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My son has an appointment today for a med refill, this is the second one we’ve tried, and he hates taking it. It’s a low dose, extended release, Vyvanse. His teacher says he does amazing in school on it, but he says it makes him feel weird. No headaches or anything. Do I request a switch today for the “weird” feeling? Thanks for helping me, I don’t have ADHD so I don’t know how the medications feel when they aren’t what you need, and what they do feel like when they are what you need.
Edit: So far we’ve tried Adderall and Vyvanse.
My son can talk to me about anything because I practice peaceful parenting.
I also don’t make him take his medications if he doesn’t want to due to feeling weird on them, which is why I am posting here talking about a medication switch appointment.
I try to have him explain what weird means, but he has a hard time explaining it. I guess I would have a hard time explaining what a blood sugar high or low feels like as I’m a diabetic to a non-diabetic. So I try my best to listen when he says something feels off, but can’t quite put it into words
He does have an IEP for school.
Sorry for any typos or grammar errors. I’m at work, but trying to keep up with everyone’s comments so that I can reply to everyone and not get overwhelmed later. I’m not double checking everything I send before I send it. So sorry!!
Edit 2: you are seriously the most supportive community ever. Thank you soooo much for not making me feel bad, and thank you for educating me on your ADHD, and any and all medication side effects that you’ve experienced in your life. Your comments help me to understand what my son is going through better.
Edit 3: someone reported me to Reddit as having a crisis and suicidal thoughts from this sub. I am not suicidal or in a crisis, so I hope that was an accidental report. I’m very content with my life. Thank you for caring though.
Edit 4: they are trying a low dose of Concerta.
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Edit: Thank you all for your advice. I think I'm gonna do it!!
I'm diagnosed with ADHD, but without hyperactivity. Normal memory, but lower working memory than the average person. For the rest of the test, I scored very high. Apparently top 5% of population, which came as a surprise, but ok, I'll take it.
Now I've been wanting to make my company for a while, but I guess the ADHD diagnosis scares me. I basically want to make a small tech service business, so the cost of entry and expenses are very low. I don't take meds. Is creating a business with ADHD a recipe for disaster? I don't want to get into it head first then change my mind because something new came up, since that's what we do.
Are any of you business owners? How's your experience? Any advice, warnings?
Anything is useful :)
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I'm so sick of everything no one fucking cares, no one would ever stop their day to check up on me,no one would care to ask how my day was,no one cares if I were to die, I am literally nothing,I'm just misplaced brick in an already built house that should be removed, I'm a complete waste of space, I'm fully convinced my freinds generally don't care about me and would rather see me gone, I'm just a nuisance to them,they don't care no one ever does,I'm going to be alone
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So I’m going to give a description of my OCD, even though I find it embarrassing, in the hope someone can help me rationalise this.
So as one example, I’ve noticed that this one person reminds me a lot of someone I know. I then looked into this person more and have found out that this person shares even more similarities with the person I know. For example, I’ve also found out their reserved, into preservation, dark sense of humour, everyone likes them, both vegetarian, both in the same sort of profession, however for some reason I then need to find something that is different about these two, otherwise it makes me very anxious. Maybe I’m worried of some sort of message to me, or there’s a reason for this for me, or something along those lines. I can’t entirely express why it’s making me anxious… but I’m hoping someone out there who has insight into OCD can offer any advice. Thank you.
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to be clear, this isn't me trying to gatekeep, this is just something I've noticed myself feeling and some other people probably have too. i think it's perfectly fine for everyone, including nt people, to use them and honestly they're helping make them more accessible to those of us who need them.
but still, this is probably internalised ableism but I feel more self conscious than ever to use my stim toys in public. I don't want them to be seen as a 'toy', as their more of an aid to me - I also don't want them to be seen as optional. It's easy to say to a neurotypical child "oh could you not do that please, it's distracting/annoying/etc." but for a neurodivergent kid (or adult) they help us, I guess you could say function, as "normal" people would.
also, and I don't think it's a good thing, there's a sort of stereotype being out into place now of the "cringy kid on tik tok with a fidget collection" and idk, I just don't want myself, or anyone really to be seen as that.
along with this, it's not just in public places, also in school. I've had a lot of classmates either just take stim toys and play with them or 'pester' me into 'letting them have a go' because they don't fully understand that to them it might be a bit of fun but to me it helps me concentrate on the lesson and helps when I feel overstimulated.
just me? please comment and tell me it's not
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I guess my social anxiety goes hand in hand with my ocd. It feels like I cant have any online account, be it games, social media or anything at all.
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Hi folks, I'm a 22 f. And I am engaged to my partner who's 24m. He recently got a diagnosis of ADHD about 4 or 5 months ago now.
Back in March we got him to see a psychiatrist. At first they said it was Anxiety and depression and gave him antidepressants. But those didn't work and my partner went into psychosis. So we switched to new ones and they made him feel like a zombie and wanted to k himself. So we stopped those. He demanded that he get tested for ADHD. So we got his school records and everything. And my partner got his diagnosis but we had to do some heart tests to see if he can take stimulants. And thebresults came back abnormal so they said they were going to refer my partner to see a heart specialist. But this was 3 months ago now. His psychiatrist has been ghosting him and his untreated ADHD is getting worse. To the point where he feels like the medical system in our province failed him. I don't know what to do to help him. I love him. Because of covid screwing up a routine he had his symptoms from being undiagnosed and untreated for so long arrised. But deep down I know he doesn't want to rely on other means. I know he wants help but it's hard to get it.
Basically I could use some guidance to help him. Because I know he has so much potential in life. And I believe in him and his successes. If anyone could kindly help I'd greatly appreciate it.
Thank you,
A struggling fiancée of a partner with untreated ADHD.
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Hi,
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I(17f)didn’t know which sub to post this on so I posted it on quite a few. I think I was raped by my (now) ex-boyfriend(16m). I would like some clarity on what I should’ve been on the lookout for or if I could’ve stopped it from happening. Basically how much of it was my fault. I’m sorry if it’s long. (TW: sexual assault)
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We met when I was 16 and he was 15 towards the end of 2020. I had just shifted apartments and was in a terrible place mentally. I had cut all my friends off and was very depressed and suicidal. He shifted to the same apartment a few months later and we met through a mutual friend. I find it very hard to connect with people so when we hit it off immediately it felt amazing. I wasn’t looking for anything romantic with him initially because he was younger than me and I wasn’t keen on the idea, but we quickly became best friends and knew that we started liking each other. I was very against dating because because I felt like I wasn’t emotionally ready and he said he was too. We started kissing and making out and soon after admitted that we had feelings for each other on call one night. He asked me why we aren’t dating and I told him that it wouldn’t end well, and that the idea just icks me out a little. But he kept being like why not, and to have some faith, so I agreed. Mind you, I really liked him at this point so I was willing to give it a shot.
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I’d never gone past 2nd base before and he’d already had sex so it wasn’t as much of a big deal to him. Before we started dating I gave him head which I guess gave him the get go that I was ready to do anything. Since we lived in the same apartment we met everyday, and after that day he would kind of expect it everyday even when I just wanted to kiss. I was a little surprised at the beginning but I thought it was normal and I didn’t want to disappoint so I went ahead with it. He’d also constantly turn every conversation we had, especially late at night, into something sexual even when I made it clear that I was uncomfortable. I’d give in every time because I didn’t want him to think I didn’t like him, and tried to convince myself that it was just because he liked me.
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I should’ve realised then that he wasn’t educated about consent, but I was so blinded by how much I liked him and how good it felt to have someone with you 24/7 that I told myself that these were all normal things to expect in a relationship. I had an abusive childhood too so love seemed different to me than what it may be for others. I told him I wanted to wait and that I wanted my first time to be special, be it with him or not. He said yes absolutely and many things which made me trust him further, although his actions showed otherwise.
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My friend(16f at the time) was groomed by another guy in our friend group(19m at the time) into hooking up straight after her break up. He knew that she was a virgin and that she expected only making out, maybe 3rd base max but penetrated her without asking for her consent. It happened in the washroom of a common building in our apartment and soon after she told our friend group. Him and I talked about how horrible it was, and he said that it was awful and how disgusting it was for him to do something like that. I was glad he felt that way. Not even a week later, he takes me to the same washroom.
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We were looking at his old childhood pictures before that, and laughing together. It was a nice night. He told me that he had to go home soon and to go to the washroom with him. I thought making out can’t hurt and went with him. We kissed, and before I knew it he had taken mine and his clothes off. All I remember is everything moving super fast. I was on top of him kissing him when I felt that he was trying to penetrate me. I told him that I’m scared and that I wasn’t sure, but I thought it must’ve been a mistake because we’d already talked about it. And he himself had said that he didn’t want me to lose my virginity to some quickie in a dark washroom. He didn’t ask me if I wanted to. Before I knew it he was inside me. I just remember feeling completely numb. My mind was frozen in some sort of icy shock. Screaming what the fuck is going on what the fuck is happening. I didn’t make a single sound. I didn’t say no. I let him continue. I just wanted it to be over with. Towards the end pushed me off him and shoved my head down again. I resisted by lifting my head up once, but once he pushed again I gave in.
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He got up and handed me my clothes and started dressing himself. I still remember exactly what he was wearing, what I was wearing, the feeling of clutching my clothes to my chest in that dark dingy washroom.
I couldn’t speak. He realised something was wrong when I couldn’t speak. He helped me get dressed and kissed me on the forehead and asked are you ok? I didn’t say anything except push him away. I could tell that he was getting scared. What’s wrong he kept asking, over and over and over. Whatever I tried to speak came out in whispers. I didn’t realise I was whispering until I saw him lean closer and closer to catch what I was trying to say. He kept trying to hold my hand. I was so heartbroken. I trusted him so much. I felt so dirty and disgusting and violated. I felt like the one thing that was truly mine in this world had been taken away from me for 5 minutes of someone’s gratification. I dropped him home.
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I was so confused. What had just happened? I called my younger sister(15m) before he got into the lift when I realised my voice hadn’t come back so he took the phone from me and told her that he thinks he made me sad. He went home. My sister and I aren’t close but we have this kinship in the fact we’ve been through the same things together. That was the first time I hugged her in my life. I sobbed until I was sore, and she did too. I told her what had happened. I didn’t feel like myself anymore. It felt like the last, hopeful, part of me had been ripped away. Like my heart had been ripped away from my chest, beating and bloody till it eventually stopped. I told him not to tell anyone. He messaged me saying he’s such a terrible boyfriend and that he is so sorry and that I should stab him if it makes me feel better. I scrubbed myself raw in the shower that night for what felt like hours trying the get the memory out of my skin.
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I’m going to spare you the details now. But after this I broke up with him after a couple days, he insisted that we should still be friends. I didn’t want to lose him. Losing him at the same time this happened would’ve felt like 2 tragedies at once. We started dating again barely a month later. I wished that he would leave because I didn’t have the strength to. I had no space to myself. He told me he understood that what he did was wrong and that he loved me. When I asked him how could someone who loves someone else rape them he said he thought I wanted to. And that he thought I said I was scared and I don’t know because I thought someone was outside. I comforted him because he felt bad about raping me.
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He told me he’d get panic attacks when I talked about it which made me stop because I didn’t want to make him uncomfortable. Then he’d ask me why I don’t talk to him ab it. I was the only one who believed him when he said it was an accident, a mistake. Deep down I knew it wasn’t of course, like everyone else, but I was so blinded by the temporary comfort being with him provided that it just didn’t matter. I wanted comfort from the person who caused the pain. I was so lost.
