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I’m in school for Early Childhood Education. My discussion post this week says “If a parent asked you about their child, how would you explain the age appropriate difference between a child with high energy and one who may be considered hyperactive?”
Why are we talking around the topic instead of just saying ADHD? This is part of why contributes to such a stigma around ADHD and other mental health conditions.
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Sleep has always been a problem for me...
I have a hard time going to sleep when I'm supposed to, and when I do I might not sleep well.
But, even when I sleep great I still don't feel like getting up when I need too!
Like just last night, I went to bed an 12:00. I was comfortable, I slept great, didn't wake up once. Alarm went off at 8:00, I turned it off immediately and closed my tires eyes. I didn't feel rested enough to get up until noon!
I missed my classes and was in bed for 12 hours!
It took 12 hours for me to feel rested enough to comfortably get up!
Like I said, I'm a college student and I need to wake up so I can get to class!
I've tried putting my alarm across the room so I have to get out of bed to turn it off and that hasn't worked. I've even tried putting it in another room so I really have to get up to turn it off, but I just stumble back to bed after... I also live alone so I have noone else to help Mr get up
Why is that so much trouble for me?
Why do I need 12 hours in bed to feel rested?
How in the world do I get myself to get up?
....Thank you.....
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One of my friends was mildly upset because I made a bad joke and it made me question my relationship with him and if he ever truly liked me or just hangs out with me out of pity and if anyone I have a relationship with is the same way and even doing stuff that’s expected of me but draws attention to me makes me feel awful and I can’t handle even basic social interactions with strangers.
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When I have a new episode of a TV show that’s REALLY important to me and it comes out I’m like okay... I can only watch this once ALL my schoolwork is done, the house is spotless, I’m not dreading anything, I have no laundry, nothing’s bothering me... etc. Like I feel like if *anything* is wrong while I’m watching it will forever taint the show/movie experience as negative. The finale of Star Trek: Discovery season 3 came out almost a year ago and I only managed to watch it last week even though I thought about it every day lmao 🥲
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I'm on vyvanse for ADHD and I've noticed that it makes such a difference in my OCD. I feel so normal, I feel like I can focus better on what actually needs to be focused on rather than these stupid intrusive thoughts. Does this help anyone else?
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I feel so emotionally exhausted. I’m always there for everyone but yet have no one . No one to say “I’m proud of you” ,no shoulder to cry on, no one. I’m graduating from college next week yet no one remembers. I’ve spoken about it a million times and no one cares. My sibling graduates next year and everyone is already starting to plan a graduation party and yet no one even showed any interest in my graduation. I don’t come from a lot of money yet I tried to get everyone fairly nice things and all they did was complain about how I couldn’t get them things that I clearly wouldn’t be able to afford. My mom passed away and they act like I wasn’t her child like I don’t hurt the way they do or more. I lost the one person who showed me love and support and it’s like I don’t even exist anymore. I’m just so tired of it all.
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There’s a question asking is I have any disability or mental health condition that limits my ability to work, attend school, or take care or daily needs. How should I answer and how does it effect my coverage? I was diagnosed as a child but have no way to get access to that so I guess that would be legally irrelevant
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I am having a lot of problems due to anesthia and some problems with what happened to me during psychosis and hospitalization. I am on my phone and I cant spell like a fucking loser. I am not diagnosed nor know if I have full ptsd. But I feel traumatized by things that happened.
1st. I was hospitalized 3x in a year period. 2 hospitalization I went willing but was labeled as a 5150. And 1 I felt entirely coerced and tricked and was 5150.
I have nightmares of these experiences often. I have schizophrenia and bad depression issues. I feel so dehumanizing by these situation. I've been put in physical and chemical restraints. Of course they stripped you down each time, and I feel violated due what an ex had did to me in the past. During my last hospitalization, there was a situation where a clearly psychotic, disorganized, confused man was lured into a shower with a lucid man and no one even noticed until the patients were screaming at staff. Sure a lot of my fear was compounded by clinical paranoia. However all times I was here were for suicidal idealation. It was still frightening and overwhelming.
I am also very hurt because I failed a drug test for pot, even though I hadn't have pot in at least a year. Then the pyschatrist proceed to call me a lair and questioned if he could take me seriously. I felt like I was punished for something I didn't do, it was especially unfair because I was trying to abstain from pot in fear of making bipolar worse, and it was hard not to do pot. And just no one believed me. I really want someone to believe me about this.
(What I think might had happen is however long prior, I sat at bonfire where friends were smoking pot out of bongs.)
But kind of stuff has only minorly impacted my life. The real issue, what I wrote about anesthia is written below.
I have been under a lot of anesthia because ot ECT treatment.
When I was a baby, under 3, I had several surgeries and I was diagnosed with medical trauma and had to see a child therapist (or mostly my parents had too) about how to handle this. I spent a lot of time in the hospital. Of course I don't remember any of this naturally. It was never really a problem growing up.
At 18, I had my wisdom teeth removed and experienced memorable general anesthesia for the first time. (I believe, I actually forgot because of ECT. I might have had one in elementary school) Then at 19, I was put on sleep aids, and anti psychotics, benzos. All of which make you sleepy. There are several nights I would just be falling asleep than have a panic attacks because I felt like it was like being put under general, and thought I was possibly going to die. (I think what you experience going under anesthesia is the same you experience in death.) Certain medicines trigger this so I don't take them. Some nights were bad, but it didn't affect me too much.
Then, much later, I had done 20 session of ECT, or so, I don't remember. I have stopped, and I feel so overwhelmed because of all the anesthesia I was put under. Last session was in December 2020. This was even a problem when I was getting ECT, I keep telling myself I make it seem worse than it actually is. I am not afraid of complications from anesthesia, just that feeling it gives you.
I must spend 3 hours a day now, total, worrying about anesthesia. Sometimes I am just minding my own business during the day, and feel like I am being put under and completely freak out, not a panic attack but freak out. I have no idea what makes me feel like 'i am going under' even though nothing like that is happening. I feel like it starts in my heart, the anxiety, or something. I spend way more time, thinking about this fear and hoping it doesn't happen anytime soon.
I had a mild psychotic episode recently and Seroquel was like the last resort, best option. I was not inpatient thankfully. But I only agreed to take this if I was taper up from 50 mg to 400 slowly. I've taken seroquel for 10 years at varying dosage, so it's not new to me.
That, and right after the ect, has made this anesthesia fear become completely out of control. The upping the seroquel dose, just expanded the fear more and more. I can't explain to you the irrational fear, I feel falling asleep, it terrifying. The feeling of sedation, completely terrifying. Every fucking night, I'm so terrified from the moment I take the dose. Honestly, I would not try anything else though because I know seroquel. It's not just seroquel either, it's any sleep, nap whatever. I would love to never sleep again. Some night I just stay up because I cant do this. I do not want to stop seroquel.
Every day this is becoming worse and worse. I have no idea what to do. I want to see a therapist but our insurance won't cover it. We are also in the process of buying a house. I wanted to pay out of pocket, but then our appraisal cost more than we expected. Now I have to wait another month until we have extra cash.
ECT was the best decision I made, it really helped me when no meds did. I still think I am feeling some of it's benefits a little. I would probably still be doing maintenance if there wasn't insurance issues or cost issues. My memory is absolute shit, I have trouble remembering my age. But this is by far the worst part. This is really starting to screw with me. I feel trapped and I make this worse for myself without meaning to.
I also understand this is all irrational, please don't tell me it's irrational. I know. I have never told anyone about this and I just want someone to be nice.
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I think my meds for adhd might make my ocd worse. Potentially this is particularly as the meds wear off. Anyone else experience this?
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I know all the statistics about people with autism having a rough time at work or not being able to get a degree. Why should we even try knowing that we are most likely going to lose? My family tells me being autistic is not an excuse for failure, that there are many successful autists. Are they being ignorant/inconsiderate? Or am I being lazy/bum?
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I felt better when I could cry and feel and heal. I can't think of anything that triggered everything to lock back up. I'm in the midst of moving, that's the only thing I can think of, but it's not causing me a lot of \*conscious\* stress.
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This year has been rough I guess but mostly on a person to person level like I fell out of my most real relationship I ever had we were even about to get engaged and then one day she just told me she didn’t love me anymore. So I lost the love of my life, and that hurt a lot. I’m honestly still dealing with that pain and I’ve tried to go on dates but nothing feels right anymore. Now however I’ve had to have a friend break up, my best friend of 4 years and his gf and myself all moved into a place and from day one anything that was negative was my fault. The person that I knew as my best friend has changed so much in the last few months that I don’t even recognize that person anymore so we got into a huge fight and now I don’t see us ever trying to reconnect. Things we’re said on both ends thatll keep it that way. I guess what I’m trying to say is the two most important connections I had in my life are gone now and I have no one now I just feel completely alone.
