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preferably shorter like articles or websites rather than books.
I have a lovely boyfriend who is neurotypical and find myself for the first time having to explain my mental illness (by a stroke of fate or mere coincidence all my close friends are mentally ill so i’ve never had to really explain things to anyone because they just “got it”)
I tried telling him to look up articles about dating people with PTSD and found that when I did so it was mostly advertisements for rehab/inpatient facilities or weakly developed articles suggesting “they will struggle and just let them do their thing” which made my boyfriend feel really helpless (i don’t count on him for help though, I like to consider myself independent, but he helps sometimes anyway) Id love any resources that go more into understanding a partner with PTSD because explaining every little thing is exhausting
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Went to a wedding today and got sad because I've been single my whole life. I'm paranoid about getting taken advantage of so I was wondering if there are any apps or services with a good user base for autistic people.
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This is probably a small thing, but it led to me having a bit of a mini attack where I was hyperventilating and panicking. I’ll try to explain what happened. I had to check something on my moms phone, so I put on some hand sanitizer first just because of covid concerns. I checked it for about 30 seconds and all was good. When I was using the bathroom a minute later I suddenly felt like I hadn’t used “enough” sanitizer and I started to have panicked thoughts about the possibility that I could have gotten covid on her phone (note I do not currently have covid nor am I symptomatic in the slightest). I wanted to go back out and spray some disinfectant and clean it but my parents were out there talking and I didn’t want to seem weird and do that. So now I’m upstairs and I’m still freaking out not sure what to do. I know the odds of anything happening are next to impossible but my mind is racing with thoughts of my mom getting sick and dying and that it would be my fault not only for possibly infecting her in the first place but also because I chose not to try and fix it just because it would be embarrassing. I feel this premature guilt and I know I can’t do anything about it now for at least a couple weeks because it could take that long to show symptoms. Furthermore I’m worried that if she does catch it even possibly from something out of my control that I’ll never know if it was from me or not. I’ve read before that surface transmission is low but I still can’t get it out of my mind, like what if she uses it while she’s eating and the germs get in her mouth. Like I said I know the odds are so, so low but it’s been a little bit and I can’t stop the worrying. I’ve had similar attacks like this over not cleaning stuff but usually I would just go and clean to feel better but I feel like now I’m past that point and I can’t calm down. Anything I should try? Or maybe just some words of reassurance?
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So i have anxiety about working. I haven't worked before. And i realized just now one of the reason why I'm anxious to work is I'm afraid i won't be able to socialize and I'll just end up sitting alone at lunch like when i was younger. :/ It wasn't all the time but it was enough that it apparently left an impression that i didn't realize till now. I'm afraid i won't have friends at a job. :/ I've always had trouble making friends it feels so hard. :/
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I am going on medication called Concerta. I am 14 years old and I was diagnosed in 5th grade. My parents were hesitant to put me on medication because I have bad anxiety, but now I am in high school and my grades have been suffering so they talked to my PCP and they prescribed me Concerta. I’m scared because people have said ADHD meds takes away your personality. Also because I never been on medication in my entire life before. What should I expect?
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I find that dark weather really triggers my ocd. If it’s warm and sunny the ocd is barely a whisper, but the minute the weather changes and it’s gets dark early in the winter it’s like a switch goes off every year. My anxiety and obsessions go through the roof. I guess I should start start sitting and staring at the dreary skies that we have where I live all winter as ERP. The dark sky feels like a trap, like literally clouds feel like a cage that I’m stuck in and I’m going to die. Anyone else relate to these kinds of environmental triggers?
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I was run over by a car in late June 2019, and was diagnosed with PTSD a month ago. I haven't had any treatment for it, but i was already on an SSRI that my doc increased the dose on after my squishing.
Anyway, when a car rolls towards me (even if i know that bitch is gonna stop, it doesn't matter), i get a single violent shiver down my spine, and my stomach flips like i missed a stair. The feeling of nausea passes right away, thankfully. Also all the usual junk: sweaty palms, heart racing, flight response.
The weird part is the chill and stomach flip, and i've noticed these reactions getting worse over time. The shiver down my spine usually causes me to make some kind of noise, kinda like a grunt and it feels like my throat is closing up for a sec. These all subside right away, but are still weird an annoying.
Anyone else had this reaction?
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I suffer with mental illness on top of asperges. I haven't got any real friends as such. I feel really alone. When I'm not working, the structure is gone. I was excited about Christmas this year, but I'm off work now for a couple of weeks. I was worried about burnout. I looked forward to being off so much and now idk why.
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TW: short mention of suicidal thoughts an selfharm in the paragraph before the last one
Hey, didn't know where to post this, so I hope this is alright. So I had two depressive Episodes about 2 and 3 years ago and since then, I've been doing fine. I'm currently in the 12. Grade and all my Grades I have in all of my subjects in this and in the next schoolyear are counted into my final Grades when I finish school (Geman school system ya know), so this is quite a lot.
Additionally, I'm curently on the search for the Origin of my concentration problems (I wasn't diagnosed with depression, so this is my first contact with therapists) and I've been to 4 therapists already and it wasn't really helpful. I haven't told them about my problems in the past with depression (I know, I should) because I have the fear of them telling my parents and because its just feels to difficult to talk about. Two of the therapists didn't really understand me, one told me to seek a psychiatrist to get a diagnosis and the other one let me and my parents fill out some questionaires for depression, anxiety and ADHD. Sadly, according to the questionaires, no disorder or any need for therapy could be identified. However, I did strongly identify with the ADHD symptoms that were described in the questionaire and also prior to this visit, I was speculating that the origin of my concentration problems might be ADHD. The negative result and the other three therapist who couldn't really help me with my problems just made me so uncertain about the problems I'm having, so that I'm doubting myself if I'm not just making up my problems, if I'm faking them, if thos are things everyone experience and I'm just an arsehole for not getting my shit together because everyone else is able to deal with this stuff, besides me, because I'm too lazy and thing everything just happens without me having to do anything. By now, my motivation to make another therapist appointment just sinks, because it's problally not gonna help me anyways and I'm just so scared of never getting a propper diagnosis, as I still know that my concentration problems and the other problems I identified with when taking the ADHD questionaire are most likely real. So this is basically the situation right now.
These symptoms/problems are a huge obstacle for me, as 12th grade is really exhausting and I have a lot to do. And I know that I can do it and that I'm not too dumb for it. But it's a bit like being tied up in a chair where the Key is almost in reach and for me it feels like I can reach it if I just try hard enough and at one point, even if it takes an immense amount of effort, I'm gonna get it. But that's probably not how it works. It's probably almost in reach, but one centimetre too far away to get it. I feel like I'm drowning in chaos and I feel and also fear that I'm failing at managing my life. But things where I'm failing at managing my life are so easy for my classmates. I can't organize the most basic things and don't manage to do all my homework, study on time, clean up my room. Things like that don't work because I'm either too overwhelmed by them, forget them or procastinate. Especially procrastinating ist a huge problem for me, because it feels like I'm just lazy and this makes me hat myself so much everytime. But most notably because it stops me from achieving the things I know I'm able to achieve. And in the end I sit there, having failed at starting stuff early enough, got a bad grade at something or could have done better, because I'm able to do. And I know that it is only my fault, that these things happended like they did and that I could just simply have started with the things I wanted to do. And I know that I won't learn from it and that it will be just like that the next time too. And I feel like I'm trying, I want to try to do it differently, but in the end it just does not work out and I probably have not tried enough.
My grades have been ok or even quite good in the last time, but we got back two tests in the last days and both were horrible. One because it's maths and the oher one because I was too dumb to start studying earlier. Eventhough it is a subject I like and in which I'm quite good. I need to take my finals in both of them. Anyways, eventough I'm feeling relatively mentally stable, I have now learned that this is only the case if things are going well. If the smallest thing goes wrong (argument with my parents, bad grade at a test), I just go back again to having suicidal thought and having the urge to self harm. I wouldn't act on neither of them, but I just have the fear that it will eb a vicious circle again and I'm so scared that everything will fall apart again. Stuff hase been going fine the last two years and I don't want to loos this again. I don't want to go back to that dark place. Especially now, where everything is counting into the finals and I just can't afford to not do well. I also know that I have huge problems seeking help and that if I fall back ino a depressive episode, I will not seek help, eventhough I know that it would help me. But most of the time I then just think that the things are my fault and that others need help more urgently than me.
(Also TL;DR:) I'm just so scared as everything feels like chaos right now, I'm so scared of failing at school because I just don't get my shit together. I feel so overwhelmed with all things going in my life at the same time (And with that I only mean the whole therapist/diagnosis thing, school, having to study for tests and just regular life). I'm just so scared of falling back into a depressive episode and just failing generally. Especially at school, as I know I'm able to do this stuff, but I'm manipulating myself and stopping myself from being good or reaching my potential. I just fell like I'm ruining my current and also my future life
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Hi all. My reasoning for going to therapy is that I believe I have some form of anxiety disorder. I’ve had problems with dealing with anxiety for most of my life. I find I get anxious more than the average person over everyday things. For example, if I get a phone call and it isn’t someone I know or I’m not expecting a phone call, I’ll be too overwhelmed and anxious to answer or decline and just let it ring. It seems like whenever I bring up my anxiety issues to my family, they dismiss it as me overthinking things or they tell me it’s normal for me to be anxious about stuff. As a result, I feel like I have no one to talk to.
I should also note that I’ve been diagnosed with both Asperger syndrome and ADHD (attention deficit hyperactivity disorder).
Therefore, I was wondering if any of you had similar experiences. Is it worth going to therapy? Did therapy help? Were you given any tips or strategies for dealing with anxiety?