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It was still very rocky with intense highs, and much more intense lows. But the highs were so addictive. He’d get mad when anyone suggested that our relationship was toxic. We were on and off because my friends knew about what happened and made me break up with him, but I always went back. I slept with him again too. He still pressured me but this time I told myself I’m doing it because I wanted to. There was one day when I was sobbing thinking about it in front of him and he just smiled and told me to hit him. To get it out. He kept trying to rile me up. I didn’t want to hit him, I just wanted to cry in his arms. Him smiling in that sick way did something though, and it felt like a fog had been lifted. I told my friends in the apartment and they begged him to leave me alone. He said if she wants me to I will. I knew that he’d leave me once he loves me if ever and that I’d leave once I love myself. Being with him after was some kind of self-punishment. He knew about my problems at homes, and with my mental health, I’d never, ever been so exposed and vulnerable to a single person in my life. The one time they ask me to trust them and I do it ends up like this.
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Anyways, we don’t break up but his parents find out that we’re together and being quite conservative, lash out. I finally got some space from him. No contact whatsoever, and I realised that I had to break up w him. I texted him that we need to go on a break and soon after that we need to break up. He asked to meet irl just to say goodbye. I wanted to see him one last time and STILL somehow hoped that we’d be on good terms. We talked to 2mins and then he kept trying to take my mask off (pandemic), I let him and we pecked. Like a goodbye, thanks for the memories peck. I must seem very stupid and I was, but I’d give anything to get that naivety back. After that, he kept trying to makeout with me and touch me. I didn’t freeze this time. I said no, and I pushed him. Multiple times. I said stop and put my hand between us. Moved myself away, told him to please sit down. He kept going. It finally dawned on me that he was never sorry and that he’d never understand. That I can’t put myself in harms way to protect other people and make him learn, because he never will. He pushed me tried to force me to go down on him and I screamed fuck off which was when it finally hit him I guess. He sat next to me. I didn’t know what to say.
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He didn’t say anything either. He fell to my feet after a while and started sobbing about how he didn’t know what was wrong with him, and that I deserve better and to please forgive him. I lost my voice again. I made him promise me that he’d never hurt another girl in his life, although the promise probably means nothing. I went home. My friends mom found out and was going to tell his and I, stupidly again, told him to tell them himself because it would be better if they heard it from his mouth. I didn’t want him to get punished I just wanted him not to do it again. He told them only about the recent time because apparently they would’ve blame me otherwise. He was still trying to convince me that he was looking out for me. I asked to speak to his mom and he refused. I asked him to tell them about the first time and he said I’m sorry, I love you but this is the most I can do for you. I can’t ruin a life long relationship with my parents.
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I told my dad soon after. It broke him. He’s abusive, but I know at the end of the day, he does want what’s best for me. He asked me what I wanted to do and if I wanted to go to the police. After I told him the whole story, he essentially blamed me for going back to him. And that if I was really so disgusted with the first time why would I go alone with him afterwards. I didn’t know how to explain. Hopefully, I’ll be able to tell my therapist and she’ll explain it to him in a way he’ll understand.
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I still miss him. I know it wasn’t real but I miss him so much. I don’t know how I’ll ever be normal again. I feel so unlike myself and broken.
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Thank you for reading, I’d really appreciate some advice if you have any.
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I want to just get up and walk away from my life and completely disappear and never see anyone ever again
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I’m stuck in the middle of being happy and wanting everything to stop. It’s like I have no friends but when I go to school people talk to me but I know they forget about me instantly after we talk but it makes me happy (in the moment)then sad because I know they don’t care. My parents are awful and good at the same time they provide for me and my brother and they are nice until they just aren’t and say stuff that makes me want to die. This all started because I lost my “girlfriend” and two best friends about a month ago and I still think about them everyday cause they sit near me in almost all of my classes. I also cut myself 12 times and I had to listen to my Cross country teammates worry about my other teammate who cut himself and I’m glad they did help him but it made me feel more alone than ever cause those same teammates are ass holes to me. In short I want to be sad and depressed but I can’t I just get really depressed at night and when I wake up it’s as if nothing happened and I forget everything prior to that time.
Sorry if this is hard to read I’m not good at expressing my thoughts into text
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i never know if i have a sense or if it’s just ocd. like i’ll have a bad feeling about something, i have no idea if it’s my intuition or just my ocd telling me something bad is going to happen UGH
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How to handle manic/depressive episodes with ADHD
I’m a sophomore in college and i have lost all motivation, even with meds i feel like i just wanna break everything and say f*ck you to everyone and i don’t even the things i typically get excited about. But then there are days where I am off the wall, love talking to everyone and try my hardest in everything I do. It happens when I take meds and when I don’t take them. I know that ADHD and Bipolar disorder have some similarities but I’m just curious if anyone else has experienced this.
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Can we just get a list of all the weird stuff we do.
Because it seems like at least once a week someone posts something and I'm like holy shit thats an ADHD thing.
It really feels great knowing I'm not the only one doing some behaviour that I've been told is weird or all in my head.
Stuff like allways wearing socks because you hate the feeling of stuff rubbing against your feet
stuff like going the whole day without eating then eating everything around you as soon as the medication wears off.
(Not looking for actual symptoms)
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Hey guys, now I know this something I should probably seek a doctor about but just wanted to make a post. I’ve always been an obsessive planner, ‘head planner’ may I add… i love being organised when planning trips.
However, I’ve noticed for as long as I can remember I ‘subtly’ plan my week in my head… and if one day doesn’t go as my head planned it would make me feel quite anxious but I never really noticed this… only now it’s getting worse.. if I have planned for example, ‘meeting friends on Saturday’ and the event has been cancelled… I get SOOO anxious to the point I cry, I get angry, I take my anger out on people, I try to think of something else to do to fill the time, I have depressing thoughts and want to hurt my self sometimes… now I know this can’t be normal… it’s like I can’t deal with it properly. I have trouble planning last minute activities… such as if me and my boyfriend have decided we are eating out for dinner, these decisions of ‘where are we going to eat’ stresses me the hell out!!!
I have noticed my anxiety in general has been getting worse, I’m more stressed now as I’ve started at new job as a teacher and boy is it stressful/tiring. So this might have a part to play.
I suppose what I’m wondering is, is anyone here who is diagnosed with OCD, plan like this in their head but don’t necessarily mean it? It’s getting on my nerves now and I can’t just accept things as they come… is it even OCD I’m experiencing.. who knows!? Aghhhh!!!
Thanks :)
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Can I ask, have any of y’all experienced having intrusive IMAGES? Like products of your imagination. They can change, they can be like GIFS (moving, though not for long), but will always, always cause you distress. How do y’all move on from “seeing” these images? I think I over worry (especially at night, actually the whole day) if they’re gonna come back (they do eventually, and I hate it). How do y’all do something and not think of it? It’s so hard because they’re images - they just freaking pop up! Any advice would be helpful!
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Not even a throwaway bc fuck it.
Ive had an issue with this for a while but i think i might not be human because i fall outside of demographics so much and i dont think i "think" normal aswell.
Write me off as crazy if you feel like it, youre probably right anyway.
Just wanted to see if anyone feels the same on some level.
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is this the same thing? sometimes i’ll know if a memory is false but there will be other times where i “remember” something and i’ll genuinely feel like it happened, but i never specifically remember that one thing happening. like if they’re based off real memories i never remember the one aspect of it that i obsess over actually happening?? and i don’t know if i’m lying to myself to cope
i’m so frustrated because i had my gf over this weekend and when i was with her and for most of today my ocd let go of me and i felt so happy for the first time in a while and now i’m back in the hole. i knew it wouldn’t last
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But mostly people on the internet, I’m sick of dealing with entitled assholes, I wish I could be like my father, someone who had real life friends and did more than just lay in bed all day. I’m just so sick of this, I hate having to get angry but sometimes people just won’t stop.
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my ex gf would abuse me and be so toxic so when i’m with my new gf i get afraid to say anything or to not listen to her from fear that i’ll get hit or be talked shit on. certain smells or songs make me remember when she would literally beat me or talk shit and all i can do is cry and have panic attacks. i hope one day it can be better but shes tainted my life so bad that i live in constant fear of being abused. it was hard to start dating my new gf cuz everytime we would kiss or hug or say “i love you” it would remind me of her and the shit she put me through. i have literal ptsd from the month of april where she contantly blocked me, made fun of me to my friends, made fun of my depression, cheated 3 times, wouldn’t block the guy she cheated on me with, broke up with me for a few days, raped me twice in one night, physically abused me and used me for money. i almost killed myself too many times when i was with her. thanks to my new girlfriend my life is getting so much better, i’m starting to have energy to go out the house, i got into skateboarding, i found more music i’m into, i was able to come out as bisexual, was able to dress as and be punk and so much more. fuck you angelina and thank you alyssa.
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I wouldn't consider myself to be a particularly bad case of OCD, and recently things have been getting slightly better for me, but intrusive thoughts and rituals are still a major part of my life that I wish to get rid of. I have recently turned 18, which means I am officially an adult, but I am still living with my dad because I am in high school, and he has to pay for my therapist, psychiatrist and medication, which is not cheap. I really wish to rid him of this burden, and also rid myself of having to pay for all of this when I move out. I also do not want to waste any more precious time on adjusting the zipper on my jeans or hopping on one leg around my room when I could be reading, studying or doing something else that is more meaningful. But it's not just about me: I am sure there are a lot of people here that could use some good advice, that is why we are here in the first place. So please, if you think that you are qualified enough in your fight against OCD to give advice, do so. This would be deeply appreciated.
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This post is longer than I thought, sorry.
TLDR: I don't like blood vessels and thinking of them makes me physically uncomfortable, but I have a completely different response to my other triggers so I don't know if the blood vessels count as OCD.
Hi, I'm 18F and back in April I got diagnosed with ADHD-I. I started medication and was warned by my psychiatrist that I displayed mild anxiety symptoms during my review and that the meds could make that worse. So far they haven't, but I reached out to a local mental health service so that if it got worse I'd be prepared.
We discussed what made me feel anxious/uncomfortable (worries about family, finance, intruders, and blood vessels) and they gave me a provisional diagnosis of OCD (so not officially diagnosed, but more of an educated guess).
The thing is, with the first three triggers I can clearly explain how I feel and why. But with the blood vessels I have no idea what it is. I'm not afraid of them, I don't feel as if anything bad will happen, but it makes me so physically uncomfortable to think about them. All I can say is that I just don't like them.
The service let me join a group CBT course, and I've had the first meeting. For this weeks task we have to keep a little diary and write about a situation, thoughts, emotions, physical feelings, and behaviour. I was trying to fill it in about the blood vessels but for my thoughts and emotions, I had no idea how to put anything into words or even pictures.
So yeah, it's made me doubt whether or not the blood vessel thing is part of OCD or if it's something else. At first I thought it could be a phobia, but I'm not afraid of them so I guess not. My next session is Wednesday so I might bring it up then and see what the group has to say.
I'd like to know what you guys think, and any advice on how to actually get my feelings onto paper. I'm happy to give more detail about anything I've mentioned here and answer any other questions you might have.
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Hey all, as the title says im retired from the military, i got retired mainly due to PTSD, which led to a major suicide attempt while i was in the service. I don't want to go into details of the traumas i have experienced, i just want to know if it gets better. Its been over a year and a half, and i had to call the veterans crisis line today because i broke down. Not only that, im afraid to work because of the fear that i may break down in an interview or at work if they ask about my military service. Does anybody civilian, or military have any insight as to what the recovery was like for them?
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I don't know if anyone can relate to this or not, but where I live we have certain years where cicadas multiply like crazy and they basically cover every outdoor space.
(if anyone hasn't seen one of these, a cicada is a pretty large insect that sort of resembles a fly)
I don't have a problem with bugs. I don't even really hate most things about cicadas, even though they land all over me outside and shed their carapaces in my garden. My problem is specifically with the SOUND that they make.
