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I was diagnosed with complex PTSD, BPD, and other things a few years back. I have regular night-terrors on a near nightly basis. They're usually based around the same topics and groups of people and I wake up emotional, panicked, and often crying. I've had 2 years of psychotherapy and several years of meds but it doesn't seem to be diminishing.
Anyone have these on such a regular and long-term basis? Any coping strategies? Any way to better address or lessen them? I feel like I shouldn't be this used to them...
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I just want to be happy.
I am 19 years old, and I just want to be genuinely happy . Most of my friends don't really get it, and I envy them tbh. There are a lot of things to unpack here. Most of you won't even read it, but honestly, I don't really care.
First of all, when I was about five years old, I was sexually harassment by a friend of the family. He was around forty at the time. I wasn't raped, but I have vivid memories of him, grabbing my dick under the table, being really touchy etc. Then again, when I was 15, there was this girl (she was 24) who tried to actually rape me. I remember being super drunk, I was not into her, and she just put her entire body over mine (she was a chubby woman) and she was kissing my, trying to unzip my pants and holding me down. I made her leave me, by punching her pussy (you can laugh,it's funny). Anyway, because of that, now I am afraid to have sex with a woman.
Also, my mom used to beat me when I was a child. I have a habit of swearing, and she would frequently beat me up for that. She is the reason I am a very good liar. One day, she chased me in the house with a pair of scissors, so she could cut off my tounge. That bitch. The last time she hit me, I was about 16. I slapped her back. I think I love her, but it's rough loving her.
And, I know that my parents will never accept the fact that I am bisexual. They think I am straight, and for many years, I tried to force myself to be straight. I came out to my best friend, who is also bisexual, and I almost threw up while we had this conversation.
I just want to live my life. I want to leave my city. I want to have a normal, happy life. I am tired of being depressed. I am tired of having anxiety. I am tired of living.
FUCK! I JUST WANT THINGS TO BE OKAY!
My friends know about my depression. They help. I love them. I think they are the reason I am still alive.
I am afraid that someday, I will try to kill myself. They only think I have done so far is cut myself. But I am afraid that someday I am going to do it. I don't want to.
I want to live my life, the way I like it.
I wish for things to get better...
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I started taking vyvanse yesterday at 20mg, i’ve noticed that i feel a bit happier and relaxed but i still have no motivation to anything important like school work or working out. i have noticed that i lost the desire to binge eat when i take it but that’s about it. my psychiatrist prescribed it to
me for adhd and binge eating disorder when previously i was taking wellbutrin for 2 months and it did nothing. does vyvanse have like a certain time when it will start to work or does it seem i have to up my dosage?
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It’s 1 am and everyone is sleeping… a conflict happened in which was resolved easily through talking but I’m still left rattled and uneasy… i fucking hate having mental illnesses. I can’t sleep and have to be up in 4 hours. My stomach hurts and is churning and I have too many health problems and too much anxiety about everything ever. I really don’t think I was meant to live this long.
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Hello there,
Thanks for coming to my rant. I’m 23 and live in a remotish area of Utah. I was always fairly popular growing up. Never had problems making friends or finding joy in life through people. However recently moved to Utah after graduating college. Got an amazing job. However I have spent the last year alone besides the occasion family visit. Tried making friends etc. I’m fairly self aware and know I’m probably suffering from early parts of depression. But honestly at this point I’m filled with the is this it?mentality. Work,come home. Maybe watch tv or video games. Go to the gym couple times. And that’s it. Seems no matter what I try I’m not happy with my current situation. Doesn’t help I work almost always alone. So limited human interaction drives me mad. Also not being apart of the Mormon community I feel like a complete outcast. Any tips or tricks would be great.
PS. I think if I download one more app for making friends I think I’m going to go mad😂😂
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I’m not sure what else to say, I’m just kinda shaken up from it and I felt like people here could relate.
EDIT: Also, I have to admit that it goes deeper than that because the shirt is related to a special interest of mine that’s not as strong as it used to be. So I’m really freaking out because y’know, symbolism.
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aspergers
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I (18F) saw a photo of a guy earlier today. He was wearing a cool outfit and I was like ‘ah cool’. I clicked on his account to see how old he was and he was 14.
I’m not attracted to him, and I know that, and if there was ever even any brief thought of ‘huh he’s alright looking’ it was gone as soon as I saw his age, naturally, but yet I’ve not been able to stop fixating and worrying about it all day.
I’m not even certain I have OCD, but I fixate on and panic about things like this constantly and just wanted to get this off my chest somewhere, and I felt like this subreddit was the best place to post this, where there are perhaps people struggling with the same stuff who could maybe give advice on how to stop worrying/thinking like this.
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Got a eviction notice yesterday I really have been trying but everything is so expensive smh car not insurance rent those 3 things!! Idk what to do next I have 5 days to come up with 3000 dollars or me and my kids are homeless and I have no family husband left me smh life seems so uncertain I wish my kids had better they deserve better
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My 18yo adopted daughter has PTSD due to sexual abuse as a child at the hands of her father.
Tonight at work she was hit on by a man who was probably 30 years her senior. While she was ringing him up at the register, he asked if she had a boyfriend (she said “no” which is the truth), told her she was beautiful, then repeatedly told her to write her phone number down on the receipt she gave him. It really triggered her and she practically had a panic attack in the middle of her shift.
This is the first time she’s been hit on like this and she really didn’t know how to react, especially since her anxiety went through the roof almost immediately.
Any creative ideas for how she could plan to respond to a jerk like this the next time this happens?
She’s already planning to wear a ring on her left hand at work and respond by saying that she’s married if asked about a boyfriend.
We also suggested that if a guy like that asks her for her number again, that she might say something like, “I’ll give you my father’s number. He’s a cop.” and then write down 911 on the receipt.
Also, any suggestions for how to deal with a trigger like this? She recognizes that the guy made her think of her dad, but she’s not sure how to really interrupt the trigger from throwing her into a panic attack when something like this happens again.
Thanks!
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Definitely a personal question, but does anyone else have intrusive thoughts mixing with fantasy thoughts? I'll be honest, I try and fanasize about my girlfriend and it'll start with just normal sex thoughts but then it'll just get invaded by my OCD. I hate it! Does anyone go through similar things? Fantasies getting overtaken by intrusive thoughts?
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I can see an argument for both. But I think there are a lot of invisible challenges that come with presenting as society's assumedly default/dominant demographic groups: for example, people will read your requests for accommodation and/or clear communication as entitlement or a manifestation of you trying to exert power over other groups as an act of systemic (metaphorical, not literal) "violence". To put this in plainer words, your presence as an autistic individual bothering or confusing other people might be read as you being an un-aware person from a dominant/default/powerful group who isn't sensitive to other peoples'/groups' needs and who puts yourself (and implicitly, in other peoples' readings, the groups they can visibly *see* you belong to) first.
This is especially true of people trained in social theory or involved in various forms of social activism who will potentially pay lip service to respecting autistic people and neurodivergence or disability rights, but will often ignore it as a factor of communication and instead project their interpretation of societal power dynamics on to an ASD individual's words and actions in ways that might not necessarily reflect the realities of a situation.
What do you think? Does anyone here have experiences with this one way or the other?
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So I’ve always had issues with novelty in general. I can find almost any new topic or hobby extremely enjoyable for a very short amount of time, then I’ll drop it completely and move onto a new fixation. It’s very rare that I’ve found things I consistently enjoy. Which is usually ok except when it comes to sex.
No matter what I do in bed, I end up getting bored and dissociating. I’ve tried many different things that seemed exciting at first, but I quickly get bored and just want to get off and be done. I’m definitely not asexual or sex repulsed in any way but I’ve been with many men and none of them have kept my attention longer than a few minutes. I just end up going through the motions long enough to get us both off.
Does anyone else have this problem? How can I overcome this? I’m so tired of it
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How do you deal with non stimulating activities, for myself the lack of dopamine which I get from cooking, cleaning, completing work. All these activities instantly reduce my mood to a negative state.
For instance whilst I'm writing this question I'm totally absorbed by it however once I get up to complete a task I immediately feel all negative emotions. For scenario me doing something I enjoy stops the mental pain I experience.
I plan to discuss this with my Dr but It's really affecting how I feel and live due to the learned behaviour of avoiding things to keep my mind in a non negative state.
Is this typical for people with adhd?
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Last night i was just laying in bed trying to sleep & it just hit me really hard i did manage to get to sleep after like 4 hours of talking myself down but it didn’t go away when i woke up. I did manage to get some stuff today but rn it’s hitting hard again i don’t know whats wrong or how i can stop my brain. Please help
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I am currently in the process of getting my autism diagnosis at age 23, female. Ever since my psychiatrist mentioned they think I might have autism, a lof of things make sense to me. But, in my opinion, autism can not be used as some sort of excuse to behave in a certain way. I'm having a hard time accepting how I behave sometimes.
I've been living by myself for a few months now and most of the time everything went fine so far. Compared to when I still lived at my parents, where I would have a meltdown at least once a week, I'm doing much better now: I've had 3 meltdowns the past 4 months. But I just had the third meltdown today over a broken thermostat and I went completely crazy when the first tutorial didn't fix my problem and called my parents while having a panic attack and they helped me through the process of fixing the thermostat which fortunately works again now. But I feel really ashamed and bad that I blew up over something small like this and that in the end, I still need my parents to help me with trivial things like these...
This "unexpected event" completely drained all my energy and I had to cancel my plans today due to it. I feel like a failure due to overreacting and I am stuck in this feeling. I hope therapy will help me with this, but I need to go through some more testing first before they'll start therapy... Any tips on how to cope in the meantime?
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This is going to be a mess, sorry. I hope someone reads this… I feel so disconnected from the world as a result of isolating myself for so long that I just need people to know that I’m a real person who exists…
Im a 26 year old woman. I feel disgusting in my own skin.
I have two physical deformities, I have a weak chin which causes not only jaw headaches and jaw pain but I also can’t close my lips together naturally, when I force them together my chin looks huge and the wrinkled and my jaw looks clenched and more masculine looking.