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Sometimes my mind gets something to be anxious about and it runs in circles around the topic for hours. My body gets really awake and I guess my sympathetic nervous system activates, and I’d guess I get a rush of cortisol/stress. I can see it from an objective perspective when it’s happening, and I’m like “stop thinking about this. Think about this in the morning.” But it doesn’t work, and then I’ll have days like today where I get really sleep-deprived and more emotional/stressed from that. I wish I was asleep literally right now but I can’t fall asleep during the day at all, I can only rest my eyes. Also I tried listening to night time meditations and doing sleepytime tea, usually the meditations knock me out but I listened to it for 40 minutes with my eyes closed and couldn’t pay attention to it. I was looping over the same stressful problem. Does anyone else have some experience with this?
(Edit) bless this damn sub for offering up a mountain of helpful constructive advice
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the idea that your life is based on your thoughts.
my thoughts are fucking terrible.
the idea that our thoughts are responsible for the good and bad things that happen in life feels like such a slap in the face because it assumes that we are always in control of what we think.
goes hand in hand with “just move on”
“the past is the past” “of course you feel bad when you dwell”
also manifestation can bring into question whether my thoughts caused my trauma, and that goes deeper into more feelings of blame and guilt.
Maybe manifestation works well for some people but it just feels shitty when so many people carry this belief that we are in total control. we aren’t in control, if we were i don’t think ptsd and so many other conditions would exist?
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You do not need to be ashamed of why you have PTSD. You’re not weak because “it could’ve been so much worse”, or “this same thing happened to so-and-so and THEY weren’t traumatized...” Your feelings are valid. Your reactions are valid.
Edit: I’m so glad this had such a good impact. All of you are amazing. 💕
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I know my birthday is August 21 and I knew today was August 21. But those two facts just won't link up in my head to say "it's my birthday", until something reminds me. I do this with all dates. Anyone else do this?
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I'll start: I started learning Spanish, Mandarin, Esperanto, email development, crypto/NFTs, no-code programming, and basic land navigation using a base plate compass 😂
I'm constantly learning new things (or intensely interested) but the usual suspects include languages, coding, and something where I work with my hands (making candles, crocheting, etc.).
Would love to hear yours!
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I've been trying to set up a budget in a way that worked for me. I tried googlesheets and, after spending hours working on it, then even longer making it perfect according to my standards, I barely scraped by. I mean, less than $0.50 in the bank at the end of the month.
The next month I changed a few things, made it a little bit better, I had maybe $50 left at the end of the month.
Unfortunately, had a huge setback the next month because I needed tires as mine were worn through to the wires. So, I had to get a loan. My tires were wearing oddly, so I took a bit extra for an alignment. In total, I was thinking my setback was going to be around $1400 for tires, mount and balance, and the alignment, so I took 2400, just in case, and I figured the rest could be used for any other emergency. Shop ended up doing the alignment for free and I got a really good deal from my BIL friend who gets tires at wholesale prices, ended up only costing me about $700 for my tires and a mount and balance and they didn't charge me for the alignment since they barely had to adjust it to get it back within specs. So, I started buying some stuff I wanted since i had an extra 700, even though I knew I should've been saving it. Took my wife out to eat a few times so she didn't have to cook, making sure I left plenty for bills. End of the month is nearing, almost all my bills are due around that time, and I paid them all... or so I thought. I thought 4 bills had come out automatically and tmobile ended up charging me $180 instead of $67 somehow and, since I thought I'd paid everything, I barely had enough to cover it and I got hit with overdraft fees from my bank because of tmobile. Luckily, my friend was able to loan me an extra 50 and I explained the situation to my bank and they removed the fees. So, I was able to make it. Somehow, I spent $2400 on top of my full income in one month. I looked at my bank statement and added everything up and I was amazed to see that I literally did spend over $5000 in one month. So, I needed to take drastic measures.
I have now put all my bills due dates in my calendar with reminders set on payday to check them and ensure I have enough. I immediately pay the bills due that week and put the remaining amount into my savings account except $20 in case I forget my lunch or something for work. Until I get 3 months of bill money put into my savings account, I am not going out to eat if I can help it (sometimes we get sent on storm work and we might be gone for a week at a time, so I can't not eat for a week lol).
Well, it worked. Based on my budget, I should've had less than $100 in my account, we even got rained out like 3 days in a row. I ended up with over $700 left for the month, celebrated with pizza tonight, but otherwise I'm not touching it until I get at least $7k in my savings account.
Tldr: putting my bills due dates in my calendar, setting reminders on paydays, and putting all but bill money plus $20 into my savings account helped me put an extra $600 I didn't even know I had to spare into my savings account.
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I clean almost consistently. Whether it be lysol wipes or hand sanitizer I use it. I often fidget with my hair as a habit. Now I’m worried that the residues in those chemicals were still there and it got on my hair.
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Right off the bat, I was molested as a child. From the ages 12-17 it wasn't everyday nor did it follow a specific pattern but it did happen maybe 10 times per year. Every time I think about it I immediately get anxiety and push the thoughts away. I have had dreams about it, maybe 5 times or so. I try not to remember those dreams so the number may be off. Every time I do remember it the memories are a bit blurry.
The only way this has affected my life is I see every guy as a predator. Even my dad and grandpa but I try to calm my anxiety as much as I can when I'm around them. I'm not sure if it's because of my overactive imagination but when I see someone that could be a potential predator my mind creates scenarios where they would molest me and I would think of ways to escape.
I do dissociate but that's from some other trauma and its triggered by very high anxiety or stress levels. I think I remember having dissociated when the event happened though before. It is rarely triggered when I think about the event but i think i have forced myself to dissociate so I couldnt think about it.
I have never talked about it to family or a professional.
If the reasoning why contributes to PTSD, (obviously not sure) it's because I didn't want to be the one to break my family apart over this. In my mind they would take him to court and so many people would be sad and conflicted. I also feared of people not believing me and that I'm lying. I used to have a therapist who I also never addressed this too because of the previous reasons. I have lied to one family member when they asked me if I ever have been molested.
Sorry if it's so long and while I could have done my own research there was no straight answer I could find. If you get this far thank you and please comment if you think I may have PTSD or not it would be really helpful. Btw I am a bit dissociated while typing this so sorry if there are any mistakes.
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I’ve been holding this in for a long time, just wanted to tell someone.
I’m 23 and my parents have known forever that I’m on the spectrum, but they have always tried to treat me like I’m not. Almost like I’m supposed to grow out of it or something.
Last major meltdown for me was in January of last year. We (still live with my parents) were at the storage unit loading boxes into the back of my mom’s truck. She (my mom) wanted to have as much packed in there as possible, but she was also rushing me. So I just started throwing boxes into the truck l, and both my parents start yelling at me to ‘get my shit together’. So then I took my glasses and snapped them in half, and threw them on the asphalt. Then I ran to the far-side of the storage complex and just stood behind one of the units to try and calm myself down. Then my mom calls me and tells me they’re leaving without me if I don’t come back.
My parents have been this way since I was a kid, especially after my sister was born (when I was 5). When I would have a meltdown, they would just yell at me and punish me and whatnot.
When I was 6, I wet my pants at school (still working on this lol). Anyway, they took my favorite stuffed animal from me. I didn’t get him back for almost 2 years.
When I was 8 or 9, I was having trouble writing a book report (I have issues with meeting deadlines)
and they yelled at me to the point where I couldn’t speak let alone write anything. So they took my favorite stuffed animal back, this time along with his whole family. I had no friends left.
After that incident, I really started struggling at school (I have ADHD and OCD as well) and my parents were trying to figure out why.
Around 12 years old, I was having trouble with math class and my dad threatened to throw my toys (the same ones I’d had since I was 5) into the fire pit and douse them in gasoline and set them ablaze. Then my mom threatened some physical violence on me (never did it). Then my dad tells my mom she can’t do anything physical to me and they start fighting. Then my mom says we’re going to her friend’s house because my dad was the bad guy in the situation I guess. I tell my sister goodbye for what I thought would be the last time I would see her. My mom and I stay at her friend’s house. About 1 in the morning, she tells me we’re going back home. My mom sends me to bed and I stay awake all night waiting for their yelling to die out.
It was a school night.
When I was 13, I started hanging out with a not-so-great group of kids. They helped bring my academics down even further. I got suspended from school twice for being a pervert and saying some nasty things to the girls at school (I’m gay now so it’s kind of weird to think about now). So this time my mom held me down on the bathroom counter and my dad shaved off my hair far enough to break through my skin. And I had to clean everything up.
In high school, my goal was to put all that behind me as best as I could.
Two weeks before I started high school, one of my childhood friends was killed after he was hit by a car while he was skateboarding.
The same week I started high school, my grandmother passed away unexpectedly. She was the glue that held my entire family together.
My grandma was Buddhist, so her funeral was at least a few weeks, if not a month. I became a Buddhist monk to honor her and I had to say prayers in a language I can barely speak, in front of my family and people I didn’t even know. I start crying because I get to the part where I have to mention how much my grandma loved me. My parents told me it was an embarrassment.
At 16, just before the school year came to a close, I became really close to this girl in the senior class. She was a German-nerd and band-geek like I was, and she taught me how to give hugs. She consoled me after my grandma passed. She was an amazing person, and incredibly gifted. She quickly became one of my best friends.
One month later, she took her life.
I still remember the last thing she said to me: “Maybe we can hang out sometime.”
I couldn’t bear attending her funeral. My mom got mad at me for that too.
That same week, a girl I was crushing on committed suicide as well. I didn’t tell my parents this time around.
Five deaths in less than a year is a lot for anyone to deal with. And I’m no exception.
The last two years of school were hell. I had an even harder time focusing and participating in classes. But I had two of the most supportive math teachers ever. They would stay after class for hours just to give me a safe place to study. If it weren’t for them, I wouldn’t have graduated.
After high school, I thought my parents would lay off of me. I got a job, started paying rent.
