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If someone tells me some bad news or I read something on internet or hear on news I quickly identify with that news and picture that happening to me? Is this also ocd? I hate this so much I can't get out of this . These are called triggers I read and I am like omg what if I also did that or do that? Most would dismiss this but I catch hold and I obsess so bad :(
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I wish it was something I could actually do and not just some stupid Hollywood trope. I wish I had the money to just fake my death and disappear to some house away from everything and everyone where I could just live off the grid.
I wouldn’t have to participate in a stupid fucking system anymore. I wouldn’t have to tolerate people anymore. I would have to make concessions for their bullshit or deal with their fucking stupidity anymore.
I don’t like being around people at all anymore. I’ve never really liked it but it’s just been progressing to the point where I’m no longer seeing anything good about it in any way. I think about what it would be like having a friend again, what it would be like to go hang out with them and it doesn’t appeal at all.
I don’t know if it’s because I’ve stopped drinking or if it’s that I’ve learned to live without it or if I’ve actually just realised it was never for me or what it is, but I imagine someone asking me to hang out and I don’t want to say yes at all. I’m just picturing the stupid conversations you have to endure, just wracking your brain trying to think of shit to say when it’s your turn to speak because you’ve got nothing to contribute, and if you don’t talk they accuse you of being too quiet and ask stupid questions about “what’s wrong?” as if I can even answer that and keep pestering you about it rather than leaving you the fuck alone like you clearly want to be even if you directly ask them to, or the constant waiting for an opportunity to finally escape so they don’t get offended or something. Even just having the expectation to reply to text messages and shit is exhausting to me at this point.
I think about being in a relationship too and I hate it just as much. Sure, the *idea* of it sounds good on paper. Someone who you can talk to if you really need to who won’t judge you, someone who you could maybe trust or someone who might actually *know* you in some way. But then I think about the reality of it. The expectations people put on you. Having to explain yourself to them when you mental health takes a dive. Being expected to talk about shit I don’t want to discuss, share aspects of myself I don’t want anyone to see. The constant worry that they’ll get sick of me or that they don’t really love me or that I’m not enough for them, not stable enough. Even just having someone in my space all the time, rarely getting extended periods of time to yourself, constantly having to think about what they think when they see you, not even escaping it when you fucking sleep cause they’re right there next to you. Knowing that if they ever did leave you’d have to deal with that feeling of loss, probably for the rest of your life. It’s just not fucking worth it, especially when you consider even the good aspects are a best case scenario and could easily be missing or wind up disappearing or being twisted and tainted into something ugly.
I wouldn’t miss anything about this fucking society or my life now. I wouldn’t care at all about the few people I’d leave behind if I did get to do something like faking my own death, I’d feel so fucking relieved to be free of so much bullshit. To finally be completely alone. It fucking sucks it’s never going to be able to be a reality.
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So I'd met with an ADHD coach for the first time the other day, and my main issue at the moment was keeping up with chores while in Grad school. She'd helped me think of a cool way to kinda keep up with them.
Since I like video games, and specifically RPGs where I have quests, she got me to think of the chores as smaller than they are (one load of dishes instead of them all, fold 10 pieces of clothing instead of all at once, etc) and to think of them as side quests.
I haven't gotten to make it yet, but I plan to make a poster board with all the small "side quests" in the house and hang it up by my office door so when I stand up to get a drink or use the restroom, I do a side quest at the same time. I don't have the poster yet, but I have remembered sometimes to do it and I've been keeping up with the dishes better than i had been!
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20F ADHD-PI. How the hell did you guys learn how to drive? Please give me your best tips and advice. I have a horrible sense of direction and suck at paying attention to my surroundings. I have avoided it for so long. If i could go the rest of my life without driving I would but I have to learn. The whole things give me so much anxiety. I feel like my ADHD makes the whole thing extra risky for me. Please help!