I also have tuberous breasts. And not mild either, severe. Simply typing in “tuberous breasts” in google isn’t enough to find photos of breasts that look like mine, I have to type in “SEVERE tuberous breasts”, on top of that I’m a little overweight, most of the fat is in my stomach/hip area which, that along with my breasts make my whole upper body look disgusting and disproportionate.
I also have dreadful skin.
Blackheads/sebaceous filaments (can’t tell which) all over my face, acne scars everywhere, Hyperpigmentation around my mouth/nose/chin area even though I’m very light skinned everywhere else, and I have horrible dark circles under my eyes which are caused by genetics. I also have a huge forehead, my hairline isn’t receding but it looks like it is because of how far back it goes, a huge nose, those last two wouldn’t be a huge problem if it weren’t for all the other stuff on top of them.
Also, despite my parents being very loving, they had no fucking idea what they were doing when raising me. They didn’t teach me to eat healthy, I struggle allot with eating balanced meals.
I strongly suspect I have undiagnosed ADHD and possibly also dyscalculia because I could never understand math and still can’t. I did terribly In school and could never understand anything the teachers we’re teaching. I couldn’t focus and often daydreamed during class. Somehow the teachers never noticed I was having so much trouble and simply blamed me for not paying attention during class.
Also because I had a habit of losing interest in things quickly, my parents didn’t sign me up for anything I was interested in. I wanted to do gymnastic for years but they said I would just lose interest and it would be a waste of money. They had the same excuse for why I couldn’t learn martial arts too. I keep thinking how much healthier and in better shape I’d be now if they let me do those things. They never encouraged me to learn new skills either, and never made me study for school at home. Maybe if they had done that, they would have noticed I had trouble learning and concentrating. They helped me with my homework but that was it.
And that brings me to the worst part.
I was raped when I was a child by an older male family friend. He raped me and then told me that if I told anyone, the police would take my parents away and I’d never see them again and I of course believed him. I never told anyone and repressed the memory until a few years ago when I remembered everything.
Going back to my parents having no idea what they were doing. They somehow failed to notice the change in my behaviour after what happened. I refused to go near my rapist even though I use to be fine with him around, i didn’t want my parents to help me change clothes anymore, in fact I avoided taking my clothes off as much as possible, even avoided bathing allot, I also had angry outbursts. And they somehow didn’t fucking realise something was wrong!
As a result of the trauma, I developed a subconscious fear of intimacy that has only gotten worse since I remembered what he did to me. I also have vaginismus because of it. I’ve never had a relationship and I’m afraid I’ll never be able to have one because of my fear of intimacy. I mean not only am I afraid of intimacy, physically unable to have sex but on top of all of that I’m also downright ugly. So who the fuck would want to be with me? If I was traumatised but pretty, people would be more willing to be patient and caring with me and help me through it because people are more sympathetic to pretty people…Or the other way around, if I didnt have the trauma but was still ugly, I could make up for my looks by being good in bed. But I’m traumatised AND ugly so neither of those are options..
Even though I repressed the memory of what he did to me. I internalised the anxiety and fear of losing my parents if I told anyone. I’ve always had anxiety at the idea of talking about my problems and things that were bothering me as a result and I never understood why. My parents always told me I could tell them anything so I figured it wasn’t their fault I was like that, I thought there just something naturally wrong with me… until I finally remembered everything and it all made sense. I kept my school problems to myself, when I was getting bullied I kept it to myself, I kept my self esteem issues to myself. I eventually dropped out of high school and never got a job. I stayed at home, often sleeping through the day because I felt ugly in the daylight and could only stand to look at myself in dim lighting. I lost contact with my friends, who by the way use to bully me and call me ugly sometimes too and now the only friends I have are a handful of people I talk to on social media who have never seen what I look like properly except for one or two photos taken in low lighting. I crave friendship so much, real life friendship but I’m scared of people…. I have no social skills and I’m afraid of people thinking I’m ugly..
Back to my parents. They weren’t raised well either. My mum was emotionally abused and my dad was neglected. My Mum is narcissistic and has taken her anger out on me throughout my whole life which fed into the anxiety I already had about talking about my problems. My dad failed me as a parent, he didn’t know what he was doing, he was and still is incredibly loving and has never hurt me or yelled at me like my mom but he still failed me. I know they both tried their best but their best simply wasn’t good enough, not even close. The only thing that wasn’t their fault was that man raping me, but even then they should have realised something was wrong afterwards. If they had, I could have gotten the help I needed sooner. Even though my physical deformities aren’t their fault, sometimes I can’t but think I wouldn’t have to deal with them at all if I had just never been born… so sometimes on the really bad days I resent my parents for having me.. and then I feel terrible for thinking that.
I’ve never seen a therapist and even though I want to, I also don’t think it would help. I don’t just need therapy, I need plastic surgery to fix my physical problems, which I’ll never be able to afford. I’ll never get a job that pays well enough. Speaking of jobs, I feel so hopeless. I have no talents or skills or an education. I don’t want to be around other people, I’m scared of talking to people and I’m scared of being judged for my appearance. I don’t wear makeup so I can’t even hide my disgusting skin let alone my ugly jaw/chin.
Back onto relationships. I’m bisexual but I feel like I’ll never be able to be happy with anyone, man or women. I have sexual trauma from that man, which makes me feel like I’ll never be able to be in a sexual relationship with a man. However, I have emotional trauma from women. My mom, first of all, but also all of the people who bullied me throughout my childhood and teens were girls. Some were even my friends, they would pretend to be nice to me and then backstab me that same day, talk about me being my back and spread rumours about me. A couple of boys were mean to me occasionally but they were the boys who bullied everyone, they didn’t target me specifically like the girls did and if the boys wanted to bully me they just did, they called me mean names and that was it, they didn’t gain my trust first and then turn on me like the girls did. As a result, I have trouble befriending women, I get along with men much easier.
So basically… I trust men as friends but have sexual trauma that would make it hard to be in a sexual relationship with one. So even though I might have better luck in a sexual relationship with a woman I have trouble befriending and trusting women because of emotional trauma from my mom and the bullies….
I feel so fucking broken. Mentally, emotionally, physically… why did all of this happen to me??
I want to ask “why ME” but if it wasn’t me, I’d be someone else and no one deserves this.
Terrible genetics that lead to bullying which lead to low self esteem. Sexual abused that resulted in deep, life long trauma. And parents who, apparently, come from lousy families and who had children of their own despite the fact they clearly shouldn’t have… I feel terrible for saying those things about them because I know they love me with their entire hearts.. but they have their own traumas which influenced how their patented me…it’s a vicious cycle. I still live with them and they’re so patient with me but I can’t help but feel like they unintentionally and indirectly caused allot of my pain…
I don’t know where I’m going with this. I’ve never opened up about any of this to anyone, I’ve been lurking on reddit for a while but never created an account but I had to get this off my chest. I’ve been feeling very desperate lately, desperate to feel like I have some chance of living a normal, happy life but I just don’t think I do. I think I’m too fucked up, and too far gone mentally and emotionally to be able to fix it at this point. I don’t want to die, but I don’t want to live either. I don’t want to live as ME, in this body and with this mind… I want to be someone else…
To be honest, I think my appearance is the worst of them all… even though the sexual trauma is horrific. If looks weren’t so important in the world, I’d be able to find someone to love me despite my other problems. I don’t want people to lie to me and say I’m beautiful just to make me feel better. I know I’m not very good looking. I don’t want fake compliments. I want someone to tell me “sure, maybe you’re not very physically attractive by societies beauty standards, but you’re still worth loving,” and genuinely mean it.
And yet, because of all the other trauma… I think I’d still be too scared to try to start a relationship with someone even if they did tell me that.
Even just friends would be a good start. Not the ones on the internet whose opinion of my might change if they knew what I looked like. Friends who know me inside and out and still like me…
I think I’m a nice person… im not perfect but no one is, I have my flaws aside from just being socially awkward but I think I also have a good sense of humour, I like helping people, im friendly…I feel like there’s allot about me to like, if people could just see past my appearance.. and also give me a chance to come out of my shell instead of backing away as soon as they realise how awkward I am with new people.
Like I said… there are too many things that need fixing…. How do you fix so many broken things….
Am I going to be in therapy my whole life? Assuming I ever start going in the first place? Probably. Am I going to have allot of failing friendships and relationships? Assuming I can even get to the point of trying, also probably. Am I going to be 60 years old by the time I finally feel ok? I will have wasted my whole life.
I don’t want to be struggling my entire life… I want to be happy…
If you’ve read this whole thing, thank you. I don’t want false promises that things will get better, I don’t want anyone to say I’m probably not as ugly as I think I am… I just want people to acknowledge me as how I am… ugliness and all… I want people to know that I’m a real person with a real life and real feelings who really exists out there in the world.
Please be kind to people… the world is a beautiful place which is why I don’t want to leave yet but it’s also so incredibly cruel. It's getting harder and harder for me to find reasons to keep holding on. I just want to be treated like a real person, not some ugly, broken monster that’s fun to make fun of..
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Hello, I’ve been on meds since march (24m). I’ve had a week in between me finishing a degree and starting a new one, so I wanted to celebrate as much as possible and take a break from meds.
This is the first time I’ve had a long break. During the break I’ve just felt constantly dazed, off topic, not messaging friends, forgetting to shower, brush teeth even spending habits seemed to have gotten worse… the list goes on.
My question is was I like this before medication?? Or am I having some sort of withdrawal due to having a break and I am operating at a lower level??
Thank you for reading, I look forward to hearing your thoughts/ experiences.
PS - I’m back on meds starting the new course and just a bit upset that the first 24 years of my life was without medication.
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Hi, lurker here.
Just to preface this, in my country there is no diagnostic procedure for ADHD and there are no treatments either, so I haven't been diagnosed, but I strongly suspect I have it, and a family member has been diagnosed abroad. I am taking no pills of any sort.