In 2018, my parents were yelling at me for wetting the bed. So my mom gave me a house: I could “Get my shit together” or I could leave. So, I left. For 28 hours, I lived in my car in the back of my work parking lot. I texted my dad and told him everything that I had been holding in for all these years. He told me to come home and straighten things out with my mom.
The next two years went pretty well. I bought a nice-ass car, got on some anti-depressants, and got a promotion at work.
Then my parents decided to sell the house, and I pretty much lost it.
Come 2020, the pandemic started screwing with my head too (a month after we had gotten done moving). My whole routine was gone for three months. I gained 30 pounds, stopped sleeping, and never went outside.
My family decided to renovate the entire top floor after we had settled in, and now all four of us are living downstairs, and sharing my bathroom.
Sometimes, I can’t see an end to all this. But having this subreddit and all of you amazing people has helped me fight my way through.
TL;DR
My parents have emotionally abused me since I was a kid, but I still live with them. I’ve gone through some crazy shit, but I’m hopeful everything will pay off in the end. ❤️
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my mum and dad have both offered for me to stay at either house. in the past and now, they've been one the sole sources of a lot of my trauma. they trigger me a lot and i cant stand even a weekend usually, bc of the emotional toll. i do love them and want to help them get through this, but my mental health is not well at the moment and i'm easily triggered into feeling even more suicidal. another thing is, i have an ED, which makes things more stressful. another topic though.
if i stayed with them it would possibly be dangerous for me, as im prone to attempts and might go too far one day and actually do it because of my mental state. i feel really selfish politely saying i will stay home by myself, but i feel like id be planning my suicide by the first or 2nd week there.
i told them its not because i dont like spending time with them or bc i dont love them.
i dont know. idk if this majes sense or sounds right.
is anyone else experiencing a similar problem?
thank u, take care 💜
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Hi everyone , I recently got diagnosed with adhd after months of my physiatrist thinking I just had bad anxiety and depression . Therefore I’m starting adhd meds in about to weeks . I’ve also been dealing with binge eating for the past 10 months and have put on a significant amount of weight because of that , which has messed up my mental health more . Since I’m starting my meds next next Thursday I wanted advice on the best medicines to loose that extra weight off with . And if you guys don’t mind sharing how much you guys lost in what time frame and what doses . Thank you so much !!
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Ocd plants so many ideas in my head I don’t know which are true and which are bullshit .
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What is the effects of mixing them with drink and does the drinking have to be reduced to what you’d normally drink unmediated
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Tw: mild non detailed mention of abuse
I felt the need to tell my story.
CPS wants me to go back to my abusive household though, because of my age they can't force me. Their end goal is me repairing the relationship as if it's just a quick fix.
They tried to gaslight me once they dug up my diagnosis of DID, saying implying I was too mentally ill, and that the things I remembered weren't real. They have implied my story is inconsistent (it isn't). They insist on top of this they never said I was lying but implied I ran away because I didn't like my step dad, because I didn't agree with my parents religion, because of political difference etc.
I'm tired of my diagnosis being used against me, I'm tired of not being believed, I'm tired of my parents lies, I'm tired of my brother being stuck there, I'm tired of everything.
Don't use my traumagenic illness to bate me cuz you don't know shit. I'm prepared to keep myself out of that house by all means. They told me I had to look into relationship building before we could look into other options like a youth agreement. I'm trying that not because I believe any of this BS. No I don't. I simply realize I have to humor CPS a little if I want them to do their job.
I have no interest in rebuilding with a liar, and an abuser. Nor should it be forced down my throat. And fuck CPS bullshit "Oh we're not forcing you, we're just not gonna help you if you don't do what we want you to."
I'm prepared I have a plan B, a plan C, and a plan D, and I won't let me and my system suffer again.
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don't get me wrong, i know it takes a lot of work, discipline, and sometimes medication to function with adhd. it isn't typically something that just happens, and most of the time, they can't control it.
but got, i would give anything to be them. hell, even a portion of their functionality would make my life so much better.
i see my peers with adhd who get good grades, do every assignment on time, wake up at ungodly hours to go to classes, and still somehow manage to balance a social life, hobbies, sometimes even a job. i don't get what's wrong with me and why i can't do the same. im starting to think i really am just lazy, not doing enough, and using my adhd as some sort of excuse to myself. yeah i feel bad when i procrastinate, but it doesn't change the fact i still dont get the things i need done.
i feel so behind compared to my peers and im terrified of failing, but don't know what to do to prevent that. ive already failed my first tests of the year and i think im about to fail my second, and most of my classes only have four. i feel worthless, pathetic, and have no idea how to change.
why couldn't i have been someone who used their adhd to their advantage? why couldn't i have been well functioning? why do i have to be so debilitated by this stupid disorder and get no support anywhere? i don't understand what i did wrong to deserve this. i can't discipline myself even when i try and my best isn't good enough anymore. i just want to give up, drop out, and become the bum i was probably meant to be, at least then i wouldn't be having breakdowns every week because of my failure. i just want to be normal.
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Just curious. Because I don’t run my doctor knows about the aspergers diagnosis because he went over my file today and didn’t mentioned any autism spectrum disorder diagnosis.
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So,I have a history of dating shit assholes. 1 in particularly was movie style abusive all around and I dated him twice...well my current fiance..isnt mean doesn't raise a hand but when he is mad...he's just soo...degrading and saying that everything i didn't do causes him problems. Apparently I can't seem to listen to him. For example money..biggest fights...happen around that and with the stock situation he wants me to cash out but I cant do that due to cxyz. But he wants it out asap...and I can barely even get him off the topic or to take a moment to think hey shes 19 and theres a baby due in 2 months time,and a wedding in 2 days. Mabye she has other things....like I just get told to go away cause he's done yelling...I just feel like crap... then when he starts yelling at his parents cause they hear him yelling..all I can think of is blaming my self cause shit I pissed him off this bad... now his parents are in a bad mood theres a bunch of yelling and slamming things and I'm in the basement bathroom having a panic attack while writing this all.. did I get my self into a another bad relationship...am I about to permentaly fuck my self over..
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I guess title says it all. I was recently diagnosed however do not have access to medication, and likely won't for several months. I'm fairly new to this and still doing a lot of reading on and understanding ADHD. I'm in a bind, and looking for more advice for myself rather than the relationship itself.
I'm in therapy. While my therapist is helping me build habits and routines to become more functional, they said that there are things that I probably will not see immediate improvement in without some medication. This is mainly surrounding emotional disregulation and rejection sensitivity.
I won't get into details, but based on past behaviors and conversations with my therapist, it's very clear to me that my partner has an avoidant attachment style.
While I work on things with my partner, here's my deal. Any time they say things like "I don't think we should meet up today, I need some alone time.", I rationally know that it's because they genuinely need some alone time and has nothing to do with me. However, in reality, I end up having a meltdown. I start crying, feel like I'm not loved, feel like I'm going to die alone, start wishing I lived with them so this would never happen. On good days it will take up 20 minutes of tears and then I'll be fine, and on other days, it's enough to spiral me into a full blown existential crisis. And it's not like my partner is cancelling important plans. We usually see each other after work, have dinner together, and we spend most weekends together. While I would love to be living with them, they're not ready for it yet, and given that they're an avoidant, they probably will take a really long time to get there. My concern at this point is that my reaction to any of this is a full blown meltdown. To an avoidant, it's confirming that they're making the right decision keeping people at an arm's length.
My question is, is there anything I can do to work on this so I don't have such intense reactions, and if I do, how do I pull myself out of them quickly?
I've gotten ok at hiding how I feel over the phone, not so much in person. I usually hang up, cry it out and hope for the best. I used to bombard them with text messages, try to call them, basically do anything and everything I can to get the attention, or end up starting a fight . I've stopped doing that, because I started to realize how it looks, and holding back tears was one of the reasons why I would do it. Now when I feel that overwhelm, I just cry.
I really want to get to a point where I can show my partner that they will not lose their freedom and independence with relationship progress.
Are any of you in a relationship with an avoidant? Any general ideas on how to work with an avoidant would be great too.
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my car broke down and im done. i just cant take it. everything goes wrong. i couldnt sleep until 7am and then i woke up at 3pm. i dreamt the whole night about being rejected by others, and being completely alone and lost. i hate my life and i hate myself. im a failure a loser and i amnot worthy.
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depression
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Alright so I have a "friend " (if you really can call them that) who always puts me down.
They are calling me names such as "manic ass loser" when I say something bothers me. They always tell me my ideas are horrible, that I don't grow, I have no self worth, and that they are my only friend. They got mad at me and blocked me saying "try anything and I'll fuck you over I have dirt on you".
They always end up contacting me again and again and I feel like I'm being blackmailed into a friendship
I really just want to kill myself at this point.
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depression
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For as long as I remember I can sort of squeeze myself or some muscle on my body and it sends electricity like wave throughout a local area in my body. If some considerable time passes between two applications its usually more intense. Dunno if anyone else has it or of this is about anxiety.