If you've had to live with them before, you likely know the sound. When cicadas gather in big massive swarms, they all make this hissing/buzzing sound. The sound is tolerable by itself, but when a whole lot of them get going at once it becomes unbearably loud.
I meant to go outside more this Summer, but now when I step out I can't even hear myself thing over the horrid buzzing of these things. It's enough that I've started covering my ears just to walk out to my car. Does anyone have trouble dealing with cicada noise, or is it just me?
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Have you found any products that have made your life easier? The autism products on amazon seem to mainly be geared towards children once again like we don't exist -\_\_- . So far I have noise cancelling headphones. When I save up some money I would like a weighted blanket.
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I read that obsessions in OCD are by definition unwanted and intrusive. If something starts as something that you voluntarily thought was worth exploring more, but turned into something that you cant control would it be considered an obsession in ocd. For example, if someone wanted to climb a mountain. They do their research, but they cant stop. They're up all night and ducking out at work to research more and more. It interferes with their life and they cant let it go. Originally it started as a wanted thought but turned into an unwanted one. They want to let it go because it feels like the obsession with climbing the mountain is holding them hostage. They cant simply relax because they HAVE to learn more about this mountain. The obsession would be climbing the mountain and the compulsion would be research about climbing the mountain. Would this qualify as an obsession?
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For context I am a pilot. The FAA is fairly archaic when it comes to mental illness and I am worried that if I get a traditional diagnosis I could lose my licenses or have to go through a stringent and unnecessary testing process. My education for this specific field has cost upwards of 90k (not including me bachelors) so obviously I would like to keep flying.
I have passed all test to get to this point and have no problem focusing when it comes to flying. In fact I typically find it easier to focus while flying as I am working with my hands.
I probably wouldn’t be able to be on medication and that’s ok. But I feel that a diagnosis would bring clarity and help me find methods to combat some of the harder aspects of my day to day.
I started looking into this because my older sister was diagnosed with adhd. Then all my siblings and my father got tested and all have adhd. I didn’t think it was hereditary but I think it would be nice to check.
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Was recently diagnosed with PTSD after years of dealing with symptoms. It all made sense once I found out what it was but I’m still navigating my issues around it.
One of my biggest triggers is the sound of doors closing or opening. Doors slamming being the worst but just in general, it’s triggering to me. My bedroom is directly across from (hallway between) my neighbors front door. I live in an old fourplex building and the walls are pretty thin. There really isn’t another way to arrange my bed and I’m in a one-bedroom.
My neighbor works different hours from me and comes and goes late evening/early morning. Every night, without fail, I wake up from my sleep to the sound of him unlocking the door and closing it. Like heart in throat, jump up in fear and panic feeling. It’s very hard to get back to sleep after. Since moving in six months ago, I have barely slept.
I don’t know what to do anymore. He is not overly loud and is very respectful. But the sound of him coming/going echoes in the hallway. Because my bed is resting up against the wall across from his door, the sound is quite loud. I have tried sleeping pills but I still wake up from my sleep every night. I’m tired (literally) of running on no sleep but have no idea what to do!
I’m looking at jobs in other states and will hopefully move before my lease is up in July. But I’m not sure how many more months I’ll still be here. I’m desperate for non-interrupted sleep. Is this just how it’s going to be for me, moving forward? Or is there anything I can do to help things? Anyone with a similar trigger found a way to minimize this issue? Any advice is appreciated! Thank you! 🖤
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ptsd
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I spend all my time hyper focusing on my hobbies or things that give me anxiety. My hobbies would be ok if they actually involved important things like my education and adult responsibilities, but unfortunately I’m not that lucky. My hobbies aren’t gonna be able to get me a job, buy a house, or pay bills.
I honestly want to be a math prodigy, but my adhd and Dyscalculia says “nooooooo. You’d rather learn obscure facts about video game franchises”. Stupid shit like that. Yeah brain that’s a REAL productive way to spend my time -_-
I want to be enthusiastic about learning different math equations and about how numbers work together. But instead I’m interested in the countless fake creatures in worlds that don’t even exist.
What’s the use in that kind of knowledge in the real world? No boss or company manager is gonna be impressed with things like that. They’ll look at me like I’ve got 3 heads!
But imagine all kinds of opportunities I’d have if I was a math prodigy. I could become something incredibly impressive. Like a mathematician! I could be recognized for something actually important. I could be an actual productive member of society.
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ADHD
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It makes you more active -- would it affect your mind also so that you'd get that going again easier?
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OCD
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Greetings,
I have read couple articles in this Community about this combination. Some said no side effects but just a little bit slowing down, some say much more irritability.
Everyone is different surely, but wanted to ask before I jump in because I hate the downs.
So maybe I can cut the Ritalin to half , and take 1 in morning with Wellbutrin when I sit down to studying, and the other half in the afternoon.
My tolerance was extremely high to these two but after Acupuncture Im like reseted. Even half Ritalin do a good job. Only problem is the comedowns; so ı wonder if Wellbutrin helps with the downs since its Antidepp?
Another question how about 75mg Effexor with Ritalin if this one is not your pick? (Just for no downs when taking ritalin)
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ADHD
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I have no idea if this will help me, but I suffer from horrible ocd over smells. I don't worry about germs, just smells. Smells that will transfer to everything I own and then I will always smell and I can't afford to throw away everything I own
Tonight I was coming back to my apartment and my neighbor said she thought there was a skunk out. I proceeded to pet her dog and she said he tried to attack the skunk.
As soon as I walked away I freaked. What if the dog got skunk smell on him??? Now it would be on my hands and soon on everything I owned. I'm doing laundry so it will be on my clean laundry, the towels I will use next time I bathe, etc.
I smelled my hands and didn't smell anything, but I don't trust my sense of smell. It was a very short walk back to my place from where I petted the dog and if a skunk had sprayed I would have definitely smelled it.
Tell me my hands don't smell. I washed them for about five minutes. I think they smell like soap. I think they didn't smell before I washed them.
It's weird to finally post here. I'm so tired of suffering. I tell myself to not lose these precious moments in worry. I'm not young and with all the anxiety has done to my body, who even knows how long I have left.
Just reaching out, finally.
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OCD
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Well here i am. Posting on here. Something I thought id NEVER do. I thought I would just read all your stories and feel more at home than actually post my post here. I'm posting because im going through a very very rough time with my ROCD. Which I've began to doubt if I even have rocd or ocd. Long story short my girlfriend is by far the most beautiful soul. Both inside and out. The sweetest. Most patient. Loving. Understanding. Pretty. And excuse the language lol but shes sexy without having to get naked. And she's super funny. Our sense of humor just matches perfectly its crazy. Her personality is amazing I love it. We enjoy the same stuff, same hobbies, doing the same things, similar foods. We're just compatible and alike in so many damn ways. This is probably one of the vets and most genuine relationships I've had. I've had ocd since a very young probably around the age of 7-8. I started with the fear of cooking on my food if I didn't chew it enough. Of course being that small. I had no idea what OCD even was. So I would only eat soft foods or food that weren't too chewy. Sometimes I would wrap food in a napkin and throw it out the window of the room so my parents wouldn't see that I didn't eat. Then had some sort of sensorimotor ocd where I kept obsessing about how I i was breathing without thinking about it. Then came rocd about 6 years ago. First it my two year relationship with my ex. And then every other person I've dated till now. Ive had other forms of ocd. But of course I don't think I'm going to make a post on them. The important part is my rocd and my bpd. My rocd has been killing me in my newest relationship I've been with her for going on 8 months. We've known each other for over 3 years. We started off as best friends. Started digging each other's personality and started falling for each other. And I decided to take the step forward and ask her to be my girlfriend. Truth is I wouldn't want any other girl but her. I love her so much but I can't say it or think it without a very deep doubt or no anxiety almost at all anymore(only when I really start to panic and think that its true). I have all the doubts starting from if im attracted to her enough(sexually and physically). Yet she looks very beautiful and pretty. When we get intimate its amazing. I started doubting whether I really I want to be her. Started obsessing about the sound of her voice. I started doubting whether I really care about her or not or if I really love her not. Its so draining. Irritating and depressing. I want to be with her. But then my mind will say shit like "well you can't be with her if you don't love her or care about her." They're not even what if's most of the time now. Just affirmations which piss me off and scare me at the time. I don't want that. I love her. And i want to love her. Everything feels forced sometimes. Well loving actions. Anything nice or romantic i what to do for her feels "forced"most of the time. Sometimes she's says her head hurts or something liek that and I think " do you really care that her head hurts? Do you really want to make her feel better? What are you going to do to make her feel better?" Or "do you really care that she doesn't feel good? Do you really care that she hasn't ate yet?" Most of the time I just feel numb about it. I feel numb towards everything. I literally feel like I can walk out the house and see a dead body in front of my house and wouldn't feel or do shit about it. Either go around it or just stay home.
I just feel really alone and scared. I know this sounds like reassurance seeking, but I just want to talk to people that go or are going through either the same thing or something similar. I always come to the conclusion that I just don't want to leave my partner or be with someone else. That I don't want to see her with someone else or want her to make love with another perosn. I want to keep going I want to keep trying regardless of these thoughts or feelings. I want to marry her one day.
Hope someone sees this. Maybe we can pm each other or text. Or start a group chat with others going through the same thing. Thank you.
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OCD
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On days where I don't take my ADHD medication or take a lower dose (usually a couple of days a week), I will usually drink a lot of tea or sometimes energy drinks. On the days where I'm taking my medication, I try to avoid caffeine altogether. Since you're not supposed to take caffeine with stimulant medication and anyway, meds should do everything caffeine does but better? Right?
Only I'm increasingly finding that whenever I go back on my medication after taking a break, it doesn't work properly unless I ALSO have caffeine. At first I thought it was a tolerance build-up and tried taking a longer break from it (using caffeine to get through the day as usual) to no avail. If anything, it worked even worse than before.
Which has me wondering if the sudden caffeine withdrawal on my medication days is actively stopping it from working properly. I know caffeine withdrawl can cause side effects like fatique and poor concerntration but wouldn't have thought that was the case here, since stimulant medication is a lot stronger and more effective than caffeine. But maybe the brain doesn't treat stimulants interchangably?
IDK, would anyone here be able to enlighten me?
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ADHD
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So for the past few months I've been obsessing over the idea of goinfmg crazy and just losing my mind. I analyze my thoughts all day and I am hyperaware of everything.
I had some very specific intrusive thoughts and I got better with that through ERP, but now all I ever do is focus on my inner dialogue. My mind never stops, it races all the time and its the most random stuff. Its as if its having a conversation on its own. It could honestly be something like 'the bird flew across the river' 'we could have done so much better' 'he said we would be okay'. Sometimes my mind replays songs, conversations or repeats random words, or its just rambling on its own. I notice this the most when im not focused or before bed time.
Im so scared im totally losing my mind. Is this normal to have? Am i analyzing normal thought process? Or are my thoughts really random?
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OCD
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I have this weird phenomenon that whenever I experience a release of dopamine, be it through an orgasm, drinking or weed, I feel fine for half a day, but then my motivation and mood plummet for at least 24 hrs. Stuck in brain fog. My speech is noticeably worse (limited vocabulary, quieter, etc.).It can take between 3-5 days for me to feel leveled out again. I hardly ever drink, and I quit weed years ago. The orgasms though… that’s just a cruel neurotransmitter game my brain is playing on me.
I’d love to understand the mechanism with my dopamine release. It doesn’t get released when I work on projects that used to make me feel good (and still would if I didn’t procrastinate them). Instead I go for the dopamine rush and as a consequence need 3-5 days to be back at baseline.
