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I'm 25 an was diagnosed as an adult. Which was an absolute blessing. But does anyone else feel like they have certain levels of medication "windows" so to speak. To explain, take 2 in the morning, and time the next dose right, whole day I'm perfectly in control and excelling, misstime it too early or worse, too late....
And you still have the focus but can't actually direct it so the skin picking and "dissociative/unproductive" (for lack of better words) thoughts sort of lock in.
Side note: this is easily affected in either direction by my workload or I think blood sugar (how recently, and what, I've eaten)
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My PTSD has recently gotten worse. Nightmares are fine, I take cyproheptadine for that, but daytime PTSD has been *way* worse recently. Talked to my psych today, and he prescribed clonidine for that. I’m curious if anyone else takes it? How long did it take to help? My psychiatrist didn’t give much info, just that it’s normally prescribed for kids with PTSD
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I went through something very traumatic last year with someone I cared for deeply and even a year later I still don't feel okay. My sex drive practically disappeared and I have dryness almost constantly and more recently I've noticed instead of getting turned on when my partner touches me it just tickles. Even my genitals when I masturbate it feels like I'm being tickled. I tried googling it and from what I read it's because I don't feel safe and feel the need to protect my body? Is that true? Can anyone relate? 😥
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As an athlete, one thing I need to work on is my mobility but every single time I try to stretch statically, staying still in any position for longer than 15 seconds seems to trigger an insane amount of anxiety or panic.
For some backstory, I've been super recently diagnosed at the age of 22 (just this past week) and was looking for and coping mechanisms to help with being able to tolerate 'calm' stuff like yoga/meditation.
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Hi, I asked this on r/AskDocs because I wanted to at least get a semi-professional advice on it.
But I’m also a curious, does this happen to anyone else with ptsd? Is this ‘normal’ or at least to be expected? Or do I have a different mental disorder I should be worried about?
For reference, I had nightmares and flashback a few weeks ago. It did shake me and my symptoms have been getting worse since.
Basically it feels like not understanding what you’re reading? Like you’re reading it over and over again and it just doesn’t make sense? Or sometimes my brain would only absorb parts of it. Not necessarily limited to reading, sometimes I also struggle with verbal instructions. It could be as simply worded as an ELI5 post.
Currently my anxiety is through the roof but me not being able to understand is aggravating it because not only it is frustrating it can also be a little embarrassing.
I am financially struggling at the moment but am planning on booking a session if things go well for me this week.
For those who are familiar with this, how did you guys cope? Does this require medications?
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I 16F, recently got out of an abusive relationship with my ex 15M.
I have been suffering from depression/panic distorder my entire life and was recently diagnosed with PTSD after getting out of the relationship and telling people what had happened to me.
We were together for 7 months and it started out great, after about 3 months he started becoming more manipulative and eventually he started choking me when he was upset. Looking back i can notice a lot of signs of him being abusive even at the start of the relationship, for example he would regularly provoke and make fun of his mentally ill mom when she was having an episdoe and he started doing the same to me when i would have panic attacks. He would tell me i was embarrasing him and i was being selfish for expecting him to comfort me during them when they were hard on him too.
At around 4 months he slowly became an everyday smoker and when he was high he would be a lot more abusive. The choking started to become almost every day even when i begged him to stop. One incident happened when i got way too high and had a panic attack in front of his friends. He was angry at me and when we got to his house he r\*ped me while i was too high to move. I repeadedly asked him to stop and tried to push him off but i was too weak and was barely able to move. He was sober. After that i would get flash backs to the incedent and get panic attacks a lot more often. I was vomiting almost every day from anxiety and one time when he attemted to assault me again while we were both high and i threw up on him.
About a month ago he cheated on me and then broke up with me at school in front of everyone. I was heartbroken but relived at the same time. I told my mom what happened and I told my therapist and the school and reported it to the police.
I still throw up from anxiety a lot and i have been getting what i think are derealization episodes. I was givin hydroxyzine for the anxiety but i have run out and i cant get my perscription refilled. i have been on prozac for about a year and i think i would be in a much worse place without it. I havent been able to sleep and have been waking up from nightmares and flashbacks almost every night. The only thing that seems to help is talking to people but during the relationship i stopped talking to all my friends so i have no one to really talk to but my mom.
I want to know if it gets any better, I want to be able to talk to people again but im too anxious and i end up ghosting people i do talk to because i am so scared. Has anyone had similar experiences? I know im young but im worried it'll effect me for the rest of my life.
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Hello all, I am searching for some simple advice. I have a small, self-inflicted cigarette burn on my right (dominant) arm. It is not noticeable to others, unless I point it out to them, because it is only 1 cm in length. However, over the last 4 months or so, I have become deeply obsessed with this scar, and I have this belief in my head that I cannot live any longer if the scar is still on my body because it is so ugly to me and I inflicted it myself (it shouldn’t be there but I put it there). I graduated college last May and I haven’t found a job because I am not functional whatsoever. All I do, from the moment I wake up, until I go to sleep, is think about the scar. I have alot of rumination regarding the moment that I burned myself, and the regret and anger towards myself regarding the inflicting the scar is very deep since it will be on my body forever. I feel as though I have maimed my body, and I am now worthless. I cannot comprehend how I will go on to live a happy, productive life if the scar is still there because I have to see it everyday and my body is no longer “perfect.” Do you all think that I need OCD/BDD oriented treatment? I have tried regular CBT, and it has not been helpful in the slightest. I am growing weary of living with this everyday, and it truly feels as if I am living in hell. Any advice would be so incredibly appreciated, and if anyone would like to chat further, feel free to PM me.
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Just wanted to post in hopes that I could feel more human and less like a scumbag.
I suffer from Depression, anxiety, OCD and BP1. And I thought I was in a pretty great place…until a few weeks ago.
I went on a date with a guy. And it went great. We grabbed a few drinks, talked, and ended the night with a kiss. It was nice. The next day, we texted and sent each other a few snapchats back and forth, then after that was radio silence…the first day I was fine. Second day my anxiety spiked. And the third day was when I just lost my cool. Texted him anxiously like 8 times. He eventually responded. But then no more. So I impulsively did it again, to no avail. And then I just felt this obsessive urge to apologize for my behavior which I ended up succumbing to…I sent him over 40 apologetic messages in total on a handful of different platforms, just to convince myself he received it. Super shitty of me. Super creepy of me. I just feel like garbage for letting my obsessive thoughts take control of my actions.
I have gone no-contact and blocked him everywhere.
I recognize and understand that there is absolutely no coming back from this, and that the best way to “make it well” with this person is to just continue no contact.
I know I deserve to feel the way I do.
It just sucks. I know I fucked up. I wish I could turn back the clock and just…find myself a coping mechanism and not do all this nonsense. At this point I’m way past even romanticizing this person, I just feel so fucking awful for what I did to them.
Sorry for the rant. Has anyone ever gone through anything even remotely similar? I guess I just want to feel a little bit more human or something. Hope everyone is having a great day.
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This is a sort of mix of a need to vent/express frustrations and an inquiry as to how those in the autism community are able to be content and perhaos take pride in themselves despite their condition.
The issue is that when it comes to what I and most of those in this community struggle with or may be unable to do, the more difficult it can be to see myself as valid. Now I realize this won't apply to \*everyone\* with this condition. There will always be outliers worthy of being celebrated. But for me and I imagine a lot of others with this condition, the limitations can make it especially hard to maintain positive mental health when I think about them. They include the following.
Not being able to manage working more than one full time job at a time while also maintaing good health, fitness, relationships, mental stability and being able to pursue any sort of passion and interest outside work. Or being able to manage a particularly demanding, high poressure job while doing all of this at the same time.
Be able to quickly learn fundamental life skills such as how to fix cars or appliances when needed, build furniture, houses, machines, computers - unless they're tech savants but this isn't necessarilty the majority - quickly and without needing a blueprint or instructions. Even more so if it was a situation where they had to build, say, a small house or something similar from scratch and were tasked with doing the project themselves.
Be able to protect themselves or others in a crisis, such as unexpected natural disasters, someone being attacked in a street, bar or subway, being able to correctly administer aid, or being able to not meltdowen if a crisis happens when they're focused on other tasks.
Be able to focus on more than one task at once while not consistentlty neglecting one for the other. Be able to manage mutliple basic tasks such as taxes, bills, expenses, cleaning, credit, fixing things around the house, handlign money, finding where to rent and so on.
Be able to play sportd of any kind. Now again, I know it's not absolute; there are undoubtedly great athletes, including those who made it to where they can play professionally, who have autism and/or related conditions. But as a population, their abilities here are going to be drastically lower.