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I didn’t really do it I said it
Soo I was talking to my friend the other day and I was like “ you know what Apple needs to do…they need to make it where you can connect one AirPod to a device and the other AirPod to a different device” I really thought she would agree
Apparently no one wants that lol
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I'm not close to anyone with PTSD (or anyone who hasn't completely suppressed it in my presence) so I'm not sure if this shit is normal, and I honestly feel like it's not, and google can't provide me with anything useful so I thought I would come here to see if I'm not alone in this.
Do any of you guys pretend that one event in your life never happened and you're a completely normal person without any mental instability? I used to just pretend it never happened but somewhere along the way it stopped working I guess. So now I'm finding myself pretending I'm a ghost who doesn't exist at all and who isn't perceived by others, sometimes I also pretend I'm a cute AI without real thoughts and feelings, just existing peacefully.
Last night after I got consumed by my own memories and thoughts again, I found myself having to suck my thumb and pretend I'm a baby to comfort myself. I've never been a thumb sucker my whole life.. and this scenario hasn't happened to me until now. For extra context, my PTSD mostly stems from an event right after my 16th birthday, so I'm not sure where the baby thing is coming from.
Do you guys experience something similar?
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Hi! Hope you are all doing ok. I was wondering if anyone experienced intense dreams, and if so, was there anything that worked to ease them? Or how do you deal with them during the day?
For more context: I often have horrible dreams that are so vivid I can feel, see and hear things and remember the entire dream and sensation during the day. It feels similar to the vividness I experience during a vivid intrusive thought, just amplified. I end up waking from them and having sleep paralysis, with hallucinations a few times a year. I try to shrug them off but they do tend to leave me with a feeling of dread through the morning and around bed time.
I have tried sleep medication, anti-anxiety medication, which helped for a short period of time but the dreams resumed. I have tried changing my diet, water, working out etc, but I can't seem to kick them.
Any advice you have would be appreciated. :)
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It's hard to get up tomorrow because of the pressure. I want to throw out all the schedules and run away.
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So I just started Ritalin about 3 days ago. So far I don’t think I like how it’s making me feel. I feel super super quiet, not just in my mind but I’m finding it hard to talk. Is this normal? I really want my medicine to work but I feel super introverted & slightly fidgety. I’m only taking 5 mg twice a day... the lowest possible dose
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For me always lot of anxiety around anniversary of certain events
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I’m just wondering what was the greatest tool you’ve been taught or what helped most getting through pocd?
I get on good streaks of being able to deal with it but if I’m really triggered I fall apart and fall back into depression, compulsions and self hatred.
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(that didn’t actually hurt anyone)
hello. i am diagnosed with ocd and i have morality and sexual related themes, and i also take antipsychotics now but i skipped them for a few days (big mistake) and i performed a compulsion which didn’t actually hurt anyone, but it could have.
it’s so messed up but i wanted to see if i was a bad person and if forcing anger would cause me to lose control and i was testing myself in a way that may have hurt someone but it didn’t because on a subconscious level, my brain was aware not to slip up and really hurt anyone which i did realize in the middle of performing my compulsions when i got too caught up in my imagination and had a moment where i was like “i don’t want to hurt anyone” and my brain said “you realize you haven’t actually hurt anyone yet” and i stopped the compulsion before it went further. i guess some part of my mind was aware that i wasn’t actually causing harm even though my compulsion was gruesome.
i’m extremely ashamed because although no one got hurt which i’m glad for, i can’t believe i even felt the need to test this in the first place. should i just move on? i feel like i need to be hospitalized. i’m glad no one got hurt
in addition to this my grip on reality is probably becoming very weak (i started my medicine again) but i’m looking back at a bunch of my actions and i know i was definitely not in the right frame of mind.
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Hello, to start i am not diagnosed with ocd and im not trying to self diagnosed i just want to hear your opinions. I always had slight health anxiety but Fast forward to when the pandemic hit it ramped up again i had what i call a "brain cancer episode" during this time all i did was research brain cancer symptoms HOURS on end. Every single symtoms, looking back its instance. I had panic attacks and thought they were strokes or seizures lol, I thought my life was over it got really bad eventually had a severe panic and it gradually went away. Fast forward to two months ago i had these intrusive thoughts "delusions" for like two weeks it was like some one in my family harming me, i knew i stupid they were and untrue they were but were annoying. eventually they went away. a couple months later they came back i thought i was going crazy and thought i developed schizophrenia. so for the next couple weeks all i did again which search schizophrenia things on the net, it was bad not as bad as the brain cancer. i checking if i was see things, hearing things it got pretty bad but magicaly it went away again. I was doing good for a couple of weeks and then again the worst one yet fear of depression. now this episode has by far been the worst. it started with what i learned now is called "extenital thoughts" i was questions whats even the point of life/meaning, but those were really short like 10 seconds and able to shake it off and go on with my day it went away it didnt really bother me. but then the trigger for the "depression episode". I was doing fine then woke up to see some one in my community had killed themselves. I didnt know them at all just like a friends friends never heard of them. This got me thinking what if i am i secretly depressed this whole time because people on social media were always talking about him always being happy. now my biggest fear ever was being being depressed. I constaly over analysed every single emotion i felt. took plenty of depression test and read symtomps and all came back negative. My extenital thoguhts skyrocket. i was affaird i would end up harming my self and lose controll. I still and never even complated harming my self, planned it or anything but i keep asking whats the point in living. Now Im losing my fucking mind what if this extentiasl thoughts caused a chemical imbalance in my brain and what if im going through an exetential depression, when i feel happy i ask my self what if im faking it What if i never enjoy anything again. or whats the point in feeling happy. Im so lostt is my life over am i bored of everything? looking back i always had ocd like symptoms when i was younger but i was able to manage them nothing seroius. I also had a period were i struggled with and now learned its called "HOCD". just a few days ago i was living perfeclty its honestly crazy how quick this happened
Im sorry for the rant but if 1 person could just help me.
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I wake up everyday for no reason. I can’t anymore. My life is ruined, it’s over. I don’t like to do anything. I stay inside
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I cant deal with them!
I made twice a promsie to Christian God about not smoking again and asked for a non-specific punishment. I made those promsises because I could not give up smoking! I tried but failed! The smoking thought would always be on my head. I was worrying for my health and the sin of smoking. Thats why I made the promises. I gave up smoking but there were times that I could not control myself and I smoked a very few cigarettes.
My ocd is like:
ocd: you made a promise to Christian God that you wont smoke and you asked for a nons-specific punishment in case breaking the promise twice! You gave up smoking but there were times that you smoked a few normal cigarettes. What if other Gods accepted your promises if CHristian God is not real? Oh you fear a specific bad punishment from Gods? Since you said to God/Gods about your fears/problems/worries, what if They considered that what you fear is a good way to be punished? You may have asked for forgiveness or for the promises to be canceled but what if Gods do not cancel promises? What if you angered Them? Sometimes, you feel calm because you think that Gods have forgiven you or that They would not punish you just because you made a promise twice. But what if you are wrong? We do not know what is after death. We do not know if there are Gods or not. What makes you to be calm and happy about your problem?
How to deal with it?
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Like I took meds for acne, now my doctor said we should go to a lower dosis and my acne is back.
I work and work and work, do my household, months pass by and I ask myself do I really wanna continue next year after the new year begins and oh it is the same like last year.
My mom is doing better and my dog from chronical illnesses and after they are bad again.
And that shit is called life, I should really throw it away one day.
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In the time that I was heavily bullied, I often was too stressed to eat. I was nauseous from hunger, but couldn’t eat anything without throwing up.
Later hunger became a huge trigger for me. I’ve gained a lot of weight over the last year, because I just ate why too much, so I wouldn’t be hungry. I try to deal with this now, but it’s very hard. I hate myself for eating so much, but I can’t seem to stop.
Is there anyone else here, for whom hunger is a trigger?
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Can aspies enjoy cuddling? I have heard that many people with aspergers do not enjoy lots of physical touch or find it uncomfortable... can you still enjoy touch and being close with someone? what is it about the touch sensation that doesn't feel good?
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Hello. After a long and stressful process, I was diagnosed with ADHD-C a few months ago (I'm 28, female and take hormonal birth control in case it matters). Mine is mild, thankfully, in the sense that I've sort of kind of had my life in check, but only to the point of staying afloat and being mediocre at everything. That intro aside, I've started Concerta (the only stimulant available in my country) at 18mg two months ago. 18mg doesn't do shit to me, except for the first week when my head felt a bit more quiet, but it came with gastric issues and dehydration. Since I'm allowed only one prescription per month, my doc advised me to experiment with taking two 18mg pills, either at once or spaced out a few hours, and see how it goes. The 1 + 1 method (one in the morning, one at noon) had no improvements and made the side effects last longer, which I didn't like. Taking two at once also doesn't seem to have many benefits (except for the occasional "it's quiet in here" observation) but it increases my heart rate to uncomfortable levels and makes me feel Tense!