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OCD
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i was diagnosed with ptsd over a year ago for different reasons but another traumatic event still haunts me.
the thing is, it wasn’t that big of a deal. when i was 13/14 (8th grade) i had a boyfriend who was the same age as me (im 18 now and he was the last person i ‘dated’). we had a few classes together and we sat next to each other in one class called STEM. there were a bunch of tables/pods? and there was a little wall divider between each group that went up a few feet and the tables were completely blocked on all sides except the for the area we were sitting. my boyfriend at the time got weirdly sexual after we started ‘dating’ (we were literal children idek). at first he just liked holding hands for the whole class under the desk which was fine. but soon he began to rest his hand on my thigh and then on my groin. i was so uncomfortable and i didnt know what to say but i was scared. i would try to casually push him away but he would always try again a few minutes later. i ended up leaving class everyday to go to the bathroom and cry. he started to rub harder and was always touching me. it was always over the clothes but i still felt so uncomfortable. i was young and didnt want it, i was in a room full of my peers and a teacher and no one knew what was happening except us and it was humiliating. he knew i had really bad anxiety (i was the kid that had accommodations for presentations bc i had a really bad panic attack in front of my class) but he still acted like this. i was scared and i thought it was fine bc we were ‘dating’ and initially made myself think i should be flattered bc he wants me. he asked for a picture of me in just my bra but i didnt take or send him one. he also showed up at my house a few times on his bike and drove in circles and i was so scared. but i had no self esteem and he complimented my ass and boobs so i just went with it. he touched me almost everyday for over a month and i dreaded going to school. i would try and make appointments with the school counselor during that period but it didnt work out so i was stuck. i was too scared to say anything. i also didnt want him to hate me bc i liked him at the time. i was just so uncomfortable and felt dirty idk. one time he texted me in the middle of the day to leave class and meet him at a locker bank so i did. he hugged me and i was fine with it. i was severely touch deprived so i welcomed it. but then he went in to kiss me and i backed away into a locker but he leaned in again so i tried making myself look smaller and put my head down, and raised hands up in front of my face while repeating “i’m scared i’m scared i’m sorry i’m scared” and he stood there for a second before walking away upset and i felt so stupid. he still touched me that same day though. he also watched a lot of hentai and compared me to the girls in it, and told me his dick size out of nowhere. he also knew i was bi and fetishized lesbians and wanted to see me make out with my best friend?? idk why do i still think about this so much i dont understand. i didnt date at all in highschool bc i was so scared and even identified as asexual for a while bc the thought of sex repulsed me. i made sure to wear huge sweatshirts that covered my boobs, ass, and curves as i grew older. i took a dance class in my senior year and most of the dances gave me so much anxiety. anything where we had to move our hips (not even in a sexual manner) made me feel dirty and slutty and i dont get it. anything that could be viewed as even remotely sexual made me feel disgusting. i was so scared of something happening and i hated my body so much. i become so anxious around tall boys, especially if they have curly hair and blue eyes. i get this awful burning feeling in my stomach that made me want to throw up. i dont think i’ll be able to date a boy again. its so stupid but i cant get over it. my therapist and i have talked about it but i feel like shit every time. i feel so stupid and dramatic that this still affects me. i still dream about him and my body still feels awful when i think about it and i wanna scratch my skin off. my therapist told me i was having body flashbacks but it wasnt that serious. idk what to do at this point.
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ptsd
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I particularly felt left out in the past by my friend group during a 2 week period, and while everything is fine now, it has really kinda hurt me a bit… I’ve been compulsively accepting that I am left out, and the pain sucksssss.
I have been doing better at letting it be, but is it so bad to just ask my best friend if I was truly left out or not? Maybe by seeing I wasn’t (or was, he’s admitted to our friendship being one-sided once) it helps me stay less negative?
I know it’s a seek for reassurance. I just wish I could get this out of the way.
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OCD
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I decided I'm not settling for a job that I hate and am depressed at anymore. I've been struggling with social isolation and mental health problems this whole year and that job only contributed to the problem.
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depression
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I read that ADHD is associated with significant short term working memory deficit, with thinks like forgetting why you entered a room or where you just left your wallet or keys a few minutes ago because you started thinking about something else.
For those who have experienced this are now on any medication, has anyone seen an improvement in memory? I'd love to hear what helped and what didn't
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ADHD
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Hello everyone. I've suffered with ROCD in the past. but now I am suffering from a very strange obsession that I have no idea how to prevent. I'm obsessed with my own emotions, specifically good emotions. It's terrible. I am constantly aware of my emotions. I want to feel good, so when I do something that makes me feel good I instead of focusing on the activity and letting my emotions flow, i can only think about the emotion. I'm always checking my feelings in order too see if I'm experiencing any positive emotion. (I can see some similarities with when I checked my feelings with ROCD). How can I expose myself to this? Help. Please.
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OCD
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I'm fucking exhausted. I just want to sit until I either away. Not suicidal but indifferent, I could give 2 fucks if I just disappeared today. Sucks when you pour yourself into someone for years and they drop you at the first sign of someone more exciting. Just venting I guess
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depression
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so i work at a small coffee shop—i’ve been there for about 2 months. it takes me about an hour and a half to close; for my coworkers, it’s about an hour on a day that’s busy till close, half an hour if it’s not. we’re supposed t be completing closing duties from when we get there at 12 to when we close at 4 or 5 (depending on the day). which i do! but i don’t get how my coworkers are out of there so fast. i multitask, i do dishes, stock, wash tables, pull trash bags, as much as i can before we close—like my coworkers do! i just don’t get it, and because i have been getting gradually faster, i didn’t think he had an issue with my closing time. he called me after close yesterday and just told me that there’s no reason it should take me this long, and that i need to ask my coworker what she does differently so i can change my methods. he’s gonna be there this morning (my shift starts in an hour), so that’s a little nervewracking. i just don’t know what i’m going to say to him, and i’m scared because i’m ALWAYS the slowest worker, and my speed has been a note from so many people in my life that it makes me sad that this is coming up in a job that i really like and thought i was doing well with. in fact, i was really proud of my closing time yesterday before i got that call. :(. any tips on dealing with this gracefully and in a way that won’t potentially make my boss think that i’m not good enough to work there??😬😬
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ADHD
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I’m currently on Effexor and Mirtazapine, and I take Propranolol as needed. Day to day I feel like I’m 95% better. I don’t wake up every day feeling like I want to die anymore. But whenever I go through something stressful, like an argument, my mind just goes into overdrive and keeps thinking things like, “just kill yourself” and “things would be easier if you were just dead.” I don’t feel like I’d ever act on it, and that’s why it’s even more annoying that my brain just defaults to that train of thought with anything stressful. Does anyone else experience this?
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ptsd
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I've kept pushing it week after week, and I've went too far. I'm failing four out of five subjects(That one course only grades u on your attendance), my parents hate me even more than before, and my anxiety just keeps getting worse.
I'm scared to kill myself only because my plan requires me to run away from home and hang myself or chug a bottle of Tylenol pills deep in some forest park trail, so there's no turning back. I tried to get the most painless and least suspicious option besides trying to jump of a bridge or sitting in a room with burning charcoals, but I can only do it on Mondays and Wednesdays because my parents just want to keep their eyes over me all the time, and those two days are when they come home late. My parents have no idea I'm depressed, have anxiety or am planning to kill myself, so this is the best chance I have to do it without anything stopping me. But if I fail and end up in a mental hospital or with the police, I already know everyone will make the rest of my life hell for me for it. At least I don't need to worry about hurting my family. My parents have more of a death wish for me and the rest of my family takes me as a shitty joke.
A little bit about my situation: I actually mean it when I can't do anything right. I can't even do one simple task properly. I just mess things up, or completely forget about it. I can't even care about others around me. I have no skill, talent, or capability of learning anything. I have no personality other than a socially anxious lying and cheating coward. I'm fucking hideous both on the inside and outside. I'm not gonna make it in life, I can't maintain a clean life, do a job properly, much less handle driving or paying bills and groceries. If I were to get charged with a crime or get accidently marked absent at school, I'm too fucking scared to speak up for myself. I have no friends, I can't even approach someone, cause I'm scared of looking creepy or annoying. I hate myself even more for desperately wanting comfort and affection, I just want and take. There's no use in trying to keep living, I'll just ruin everything.
I'm so lonely and stressed and have nobody to reach out to. Even if I did I can't even talk to them and will just be an unbearable burden to them.
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depression
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My mom means well. I'm 27 now. I'm so sick and tired of her coming up with excuses.
Was literally just talking about how I don't like the people where we used to live. Even at this age I'd get picked on by kids at the park or laughed at by random chavs. My mom just can't help but say 'they don't mean it". I'm like mom I have fucking had enough of having to shrug everything off to get back home and cry or just shut down.
The older generation are so self-unaware and emotionally thick. Maybe my mom has autism too.. whatever I don't really care since she always comes up with excuses for it and pushes them onto me. Idk how I'm gonna get a diagnosis if she's just constantly chatting shit.
My dad's just a typical dad that just tells me to man up.
Sorry if this comes across as angry/bitter, it's probably because I am.
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aspergers
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Things like do you feel a need to wash your hands after opening the front door to put stuff outside, because the handle got touched by unwashed hands when you returned home... and such. After having OCD for way too long I've basically lost any understanding of what the "normal" living experience is like, and asking my friends everything feels way too awkward/intrusive plus some of the thoughts can be really triggering for them as well.
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OCD
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I need to tell my story to get relief.
I can't write my story because it triggers me.
I can't get therapy help because the trigger that made me remember exposes corrupt public employees and private professionals.
I need to tell my story to get relief......................................
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ptsd
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So the title says it all. At Thanksgiving last year (Canadian Thanksgiving eh) my sister went on this huge tirade about how she was just diagnosed with ADHD inattentive subtype and how I NEED to get tested cause she thought I had it to. I didn't think much of it and told her she was wrong. I had never researched ADHD so my only knowledge of it was the hyperactive type and figured since I wasn't hyper then she must be mistaken. I eventually started doing some research and suddenly so much of my life made sense. I have been significantly affected for most of my life.
So I've been trying to get diagnosed. I got a family doctor, took some online tests and brought in all my family medical history, I even expressed to my doctor I wanted to see a therapist who specializes in adult adhd. He referred me to a psychiatrist ( 8 month wait) but also a behavioral therapist. To my knowledge a behavioral therapist can not diagnose me but my doctor should be able to. Anyone else have this happen to them? Will my doctor diagnose me after this behavioral therapy appointment. I'm rather confused ad this has been taking months.
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ADHD
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I want to escape this mind... to exist outside of myself. A break, from the constant expense of surviving.
My heartworm accompanied the nighthawk with thoughts filled with anemoia.