And as noted, this is not \*all\* those with this condition but as a group, proportionately, way more of them than NTs will have the above and other difficulties. Meaning that it can be impossible to avoid being looked down on severely. When people talk of how inept and useless Millenials and Gen Z are, those with this condition, in terms of the group, are often going to be seen as the worst examples. Due to how unattractive these qualities are, perhaos especially in men, dating and marriage prospects are going to be slim to nonexistent for a lot of them and so being single is something they must adapt to. The culture around them can't tell them apart from agitators who are just lazy, entitled and inept. And it makes it feel less sincere to be called differently abled, and certainly for it to be a superpower, given these issues.
In light of all that, what strategies work when it comes to being content and possible even proud of who and what you are?
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I can't remember the last time I cried but I just got out of the bath after an hour or crying and feeling crushed. And all because I felt overwhelmed by such small things.
I've recently been in hospital for a chest infection and I'm still not fully fit, but today I managed to clean my room and clean my kitchen. But then I saw that my stairs needed hoovering, I have a wardrobe I really need to build/put up, and a pile of washing which I can't even wash until I have a wardrobe.
Then there's little things like having to make a phone call, renew my car insurance, sort out Xmas presents, keep in contact with a girl I've recently started dating, and it's all making my head spin in circles. So all I end up doing is lying on my sofa scrolling reddit.
Luckily I have a great family and my dad came round to my place and took the pile of clothes to wash, and said he'll help with some of the other stuff at the weekend.
But I'm 24 years old, why can't I do this shit myself? Why does it get so overwhelming?
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Hey friends! I've moved from a small village where I lived my entire life to the big city yesterday!! Tomorrow I'm starting my university and I'm wandering how to look like one of them neurotipicals. I've had many many encounters in the past that I just saw I was not dressed like everyone else, and I think it makes people regard me less.
So, what advice can experienced aspies give a guy in his 20s trying to blend in with normal folks?
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I started taking my ADHD seriously in my Mid 30s and noticed I’m not interested in any hobbies. I planned on getting into comic books but never could finish reading them. Whenever I plan to start a hobby it feels like I have no energy. I’m still able to do my job competently ( I’m a cable technician) but outside of that I have no energy. I’m on a generic version of Adderall (15mg) and anti-depressants (10mg).
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just curious how often those on the spectrum don't fit the classic stereotype
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**TL;DR:** *Brain decides it doesn't want to work today, got a tornado of thoughts in my head, meds don't do much today, I'm sad and confused. Help, advice or experiences would be appreciated.*
Hey guys, today is one of those off days.
I should be working on my Master thesis or something else University related, instead my brain decided it was gonna take a vacation and cruise around, thinking about everything and nothing at all at the same time. My meds (Vyvanse/Elvanse, 50mg) aren't really helping today (usually they do, so that's nice).
I know not to be harsh with myself, sometimes the ADHD just hits you differently and since my diagnosis and starting medication, it has gotten significantly better overall. But sometimes even the meds and all coping strategies can't make up for a brain that's hardwired to *not* work as intended in an academic field where constant work and progress is required. I know I can catch up on my work, I know my supervisors will likely be understanding, and I know that a calmer day where I can just follow the flow won't be a bad thing. It just sucks because I wanted to do productive stuff today.
For everyone on here with similar "bad brain days", how do you deal with them? Would really appreciate advice or experiences.
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i was already lagging on taking my meds. then i run out. finally get myself to the pharmacy.. they don’t have the med & won’t be in stock for 2 weeks, if that. it’s been over 2 weeks that ive been off my meds. called the doc, went back to the pharmacy, no avail.
really needed to do well this quarter so i could get my gpa up to get into nursing school.
i previously attended business school abroad which i dropped out of cause of a mental break down. have hefty loans which have gone to the country’s collection agency.
found a dm from my ex saying his heart was at peace. this was 2019. my heart still hurts & it’s been 6 yrs since we broke up…
i have no social life.
can’t remember the last time i showered. skin care down the drain.
im currently in norway doing school online from cali cause of the pandemic so my circadian rhythm is all out of whack. the dark winter doesn’t help. it affects my gma & i feel super guilty but i kno im trying my best.
my gpa passed away this fall & i’m processing but just wasn’t ready to lose him.
these are my depression grievances. i kno ive come a long way. here’s to the journey…
just needed to rant. feeling hopeless but always got faith.
thanks for reading <3
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Had an appointment today with my psychiatrist if that’s what u call it n she’s mentioned I need CBT as it can help with learning how to cope with ocd. Has anyone had any experience with this and does it make a difference?
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So, ive been suffering from ocd since 5th grade or somewhere around there, im currently in high school. My OCD started off with me sliding my fingers down my desk and once i reach the edge i have to slide my fingers down from slightly higher than last time, i keep doing it until i reach the end of the desk and after that i start panicking, i get filled with so much anxiety for no reason and i just grabbing the edges of the desk with my fingertips and aggressively sliding from top to middle when my fingers meet because im grabbing both sides and it keeps happening i just cant stop it for the life of me, it frustrates me to the point where the only way to stop it is to bail on everything i was doing and try to fall asleep, atleast for until my head clears, i also have aphantasia, and that means i cant imagine things in my head so all i see when my eyes are closed is black rather than being able to imagine and picture things, i use it to my advantage alot because if i just close my eyes and put on noise cancelling headphones, everything is gone, i kinda just got carried away rambling lmao i like writing sorry
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I've noticed really recently that I do that sometimes and it kinda scares me.
like sometimes I will be confused about the year for ex, like I won't fully believe its 2021, I'll feel like it's the year of my worst trauma. as in I'll feel like it's not possible for the current year to what it is bc in my mind there's still a few years between *now* & 2021 while also knowing it is 2021. Its like I'm simultaneously back then & in the present. sometimes I'll even accidently put that year in dates.
I also feel the same for my age at times, like I'll know how old I really am but I also feel viscerally like I'm the age of one of my traumas and my current age is so old and far away, and that it's impossible I'm that age bc k still have a couple years before I'd be that age. like I really feel like I'm split.
other times I'll completely act & think for a few minutes or a few seconds like how I did at those ages. it's super visceral and freaks me out so much. or I'll even think or very strongly feel like I'm those ages (still with awareness mostly that I'm not. but sometimes there's no awareness for a few seconds.. )
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I had a work related accident. Attacked by a dog. About 90 stitches in the face and ten in the hand. So today’s my deposition day. I’ve never done one before so that’s scary. But then just having to answer their questions and go through that day again. I’m still so damn angry about so much, so I’m also nervous about keeping cool and collected. I just feel sick. Any advice?
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I went through an event a in February and have since been diagnosed with PTSD.
I am struggling with feeling frustrated that my mind won't let me get over this. I want so badly to be able to let it go/accept it/not let it be in the background or forefront of my thoughts all the time.
I want to be able to watch tv, read, or walk down the street without something putting me in flight, fight, or freeze. I feel like it happens often.
I was diagnosed with two mental health issues close to a decade ago so I do have some coping mechanisms in my inventory though as I recently moved towns both my psychiatrist and psychologist are very new to me. Also PTSD doesn't really translate to the other issues I have.
I've started EMDR therapy and neurofeedback but it's expensive and I can't afford to go as often as my doctor's would like.
I feel shame that my partner, friends and family have to make themselves and situations more palatable for me. I find that my workplace is sort of feeling that I should be over this all by now.
I just want to know when I will stop or slow down feeling these feelings and reacting to certain situations the way I do. Is there any extra things I can be doing to help myself?
Any type of coping mechanisms in the workplace and home would help. I also find myself drinking more which is really out of character for me, your opinions on that behaviour would be appreciated.
I'm on mobile so please forgive me for any errors or formatting issues. Also, I tend to ramble, my apologies.
Thank you.
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It’s where they can get you, get away with it then YOU have to recover from it for hours, days, weeks while they sleep well all night and are just fine and dandy in their waking hours (I assume).
I just feel sick. I had a bad one last night...
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So, I've been meaning to make this post for a while now, but you all know how it goes. Anyway, I've been searching up and down forums, various sites, pretty much everywhere for information from people who experience the same effects from adderall that I do, and have come up very short.
I feel like listing the things might be easier, so I'll do that.
-Adderall as an anxiety reliever: If I ever feel like I'm going to have a panic attack, I take one of my 5mg adderall IRs and within 15 minutes, my heart rate has significantly decreased (from a high state) and my head is a lot more clear.
-If I take a dose that is too LOW for me, my brain fog and inability to pay attention gets WORSE and usually re-dosing does the trick.
-My adderall XRs maybe work for about 4 hours, and then I feel the come down come on.
-Adderall does NOT keep me awake. No matter the dosage, if I am tired, I will fall asleep.