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The issue is that I have health anxiety. It's under control normally, I've also taken medication for it in the past and got to a point where I could get off meds. But 36mg makes me feel anxious about my heart and the elevated pulse (normally between 65-75, with Concerta it spikes over 100 and averages at 90 bpm). I also don't like taking medication in general, so I'm afraid that my doctor will suggest taking alpha/beta blockers or additional anxiety medication so that maybe, MAYBE I can tolerate Concerta better, even if it doesn't improve much. I don't want to end up having to take medicine for medicine to work, it just feels ... wrong. I am in therapy for anxiety and ADHD management but it's so early in the process that it doesn't help much either.
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I feel at a loss, because like I said, I don't have other medicine alternatives and I don't want to try non-stimulants. I've been on SSRI and SNRI before and they made me feel like a zombie. I am tempted to just give up on medication until other options are available, but that might take years and I feel like time's passing me by, I'm struggling at work, I'm struggling to keep myself clean and content, I honestly feel defeated and have no clue where to go from here... any help?
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I mostly just want to figure what's up with me, at the moment I have a few suspicions as of now along with some confirmed things.
I'm diagnosed with ASD, Generalized anxiety, Depression
Suspicious of having Dyspraxia and Depersonalization issues/trauma related reactions that aren't exactly severe enough to be labelled as symptoms of cptsd.
I have issues with emotional regulation, I don't lash out but sometimes I stick to patterns that I don't even understand but it feels like I'm locked in place to do because of my anxiety. For example I do not let myself speak to people more than necessary. I cannot talk outside what I am asked, or what I need to ask. I know I can stop, but I feel like bursting if I even try to step out of the routine if it involves people/mannerisms. I also feel as if I'm lying all the time, even though I know I'm not. Even feels like this with when I'm recounting events I had just experienced and its fresh off my mind. I'm a very detailed oriented person, this filters into my art/school work.
I can't watch things/step out of my comfort zones with games if it just " isnt right " ( time, day, whos in the house, what is in the house, what my room is like, where my bf is/is doing, is this something I know? etc ). This also applies to when I draw/participate in creative activities.
I know I also struggle with intrusive thoughts. Won't disclose them specifically, but they're intensity affects my relationships with the people I know/am close to.
I dont know if I experience anything compulsory, or what that would be defined as in regards to myself.
I sincerely apologize of my suspicions are incorrect or insensitive, genuinely not my intention and if they are please do inform me. If anybody has any input as to what this could be, or if this should not be the place I should ask please feel free to let me know
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Hello I'm on 36mg of concerta which I had just started and have noticed feeling a lot more anxious and even having panic attacks which I'm not used to having. I've been advised to give it a few more days but it's so far been a really bad experience that I'm hesitant to. Did anyone else have an adjustment period and had it improve after that?
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I have nothing left to live for. Everything has gone completely wrong. I will have therapy on the 4th of January but I can't wait that long.
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My daughter (12) has had some major life changes in the past year and also begun menstruating. She also took an overdose. During her time in hospital and the appointments with mental health professionals, she expressed the view that her anxiety and depression is the result of undiagnosed ADHD.
I was floored as it never had really occurred to me. I was no expert but her issues and symptoms were not (to me) aligned. I have since learned that post puberty onset is quite common.
Forward to social workers now being involved (she is also refusing to go to school). The social workers are advising me to parent as if she is already diagnosed with it as it isn’t harmful and may hep me manage. (We live in a country with socialised medicine and a full assessment will take years).
Questions
1 does anyone have any experience with similar circumstances?
2 can you recommend my good parenting resources other than this sub?
3 any generalised advice is very welcome!!
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So my OCD hits as soon as I wake up, where I have certain compulsions to complete before getting out of bed, whilst getting ready etc. I wake up to buzzing thoughts and can feel a almost prickly sensation in my head from it. It also tends to latch on to coincidences and I connect things together a lot.
Basically, can someone please tell me I will get through this? Not sure how much longer I can keep doing this every single day. I am getting help but it’s so hard.
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Hello again, I have a question for you all. How do you talk with Drs. when you need medical treatment?
I have had a variety of strange encounters with Drs. .... basically receiving no treatment and a while variety of odd advice. Only recently did I put 2n2 together and think it's a kind of communication breakdown.
Since going to those small dr offices is a novel experience I realized that I have no pre-thought-out masking to employ.....resulting in Drs writing on thier charts anything from me being mentally ill to them advising I stop using methamphetamines!! Neither of which are applicable to me!
I don't know what inappropriate behavior im doing but it seems to really throw them off. Leading to me receiving no treatment because they don't take what im saying seriously.
I have a Dr appointment with an immunologist on Thursday and was wondering if anyone has advice. Before they ate put off and not listen to what im saying.
Thanks in advance.
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OK, back story. This was my first gf and we dated for a year (always long distance) and I fell over heels for her but things ended 11 months ago (on her part - she broke up with me)
I didn't take it well. I thought it had been my fault and I felt miserable and almost killed myself because it felt like I lost part of me. I blamed myself because I thought I hadn't work hard enough to be with her due to how serious was my ocd
In my opinion, I do think I worked so much on it. Although my ocd made me think I deserved death and it took a toll on her.
I will tell you what I did. I treated her as I'd love to be treated. I was affectionate, I was caring, I was loving, I tried to make her feel loved and cared for. I was there for her when she needed. I'd make surprises for her as much I could (I'd try to have different ideas and make something special for her) - I even sent her a package full of goodies so she was happy!
But my illness also made me do stuff that I deeply regret and some of you may consider abusive. Although! I changed for the better and I tried to be better. I completely stopped relying on her (because I'd ask for reassurence many times - I have pocd) because I saw it hurt her... And to this day I can't forgive myself.
I'm that part, I feel like I wasn't good enough...
À few months after the break up I met this guy which we rapidly became friends and he helped me surpass this break up and he made me see it from another perspective. He made me feel like "it hadn't been my fault - she didn't try hard enough"
To this day, idk why she broke up... She gave me a million reasons. All very cliché "I have to work on myself", "I need more in a relationship", "I can't be with someone who I never met", "I can't deal with your ocd", "I'm not happy in the relationship", etc
(but if I may give my opinion. She never tried to make things better)
After he helped and told me that, I felt betrayed and started hating her... Which I deeply regret.... I shouldn't had but I couldn't help it. I was deeply hurt... I am getting better and no longer hating her is getting there.
We also stopped talking over something so dumb... Basically I made an anonymous post on a anonymous blog (she didn't know about) venting about her (called her immature) and somehow found out and got overly angry at something so minor.
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Fast forward to today. I've recently met this wonderful woman. She's amazing and gorgeous and just plain sweet. I'm developing a crush on her but I feel unworthy of her because of the mistakes I did in the past.
Thank you for reading.
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Back in primary school, I had a teaching assistant. She would sit next to me in class two thirds of the time. The reason being that the other third of the time, I would not pay attention in class. Instead of focusing, I would think about last night's Simpsons, Mr. Bean or Nick Jr shows and start laughing erratically.
My friends were aware of this. They kept asking me why I need an assistant but even I had a hard time knowing why even if the reasons are obvious today. We happened to hang out during recess from time to time. I took little interest in listening to their lives. Instead, I would monologue about my interests. Sometimes, they listened, but eventually, they would just evade me. I was left alone walking circles in the school playground.
I had this "friend", who lived two corners away. We really didn't bond that well. Her mom came to clean our house every Wednesday. They were not as rich. They didn't have air conditioning, a swimming pool or the Internet. Her mom would gossip her that she found soiled underwear in my bedroom - I was 10 years old at the time. I highly suspect that she pressured him to hang out with me every other day of the summer so they could take advantage of us. Additionally, he would just make fun of me for being fat, clumsy, bad at sports, and having acne. My parents didn't think much about it. They wanted me to hang out with him because otherwise I would be playing RuneScape all day long.
I did invite my friends at my birthday parties, but I cared more about their gifts than their presence. I also invited them because both my siblings had birthday parties. I didn't want to feel inferior to them. Occasionally, my friends did invite me to their birthdays, but I highly suspect their parents felt sorry for me or they just wanted gifts.
Does this sound familiar to any of you?
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I had experienced some benfits by taking methylphenidate .I am more able to Use my Working Memory.I can interpret and make decision efficiently when it comes to what to do next..Otherwise I will sit here thinking a long time what to do ..