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depression
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A few days ago, I asked my mom if she could get me tested for OCD. She got worried and she thought it was COVID at first because I didn’t tell her it was OCD I wanted to get tested for, and I was nervous to tell her at first. When I told her I wanted to get tested for OCD, she got angry at me and eventually shrugged it off like it was nothing. Idk if she’ll actually take me to get tested for this disorder, but I also feel doubtful about it, because I feel like she doesn’t take my mental/emotional health seriously. She only takes my physical health seriously, and I haven’t had leg pains in a while. When I do try to talk to her about my mental health, she gets angry and judges me, or says “You don’t have that.”.
Last time I told her I had OCD, she responded “If you did, the house would be spotless.”, and eventually she forgot about it. When I told that I wanted to get tested for it, she responded “Who told you that?” . She said she doesn’t remember me telling her that I have OCD. I feel like I’m starting to not like her anymore, after all the things she’s done and said to me as a kid.
I took several OCD tests online, and all of them came out positive or “very likely”. I want to get tested by someone, but I’m nervous because I think what if I’m pretending or lying to myself, or what if I get tested negative and my mom will get pissed off and ask me personal questions . I don’t want to be judged for this. I’m 19, and I first noticed my OCD symptoms when I was 14 or 13. I always had ADHD and social anxiety, and just realized I also have CPTSD. I’m learning more about myself, and I wish people would understand how I’m feeling and what I’m going through.
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OCD
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Mine was just now, as I was making a sandwich. I got the ham, cheese, and bread out. As I was in the process of unwrapping the cheese I remembered I forgot the Spicy Mayo. I put down the cheese on the bread and grabbed the mayo from the fridge. I spread the mayo and added the ham. I took my first bite, excited about enjoying my sandwich, and **shocker**, I had a mouth full of plastic. 🙃 Just a typical day w/ ADHD.
Edit: I’m proud of how this comment section turned out ya’ll 😅 thanks for sharing, keep it coming.
Common Themes: Burning food/house, losing keys/wallet, and forgetting anything and everything. I’ll update if I see more themes come up.
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ADHD
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Whats ACT therapy for OCD like? Any pointers that can be shown here?
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OCD
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I've very recently got a diagnosis for aspergers. All my life people have told me I can seem intimidating or unaffectionate, and now I realize it's probably because I was autistic and had no idea my behaviour was abnormal in any way. Having an extremely monotone voice doesn't help either (think like Daria Morgendorffer sorta tone).
I don't want people to think I'm evil or cold though, because I'm not - I just have difficulty showing how I feel. Is there any ways (no matter how subtle) I can start to show affection to people? I hate the idea that I'm probably making people in my family and my partner not feel loved.
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aspergers
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I just spent over half an hour gutting my house for my bottle... because the damn cats knocked it into a basket -_- And OF COURSE I could only find it AFTER I has written the whole day off as a loss thanks to the full-on anxiety attack that was about to turn into a bawling meltdown 🙃
...I'm TWO DAYS into being back on the meds that give me emotion regulation, and already managed to lose the bottle 😅 So I hope everyone else is having a better day
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ADHD
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I (F, 23) have a lot of psychology issues for a while now and i finally got the help i was waiting for so long. Story time:
I've been to a psychologist a lot and they tried to help me solve problems. But for every problem solved, another new one came around. I got medical issues and a loads of stress from small things.
It felt like my brain was made out of archive blocks. But those archive blocks weren't only on fire, a lot of them where already burned out, and turned to ashes. Really frustrating when someone asks you "Hey can you please get that specific document from that archive block in your head?". Me;" ehhm, no sorry. It got on fire and now its gone". "Well you should get it anyway, or there will me consequences."
Really frustrating. 24/7. Over a long period i got depressed and even suicidal. I really wanted it to end because life in my eyes was just too much of a hassle. What's the point of life when you grow up, work your whole life until retirement and then die? I wanted all the bullsht to end.
So after 3 months waiting, and postphoning my suicide i finally got someone who i think might help me. After my first conversation they told me they are sure I'm traumatized from certain events in my life. Not only am i traumatized (which they can help me with), they also suspect i might me autistisc or have Adhd. I get tested for both since i have a lot of traits that mix with both labels and they want to be sure.
If it turns out im autistisc, my whole life feels like a act. I've tried so hard over the years to fit in, to be normal. It would be a relief if someone told me im allowed to walk, instead of running all the time. I know this is something not to make jokes of, but i can't wait for the result. Im so nervous.
What if it's negative? Then im back to where i was. Being a soft special snowflake who can't control her emotions, has stress from the smallest things, and sometimes acts like she should be in a psychiatric ward.
Well anyhow, i just wanted to share it. Maybe there is someone out there, going through something similar. Keep in mind: english is not my native language, and this post was NEVER meant to hurt anybody, or make fools out of people with psychiatric conditions.
Lots of love 💕
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depression
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I am 21 years old and I was recently diagnosed with ADHD and prescribed 20 mg generic Adderall XR. I am nearing the end of day 3 taking my medication and so far the only time I really notice any affect is around 6-7 hours after taking it and from there it doesn't seem to last long (maybe an hour to hour and a half).
Has anyone else experienced this type of response to the medication?
How long should I keep taking this dosage before talking to my doctor about increasing it?
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ADHD
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I saw him, not 20 feet away from me. I dissociated through the whole thing but I did it. I can’t believe I did it. It’s the first of many appearances, but one step at a time. Now I just need to figure out how to not have nightmares tonight.
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ptsd
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I was doing so good almost a whole year with no flash backs. As we know yesterday was Father’s Day which I tried my best to just spend time with the people who I love and lift me up while also focusing on what makes me happy and that was great! But you still somehow managed to pop into my brain the day after a hole!! I am using the tools I’ve learned and you will not get in my head and if you do I’m using it as a learning experience!! You do not control me any more I am taking back my power!
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ptsd
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Hey guys, I’m recovering from a number of traumatic events. I feel like I’m on the right path, but for 5 days now, I have extreme exhaustion, and serious muscle ache / muscle swelling all over my body. I’m taking a COVID test everyday, and they’ve all been negative, but im wondering if anyone has experienced this? It’s completely debilitating. A short 10min walk is so tiring, and I have to rest, whereas usually I can run 10km comfortably with no muscle aches or anything similar. I would appreciate anyone’s thoughts if this could be coming from my PTSD. Thank you :)
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ptsd
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i’m not diagnosed or anything and i don’t want to dare misuse the diagnosis nor hurt anyone who has or deals with it.. but i want to know.. are these symptoms
flashbacks
anxiety
disassociation
cramps
possibly symptoms of Ptsd.. there’s some more descriptions but i don’t want to relapse myself,.. i just want to know if it’s a possibility for me as someone who’s has no health access atm (therapy, etc.)
i do not wish to make anyone uncomfortable or hurt or anything.. i just feel like since i have no access to help.. i feel like i should try and ask anyone who deals with this...
oh and btw you guys are so strong and beautiful and your pasts make you stronger! fight for another day! ♥️ im rooting for all of you
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ptsd
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I am an average/below average looking man. I know that men are supposed to be the ones that are supposed to be flirting and asking people out. But that is just not me. I guess i give of a bad vide too.
But i fell like there should have been at least one person flirting with me in an obvious way or asked me out on a date. It makes me feel ugly and unloved.
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aspergers
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I've found out that most people which have asperger's often stim to de-stress and to calm down after experiencing sensory overload. Do these habits develop on their own or do I need to somehow train them? Whenever I feel over-stimulated, I can't really do anything about it and slowly experience a complete meltdown which often involves self-harm to "calm myself down". I just.. don't feel autistic enough but at the same time, I still feel way too weird to caĺl myself "normal".
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aspergers
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I’ve had a lot of depressive episodes but lately they’ve gotten worse to the point where I feel behave a bit manic. I might stay up for days and not sleep doing meaningless tasks. I’ll be highly irritable which sometimes leads to suicide ideation and then active planning. Now I’m at a point where I’m afraid of something triggering these episodes where I feel unhinge and super low.
Is this normal and should I be medicated? If so, will the meds help me feel normal?
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depression
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I have ADHD and have ben diagnosed since i was 6 years old im 19 rn and a couple months ago got my first job. i’m not used to having to balance school and a job at the same time. I’m in community college in my 2nd year and i’m going to transfer to a different college soon.
I’m a full time student because of my scholarship. everyday I get stressed out because of all the homework that I have to catch up on, that i put it off till the next day. Then days go by and more late assignments accumulate. I don’t know how to fix this and im really struggling to keep my grades up.
Any advice?
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ADHD
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I’ve never been clinically diagnosed or seen for anything but about 2 years ago I hit a patch for about 6 months where every little thing would annoy me and I would snap and friends for no reason. I would cry myself awake and asleep every day. What I felt was impossible to explain. This was very dimmoralizing particularly as a male (I did self harm during this time and had multiple suicide scenarios planned in my head) Now I am starting to notice myself getting triggered by the exact same triggers and feel close to teetering over the edge. Is their anything I can do to help this?
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depression
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I cannot believe I even survived it. My ocd episodes hit bad at age 13 and then again at age 18. I suffered through it all by myself. I’m 28 now and I feel so bad for my younger self. We are warriors
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OCD
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All I want to do all day is eat, watch tv and play video games. I don’t care about my work or fitness or anything else. So I think I’m my head “I don’t want to take my meds because I don’t want to do any of this stuff anyway”. And I end up not taking them. I know this is bad. I find it so strange that only after I take my meds things seems magically interesting to me. Is there any way I can break this habit and just take them like I’m supposed to? Is it my adhd or am I just being lazy on top of it? I think maybe my depression makes me not WANT to do things and my adhd makes it so I CANT do things.
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ADHD
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Anyone else notice how, after being in a bad mental place for a long time, even short moments of silence feel almost euphoric?