These things are baffling me because everywhere I look, I seem to find the opposite information. Like, adderall heightens anxiety, usually bad brain fog and a "zombie" state is due to too high of a dose, XRs are supposed to work longer and adderall stops people from sleeping.
That being said, of course there are days where I feel like it doesn't do a dang thing for me all day, but those days are few and far between.
I''m on a relatively low dose right now (25-30 mgs per day with xr AND ir booster) and I'm wanting to ask my doc to let me try upping my dose now because, as tends to happen, I'm not experiencing the same benefits that I was when I first started (not referring to euphoria or anything like that).
Does ANYONE else experience the same effects that I do?
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Through my life I have always disappointed everyone that has ever entered my life.
From little things like never finding my keys, pens, receipts etc
To bigger things like so much wasted potential, addiction, and general fuck ups.
I show what I am capable of when I really like something but I cant keep doing that thing because I've lost interest in that thing or plain forgot about its existence. People get disappointed in me.
Continue this for eternity, you realise that every person you ever meet will eventually be disappointed in you try.
Initially you fight it you. Then you give up what's the point anyway they'll be disappointed in you in the end.
Now when I meet someone new, anyone I feel like its just a matter of days before they are disappointed in me.
Disappointing Bosses, acquaintances, dates you can forgive yourself.
Disappointing, Love, parents, friends you can't forgive yourself. Not really.
Slowly you start to disappoint yourself. Can't really recover from that.
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I find it so hard to find the motivation and desire to do certain things. I feel like everything bores me and can’t keep my attention for long. I have a lot of things I want to do but can’t seem to stick with them due to lack of motivation and boredom. Any tips on how to get through this? Also, what is the best medication for adult add inattentive type?
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I am sorry but for some of the unfortunate souls, it never gets better. I hate that i am a part of that group but nothing seems to get better. Only worse and worse. All of my life i have felt this way and i have accepted that this is my life and nothing can change it...
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This has to be the most awkward I have ever felt at a social gathering. And that's saying alot. Me alongside two friends and a 3rd who was getting changed at the time were going to go into the hot tub and relax a bit. Upon opening the tub, I found the 3rd's pet beagle, dead and floating in the tub. It had been missing for about 8 and a half hours at that point. The other two with me screamed and just stiffened up, so I had to run inside to inform the 3rd. It was easily the most fucked convo I have had with a NT.
Me: hey so I found your dog.
Them: Is it good or bad.
Me: Very bad
Them: Where is he?
Me: In the hot tub.
He RAN outside and started crying for 30 min. The other two joined in, and the family of the 3rd (who also lived there) were devastated. About 6 people all crying and grieving over the tragic and terrible loss of their pet, and my autistic ass was just thinking "guess we arent going swimming". I tried to comfort 2 of them but it was terrible. I couldn't do anything to comfort, and not feeling any grief myself I was just sitting amongst crying people for 30 minutes just... being there before I snuck out.
Fucking hell.
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We are trying my 13 year old ADHD son (diagnosed at 5, retested at 12) on meds for the first time next week (not sure which medication yet; we have a telehealth conference with his pediatrician at the beginning of the week). I have promised my son that if he doesn’t like the way medication makes him feel, he doesn’t have to continue. But I’m wondering how long it would take to give it a real chance to work?
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I have a first meeting with yet another psychiatrist today. I am less nervous than usual but that might be because I am just sort of expecting it to go wrong. The number of times I have been told that I am too sever a case to handle or not bad enough for others OR that it's my fault I have PTSD is just too much.
Anyways just wish me luck.
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Hi everyone, this has been bugging me for a while. In January 2020 I had a huge mental breakdown related to Pure OCD, but then I recovered, only having an episode every now and then that became less and less frequent, and that I could always stop or overcome if I wanted to. However, a new experience has emerged and I don't understand it at all.
Nowadays I keep thinking really horrible and bigoted and hateful things about everyone, but they don't feel like intrusive thoughts because they last a long time, I can even go into entire rants or whatever in my mind, yet I simultaneously disagree with these thoughts and ideas and think they're horrible and not true and I'm evil for feeling this way. It feels different to the OCD I've experienced before (which revolved around me being (TW: graphic sexual stuff) a paedophile and into incest) because my intrusive thoughts used to be very short and I'd experience really bad anxiety in relation to them. These new intrusive thoughts don't give me anxiety and they feel very long and like I actually believe these things, but then when I'm done I feel terrible, like I can't believe how obscenely evil I am, yet I keep thinking and feeling these things no matter how much I don't want to. I never used to be a bigot or hateful person, I've always been very open minded and loving, but it feels like my brain is rotting and I can't control it anymore.
Please tell me someone else has experienced this?
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Hi all. New to this sub so I apologize if this isn’t how I should go about this. I’m also new to ASD terminology in general so corrections on faux pas would be good. I’m still very much trying to figure out DSM-V so forgive me if my terminology is dated. This is also going to be crazy long because I literally have nobody with life experience to talk to about this and figured backstory is important.
Last year, my 6 year old daughter (then 5) was diagnosed with ADHD (inattentive) and provisionally diagnosed with high functioning ASD. The psychologist who made this provisional diagnosis basically said in DSM IV it would be called Asperger’s, so here I am. The psych made it “provisional” because she is so young, she is female and ADHD can make it even trickier to decide where she actually falls.
She was also diagnosed with sensory processing disorder at 4 but that kinda mixes in with the other two as well.
Important background info: I am also ADHD inattentive (fka ADD) and I have severe OCD.
Anyway, that’s her background and I can answer questions as to how we came to those conclusions, but I’m wondering if any of you had these problems as kids, or if you see this in your children.
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We went to Disney exactly 2 months ago. A week before we went, she had a little non covid virus with a cough, but the cough was only really there in the morning during the entire trip. This is relevant for later.
She was definitely over stimulated at times, but her sensory stuff is usually food related at this point unless she gets overwhelmed with just TOO MUCH where she melts down. I went against my gut and brought my child, my poor baby, on Tower of Terror which I even fucking hate. The other 6 yo we were with loves thrill rides so we just shrugged and hoped for the best. She was already overwhelmed from a small coaster right before where she cried but again, ignore my gut feeling. It was too much and she melted down and was basically disconnected or crying the rest of the day. My husband and I made sure to make her feel extra secure and grounded and safe but damage was done.
When we got home from this trip, she was not the same kid. She quickly developed a fear of ghosts (Tower of Terror apparently has creepy shit which I never even noticed because my eyes are generally closed the entire ride). She began asking if ghosts were real many times a day. My husband made the mistake of telling her a ~spooky story~ about a ghost he thought he saw and she didn’t get the nuance between story and 100% real. So that fear ramped the fuck up.
Right after this fear she started checking on me. So, when she’s playing in the other room I’ll go “Hey Delilah?” “Yeah?” “Just checking on ya!” As parents do. She started doing this to me which was cute at first but then it ramped up to multiple times a day. Then multiple times an hour. I walked behind her chair one foot behind her and she did it. I called her out on not having to check on me, so she cleverly switched it to “mommy?” “Yeah? “I love you!” “Love you too” “You’re the best.” Cute but not 8 times an hour cute. Not when I cross the threshold into another room cute. Always in the same order. In fact it has gotten to this point
D: mommy?
Me: yeah?
D: love you!
Me: love you too!
D: love you, you’re the best!
Me: Delilah, I love you too baby but you can stop checking on me.
D: love you!
It’s compulsive 100%, coming from a person with fear based compulsions that started at about 8 years old. I managed to finally get out of her that she’s afraid of emergencies and people getting hurt. She’s been overreacting to noises inside and outside. She’s obviously terrified.
Back to the cough: it never went away. It’s clustered mostly at night, sometimes in the mornings and scattered throughout the day. A kid is bullying her for having a cough. We’ve gone to the pediatrician who sent us to an allergist who prescribed her an allergy/asthma medication and two types of inhalers until she can see her in person. Nothing is working. I am starting to think this might be related to the above fears/compulsions.
Also, she has an appointment with a pediatric OCD psychiatrist who will assess her end send her to the right sort of pediatric mental health doctors.
We also see pulmonologist and allergist this week.
Phew, long. So, guys, does any of this sound like it could be little kid you? My childhood OCD manifested very similarly to what anxiety she seems to be going through, but it obviously could be something entirely different. I had never heard of a psychogenic/habit cough.
Any thoughts or suggestions or whatever would be greatly appreciated. I just want her to feel safe and calm and relieve her of this stuff as much as possible.
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I would love to hear what you guys are currently into, info dump as well if you’d like!
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I have a strong fear that if I don't do my ocd rituals the intrusive thoughts to do them will keep me awake till I eventually die from sleep deprivation/exhaustion because it's rather that or I give into the ocd/rituals and that will relieve the obsessive thoughts and then I can finally sleep since nothing is bothering me. is this even a rational fear to have about sleep or am I retarded and need help.