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I started .1 mg of Clonidine last week and while it helps a lot with anxiety and definitely helps me fall asleep, the entire next day is an exhausting, downer experience. I finally got my 10mg Methylphenidate LA script filled, so today was the first day I was taking both (Clonidine at night, Ritalin in the morning), and instead of canceling each other out, I just feel like I’m being pulled in 2 directions - sleepy, focused, slightly panicky but “blocked”.
Has anyone taken Clonidine long enough to say if it’s just the first few weeks that are pretty rough and need adjusting or is this the expected experience going forward? Because if so, there’s no way I can function like this and might request trying Guanfacine instead.
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Hello! I just have a question for y’all…
I’m currently on 7.5mg adderall once a day, (not the XR version), (and yes, you read that right, 7.5), and i’m getting some pretty gnarly seasonal allergies…
Any clue if I can take Claritin? It’s NOT Claritin D, just “Loratadine”. I left a voicemail with my dr and maybe y’all can help me out!
So, i’ve had ADHD for a while now, I was actually diagnosed with anxiety / depression as a kid, and later on as an adult, ADHD. After experimenting with many anxiety / depression meds, I couldn’t take it anymore and had a dr that recommended adderall for me. It’s done wonders!
Anything helps ❤️ Thank you in advance!
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How do people deal with this seriously. It’s to much suffering everyday. It’s no life is it.
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I don’t know where to go, who to turn to, what to say… I feel like any attempt to open up just makes me a narcissist talking about me and my problems when logically I know EVERYONE is going through SOMETHING so how is it fair for me to ruin the day of someone I love and care about? Which leads me to bottle everything and maintain the happiness of the people I am close to.
But it only gets worse, then I start thinking they know I’m sad, they talk about me, they hate me, I’m a burden! And then we get suicidal. So I’m thinking… too much thinking… so much thinking and the only way to make it stop is sleep.
Sleep comes from exhaustion of 2days with 2hrs nap between because I’m so manic and anxious now thinking about the pros and cons of suicide and how to do it, that when I do finally sleep it’s 12hours and the cycle of self hate begins again. Useless wasteful friendless burden.
I say friendless but I know there are at least some that care, maybe not a lot would cry, but idk im not even sure if anyone is going to actually read all this. The ramblings of a stranger on the internet who only just joined a subreddit to cry and complain and contribute nothing. I really hope everyone on here can find some sunshine soon. No one deserves to be the sad and broken.
Happy Holidays.. just keep swimming..
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**\*\*I'm posting here to see if there's anyone out there who can relate or who can share advice/stories from experience so that I can learn from you.\*\*** I've been diagnosed with PTSD (due to childhood trauma). Some months ago I got sick with what I thought was a regular cold, but I didn't get better. Within weeks, in addition to the daily headaches, general soreness, and chest tightness, I was experiencing extreme fatigue (like having to lay down for hours in order to recover from laundry or a short walk). This has lasted several months, and has forced me into sick leave from work.
My GP says to just rest because it's "probably stress or anxiety" considering it's COVID times & the fact that I'm still on a waitlist for PTSD treatment. At my insistence, doctors did a number of tests - still no diagnosis. I've experienced depression before but this condition feels different -- more debilitating. Besides I've been living with PTSD for over a decade, so why is my body crashing now?
We're currently looking at CFS (chronic fatigue syndrome), but it's taking a long time to test. I don't want to be the insufferable patient who can't accept that psychological trauma can have debilitating physical effects on you. But I also struggle to accept that PTSD or "general stress" is the answer - it seems too easy, and doesn't offer a clear treatment plan to get better. I feel scared and alone. Just a few months ago I was perfectly healthy, and now I'm weak and unwell every single day.
\*\*UPDATE: Thanks for the responses, they really helped!\*\*
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I need help, I’ve been emotionally abused by my mother since a young age and she’s even told me she hates me and that she wishes I was never born
Today I was protecting my dog as it has been neglected and treated poorly.