Most of the time I suffer from time blindness. It has ruined my day on more than one occasion. But, there are some days when it is just gone, and not just time blindness, but I also feel no resistance to focus, no resistance to study, I find conversations normal and easy and so on. I have no idea what causes this, but every once in a while, it happens and I feel normal. But I've never seen it mentioned anywhere so I'm wondering, does this happen to you? Have you figured out what causes it? Would you mind sharing?
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Don't know if this is the best place to post but I thought I should look for advice here and maybe get some support.
I smoked weed and the first time I overdosed and got paranoia and panic attacks, few times after that I smoke little and was perfectly fine. Sometime after I smoke again and got the paranoia and creeping fear etc. All typical. I was fine after that for two weeks
Then the other night I look up panic attacks in weed and find this guys story of how he got schizophrenia or symptoms of it and I got shit scared and got a panic attack and just intrusive thoughts. Since then (2 days ago) I keep overthinking and sometimes goes down a hole and get scared and shaking. I've experienced this before when I'm scared. Just adrenalin I guess because my body is shivering and I'm just scared.
I don't think there is actually anything wrong with me. But just scared. I've decided not to touch weed and I can calm myself. I can go all day mostly fine but here just now I was watching TV and started thinking about it and got scared.
I think I'll be fine but just need time to realise I'm not in danger. Should I visit doctor or do you think it's ok?
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I can’t make my ocd go away anymore lately without it being super noticeable and making me have way more attempts to satisfy my ocd thoughts. I feel like it’s only getting worse and soon I won’t be able to function at all. Does anyone else feel like it’s harder to get rid of the thoughts they could once stop right away?
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I can't deal with coworkers, after years of dealing with bullying at another workplace I'm now unraveling at my current job because of signs of disrespect and my already blowing up over stuff. I need out, but it pays 20/hr part time. I have a bachelor's from a good school and should be doing better, but I dont care anymore.
I wanna freelance or go my own way working from home. Has anyone else did that successfully?
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I was at a friend's place until really late the other night, like 4am, for a birthday. I called an uber and forgot to check that I didn't want to walk, so even though her neighborhood is really nice I ended up having to walk and wait on this semi sketchy big road
Uber is taking longer than expected and a man yells over that he wants to talk to me, I shake my head and he presses but I wave him off and he went away briefly.
A few minutes pass, my uber hasn't moved (it's waiting on another pickup) and I hear the guy yell "Miss! Miss!" I ignore him but he starts coming to me and I get scared. He starts calling me beautiful and says he'll call me a cab and I say I have one coming and I start to call my friend because I feel like hey my chances of being murdered lessen if I'm on the phone.
He starts pleading with me to talk to him and saying he loves me and reaches his hand out and asks me to take it and I say no ans he just keeps inching closer to try and touch me. I say no again, I'm on the phone with my friend but I don't want to talk about this guy while he's right there.
This guy starts accusing me of thinking he's dirty, and continues insisting I touch him. My uber finally comes and I cry in the car to my friend until I'm okay to hang up.
At work yesterday I thought I was okay but then I just kept having random breakdowns throughout the day. I don't have any meds for it and it's making it hard to function.
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I have two assignments due today, one 500 words and another of 12 slides which require in-depth notes alongside each slide. I also have my first psychiatrist appointment today (I've been somewhat diagnosed by an educational psychologist but this isn't a full diagnosis, unfortunately). I have barely done any work, it's 6 am and I woke up at 3 am to start and I haven't even written a single word.
Bear in mind, I'm also extremely behind on various other assignments but I just can't add to the pile and this is a new tutor teaching us business (uni) AND it's in front of my entire class. lol
Can someone please help with any advice that helps them avoid over ruminating and avoiding out because of stress? This is so unbearable. I feel like this is literally the cycle of my life and I have no idea how to stop being like this:(
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For context, a year and a half ago I was seeing a therapist and we both suspected that I had some sort of attention disorder, however when my parent found out the therapy stopped. I recently got a job with some savings and was wondering if as a minor if there would be a way to go through the process of getting diagnosed
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ive never done good in school. ive only ever just gotten by with my grades. i was even pulled out of school in 4th grade because i was failing and was homeschooled from then on until my freshman year of high school. i just can’t do it, that’s what it feels like, it feels like when i go to school im just a joke. i was diagnosed with adhd when i was 9 years old and it has evidently gotten 100x worse since then.
this year has been the worst year of my life. it’s been an absolute embarrassment. i can’t say i haven’t been trying because i have been i just completely had some sort of long, drawn out breakdown. it all seems like carelessness but i can assure you, it wasn’t, i genuinely felt awful about all of this and just wanted to be normal. i haven’t gone a week to school without missing a day, being late by hours or leaving hours early. i had such bad anxiety at the beginning of this year that i could barely leave my house without having a panic attack and still have panic attacks daily at school. i missed so much school that my parents were called multiple times. im failing both my college classes, one of which is a core class, history. the professor for that class despises me and takes attendance grades so that just drops my grade down so much more. everyone knows me as “the kid who’s never at school”. i lost all my friends. i don’t know what ill do about my grades or if i fail. this is all just a nightmare and i don’t feel like i can be happy anymore with all of this going on. my anxiety is just absolutely awful and unbearable. my teachers are constantly mad at me. the staff is always on my ass.
there’s this thing my school has, it’s like an early graduation program, it’s like you get your core credits and graduate really fast but i would just hate to go to that. everyone talks so bad about it and i want to graduate with everyone else so i can feel like i accomplished something. so i can feel like it was all worth it. my parents are wanting me to do this program but i just really don’t want to. plus if i started now, i would have to completely restart the semester because i don’t have my fall credits yet. but im worried that ill fail some core classes this semester. this is all just a nightmare and i feel stuck. i don’t understand how everyone does it. keeping up with school just seems impossible. life seems impossible. i just don’t get it. how am i supposed to handle this and how is everyone else handling it so well? why do i struggle so much with the most basic things? it’s all just so hard and i hate it. i can’t do things like everyone else.
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This isn't really ADHD related, but I didn't know where else to go.
I have a friend who's been having trouble with social relationship for years. He has a tendency to overthink things and think everyone is against him.
Everytime I see him he tells me about how awful it is at work, how everyone is against him... The truth is, even though I only have his version of the stories, I'm feeling more and more that HE is the problem.
I know he had a troubled youth and that life hasn't been easy for him, but when I'm hanging out with him he is quite hard to live with. As if he were always on edge and you had to tiptoe your way through the conversation not to cause trouble (I got him crying without warning about some everyday subjects).
What I'm getting at is : I've had this new job recently, where I've been asked to recommend somebody. I instantly gave my friend's contact info, only to be told : "I know this guy. No offense but I don't want to work with him anymore, he's created problems with everyone in the office."
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So my question is : how do I talk to him about this ? I want him to seek help, see a psychiatrist or smth (I did so myself and it helped me a ton). yet I can't see myself coming up to him and say : "hey, you torpedoed your career by angering all your coworkers, please get help."
How do I approach this ?
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tldr : I need to tell a friend to seek help about his problematic behavior at work, but don't know how.
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ADHD
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The stereotype is aspies talking for hours about obscure interests, but I'm the opposite. idk why I've always been like this, but I freeze up or answer something really vague and generic when asked what I'm interested in, what I do with my time, even stuff like what games or music I'm into. I think I'm terrified of being judged, and I guess on some level I'm ashamed of myself and feel like a pathetic boring person. I find it super humiliating if I say something and people have a "wtf" type reaction, which I feel has happened loads, and those things stick with me.
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aspergers
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Is it me or recently I’ve been getting sexual thoughts towards my family. Especially towards my cousin who I want to look as cousin/sister deep down but it’s like I don’t want to look her as that and I check myself how do I view her as a cousin or a girlfriend.
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OCD
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It has taken me seven years to come to grips with everything that has happened.
I have been raped by three different men at three different times over the past seven years, and I have struggled with so much because of it. I finally decided to make it all public yesterday. I published an article through medium explaining every single thing that happened, and I used their names. I identified them, and now most of my social circle has read the article.
I'm not afraid anymore. They can try to sue me for defamation; they can try to threaten me. But they've already made my life a living hell. They can't do much more. And frankly, if they try to bring this to court, I'm so ready. I have plenty of people standing behind me who can attest to what I'm saying. I have text records. I have journal entries. I have my therapists, my psychiatrists, and more.
These three men caused me to develop PTSD because they decided they could take advantage of me. It's time that they took responsibility for their actions. I'm not carrying this burden anymore.
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ptsd
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TL;DR: I suspect I have ADHD, (please read my symptoms section), and want to know your opinion as I anxiously wait for my results. I understand if this is too much to read, so if it is too much, please just read the "symptoms" and the "getting help" sections.
When I was younger, I never suspected that I could have ADHD because we were only ever taught about the hyperactive ADHD. But over the past 2/3 years, I've had friends tell me they think I have ADHD, and have since done research and a lot of the symptoms have resonated with me. This is going to be pretty lengthy so I'll section off and **bold** each section.
**My Childhood**
As a child, I was considered a "gifted" kid, when in reality, I was smart but never applied myself fully to my school work. I was only able to excel and make it through school (up into late high school), because the content was very easy to understand and didn't have much homework (I never did my homework). I was always a pretty socially anxious, and just anxious in general child. I was also deeply afraid of failure because of the extreme expectations my parents had for me. It began going downhill around my sophomore year of high school, me never doing my homework, or studying outside of school caught up to me, and I felt EXTREMELY guilty about it. My teachers would get frustrated with me for always shaking my leg, and I had multiple meetings with my teachers regarding my lack of effort. My anxiety began worsening extremely around this age too. I will get more into depth about my symptoms in another section. Honestly, I don't have much memory of my childhood due to my depression kinda blocking it out.