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I had a really heavy talk with my mum earlier today, about my feelings of being outcast from the family, treated differently than my sisters. Like I’m less equal than them. This has been ongoing for years.
She essentially said that I’m probably misunderstanding situations and scenarios, and building up a reality that isn’t actually true. Like, creating these memories where people have meant one thing but I took it as a negative slight to myself.
Basically this has caused me to question everything. Is every negative feeling I’ve ever had even valid? Am I right to feel this way? Are these feelings even real?
Anyone else felt this? I just feel very lost right now
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aspergers
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If I'm being honest, I get suspicious when people tell me they're being honest as a conversational add-on.
Honestly, I'd certainly hope you were being honest before you said that! To tell you the truth, I don't believe you with any more conviction now that you said I should. It distracts me so much that I care less about what you're saying because I'm actually analyzing your face and behavior for signs of the real deception, to be honest with you.
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aspergers
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I've heard that one of the hallmarks of autism is actually taking in information faster on computers than on physical mediums (books, smartboards, etc..).
In secondary school, my teacher gave me an electronic copy of a few books so I wouldn't have to take home clunky physical books. I loved accessing them and funnily enough, I ended up remembering the information much better than when reading it on physical books. It was still the exact same info, just in an electronic format.
It seems that the vast majority of neurotypicals actually dislike electronic books (Kindle, .PDF books) primarily because they find it hard to take in information in an electronic form.
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aspergers
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Hey everyone!
So kinda reaching out for some advice here.
The Background:
I’m a lifelong diagnosed aspie (28M) and have for the majority of my life been in a lot of denial around this fact, thus developed a substantial amount of unhealthy coping mechanisms however can appear superficially quite functional, and present quite a facade.
My partner (28F) is pretty much identical to me, she is very much an undiagnosed aspie, relates on many many levels to many of the same nuances as we all do.
We are both (to compound the dilemma) in early recovery from Narcotics (16m and 10m respectively), so very new to handling stress and feelings with no exogenous substances.
The dilemma:
We have just moved in together, into a new flat, thus a total new environment, and both taken on new jobs, new degrees, and pretty much entirely flipped our worlds on their heads all in the space of a week. Neither of us are coping with such a significant amount of change and we’re really struggling with it. Whilst we’re trying to function (and I do make the distinction between function and cope) as best as we can, we are emotionally unmanageable as hell, at each other’s throats all the time, persistently exhausted, in a constant state of anxiety, physiologically feeling the effects of stress and it’s becoming intolerable.
The solution:
This is where we need help! Please let me know if you have any tips or experience which could provide some kind of support.
Edit: to clarify, for both of us it is a case that the total shift in routine, environment, structure, dynamic and expectations combined with cohabiting is causing such issues.
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aspergers
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As I’m taking my classes I honestly am starting to think university isn’t “for me”
The work takes me so long to get through and when I have a mood swing I have to do a lot of work to catch up.
I really want to work in my major’s field though and am willing to put the work in even if it takes longer than it does for other people.
I’m just wondering if it’ll actually work out though. Has anyone here struggled a LOT with school but graduated by working a LOT harder than they initially thought they would/ than other people in their class?
Like do people who struggle a ton with school actually have a chance at graduating?
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ADHD
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Could someone please point me in the right direction for a crash survivors PTSD/ depression subreddit
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ptsd
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Okay so I’m a very devout follower of Christ. With that being said my biggest struggle when it comes to my faith has always been my OCD. I’ve found I do something as a result of my anxiety and idk if this would be considered preforming a ritual or not? And if so is it bad to do?
Basically anytime I’m scared of some improbable, unrealistic event happening to me I will say a quick prayer to make sure it doesn’t happen. For example, when I was a kid I always had a fear of losing one of my senses. So before bed every night (or anytime the thought came to mind) I would quickly pray “God please don’t let me lose any of my five senses” and I’ve noticed that I’ve carried this into every prayer since then. I feel like if I forget to to pray that prayer, that I won’t have Gods protection over the situation and I’ll love one of my sense. Or at the very least be at a greater chance of doing so.
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OCD
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My mental health has been spiralling like crazy recently.
I want to cry for help but I don't want to bother anyone.
Whats the best way to get antidepressants from a doctor (uk)
Do they work?
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depression
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I made a post ranting about my intrusive thoughts the other day. Now they've come back with a vengeance (over something else this time) and I just want them to go away. Grounding calms my anxiety a bit, but does NOT make the intrusive thoughts go away.
What do you guys recommend?
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ptsd
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I am 39/f sexual abuse survivor x2. I was sexually abused throughout my childhood twice. One included rape.
My neighbor is a construction worker. We do not get along well due to me reporting him for using loud equipment (log splitters, chainsaws) from 6am to midnight and throwing loud parties right outside my bedroom window. The loud parties include screaming, drunk men and are triggering even from inside my house.
He has a lot of construction friends around who like to shout at me. When I try to get the mail, they will scream "slut" and stare at me on my porch. I refuse to go outside at all anymore and when I have to go outside to leave it's an instant panic attack.
I went out jogging at 6am this morning (Saturday) thinking he would not be working or outside. One of his friends saw me while driving past and licked his lips while looking at me. I stopped jogging. I was in a heavy t-shirt and sweat pants that did not look revealing at all and still called attention.
It ruined my day and I feel dirty. What can I do?
Edit: I am not allowed to have dogs. I rent and it is in the lease.
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ptsd
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I don't mean like just getting lost sometimes or being disoriented in a new place. I mean like constantly getting lost in your own town where you've lived all your life. I've end up in so many embarrassing situations because of my poor sense of orientation... But I've never felt so embarrassed because of it as I've been today.
I had to meet my friends in a restaurant because we were going to get dinner together. We live pretty close from each other, so we normally meet at a place that suits us all and we then go together to wherever we want to go. But today I had to go by myself. I've been to that restaurant before, but it was a long time ago and for some reason I thought it was much closer to my house. Like two neighborhoods closer. So I was already late, as the subway trip was going to be longer than I expected. But I was going to be just like 10 mins late max., as the restaurant wasn't really far from the subway exit. When I exit the subway I put the location on Google Maps. Because let's be honest, I knew that I wouldn't find the restaurant by myself. Well, I've been literally 30 minutes going around in circles because I couldn't for the love of God find the restaurant. I can't express enough how disoriented I was even with the Maps on. Which I have to add, it wasn't working properly today. But still.
I almost had a mental breakdown in the middle of the street because I just couldn't get to my destination. I was so stressed. Not just because I was super late at that point, but also because we had like less that 1:30 h to eat due to covid restrictions and I was going almost 30 minutes late already. My friends have had to order for me and send me their destination several times.
When I finally got to the restaurant I was over 30 minutes late. I've never been so late before. And all because I got lost on my own city. And it's not even a big or complicated city.
My friends weren't mad at me, as I was visibly upset by it and they knew that I didn't do it on purpose. But I feel horrible. Idk. At the end, I end up having a great time with my friends, but now that I'm home and have time to think I'm concerned about my poor sense of orientation. It's not the first time something like this happens to me. Idk what to do. I try to pay attention to the streets and everything. But I still have a lot of trouble getting to places. Especially if they're on certain areas that for some reason are more difficult for me.
Do you too have this problem? Idk if it's something common between people with ADHD or if I'm just stupid. Is this normal?
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ADHD
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Earlier, I was playing an online game with a couple of friends when the kid I hate joins. At first, my friends are saying that this kid isn't a bad person despite the fact that this kid will bully people and then say that they were just trolling. It got even worse when they actively got me killed and I asked if we could remove them from the party. My friends then sided with him and called me a whiny bitch. I reacted by blocking all of them? I don't know if this was the right reaction.
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aspergers
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So I'm in the IT industry. I'm in a senior position, principal level, and good at what I do. I'm looking for a new job and got a nibble on a dream job. I aced the first interview, which was more of a culture fit interview. Do we like him, does have general knowledge on x,y,z topic. Typical STAR interview style.
I get a call for the round 2 Tech Fit interview. Deep dives into specific methodologies, how would you do this, and technical proficiency.
The interviewer starts off asking questions that make 0 sense to me. Questions that are for a totally different job, but stuff I know. I start answering, 3 or 4 questions in.. my brain is trying to figure out WHY he's asking me about software development in 'c' WHILE I'm answering the questions. And the only way I can describe how I felt is that... My brain down shifted and was lagging behind every question at-least 2 questions. I felt like I was moving so fast that I couldn't keep up and my brain was actively STILL solving the other questions that have been answered.