Rather than spenting long time thinking and then getting bored about ideas,I am doing things irrespective of the fact that it will end up getting bored or not..
Most of the time I can get taken up by the thing which helps me to stay attentive and produce results in the form of increased awareness.
So does this mean I had ADD.?
Also I don't like taking too much methylphenidate as it can make me super anxious..
How can I make sure that I had ADD .So that I can tell my Psycstrist to extend my Prescribtion ..
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I kinda just write random things that I feel when I'm in a really dark spot and I just wanted to share it nothing big just ignore it, I just like the feeling of someone being able to see this.
I need you
You were always there for me whether I was laughing or crying but, then he came along and you were so in love with him. At first he was helping but then he hurt me he hurt me for years when your back was turned and when I finally told you, you left me, you left me to drown in a pool of my own misery. As I grew up we started to grow distant always close but never really connected, after all these years you still love him like nothing happened and when I come to you for help you say I'm just weak. I hurt constantly, I want to end this all and I practically beg for help so I don't feel this way, but you ignore me. What did I do that makes you think I don't need help? All my pain has been caused by you, you could've so easily helped me from the beginning but you didn't, I know you've felt how I've felt and I know you got help so why won't you let me get help? When do I finally get the right to say I hurt and can't take it no more? Why can't you tell that I need you? I need you so much more than you know mom.
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I give up, i cant feel any interest of anything because of my ocd brain never feels empty im considering ending my life, whats the point? I lost pleasure in my hobbies im sick of seeing the compulsions in my dream when i sleep, im tired of feeling that small anxiety when a thought hits im so fucking tired i want to pass away. Im just a miserable shit even when i try to improve myself i just end up never improving i just want to die
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I’m giving therapy a try after Nine Years of Mental Declination , Three Suicide Attempts, Negligence, and formation of bad habits. Trying to work on myself , I hope this goes well.
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A 21yo living in Sydney, Australia for approximately three years as an intl student. The last time I went home was in September 2019, but since then COVID-19 started and to date, I haven't been home and met my parents and family for almost 2.5 years now. After the borders reopening announcement, I have made a plan to visit my home for at least 1.5-2 months, but I got only 28 days annual leave from my work. Whenever I think of home, I can't stop crying be it the workplace itself, while driving, sleeping etc, tears are always rolling out.
What you'd suggest, how can I deal with the issue.
Advice appreciated.
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Hey all, I just wanted to hear what some of yall would have to say about my situation and maybe I can find some degree of reassurance from this, but basically I'm worried about iatrogenic prion diseases. So, basically, keeping it short, I used to work in a neuroscience laboratory that studied drug addiction pathways in Long Evans rats, and I did a lot of the intracranial injection surgeries of viruses, and I did a bunch of tissue sectioning. One day I was cutting brain tissue for preparation for staining and I was using a razor blade to score the brain so that I could remember what way I had the brain facing (orientation matters in this line of work) and my idiot self used the blade upside down! I pushed down and boom, it cut through my glove and into my finger cuz the sharp side was facing me. I've done some digging into this because I've been nonstop worrying about it for the past 6 months, but from what I can tell, prions only exist in people, mink, cattle, deer, and moose species. Our lab didn't mess with prions. I cleaned the absolute shit outta it after I realized I was cut, and most of my colleagues just kinda laughed when I brought it up. I even mentioned it to my primary care physician, and she was like shieeeet, idk chief that's outta my field of expertise. I'd like to know what yall think bc I've been certain I've infected myself from brain tissue and I'm convinced I'm gonna eventually get sick.
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I’ve been prescribed 70mg vyvanse + 40mg adderall daily for 6 years in the states without any issues. I’ve temporarily living abroad since March of this year where I can only get 60mg of ritalin a day. The adjustment was tough at first but became easier over time. This past month, though, the ritalin appeared to stop working completely despite attempts to take off weekends, etc.
Has anyone else had similar issues with ritalin? Particularly after switching from adderall and/or vyvanse?
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i have to be a 100 % when it comes to morals and ethics and whenever i do a good thing i question myself wether i did it because i am good or i am just seeking attention to be loved by people, i confess useless small things to people to feel good about myself, i keep asking people if i offended them, i feel extremly anxious if i make a dark joke, i can't lie in peace, i have to say the truth 100 % of time or my ocd gonna torture me, i mean i know that i shouldn't always say the truth that why i think it problematic... lmao i can never win with ocd
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hey I'm having a lot of age regression episodes now and I was thinking of a way to deal with it, and I want an opinion maybe from someone that have tried it or what do you think about it
so i act as a child talk like a child ect
and I was thinking of trying to do what I used to do when I was a kid
for example I used to have this cup of hot milk and it used to relax me a lot, and I thought of buying myself a pacifier for when I'm stressed or disassociating. but I guess it would be weird to have these things because I'm an adult... although I'm thinking of hiding it from society and like it would be private stuff, I wouldnt put on a pacifier when I'm outside of course that would be really embarrassing
im very ashamed of these episodes when I'm going through one, but I really want to feel comfortable with myself and with it
so should I "go all the way" and let my "brain kid" have it all, or leave it?
do you think my idea is healthy? or do you think it's not a good way of dealing?
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I want to know if it's a me issue or an adhd issue.
Basically, people keep thinking I am dumb because I don't think of things myself. I keep needing to be told to do stuff that should come automatically to me. It's not limited to my professional life though.
I am not dumb though - I am a smart person who will give results if I am told exactly what to do. So this hampers my self esteem and I keep doubting myself. I could be dumb as shit and never know.
Why do I need to be told to do things? Why don't they come naturally to me as they do to other people?
Do you guys face this issue? How do you solve this? For folks who take meds, did meds help with this issue - if you were facing it before?
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Hi y’all so I don’t know if I should switch to something else but just a question for everyone: Has anyone else stopped taking their adderall IR due to the anxiety it causes?
I haven’t taken it for two weeks now and I can’t focus for shit but my anxiety is gone. It was so overbearing but now I just feel like I traded it for something else.
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I don't know how to word this post but I (13 year old male) have just been feeling down I don't know I've lost a lot of my interest, spend almost all day in bed if I'm not at school, and I've even cut myself once haven't done it again cuz the blade rusted. it's hard to get out of bed, I'm tired all the time and think very bad and down of myself. it did not help when my best friend the only one I've told anything left me out of the blue. The worst thing is some small suicidal thoughts, not how I would do it but how I would tell people I was going to.
The weird this is if I'm with friends or family I'm perfectly fine but one time alone the dark thoughts creep in
Sorry if this hard to read
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Hi, I have been diagnosed with GAD, actually I have suffered from anxiety all my life without knowing it but only realised it recently. It has caused lot of problems with my personality like coping with pressure, mostly buckling under it. Caused me to leave my college degree unfinished, leave my job abruptly etc. I had contemplated hurting myself after quitting my job, I sought psychiatric treatment then and somehow got better. Right now I experiencing high levels of anxiety after a panic attack. Those pressures and fears which I was unable to cope with earlier have reappeared. I sometimes think that these will become unbearable for me😭...
I can feel these are just thoughts, tricks my mind is playing etc but they also feel so real at times like it's my nature. I am seeking counselling right now, I will see my therapist again in a couple of days but in meantime I wanted to share my situation here and hope somebody relates or has any advice for me. Thanks for reading.
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So I'm currently 20 years old living with my mom in a one bedroom apartment. She has the room and im living behind the living room area. Just enough space to set up my gaming area and a air mattress. For the past 3 years i've jumped from house to house to house. I lived with my sister for half a year and got kicked out for not getting a job, moved in with my girlfriend and basically the same thing happened and broke up, now with my mom. I've never been to do the doctor or anything for mental illness mainly because its just not important in my family. We never talk about depression or anything. I literally lack motivation to do anything. Not a single thing pops up in my brain that i wanna do except get on my playstation to talk to my friends, not even game really. All the friends i have are over the internet. I've known them for about 4-5 years so we're all pretty close. Since i got kicked out and had to move to multiple places i dont have any irl friends to talk to or hang out with. I cant tell you the last time ive went out to hang out with a friend. Maybe over 2 years realistically. I've been on and off with finding a job but its so hard to commit to applying for me. Im very emotionless you could say. Not a lot of things get a reaction out of me. So i come off as very cold and or boring. Though each night i go to sleep i burst out crying into my pillow for no reason. A lot of random thoughts spring to my mind throughout each day. Idk its exhausting trying to talk about everything im feeling. I dont even know what i just typed. Dm if you want. I dont really care or mind. My name is Matthew
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I’m literally so sick of myself. I have to constantly fight to do anything. Every time I think I can do something good that will make me happy the rest of my brain tells me no. It’s not worth it. I’m not worth it.
I can’t take it I hate myself so fucking much why do I even have to exist in the first place.