This year my psychiatrist put me on Sertraline (an SSRI). It was supposed to help with social anxiety, lower cortisol / prolactin and give me the motivation to work of an ever-growing stack of projects I’ve been procrastinating. But Sertraline took away any remaining motivation and made me bed-ridden for the entire summer, even on the lowest dose. I slowly quit it after 8 weeks and experienced all the negative symptoms from brain zaps to upset stomach to increased sweating. I’ve tried other SSRIs over the past 15 years but none seemed to benefit me, and all gave me side effects.
Should I give Wellbutrin (Bupropion) a try? I used it twice over the past two decades but no longer have records on why I quit them. I recall not having sexual side effects on it, but perhaps it made me more irritable / anxious. Is there perhaps another medication that is more geared on dopamine reuptake inhibition and less so on norepinephrine? My social anxiety and general high-stress exhaustion would probably go into overdrive if I keep more norepinephrine in my system.
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depression
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Half vent/half discussion. So yes, as the title says, I've cost my rep and friendship with 2 people for over sharing (2nd one was my cousin, though I realized that it was a blessing in disguise). My advice for anyone going through something similar is this: Type out whatever your compulsion is telling you to. Then, slowly erase the details; leave the meat of the story. You're gonna feel a resistance; that's normal. Just stick with it. If they ask for more deets, give them it, but keep it relevant to the question they asked. Because the problem with me is I assumed they wanted to hear all that, since my family was ok with it. Also, I felt like they wouldn't understand my story if I didn't tell every detail. But I've learned the hard way that people will be ok without knowing what the weather was. So don't keep it brief; say all you wish to say. Just trim it before you send it (goes for both irl and online, with the former bring in your head before you speak). ✌
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OCD
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I genuinely felt like I was finally dying. I couldn't breathe and kept putting more pressure on my throat. but 2 minutes had passed and I still wasn't dead. I ran out of energy and willpower after that.
I'm just sick of this. just when I thought life was getting better, maybe I can be happy for once, smile, maybe even laugh. no, everything just comes crumbling down immediately.
my grades are getting worse, my only friends are getting more and more distant, and my girlfriend for two years is slowly starting to grow distant.
and no matter how hard I try, I can't save any of it. it's like a test, but no matter how hard you try, you will always get the answers wrong. it's destroying any willpower I have to keep going on with life.
I just wish I could save all of it. I don't want to lose my friends. i feel my brain slipping too. I'm completely disconnected from the world for long periods of time, and even after it, my brain is unable to focus on anything, and I slip away again.
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depression
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My son has adhd and I have noticed that a lot of stuff he "gets from me" vanishes on his meds. Like the inability to decide which thing to work on, the inability to sit still ever, the inability to focus once he decides what to work on, the inability to ever finish anythjng, the hyperfixation, etc. My siblings are all diagnosed as well.
I'm an adult woman and I'm worried about approaching my doctor and being told I just have anxiety and depression again. I've been on meds for both of those things historically and nothing has helped. I know doctors love to ignore women or just toss them on anti anxiety pills. How do I get listened to?
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ADHD
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I'm diagnosed with ADHD but I don't actually know if this is due to my ADHD. Just don't know where else to post.
Tonight I went to a restaurant with my mom and brother. The host asked, "Table for three?" and I became extremely confused. "No, four." It felt like there were four of us. I knew it was just my mom, brother, and I, but for some reason I thought that equated to four. I don't really know how to explain it, but it freaked me out. Like, '*Do I have a brain tumor or am I having a stroke'* freaked out. Except I don't think I show any other symptoms of those two issues.
My mom just laughed it off to make me feel better and said, "It's because you're used to Dad going with us," but that's not the case. I knew he wasn't there. I looked at my mom, my brother, and then myself (well you can't really look at your own face but you know what I mean), and I still somehow added that up to four people.
Do any of you experience weird things like this, where you're genuinely concerned for your wellbeing?
Edit: I know this isn't a medical sub but I also began to have a severe stomach ache as soon as I was seated and it didn't ease up until I got home. Wonder if it's connected somehow...
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ADHD
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I have good friends, but I still feel lonely in the sense that I can't connect to anyone on a really deep level. I have delt with anxiety and depression for a long time, at times worse than others. I'm not a virgin, but I've never had a gf and I'm 20. This loneliness eats at my soul and I believe it stems from emotional neglect in my childhood as well as a porn addiction I've had since I was 9. I need help
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depression
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What have I learned in 2021? I’ve learned a lot of things.
I’ve learned what it’s like to have a whole grab-bag of negative emotions as my default state. Depression, anger, resentment, loneliness, lust, jealousy, apathy, boredom, regret, despair, shame, self-loathing, guilt - I’ve gotten close with all of them. For some of them it was just a re-acquaintance.
I’ve learned what it’s like to not smile for a few days at a time, and what it’s like to cry almost every day. I’ve also learned what it’s like to not be able to respond to a “how are you doing?” from family and friends without tearing up.
I’ve learned what it’s like to wake up at 3 AM just to have a panic attack, to pace around my apartment with my hands on my head, hoping that my heart doesn’t give out and wondering if I’m actually losing my mind.
I’ve learned what it’s like to expect a major, positive change in my life…and then to see all the signs that it’s slipping away…and then for it to actually slip away. All while trying to prevent that from happening, being met with insincerity, and ultimately failing.
I’ve learned about the physical effects that all those negative emotions can have on me. I’ve felt bursts of motivation to take care of myself, followed by days/weeks/months of neglect. I’ve fasted for 60 hours, and then binge-ate for 48 hours, and then been completely clueless as to what the fuck I’m doing with myself.
I’ve learned to be more honest with myself, or at least to be aware of all the times when I’m not.
I’ve learned that my gut and my intuition are usually pretty accurate.
I’ve learned that I let other people dictate my life almost constantly, and that I have a debilitating need for outside validation.
I’ve learned that boredom crushes my spirit more than most of those other negative emotions.
I’ve learned what it’s like to constantly play out all the unsaid things that gnaw at me, to have a dialogue between myself and others, to endlessly wish that I could tell it like it is - for months and months, on repeat. I’ve learned that this is what’s “best for me,” and that it’s a better option than real communication, because I’m too weak for that.
I’ve learned what it’s like to feel wholly inadequate, across all the different “versions” of me - the man, the friend, the boyfriend, the worker, the sibling, the son.
I’ve learned how much a vivid dream can ruin my day.
I’ve learned that I’m not very close with most of my closest friends. I am selfish and fail to be there for them, and most of them don’t seem to care a whole lot about me either, other than meeting some very basic minimums of friendship.
That being said, I’ve still learned what it’s like to tell certain friends that I love them, when I’ve known them for most of my life and have never told them that. I’ve learned what it’s like to cry on the phone to friends I’d never expect to cry on the phone to, and to do the same for some friends that I would expect to do that with (but never had).
I’ve learned what it’s like to have a friend diagnosed with brain cancer, and to realize how much I take my friendships and my health for granted. I’ve learned what it’s like to have shitty circumstances force you to recognize the people who you really want to remain in your life, who you want to be closer with, and who you just enjoy hanging out with.
I’ve learned what it’s like partnering up with a childhood friend to try and make money in a nonsensical financial market, and I’ve had a lot of fun doing it.
I’ve learned what it’s like to feel helplessly stuck while working a cushy, well-paying job full of friendly people. I’ve learned that, once again, the negativity of boredom far outweighs any of those comfortable aspects.
On the other hand, I still haven’t learned how to stop caring way too much about what friends and family would think if I ditched my career path with no real plan of what to do next.
I’ve also learned what it feels like to believe that I have no relevant skills to change the path of my professional life. And, for the first time, what it’s like to feel too old to realistically do something about that.
I’ve learned how much I hate working in an office.
I’ve learned that I care way more about myself than I do about a pandemic, or about overarching social issues.
I’ve learned about (or been re-acquainted with) all kinds of different little addictions - physical, virtual, mental.
I’ve learned what it’s like to build up a love for a special place in the world, and then to have my ties to that place severed to the point where I won’t go back any time soon, even though I want to, because I know all of those associations will hurt and I won’t enjoy it.
I’ve learned how superficial friends can be when they’re really just hoping to fuck your significant other once you’re out of the picture.
I’ve learned that I’ve made almost no progress from the meditation and spiritual reading that I was really connecting with months ago.
I’ve learned that I’m a pretty lazy person most of the time, and I have unrealistic expectations for immediate results.
I’ve learned that I despise others for putting their own emotions ahead of the needs of other significant people in their life, even though I do the same thing all the time. Over and over again this year, I haven’t been there for people that needed me, just because I didn’t feel that I had the energy at the time. I am a selfish person.
I’ve learned what it’s like to lose my last grandparent, and to know that I was too lazy or uncaring to call her and catch up, even though I had the gut feeling to do so weeks ahead of her passing.
I’ve felt very raw empathy for my dad for losing 2 siblings and his mom over the past 6 years.
I’ve become much more focused on death - my parents’ eventual deaths, my pets’ eventual deaths, my own eventual loss of physical health and death. I have a horrible fear and sadness that the prime of my life is slipping away in loneliness and engaged in work that I don’t care about.
I’ve learned what it’s like to have my daily life filled with little associations and reminders that just bring sadness. A type of car, a landscape, a song, a show - I haven’t really made any progress on these reminders impacting me less.
I’ve learned that these are my lessons to deal with, that most other people don’t know or wouldn’t care, and that my issues don’t involve some magical quick fix.
I have to find a way to create my own happiness and to live by the values that I actually care about. I hope I can start to do that in 2022.
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depression
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I've struggled to find my rhythm after graduating in 2014. I spent two and a half years teaching secondary/high school English, which completely destroyed my mental health to the point where I was an incapable, depressed, anxious mess before I finally decided to quit in January 2019. I was unemployed for four months, then worked a terrible nursery job where I was taken advantage of due to my qualifications and given responsibilities that I was not ready for. I then got a job at a new, smaller nursery and I really thought they cared about me and the kids. I felt like I'd finally found my place.
But it didn't work out. They didn't care about either of those things. I left after my manager attempted to bully me into working while I was on heavy opioids and antibiotics for tonsillitis, which I'd caught from my coworker who'd dragged herself into work with it. I still have the texts she sent me while I was at the hospital at 5am seeing an emergency doctor, who by the way, was gobsmacked when I asked him if I was fit for work. I reported my manager to the nursery owner, who did nothing but throw paper at me. I was heartbroken and quit, partially because I'd done well at an interview and felt optimistic that I had a better job to go to. But that job fell through because of my references. I can't help but think the worst. I think that nursery screwed my reference because I wasn't going to put up with their abuse.
And I still have horrible nightmares about working there with my bullying, abusive manager. Even after I quit in February. I dwell on the decision I made to quit, whether it was the right one or not. I get flashbacks of the stressful incidents and confrontations. I still think about being shouted at in front of one of the kids because I couldn't lift, carry and change children fast enough after a week of heavy medication and illness. I still wonder what changed. Management had been so kind and supportive at first, I believed they'd really cared.
This has been a longer read that I thought it'd be, but I think it's better out of my head than in. Thanks for reading if you got this far, I'm a long time lurker but have never been brave enough to admit that I am possibly traumatised from all this.
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ptsd
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Maybe I could just look at my ocd symptoms as something that only exist in my head not others (basically that they don't see me as a terrible person or like I'm saying something blasphemous that's the ocd monster) thoughts? Opinions?
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OCD
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Today, I woke up about an hour early because of a bunch of noise downstairs. (There’s a tarantula outside our door.) I wasn’t able to listen to my morning alarm or complete my usual morning routine.
At the moment, I’m in my first period class (virtual Learning) learning about Microsoft Access. Or we’re supposed to be at least. At the moment I’m almost completely unable to focus. Having trouble reading words and unable to process my teacher’s voice. The presentation we’re viewing is controlled by my teacher, so I’m unable to take extra time to read the slides or take notes.
I was wondering if anyone has had a similar experience or if there’s a term used to describe this?
Thanks!