And I sort of have this, its all going to work out attitude, because things usually do. And when I can't get my brain to spit something out.. I just skip it. The thing is that doesn't work well for an interview where they are testing your knowledge on the thing. So some questions I would sort of answer around the thing, without being able to describe the thing. It was horrible.
A few questions lead me to that place where I want to talk about everything on earth in minute detail. I did realize it, but a bit late each time. I'm sure I came off as over eager.
So I make it through the interview, remember to ask the pointed questions back to the interviewer, how do you like it there, it is a good place, is work satisfying? I thank him for his time and hang up.
And I just sort sat there in a revved up haze thinking how badly I did. It's over and it cant be changed, so I wont dwell on it. But man my ADHD really got me that day.
They gave me a third interview! I know my perception of how things go down is skewed. But I'm happy I got to round 3.
I guess I'm writing this to let folks know that even when you have your ADHD under control, sometimes it just isn't, and that's OK. It happens to us at all stages and just about any time.
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ADHD
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Hi everyone!
So I’ve been struggling with this for a long time now, I’m not sure if this is OCD or just extreme anxiety. My situation is...unique, so any honest feedback would be very helpful. Also, I know not to trust sources online over medical professionals - just trying to get a sense for if I’m headed in the right direction.
I have been trying to work on my self-esteem/mental health for a while now. My issue is that, whenever I try and change negative thoughts patterns, I end up with really obsessive thoughts. Six months ago, those thoughts revolved around not being able to know anything for certain, not being able to know for certain if I’m a good person, etc. I would sit for hours just ruminating one this concept - whether or not I can know anything for certain, and I could never improve on my self-esteem because, every time I would think about my self-esteem, I would get reminded of my weird obsessive thoughts.
I actually ended up doing a lot better for awhile because I discovered meditation and mindfulness, and my extreme anxiety and self-esteem issues got better. But then I fell out of my meditation practice, and now I’ve been trying to improve on my self-esteem again. But I don’t know how to improve my self-esteem without mindfulness, and every time I try to challenge negative thoughts I have about myself, I am reminded of the fact that I don’t know how to handle/fix these thoughts, and then I get stuck ruminating on how to fix them. And that just makes me fear having low self-esteem thoughts because I know I’m gonna get stuck in a mindless loop of rumination on how to fix those thoughts. I’m sorry if this makes no sense lol. I just don’t know if this is OCD or just anxiety?? I am really struggling with this, and no form of traditional CBT has ever helped me with this, which is part of the reason why I think it could be OCD.
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OCD
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i've been on adderall for 2 months as of today and i'm no longer getting the effects i got in the start. in the first few weeks of starting treatment i really was sort of a different person. now, i'm not saying i turned into a super genius overnight but i was able to simply do what had to be done; keep my apartment clean, do the laundry, make a list of things to do / groceries to buy / etc, and actually follow through with it without putting too much thought it. i felt a huge weight was lifted off my shoulders because i was finally able to behave the same way "normal" people do. now, i literally am back to where i was before starting adderall and maybe even a few steps behind that.
i take an XR in the morning and an IR usually as the other dose wears off later in the day.
felt the shift right around the time i started taking a different brand of generics for both the IR and XR. i switched pharmacies and now i'm stuck with these for the next few weeks.
i've done some research on this and apparently generics vary a lot. some people say it's bullshit but at the end of the day you feel what you feel, that is the whole point of drugs in general.
am i crazy or is this actually a medication problem?? i definitely still get more locked into things than i would without the adderall BUT that push i first got with it is totally gone which is actually as big as a problem for me as the focus was.
i have the focus but i don't have the drive which is so frustrating it's like having a car without the keys. someone please help.
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ADHD
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I appreciate that I have friends and family who will say supportive things about my daily struggles with executive dysfunction, but it's hard to trust their authenticity when the person I vent to complains often about, say, their spouse who has many of my same struggles.
I notice this with every person that I've trusted to share my issues with: they'll be supportive of me then the following week express their frustration with someone else who can't seem to get on a daily schedule, keep their commitments, be organized, not act impulsively, etc.
I figure surely my friends don't believe these behaviors are okay when it's me but not okay when it's everyone but me. So I now try to remind myself to stop opening up to others, unless it's in this group. For one because complaining about chronic problems to friends isnt attractive, but also because no matter how nice someone is, I don't believe they can truly understand these struggles if they don't share the cognitive or neurological deficiencies.
I appreciate you all for sharing, listening and caring. If you share my situation, just know that I DO get it. My list of ADHD problems is a mile long -- there's a good chance I can relate.
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ADHD
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This is more of an incoherent vent than anything else.
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I got into a psychiatrist about 4-5 months ago, give or take. I've been on Adderall since, started at 15mg and upped it to 20mg. It was working great at first, at this point I can't really tell if its helping. I didn't notice much of a difference after increasing the dose to 20. I'm afraid to ask for it to be increased again, because I don't want to seem like an addict, which was my initial fear even asking for medication in the first place. Ontop of that I find out that most of my family doesn't even support me getting medicated because AD/HD is just "made up" and I don't need medication because I'm just lazy. Or they just act like I've been self diagnosing my issues. It's so eternally frustrating to feel like I am fighting for absolutely no reason. I dropped out of Highschool, I can't save money, barely anybody supports me at this point and I have no idea what I want for my future. I cannot force myself to work or learn. I can't even drive unmedicated I do shit like merge without looking or drift into the next lane or I end up zoning out and suddenly I'm going 90 in a 65. I can't focus on the few things I enjoy anymore. I'm just so fucking tired, I take my meds every day but now it feels like they don't do anything and I feel like if I ask to increase the dose it's gonna seem like I'm just addicted or some shit. I apologize if this is against the rules or just seems like a bunch of words slapped together to barely form a sentence I just don't really have anywhere to turn to.
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ADHD
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Hello, Professor, I hope your vacation went well. I've been thinking this for a while. I have been trying so hard, for so long, and it never gets easier, maybe I just don't have what it takes. Oftentimes I can't even get up to go to class. I wish I was stronger. I just don't know how much energy I have left for school, especially for (writing class) where I am heavily behind. It just feels like on the edge of a building hanging on with whatever strength I have left in my fingers. I am sorry that you have to read this email during your busy schedule, but I just wanted you to know where I'm at academically. I don't want to give up this close to the finish line, but I'm just tired.
Sincerely, Specific Mongoose
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depression
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Like I asked my friend if a girl was nice & she replied by saying “her reputation isn’t exactly for being nice”
I’ve said things like “she’s not exactly my favorite person” which means u don’t like someone
Is this what they mean by autistic ppl not understanding social cues. I have adhd and don’t know if I should look into an autism diagnoses
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aspergers
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I've been in denial and had some kind of hope I was NT ever since I was diagnosed (probably lots of shame) but today marks an end of it after just more social experiences that in all honesty I think are part of the reason why certain groups get marginalised. It's quite obvious to me now I'm autistic and don't think like NTs at all and I just see it in every social situation I'm in when I really reflect on it. Also I finally understand the difference between 'thinking different' when it comes to NTs and aspergers. While each NT and autistic think differently in their own way, there is still something that separates an 'NT thinking differently' and 'autistic thinking differently'.
I know this might come off as a bit weird but trying to pretend and having these identity issues really fucked me up and didn't really let me be genuinely 'me' in a lot of situations. I could probably go more in depth with everything I've said but I can't be fucked, just want to get the basics out.
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aspergers
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Hello, all. PTSD sucks. It sucks a lot. Since I’ve been in counseling, I’ve had good days and I’ve had really bad days. Lately, I’ve been having horrible weeks. Lots of anxiety and memories resurfacing. Today, however, has been a good day. The first average day I’ve had in a long while. I wanted to take the energy that I have today and turn it towards this group that has helped me so much. So, if you have anything that you want to get off of your chest, this is the post to do it. If you can’t quiet yet, know that you’re loved and that you’re capable of healing. Thank you all. Stay strong.
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ptsd
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i’m not currently in one now, but i was just thinking back to a few months ago and there was a point where i’d exercise, eat very little and take supplements and then i’d just wake up one day and forget about it. that’s not the first time it’s happened but i get hyperfixated on my weight and my eating like any other fixation, and then just drop it? i was just wondering if it’s possible that these negative and obsessive thoughts surrounding weight can be to do with my ocd ?
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OCD
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I'm supposed to be dead...I am dead. Halfway actually, my body still fights no matter what I thinks the right thing to do...I don't think anything I ever did mattered. So in that way ig life actually was a lie and if I continue to live regardless of what happens I'll just suffer. Bc I know it to be true and there's no changing that. I've tried but you can only deny the truth for so long, everything just feels like pretend. Even if ppl say it's for the better. It never felt that way. Just a "stay here and suffer w the rest of us!"