Literally anyone else could have existed in my place and have had a good meaningful life but here I am instead being the universe biggest waste of space.
I fucking hate everything and I hate everyone but most of all I hate myself. So. Fucking. Much.
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I (28m) was diagnosed with ADHD about a year and three months ago. and when I was a child I struggled with a learning disability brought on by epilepsy. I know ADHD and learning disability often go hand-in-hand, and if I'm being honest the ADHD diagnosis was more a relief than anything else because it explained so much about myself.
I work at a pizza chain, and we just received our employee rankings for the stores in our area. I came in dead last out of a group of 75 employees across multiple stores. Needless to say, I am gutted, I'm really, really disappointed and angry at myself. I'm humiliated, depressed, and just angry at the world right now. I just want to be baseline competent. that's it! That's all I want!! I've always struggled in the workplace, but I didn't realize it was this bad. What's frustrating is that I know I'm smart! I just finished my bachelor's degree with a 3.7 GPA and my therapist told me one time he thinks my IQ is in the 120's SO HOW CAN I BE THIS BAD!?!?!?!?!?! I can't keep going on like this. I went home last night and cried my eyes out. I'm thinking about quitting just because this is so embarrassing. I'm just so depressed right now.
Now, a year after my diagnosis I have an appointment coming up with my neurologist and I am going to seriously push him for ADHD medication. He was reluctant to put me on something when I brought it up to him last time, but if I tell him the situation I hope he'll change his mind. I likely will be put on a non-stimulant because of my migraine disorder. My question is: Will an ADHD med Strattera or Wellbutrin help with a learning disability as well?
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Hey! First post here I think.
I'm an amateur musician, it's been a hobby/obsession that hits me in cycles of 1 or 2 months of pure obsession followed by 10 months of abandonment.
One of the issues I noticed I have while playing is that frequently I'll phase out and forget about the next note/chord I should play, making it really hard to play any song 100% right even with lots of practice.
Any tips to avoid this kind of mistake? And also, how to keep practicing when the obsession period is gone?
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I also have ADHD and so I was always on the move and playing so much as a kid. I look back and even talking with my parents I didn’t have trouble with other kids really until the relationships got more complicated in middle school and high school.
Can anyone else relate?
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So this isn't part of my PTSD but it did influence my mental health issues and also how I now refuse to talk to my mum about what caused my PTSD.
When I was in sixth form I was severely depressed and doing my a levels really fucked me up which caused health problems I'm still dealing with. On my last day/ exam I was petrified because I couldn't understand or remember what I needed to for that exam. However, I put some effort into how I looked (my go to coping mechanism when I know I'll get nervous) and was feeling like I looked amazing. That was up until this teacher called me out in front of my friends and other teachers saying that the skirt I wore which I had been wearing for the majority of the year, was too short. This crushed my confidence and as I was already super self conscious, I just went into a really dark place and dissociated for the first and only time in my life. When I got home I was sobbing and looked to get comfort from my mum (who has the emotional capacity of a brick wall). She took the teachers side and taught me that she'd never take my side in times when I'm the victim.
Well yesterday I found out that the teacher in question is on strict bail and is going to court because he assaulted an underage girl who was the same age that I was when this happened (17 years old). When my mum found out she said "well he was a very good and nice teacher so that girl must be lying". So it's pretty obvious why I never told her about what happened to me. I just hope this asshole gets locked away but his career is already ruined so I guess karma's a bitch!
Sorry for the rant, I'm just feeling a lot of mixed emotions right now.
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it's just seems like a relapse this year, i've been encaged with this nightmarish flashbacks of where i suffered emotional and physical abuse from my parents.
now, i have an fear of failure of whether they will judge me (my parents now are better of course but i suffer from anxiety still), growing up, I've always internalized everything (from verbal abuse) and a single failure to meet their "expectations" have always been a mindset that haunts me till this day.
now, I'm really contemplating on getting a counsellor or therapist but I'm really bad at asking for help.
thanks for the kind comments.
edit : im traumatized by studies as my father forced me to understand which doesn't suit my learning style.
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Any time I’m about to do something that’s a milestone in life, or even just something that’s supposed to be fun or involves money or other people, I feel that it’s ruined by something, anything getting in the way that gets me ruminating and irritated like crazy and makes me feel like it’s impossible to say the event was a positive one or I’d be lying.
Warning that this is going to sound super trivial and overly-sensitive when I know there are actual problems in the world, but it sucks that it interferes with anything important to me. I’m never “in the moment.”
For example, I get cut off on the freeway or someone walks into the elevator before letting me out or I get catcalled/honked at by some creep or I accidentally lock eyes with someone and smile, but they glare rudely.
I get it: we’ve all had this happen. I’m just saying it’s when the timing is always right before or after something important to me that I feel ruins every meaningful event I’ve had and I don’t know why my mind makes it have to be that way.
This has caused me to avoid planning things like vacations or birthday outings just to avoid the anxiety while I just want to scream at myself “Why do I still care so much!?”
Can anyone relate?
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You are not your thoughts nor do you have control over them. The way I overcame my OCD is by coming to the realization that I have no control over my thoughts so why would I give them any value or validity. Deep down you know who you are and if you were really that person your thoughts were telling you then you wouldn’t be tormented by them. The only way to gain control is too realize you do not have control. Another big thing that helped me is Meditation, meditation gives you access to truly observe your thoughts without attaching yourself to them and can also help you with unwanted sensations. When you’re meditating, focus on parts of your body and tell your mind you want to feel that part of your body without touching it, after awhile you will and you will be present. This will also show you that those sensations that make you uncomfortable regarding your ocd is just your mind focusing on that area therefore giving you the sensation. Another useful tip, if I you have a thought that is truly bothering you, make yourself believe it is true, even say it to yourself if you have to. Your anxiety will then peak but then after awhile it will subside due to no longer getting the fear response it usually gets that peaks your anxiety. Use these tools and I promise you that life will get better. Also, if you need some help and encouragement through all of this, talk to a therapist, it really helps. I was suicidal at one point and now my OCD barely has a hold on me. You can beat this, I Promise.
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Im wondering if anyone else is in the same boat? Basically he said I dont meet the diagnostic criteria since I didnt have trouble in school. Its really hard to explain to people. No one believes me except my friends. I think I am very high function, somewhat high IQ with ADHD. I did ok in school because I never had to study or apply myself, I skated by on natural ability but the second it got tough I failed (out of AP Calculus for example) and I got "bored" my senior year of college and started to fail classes. Its hard to explain. I love learning but if im not passionate about learning it I just wont do it.
My personal and professional life is a mess. I pour all my focus into surviving at work. I get by on personality and natural ability but I can't finish a project by myself no matter how hard I try. I've been slowly shifting my career into operations because I like the twitchy emergency right now nature and my brain can deal with that but I've had 7 jobs in 10 years and always quit because I was bored or not performing. My personal finances are a mess im in so much debt and I cant keep a relationship despite people being interested in me.
Anyway I have my first therapy appointment booked next Friday and im looking forward to it. Im 39 so this is way overdue.
But so my psychiatrist did offer me Wellbutrin or Stratera or Tenex. I think I will try Wellbutrin and see if it helps? My friend and my brother are on it. My family also wont acknowledge the family symptoms of ADHD but whatever as long as I get treatment I guess.
Im wondering if anyone else ran into issues because they got meds but didnt have the diagnosis. What if I change insurance???
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Anyone got any suggestions for those times where you’re so under stimulated it physically hurts but you don’t know what/what you want to do to give your brain the stimulation it needs?
Preferably a mix of things like quick fixes and more in depth time consuming things
Really struggling with this rn… fucking ADHD man. I wish I could just be bored like a normal human and not where it’s physically and emotionally painful
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I really want to be able to speak spanish. It would be so helpful in so many parts of my life. The issue is that I have a hard time focusing on it long term. I bust out a crap ton of study a week every few weeks and it's not helpful. Plus I want to learn more languages afterwards but not study strategy that I've found works for me.
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PTSD is unforgiving, I want to sleep, I want to not be alone, I want to o fix my situation!! Minneapolis is sooo messed up right now nothing is what I know after the riots... my doctors office closed down or burn down I tried to order meds but they can’t find my doctors!!! Idk my family keeps dying natural causes or otherwise, I’m tired.... I need a real job college or chef qualified just don’t know I’m ready to go back over seas if I can!!
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I’m diagnosed with ADHD inattentive type. So I can get annoyed very easily. It’s almost like I cause arguments just cause I’m bored. But when I get annoyed over something very small (so small I sometimes can’t even remember it), even if I know I’m overreacting, I can’t shift moods and forget about it and go on with my life, I’m still annoyed at that person. Like…I feel as though I can’t just act like nothing happened or just say “that was silly” and start being jolly cause I see that as weird and fake. This has to be something to do with ADHD right?