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aspergers
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Yo,
Maladaptive daydreaming probably isn’t good but it seems to be the only thing that helps during my painful ocd intrusive thought and rumination/real event spirals.
Both aren’t healthy but how do I escape my brain? How do I turn off my brain? It’s either I’m hanging out with my hot boyfriend 10 years in the future or I’m stressing over something that I did 5 years ago. : (
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OCD
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I’ve noticed that my daily OCD arc is always pretty much the same. My anxiety/intrusive thoughts and urges start to creep up around 2 pm after feeling pretty good in the morning, peak at around 3 or 4 pm, then go back down around 6, just about every day. I may also get another small peak around 9. But I’ll wake up in the morning usually completely fine.
Some days are still worse than others, so that 4 pm peak may feel worse on a day where I’ve felt a little worse over all. Does this happen for anyone else? Does anyone know why this happens? Is it from a past trigger? Completely random?
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OCD
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Vent......
I can’t stand people who act like they now everything. It fucking drives me crazy when they are like no it’s this or no it’s that. I mean come on you don’t now everything and stop acting like you do
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aspergers
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The account I'm using is different from the usual one as my bf also uses reddit and is a survivor but I need some input.
Keeping it super simple my bf who I love dearly is an amazing man also resembles a past abuser heavily. I have been able since we got together to work through this but lately it's becoming harder to do. I think thi also has a lot to do with the fact that we will be spending a lot of time together soon and it may be kicking all of symptoms into high gear. Anyway, I'm not sure if anyone has been in this type of situation before but if so any advice or suggestions would be greatly appreciated. Also, I have not told him this and do not plan to since well I just dont want that being another hump between us since it is part of my past. Thanks in advance
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ptsd
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My nonno (grandpa) is coming to visit my parents tomorrow before he leaves for the States for the winter. I haven’t seen him for a couple months but even though I can see him tomorrow I don’t want to. I’m severly depressed and dealing with a lot of shame and anxiety and if I go tmo I’m just gonna get judged and feel humiliated and then be worse off. I’m really not in a place where I can go.
I’m on a path to get better and I have support from mental health professionals. I love my family and want to start visiting/calling them on a regular basis but I just need some time to get better 🌧🥺
plz i just need a little time like a month thats it and I can convince them I’m busy
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depression
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I’m new to this group. I’ve been really obsessed with anything related to air quality, since my daughter was diagnosed with asthma. This includes both indoor and outdoor air. I’m going to purchase a crap load of plants tomorrow to improve indoor air. I’m also terrified of our gas furnace, gas appliances in general, my daughters health and just general fear of cancer and death. Are these common? When I get anxious, I research- obsessively. Can anyone relate to any of this? I feel like half the time I’m out of my mind, the other half I think I’m the only sane one paying attention to all these “crises.” The panic comes in waves and it’s exhausting and devastating to not be able to trust my own mind and judgment.
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OCD
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Everytime i see an underage girl i ask myself if i find her attractive or not, something that literally never crossed my mind just a month ago.
how does one overcome this ?!
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OCD
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Hey there everyone. I’m a young paramedic, literally 2 years out of school. In many ways I see my situation similar to that of Hurt Locker(2008). I worked on the road for just over a year before going remote site.
I don’t know if anyone can relate. But when I came home for Christmas last year, most people knew something was off. My boyfriend noticed I was very irritable, I would constantly dissociate and I became every anti social wether it was parties, gatherings or going to the mall I would generally struggle. Needless to say everyone around me could tell I was off.
I get a lot of flashbacks when I’m back home. I used to work the area where I live and I struggle to be calm. I can see the vehicles from my old base responding down the highway. They have a specific pitch in their sirens, helicopters, certain phone ringtones. It all triggers a surge of memories and immense anxiety. I don’t even drive past my old base anymore because of it.
I hate to be that guy, but I am. I like to tell my war stories to unsuspecting folks who ask me what’s the worst thing I’ve ever seen, My old coworkers and college friends all say they’re there for me, but you can’t ever open up without it turning into a huge dick waving contest. In many ways I feel like I’m too young to be going through this, I feel very burnt out.
I don’t like to admit it but I enjoy drinking a lot more than usual and drinking more frequently than before I left. My family has an extensive history when it comes to mental illness and I do suffer from depression, I take about three different antidepressants to keep myself at baseline.
I don’t know if this past year working remote site has helped heal or accelerate the process. Back when I was on the road, I barely had enough time to think, now it’s the complete opposite.
As much as I miss home, I miss being on the road. I often can’t wait to fly back to my remote sites.
I just wanted to share my story.
Edit: I just came back home for about 2 weeks before I get sent shipped off again. But I wanted to say thank you to you guys for offering your input and support. I’ve made an appointment to see a therapist in my area and I’m going to tackle this before it gets out of control.
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ptsd
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Everyone knows the typical focus and hyper active problems but I’ve noticed and found from research that there are a lot more issues than just that. I haven’t seen much about the effects of trying to cope with adhd without medication.
For example I’ve noticed I choose not to talk much because if I do I won’t come up with the right words or lose track in the middle of sentences or I’ll cut ppl off unintentionally. I also choose not to sound smart when in actuality I am because I hate the inconsistency of not having a basic vocabulary some times. I also don’t eat out at restaurants because of the chaos that distracts me from what’s right in front of me. I recently had to end a relationship because my s/o didn’t like that I never wanted to play board games or card games or I didn’t like to have chill nights as much as he did. I didn’t know until he brought it up but I tend to avoid activities that require you to sit still and focus for long amounts of time and it clearly effected my relationship. Most of these habits cause a lot of anxiety and depression. I feel like I’m missing out on a lot just because I want to hide my adhd.
I’m sure there’s other examples of the effects of trying to cope with adhd without medication. Feel free to share (so I don’t feel like the only crazy one lol) :)
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ADHD
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Me:
* I have a good memory. I remember just about everything I experience. I remember conversations from months and years ago. But I'm not special in any way when it comes to memorizing numbers and stuff like that.
* I have a strong sense of visual design. I do a lot of photography and it gives me pleasure to capture something balanced and visually appealing.
* I can write. I can break down difficult technical information and present it so that it is simple and straightforward.
* I can visualize elaborate systems, workflows, and processes in my head. This helps in my work which can involve optimizing complicated processes and designing user interfaces for software applications and technical gadgets.
How about you? What are your super powers?
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aspergers
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TW: domestic abuse/child abuse
Have you ever seen someone you love get punched in the face right in front of you?
What would you do if you did? You would fight to protect them, right? You would do whatever it took to make it stop. Would you be able to? Maybe. Now imagine if you were a tiny kid, a wimpy middle schooler, or a skinny teenage girl...
Would you be able to fight off a grown man?.. maybe... if there were enough of you. Sometimes there was, sometimes there wasn’t, sometimes you had to do it alone.
Those times were the most dangerous. The thing people don’t realize about abuse is that it has splash damage, it hurts everyone involved. Especially the kids..
I grew up watching my older siblings jump in the middle of my parents fights. Putting themselves in harms way to protect my birth giver and our siblings. And I did the same, I stood in between my sperm donor and who ever he was attacking at that time. I took blows that weren’t meant for me.. I remember pleading with my birth giver even as 12 year old, to take us and leave him.
I felt like I had to explain to her why we had to.
“He has anger issues mom, he is abusive..”
She looked shocked, always in denial. Still to this day, and I don’t think she’ll ever leave him.
Tbh I’m afraid he will murder her one day, but I don’t live in their world anymore. I’m an adult with ptsd. We all grew up and moved out/ran away. We all have been diagnosed with ptsd. The majority of my siblings have cut contact with them. It’s been almost for years since I spoke to either of them. I blocked them on everything, as you should with abusers.
All that to say, if you are in an abusive relationship no matter if you’re a man or woman or anything else. And you have kids or are pregnant.. you need to leave. For you, for your kids, for their future mental health.
Abuser FAQs:
Yes they do know what they’re doing is wrong and that it hurts you.
No they don’t care as long as they get what they want.
Yes they are doing it on purpose.
Yes they are pretending they don’t know what you’re talking about when you try to “address” it with them.
No they will not stop, or get better.
Yes, it will get worse over time.
The more abusers get away with because of a lack of natural consequences, the more dangerous they get. They escalate, becomes more and more unhinged. You are seeing who they truly are.
There is no mental health illness that justifies abuse, there is no addiction that justifies abuse, there is no past trauma that justifies abusing and hurting the people you’re supposed to love and protect.
Stop protecting them from the police, stop protecting them from public criticism and accountability. You are not responsible for anyone else’s reputation but your own.
You are not ruining their life by holding them accountable. They ruined their own life by deciding to become abusive.
So please please please. If you are a parent being abused or allowing the abuse of your children. Put a stop to it. Leave. Remove yourself from the situation. Be smart about it, be careful, plan as much as you can, ask for help. Prepare to leave without a trace and never look back.
For your own sake, and for the sake of your children and the traumatized adults they may become..
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ptsd
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Hello, I have realised that my SO emotional outbursts manifest as emotional abuse and I am losing my ability to cope (whole other story there). How can I bring this up without him hearing me call him ‘an abuser’ and other accusations and triggers. It’s behaviour that needs to stop but I know the reasons behind it and they would appear to be ptsd not anything malicious. It’s needs to stop or or 16yr relationship will implode.
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ptsd
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Hi there, I have been on just about every medication there is and finally had some success in with Effexor. But recently I spiraled the last few weeks to the point I had to message and call my doctor. Right now they are suggesting an add-on called Rexulti. Has anyone tried this? I know this is not a place for medical opinions, but am feeling very low and am hoping there may be someone else on this med combo who has had success - just looking for a little hope :’3
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OCD
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Hello family! What are your favourite ways to rest and unwind?
I suffer with terrible executive dysfunction, and for almost a year now, I've (26F) been incredibly hyperfixated on: self improvement and productivity (for both personal and work life).
I go to therapy once or twice a month, learn about Western and Eastern philosophy, journal almost everyday, dip my toes into spirituality, and continually look for ways to improve the way I do literally almost *everything*, just to name a few things.
Sigh... sometimes it feels like I'm trying to over-compensate for all the years where I've not done what I truly intend and want to do. I'm a multi-disciplinary creative and feel upset that it's so difficult for me to create.
Althought this has been quite rewarding and I've seen so much growth mentally, physically and even spiritually--especially with the help of stimulant medication, which I've been on for about 4 months now--I have been feeling *so* burnt out. I feel like my obsession with productivity is not sustainable in the long run, especially if I don't learn to properly rest.
Part of me feels guilty when I think about resting, and even afraid that if I stop, I'll get too comfortable and go back to doing not very much at all...
Folks, please do let me know what are some good ways to rest. I desperately need it.
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**TL;DR** - Please give me tips on how to rest; I am currently obsessed with productivity and feel like I can't stop going and going and going!
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ADHD
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i have to get high and lie to myself to enjoy life
most of the thoughts i have are not real
its not fair
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OCD
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TW: self harm, (picking? I’m not sure if that’s one, but I want to be careful- this is new for me)
And to preface: I’m not going to self-harm, it’s just not possible. My boyfriend will see it. I really don’t want to tell her, but I am going to tell my therapist in our next session.
I’ve been a few months clean from self harm now, but I’ve noticed I’ve been plucking my eyebrows every day. I’ve never said this out loud and I’m really embarrassed, but it’s getting to the point that I’m plucking leg hair and around your bikini line. I realized what I was doing when I was wiping my leg with hydrogen peroxide I had held on to (just realizing that was probably also a red flag), which was kinda I guess my “routine” while self harming. Is this normal? I feel like I’m using tweezing as self-harm, but I don’t know if I’m just being dramatic. I just don’t know. Life is getting so much harder and so many things are changing and my anxiety and CPTSD are at an all time high... I think I know the answer, but I don’t know. I’m still learning to listen to my gut.