**My relationship with my parents**
Me not doing well in school put an EXTREME strain on my relationship with my parents (who come from Sudan, where they don't really believe in mental health issues if they are not extreme), so I was always pretty good at masking and lying to them. I fell into a deep depression in high school, due to a lot of reasons including this. The only one in my family who seemed to understand was my brother, the rest of my family lashed out at me for being "lazy", "uncaring", "selfish", and more. There have been multiple heated arguments where my brother would be angry at my family for their lack of understanding and the way they treated me, and my parents would argue back. They would say things like "you shouldn't care for her depression," , "she's just being dramatic and lazy." There were even times I essentially wrote my dad an essay as a cry for help and instead of worrying about me, my dad told me to "never bring up my depression again." Although I still live with them, I can't help but resent them for the way they treated me, which I feel guilty for. Their love is very conditional and it sucks. Our relationships gotten so bad to the point to where I can barely hold a 3 minute conversation past small talk with them anymore, and I go days without seeing them although we live together.
**Why I suspect I have ADHD; my Symptoms**:
1. CONSTANT feeling of being overwhelmed/restless, feel like I'm on the constant brink of an anxiety attack
2. Extreme difficulty maintaining relationships/friendships
1. even procrastinate texting people back and never end up doing it
3. Whenever I socialize i feel like I'm putting on a "persona", never feel like myself
4. Constant feeling of guilt
5. Feelings of inadequacy/ low self esteem, feel like a burden
6. Fidget A LOT
7. VERY forgetful
1. I buy things "I need" and forget to ever use them and that I have them
2. I write down reminders just to forget to look at them again
8. Daily tasks seem impossible
1. Takes ALOT of mental energy just to get myself to brush my teeth or even EAT, and other such normal tasks
9. Requires a lot of mental preparation to do anything (eat, hygiene, socialize, etc.) feel paralyzed to my bed almost
10. EXTREMELY disorganized, my room is a mess and I hate it but can't get myself to clean it
11. Seem like I don't care, when in reality I care too much.
12. My internal pressure to be a perfectionist prevents me from getting anything started
13. Give up on hobbies very quickly (painting, crocheting, etc)
14. daydream A LOT, extremely hard to focus
15. have been times where I drove all the way to the library, just to not be able to focus and end up getting frustrated and go back home.
16. Extreme and frequent mood swings
17. Can't keep a job for long
18. EXTREMELY hard to fall asleep, usually takes around 2 hours.
19. Sensory issues (mostly hearing sensitivity)
20. Hyperfixate on foods (go weeks only eating one food), music, etc
21. EXTREME procrastinator, or just don't end up doing it at all.
22. Get overwhelmed in crowded places
23. Difficulty following instructions
24. Get told I talk fast, sometimes slur words.
25. Impulsive spender
26. Terrible memory
**College**
I began college in fall 2020, so it was fully online for my first two semesters due to COVID. Although I struggled my first semester of college, I was still deeply afraid of failure so I managed to pass all my classes. My second semester however, I became extremely depressed once again due to my symptoms of ADHD making it extremely difficult for me to do the simplest tasks and I was tired of trying, (listed above), and ended up failing 3 classes. Now this semester, it has become even harder now that it's back to in-person classes. I'm failing all of my classes now, and feel extremely stuck. I've gotten used to lying my parents my whole life, so they think I'm currently doing well in my classes.
**Getting Help**
I've been wanting to get help ever since I was younger for my anxiety and depression, but I knew my parents would never let me, so I had to wait till I was 18 and had a car to get myself help. I've always gaslighted myself, and had difficulty getting myself to do anything so it took me a year to finally muster up the energy to get myself help. I just got tested for ADHD 2 days ago, and I can't help but feel extremely anxious waiting for my results. I just want to feel validated. I just want to know what you guys think about my situation, and if you have any advice for me. I would love to know any opinions you guys have. Also, **do you guys think I have ADHD based on the symptoms I listed???(not asking for medical advice, just opinions)** Thank you for taking the time to read this, it truly does mean the world to me. :)
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I know immaturity can be a symptom of ADHD and I wonder how this manifests in others.
I always feel really weird and in between with myself. While I struggle with controlling my emotions, I think it’s made me more emotionally mature. I know how to self reflect and I think I’ve learned good communication skills. I’m always the one working out issues with my roommates and I think I’ve learned how to express my feelings. Often times I see the way other people treat each other and it floors me because I feel like adults are acting like teenagers.
ON THE OTHER HAND my personality is absolutely childish. I’m 31 and struggle with adult responsibilities and I definitely dress like a teenager or early 20s adult. I feel like I often blurt things out and express my feelings in a weird way when I’m mad or excited.
Anyone else have similar experiences? A certain amount of emotional maturity (granted this doesn’t mean I control my emotions well) but a struggle with other kinds of maturity?
Not so much looking for advice just curious about others feelings/experiences on this.
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ADHD
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don’t get me wrong, i love breaks from school but not having a daily routine makes things SO difficult!! i’ve been on winter break and kind of struggling due to a lack of structure, you’d think that as someone with adhd i’d be dealing the opposite issue (TOO much structure and no freedom) but nope. maybe this would be better on an autism related subreddit😅
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ADHD
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This is how sinister OCD is, you learn to cope with thoughts as just being thoughts and not who you are
so real event comes in and warps your memories and goes “but it is who you are! see? here’s the examples” and it feels harder to ignore than the original intrusive thoughts and you constantly relive events and try to remember every detail to know if you are bad or not for sure when you never will. You’ll ask people for reassurance about things but will never be satisfied.
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OCD
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I’m also prescribed Paxil, along with Adderal XR, which has saved my life, marriage, relationships all together. Soooo thankful I bit the bullet and treated my adhd. I was in denial for a long time.
This Q is for those who take an SSRI - I take mine at dinner, which my doctor recommended as it “can” make some people sleepy. So he thought it may help in terms of winding down…
My sleep is suuuuper broken up right now. It’s really annoying and I’m wondering if maybe after 6 weeks or so on the Paxil it’ll be a side effect that goes away - but for those that also use an SSRI along with adderal do you find taking them in the morning has any impact on the efficacy of your adhd med?
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ADHD
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I have a problem where, although I am a Heteroromantic Asexual, and I was never attracted to men, I am scared that I might be because every time I make a glance at one, I get a weird feeling in my chest, same as glancing at my male friends. I am sure it is nothing to be worried about, but given that I am unable to identify how I feel lots of times, I worry that it is romantic attraction, even though such a thing disgusts me. In addition, I have been having a habit where, I make sure I only think about women, since I was only comfortable around them, and I only feel comfortable around them because I know they are less judgmental and all. I just want to know, what is the feeling in my chest when around friends?
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OCD
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Hello. I am F27. When I was 12 we found out that my mom was a pathological liar who has lied about practically everything: It all started when se wanted to divorce my dad, apparantly because she had gotten uncurable cancer that she would die of within three months, and she did not wish for us that we should experience this, so she left. This was obviously a gigantic shock for all of us, and my 12 year old world-view shattered completely. Especially because we did not even get to say goodbye before she just left. But the story quickly fell apart: Apparently, my mom had moved to another man's place whom she had met at work, and they started writing this online blog together about how their new-found love gave my mom the joy to live and saved her life and miraculously cured her cancer. Imagine reading this when you are 12 years old and your mom has stopped contact: That some complete stranger's love can cure her disease and give her the will to live, but her family and her children can't.... My dad's mental health went to complete shit: He lost 12 kilos and was basically physically grey in the skin for a year or so afterwards. As we started looking into my mom's history everything more or less fell apart: She always told us she was a medical doctor - she would even stand up on the airplane if they asked for a doctor because someone felt really bad once when we were flying somewhere, she used her 'medical background' to apply for jobs and so on. It turned out she never even got into medical school. Her last name was a lie, a lot of her background history was a lie and on and on. When I talked to her and confronted her with all of this, she basically threw me out of her life and said that if I cannot trust her, we have nothing to build a relationship on.
I have always had kind of sub-clinical OCD (it runs in the family) but it basically exploded in the years after this, combined with bulimia - I thinkt the whole 'I have no idea who my mom is and she doesn't care about me' was too much for my soul to take at that age. And my dad, whom I have always been really close to, was just broken. i have never seen a man so truly soul-shattered. And my little-sister developed full-blown paranoid schizophrenia (she probably would have no matter what, as it runs in the family and she had signs of it even before this, but the whole thing with my mom definitely didn't make anything easier). My sister has had countless suicide-attempts in these past years, and I have always been her primary support-person. My dad tries to help too, but they are very different from each other and not so close.
Anyway, these past few years my mental health finally cleared up a bit, I got my eating disorder under control and have a (mostly) normal relationship to food now although holidays are still rough. I met an amazing guy who I got married to, I finished my education and got a stable job, and we now have a beautiful, healthy son of 11 months who is just the joy of my life. For the first time since my mom left, things are rather normal and actually sort of good. But now it is like my brain just will not accept that life can actually be good without something being deeply wrong - like when my mother suddenly pulled the rug under my fairly normal and nice upbringing. My brain simply doesn't buy it after all these years of lying and drama and broken family relations and suicide attempts and eating disorder/OCD and what not. So my OCD has basically exploded like never before, telling me that this life is just not real, because this is simply too good to be true. My OCD tries to convince me of themes like solipsism / brain in a vat or any other hypothesis that would mean that this wonderful life is not really real - it can't be, because it is too good to be true. Deep down I think this has something to do with me being so scared of 'letting go' and enjoying life, as it is over-learned for me that chaos and crisis and broken dreams are just around the corner, and if everything seems nice and peaceful, something MUST be wrong.
Anyway... This was a long way to the point. I obviously have consulted my doctor for medication and also see a therapist, but none of them have said the obvious thing that I need to hear the most (and I will talk to both of them about this, of course): "*You are not alone in some weird sci-fi scenario. You are right here in a body in this life with these people, and I am right here with you, and I am real"*. I deeply need some reassurance here, no matter how weird this sounds, as I am going through a really rough time with dissociation and derealisation at the moment. I know we are not aloud to seek reassurance as it feeds 'the monster'. However, I do find it somewhat absurd if we are not aloud to hear words of comfort once or something like that, like everybody else needs as well. If you do not want to give reassurance, I understand :-) If you have anything else to contribute in support or comments or whatever, that is much appreciated as well.