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I absorb everything and end up exhausted and just exist. Now iv'e spent 3 weeks at home laying in my bed at underweight and slept alot, still feel like sleeping, feel pretty alone but unable to skip forward my issues, feels like they are just stones stuck in my machinery. But the paralyze is also partly of cptsd = (complex) long lasting intensive trauma. So yeah just wanted to see if anyone relates.
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I started an office job a while ago and my adhd has never been worse. I have multiple days in a row where I sit at my desk and do nothing. Not because I don’t have work to do, but because I have such a hard time getting my brain to function. I barely manage to get my projects finished in time. Im considering switching my meds cause I’m taking the max dose of my current one and it isn’t working, but until then would appreciate any advice :)
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i can’t add images so grr but it was this game ad about collecting pixels in a cup and they were cutting corners so the caption was “this game isn’t for OCD people”. 😐😐😐😐😐😐
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Currently on 10mg of citalopram (celexa). I currently feel numb and like my brain is working at 100mph all day every day but I’m not getting much done. I clench my jaw and I feel like I can’t focus on anything
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No one knows but me but tonight and this morning I have been teary eyed or on the verge of tears.
I just needed to say this.
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I'm a 17yo skill less person, I am not good at academics, sports, singing, dancing etc. I am still trying to find out where I am good at but in vain. Each and every tuition teacher has told my parents that I am super intelligent but I don't feel so. I hv tried convincing my parents that those people are wrong and I am just an average person(in reality I am well-below average person), I am good at one thing though, making others laugh but how far will it take me. I have saved many students from depression by cheering them up, telling them great stories and introducing them to new friend grps but have never been happy myself. I love to play games and learn physics, I have deep interest in astronomy. I keep talking to myself every minute, every second. I feel it's a good way to know more about yourself. I still remember the happiest moment I've ever had, it was when I was stargazing in Ladakh, it was mesmerizing, just wonderful, I felt I could spent all my life just staring at the milky way.
But I live in a city where I can hardly see a single star, this makes me more sad. My definition of life is different, no one agrees with me on that though. I feel I am unique dnt know if in a good way or a bad way but yes I am unique and that's my identity.
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I read somewhere that women experience emotions of shame and guilt more often than men. Men have stronger feelings of anger.
Women are more likely to have agoraphobia than men.
Is it connected to the nature of trauma the person experienced?
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I don’t know why but I get so frustrated by this happening, I at points have literally just dropped whole entire conversations because of my frustration with people interrupting me. I don’t know why they feel the need to do this and it makes them look like hypocrites as they say it’s “Rude” for me to talk about something with someone else while there doing something else yet do they do the EXACT same thing here! Why are they so inconsistent?
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I’ve been feeling like I really need to talk to someone because it’s all just building up inside me. But every time I try to say something my body just shuts down like ‘haha nice try’
It’s too overwhelming like I physically can’t say what I’m dying to say. It just won’t come out.
And also I’m terrified of people seeing me as having a victim mentality. Like I question whether I am making it up or if I have a right to feel like a victim.
Anyway I’m currently dealing with a lot of intense negative emotions relating to the event and I can’t tell anyone anything because my freaking body just shuts down
Very frustrating. Its so much to carry
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I’m sad to say I’m writing this on such a giving holiday. Its been months since something has triggered my ptsd and sadly tonight at the dinner table was when it happened. I almost decided to leave this sub Reddit because I thought I was far enough along that things wouldn’t affect me the way they used to. After I finished my last therapy session, I had a lot of this figured out but i guess some of it can’t be fixed or go away quickly like I had thought. For context, 8 (almost 9) years ago I had a seizure in a movie theatre and on the screen was a girls eyes bulging almost out of her head. It scared me so much I had a freaking seizure, I guess my brain chose flight and just couldn’t process it. It terrifies me and now is the source of my triggers. Now every time I see someone with an injured eye or red/puffy eyes from crying, my brain tells me that the same thing is happening to mine and I instantly flashback to that day in the theatre. I can’t get her face out of my mind. Tonight at the dinner table my family was talking about a friends dog who has glaucoma, and my sister asked if the dog was going to loose her eyes. It triggered me to thinking my eyes were going to fall out even though it is ridiculous and I have no reason to believe it’s true because they’re perfectly fine. But anyways, I ended up sitting at the table crying and holding my hands in front of my eyes as to prevent this from happening. I went to lay down on the couch to try and relax and ended up crying curled up in a ball for 30 minutes. I kept reliving that day in my head and kept my eyes closed because I was worried what would happen if they opened. My eyes still feel weird as I type. I know it’s all psychological and that none of it is actually happening but in the moment it seems so true. I think what happens is I hyper fixate on my eyes and it causes me to be really aware of every movement. Just peachy. I lit a candle that’s my favorite smell and took my anxiety medication in hopes it calms me down. When I finally cooled down I immediately thought of this sub Reddit because I hadn’t the courage to bring it up to my family yet. Anyways, I guess today this is my way of calming down through writing to you guys. I’m thankful for this sub Reddit in my most desperate of times!!! I realize even if I’m at a really good place and have come a long way that it can still happen because my ptsd and trauma is apart of who I am today. I’m sad I had to come back and write but at least I know I have this community.
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Is it SO OCD if... (i'm a bi girl with another girl)
If i was truly attracted to women, i dated my current girlfriend and i have never loved anyone else like that. But after about 4-5 months i've had what looks like to ROCD and came with what i think SO OCD. I'm like if i find attractive it means i need to leave my girlfriend, and that i need to date a man. I feel like it is always gonna stay like that. I'm bisexual since the beginning but i feel like i'm just attracted by guys now. I've had moments when i was attracted only by women but i wasn't in a relationship so i didn't care. But that strong attraction to men came slowly. I don't even know if it is an attraction, it is just a feeling inside of me that i don't like and now i believe it. Is it SO OCD?
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I just started substitute teaching this past Wednesday at a Middle School and I feel like I am where I belong for the first time in such a long time.
I have been teaching college and HS drivers ed for awhile, but this just felt.... right. Like, I clicked and fit into my proper space. I've been working on an educators license for 5-8 Science for awhile but until I started subbing I was unsure if it was the right path. But now, I know this is where I am meant to be.
I just wanted to share this because you never know where or when you will find your place. I'm 36 and I've had several differe t jobs, but this is the first that really feels "right".
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is it weird that i have multiple different types of obsessions but i dont have harm ocd. like i love horror movies and can watch them just fine. is this weird?
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OCD
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I don't know how much of what I feel is due to adhd, sometimes I just feel like I'm making stuff up out of my head or that I'm procrastinating purposefully. I really can't tell anymore. I dunno it just feels kind of weird to be unable to understand that part of yourself
So yeah I don't want this post to be yeeted so aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
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I live in a small college town of 17K in the Midwest and a new wind farm has just been built near my area, with another one set to be built this fall. My town will also be getting a solar farm built this coming summer too. I've been thinking about the possibility of maybe having a career in either wind or solar. The community college in my town has announced a 3 month wind energy program that will help train people to become wind turbine technicians and I've been thinking about applying to it. But I'm still wondering if I ever should or not.
As a wind turbine technician, you have to have skills with working on electrical, hydraulic, and mechanical systems including troubleshooting for problems. When I was trying to be a diesel mechanic, I've struggled so much with understanding how to troubleshoot for problems, and I've even had trouble with understanding how certain things involve with mechanical and hydraulic systems work. I ended up doing welding after my diesel instructor suggest that I should do that instead. I think it was my sensory issues due to autism that might've caused me to struggle with that.
I'm now working part-time as a dishwasher and there isn't a lot of places in my area that hire welders. I've been thinking about the possibility of being either a carpenter, plumber, landscaper, or electrician instead if I can't find a welding job. I could see myself possibly improving my troubleshooting and problem solving skills with electrical systems and have a more better understanding of them. But with mechanical and hydraulic systems I'm not so sure.
So how can I improve my troubleshooting skills? What are some easier ways for autistic people to troubleshoot for problems especially when doing a trade?
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As far as I know, I've (17M) been experiencing some level of intrusive thoughts since I was a young child. Recently, it seems their frequency and intensity has increased. I've been told by my therapist that these intrusive thoughts are OCD-induced as I often "make them go away" by doing physical or auditory tics. However I was under the impression that OCD instrusive thoughts were both first-person and directed at prevention (i.e. "I should make sure I don't do this", or "I can't go there or this will happen"), but I've been finding a lot of the intrusive thoughts are third-person commands, "punch that person", "scream this", "shoot yourself", etc.
Has anyone else with ADHD had these third-person intrusive thoughts? Something to look into? Maybe just the OCD idea?