I stood up to it and my mother called me a dirty parasite. This made me spiral in to anger and I almost picked up a trophy and dropped it down the stairs ( I ain’t done it ) but my heads making me think I hit my mum with the trophy but I haven’t but what if I have
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I feel like I can’t say what I want over text message, online, or in real life without the fear of getting cancelled. Thoughts that come to my mind: “What if they screenshot my message(s) and show my boss?” “What if they expose me online?”
Does anyone else have these intrusive thoughts about getting canceled—whether at your job, online, or anywhere?
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I recently started medication for my ADHD. I take Adderall XR 20 mg around 7:30 am and then Adderall 5 mg around 4 pm. My doctor said the difference would feel like a light switch but I don’t really feel a change at all. I feel like I could go to sleep after a few hours on Adderall.
I'm also medicated for my depression and anxiety. I take Prozac 40 mg in the morning and Wellbutrin 150 mg morning and night. Maybe this affects Adderall?
I know medication affects everyone differently but have any of y’all experienced this? If so, what helped?
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I have a longing to escape to a world that doesn't exist. Sometimes I might hear a song, see a picture or smell something that gives me a feeling of nostalgia, but there's nothing nostalgic about it. It feels like the concept of a world I want to live in flashes through my brain and I'm left without any words to explain this world other then the fact that I want to be there. This feeling then draws a very melancholic state upon me which I would probably liken to what someone feels like when they return from holidays, but I've never taken any kind of extended holiday so I wouldn't know. I wouldn't necessarily call it a bad experience because the brief moment itself and the resulting pensiveness leaves me in a more sombre mood and I like to wallow in it for whatever reason. I'm curious if anyone is aware of any psychological phenomena that may explain what I'm experiencing, thanks.
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I'm a low-20s guy who is engaged to someone he loves more than anything, but she works all day and whenever I'm alone I spend so much time in my own head worrying about life that now I have 0 sex drive and constant anxiety about everything. I'm finishing up my degree in the next few weeks, so that is the main reason I'm home alone.
I don't know where to go or what to do, I can't even keep my head in the moment for sex because even if she's touching me, my mind knows it's extremely hot but then the anxiety kicks in and I can't even get it up because I have so many worries floating around in my head. I don't know if I need medication, or counseling, or what, I'm just hoping anybody has experience or an idea what I'm going through and maybe some ways to fix it.
I just want to feel normal again. It's like I live my life in a fog, because I know I WANT her, I know I WANT sex, and I want to show her that, but it's like those feelings are behind bars and my mind won't let them out.
I appreciate any help anybody has.. I don't know where to go
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I don't want to get too much into detail because I don't want to make you all read a novel ([I have commented this story before though if you're curious](https://www.reddit.com/r/aspergers/comments/p4u8mo/only_got_diagnosed_in_my_20s_and_struggling_to/h92euhv/))
Basically, when I was in high school, I had a teacher who caused me many issues and blamed me for them.
Earlier this year, I found out that I'm on the spectrum and most of the things she blamed me for weren't my fault.
I tried to call the school earlier today because I thought I could get some closure by telling her what she did to me, but she retired.
I'm just a little upset that I lost an opportunity to help me move on. I don't really know what to do now.
Has anyone else gone through this?
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I have this fear that I'll get my sister's personality and opinions if I touch things she touches, walk where she walks, etc. If she touches something of mine I cant use it until I wash it. I'm not so quiet with my responses though. If she acci6touches me I go EW and frantically wash my hands. This morning my shoe was touching her dirty tissue and I said to myself "I hate her" cause I was mad. I didnt mean it but my dad heard and said she has every reason to hate you. You're a jerk to her and she thinks you hate her. I felt so guilty. I still feel guilty but I felt so bad I thought that it would be better without me. I had a suicidal thought. I wouldn't never do it obviously but I felt so guilty I had one. I feel guilty about my sister and for some reason I feel super guilty about my suicidal thought.