Love to everyone <3 I am rooting for you all through this crazy roller-coaster of OCD.
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OCD
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sometimes I have tics where I say something like im gonna kill myself, hurt myself or stab myself (it’s random) when I’m stressed under my breath and someone’s heard it on a call once and i just want to ask if there’s anything I can do to combat these (note: i am not actually suicidal, tics sucks)
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aspergers
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Does anyone else get really upset when you label someone as important in your life but they don’t do the same. I have a best friend, who I can genuinely say is my best friend and I told her that but when I was at dinner with her tonight she said “I call everyone my best friend”…I don’t know to feel about that because I don’t go around saying that to everyone. Then when I jokingly looked at her shocked, she quickly tried to take back her remark but I’m really good at reading people and catching BS, so I knew she was honest when she made that statement. Idk I feel like this is ongoing pattern in my life and i just feel like im always an afterthought or second choice whether it be relationships or friendship, and I can’t help that if fucks with my psyche. Should I feel some type of way about this or let it go…?
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depression
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showered, exfoliated & did my skincare had 3 meals (ensure max protein drink , cheese omelette and leftover roasted chicken and ice cream )walked 2 miles, Did lectures, put clean sheets on my bed (was gonna organize my room but didn’t cause Cleaning my room and vacuuming it took a little of my energy lol I said tomorrow I will ) and I just finished working out in my room . I also scheduled a hair appointment to get my hair braided next week .
I made myself a promise to make a change in my habits and lifestyle this month and won’t wait until New Years . I prayed and cried begging god to help me I don’t want depression to continue affect my daily life the past 2months was hell from getting out of a abusive relationship and him going to prison I completely lost myself to the point I would do nothing but lay in my bed wishing I was no longer here I already lost myself about 4 years ago this is it I gotta show up for myself and be there for me .
I feel so good I didn’t touch my bed all day or lay in it . I sat at my kitchen table and got on my phone when I needed to rest . I will fight depression and won’t let it continue to have hold over my life . I feel great and I want to stay consistent with this 😩
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depression
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So, I'm definitley different.. limited interests but very obsessive over them... good communication skills but sometimes struggle listening to others, my memory is very temperamental and although I have done very well academically, I feel like things take longer for my brain to process. Also I'm very self critical and this causes anxiety and depression... I love doing things with other people but only if I trust that personal and find many social situations awkward and unenjoyable.. I feel like I just don't fit in a lot of the time... I did an online multiple choice questionnaire which said I have a high likelihood of being aspie... also was investigated as a child after a teacher pointed to my mother that i was very intelligent but that 'something was not right'.
Unfortunately my mother didn't take me to follow up appointments. They initially found that I had fine motor skills issues but was above normal intelligence. They were going to do further investigation as they suspected something was not right but it ended there. Since then however I've gone through a rollercoaster life. Had an eating disorder and severe depression for years and wouldn't leave the house. Now I've turned my life around and I'm fit and athletic, achieving in university, held down a job for 7 years and am very ambituous. I still struggle socially with certain things don't like letting people get too close and struggle to hold down relationships past a year or so, often people will say I don't listen, but I do try my hardest and don't notice myself doing it. I still can't tie shoe laces properly even though I've tried many methods..
I'm a good person, but I'm so different. I wish I had more people I could relate too.
Is it worth pursuing a diagnosis? Will it affect my ability to work as a health care professional? And sorry for the long description.
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aspergers
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I'm not old enough to do the Ritvo test and I have a feeling it is related to privacy so I don't want to lie. Anyone know alternatives or if I could just say I'm 17 instead.
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aspergers
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I have struggled with anxiety/ocd for a while, but these past few months have been the absolute peak worst times for my OCD thoughts / tendencies as of late.
I do my best to go against them, and reassure myself that in the end it’s just my thoughts. But that’s also really scary for my anxiety, because it latches onto the fear aspects if I go against whatever OCD thought / action is saying or doing.
- TL/DR: I’m really trying to find more (or even better) ways to help cope with this, and so I can get back on normal track again, at least somewhat, mentally.
If you guys have any tips or would like to vent about your own experiences / stories down below, please do!! Thank you.
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OCD
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I have a small trash can in my bathroom, but it really makes me want to scream seeing anything in it! Like, it's there for guests only lmao
My bf's family wipes their ass and puts the dirty toilet paper in the trash can for the whole world to see what color shit they took. Whenever I first spent the night there, I was disgustedddd!! I know it's better for the plumbing and whatever, but I never knew people actually did that. I'm so happy my bf doesn't, but he prob doesn't cuz he knows it disgusts me. Does this stem from that whole trash can experience? Lol! Is anyone the same way or am I just traumatized??? 😂
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OCD
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I cant Viking funeral. Mountains and Caribbean are to far away. Im done.
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depression
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You know the cycle, meet someone, get super excited and into them, they're the true love of your life. Finally you move past a few dates and you're the best couple ever. 1 month later you're bored and can't wait to leave so you can engage in the latest hobby... rheyre still great, but the spark has disappeared...
Any advice on how to deal with this? If nothing else to keep it all in proportion!
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ADHD
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Has anyone taken huperzine a instead of a stimulant? Someone mentioned it to me recently and I don’t have the attention span to figure out if it’s worth a shot in place of stimulant meds, even if only once or twice a week to take a few days off meds. Or if you have another magic cure for adhd that works as well as a stimulant, id love to hear it… I am worried about my brain health long term on stims. Thanks in advance pals!
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ADHD
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Hello. This is my first post.
Like all of you, I struggle from PTSD. I was given up for adoption as a baby and was adopted into a family with a bpd and narcissist mother and an emotionally unavailable father. I was born premature, as a result, I had to deal with a number of issues. Kids took notice and bullied me in school for my difference. I was home schooled during my high school years because of how bad it affected me.
I got my first boyfriend at 19 who was both emotional and sexually abusive. Things ended after he told me he never had feelings for me after I asked him about our future. Shortly after that, I met a manipulative person who called himself a friend. I didn’t notice it at the time but he was sexually abusive towards me too. I was sexually assaulted both at my internship and in a client’s house. Years later, I made an error in judgement and forgave the “friend” who hurt me. “friend” came back into my life as my (current) boyfriend and I had a bad argument and decided to take a break. “Friend” took it upon himself to r*pe me when I went to visit him in another state. His excuse was we were both single at the time, and so it was okay in his eyes. I kicked him out of my life.
Both of my adopted parents died in 2014, 3 months apart. Even though they had their issues, it was a very painful experience for me. They were the only family I knew. I was able to find both of my bio mother and father and able to find out the truth about everything.
In 2018, I got into a terrible car accident with my sister driving. She walked away unharmed, but since the car slammed into the passenger side, which is where I sat. I have chronic pain everyday from the accident. I have spinal injuries and disc problems that will follow me my whole life. My sister stopped talking to me after I reached out to a lawyer for legal medical advice. The day after the car accident, I found out my bio father died unexpectedly from a heart attack.
My boyfriend and I eventually got back together. We’ve been going strong since 2006 (minus the little hiccup in 2009) We live together with 2 of our fur babies Patches and Spooky. Life hasn’t been easy for me, but I hope as a member of this community, I can help others feel not alone and give helpful advice and tips.
Thank you for letting me be part of this group. If this post by any means is unacceptable, I’m sorry. I wanted to make an introduction to the community.
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ptsd
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I have an appointment in February for an evaluation. I've already talked to the psychiatrist about my history. This appointment is 3 hours of testing which seems very short for what I've been told to expect and from what I've read online. Does anyone have any insight?
As a side note, I'm a little scared about not testing positive because then there's nothing to explain all the idiosyncrasies and "problems" that I've been experiencing.
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ADHD
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Okay so like, guys I respect my girlfriend more than anyone or anything else in my life. I would never purposefully ignore her and sometimes I’ll be really invested in something, like reading something, or deep in something I’m working on, or sometimes even invested in a dumb tiktok, and I won’t hear her, like, at all.
I don’t mean this whatsoever. I was on Ritalin for years as a child and eventually put on the “patch” treatment also. (Can’t remember the name of it even though I took it for years)
Anyway, I know I have issues with this sometimes, and she knows this too, and usually I do well listening for the most part, but these moments where she gets so upset about it seem to be really important to her and idk how to fix it.
Literally tonight she was talking to me she said for 2-3 minutes while I was into my computer and I never heard a word she said and I think it really hurt her but idk how to explain to her that I would never do that on purpose….
Any feedback?
SN: I’m not currently on any ADHD meds rn nor have been for a very long time…I wonder if this could be helped if I went back on them? :(
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ADHD
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I do this a lot where I feel like I’m on the edge of my seat during a conversation and if I’m not able to say what I want to say, I feel unsatisfied. I’m trying to work on this because I do think that it comes off as me trying to control the conversation and it’s a little off putting.
I try so hard to wait patiently and let others finish their point but then when the topic is changed and I never get the chance to say what I wanted to say, I get a little bit upset. I know I need to be more present.
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ADHD
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I can’t stand not being the best. I suffer from imposter syndrome. I compare myself to every single person I think is slightly better than me in any way. I always convince myself people are going to find someone better than me and realise I’m worthless, that’s with both work and my personal life. I never used to be like this. There was a time where I didn’t give a shit about my life at all and didn’t care if people perceived me as a loser because I wanted to be dead anyway so what did it matter. But now this is like a whole different kind of hell I’m putting myself through.
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depression
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I swear I feel like I'm watching a beam get bent in half and its on its way to splintering apart. It feels like a constant tension that builds throughout the day and the best relief for it would be for shit to start popping off again.
For background, my issues stem from a ISIS inspired attack from a few years ago. That sense of quiet turned into immediate chaos is something I'll never forget and its driving me nuts. I feel like I'd almost be *rewarded* for all of the energy I sink into the constant vigilance by finding myself in a similar situation again - like all of this effort has me primed to perform and I'm chompingat the bit. The best explanation I can think of is that sinking all of that energy and brain power into the paranoia was worth because *this time* I'm ready for it. I will not be caught off guard again.