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ptsd
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They're the worst trigger. Helicopters in general, but if I see the bright yellow and it's not just sitting there,l it's a shit show from there. Even when I'm doing "well"
My apartment is way too close to the local hospital. A rural hospital where anything requiring a specialist other than a "normal" cardiologist or orthopedist requires patients to be transferred to the city 100ish miles away.
Almost every night, I have to hear at least one patient be transferred. It's a small town, though, and I have a very limited budget, so finding rentals is extremely difficult.
I hate this.
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ptsd
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It's a good thing I've been doing this my entire f<king life. No one will know. My mask will go on and work will happen. My mind will stay in constant rumination until it's done this time, then I will be able to sleep. I hope it's today.
Today I work from 8am to 3pm and then again 630pm to 10pm. I will cross my fingers for relief tonight.
For all you aspies out there that are going to go battle the day despite running on empty... WE GOT THIS!
EDIT: Thanks for the love peeps. I have trazodone but it doesnt seem to help. I take 50s but I have an ND acquaintance who takes 200 to sleep. I go to bed right at 930pm and get up at 6am everyday. I have battled insomnia why whole life so this is nothing new. My record is 136 hours without sleep. That was a tough week. My struggle this time is my NPD mother poking around. My head is full of thoughts I can't quiet. All things shall pass in time. Be well my people.
If all the internet was like the comments on r/aspergers... we would all live in a better place.
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aspergers
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And it was locked bc of ‘weather’ like what the fuck? I have been there plenty of times and the ONE night I was ready to go, it’s locked.
I have started to get angry and crazy. I’ll scream and then go numb and then scream again. I couldn’t study. My gym session was a sad L. My heart keeps racing. I feel immense pain in my body. I can’t stop crying. Food won’t go down my throat. I’m so so so ready to just end it but the terrace is closed.
I have started being mean to people. I have no friends. I wish I was dead. As scared as I am about what will come after it, I know I’m not cut to live. I’m not capable of being sane. I want to be so badly dead.
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depression
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There’s nothing like coming out a nice long relaxing shower, only to find your bathroom counters and floor flooded and water dripping into the floor below.
Pro tip #2: Don’t forget to periodically run some drain cleaner through your plumbing!
I’m curious what other ADHD pro tips people have had to learn the hard way! Please share!
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ADHD
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My now ex and I dated for about 1.5 years and I split with her last May. Toxic and emotionally abusive would sum up what I experienced and I suffered through multiple breakups (4-5 plus she tried to kick me out of OUR apartment twice when we lived together). We did anger management, couples therapy and I pushed for her to see a psychiatrist which she refused. So I left. I had to, I was being killed by a thousand cuts. I tried to be so patient with her but it was all falling on deaf ears. After I left her she got diagnosed as BPD. I loved her to death as a person but she needed to clean her life up (still does).
The worst part was how she struggled to set boundaries, would sometimes change them later, and I would end up on the receiving end of any blame if she realized later she allowed something she shouldn’t have. She didn’t really have the ability to voice her opinions when it came to a DIFFERENCE in opinions and I may have shared some of the responsibility with my big personality. Another good example of simply having bad boundaries is that when we were dating she would often try to have sex to patch up big fights.
Even so, events would play out and things would happen and she would decide later she was hurt because of a new boundary she basically created. When WE decided to move she (later) resented the fact that we moved to somewhere further away from her job and blamed me for being selfish. She could have easily told me she wanted to move somewhere else and we could have. I think what would happen is she would confer with her friends and they would tell her she should be upset about things.
Well, I reached out to her last month on Facebook to see how she was and she eventually called me two days later instead of blocking me. She said on the phone that she was taking 3 medications for PTSD and that her doctor retracted the diagnosis for BPD. Seemed great to me. She said she wanted to meet to have a conversation about closure (her intent) but I had been making adjustments in my own life, had read 5 different books on BPD and was open to the idea of trying again. Again, one thing leads to another but this time we go walking after brunch (on a Saturday), she invited me back to her new home where she gave me the grand tour, we played a board game, ordered take out and had dinner too. This was an all day affair after she said she wanted closure.
I was a little confused but I was rolling with the punches. The week after that was great. She was calling me intermittently throughout the week for quick touch points, texting me... we played words with friends during the day. We were discussing how we would divide expenses when we go out and she invited me over yet again the following Friday. I made a meal that she specifically used to love, biscuits, and we discussed rules on fraternization/sex and determined we would hold off and go slow. Seemed fine to me and I was more than happy to oblige.
Well, after a little light drinking that Friday, more drinking with friends that Sunday, and venting to me about work and family stress on Monday things began to spiral. She invited herself over for dinner on Tuesday, helped herself to some sex and talked about how if we start dating again I need to “be okay with the five star lifestyle that she wanted”. I kinda laughed it off because she had told me just this last Friday that she doesn't want to move in together until we're married. We're not living together right now and she can do whatever she wants with her money. Come Wednesday though she goes to see more friends and that’s when the communication starts to come to a halt.
By Thursday she is telling me she wants “a break” because of work heating up and that she can’t make time to see me on the weekend. Friday comes and she’s a ghost, I messaged her but all she did was “like” my text, and by Saturday she was mostly unresponsive. Come Sunday, 9:30 AM, she reaches out and wants to do lunch. By now I figure the gig is up, we’re breaking up for real and that’s exactly what happens. She hands me a note outlining the purpose of the lunch, to end things for good, told me a few reasons why she felt we were incompatible and then had a disassociative episode and blamed me for everything wrong in the relationship. This whole saga, from start to finish was only approximately 2 weeks. Incredibly unstable.
A perfect example of her inability to voice her wants and needs and to set boundaries is how she told me that she felt like I forced her to get the IUD that we decided would be our contraceptive plan when we were still dating. She said she took it out because she was mad it felt like it wasn't her decision. I feel like that's emotional abuse. We decided to do that together, as a team. And I feel like if it was such a big issue she should have communicated to me in strong, no uncertain terms that she would prefer to take a different route. And we could have done that. But she doesn’t set healthy boundaries for herself or for others.
So my question is, is this a symptom of her traumatic childhood and the PTSD she was diagnosed with? Is this “common”? Or is this something else? She was never sexually abused but she has had 30-40 partners. At this point I’m simply trying to understand.
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ptsd
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Hi guys.
I'm 23 yr old writing this post...I have to apologize in advance if this text makes you feel sad, I don't know what else I have to do.
The past 5 years of my life was a total failure while I was doing my best and trying so hard to make everything right.
I studied so hard (12 fuckin hours a day) for University Entrance Exam (Iranian Konkur) but I failed to reach what I wanted.
I trained so hard to be a professional volleyball player but nobody saw me. After about 10 years of training I have nothing but knee and ankle injuries. I didn't have any supporter or enough money to reach big or even small teams.
I did my best in my relationship with my GF, but eventually I found out I'm not the suitable guy for her...she deserved more than me...and I broke up. I convinced myself. I tried to find love but got rejected every time, Nobody loves me and treats me like an option. God I'm tired of that.
I did everything to make my parents proud, but I see that disappointed look in their eyes everyday.
I am nothing but a loser, and I am very close to commit suicide. I know writing this text does nothing for me and nobody feels me.
A doctor told me yesterday that I have OCD and Dysthymia.
I don't know what I have to do. I don't see any option for myself.
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depression
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I’m 3 months away from being discharged from my CMHT (I’m in the U.K.) for OCD and trauma treatment where I’ve been with a psychiatrist and my psychologist for 3 years. I have been so incredibly lucky to have weekly therapy for 3 years and don’t feel scared about finishing therapy at all.
The reason I’m posting is because I’ve had an incredibly traumatic 3 years (dissociative seizures, assault, long illness death of father with no carers during a pandemic) and me and my psychologist have done some brilliant work with EMDR, ERP, and learning how to think differently and manage those thoughts. The problem is, I feel like I’ve gone the other way entirely and haven’t actively engaged with my thoughts or emotions of the past 3 years as I’ve been so focussed on learning how to control my thoughts.
I know with OCD recovery the whole point is to not acknowledge your thoughts, but I know that even if I didn’t have OCD these traumatic things would still affect me. I’m worried that I’ve only worked through them in terms of how they made the OCD worse and how to live with that exacerbated OCD. Like, I haven’t actually thought about how any of this makes me feel or how it’s affected my life beyond disordered thoughts and I’m about to be free but with 3 years of complex trauma to process. We’ve processed it with EMDR but my psychologist herself said when she asks me what emotion I feel I only ever tell her physical symptoms.
What next?? Do I look for a counsellor after this or something?
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OCD
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Might be a little gross to talk about but whatever.
I saw a post from an OCD Instagram page mention over wiping after using the restroom as an OCD type thing. I definitely have a history of wiping a bit more than necessary from a fear of stinking (as well as a general fear of stinking), but I never thought it was OcD related, but it makes sense.
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OCD
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I recently started graduate school and moved far from home and I'm feeling very isolated and fell into a deep depression (more than usual). I was wondering if anyone knows of online support groups or discord chats for those with PTSD? I feel like this is not something my friends back home can support me with and I was hoping to find a community of others who understand what I'm dealing with right now
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ptsd
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For example my friend could show me something amazing they made and I would sound shocked but I would have an unimpressed face and it makes me feel bad when i have a blank face after someone telling me their dog died. Does anyone know ways to convey emotions?
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aspergers
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I looked around and couldn’t find any posts answering this question.
I’ve been back on Adderall since Monday and all was going well.
Yesterday I had a super high stress meeting for Grad School and during my zoom I felt my heart pounding and my Apple Watch gave me a High HR Alert.
The alert scared me so bad I panicked and I left the meeting and did some yoga and meditation. My HR came back down to my normal range within 5-10 min of leaving the meeting.
My heart rate is already in the high range unmedicated 88 resting, 100-115 standing and 120-130 moderate exercising.
I sent my doc a message through the patient portal to ask if I should be concerned.
It’s a holiday, so I probably hear back until Monday.
I really need my meds to get through the Thanksgiving Dinner I planned.
I’m not asking for medical advice, but would you discontinue your meds?
Can stress really make your HR that high and would you be worried?
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ADHD
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Hi there,
I am likely to get a diagnosis within the next couple of weeks, have been going through the formal process after saving up a bunch of money for it.
So far I have avoided bringing my parents into the process as I have been lucky to have a good friend since I was 10 to give an outsiders perspective. Plus if the result is negative I then the stress of getting my parents involved would be pointless.
I want to tell my parents because my sister knows about the process and I am terrible at keeping secrets, but I have had many negative reactions to "coming out" with them.
Previously I came out as bisexual and my Mum said "So you want to cheat on your boyfriend" and "Why would you tell me I don't want to know" etc.
I have also had my Mum suggest I stop taking my anti-depressants so that I can go on these diet pills (which are basically legal amphetamines).
They do not have the healthiest or most helpful perspectives.
I am a 30-year-old woman and I have been having trouble finding good resources for "coming out" with adult diagnoses.
Any help or thoughts on your own experiences would be great.
Cheers.
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aspergers
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Been struggling with sleep for awhile now, but it seems to have gotten significantly worse the past month or so. I’m scared because it’s starting to affect my job (had to call out for the first tome ever last week), and because I start school again in two weeks and I’m worried it’ll get in the way of that too, though thankfully I think all my classes are online.
Basically, struggle with falling asleep, wake up continuously throughout the night, and/or wake up really early (4-5amish) and can’t get back to bed. I swear I’m exhausted the whole day and then when it’s finally time to fall asleep my body refuses lol. I’ve beeb taking sleep meds for awhile now, but I’d really like to not be reliant on that if I can; plus it helps with falling asleep but not staying asleep unfortunately.