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ADHD
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For the past few days I have been overaware of body temperature… or I’m really dying.
When it’s hot out or humid out and I start to sweat, I start to feel super cold.
Feeling it right now and it’s freaking me out. I feel like it’s cold but its 76 F. FWIW in air conditioned rooms I feel normal
My skin feels cold to touch. It could be heart failure but its mostly noticeable when I think about it
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OCD
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On mobile so forgive the formatting.
My whole childhood was a big fucked, mushed up ball of trauma, abuse, and neglect. I am the byproduct of all that. I bear the scars of every beating, every method of torture. No idea how to love, care, feel. Every year that passed I lost more and more of myself until I got to where I am. I escaped 2 years ago. Now I'm a husk. I feel like a walking fucking corpse with no direction. Even feeling my heart beat within my chest makes me extremely uncomfortable. I feel nothing but rage, and even that is only sometimes. I shouldn't be alive. My mind is dead but my body lives on, scarred and weary. I may have escaped physically but my brain is a prison that I may never escape from.
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ptsd
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Anyone else, in the midst of anxiety or approaching panic, just hate everything? It's probably a mix of depression but I get triggered and fall deep into anxiety with a tightness in my chest and I just think about anything and I get mad. I can't deal. I also feel like I don't belong wherever I'm at. Like I wanna leave my house and it doesn't feel like mine...is this pre panic attack? Hate it. I'm so triggered by my wife coming and going in my life (just to work). It's so hard.
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OCD
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I went through all the testing for adhd and finally got my results. All of the test are not normal but they didn't give me a diagnosis. (There was a recommendation that i should use planners and not be on my phone when I'm supposed to be doing stuff. Thanks for nothing i guess.)
I scheduled another appointment and asked about it. My doctor told me that there is no clear way to diagnose adhd and that they couldn't be sure i have it.
I told her that i tried everything and that nothing is helping me. She said that we could try medication. I got my prescription yesterday but I'm not sure if I'm even diagnosed.
Can you even get meds without a diagnosis?
I'm confused
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ADHD
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I was talking to friend about habits and what not and got my friend to say "woah, oh well that's weird" so my ASPI senses kicked in. Lol
Basically, he was saying he does certain things over and over so that you do them without thinking. To which, I said "yeah, but I can never do that. I'm constantly thinking about what I'm doing and why".
Is a habit actually something you do without thinking? I think of everything as chores more or less and can't get anything done when depressed. When not depressed, I sometimes do it, but I can never do things consecutively to "develop" the habit.
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aspergers
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Ever since primary school, I sucked st may. Always low scorer on every test. Now I’m in uni and still suck at math and am now receiving low marks . I noticed during high school that no matter how much effort I try to keep myself focused, I always lost track every time.
Now my question is, what the hell do I do now. I’m failing math and can’t study anything for it. I don’t know how to get meds for this as I barely have any knowledge on medical insurance or whatever it is called. I feel so lost.
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ADHD
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I dunno how it lasted this long but it did. Cant sleep nor can I concentrate, I'm jealous of my old me who is free from having to go through this. I have been taking meds, sometimes I forgot things like names, memories. Tbh I'm scared. Just wanna vent sry
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OCD
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Recently, I found a picture way back (this happened 10 years ago this week) in my Facebook that my abuser took of me. In it, I'm wearing a necklace with his class ring on it that he made me wear every day. It was his way of showing me who I belonged to. He'd get very upset if you caught me without it! It was one of the hardest things for me to get over. I've told my story and talked about my past plenty of times, but always leave that part out. When I saw that picture, something broke inside me. So many emotions and memories came flooding back - even some new memories!
I'm back to being scared to leave the house alone, nightmares every time I fall asleep if I even get sleep, looking over my shoulder, jumping every time someone knocks or my phone rings...all those things that I had to get past after I first got out. I feel like I'm fresh out of it all over again :( The last 6 months I've been doing great! Then out of freaking no where I'm doing worse than I have in nearly 7 years!
Does it ever ACTUALLY get better? Will it always be just a 4 months of doing okay, 1 month great then 2 years falling apart cycle?? How the hell do you put your life back together when you can't make it stop falling apart long enough to stand back up?
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ptsd
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My OCD has taken a whole new interesting turn these last few months and now I have a constant fear that I have at some point in my history been recorded doing or saying something that will haunt me. Nothing criminal because I'm not that sort of person, just stuff that you don't want out there. This isn't me being hateful or malicious or anything like that because I genuinely don't have that in me, it's just more of a vague fear of something I may not even know I have done or said. I'm in show business so that's likely why the whole "everything you have will be taken from you and you'll be a embarrassed publicly" fear is exacerbated. Especially now a days. On a whole I have a real problem with "fear of unknown" thoughts so I'm at least in familiar territory.
Does anyone else have this specific paranoia? If so, have you found anything that helps you stop the tailspin?
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OCD
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My depression is at an all time high. im turning 30 in a few days and I think my body is doing a bit of self reflection about all that has been going on.
Overall I have been feeling like I’m not worthy of love or success. The effort I’ve put into those areas never work for my benefit.
I was talking to a guy which I’m sure at this point never liked me and was only using me because he knew I had a thing for him. I’m a virgin and he knew that and I feel like he was taking advantage of me sexually due to the attraction.
When I’m depressed I tend to retreat away to manage my feelings without it impacting others but then I feel like it makes my depression worse cause then I realized who actually wants to talk to me.
I just feel like my life is caving in on me. Like no matter what I do not one part of my life has a current positive state other than my health and being alive for the most part.
I’ve tried therapy but I think since my therapist was older I didn’t see it as peer to peer and I didn’t think she would truly understand what I was feeling.
I think I was just rambling here but any comments or questions are accepted.
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depression
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The past few months I have been taking NAC supplements to help me manage my obsessive thoughts. Starting to run low, so looked online to order more and the top two leading brands have vanished from Amazon. Both pages were up yesterday; they seem to have both been deleted in the last 24 hours. Only seeing one option for NAC on Amazon and it’s triple the price I was paying. A little worrisome. Anyone have recommendations on where and what brand to buy, or what’s up with Amazon? Would be much appreciated.
Note: Hopefully this does not fall within the rules of discussing “snake oil” treatments. My therapist approved of me giving this supplement a try.
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OCD
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40 year old female, I’ve been taking Adderrall ER for about 6 months or so now, recently I’ve been noticing it takes longer to achieve orgasm, even when I’m masturbating. I’m wondering if I should take an Adderrall “vacation” or if it could be one of the other supplements I am taking for overall better health, or having lost some weight (maybe I’m not eating enough?), or the fact that I turned 40 a few months ago No changes in desire or frequency, if anything, I have a higher libido than I used to.
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ADHD
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TW: Animal abuse
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This might be a bit too dark, please continue reading with caution.
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THERE ARE A LOT OF GRAMMATICAL ERRORS.
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I think I'm an animal abuser, not sure if this is an intrusive thought or guilt(maybe both). I've been living with my grandmom's dogs for about two years now, and they aren't treated well at all. My Grandmom hits them a lot whenever they don't listen, and I don't do anything about it. When we first started living with her, My dad and I would take care of the dogs when we were home. It was fine during the first year, for the most part (I would leave for school and come home for the weekend, and parents would go out a lot, so I'm not sure how severe it was back then). My dad left for vacation before the pandemic hit, and I really messed up (I stole a bunch of cookies from her grocery store). Then when quarantine hit my grandmom started blaming my mom for everything, so we stopped helping her with her buisness, and we stopped feeding the dogs (because she would blame my mom anytime they wouldn't eat or would get sick (we don't feed them proper food)). My mom isn't an animal person, she was always disgusted by them so with all the information about the virus she didn't want me going anywhere near them as often. My grandmom would hit them for the most stupid stuff (they're chained like 99% of the time). At first there were two dogs but one died, and the other one gave birth. We got a puppy (she was almost an adult), and she was really playful. we didn't know how to handle her, she would listen to me a liitle bit but only if i tricked her. you guessed it she was hit by grandmom a lot, and she would play with the puppies but she was too harsh and would leave them with bite marks, my grandmom would hit her. I just would brush it off, or push her away. I'm now realizing that that is a terribly neglectful to just assume that the dogs won't do anything (me not disciplining the dog when she was being to harsh is abuse). Even when I would take them for a walk or leave them for a bit to poop, they would ask me to call them back because they might bite (they know our neighbours for the most part, a lot of them took care of the dogs before my grandmom moved back in), so I would just leave them be. I'm one of those stupid owners who "trusts their dog to not bite". I am neglectful. If only I had not fucked up, and was still taking care of them the abuse would've been minimized. I don't even pet them as much anymore. The fact that I've gotten dissensitized to their yelps scare me. Even if my grandmom is abusive she still cares about them more than i ever will. It was raining a couple of nights back and my grandmom was the one who noticed that the floor was wet, then proceeded to get some blankets. I could go to jail for this (I'm 18 now, so there's no excuse). I feel like I'm asking for sympathy right now. I can't believe that I wanted dogs. If I can't even trust myself around animals, what about humans. Good God someone take me to prison at this point.