It gets really old.
Like, really old.
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ptsd
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Hey guys first time I’m ever posting, I just can’t make it what is happening I am 40 male, I have been dealing with panic anxiety pretty much all my adult life first Panic happened when I was 18, I also suffer from GERD, Maybe IBS as well. Not sure what recently happened all I remember is that I was reading something which was disturbing a news article and boom from there I got scared that what if I do the same I tried to shrug it off but then I saw kitchen knife and got really scared that what if I use this knife or myself or my friends or family, the thoughts I’m having is what if I kill someone or someone kills me or etc, now I get theses scary thoughts all day long disturbing thoughts that I’ll lose control and do something and sometimes I look at the chair say what if certain person is sitting there or show up, sometime thoughts take me like I picture someone saying something to me like fam member or friend I don’t actually see it I picture it. And the worst part is when these thoughts come in I panic I get scared like WHAT IF.... and then right there my stomach gets messed up And I have to go drop a duece and then I feel much better, has anyone ever felt the same? Or similar? Is this something like bigger issue like psychosis or something else? Thanks for reading I appreciate it and would love feedback
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OCD
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This is my main compulsion, but I never see people talk about it. I kinda feel like I don’t really have ocd since many other people do different compulsions than me.
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OCD
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You do not have to be good.
You do not have to walk on your knees
for a hundred miles through the desert repenting.
You only have to let the soft animal of your body
love what it loves.
Tell me about despair, yours, and I will tell you mine.
Meanwhile the world goes on.
Meanwhile the sun and the clear pebbles of the rain
are moving across the landscapes,
over the prairies and the deep trees,
the mountains and the rivers.
Meanwhile the wild geese, high in the clean blue air,
are heading home again.
Whoever you are, no matter how lonely,
the world offers itself to your imagination,
calls to you like the wild geese, harsh and exciting -
over and over announcing your place
in the family of things.
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Mary Oliver
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OCD
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I don't know what I'm supposed to do. I just can't seem to undergo the mental gymnastics required to justify remaining alive, or being happy or kind to myself. It's all such theatre. I seem to simply lack the faculties for contentment or even peace of mind. All I see in my future is pain, until I inevitably decide to put a stop to it. The price of health for me is too high. I want things I can't have. But I'm also disturbed by the idea of death. Because that's IT. I wish I could vanish for 50 years and return to life.
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aspergers
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Idk if this is the place for this, but I need help. I'm broke, no car, no job, about to lose my house, totally depressed and overwhelmed with anxiety. I am literally on the verge of suicide. I have no family or friends to turn too. I feel like ending it would be the best and easiest decision at this point. I really don't want any pep talks about how it gets better, I just want to know if there's anywhere I can get real help or if it's the end of the road for me. I live in Portland, Or if that helps any.
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depression
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Hey yall. Ive got a flight coming up and I have SEVERE flight anxiety. always have. I avoid flights at all costs. I dont even let people drive me in their car let alone fly us in a big metal rectangle in the sky. Now heres where the OCD part comes in. For years I have told myself that If i try to calm down then the flight is going to crash sort of as an “alanis morrisette Ironic story comes to life” I want to be rational. Calm my flight anxiety without feeling like somehow that will make us crash. and actually have a good flight. I already have xanax prescribed. any other tips??
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OCD
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everyday I wake up and think, do I really have autism? I was diagnosed over a call because of covid and stuff, but he said I check out with 8/10 of the usual symptoms. they did some tests and stuff and I was technically diagnosed professionally. I always blame my questioning on masking because I've always been good at it but I don't know anymore
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aspergers
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I'm not usually lonely. I have a great time by myself, but when I'm around people that aren't like me (which is about 99% of everyone I see) then I feel lonely.
My solution to this is basically limiting who I interact with and limiting the duration and scope of the interaction. It generally works well, but lately I have been looking around on social media (and elsewhere) and I have been feeling loneliness. It's not that I want to be around these people and have them like me; the fact is I don't like these people and I feel despair that they vastly outnumber me.
I don't want to have anything to do with them. I see them living lives that are run entirely by social status obsession and vanity. The thought of having to partake in those games just to have a meaningful interaction with them makes me nauseous.
Aside from avoiding the outside world entirely, how do you cope with it? Is there a more helpful way to view them? Am I missing out on their redeeming qualities? Is there a technique I could use to accept that this is simply how I will feel when I look at them?
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aspergers
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I had another imposter syndrome moment of "am I just exaggerating my problems? I'm focusing on this show and game just fine today even though I was upset for like half the day" Then for some reason while I was smoking I started to wonder if this had any correlation with ADHD and looked it up.
Apparently nicotine helps reduce hyperactivity and improve focus. Then it really hit me. That, on top of my excessive amount of coffee throughout the years, explained a lot. I am a very heavy smoker and I'm struggling to stop because I lack the impulse control to ignore my cravings. I actually realized that not only was I self medicating this whole time with coffee, but also with cigarettes, and it probably explains why I'm such a heavy smoker.
I'm still struggling to find an ADHD specialist who can perform a proper assessment and diagnosis. Idon't have access to actual medication so all of this probably explains why I've been overdoing these things to cope with my symptoms unknowignly. I don't know if I'm looking for any advice or anything. I really just wanted to share this realization I came to more than anything
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ADHD
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Is anyone else here always angry? It’s something I struggle with the most, and I hate it. I don’t want to feel like a bitter person who’s mad at the world, but the smallest things can make me feel the most extreme rage. Someone in the same room as me when I want to be alone, traffic, going grocery shopping and being around other people, being online, seeing the news, etc. it’s like, there’s the normal amount of anger and then there’s the anger that feels emotionally unbearable. And I always feel like I’m angry :/
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ptsd
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My assignment was due three days ago. If I do submit it today, I will have a 15% deduction. I have yet to start writing the actual essay. I did so much research and I understand the instructions. I could have written an excellent essay. But I cant figure out how to structure my essay. Its like I physically cant translate my engaged thoughts into a written format. And despite being 3 days overdue, I dont feel motivated. I keep procrastinating. I cant compartmentalize (sorry for my spelling, I hope this makes sense)
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ADHD
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I [22 F] woke up feeling pretty depressed. I had a stress dream about a really close friend of mine that rejected me and doesn’t speak with me anymore. I’m on antidepressants for mild depression, so sometimes I have vivid dreams as a side effect. I’m home for the holiday season, and my mom is a very tough love kind of woman. I’ve been lucky and privileged to have been out with groups of friends in 3 different places a decent drive away in just under a week. I’m also trying to get hold of a therapist who will take my insurance, but I haven’t heard back from any.
My love language is quality time and so I feel so blessed to have had time with my friends. I’ve been really down lately in my singleness and loneliness romantically. I’m not really sure why my depression got triggered, since I was able to have an overall good time with my friends.
I try to talk to my friends about loneliness, but in the past 2 months all of my friends but one have gotten into a relationship or they’re talking to someone. My parents aren’t helpful either, as my dad just says there’s plenty of fish out there and my mom gets frustrated at me and again is a very tough love woman.
I think my singleness struggles come from deeper things, like confidence and self esteem issues, and ultimately getting rejected by every guy I’ve asked out/been with (I’ve only “dated” 2 guys, neither of which called me their girlfriend, so please don’t get the wrong idea. I’ve been rejected by a good handful otherwise.) Ultimately, I’m just wondering if anyone has advice on how to make it through his holiday season lonely and with depression while I search and hopefully get matched with a therapist.
When I get depressed, I just don’t feel like moving around or doing anything. Even little things I enjoy I can’t find effort for. I also get really tired and am pretty mean to myself. I feel like crying a lot but I try to hold that in while I’m around my family, since while I’m like this I don’t really know how to handle my moms tough love.
TL;DR: I’m depressed and lonely romantically and the holiday season doesn’t make things better. What advice or tips do you have for me while I wait for a therapist?
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depression
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Hello dear people!
I will try my best to write this post peacefully.
My brain refuses to work with me, so I decided to take another route.
Recently, I finally figured out the mysteries of our brain anatomy and how the different parts of the brain get activated during such a dive in the deep ocean of the subconscious. I mean mostly the amygdala and the frontal cortex. I won't go into much detail, that's not what matters now. What matters is that I felt hopeful for the first time in a while, because I now have a diagnosis that makes sense. I know some events broke me in the past, but now finally I can do something about it. The challenge is that since I started, I opened Pandora's box. I have some old memories that I have repressed into almost amnesia, coming out, I have new ones creeping in. I try my best to keep it together, but sometimes it feels like I am on an autopilot. I am quite certain in myself and that I am capable of finding the best solution, but in the same time I have no idea what I am doing. I feel worthless.
I need some support.
I would like to feel I am not the worst human being on earth, because I know I am not. I just feel pretty low, like Mariana Trench low.
\[Fun fact The Mariana Trench is actually part of a canyon, it's quite huge: 2,550 km long and 69 km wide, This is amazing. I really want to see what's down there, I really like animals and mysteries.\]
What I started doing. I am focusing now upon building my resilience in the best way I can... I read that resilience is more or less summarized by 7 character traits and that when life gets you down, those traits diminish, so by getting up you make them stronger.
1. Optimism.
“Optimism isn't only about staying positive . It's about painful transition and the believe that once that transformation is better, faith will smile at you again.
Staying positive is also an important part of optimism, of course. It's connected with warmth and appreciation.”
Well, the best thing I got on this is whatever doesn’t kill me, makes me stronger. I did understand what it means to suffer and that there are people who don’t ever get the chance to heal like I do. I appreciate that and if I get better, I would like to give back to society and help others.
2. Confidence
„While optimism is trust in the good to come to you, confidence is your trust in yourself. It is the certitude in your abilities. You can do the thing! It also means knowing one's own boundaries and our shortcomings without judging them, rather with acceptance.”
I have no idea how a healthy self-esteem should feel like. Either I feel quite hopeless or like I am the master of the universe. Both are quite untrue.