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This is a bit of a weird request, but does anybody know online stores where I can find tighter/ form fighting hoodies/ sweaters? It’s getting colder and recently as I was trying to find sweaters and shit I couldn’t stand them because I can’t stand loose clothing, anybody have any suggestions ? I just wanna not freeze in peace lmao
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i am too depressed to write big ass long post so let me hit you with a shortcut
i …
i am just sick of this & the cycle feels like hell
everything is so slow
i can’t figure out a magic formula to end it
it’s like i am living my life , fighting a lost battle that you know nothing about
it became a challenge for me to move my ass from bed
it became crazy to pick the wheel & drive & dealing w/ bunch of crazy drivers
downvotes piss me off & ruin my day but i say what i want anyway
i feel obligated to live but can’t & won’t take my life
i talked thru this to my close circles to the point that they became sick of it & desperate to help me but with failed attempts
talking or not talking my meds feels the same & it piss me off even more
i miss when my mind was quiet
i miss when i let things happen without trying to make sense of em
i became one big ass whiner
i miss when i was mentally stable
i hurt people… not proud of it
i hurt people… cuz there is no room to deal w/ bullshit ! i got my own anyway
i have a good life
raised by good supportive family.. didn’t matter
i have my dream car .. didnt matter
i traveled to my dream country.. didn’t matter
i made shitload of money .. didn’t matter
i talked to the hottest girl in my university & we exchanged insta .. didn’t matter
i bought myself many stuff for my own enjoyment that i could never thought i would have … you know the response by now
i feel hopeless helpless & even getting this off my chest won’t help because it wont
i don’t enjoy what i used to enjoy.. i can’t stand what i used not to enjoy
i talk less ..even though my mind is loud bitch
i am typing this knowing it would be ignored .. wont matter
i got high with the best weed strains .. back to being sober & it’s hell
this disease is no joke ..
tl;dr it’s so dark in here guys
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Yesterday I was at my husbands moms house. I have really bad derealization but I’ve been trying to force myself to go out and do things to expose myself to this fear. I was having bad anxiety all day and towards the end of the night I could not get out of my head that somehow I was possibly dosed with lsd and was coming up on it. I had to stop in the middle of a conversation and tell them I was having a panic attack and needed to talk to my husband alone to calm down. I told my husband I’m scared of going psychotic and that I’m having bad thoughts of possibly being dosed with lsd and that I literally feel the symptoms of me coming up. He handled it really well but my panic was so so strong and my whole body was shaking in fear.
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So I was tested for ADHD as a teen, was told I have a mild case.
My husband has an undiagnosed case. It's taken me years to push him to get diagnosed and hes finally getting evaluated in December. I'm pretty sure he'll be diagnosed because he has constantly jumped jobs and schools trying to find something he clicks with. He's a SAHD but spends a good 70% of the day playing the same old videogame or watching youtube videos. Like he always has a screen in his face. I don't mean to turn this into a marriage counseling session, but I'll try to talk to him about his screen time and he gets defensive so I don't dive in to it. But he struggles to get much else done around the house because of it and its stressful.
Anyone else deal with this? I get it can be an ADHD trait. I'm more of a reader so I can lose time on my phone reading reddit or whatever myself. But I've come up with coping mechanisms so I'm not on the phone all day ignoring the kids or my job.
Will meds help him get over this or am I going to have to have a harder conversation about it with him to get him to at least turn the screen off till the evening?
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Hello,
I had a terrible Saturday night, I became intoxicated at a small party, blacked out and became belligerent. This is the second time I've blacked out while drunk, the first time was brief and many years ago and I was not aggressive. I do not drink daily, only socially 3-4 drinks tops on the weekend. I have no history of violent or aggressive behavior. BUT, I specialize in working with acute mentally ill violent individuals.