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OCD
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My boyfriend and I have been together 3 yrs. I have severe anxiety, CPTSD & depression. cptsd from childhood trauma and surviving a fatal accident. This type of thing happens very often. So today, I woke up feeling super anxious because i had bad nightmares all night & i told him about this. We got into a small argument and he says “ Gosh what is your problem chill out..?” & i’ve repeatedly told him how saying that triggers me and makes me really upset. He continues to say things like that and call me “crazy” which also triggers me and really upsets me. I have very heightened fight/flight response and so I got super upset and said fuck this and left the room & he chases after me starts saying wtf is wrong with you you’re being crazy saying more and more things causing me to have a pretty much panic attack. I got so angry and told him how he’s a horrible boyfriend , a POS and i have begged him to not say these things that trigger me. Then he turned around and made me feel like a psycho crazy person for calling him names ( piece of shit bf). I got so angry and went into an out of control rage (which happens often with him). After I calmed down a bit I tried explaining my anxiety and my flight/fight response and he basically told me that he thinks that I use my mental health as an excuse to act how ever I want and that I can control certain things better. Doesn’t believe I cant control my actions. Idk what to do anymore. He changes his mood and starts being nice and saying “ I am sorry for saying that I’ll try my best to not say those things to trigger you I know it’s hard“ & then just does it again. He says he’ll try to do better and never does. Please someone just tell me if i’m being evil and crazy like he says ? 😭
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ptsd
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Does anyone else have constant doubts about whether you romantically like someone or not? I understand that a certain amount of doubting is normal and necessary to evaluate your future with a person, but I'm talking about very obsessive doubting. It could be related to your crush or even your girlfriend, and the thought just doesn't go away. I fall in this endless loop of "I like her, I like her not" with no rational way of actually answering the question. Anyone?
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OCD
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i know that my mind isn't being logical, so why do i keep doing what it wants?! For instance, i know very well that if "good night" isn't the last thing i tell my mom before she sleeps, she won't die. And yet i can't get stop doing it. I said good night 7 times to her last night. A few nights ago, i decided to not listen to my mind and i only said it once. (The thing is, she doesn't go to sleep right after she decides to sleep. She keeps remembering things she wants to tell me like the things i should do after she goes to work tomorrow, so usually when i say good night, she doesn't go to bed right away). But then i went to my room and started crying because i thought she's going to die in her sleep. So i just had to make up an excuse to go to her room and say good night again. I know it's illogical and she won't die if i don't say good night. But why the hell does my body react differently?!
Or i know that no one is home. I saw my family leave and i closed the door. So why the hell do i have to shout their names multiple times and see that no one replies just to prove it to my dumbass brain? It's like me and my body are two different things. Like myself and my physical being (which includes my brain) are seperate and don't understand each other.
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OCD
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I have a somewhat irrational fear that I'll develop CFS (Chronic Fatigue Syndrome) just cause I've been feeling a little fatigued and nauseous this past week. I eventually went to the doctor, had a blood test and it turns out I have slightly low iron and Vitamin D. Despite this, which is relatively minor, I still worry that I'll end up bed-ridden for the rest of my life with chronic fatigue even though I know that's kind of a ridiculous thought to have
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OCD
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Hello all, I use medical marijuana to help with my ptsd. It helps me with a number of symptoms including nightmares, sleeping in general, relieving stress, and anxiety, and most importantly, my irritability. I get extremely angry over tiny things every single day, countless times a day, and it’s exhausting. My brain feels like the only thing it knows is negativity and it’s hard to break the cycle. Tonight I medicated, and felt instantaneous relief and I just feel like I’m in a great mood and mindset now. I just wanted to share with everyone how helpful it has been for me in case anybody is thinking about using it to help with symptoms.
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ptsd
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(It’s long, I’m sorry, I just needed to vent a little and share what I’m going through I little and I’m SUPER nervous so sorry if I rambled.)
I’m constantly nervous about trying to find a spot in the community of those who have PTSD as mine was caused by multiple factors, the main one and the main focus seems to be a break in earlier this year.
My house got broken into once while myself and my mother were out and again about a minute after we returned the same day, he (I think it was multiple but only one came back) came back because a phone was left behind, by this point I was in my room, not feeling good that someone went into my room and went through my stuff, something I was already protective over, but then someone probably around my age (late teens early twenties, it’s hard to tell, he was tall but I’m really small) came back into the house and went straight for my room, my mum was already on the phone to the police but it took her a second to realise that he was a stranger. He scared the hell out of me because a guy bigger than me was not what I expected to see when I turned around.
He looked terrified, just wanted the phone which had been moved, but he started going through my stuff again trying to find it and would not leave my room. He was very obviously scared and panicked and I just wanted him to leave, I didn’t have any real fear that I was in any danger nervous for my mum but not scared, they only stole small things that were almost worthless to us, they did steal my hard-drives and a few other this I valued but nothing that was too important and I couldn’t get another, they chucked the hard drives thankfully so I got all my work back.
He did leave and the police weren’t too far behind. I think they got them all.
But all the stories from people with ptsd is with stories that had a MAJOR effect on their life or something really bad happen or saw something, mine is just: “someone scared me once so now I get panicky sometimes when I’m home alone and I don’t feel safe any more” regardless of the fact I wasn’t really in any danger in the first place.
I probably experience so many different forms of trauma throughout my life with navigating disabilities, general experiences with life and people, so it wouldn’t surprise me if that experience broke the camels back a little.
I experienced delayed symptoms which is frankly really annoying and SERIOUSLY disrupted my ability to do online school (but I wasn’t aware of that at the time) and the symptoms seem to be gradually getting worse (I am working with someone so don’t worry!)
But my brain constantly keeps trying to compare the experience to everyone else’s and then tries to constantly tell me I was too weak minded, too sheltered and that having ptsd as a response of an honestly shit year let alone a bad experience that’s left me unable to truly feel safe in my own room let alone house, just isn’t a major enough of an event, regardless of if I know ptherwise.
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ptsd
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Hi, I’ve been waiting over a month for a neurologist appointment and still have to wait another few weeks. They think I might have MS and have been reading that a lot of symptoms of MS and ADHD are the same.
Is someone having ADHD common for people with MS? Is me having ADHD going to skew what they are looking for with the potential that I have MS?
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ADHD
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Quick background: I’m 42, divorced with two kids. And recently got out of a 2 year relationship with my fiancé. I left 10 days before we planned to get married. Struggled with ADHD my whole life. On and off meds. Currently back on them and trying Concerta. It’s only my first week on it but so far so good.
I know I had valid reasons to leave my fiancé.
But I can’t shake this idea that the symptoms that come with my ADHD caused me and both of my major relationships to fail. I would forget things all the time, truly forget. Things like bills I had to pay, and places I had to be. I’d always have this constant sense that I was completely overwhelmed which caused a short fuse and defensiveness. I tried to listen but couldn’t always give my full attention because of distractions. I’d be extremely sensitive to criticism like being called lazy or told I’m not treating them well. And I hate using ADHD as an excuse for this behavior because I feel like I’m trying to diminish my mistakes.
My wife left me for another man. And I feel like I pushed my ex fiancé to the point of a self fulfilled prophecy situation. I was so afraid of her leaving me like my wife I came up with reasons to leave her first.
Just struggling today. Glad I found this sub I’m already getting a lot from all of you.
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ADHD
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I’ve been diagnosed with OCD since 2019, the start of my senior year. It’s been a long healing journey, of which will truly never be over, but I still tend to struggle with my intrusive thoughts.
Although I’ve tackled my obsessive ritualistic compulsions, I haven’t conquered the other. I tend to believe I have pure OCD: a subtype that emphasizes more on the idea of instructs thoughts.
Although not debilitating, these thoughts do affect my personal life. I tend to have mood shifts when my intrusive thoughts get in the way, which can worsen my depression and anxiety. I feel like a burden to anyone around when everything gets to me. And although everyone assures me I’m anything but that, the guilt weighs me down.
Often, I go through episodes of OCD: one or two weeks I’m doing good, then the next I’m doing terrible. It’s a reoccurring process that has been happening for months now, and nothing really seems to help or prevent it (despite being on medication).
Does anyone else go through periods like that, where they’re feeling great about how they handle their ocd/instructive thoughts? Then before you know it your confidence comes tumbling down and your mind is your worst enemy?
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OCD
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