It doesn't feel real yk to try. It never did so ig me just living was the start of it all. And ppl don't understand it lol. You can share the same struggle but in the end nothing changes. It'll never be enough bc there's nothing they can do for each other. Best bet is to take a couple pills and fingers crossed..life's such a fucking joke. I actually don't wish I could make it work.. sufferings not worth it and for me that's all there is
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depression
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I’ve been having thoughts about doing stuff for about 2 years now and for the past month its gotten worse. The first time I had those thoughts I shared it with my sister and she started crying, freaked out and told my mom, and my mom called the cops and I got stuck in the hospital for a week. The second time the thoughts got to a point where I had a plan and such so I told my mom, I don’t want to put it this way but what she said to me kinda hurt my feelings it felt like a scolding. This past month my DpDr has become the worst its ever been and I had those thoughts again, I’m not sure if I was actually gonna go through with it but I was close. I’m still having those thoughts but I just feel like I can’t tell anyone. I’m scared to tell my family, I’m scared to tell my psychiatrist, and i’m just struggling keeping this inside. I tried reaching out to my only friend who’s been going through something similar but he hasn’t responded to my messages in months (he’s okay tho).
I just needed to get this off my mind, and write it down to clarify everything with myself.
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depression
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What are some fictional characters that you relate to? I’ve heard many of us could see ourselves as Data the Android, but I personally relate a lot to L from death note. Obviously, I’m not an eccentric billionaire genius detective, but many of his mannerisms and his way of speaking feels very “me.” What are some characters that you personally identify with?
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aspergers
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Back in February I went on concerta for my adhd and it's been really good for me. My doctor was requiring a drug test every 3 months which I'm fine with. He's seemed frustrated that I haven't popped for amphetamines. This last test I popped for opioids but there's just no way (short of poppy seeds not being a myth) that I had opioids in my system. He's offered me 1 more refill and referred me to a counseling center that doesn't do med management at all. I'm wondering how I should move foreword here.
I'm totally willing to show him my unused doses, or go on more frequent drug tests or whatever. I make great money, and I have no reason at all to sell my meds. Just not sure how to proceed here.
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ADHD
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I was diagnosed with ptsd as a result of an abusive relationship (I’m unsure if I am the victim or the perpetrator or if we were both victims), to preface I also live in a very small country. I am not scared of my ex attacking me physically as he has never been physically abusive but rather emotional (but some could say it’s justified or reactive) but I am terrified of seeing him somewhere in real life especially seeing him with another girl, treating her the way I begged him to treat me for years. I am terrified of seeing him, I am terrified of him moving to the same town I am in, I am terrified to go out in case I see him, I am terrified to go to events in case he is there. I can’t go to places that we went to together or places that remind me of him, making numerous entire towns off limits for me and drastically decreasing my social life. I end up panicking and going into overload and just crying when walking through any of those places.
I feel like emigrating, suicide or drugs are the only options. I don’t want to die but it’s the only guaranteed safety from him. I don’t want to emigrate but I have to to guarantee my safety from him, I’m going to miss my dad and grandparents so much. I have considered taking drugs, it doesn’t guarantee safety from him but it means that I won’t have to be in reality.
I have gotten rid of all social media, it has been isolating to a degree but it has also gotten rid of the chance of seeing him on here.
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ptsd
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Porn releases high levels of dopamine and other neurotransmitters in your brain. Could be there a connection between porn and OCD? What do you think about this?
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OCD
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Every day for almost 22 years now, spent pretty much solely in the confines of my room. When I was young nobody wanted to be my friend, obviously I appeared different and lacked the social knowledge all normal people innately understand.
In high school I was just withdrawn, at this point I understood social cues, facial expressions, how to have a small talk conversation but the amount of effort that it took for me to participate in said actions made it essentially a net loss. It was a lose-lose, either force yourself to participate in agonizing attempts to have a normal social life, or miss out on the experiences and interpersonal knowledge that come along with high school socializing.
I chose to miss out and have been withdrawn this whole time, playing video games with almost all of my spare time because it’s the only activity that allows me to forget that I will never be normal. It’s possible that I can pass for not a fucking weirdo, but it is too late to have an enjoyable and healthy adolescent social life.
I could go on but I thinks that’s about enough, needed to get this off my chest.
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aspergers
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I just got switched from my 60mg IR dose 3 times daily to 60mg LA three times daily because I’ve been noticing the effects only lasting 6-7 hours or I end up not feeling much effect from a third IR tablet.
How long do the LA capsules take to activate compared to the IR? Should i expect similar therapeutic effects but for a longer duration? Or a slow build up to the same effect over a longer duration.
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ADHD
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Everything's going to shit and it's making me lose my motivation for doing my 4 essays.
I don't know how to improve the situation but i just want to be relaxed again
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depression
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could someone with aspergers be a good pathologist ? i have been planning to pursue a MD PhD after my bachelors in chemical engineering but i am afraid i will just make a shitty doctor :/ i understand that it is a profession in which one must communicate with patients and be good at controlling emotions and those are things that don’t come to me naturally
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aspergers
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Don’t worry, I’m not suicidal at the moment. 26 now and haven’t gotten close to that since I was 15. But I’m struggling to even know what I did even counted as attempts. I chickened out early on but did feel that desperation. I know it’s not a competition but I don’t want to stake a claim I haven’t got. Thoughts on where the line is?
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depression
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Pretty much exactly what I said in the title. I know three other Aspies, ones a wolf, ones a shark, and me and the other are shifters. I know plenty it nuerotypicals and one is a furry. Note, most of my friends are fairly open about their sex loves, so they’d have no issues telling me. I think me and the shifter just go for roles, whereas the other two have costumes. The nuerotypical does roles. If this should be NSFW, I’ll change it.
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aspergers
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I've been living with PTSD for over a year now. Some days are better than others, but the one thing I'm never able to hide is my exaggerated startle response. I jump and cry out at the slightest unexpected touch or noise. I recently started at a new job, and just like the last place I worked, all my coworkers comment on how jumpy I am. I try to laugh it off and say I'm just one of those people who frightens easily, but then that works against me, because people think I find it funny. Last night, for example, one of my coworkers jumped out from behind a corner and scared me. I was genuinely triggered and it was in front of a bunch of people, which was really embarrassing. I was dissociating and having trouble breathing, but also trying to act fine so I didn't have a meltdown in front of everyone. I texted my coworker later and explained to him that I have PTSD. He was extremely apologetic and thanked me for telling him and promised he would never do it again, but I'm just upset that I had to tell him at all. It's not something I like to share with people, but sometimes it's just impossible for me not to disclose it to people.
Also, when did it become funny to scare people who startle easily?
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ptsd
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Does anyone just get pissed off at life for nothing? Just waking up everyday is aggravating, everything aggravates me I feel like I’d be better off dead.
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depression
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Hi! I am just curious if this could be a possible theme of OCD: checking oneself to see if they are happy or not (which inevitably stresses me out more and makes me less happy)? Also, with this obsession, I have thoughts like, "if you don't do xyz (something that I don't want to do), then you will never be truly happy." I know this obsession may sound really unusual, but I am curious if it could be OCD or if anyone has had any similar experiences? Thank you in advance!
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OCD
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I hate it when people claim to have ocd thinking it’s some fun quirky disorder. When in reality it’s a debilitating condition that effects your life. Even to get as far as I have ocd wise I’ve had years of therapy and different medication changes. And even still it’s severe. Ocd isn’t needing your pens to be straight or your room to be clean. In fact I can be quite a messy person. It’s having your brain tell you that if you don’t wash your hand thoroghly or tap that door knob to make sure it’s locked or whatever else something terrible will happen. Sorry for the wall of text. Just wanted to put my word out there. Hope all is good for you guys.
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OCD
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I have recently moved to a new city and I didn't realize how hard it would be to find a therapist and psychiatrist. It's just occurred to me that wait times are a thing. My meds run out this month and Im not sure what to do. Does anyone have any advice to help with some short term solutions to this problem?
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ADHD
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I just keep thinking about cracking my back and if i dont then it feels like im going to go insane. Im not diagnosed with ocd tho my back just makes my brain feel like its gonna go insane.
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OCD
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I’ve begun feeling guilty over things I’ve done or said in the past that never really affected me before. My OCD hones in on these things and I feel this insane and intense guilt. It’s become so bad that I have a fear that these things will come and haunt me in the future even though they aren’t bad things at all/just mistakes I’ve made. How do I get over this?