Today, I'm able to be productive, and it makes me feel like a superhero.
I definitely had the worst depression I've had in years last night, but I felt so much better today. Not completely, but it's a huge relief to not be as depressed as I have been in the past.
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depression
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Have any of you ever run cross country or track in high school/ college?
They say cross country, along with swimming is one of the few sports people with ASD can actually excel in, partly because it’s one of the few sports that aren’t contact, that really don’t require hand eye coordination.
Thoughts?
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aspergers
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Currently 22 but from the span of 5th grade to about late 2018 I've experienced many traumatic events that have affected me. I grew up and still live within a heavy Mexican Machismo latinx household from family feuds brawls and growing under that machismo household I learned very quickly men don't cry and if you do you'll get smacked harder to cry for an actual reason and I've finally broke down beginning of 2021 and the biggest mistake I could've ever made was learning how to bottle up emotions so good that any traumatic event that occurred or had occurred I treated it as if nothing ever happened and now its crippling me all the emotions its so confusing hard and tiring im running circles in my head about what I would say how I would talk and or if im defective..... I feel like I'm being ripped apart I feel broken
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depression
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Going through a breakup. 5 year relationship. Been on autopilot for the past few weeks but now I am crashing hard. ADHD and insomnia - horrible, no social battery, daily panic attacks.
I have been in physical pain for days now. Like, it eases up but it comes right back in waves. I’m not just talking about your stomach feeling heavy or your chest feeling tight and sore, I feel it in my fingers, my legs, my toes, my fucking tongue??
I know it’s directly related to how sad I am, gets worse when I cry. I feel like I’m being torn apart. Cry from the mental pain then physically hurt anyway, why self harm when my body seems to do it by itself?
This is not the kinda synesthesia or sensory sensitivity I rate at all 🥲
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ADHD
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I was diagnosed three years ago and have been trying to recover. I found it relieving and coping through making fun of myself, and it became a habit of mine.
However, I recently habitually slipped a joke to a group I recently met. I am really concerned if that is appropriate or not. Should I bring this up to the members in that group? What other suggestions do people have?
Thanks,
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OCD
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Risperidone has made me fat, I was put on it when I was in a psych ward, I gained weight fast, now my Psychiatrist is prescribing me Aripiprazole, its meant to be better for weight and QT interval, two things that were of issue, as well as potentiation my other meds to increase the tranquilizer effects. Does anyone have experience going from risperidone to aripiprazole? What was it like? I'm so scared I'll end up harming myself and back in hospital.
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ptsd
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Have been on Lexapro for a month and a half for depression/anxiety and am seeing benefits. Have recently been prescribed Strattera after discussing with my Psychiatrist that I thought I have adhd. I would say I fall under the inattentive adhd type. Does anyone else here use this combination, if so, how has it worked for you?
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ADHD
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I was diagnosed with Pure O and I’m scared to engage in verbal debates simply because I stammer when I talk and go off into completely random tangents about certain subjects. Even online, I edit what I write 4 or 5 times before hitting post to make sure I have proper wording. Is anybody else like this?
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OCD
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I’m currently in high school searching through career options, and the few things I see my future self doing is either having a career in politics or a life dedicated to academics.
Since I was a child my dream has been becoming a professor and dedicate my life to learning and passing knowledge on and eventually apply my knowledges and skills onto politics, but of course ADHD is a massive rock in my path. I’m not able to treat myself and my symptoms have worsened with time, and although I plan on seeking treatment once I’m capable of maintaining myself I can’t help but wonder how hard will it be to follow a career which will expect of me a lot of speaking and organised thinking.
I hate knowing how capable and smart I am but sucking in expressing myself with spoken and written words, especially how every time I have a wide range of knowledge in a subject all I know suddenly disappears from my mind once I have to explain and/or write about it. (For example, I have a wide a vocabulary, but every single time I look for a specific word the definition disappears).
Even writing this post, — as effortless as it may seem — was painful.
Could someone with a similar career help me make sense of how those workplace dynamics work with ADHD?
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ADHD
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Why won't my brain just shut uppppppp
Like I'm so sick of imagining every possible scenario in my head like why cant it just be quiet
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OCD
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Ok I don’t know if I can post this here but I seen someone else do it here, and nobody answered when I posted this in a different group last week. Anyway r* trigger warning, I just want an answer to this. This is what I posted:
“I’m a 14 year old girl who was heavily involved in drugs and alcohol, and I needed my money so you probably know what I turned to. I was sleeping around for money and I know I’m disgusting, please don’t judge that or comment about it because I know I’m horrible. I posted this because I’m confused. There was a man who was probably 40 years old and he asked me to do strange things that I was very uncomfortable with. I remember I kept telling him I was uncomfortable with it, and I said no or stop but he did it anyway. At a certain point, after repeatedly saying stop, I just gave up. I realized he wasn’t going to stop no matter what I did. I realized I was stuck in that place. So was I consenting to it? I feel like I was since I gave up telling him to stop. Also, since I was a person who did stuff for money, would it count as r*? I just feel like the whole thing is entirely my fault, I feel like I should’ve known better and I caused all of this for myself. It disgusts me because I feel like I’m playing the victim, I feel like I deserve punishment. I feel like I deserve it all over again. I can’t get over these feelings of guilt, it’s so overwhelming. I have other experiences but I’m mentioning this one because he texted me today (I thought I blocked his number but I guess not). He threatened to do stuff to me again and described everything. I’m scared, I’ve been panicking so much. I know I deserve this but I’m terrified. It’s all my fault if it happens again, I’m so worthless. I’m useless. I can’t deal with these feelings anymore, I need an answer. So can someone help me out and tell me if this was r* or not? Did I consent to it or ask for it? I’m so confused. I should’ve known better, I absolutely disgust myself. I feel like I accepted this and asked for it and I’m making a huge deal out of nothing. Maybe I’m just overdramatic, maybe I’m the one who did the wrong here.”
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trigger warnings: suicide, cancel culture, guilt, real event OCD
Hi everyone, I posted about a week ago on this sub and I hope it's okay to post again.
The biggest thing I am faced with with OCD is a feeling of guilt. Right now I'm having the worst OCD flare up of the whole year and it's because I was peer pressured into doing something I feel so so guilty about. I told my parents individually and they both said it was okay and I shouldn't worry. They told me I was being silly by worrying so much. It's just that I have a really strong sense of right and wrong, like a black and white mentality, and I just feel awful for going against my moral code. I'm mad at my friend who pressured me into it, I'm mad at myself for not being stronger, etc.
When I feel guilty, it completely takes over me. I start obsessively trying to find comparative scenarios and think of how others would react to it. "Would it have been okay in this situation?" "How bad really was it?" "Has anyone else I know done it?" "Am I a bad person?"
Then I imagine if a celebrity did it how everyone would react. I obsessively read about celebrities being "cancelled." I can't even watch my favourite YouTubers without imagining how they would react if they knew. Sometimes it's hard to even watch a TV talk show because I keep imagining the presenters finding out being so disappointed in me and thinking I'm bad. It's exhausting because it's like having a constant Twitter stream in my head. I feel like the whole world would despise me. Then I imagine people's reactions. I have felt so genuinely guilty about this situation I imagine when I go to university this September, no one would want to be friends with me if they knew the truth.
I'm someone who's very sensitive to criticism. I try really hard to be good and to have people praise me. That's why I study so hard at school. But when I feel like this, every little bit of criticism hurts so bad. I'm terrified people will see me as a bad person. I imagine every bad thing I've done looming over me for the rest of my life. I can never have a good life because I'm forever tainted by what I've done. It makes me feel so hopeless that I sometimes think I should kill myself, or that I should commit suicide because I am too bad to be alive. I did CBT back in 2019, but it didn't really give me coping mechanisms for guilt.
How do you guys combat guilt? I don't even think I deserve self care or to praise myself. It's hard to even get up and shower as I have no energy. At work this week a customer even told me not to look so sad and I felt so embarassed. What do I do???
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OCD
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It's not only germs that I fear, but other things too. Especially chemicals. Most chemicals are not meant to be ingested, but it seems to easy to accidentally touch something, spread it around, and eventually ingest some amount of it next time you eat.
It seems there is always a reason to wash hands.
Are there any general principles or solid reasons that one should not be concerned about these types of things?
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OCD
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Hey everyone, i cant relate to anyone on here, i havent felt the way you all describe. But i would like some help on how i can talk to and help someone with depression.
I could go into more details but here is the jist. I have been dating this girl for 2 months. I really really like her. Things have been going great until messages slowed down. I asked her what happened and she said she is going through another bout of depression. I have seen her twice since then and still when we together i never want to be anywhere else. I have offered support, but she says she finds it difficult to talk about ( i dont want to push her to talk to me about it). I have now gone home for 3 weeks to see my family. I tried to see her before i left but it didnt work out, she was busy and didnt get back to me till the day, and was too sick and exhausted. I may have been a cunt by messaging her too much about plans and also asked if she could try and get to me more often so i know what is going on. I feel i was too pushy and she is mad at me and didnt get back to my last message apologising. She expressed in her last message how busy, sick, exhausted and stressed she is and it honestly hurts me she feel this way. I just want to help.
I know this isnt the place for relationship advice. I just would like to know your advice on what i can do to help, i feel i should give her some space. Like i said i cant relate to depression. But i want to understand it. Any advice is appreciated. Thank you in advance.
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Does anyone else think that a great way to describe having OCD is like having to play squid games but in your head 24/7. To be fair I haven’t watched the show but from what I understand!