3. Humor
“Resilient individuals are able to laugh at themselves and laugh in the face of an otherwise dire, tragic situation.”
Well… This is one part that I have covered. I really enjoy good humor, especially dark one. One of my favorite books – Catch 22, they recently made a nice HBO series out of it. Quite the awesome take on the book. If you never watched it or don’t know it, first check what it is about, it is quite funny, but the topic is war, so you get the picture.
4. Expression
“Having an outlet for expressing is crucial for resilience and for maintaining one's sanity.”
Recently I started with writing again, that really did help. I used to do that before quite a lot, now it’s going slow, but it is helpful. I also enjoy collages quite a lot, it really helps express those things that I can’t use words for. Also, I started playing the piano again, specifically “The light of the Seven”, Cersei’s song from Game of Thrones… You can say a lot of things about the last seasons, but the music was on point, this peace is fantastic.
5. Focus
The ability to stay focused and to finish a task.
I really am not sure how I am doing on this topic, I do work well and finish my job in time, but usually it’s not without medications and I need to sleep almost exactly after work, so that I can have energy the next day. Also, I feel on auto-pilot from times to times. Breathing exercises and cold showers really help.
6. Connection
„A strong human support network is critical for crisis management.”
Getting from the mentioned above, I don’t get much social interactions… I feel like a hermit crab at this point. I really like my shell and I feel quite uncomfortable leaving it. Humanity is overrated anyway. The good thing is that I have close people to me, so I am not cut off completely. What I try to do is at least have some interaction. I joined an online art therapy group. I started writing in reddit. (Hi again!) I plan to search for cooking buddies, because I am really into cooking (I really love Thai). I also plan to find work out buddies, when I am ready for it.
I would like to connect with you. If you think that what I write makes sense to you and you think we can help each other out, please, write me a message. I have a deep need to deepen my connections and find support in any kind of form.
7. Devotion
“Faith in a higher power”
I am not really into organized religion, so at the beginning I wasn’t quite sold on the seventh aspect. But it is not really about religion, but about perspective. I really feel peaceful, when I watch the NASA videos of earth from above. Or when I watch Earth documentary with David Attenborough, he has quite the amazing voice. Nature is astonishing! And imperfect at the same time… sometimes I have troubles accepting those imperfections and that suffering is part of life. I don’t want anybody to suffer, I wish we all could live in peace and harmony. But that’s not how life works.
I feel quite fragmented right now, my sense of self is a bit shattered… It’s like watching the world from a broken glass, the shapes are beautiful in their random geometry, but also very confusing.
I am not sure why I write this. What am I trying to accomplish?
To connect, I guess… To be heard. No idea what I am doing.
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ptsd
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OCD
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i was sexually abused as a child. and i noticed that i feel the need to shower everyday and i mostly feel gross about my private area and i’m wondering if maybe that’s a thing from sexual abuse trauma? like even if i’m NOT actually dirty, i fee dirty?
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ptsd
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So, I’ve been taking XR (25MG) for the past month. And I built up a bit of a tolerance two weeks in. At first, my mind finally stopped perseverating/ruminating but two weeks in it all came back again. Then, I took two days off and went back on it to see what happens. And what happened was that my mind finally quieted down more?
Was this a tolerance that I reseted?
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ADHD
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I'm about to leave for work. Please keep me in your thoughts and prayers - I have severe obtrusive thoughts surrounding my occupation (amongst other thoughts that are thankfully not as prominent today) and I am so tempted to constantly seek reassurance from my supervisors so I can appease the thoughts. My boss actually just reached out to me and wanted to express how much I meant to the company I'm working for, and yet my thoughts still persist. I don't really know where I was going for this post; I think I'm just in a crisis and am in need of some support.
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OCD
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Got a 54%. I’m just frustrated because I know I brought the class average down and the class chat is boasting about their As and B scores. It sucks that majority of people can understand once or twice explanation but I have to go the extra mile. Go to live lecture then listen to record lecture atleast twice just to understand something then do homework and have to redo the homework again to remember.
I’m tired
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ADHD
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I have Asperger's. Always have. I've come to terms with the idea that it just makes my interactions with people and my interpersonal relationships.. different. Recently, I decided that I may want to start dating, but I have trouble with certain aspects of relationships. I am attracted to different things and I desire different things than most NTs I have talked to, and that seems to make it difficult to find people. How has your Asperger's effected your dating experience?
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aspergers
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I'm often a quiet and reserved person but I randomly I get into states that I can say or do just about anything. I think it might be tied to masking at times. Especially when I wear my "uniform".
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aspergers
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So in the past I’ve had a few ocd symptoms, but I just brushed it off as haha I do that. But recently I’ve had more symptoms that have gotten worse. I wash my hands over and over again, I’m constantly washing and refilling the glasses I’m drinking out of, I constantly check things, scratching, I haven’t been able to sleep, and I’ve became aware of every time I blink. I feel like these can be normal things and I’m probably just being annoying and seeking attention, but these things have really been bothering me lately. I also have anxiety though this could all be part of that.
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OCD
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I know that many people in here have problems with loud noise. But do some of you also struggle dealing with silence?
My TV is always on when I'm at home, even late night (thanks neighbours for not complaining lol), I keep water on when I brush my teeth, I have to keep the window open (and obviously TV on) when I eat, I tend to speak loud without noticing it in public quiet places, I hate libraries, I like crowded places, I feel good during strong storms (quite common here, yes!), ... When I had to move I even looked for a new flat near a street with a lot of traffic.
Am I the only one?
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aspergers
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To give this point some context. I have anxiety behind the wheel from almost losing my mom in a car accident when I was 13 and as a result, I currently don't drive. I've been seeing an LSCW counselor at my university and I've been diagnosed with both Generalized Anxiety and Social Anxiety. In the Spring, I started group therapy for my anxiety which specialized in exposure therapy. During that time, I had three panic attacks, all of which were related to suddenly being reminded about my mom's accident and recovery. After my last one, I started wondering if I had PTSD and I told my counselor. She evaluated me and told me that I don't have enough symptoms to be diagnosed with it and that what was probably happening is that I've been thinking about it more since I'm going for counseling now (from what I remember, I'm probably forgetting some details).
I'm currently in the process of getting an ESA letter from an outside therapist since I'm still living on campus, so I recently asked her for some advice about how to go about it. She told me I should be upfront about it and say that I've been diagnosed with Generalized Anxiety and PTSD. I was taken aback at first, but I asked for more clarification and she told me that she thought it would give me a better chance of getting the letter. She also said that what also could be impacting my anxiety is secondary trauma from my mom's accident.
This brought a question I have about PTSD and Secondary Trauma: what is the difference between the two conditions? From what I understand, secondary trauma is trauma from an indirectly experiencing someone else's trauma and can potentially lead to PTSD. Am I understanding it right?
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ptsd
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I admit it, I spend most of my day on my laptop, sitting on my bed. Long story short - I can't drive, I'm currently out of work due to the pandemic, I live in the countryside with not much public transport, and I share a house with family and only have my small room as 'private space'. So there's no exactly much else to do.
But I digress. I keep hearing about how bad sitting for long periods is and how it's gonna make me die young, etc; I'm sick of standing up to pee or get a drink with numb, achy legs. My mattress is old and has a dent where I sit. My buttocks hurt. My back hurts. I need to get my daily steps in. At one point I tried to use the desk and chair in my room and ended up with swollen feet (probably due to a too-tall chair without enough padding cutting off my circulation). Though I've replaced the chair twice since then and haven't tested the new one, I'm still wary of using it in case it happens again.
Thing is, thanks to my terrible perception of time hours can pass in what seems like minutes or vice versa. In the past I've tried to set alarms on my phone but they ended up annoying everyone, then I forget to set them. Plus I was told that one hour thirty minutes was too long and forty was better. Except I have issues concentrating at the best of times - I've looked into ADHD assessments, but Covid happened - and having to stop what I'm doing every forty minutes would ensure I never got anything done. I already have a severe problem of never finishing anything I start, or not starting at all.
But I can't draw properly, paint minis, do crafts, etc when I'm sitting on my bed. Which is why I need a way of using my desk without doing myself a mischief and dying early.
So. How do I remember to do this without messing up my ability to work?
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aspergers
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Help I’m having flashbacks again (haven’t been as bad lately but just got worse)
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ptsd
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Like what did I even do to people for them to treat me so bad?
I grew up with emotional childhood abuse, some other traumatic things (big thanks to the bullshit school systems), my last relationship I ended earlier this year added again a nice chunk of ptsd on my pathetic existence, I still suffer occasionally from mental breakdowns caused by other things (abusive mom, loud neighbors, work)
I don't know what I ever did for such horror to come my way. Like all I do is try to make the best out of life after some failed attempts, I'm not even having fun but I still exist for my family. I don't know if I should laugh at how ridiculous this all is or cry (which I'm actually doing almost everyday now)
I just want to know why other people continue to stomp and trample on us as if were not already fucking exhausted
All I wish for is a hug and to get treated as a human being
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depression
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1 or 0…
So, I just came back from a week of saying fuck of to anything, but myself.
I’m a diagnosed man, 29 years old and I love to work. I’m currently on medication, and that works really good for me. My focus is up, I’m not restless all the time and the only side effect is my intake of food.
I work, a lot. From time to time I basically work from I wake up to I go to bed, and working from home is not making that scenario much better since you live were you work and you work were you live. My working “spree” goes in waves, this week 2 hours work. Last week 75-80 hours work.
I know why I get exhausted and have to rest. But I don’t really know why it’s so binary. I’m either a 1 or 0. Either I work 100% , take care of myself, eat, sleep etc. or 0, everything is fucked. I can’t sleep, work, meet people or work.
My question is: why am I reacting like this? What’s the purpose of me to either be 1 or 0… is someone else feeling like this?
