really bothers me. I can't live life well because I am always concerned about my emotions or my mood. I feel really grateful when I am sane or in a good mood, but it is usually short lived. I am also trying to regain my social life back because that was my way of coping but things today are just hard compared to the Pre-Pandemic. It's just hard to determine the truth and the fiction from your thoughts, even though I am indeed aware that most of them are just made up, but still it really really bothers me.
I went back to different Psychiatrists but none have diagnosed me again yet. I know that I was diagnosed years ago, but I think there's a possibility that the diagnosis might change. I still have to run through some tests like EEG because my current Psych would like to know if already affected my brain physically. So yeah. That's All.
Hope you guys have great day ahead!
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depression
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Does anyone else have tips on how to keep myself stimulated when sick? I currently have tonsillitis (getting a covid test later today, but I'm 90% it's not) and I have started 5 movies, 3 video games, 10 youtube videos, and a whole bunch of other activities, but I can't focus on anything and it's starting to feel like boredom torture.
Does anyone else feel like their ADHD gets exponentially worse when sick?
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ADHD
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Hi all,
Those of you who take meds for your depression, how long did you wait for them to take effect? Is lexapro, the drug I've been prescribed, generally useful?
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depression
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I don't mind saying hi to people I know well, and feel comfortable talking to. But I live in a building with communal rooms and there is a 24/hr concierge also, and I've just realised that their reactions when I don't say hello are indicating that it's weird to just walk past and look at the floor/basically pretend I haven't seen them even though we both know I have lol.
I always thought that was a valid option, but I keep getting reactions like " ... hi \*name\*?!" and it seems funny to them, as if they have discussed it like "isn't it weird that she never says anything haha" or something.
I also went to study in the reading area of my building a couple of days ago and there was someone else in there. I didn't make any eye contact or smile, or even look at them, I specifically looked at the floor until I sat down and opened my laptop and then just pretended they weren't there. After 29 years of life, I am only just now gathering that this is considered rude and weird.
I also recently noticed that when I have guests over in my building, they don't hurry by the reception as quickly as possible in order to avoid them saying hi. When I realised that, it was surprising to me. Like, people just don't mind. It's fine to them if a stranger says "hi \*name\*" every single time, it doesn't feel all weird and intimate and imposing.
NTs are the weird ones man, I swear.
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aspergers
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My long term partner has ADHD (he's getting treatment but it's moderate to severe, and something he'll always deal with). When things are calm he is helpful, compassionate, and supportive - if I'm sick he will make sure I have everything I need to be comfortable. He is happy to drive me places so I don't have to worry about transportation or parking. He's big on acts of service and gifts as ways to demonstrate caring. All of this is to say he's capable of acting compassionate and supportive.
However under stress he's totally different. I'll give a few examples: one time our landlord woke us up banging on our door saying there was a fire. I got up, threw on clothes, and got our cat into his carrier. In that time my partner had barely gotten out of bed and was sitting on the couch buttoning up his shirt buttons one by one. I was standing there, with the cat carrier in hand, yelling there's a fire! we need to GO NOW! and he insisted he needed time to get dressed! I even grabbed him by the arm and pulled on him while at this point hysterically crying because I felt I was being forced to leave him to die in a fire to save myself and the cat. Thankfully he finally listened (and the fire was a false alarm) but it was very unsettling.
We agreed that in a safety emergency I'm able to think/act faster than him and he needs to follow my instructions if he feels lost, but the problem doesn't stop there.
The other day I was about to leave for the gym and was wearing a sports bra and shorts. I went to plunge our french press and it shot scalding hot coffee all over me. I started crying because it had already been a frustrating morning and I was in pain. My partner literally stood across the room and asked "do you need me to do anything" which I couldn't answer because, pain and crying. I went to change my clothes and when I got back he thought it was a good idea to explain to me how to use the french press. No "are you ok" or "does it hurt" or "do you need first aid" just mansplaining. I told him that he was being insensitive and left.