Any pieces of advice? Does anyone else experience this? Does it ever get better/go away?
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ptsd
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I don’t like myself. I don’t fit into this goddamn fucking universe. Kill me.
The worst thing is when I see things that depict romantic situations. I’m never going to be able to seduce somebody.
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aspergers
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I’m in my 4th or 5th month of volunteering at the most AMAZING animal rescue ( unnamed for obvious reasons ) I love it ! I feel so happy.
Look, I’m a spaz and it’s not easy having ADHD and PTSD. At 45 years old I’m still learning how to manage my impulses and emotions.
I was feeling very discouraged because everything that was obvious to everyone was not obvious to me and vice versa. When I would get involved in group activities my energy really can be challenging for a lot of people.
The harder I tried the worse it got until I gave up and decided it was better to disappear because trying was just weird for everyone involved ( myself included )
The majority of my life my ADHD made me feel like a moving target. Time is so weird for me and it moves fast when I want it to move slow and it moves slow when I want it to go fast.
I tried and tried to be social but eventually I just stopped trying until I discovered yoga. Once I started yoga I began to relax and once I could relax I started searching for a place to volunteer my good intentions. I only got diagnosed last year but that’s a different story.
Now I’m on the precipice of 4 or 5 months at this place. I feel so happy. I love the people who I volunteer with. For the most part I love the people who visit. The animals are so cute. The nights before I volunteer are the hardest to fall asleep because I’m so excited.
I love arriving and walking past the cows, horses, donkeys, pigs, sheep’s, goats, turkeys ( they have 170 different types of animals )
All rescued from slaughter houses and other abusive situation. The ones from the slaughterhouses are all genetically modified.
This means the cows weigh 3,000 pounds instead of the 1,000 pounds like they should weigh.
It’s hard for them them to function because of their genetic modifications and therefore they require lots of assistance with the most mundane activities.
I’m sharing my experience with the hope of encouraging my fellow ADHD friends to look into the animal sanctuaries around you.
It’s beautiful out in nature. It helps in ways I cannot describe. I think between the exercises, the volunteer work and just overall mindfulness I’ve found a contentment that has eluded me for the majority of my life and I thought it might be useful to someone else’s journey ☺️
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ADHD
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13M here. I'm currently on sleeping medication (melatonin 2mg) which for some reason didn't seem to work last night. My stepfather seems to believe that I was awake until 1am because I was using my laptop (which, in the day, I spend a lot of time doing because its where I feel safest) but in fact I was laying in bed tossing and turning.
Come the morning, he somewhat passive-agressively asked if I was getting up, to which I responded with a half awake grunt (you get what I'm saying, the "nnnng" kind of noise). He proceeds to take my laptop out of the room and hide it.
Because I was in bed running on something like 4 hours of sleep, I had the day off school. The rule that SF came up with is that if I'm not at school, I cannot use my phone or laptop all day. I've expressed to him that I think it's a shit idea and that it won't encourage me to go to school and he knows that, but he does it anyway and wonders why I'm in a crappy mood when he bitches at me; like I said, I feel like I have control over something using my laptop and so I feel safer and more at ease when I'm alone with it.
He cooked a Sunday dinner last night and understandably I'm expected to was my own dishes as soon as I'm done with them, yet all the dishes that he used to cook this dinner were still out almost 24 hours after he used them, leaving literally no space in the sink or on the worktop counter to wash my own with. He then complains that I haven't yet washed my dishes.
I retaliated at all this today, and in response he came up with some completely different rant about how i never help out around the house and called me several names. Heres some hes called me in the past:
Lazy
Pathetic
A baby
Childish
A nasty piece of work
To name a few. Am I in the wrong here, and what do I say exactly?
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depression
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Maybe bipolar is a better description but there are so many things that trigger me, I'm feeling exhausted.
People just don't live up to my standards, they do things, they touch my things, they make noises, play music loudly, blast their phones... The list goes on and on.
Is there any point to trying to be in a relationship if I don't have to?
My mood swings eventually go away but I ruminate for hours or days.
I want to kick everybody out of my life.
I feel like it's going to explode in the end anyways, and the only downside is being alone forever.
I'm just tired and being alone with peace and quiet sounds like a decent option.
What do you guys think?
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aspergers
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I have a small suspicion that I might have ADHD.
I was often given special treatment during my school time (e.g. I was allowed to listen to (classical) music because I had concentration issues).
I also have a very short attention span, even on things that interest me I usually go to a different subject every few minutes or so. Or during work I continuously have to try and focus, but find it very hard.
But I feel like, if I go to a doctor and say any of these things, I'll basicly get diagnosed with ADHD right away, but I am not 100% sure I have ADHD. I mean I wen't through the entire education system without being "forced" to talk to a doctor or specialist, and that doesn't seem to happen a lot.
How good is the diagnosis method? If you get diagnosed, how certain is it that you actually have ADHD?
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ADHD
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Is this possible? My GP says I may have been misdiagnosed with autism as a child. He says he's certain that I don't have autism. I have a few main symptoms which lead him to believe it's ADHD.
The first thing that leads him to believe this is that I talk about random things and topics. Now it's common for people with Aspergers to blurt out random stuff but in my case he feels I understand social norms, and mores. I have no trouble recognizing when someone is angry, upset, happy sad, etc.. I also don't have any difficulties maintaining eye contact (and in some cases I stare too long at good looking people). I showed my GP my Reddit posting history and he says that it's typical of someone with ADHD who is constantly seeking stimulation by asking random questions on a variety of topics.
The second thing is that I constantly have music playing in my head perfectly even when I haven't listened to it for a week. He's treated a few patients with ADHD, both kids an adults and he says that this is a common feature.
He wants to put me on Vyanase and says that if my symptoms improve, it will mean that I have ADHD and not autism.
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ADHD
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Maybe it's just me, but this song really speaks to me on a personal level . Or rather the story behind it.
Tom Yorke of Radiohead was at a bar in L.A. The people around him were all hopped up on cocaine. This one woman in particular was violently lashing out over having a drink spilt on her. Yorke described her as inhuman and claimed he didn't sleep that night because of the whole experience.
Knowing what inspired the song makes me relate to it a lot more despite it seemingly just being chaotic and bizarre. The [music video](https://youtu.be/fHiGbolFFGw) in the other hand is just straight up weird, but I kinda like that too.
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aspergers
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I (20F) have been successfully passing as NT since i was 15. At first masking was extremely difficult and it was a conscious thing i did but eventually it got easier, and then after a year or 2 I realized I wasnt trying to mask. And i was very very openly autistic before I started choosing to mask, during that time i was oblivious and naive to how people viewed me though, so i never felt there was a reason to mask. So anyways I’m wondering if me now having no visibly autistic traits is still masking or did I just “grow out of my autistic traits” or i “matured as i got older” or something where I don’t even need to mask. Any insight would be much appreciated.
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aspergers
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Over the last few months I have had a couple of really disturbing unwanted instrusive thoughts that I have overcome and I thought that maybe sharing what the reality of this feels like may help some people looking to recover. I will write in 2nd person ("you") but I am of course writing from personal experience, so take it as you will.
Here goes: if you have a particular unwanted intrusive thought or bundle of thoughts, whether it is HOCD, POCD, IOCD, Relationship OCD, false memory, real event, or whatever, not engaging with the thoughts and not ruminating really does work. However, it works in a way that you might not expect. Sometimes, because this is about habit-building, we might associate with other sorts of habits and incremental improvements, like losing weight or learning to play guitar or speak another language. However, as you practice those disciplines, you will notice incremental gains. You might feel a pound lighter every week, and find that you have more energy, and that you look a bit better (defined by your own standards that is).
In my experience, OCD recovery is not like this at all. Your skill will develop incrementally, as in, you will get better at saying, "maybe, maybe not." However, rather than feeling better incrementally - feeling a bit less obsessive and a bit less anxious every day, your anxiety doesn't seem to drop. It just continues, as though there has been no progress at all.
Then, when you least expect it, you wake up one morning and find that those thoughts have completely lost their grip on you, all at once, overnight. Everything feels appropriate and in proportion. Even if you have a thought about the thing, that obsessive and fearful grip is just completely removed, as if by magic. It's like waking up from a bad dream.
Maybe people with anxiety disorder can relate. A panic attack doesn't just decrease gradually until you don't feel anxious anymore. You might be at peak anxiety and then, suddenly, the feeling goes, and it as though an illusion has been broken, and you can see things for the way they really are.
I don't know if anyone can relate, but that is how my recovery over intrusive thoughts/Pure O has felt, that's how I've experienced it.
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Right now, I’m blessed to be working for a company that doesn’t seem to mind my chronic lateness. But I feel terrible that I’m late for work every day, and I’m concerned that if I ever have to start working for a different company, I’ll be fired almost immediately.
I’m a recent college grad, and I’m currently working my first professional job. I recently switched to a 9-5 schedule, and it’s been super rough. I desperately need 8.5-9 hours of sleep every night in order to function, which means going to bed at 11 pm, and my brain just….won’t let me do it. Often I get stuck in adhd paralysis before bed, stuck staring at my phone or at the wall until my brain says “okay you can get up now”. As a result, I’m so tired in the mornings that I sleep through multiple alarms and get ready for work at a snail’s pace, causing me to be late.
I’m currently on Strattera which isn’t working so far, but I don’t know if starting on stimulants would help, because they will have worn off by the time I’m going to bed, and they won’t have kicked in yet in the morning. I’m not really sure where to go from here. Would ADHD coaching help? I keep trying to start new routines where I go to bed early, but they invariably fail. At this point I’ve pretty much given up trying to have a consistent sleep schedule.
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In South Korea, the perception of Aspergians is largely divided into two people.
"Hate" or "Not interested".
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Although I have lived in Spain for a long time, I am a Korean of Korean nationality. That's why we know how many aspie are dying in Korea amid persecution and indifference.
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Even the situation at the 'Asperger Family Cafe', an Internet cafe where families of Asperger patients who understand Asperger, are gathered, is not so good. People who came in seem to be in a lot of trouble because they think their husband is an Asperger after seeing brain-fficial Asperger features and Asperger hate posts from numerous Internet cafes.
But what do people who have nothing to do with family members think about Aspergians?
If you look at the Korean Internet community right now, terrible sounds are constantly coming up about real Aspergians. Even sociopaths and schizophrenia don't listen to this much.
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This is because the prevalence of Asperger syndrome is so low that it is often judged that it is not because of meeting a person diagnosed with Asperger syndrome, but because they get information about Asperger syndrome from the Internet. In reality, there is no chance to see Aspie and criminals have recently mentioned Asperser syndrome a lot because they know autism can be reduced to mental and physical weakness ( If it is determined to be weak in mind and body, the sentence can be reduced.), so it derives a very distorted image of Asperger syndrome from the media.
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[https://ko.wikipedia.org/wiki/%EC%9D%B8%EC%B2%9C\_%EC%B4%88%EB%93%B1%ED%95%99%EC%83%9D\_%EC%82%B4%ED%95%B4\_%EC%82%AC%EA%B1%B4](https://ko.wikipedia.org/wiki/%EC%9D%B8%EC%B2%9C_%EC%B4%88%EB%93%B1%ED%95%99%EC%83%9D_%EC%82%B4%ED%95%B4_%EC%82%AC%EA%B1%B4)
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This criminal is the case in which Kim Yang, who dropped out of high school, kidnapped and killed an 8-year-old girl playing in the playground to her house in Dongchun-dong, Yeonsu-gu, Incheon on March 29, 2017.
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This is the most famous example. Unfortunately, this murder case is not included in the English wiki. The murderer here was later found to have been a psychopath, but before that, he consistently claimed that he was Asperger's syndrome. This has climbed up numerous media outlets and numerous provocative articles about the risk of the disease called Asperger syndrome have been posted.