NSFW tag because, it’s not…
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ADHD
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It’s like I’ve had so much shit each damn day. I have a little stupid bitchy sister whom I honestly dislike a bit much. She gross, she’s messy, she leaves her damn pads on the bathroom floor AND on her side of the room..... so fucking nasty... I have to clean up everything for everyone and honestly I’m tired of being around toxicity. My sister’s such a bitch that she tends to talk about my physically appearance, makes fun of my mental illnesses, especially my depression, constantly keeps telling everyone about my mental breakdowns, it’s like give me a fucking break. All I ask for is to just be myself, happier. I want to be more calm and content with my life, but it can’t. I’ve slept for 15 hours, because I’m so sad. I fell asleep at 7 and woke up at 8. That’s 13 hours... then I took a nap when I didn’t even need it. I’m tired because I’m tired of everything and everyone. The only thing that is keeping me alive is being an artist... that’s it. Now I’m having vision problems and possibly dry eyes. It sucks because I have to use my eyes to illustrate and express visually... I’m only 19, how is this even happening.... I have anxiety about living alone because I know no one else will put up with me, but I also have depression because I’m sharing a room with it(her).
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depression
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It's not a 0-100 disorder where you are a little bit or something, but rather on a gradient of multiple "colors" of ADHD.
I myself don't really have issues with remembering important things or time management, but I suffer greatly from emotional disregulation and keeping my attention.
You might be a bit neurotypical on certain things, but it doesn't mean you aren't ADHD.
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ADHD
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OCD
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Has anyone else dealt with sudden flushing episodes after being on adderall?? I’m a 24 year old female and have been taking it for the last 4 years but within the last month I get these flushing episodes between 6-8pm and I usually take my IR 15mg dose at 2-2:30pm. The flushing only occurs on my face and feels uncomfortably warm. It also will last for a couple of hours until I sleep it off and by the morning my face is back to normal. I did some digging and saw that adderall has a side effect of flushing especially during the come down. So I experimented today with not taking my meds and got the flushing episode even earlier than usual (at 3pm this time). I’m just really confused why this is happening and having a bright red face at some point every day is no fun! Any advice or Insight would be greatly appreciated(:
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ADHD
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So today I had a rough day. I had something that triggered me. Was very negative and had a lot of depressing dark thoughts. Couldn’t figure out a way to stop. Any ideas how to get out of these tail spins?
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depression
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i absolutely resent speaking about the future and anytime anybody asks me about mine, i find myself reading a script in my head so they just shut up and stop asking me what i’m going to do. like why can’t i just exist? i realized i don’t want a future. not in this world and not in this society. i am quietly waiting for the world to end. even if it’s just my world, but i’m scared of it not ending and i’ll continue to drag my feet along until i die of old age.
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depression
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I’ve been trying to manage stress before going to sleep, but I still haven’t found a good routine. Watching TV makes me restless, and being on the phone might disturb the melatonin in my brain. I haven’t really tried reading a book yet.
So what’s your bedtime routine?
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ADHD
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Hello all, I recently applied and went in for a job interview, and needless to say they prompted me for a drug test (saliva). Not sure why but it didn't occur to me that this test also looks for amphetamines (why didn't I think of this?).
Needless to say the test showed up positive for amphetamines, and even though I've got a prescription they were going to prompt me to take a urine test as a result (which would have ended up horribly unless I used synthetic urine as I occasionally smoke the weeds). Thankfully the first saliva test had another issue with it so I had to redo another test after, and the second time around I drank enough water prior that it seems to have diluted the amphetamines in my saliva enough to show up as negative, which allowed me to pass.
Not that it would have been an issue to go buy some synthetic urine, but then I'd have to figure out how to throw Adderall into it since I tested positive for that on the saliva test and they'd be expecting it.
I just wanted to post this to heed warning to other ADHD peeps, be careful taking Adderall the day of an interview or it might raise additional questions (even if you have a prescription).
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ADHD
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Does ocd impact your life enough for it to be noticeableby others?
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OCD
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I seem to take parts/phrases/philosophies and character traits from people in movies, tv shows and real life and then stitch together some weird personality of my own. I feel like most people don't really know me.
All they know is this kind of weird combination of different people I use to deal with many situations. Is this something you guys know are am I just mad?
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aspergers
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I feel disconnected from everything and everyone. It's so hard to fall asleep. Eating anything is nauseating. I funking hate this. Whe will it end
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depression
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During the winter COCD has become pretty bad for me. Whenever I would be public it was sort of alright because it was cold where I am an everyone was wearing gloves and jackets. Anyway the winter is over where I am and the temperature is picking up.
My problem is that I relied on the gloves and jacket so much dealing with COCD. I could freely go outside and touch things because I would be wearing gloves and had lots of room to carry stuff because of all the pockets I had in my jacket. I usually carry a ton of stuff like moisturizer, baby wipes all that stuff which are basically essential for me. Since the temperature is getting warmer where I am, Im not at all getting used to it. The other day I went to the store wearing double layer gloves and a winter jacket when it was almost 70 degrees outside.
The thing I’m asking is does anyone know a way where I can just somehow be able to take all my stuff with me while at the same time not having to wear gloves. During the summer I would be wearing shorts and t-shirt and don’t have much room in my pockets. I also like keeping all my belongings separately in order to prevent them from getting each other dirty. I really wish I could wear gloves and a jacket but I would literally boil alive wherever the temperature gets even hotter.
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OCD
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Hey fellow ADHDers. I recently got a cricut and want to make a sign to put on the laundry room door to indicate if stuff is in the washer/dryer or if I’m good. Any ideas on what you’d do?
Currently thinking a magnetic sign to put a magnet on whatever step of the process I’m in, but would love to know: what would help you avoid the mildewy mess that is doing laundry with ADHD?!
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ADHD
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TW: sexual abuse, familial sexual abuse
To make a long awful story short, when I was 14-16 I was sexually abused by a cousin who was either seven or eight years older than me, he didn't tell me the truth and I'm not close enough with his immediate family to actually know. After two years of hell I got out. I don't know how because I don't remember a large chunk of my life from that time, most of it is repressed. All I know is at one point I was being abused, then at one point I wasn't. I haven't seen him in a long time. The only people in the family who know are my mother, brother, and grandmother. I did file a police report, however I did not press charges. If he ever gets in trouble it will come up, because of that I'm grateful. And due to the porn he made me make as well as his constant talking about other young girls and me as a whole child, I filed an anonymous tip with the FBI for possible child pornography, no clue if that panned out.
A few days ago my aunt, his grandma, passed away. I wasn't terribly close to her but when I did interact with her she was always very warm and just overall really great. I was going through the photos in her obituary and there are a good amount of photos that have my abuser in them. On top of that, during her celebration of life ceremony (which will be at the end of July) it's very likely I will see him, if I attend.
I really want to go. I spent years avoiding seeing my extended family because I was too scared I would see him, and because if that I missed out on so much. I don't want to let him take this from me. This however had a much higher risk of me seeing him. I don't know what to do. Just seeing recent photos of him turns my stomach and has me all panicky inside. I don't know how on earth I would react actually seeing him. At least if I were to start crying I'd be in a scenario where it isn't questioned.
Does anyone have any tips on how to navigate this? Anyone who has been abused by a family member, how have you coped with seeing them after a long period of time? Is there a way I can get through this without retraumatizing myself?
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ptsd
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A few weeks ago the thieves in my neighborhood returned walking around early in the mornings. One of the thieves also has started walking alone in the evenings casing my neighborhood. That has put me on edge and my OCD and paranoia has increased since. I got back into the habit of constantly checking my security cameras and been having a hard time sleeping again. I have been sending the officers evidence of photos and videos of the thieves through email. Plus the other day I found this strange blue straight lined blue chalk marking on my sidewalk with a white chalk mark through it and I worry that the thieves drew that to target my house. One of the officers contacted me through a phone call that there should be police patrolling my neighborhood if they are available and that a detective might be assigned to the case.
Also I have been getting headaches lately from overthinking. My left side of my head still gets a cold pressure and tingles. I noticed too that I still get closed eye hallucinations of my front yard when my eyes are closed and it’s hard to get those images away when I sleep and rest.
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OCD
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Someone that was like a 2nd mother to me died a month ago . Her memorial is tomorrow. I’ve had so many life problems going on lately . Im too depressed to attend her funeral . I think attending would make everything worse .
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depression
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I want to share a story with you. I have OCD about for 10 years, and I'm addicted to porn for about 10 years. Before I had Hocd, and now I have pocd. Shortly, 10 days ago, I was watching a youtube video. There was a girl who is 8-9 years old. She was walking I looked her back for just 1-2 seconds. Then my anxiety started. Why I did you that? I think I did that willingly. So, I'm 25 years old and I haven't been attracted to any child. I was watching vanilla porn, you know.
So, what do you think about that? Is it normal, or not normal? I didn't think any sexual things about that child when I was looking. But I always think that no matter what, I shouldn't have looked at that girl. I couldn't accept that.
PS: SORRY FOR MY ENGLISH
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OCD
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oops, i accidentally wrote psychologist instead of psychiatrist, sorry
After suspecting I have ADHD for a very
long time, I’m finally going to try and see someone about it in hopes of getting an accurate diagnosis. I have one question though, should I see a psychiatrist or a neurologist? Or does it not matter much? I live in a country that is very behind and the majority doesn’t even know what ADHD is, so I’m really worried I’m going to get brushed off fast. Also, I’m worried about even mentioning ADHD, I don’t want to seem like I’m diagnosing myself but I have a feeling they won’t catch on if I just name my symptoms.
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ADHD
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I just set up the rocking chair I inherited from my Nonna and it's one of the only places I can consistently read a book or any sort of long-form prose. Y'all, our grandmas were onto something.
If you're interested in trying a fidget chair, a budget-friendly option might be to check your local thrift stores once in awhile for a sturdy rocker. /PSA
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ADHD
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Is anyone else scared of chainsaws (mainly the noise) I’m going to bush gardens Halloween event and they have chainsaws (fake of course) but it still manages to scare the shit out of me to the point where I will bury my head in my friends body and that only makes it worse and they target me and I hate it.
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ptsd
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I talk so loud when with family. Its like i have too much energy. But especially with girls i talk too loud and it seems weird.
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aspergers
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