Later on we talked about it and he apologized, and said he didn't realize i was hurt, he thought I was "just" emotionally upset from the frustration of spilling coffee. I had literally said "It hurts" while holding my stomach and applying a cold compress. But I don't think he's lying, he did seem overwhelmed at the time and kind of frozen. It's like his theory of mind goes out the window when I'm emotionally escalated, and he has some sort of freezing response?
Has anyone else dealt with something similar and what did you do? I feel like he needs a "compassion playbook" for when he freezes up, because his reactions are super unhelpful and even hurtful (there are many other examples these are just the ones that stand out). It makes me really worry that in my worst moments he's just going to make things worse. We already had a phase where our fights would escalate really badly because he would get overwhelmed and yell literal nonsense at me, which he did therapy for and that at least has stopped, but the lack of any helpful response is concerning me too.
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ADHD
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For a while i've noticed that I've been having trouble sleeping due to hypersensitivity to certain sounds. I have to sleep with headphones in or else I would be awake all night. These sounds (like my cat drinking water, my cat licking himself, someone chewing loudly) make me irrationally angry. I've been searching as a reason why for a while and I recently learned that I may have Misophonia which is often connected with PTSD. I was wondering if anyone else struggles with this and if so what do you do to deal with it? If anyone knows any more information on this subject I'm willing to be educated.
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ptsd
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Are mondays more difficult for you bc of the adhd? I feel like they’re worse for me than some of my friends and coworkers. Getting my brain back on track takes like all day even though I prepare myself on Sunday. Once I get through Monday the rest of the week is so much easier for me! Productive, less scatterbrained, and less distracted.
Anyone have any advice on how to make mondays more productive?
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ADHD
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Tips for texting?
I still struggle with being really anxious about texting people that aren’t family members.
I don’t always know when something is worth saying or not when interacting in general but when texting I’m able to run through several possible responses, or even not responding, or waiting a certain amount of time before responding etc. which ofc is both a blessing and a curse. Sometimes I’m able to save myself from making a stupid joke but most of the time I overthink like crazy and rule out certain very normal and probably ideal responses bc they seem too boring to my brain or something… or probably bc I’ve already reacted to the message in my mind and am now skipping a bit past that mentally when I’m ready to actually type and send my response (I.e. not sort of stating the obvious in some way, despite that being my natural reaction and the natural/human thing to do). It results in this sort of robotic seeming messaging at times I think… or like too brief or clinical… or sometimes a more funny or goofy response that still looks overly thought out. Does anyone know what I mean??
I just responded to something my bf posted on his IG story, I think for the first time ever. I usually never instigate interactions of any kind bc I feel like I might be bothering him and causing him stress by FaceTiming or texting him first. In my mind I’m a very clingy person, and I try to not seem that way in reality if I can help it (and usually I am less impulsive and more in control of my emotions and behavior when I’m away from him, taking care of myself, and answering messages on my own schedule).
I’m constantly unsure how to respond, and when I’m messaging him completely of my own volition, like today, I feel anxious af. I literally do sort of like coin flip esque actions to decide whether or not to respond (sometimes I’ll literally just google “yes or no” and spin the wheel on one of those websites). I say coin flip but a lot of the time I’m googling “random number generator” and seeing if it lands on a “good” or “bad” number etc along with a few other major checking behaviors. I’ll also do number thing over and over even after I’ve already sent the message, thinking “was that ok was that ok?” over and over in my head.
Sometimes I’ll worry so much that I said something super stupid/horrible etc that I’ll literally screenshot the text and send it to someone I trust with the message “was this ok??”
I am so out of practice, self conscious, and afraid of abandonment and judgment (over sending someone one unfunny meme or something lol), that I have almost completely lost sight of the feeling of just spontaneously interacting without constantly watching, critiquing, and adjusting myself that I experienced when I was little.
Often times I overanalyze to the point that words almost lose their meaning and I almost feel confused as to what’s socially normal and get overwhelmed by the countless options of ways to act/things to say and by the lack of rules.