Malice in the media also played a big part in the Korean public's consider Aspergians as brutal trash.
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The problem is that later follow-up reports came out that the criminal was a psychopath, but many public still think the criminal is Asperger syndrome.
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What's even more painful is that it spreads like a trend and when numerous felons in Korea are caught, they have necessarily claimed to be Asperger syndrome.
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There are many cases where they are convinced that all the people who have no sense and play trolls on the Internet are aspergers.
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In particular, in a highly anonymous internet, people often do strange things saying that they have Asperger syndrome to attract Aggro , which is one of the reasons why netizens' perception of Asperger syndrome is bad.
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In summary, Aspergers are one of the most hated and treated in Korean society as of 2021.
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I don't think the solution is at a level that an individual can do.
The media and the media are important.
In other words, there should be a lot of media that glorify Aspergers.
For example, something like Netflix's "Move to Heaven" that came out recently. In addition, dramas with genius Asperger syndrome as the main character as mini-drama are expected to come out. If more media like this come out in the future, people may be affected by dramas and movies more gradually than expected.
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In the past, there were movies that beautify autism like Marathon (2005 film), but they were all limited to severe autism, but mild autism was often neglected.
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And there should be many articles that will instill the right perception of Asperger's syndrome.
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In fact, welfare and institutional problems for Aspergians are also serious. However, solving this problem is important, but it is also important to improve the public's perception of Aspergians. It will take a considerable amount of time to treat a disease called Aspergerphobia that spreads across the public. However, I hope that the Aspie will not give up his life and do his best to survive until the day when Aspergerphobia in korea completely disappears.
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so tired of everything. why do i have to be such a failure. just fucking end my life at this point like ffs i cant.
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I've noticed I seem to have a cringe-like response when it comes to most forms of expressing emotion. Smiling, crying, laughing (though to a lesser degree). Also I have the same issue verbally. Telling people I love them, telling someone I care about them, Telling people I'm thankful for something. It's just uncomfortable for me. And I don't really know why. Also saying anything with "blessed" and "my heart". Complete no-go for me. I just feel uncomfortable doing any of it. And then it just gets people wondering why I don't animate/express a lot. And with some people I find it difficult even to just say 'hi' and it'll just be like we don't really know each other even though we do and didn't have any kind of fight or whatever. Like for whatever reason I feel uniquely 'unallowed' to express myself, like I'm only allowed to straight-face and be reserved because that's what I'm known for. Or maybe I'm honestly just very emotionally weak and just don't want to be seen 'vulnerable' for whatever reason. At this point it's ingrained in my way of functioning. I think at one point in my life I might of smiled and it always felt like people were pointing and laughing at me (though this probably didn't occur) and I didn't like it.
And with crying, even a recent family death couldn't crack this. Despite everyone crying in the room, I could barely crack a tear, and I TRIED. (Doesn't mean I wasn't sad about it).
However what can get me teared up are these really strange unbearable intrusive thoughts I've had often since I was young about my mother or my cat(s) being subjected to torture/violence/burning in front of me. BUUUUUT that's a story for another post.
There is an exception to this rule, and that's if I'm being sarcastic/ironic/weirdly comedic. I'll happily smile, swing my arms and say in a mickey mouse voice "Ha ha! I'm a stupid-ass!" or whatever.
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Is porn quite damaging because I watch it maybe 3 times a day when my periods due cuz I get really horny but I fear that when I have sex with someone one day cuz I haven’t done it before ,, I’ll be trying to act like a porn girl and I won’t feel love I’m scared I won’t feel love because I’m “faking it” can anyone help ?
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My friend recently texted me about how she doesnt want to be friends with me anymore, which I was fine with until she said that i rant too much
I would always ask to rant and make sure she was in the right headspace to hear, but she would lie to me and say shes fine, I trusted her, shes not the only one i rant to either
She also said I talk about myself too much, but what actually happens is she says something, id reply, then we’d go back and forth, once the conversation starts dying down, i would interrupt with something similar that’s happened to me so I could relate it back to how shes feeling
I also used to info dump a lot about whatever i was interested in, since she told me it was a safe place to talk about the things i liked.
I honestly don’t understand what I did wrong, she wasnt clear with me and i feel so bad. I want to make sure i dont repeat this ever again, but i dont know what to fix about myself, can anyone give me advice?
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Hi! I’m 42F, recently diagnosed. I have loved trains for as long as I can remember. My GF, a nurse, tells me that based on various conversations with patients over the years, she believes that many people with OCD love trains.
Is this true? I’ve googled it and found nothing, and I am fascinated by it. Thanks for chiming in!
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How many of you guys can relate to this?
When in conversation something will pop into my head, I realise immediately I shouldn't say it because it's irrelevant or off putting, but before I know it I've spat it out, and then I have to deal with the fallout.
I don't understand how other people manage to filter their thoughts so thoroughly to make them appropriate to the context.
This makes me a lot of fun to talk to in some situations, but makes me appear like a lunatic other times.
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It’s been 13 years now since it all ended, and I’m suddenly having nightmares again. When I was 3-7 years old, my father raped me almost daily. He did things like putting wine in my sippie cup and put weird things in me. He also beat me for 30 or so minutes afterwards to ensure that I wouldn’t tell anyone. After it all happened, I had nightmares about it nightly, about him coming back to kill me mostly. Now, my nightmares are so intense. My dreamscapes consist of black rooms with random doors appearing. These doors are to my memories of the events and I watch it all happen with no escape. How do I get them to stop? I just want to sleep peacefully but he still haunts me at least once a week.
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Hi! I just want to talk about anything. Silly questions, interesting facts, games, anime, etc. I know my english is limited but I have a severe social anxiety so I don't have anyone to talk right now. I'm feeling awful these days and I don't want to do anything stupid...
Edit: Thanks so much for the comments/ DM's. You guy made my day and I'm feeling really better now! Loved this community XDLet's keep fighting day by day <3
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I’m a 19y/o male with severe ADHD I feel like my life is out of my control I have no motivation to do anything nothing truly matters to me I don’t even understand my own emotions/thoughts everything I feel and think is because I think that I should feel/think that emotion for that situation but it doesn’t feel genuine I have no real interests and I’m very scared of what my life will become I don’t have the slightest clue of what’s want career wise and I am constantly disappointing everyone around me and it just keeps getting worse I really need some advice I’ve been on the verge of killing myself for the last year because I feel that I will never be successful or happy
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Hello, so recently I've been diagnosed with ADHD.
So a little info about me:
I am 25 years old female also currently studying in college (3rd year). Studies are going fine so far but not when it comes to social situations and maths.....
So especially this semester in college we have a lot of group projects. And I currently have someone to do these group projects with (these group projects are mostly for 2 people) We seemingly got along really well, besides the fact she is much older than me, has two kids, a lot of work experience related to the field we are studying meanwhile I don't have kids and I don't have a lot of work experience related to my field I am studying. So we are not close friends or anything and she clearly want to communicate only about stuff related to our studies which I am fine with, I get it why she doesn't want to be friends as we are so different, have different life experiences etc...
The problem:
We did our group project task on Google docs and she immediately noticed my grammar mistakes, I mistyped marketing as maketing, project as projet and also I calculated the percentage wrong way which I didn't notice, my stupid ass brain didn't notice these stupid grammar mistakes either but my groupmate noticed it and told me to correct my grammar mistakes as well as percentage.
I corrected my dumb grammar mistakes but didn't notice when she told me to correct my percentage, so once again she asks me why I didn't correct my percentage part? I didn't notice anything wrong with it, so I asked her what's wrong with my percentage part? She told me that result I got is wrong and asked me what kind of formula did I use? I told her I used some percentage calculation website, she then asked me to send her a screenshot of my input and output on that website, of course, output was wrong and she replied with "🤦♀️" then she replied "c'mon this isn't that difficult part to do" then gave me the formula which worked out fine and finally got right results on my part.
I thanked her for helping me out and she told me that I should be more attentive. I started feeling really dumb for not being able to do my percentage part correctly and told her that that percentage part made me feel really dumb. She replied, "it's ok, no need to worry about it :)"
I thanked her sincerely but now I am afraid she thinks I am dumb and will not be willing to do group projects in the future with me :/
And when it comes to details I always make dumb mistakes like these, my dumbass brain skips mistakes as I can write for example "good mornig" and I will not even notice it, same with math I often don't notice negative symbols or sometimes forget that +- symbols will be -, as well as I take much longer to solve even simple math problems than any normal person would, for example, simple problem which for a normal person would take few minutes to solve, for me it could take few hours to solve.
Sometimes I don't get simple math problems (for example I wouldn't be able to solve At the ice skate rental stand, 60% of 120 skates are for boys. If the rest of the skates are for girls, how many are there?) I feel very embarrassed of my maths as well as my inability to notice details, my lack of focus :/
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My diagnosis is pretty new and while I'm certainly accepting of it (the diagnosis process was so long I had lots of time to think about it), my wife is encouraging me to more open with people. She really believes in normalizing all of this stuff and frankly she isn't wrong.
I'm just not there yet. I'm keeping it very private to the point that my parents don't know yet. I guess my question is, how about you? How open are you and how long did it take you to get there?
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Today I talked with online Psychiatrist bc I didn't know good one in my city and anxiety. I said him all things that comes to mimd then he asked "do you feel depression?" And I said yes even I thought about sucide. I talked about concentration, anxiety... all thing. But he said you are bipolar not ADHD. I said but I couldn't do my works I couldn't study I forgot everything I allways write in calendar or put my things in specific place to don't lost. He gave me a medicine and said don't use it everyday. He gave me other medicins for anxiety and depression. Now I feel he didn't diagnosis me right. I feel sad, overthinking. Maybe he gave me wrong medicines what I should do? Why I couldn't trust? HELP ME PLZ!!!
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Hi all,
Started vyvanse earlier this year, and it was great for several months. now it feels like I'm paying a lot of money for increase heart-rate, blood pressure, and dry mouth.
It's got me thinking about long term effects. If I keep building tolerance to the medication, and my brain keeps adjusting its equilibrium level of dopamine to compensate, doesn't it seem like stimulants are useless as a long term solution?
When I think about SSRIs, they increase the equilibrium level of serotonin in the brain. Stimulants seem like a 'non-equilibrium' way to increase dopamine (and neuropenephrine). Are there medications that act like SSRIs, but for dopamine?
Please excuse any ignorance. Happy to learn. Thanks!
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\#1.so when pleasuring oneself, a harm ocd intrusive thought pops up, and then you feel like a monster after your done, its like the worst thing, and i'm annoyed by it.
\#2.when swiping through dating app harm ocd pops up aswell and in all honesty i think thats my erp aswell cause when scrolling i get these thoughts but i keep swiping. so eh in that part of harm ocd im somewhat treating myself, i actually dont know.
\#3. just ocd in general, cause i dont feel normal anymore, i felt normal almost 2 months ago. what happened. i know i had intrusive thoughts before and stuff, but they got so much worse and i hate it.
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Hi... I'm Chie, my girlfriend left me last night. We dated for a while until last week she started acting differently, she started ignoring me, yelling at me, not even acknowledging my existence. Now that she's gone I want to die, her friends were my friends and now I'm all alone. I don't know what to do anymore I just want to die
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As a child I used to have extremely poor social skills.
And would often have outbursts of anger, my mom got the worst of it.
Never physical, but I did unfortunately ruin her life for at least the first 8 years of my life, she was understanding and never abused me and for that I am more than thankful and every day I try to do something nice for her.
She used to have this gold chain and I remember just ripping it out of her neck and throwing it out of the window, we never found it.
And I'm actually saving up money to buy her that similar chain (it was around 5k euros).
I just wish I was the same as my brother and sister and not a total asshole to her.
Thank you for reading.
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