I have no idea why I acted the way I did. I blacked out attempted to hit a stranger. My boyfriend gave me a well deserved stern lecture and then then attempted to walk me home. I reacted by screaming profanities at him, threatening to stab him multiple times with my pocket knife, damaged a random car, smashed a pumpkin and then threatened the individual's who owned the pumpkin. They called the police and fortunately, we were given a ride home and no one pressed charges. I apparently was unable to fall asleep for multiple hours and continued to damage furniture and scream profanities. I woke up the next day feeling anxious and scared in a very physical sense, not a normal hangover.
My boyfriend states I acted like one of my patients. I have no idea what to make of this but its made me question if the violent nature of my work has been effecting me more than I am consciously aware of. Has anyone else ever re-enacted traumatic violent events when intoxicated? Is what I described consistent with potential PTSD or am I just a an evil crazy bitch when my frontal lobe is inhibited.
Thanks
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I got no friends irl, got few good ones online, but i have been pushing them away, because i just don’t feel like chatting. Depression is hitting hard too. Parents don’t have even the slightest clue, and they don’t feel like understanding. They do feel like judging though.
i guess if i had someone to keep me together irl, i would do much better. Just to hang out and talk with. Thanks to Korona, the little social stuff is out, so now its just leaving home once to buy groceries, and once to work (its rehabilitation work thing) per week.
hell, even if i didn’t have OCD, my mental health would be going bad. This is pretty much a blogpost, which serves no real purpose, i just felt like writing all of this for some reason.
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How do you talk to your partner about how their PTSD affects your relationship without making them feel persecuted?
Background: I’ve been dating a woman with PTSD for nearly a year now. We are both in our thirties and both divorced. Most of our relationship is wonderful. She’s brilliant, generous, kind, attentive, attractive, and we share similar political and social views and goals.
Our entire relationship collapses as soon as she gets triggered. For me, the critical problem isn’t that she gets triggered—this is a challenge but one I am prepared to take on. The problem is that she gets extremely upset and then attributes her feelings to something minor I have done or, even worse, something I *never* did. Some examples of fight triggers include me failing to see and respond to an unexpected email within a half-hour while I am at work, being asleep when she is upset and wants to talk to me, failing to ask her how she is doing in the morning, etc. When these incidences happen, she reports feeling extreme distress, humiliation, and emotional pain and it takes many hours for me to calm her down.
Most distressingly, after the fact she will paint her reaction as being a rational response to my bad behavior, sometimes making up versions of the facts consistent with her emotional reality.
I love her and want this relationship to work, but I can’t see myself spending the rest of my life walking on eggshells, being constantly blamed, or gaslighted.
Does this description resonate with anyone else’s experience? How do I call attention to the role PTSD plays in our relationship without making her feel stigmatized?
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Quick Background:
I have had OCD for 3 years now, all through high school. I would classify my OCD as pure ocd because it’s always an irrational thought that explodes into something way more worrying, which leads to compulsions such as avoiding, intense rumination for long periods of time typically overtaking my main life priorities, and looking for reasons to back up my beliefs.
OVERCOMING OCD: MY TRIPLE LAYERED STRATEGY
1. Don’t do startup compulsions: Don’t google things, don’t try to make meaning of meaningless thoughts, don’t avoid anything. Understand that people without OCD will have a worrisome thought such as “What if I get robbed tonight,” and instead of going to hide all of their possessions, they ‘accept the uncertainty’ (key words for beating ocd) but with low probability for negative results. They simply allow the thought to come and go, and take a small chance that they may get robbed.
2. Expose yourself to the thing: it will just provoke anxiety at first, there will be no realization. After a while, the anxiety will decrease. Just trust the process, it’s all you have. This is ERP to my knowledge, for example if I am afraid to touch a pan because it MAY have the germs to kill me, I will still touch the pan any time I need to and accept all of the anxiety it provokes. If you do more noticeable physical compulsions like hand washing, stop the hand washing and accept the anxiety. This anxiety will decrease hugely in time. The reason ERP took me so long to grasp is because I would always p*ssy out way too early and expect some change but no. Don’t stop doing the exposures when they come to you in life.