I just want a fool proof equation of some sort that looks like:
This behavior + this - this = bf not hating you, thinking your dumb/worthless and abruptly cutting you out of his life completely …
Haha any tips or similar experiences greatly appreciated 🙏🏻
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OCD
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All I want in life is to feel like myself again. I used to be a pretty outgoing, confident, and happy person. I believe that my depression began many years ago, around the time I began high school. I’m now in my freshman year of college, and my depression is the worst it’s ever been. It almost feels as if there is a fog covering my brain at all times now. In social situations, I tend to space out and respond with bland, completely non thought-out answers. My mind just goes completely blank, and I lose all wit and intellect. It makes me feel really stupid, and I’m starting to hate myself because of it. I don’t understand what’s happened to me or if I can ever be the same again. Any advice at all would be much appreciated.
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depression
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I've always gotten what I wanted almost every Christmas and birthday. As an only child, I got everything I want. Always the #1 on my list. But I don't react. I'm extremely grateful, don't get me wrong. But everytime it's a "oh wow, thanks" with a forced, fake smile. Am I the only one?
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aspergers
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Growing up, my folks made it seem like your drivers license was as important as your shoes when leaving the house.
However, I’ve lost my license about 37 times now.
This has taught me that so long as you have SOME form of photo ID- like a passport card in my case- you can get away with not having one for a long while.
Of course I always get around to replacing it eventually in the case of inevitable traffic stops for headlights I keep forgetting to get fixed.
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ADHD
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I’ve started medication and I don’t know if the amount they’re getting you on is like a scale of how bad your OCD is. Also for anyone’s that’s on it,what changes have you noticed?
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OCD
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TW: possible ED t
I struggle with a lot of everyday, instinctual things. Like eating, drinking, etc. I don’t have hunger cues anymore, I forget go pee sometimes for hours because I don’t know, anytime I get hurt I don’t react at all. I still feel the pain, but i can just ignore it. I also am totally emotionally numb so I don’t have any feelings or reactions to emotions. I’m just wondering if this is a common thing and if anyone has done anything that’s helped?
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ptsd
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Took my meds a bit early and apparently my commute is just the right length of time for them to kick in and make me get stuck on my phone rather than my work.
This is the last week before vacation, I have too much shit to take care of, and I feel like a useless piece of shit who is always on the edge of being laid off. My boss says I do well, his boss is generally happy too, but God...I just feel like they're pretending.
Imposter syndrome is extra bad at the end of the year I guess.
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ADHD
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i was taking prozac 40 mg for OCD . after 2 months of taking prozac my ocd got better upto 75 percent. so for another 2 months my ocd was 75 percent better but after that me and my psychiatrist thought we should increase it to 60 mg. after being on 60 mg for 2 days one of our relative died. and we went to their house for to meet his family .before this I was having no obsessions but only 1 obsession started related to our relative death and i had those thoughts for 2 weeks and my ocd started getting worse day by day and after 1 month of all this my ocd got worse like before and we thought if prozac have stopped working and we decided to stopped prozac .and we stopped it. i want to know if my ocd got worse due to dose increase or prozac stopped working or due to the our relative death which caused some obsessions and after this ( prozac ) we tried alot of other ssri and antipsychotics but none of them are working. what should i do know. should i retry prozac or what
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OCD
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It's a week until my first appointment and I just want to know what kinds of questions they ask. Also if anyone could share their experiences with Prozac I would really appreciate it!
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OCD
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I made a scenario up based off an intrusive thought now my brain say stuff like “ it reminds of the time blah blah “ but know that never happened now my brain just say things repeatedly like Convincing me
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OCD
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Maybe TMI bathroom stuff
I’m 99% sure my digestive issues are related to my ptsd. My stomach hurts so much when I get triggered or panicked. It also hurts when I have anxiety in general. Before this, I hadn’t had anxiety stomach pain since I was like 13 (and I didn’t realize it was anxiety back then).
I get awful anxiety gas that builds up and hurts. And anxiety shits. And if I can’t pass the gas or go to the bathroom when I feel it, I’m constipated for a long time. One time it was so bad and painful I almost went to the ER but didn’t bc I was embarrassed. Most of the time I go to the bathroom it’s painful.