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OCD
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Sometimes when I’m dreaming or once, when I just woke up, I’ll think of something really vast and I’ll become terrified. I can’t explain what was vast or why I was terrified because my dream doesn’t even make sense to me. It was just something vast. I’ll just feel this sense of dread. That one time when I was awake, I was almost in a dream like state. I had just awoken from the couch and I felt that dread again. I told myself that I was awake and that it would wear off but it wouldn’t, and so I just kind of walked to my bedroom and hit myself by jumping on the bed, and when it wasn’t wearing off, I abruptly turned myself around on my back, I guess kind of in a way to shock my body. Then I fell asleep again.
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ptsd
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I'm not 100% sure if this is directly associated with ADHD or if it could be something else, so excuse me if this is the wrong place for this post..
Is there a way to minimize indecision? I will spend weeks trying to make up my mind over the most trivial things. No matter how hard I try to rationalize a choice, even write a pro cons list, or flip a coin, I cannot seem to make a choice and follow through.
For instance, supposed to be buying a pair of boots for my birthday, and I have been running through the same three options for days and I cannot seem to decide. This happens with so many other things but is just an example.
Does anyone have any tricks on making a choice and actually following through? I always am like 'I've decided!' Only to flip flop on it the next day.
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So I keep getting intrusive images of kids doing gross things. It started with a real child but now it’s evolved. It’s now the face of a kid, a porn star, and my cousin. It’s good because I can see it’s OCD trying to morph and keep me scared. But it’s also gross because I don’t want to be attracted to kids or family
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OCD
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i feel like the only option is to kill myself. i spend the whole day thinking in the idea of suicide. i cant fucking stand this. i cant do anything besides thinking in killing myself. i have an appointment on december 13 but i dont want to wait. i wont kill myself before that date but im fucking tired of this. is it worth calling him and asking for an appointment sooner? i take risperidone and escitalopram but its not working at all. maybe he could give me something else. idk
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depression
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Don't know quite how to explain this, but whenever there is background noise such as a TV program on when I'm trying to talk to someone, I often just completely fail. It feels like the external sounds are in my mouth interrupting my flow of speech. I'll start stuttering or getting louder or lose my train of thought completely.
At home it's usually fine cause I can just pause things if that's the issue, but there's been so many times where I feel like I need to wait to speak and just can't get myself to until the noise stops.
Anyone else have similar experiences?
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aspergers
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Sometimes so unbearable it hurts my heart area and my throat. My whole entire chest is collapsing
My dad died a year ago and my family is falling apart. My relationship with my bf is going nowhere.
I'm scared to leave my home because of anxiety.
Deep down I want to end it but I know I can't put myself to do it. I'm literally living for nothing. I'm in pain and idk if I'll ever make it out of this shit feeling
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depression
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hello, i was diagnosed with autism back in 2015. i'm in my 20's and i fail to feel much for others. i've always struggled to figure out my levels of empathy and i wasn't tested for it during the assessment. i care about my friends and family, but from the view of progress and growth, rather than feelings. i do not know how to engage in emotional episodes experienced by others, and find myself frequently unemotional when it seems i shouldn't be, or unable to feel connected to my emotions. it's like i'm watching them from behind a glass wall.
i've been dealing with something that objectively seems incredibly stressful and traumatizing, and i've seen the effects of it from others around me. but i don't really care. i'm trying to be there for the people who need it, offering advice and support, but i'm finding it difficult and downright uncomfortable seeing them experience such intense emotions that i don't know how to handle with logic. i just want to get away. is this low empathy?
also, i feel great when i get to chat about my special interests! and i can feel emotions intensely. i just struggle to connect those feelings with others. (i also realized i don't feel very close to people in general, and i struggle to keep meaningful relationships because i don't care enough to continue them. i know that is probably caused by my autism, but i think it contributes to the negative feelings i have towards this.)
i try to do good, but i just don't feel much when i don't, and i feel a bit guilty about it when i compare myself to others.
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aspergers
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It's not even that I don't want to do it or that it's too hard. I'm literally doing it. I am literally writing my paper and I'm aware that my sentences are good and that I'm getting closer to finishing with every sentence, but I still stop to cry after every few sentences. It's like it's just physically painful to keep going. I have days where homework is a struggle because my brain is mush and I can't focus enough to understand the words, and that's one thing. I have days where homework is a struggle because I just violently don't want to do it and want to do fun things instead, and that's another thing. But then there are days like today where it just hurts to do it. I write a few sentences and then my brain gives up and I just start crying. Then I pull myself together and write a few more sentences, and start crying again. After hours of this cycle, I'll eventually finish and I'll submit the paper and feel angry with myself for taking so long to do what could have been finished in about 2 hours. A week from now I'll get my paper back and I'll probably get an A and no one will know that I collectively spent 6 hours writing it because I kept stopping to cry every few minutes.
I stayed up way too late last night so my schedule was super disrupted today. I know that's why I'm struggling today. I know I have no reason to be ashamed of myself. I'm doing everything I'm supposed to do. I'm doing my homework. I'm doing a good job and I'm going to get a good grade. I'm going to be finished on time. I'm being a gOoD gIRl, but I hate myself because on a different day this would be so much easier and even though it's not my fault I'm still ashamed that I can't just finish it. I can't tell if I'm crying because I'm mad at myself or if I'm crying because it's so hard to keep going or if it's a mixture of the two.
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I've written the bulk of my paper. All I need to do is find one more source and integrate it into my argument, proofread, format, and submit. If I was having a good day I could be done in 45 minutes. Instead I'm just crying at my desk and watching the clock. Odds are tomorrow I'll feel perfectly fine.
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ADHD
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When you want to fit in better, how do you do it? Any books or blogs to recommend that explain the non verbal stuff?
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aspergers
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I’m not sure if this is an OCD thing but sometimes I’ll get an intrusive thought and I’ll flick my tongue or twist my neck to sort of push it away but it’s not really intentional so I don’t know if it counts as a compulsion. I could definitely stop it if I wanted, but I don’t try to do it, it sort of just happens. Does this happen to anyone else?
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OCD
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Just looking for support here, I’m feeling discouraged with my abilities to manage my art with adhd. I love drawing, yet I only get the urge to art when there’s something else to do. Whenever I actually have free time I don’t wanna do it. I haven’t drawn a full blown digital piece in years, and I just can’t get myself to enjoy what I’m drawing. Idk if it’s depression affecting this but it’s been a struggle being an art major with this happening too. If anyone has some words of encouragement I’d really appreciate it
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ADHD
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I find it really interesting, and I have been pondering the universe since I was 5. It's so crazy that the universe goes on FOREVER! Like, it never ends, but how....I mean FOREVER!??? Wow, just wow, I can barely wrap my head around it!!! Anyhow, onto the [color theory](https://www.livescience.com/21275-color-red-blue-scientists.html), what if I see blue, but you see my red??? I mean.......but how......what if we're just taught that this color is red and this color is blue, but in reality we are seeing totally different colors? So no one would be able to tell without looking through our eyes! And then they'd be like, 'oh. oh no. you must be colorblind.', but in reality ITS JUST THEIR COLORS!!! Wow wow wowity wow. Crazy!!!
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ADHD
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Does anyone else just make random noises out of nowhere, or even as like a response?
My sister and I do, but she makes more like grunty aggressive noises that can be passed off, but I make really high pitched and "cat like" (my dads words, not mine) noises pretty often. And, in my brain they are valid and complete responses and/or sounds to fill space.
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ADHD
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When I got that new pill brand last week I was really worried it would make me an emotional wreck (happened last time they switched my brand). Thankfully that’s not happening to me right now but what IS happening is my chief ADHD symptoms are 400 times worse than normal. It is exceedingly more difficult than usual to get started on any tasks and if I manage to start something, my attention on that thing lasts for a solid 30 seconds. Hell, even writing this post is taking every ounce of willpower I can possibly harness. I’m the type of person who usually rambles on and on in both speech and text but all I can manage is this little paragraph because my brain just won’t. Hopefully next month on this brand won’t be like this, or they put me back on my old brand.
ETA: getting off the pill/going non-hormonal isn’t an option. I have recurring fibroids and my periods used to send me to the ER, so it’s between hbc and a hysterectomy, and they don’t wanna do the latter until I’m older or unless my body starts reacting badly to hbc. Fortunately I don’t have issues with the pill most of the time, except when they switch my fcking brand, ugh.
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ADHD
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Im not saying this isnt an aspect of ocd(it is and my heart goes out fr those suffering) but does anyone else find it really annnoying how ocd is being represented in the media and it seems like we're making progress with it , but their just showing either lots of cleaning or checking things, no ones ive seen ever goes into other types of ocd like real event pocd etc
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OCD
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For example if you’re posing compulsively for validation or reassurance and realize it should you leave it up or delete it? I ask because I could see deleting becoming a part of the compulsive ritual but having it up could be feeding into the OCD as well!