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Hey guys, I’m feeling miserable and I don’t know what to do. I have pretty bad pure O OCD, and have gone through many different cycles throughout the years— sensory motor OCD, HOCD, POCD, and many others to name a few. My recent OCD has been this guy I am trying to get over. A couple months ago I ended a FWB situation with this guy who would talk to me everyday, initiate conversation all the time, but would never see me. He confused the hell out of me and we only met up like 6 times in 9 months. Finally I had enough of it and realized I liked him much more than he liked me (which is confusing as why would he message me so in-depth everyday for 8-9 months…?) and the last time we saw each other was around 05/20. We haven’t said a formal goodbye, and nor do I want to, but I can NOT stop obsessing about him— how he never cared for me, how embarrassed I feel that he didn’t like me as much as I liked him, and what he’s doing with his life. Every minute of the day he’s on my mind. It brings me extreme discomfort and the entire time, my mental alarm is going off and saying “STOP THINKING OF HIM, YOU WILL BE IN LOVE WITH HIM FOREVER IF YOU DONT STOP THINKING”. So then I try to analyze and rationalize why I’m thinking of him— so when I try to stop thinking of him, the intrusive thoughts get worse, and when I try to analyze and accept my thoughts they get worse because then I start to dwell on the situation. I’ve tried to limit stalking his profiles, but I’ve done it a couple times a week where I stalk him and his sisters profiles on social media, and I relapse all over again. We’re not friends or following each other on anything, because I removed him from everything a few months ago, because we realized our feelings weren’t mutual.
I hate this man and I WANT him out of my head and I can’t believe he mixed with my OCD. Makes me scared to ever love again, because I’m going insane here. I want to get over him and have a day where I don’t think of him but I am going crazy and at this point would be so blessed if I can get an HOUR without him
In my head. I’m terrified and traumatized and I don’t want to love a man again if this is what’s going to happen everytime.
Help me, I’m terrified when will I stop thinking of this guy
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Tired of fighting with myself. Tired of being in counseling and talking about the same thing and still feeling like this. I’m doing everything I should be doing. My therapists praises me constantly because of it. But it’s just not working. I don’t want to do it today. So if you could just drop a picture of your pet and make my day just a little better that’d be dope…wishing you all the best.
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I have issues with maths, I don't understand how is supossed to work, I used to see math problem with real things, drawing sticks and grouping them to do divisions, so now I can't see maths as real things and now I can't do anything, when I try to understand the matter and listen to the teacher my brain simply stop wotking and I feel anxeous and stressed
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I have diagnosed PTSD and I was in a car accident today, and thankfully came away relatively unscathed. The nature of my trauma is very different (sexual assault), but before therapy I was exceedingly overwhelmed by anything I perceived as stressful, to the point that I was either dissociated or having very negative thoughts for weeks at a time over balancing classes and volunteer work, nonetheless an accident that seriously damaged my car and probably would have hospitalized a passenger had I had one.
First of all, I was most upset because it isn't my car. My SO took out a lease before we met, but recently changed jobs and now works within walking distance of our place. We have just started sharing the car regularly, as I started work a couple weeks ago and am working mostly from home, but had to go into the office to get a few things done in person today. I'm not on his insurance yet because we honestly just forgot to switch me over, but the car itself is insured and I am covered individually as a driver on my parents' insurance still.
I'm about to go into details about the accident/my *MINOR* injuries vs the damage/my reaction, so
**TW: CAR CRASH**
I was turning left at an intersection onto the main road in my major city that is under heavy construction (turn lane my side blocked off, barrels setting new lanes on all 4 sides) on a late yellow light. It had been yellow for a few seconds when I got into the intersection, as a few cars were ahead of me and there is only one lane at the moment. Admittedly, I probably should have just played it safe and stopped behind the line, but I had already rolled into the intersection and saw that the car coming the other direction was pretty far back, so I (wrongly) assumed he would stop. I personally believe he sped up to try to make the light and would have run it as a red, as he admitted to me that he had an appointment that was 1-2 mins before the crash, according to the time I called the police.
Essentially, he hit the car squarely in the passenger side, despite/because I sped up to try avoid colliding, so I maneuvered it between some of the construction barrels, into a spot out of the way of traffic, and immediately called 911, as he drove down the street far enough (to get out of the way of traffic) that I couldn't tell if he had kept driving or had stopped. I immediately noticed that the passenger side window, which I had left half-up, had shattered across me and out my window (fully down). The first thing I did was get out of the car, since I wasn't sure the extent of the damage and I wanted to make sure I could still walk and move normally. It was the first time in a long while that I felt my life was in danger. The passenger side airbags deployed. Thankfully I only got a small, shallow cut on one of my fingers, a few seat belt bruises, and some minor whiplash, so it is nothing that requires medical attention.
Some very kind pedestrians and witnesses who had also been in cars stopped to make sure I was okay; one woman even waited until I was speaking to the other driver, knew he was not irate/going to hurt me, and was okay with her leaving. I really appreciate her and will never forget that, even though I'll probably never know her name.
I immediately called my SO, and luckily because I was so close to home when it happened, he was in walking distance and made it there about 20-30 mins after the accident. I managed to gather myself, find the registration and insurance, and have a rational conversation with both the other driver and the police officer who showed up to take our statements. The cop was super condescending to me, but didn't cite or ticket me 'because he was in a good mood', but more likely because my car was the one that got royally fucked. The other driver was in a huge SUV, I was in a two-door coupe, and he had some minor bumper damage and a broken headlight. Our passenger door was caved in so deeply that my backpack's strap (it was on the passenger seat) got stuck between the seat and door and I had to yank it free.
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**ANYWAYS, \[TW\] over**
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I'm just really thankful that no one was hurt and that I was able to handle it without dissociating or having a panic attack. This is so far from how I was a year and a half ago, it's honestly a world of difference. It feels surreal that I'm well enough to have graduated and gotten a full-time job in the first place dealing with PTSD, nonetheless managed to stay calm in a stressful situation when my adrenaline was racing and I had to speak to a police officer (anyone carrying a gun terrifies me, even the very sweet guards at my dispensary) and a random man I expected to be aggressive with me/ angry towards me.
Therapy and the right anti-depressants can work wonders folks :)
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P.S. I mentioned my trauma, which originated solely from my interactions with men, which is why I included the detail about all parties involved except for me being male. I inherently trust strangers who present as women far more than those I perceive as cis men, since that is the overarching connection between those who have traumatized me. Aka I tend to get anxious having to interact with men I don't know, especially those who have some form of authority or present a physical threat.
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I’m such a dummy. I went to the library for the first time and checked out a few books. There is no technical late fee, so I kind of just kept them despite the 2 week return policy. I kept getting emails to return them but was like, eh, I can do that some other time. Two months later, I am now being charged for the books I checked out. I knew full & well I had to return them, I just kept pushing it off for no apparent reason and then forgot about it until now. I’m assuming I can still bring them in without the charge, because I do in fact have them. Agh. Why do I do this?!
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ADHD
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Im tired of fighting if at the end of the day i’m always going to have ocd. Ocd really messes up my life and there’s nothing i can do, I have tried everything to make it less powerful but nothing helps, not erp therapy, not meds, nothing helps. Even my psychiatrist said i might be one of the ocd suffers who can’t simply get better.
Man… i just want to be someone else and be able to enjoy life…
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i hesitate to say i have ocd because i haven’t been diagnosed but i definitely have an obsessive compulsive habit (amongst other things that make me think it’s likely that i have ocd) that’s been driving me up the wall for months. i have bad dental anxiety that isn’t unfounded and as a result i literally can’t stop running my tongue over my gums and teeth to see if my gums are receding or teeth are thinning. i’m hyperconcious of my teeth at basically every waking moment which is really starting to get to me. i’m worried i’m making any potential issues worse by constantly irritating my gums but i don’t know how to stop. does anyone have advice on how to control compulsions that aren’t visible or that don’t involve your hands? or can anyone relate to this?
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OCD
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So I’m kinda just now realizing how fucked up I am. I thought this was kinda normal like those memes of staying up late thinking of a stupid thing you did. But like I sometimes hyperventilate when it happens, my mind is just kinda pulled into it and I have to ground myself when I’m in Public (so it’s just a sharp inhale) sometimes I freeze up. Like I didn’t even want myself to breath. I have an anxiety disorder and I know I am 100% traumatized but do you think I have ptsd?
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ptsd
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I thought I was in love with my job, I'm a line cook who wants to be a chef. I've had a love for food and cooking since I was really little. You know how they say find your forever fixation and you will excel at your job. I thought I found mine after a year at culinary school I was like yes this is it. But, now I'm working in a kitchen and I'm just hit constantly by this low energy moments were all I want to do sleep or cry or really low depressive days that leave my brain feeling numb. The amount of stuff I forgot my chef told me just puts me in a funk. Were I feel like I lied to myself do I really want to do this? I'm I only making my mental health worse by pushing myself to do this? Just what if what you thought was your forever job ends up not filling the need? What if you already spent the time and money and worked in the field befor but now you feel unmotivated to keep going?
Sorry long post
My job made me rethink if I actually want to keep doing it since it keeps leading to burn out and crashes and sometimes I feel like I'm not improving.
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ADHD
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Hi Reddit! I am a 40 year old male and I have complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. I though I had left the trauma behind me but it turns out I had only buried it deeper. I'm writing about my experience with stomach pain and lack of appetite in hopes it will support others with similar issues. Please do not consider this medical advice.
I first started experiencing symptoms about two years ago when the world went into lockdown. I would be hungry all the time but have no appetite. Coupled with the pain in my stomach it was nearly impossible to force any food down. I could chew a piece of food forever but trying to swallow it would make me gag. I'd sit and stare at my favorite steak and potatoes for an hour before tossing it in the trash, still hungry and in pain. I started drinking a lot of soup. For the past two years my diet consisted mostly of soup, at least until late at night when the symptoms would subside.