I’ve been really anxious this past week and my stomach pain is so bad. I feel like I should maybe see a GI doctor but I’m 99% sure it’s psychological. I don’t want to go and go through a bunch of tests for nothing. I have a lot of unrelated medical issues and I have bad anxiety about going to new doctors. I also don’t want to tell any doctor what I think the cause is.
My question is: does it help? I’m in pain or just generally uncomfortable so much. But if it’s psychological, what can they do? I have some trauma related to medical issues, so I really don’t want to go unless I need to
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ptsd
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Hi i have a question. I went to see a psychologist today to get a diagnosis(i went to a psychiatrist before and he said i do have adhd but it wasn't like a real diagnosis? idk) and im very upset rn because the psychologist didnt listen to me at all. she wanted to hear from my mom first(im 20 tho) and after listening her she was pretty sure i had ocd but i've never showed symptoms of it at all. she kept asking questions about ocd and only believed when my test results came negative. at one point i said the behaviours she thinks ocd-related may be about sensory processing disorder and she said she didnt know what it was???
she said i have major depression, which makes sense but she also said everything i think adhd-related is actually is about depression and i made up my adhd and believed it too much. also said since my notes were good all my life it is impossible for me to have adhd. it makes no sense to me. should i keep seeing her?
i also insisted on having an adhd test and the results were pretty high but she said it wasnt important.
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ADHD
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That has to be the biggest lie I tell people.
I find it extremely hard to be vulnerable around anyone, especially when I am symptomatic and not doing well.
I lack the capability to ask for help anymore, since I feel like I am putting people out by doing so. So I will drop hints and such and til someone just flat out asks if am okay or alright....and I just reply, "am alright"....
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ptsd
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So I don't know if this makes any sense but I need some Autistic people to weigh in here. I dropped out of my college course (Speech Therapy) a few years ago and it left me feeling totally worthless and depressed. I always felt my reaction to dropping out was so intense and I could never explain to people how devastated I was. I think it was because I got my self-worth from good grades and being a "Speechie" had become my principal identity. Anyways I was watching this documentary about depression and this man (NT I assume) spoke about how he suddenly fell into a deep, dark depression. It was triggered by a break up with a woman he thought he was perfect for him and so when that relationship failed, he felt it wasn't worth trying anymore because he had found his perfect match and he couldn't make the relationship work. He talked about how it took years for him to get back on his feet.....I don't know if this is related to my Autism but I feel like my college course affected me emotionally like a devastating break up?? I've never been in a relationship but I've always valued school and learning. I felt that Speech Therapy was the perfect course for me so when I had had enough of it, it sort of triggered an existential crisis for me. Is this an Autistic thing? Do we sometimes process events in a way that doesn't make sense to NTs? But in my case there seems to be a way to translate the emotional experience so that my NT friends would understand how I felt. Has anyone had a similar experience where they've had to translate their experiences so that NT friends understand how deep they were for us?
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I have been dealing with my ptsd for years and have finally gotten to the point where I feel pretty good most days. My ptsd seems from child hood abuses that were sexual and physical. I recently have comes to terms with the fact that my mom was a contributer to these abuses and covered them up around family and friends. I spent a long time blaming the people who have done the things to me while still having my mom feed the fires of hate and her narcissistic tendencies played a very toxic role on my life and made it very hard to heal. I finally was able to get to a point in life to where I could be strong enough to cut her out and really let the healing begin. It has been a year since I have kept her out of my life and today I get a call from my sister stating my mom has advanced colon cancer and that surgery is out if the question but they want to try chemotherapy. I know the second she starts chemo it probably won't be long that she will live. I always thought that when the day comes of my mom had a serious medical issue I would have had some type of emotion, but I don't. I dint know if it is numbness or the fact that I just have no sympathy for her. I'm usually a very sympathetic person when people have done me wrong as I try to understand the reasons why. With my own mother I feel absolutely nothing and in the back of my mind it almost feels like retribution. Am I wrong for feeling this way and have any of you ever felt this as well?
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ptsd
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