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OCD
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I have been suffering from depression and anxiety since the last three years, and I couldn't get any medical help as my parents said they "don't believe in mental diseases" and only recently, as I managed to get some professional help, I was diagnosed with panic disorder and insomnia, and this was about two months back.
I have always felt that my symptoms more or less would be better diagnosed as PTSD. I have been in taking medication for the last few months.
I have been having panic attacks since the last three years, with varied intensity, although avoiding triggers have been helpful. When they are very intense, I kinda seem to go into this flashback where I feel as if I am in a past event of my life and things are repeating themselves. As could be understood, my body tries to prevent this by going into a state of panic before and all this combined with the anxiety of panic attacks and my past and all those memories make my life so much harder and deteriorate the quality of living to very substantial levels.
A couple of days back, something triggered me and I was about to have a panic attack. As I was on medication, I was able to let it happen, and soon, I was in this flashback which related to the times where I was little and my parents used to abuse me physically. They used to beat me, for invalid reasons, for trying to take their angry out, or express their emotions. And suddenly, I understood what was going wrong. I was afraid. I was afraid, that they would kill me, and I won't be able to stop them or do anything, and this was the same feeling as 10-12 years ago.
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But this time, I did something different. When I was in the flashback, I.... I stopped my dad. I grabbed the stick he was using to beat, and I tried to stop him. But he wouldn't. He tried to hurt me again, but then, in order to defend myself, I had to hurt him. But even then he wouldn't stop. So I kept hurting him, and I started feeling better and secure. It was as if the fear was going away and no one could harm me. But then my mum comes in the picture and she starts hurting me, and I did the same.
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As I found myself being safe, I was able to control myself, and breathe properly, and the thing ended. I still had my mind numb for a while, as usually happens with my panic attacks, but I felt better.
Am I okay? Can you please give me your opinion on this? Thanks for reading.
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I wish I could love myself as much as I love others, more so I wish I was loved the same way and to the same degree that I love others. I wonder if I am destined to be hurt over and over. I don't want to be treated this way anymore. I don't think I am unlovable but why do I feel this way? I don't care to die or kill myself but I imagine that is the only way I feel anyone would ever love me with the intensity that I desire, that they will only love me when I am gone, and is that love if it is conditional
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depression
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I went from feeling semi okay for like two weeks to suicidal again
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depression
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I am quite the *show-watcher* myself, I can get lost in the world of the given show pretty easily, and it is just so scary to approach the final episodes. After the last credits scene rolls down I just stare into the void and get anxious about not knowing what to do with my life after I don't have the comfy routine of watching a good show with a good and likeable story and characters.
I think it might be a deeper thing, maybe the fear of the fact that everything good ends sometime, or simply I just overcomplicate it and it is just our beloved hyper fixation.
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ADHD
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So i've been diagnosed with ADHD and there are many symptoms which overlap with OCD and i think it might be the major sources of my anxiety and panic attacks. Everyday, I have certain things that i do because im afraid of things going wrong. everthing that i do is to make sure the worst things wont happen. like i have a certain way how i lay out my table to prevent accidents from happening. like i make sure to keep the cables loose so that nothing will break. i NEVER leave my phones or laptops on my bed because i fear i might forget about them and then sleep on them and they might overheat and the battery will burst into flames. It's because of my anxiety that now im focused on learning about electronics and programming and security because i feel like if i get hacked or my room goes on fire because of a power surge or something like that, my life is over. The things that i wear are clothes that will not cause accidents. Like once I was wearing shoes without many grooves and i felt like i was gonna slip on the road and then a car will run over me. I was panicking so much and tried to walk away from sides of the road. Should i explain about this to my psychiatrist? what coping mechanisms do people try? I'm not sure if it is ocd
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OCD
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Hello! I'm not an avid user of reddit so my formatting might not be the best here, but I am going to try my best to make everything easy to read. TLDR at the bottom!
So some background info, I'm a 21 year old person who has had some history with mental health issues in the past. I have a formal diagnosis of PTSD and Gender Dysphoria (but I can't seem to trust it because I'm scared that I actually am not transgender so I ended up de-transitioning medically) and I have been to an inpatient setting once very recently for what I thought was really bad anxiety and my gender issues.
When I was a teen I did a lot of googling and obsessing and sort of convincing myself I had a ton of symptoms I may have not really had.
I would convince myself I had BPD, Bipolar, Schizoprenia, etc etc. And that's not even counting for the millions of health related obsessions I would give myself.
I've always been really really nervous and sort of uncomfortable and I have a bunch of mental "mantras" I repeat a lot, or I do a ton of checking to make sure something isn't off. Examples of that are like, if the door is locked, if I turned the lights off, if I put the cig out, if someone is upset with me, if I turned the stove off. And sure sometimes I will have to check those things several times. I just assumed that it was an anxiety thing, not an OCD thing.
In media OCD has always been someone who is clean and tidy to the point of it getting in the way, I on the other hand am kind of messy. Or someone has to count things over and over, I don't.
The things I do just felt embarrassing, like a bunch of physical tics, or feeling like if I don't do *insert thing* then *insert terrible outcome* would happen. Or spending hours on my phone researching health issues, or financial advice, or anything to feel better about whatever I was nervous about and that thing changes over time but some of it is cyclical.
I'm still trying to make work of my new diagnosis and I even argued a tad with my doctor about my diagnosis but he said that all of my worries or concerns with the diagnosis sort of proved him right more. The concerns were what if I start a medication and I have bipolar and I go into a mania and then I lose my job or can't take care of myself and then I might be homeless etc etc.
And the test he had me fill out he said I got a 30 out of 40 which is severe? Literally I'm sort of boggled by everything because what my experience is doesn't seem to fit the common narrative at all and I wanted to see if anyone has anything similar to add.
I'd also appreciate any advice about what I should do in the meantime to help with my obsessive thoughts and what not. AMA if I didn't make a lot of sense.
TLDR: Recently was diagnosed with OCD and was told it's pretty severe. My obsessive googling health issues and checking my body etc, and doubting is disrupting my life and it's making it really hard to navigate the real world pretty hard. I also am possibly transgender and don't know if OCD could be the cause of it? (I would like to be trans because the idea of looking and being treated as my AGAB my whole life sounds terrible. But I am scared that I'm not really trans and that I've made it up or something.)
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OCD
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I’m interested in a couple things currently and wish to get more into them and learning about them but simply reading about them on the Internet like Reddit etc. makes me forget everything I learned on there really quickly. Do you have any advise (preferably from personal experience) on how I can get into things better, keeping them organized and how I can make information I learned stay in my head, even tho I’m very forgetful?
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ADHD
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Sitting curled up on my couch rn trying not to cry. My PTSD is from childhood abuse and I have a lot of triggers. I was just driving home and saw a kid standing in their front yard and it triggered a flashback of me crying in pain and screaming for help on the ground in my front yard.
I have to see one of my abusers for two days in about a month and it absolutely has me on edge. I’m talking to my therapist about it tomorrow, but this week has been a huge struggle.
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ptsd
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I (23F) am feeling pretty lost and discouraged these days. Earlier this year I was diagnosed with ADHD (as well as anxiety, PTSD and depression), and it’s been life changing to have this information. On the one hand I feel like I finally have the answers to why I struggle the way I do. On the other, I feel discouraged trying to figure out how I fit into this world that wasn’t really made for me. I’m in school studying to be a teacher but I’m really not sure this is something I can or even want to do. When I try to think about my future and where I’ll be in a few years, I see nothing it’s just blank. I am in therapy and my therapist has been so helpful in helping me develop better self esteem and tackling my anxiety, I’m so grateful for her. I just still feel like I have no idea what I’m doing in life and I’m worried that I’ll never figure it out. Anyway I just wanted to rant a bit and maybe there are some of you out there who can relate to this.
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ADHD
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... is this disease debilitating. I've had depression, OCD, tinnitus, sleeping disorders, GAD and it's all kindergarten stuff compared to PTSD. How it leaves you unable to function mentally and physically, it's insane. I believe I'm on the right track but it still amazes me how it has destroyed my previously stable and functioning life. Jesus...
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ptsd
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Ok, this is a very personal and delicate confession and question. Fellow Rick and Morty fans will remember that Rick is a "shy shitter". As awkward and cringeworthy as that may seem to most audience members, I a (hopefully) anonymous Aspie will candidly, virtually raise my hand and come out as a "shy shifter" this condition, though not medically recognised is referred to as Parcopresis. Its great comedy material, but its still draining, humiliating and a vicious cycle.
I suffer from depression, certain anxieties, I even strongly suspect CPTSD. I heard that this is common among those like myself with a traumatic childhood. I also believe this may also be something of a common occurrence on the Spectrum too.
Does anyone else go through this hell or is it just me?
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aspergers
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