I went to several doctors, all with a different diagnosis. The GP said I had heartburn and put me on antacids. The nutritionist told me I was eating wrong and put me on a FODMAP diet. The psychiatrist told me I had cPTSD and put me on SSRIs. The gastroenterologist told me I had H. Pylori so I had a endoscopy. The neurologist told me I may have a tumor pressing against something so I had an MRI. My liver, heart and spleen were all checked. After a year of this and $20,000 worth of medical bills later, nothing helped. In fact the several SSRIs I tried all made it worse with additional symptoms like emotional numbness.
Feeling hopeless, I started smoking cannabis to self-medicate. This worked wonders for my stomach pain and appetite for about half a year but I would only be hungry for snacks. I began consuming an ungodly amount of snacks including sweets, which I usually hate. I began to experience new symptoms: fatigue, intermittent crashes throughout the day, brain fog and constant pooping, which I attributed to cannabis and my over-eating. The weed was helping me somewhat with the symptoms but the underlying issue was not being addressed. I was still experiencing stomach pain and lack of appetite, I was just able to eat over it. I didn't feel I could use cannabis as a healthy long-term solution so I found myself googling for answers again at square one.
At this point I felt that my pain was likely psychosomatic as I had been probed and tested every which way for physical causes and all of those have returned negative. It's also been well documented that a common symptom of PTSD was stomach pain and lack of appetite.
Further reading showed that stomach pain from PTSD is caused by an imbalance in cortisol levels. I did have several of the symptoms of high cortisol: rapid weight gain (mainly in the face and mid-section) contrasted with slender arms and legs, a flushed and round face, skin sensitivity, muscle weakness, mood swings and irritability. My stomach pain and lack of appetite would always be the strongest in the morning and lessen at night, which coincided with the way cortisol levels usually appear. In contrast, my symptoms when I smoked cannabis coincided with low levels of cortisol or adrenal fatigue.
I've just found all this out this afternoon and made an appointment with my GP to confirm with proper testing, but for the first time in two years I feel like I finally have a viable solution and wanted to share. I hope this will help anyone with similar problems.
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18, high school dropout (not by choice) from South Africa. Can't find a job anywhere, don't have any experience. Lost my will to live about 2 years ago. Only thing that I still enjoyed was video games, but my PC got stolen in this shit country. I have nothing left, all I do is wake up everyday and sit on my couch for hours, doing nothing. Give me a reason to keep going and I might consider it.
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depression
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A decade later and I just realized today how damaging being yelled at by my parents was. If my younger siblings cried, my parents would yell at me even if I was far away from my siblings and didn’t do anything to them. I stayed in my room often so I wouldn’t get in trouble for something they fabricated in their heads when my siblings cried. If I said the wrong thing, things were taken away, grounded, or I was met with a slap. I was a quiet child, I always tried my best to stay out of trouble. When my parents divorced, they both yelled or argued at me trying to convince me to be on their side and that the other parent was bad. Parents fought with yelling matches, one would be drunk and chase the other and fall on stairs, knock over dressers in anger. If I spoke back, no matter what I said they would get even more mad and even more louder. I blame them for why I’ve always felt like I have no voice and for why I freeze.
Today my partner made plans with friends even though we already had plans together. I told him we already have plans and he got mad asking me “Should I call to cancel with them then?!” And I just couldn’t say a word. I felt almost like I was choking. I was trying not to cry or to move. I felt like ‘maybe if I say nothing he’ll stop.’ He kept asking me why I wasn’t saying anything and why I was ignoring him, that it was really annoying him. After maybe 30 minutes we were going where we had planned to go and I finally broke out of it and cried. We parked and he said we could sit there for however long I needed. I was able to start talking after I calmed down a bit and tried explaining how he was upsetting me and that if he accidentally makes other plans all he has to do is call his friends and apologize to them that he forgot he already had plans for today. He sometimes would speak in a tone that I perceived as an angry tone which made me cry again and I had a flash of how my parents would speak to me like that. I said “I wasn’t ignoring you. Idk what the term is but I think what’s been happening is I freeze when faced with an argument or yelling because of the paragraph above. He stopped and realized, apologizing a bunch. I’m glad he finally understands.
All in all, how do you overcome a freeze response? I don’t have money for therapy.
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ptsd
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Recently I was officially diagnosed with ADD (ADHD inattentive type) by a psychologist. I went in today to inform my doctor. She wants me to see a psychiatrist first to confirm the diagnosis and then to assess me herself after, before prescribing pills.
When I came in for bipolar disorder, they started me on the medication before I was even diagnosed.. I waited a year and a half (while taking bipolar medication) before I got a psychologist to diagnose me officially.
The psychiatrist she has me talking to is awful. He didn't want to diagnose me, he doesn't listen and he judges me. I have bipolar disorder, PSTD, OCD and ADHD, I am not functioning properly. I need to talk to a sympathetic psychiatrist, not this one. The doctor said he is the only psychiatrist she can find that is accepting patients and if I can find a better one she would use that one.
So why now that I am diagnosed do they want to get a second opinion before medicating me? So now I have to trust this psychiatrist to diagnose me properly (if he even will) before I can get medication.
When I was officially diagnosed, I was so relieved because that meant some more of my problems will be improving soon. I had so much hope for today at the doctors. Now I feel deflated. I just think it's bizarre that they would medicate me for bipolar disorder and not diagnose me, but won't medicate me when I have a diagnosis for ADHD.
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ADHD
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I posted here a couple of months ago, and I was drunk and too socially anxious to ever try connect with people again ...
If anyone is brave, check out my history and message me here. I really do wish to chat with people.
I'm a young most likely aspie woman, and I'd love a chat with people who have felt lost and feel themselves most at home with other likeminded people.
Any Qs, approach me.
Ty
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I’m a first-year in college and I have to look for internships because it’s a requirement for my degree to have industrial experience.
It’s so confidence-shattering seeing some of the requirements for these internships and realising I have none of the experience, ambition or even transferable skills like “ability to influence others” that they’re looking for. I feel like I have nothing to offer the world in my career because despite having a great education and going to an amazing college, I am useless. I can probably get some of that experience by next year’s internship applications, but realising how little value I have now just makes me sad and hopeless.
I don’t know what I’m looking for by posting this, I suppose I just want someone to help me not feel hopeless because it’s like I can’t see any of the good things in life anymore after realising how worthless I am.
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depression
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I have PTSD, and I was wondering if anyone was willing to share their experiences with insomnia.
For me, it is chronic sleep management insomnia…
I cannot choose when I go to sleep. and when I sleep, I wake up and just kinda can’t fall back asleep. All while being extremely restless and agitated. I have problems going to sleep and I have problems with my ability to fall back asleep.
I do not have nightmares. (I don’t even DREAM for that matter, really…) 💀
How do you experience insomnia? I’d love to hear your experiences.
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ptsd
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Just got a minor rotator cuff injury that I wanted to rest so I didn't lift for a week and it was the worst I have felt in a long time. Just lifted today and there goes the depression and suicidal thoughts. Seriously, everyone go give lifting a try. If you need to know a good training split you can do 3x a week message me. Just practice great technique and stick to the basic movements (Deadlifts, Squats, Bench Press, Rows.) I promise its 100 times more pleasant than running for most people once you get technique down (which is the boring part.) Make sure you're eating a lot of protein and getting sleep, which we're all pretty good at in this sub. Give all your effort to to stay in a routine for 3-4 weeks and then ideally you will want to go the gym. If not at least you tried. Thanks for reading.
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depression
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I don’t know if I have depression but I will have random thoughts pop in my head and bad situations that happened to me. Is there a way to get around that?
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depression
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When I was in school this girl made up a horrible rumour about me and twisted a story to make me look really bad. This happened months ago. And now I’m starting to get thoughts that she is right and I did do the horrible thing she said. Has anyone experienced something like this before? Is this ocd related??! I’m thinking (unwanted thinking) to confess to some of my loved ones even though it’s not true. I feel like im going insane!!
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OCD
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Please let go of me
I Suffocate under the weight of what you did to me. I wake up in the middle of the night often to the vision of your face, to the feel of your weight holding me down, to the sound of your labored breath hot against my skin. My pleas echo through my brain begging you to stop. I said no, so why didn’t you stop? I said no more than once so I know you heard me. I awake in the middle of the night in agony, I relive what you did to me over and over again. The fear rips though my entire being, and shatters my soul. I’m so sorry that I exist in a world where you felt the need to break me, I’m so sorry for whatever I did to provoke you but please let go of me.
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ptsd
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I spent 900 euro on a gaming computer and bought hoi4 and no mans sky. BUT OF COURSE im to fucking slow to understand anything in the game and i think i give up. i guess i cant even enjoy myself without being reminded how slow and worthless i am. i wish i was aborted
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aspergers
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Edit: TL;DR it's called "time squared" though there's a bunch of apps that do something similar
So, my problem with the strict "20 minutes on, 5 minutes off" is that I'd often want to work longer than 20 minutes or take a longer break, and the timer apps don't make it easy to adjust your times or be flexible. The second Id break the regimen, I'd stop using it.
My ADHD coach then recommended trying a stopwatch, so I could hit play when I started working and pause during breaks. The problem with this was that I kept forgetting to hit play or pause, and then you can't go back and manually change your time. Also with this you can only measure work time, not break time, and I couldn't find a good app that allowed me to track my times over a long period.
Finally, I found this app that allows you to "clock in" and "clock out" as if I was self-employed. This is perfect because it allows you to go back and adjust your times if you forget to hit the button, and keeps track of your weekly work and break times. It can even send notifications around the time I'm supposed to start working!
This is really helpful because it makes me aware of if I'm taking too much time for breaks or not enough. Also, if I'm on track with my school work I know that I'm putting in the right amount of time weekly, and if I'm behind I know I need to put in more. I have a general idea about how much I'm doing and how much I need to do daily.
Sorry for the essay, hope this is helpful to somebody at least!
The app I'm using is called "time squared" on the play store, but there are apparently a ton that work similarly!
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ADHD
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