3. Last step is pretty simple, but not easy. Don’t slow down in life: Keep doing things you been doing, if you stop them then this is avoiding things which makes you weaker and leads you into an overthinking cycle.
Conclusion:
I have been to a couple of therapies that didn’t completely accurately do their job. But as far as I have looked, nobody has an easy guide on beating OCD anywhere online. So if my steps don’t work for you, know that it’s because a 16 year old came up with them with 0 teaching only self-research. But they work for me, and I will be seeing an OCD specialist soon to back this up. If you are struggling with OCD and lost like I was then try my stuff.
Any questions can go to my DMs on Instagram, @mjlaroche13 or in the comments I will try to respond
I’m trying to help as much as I can because this disorder is so very painful. But we will get better.
Good luck 🍀
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im a survivor of CSA and three other SAs. i was doing so well for so long. my partner and i tried to get intimate and everything just flooded back into my mind. i had a pretty bad panic attack and it took hours for me to come down. it’s been two days, i can’t eat or sleep, and ive been pretending im fine to my partner and family but i feel like im drowning. i just cry in the bathroom or when everyone’s asleep. i feel victimized all over again, i feel angry and defeated, and im scared im gonna get really bad again.
i don’t wanna do this again. i was doing so good. it’s my sisters 21st birthday today and we’re having a family party (im a sober alcoholic) so that on top of this feels impossible. fuck.
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Decades of failing at dating and I’m pretty hopeless and helpless that I’m gonna have a fruitful dating life. I’m trying to get my mind off of it and find something else to do since I’m not gonna be having kids (surgery made sure of that) and probably not a wife. What do you all do with the extra spare time? Are video games something to keep me busy and make me relatively happy?
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Hello, I have been on an IR methylphenidate rubifen (same as Ritalin I guess?), 10mg 3x per day for a month and it’s been amazing. My mood, focus and sensory sensitivity all immediately improved so much.
Then my psychiatrist suggested trying Ritalin LA 30mg because it might be more convenient than having to time the doses perfectly myself. However it’s been 2 days and I’m not feeling great. My heart rate has shot right up and stays that way for most of the day. It’s really uncomfortable, and I’ve been kinda anxious. The crash at ~6pm was also weirdly worse.
I don’t get why though, because it’s the same drug right?? Has anyone else experienced this? I will talk to my psychiatrist but I’m worried she won’t believe me?
Thanks in advance :)
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I don’t feel safe, I need to sleep early but I can’t sleep because I’m gonna get nightmares, and I’m terrified. I don’t wanna relive that shit again. I’m scared. I don’t feel safe, I’m scared I’m gonna wake up in a cold sweat in my own piss, I feel horrible. I hate living with this fucking burden
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I hate feeling like I'm burdening everyone I interact with. I feel like I'm annoying my friends by texting them, like I'm making my coworkers' lives harder by just existing. I almost didn't even write this because I don't want to annoy y'all with my rambling. It just sucks knowing that logically I know that there are people who love and care for me, but feeling like I just exist to make people's lives harder.
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I just watched a stream from OCD and Anxiety, who is a licensed therapist, and he talks a lot about living with uncertainty and responding to OCD with “Maybe, maybe not.”
That whole statement. The golden response.
*Maybe, maybe not.*
“Do you feel attracted to this?”
*”Maybe, maybe not.”*
“Do you like this?”
*”Maybe, maybe not.”*
“OMG I can’t believe you actually want this, you’re a monster!!”
*”Maybe, maybe not.”*
“Are you a killer/a pedophile/a horrible person?”
*”Maybe, maybe not.”*
Right now, I’m having a feeling that’s giving me anxiety. A feeling that I want something and the need to figure out if it’s real or if it’s just OCD. But as soon as I showed indifference to it, there was a moment where I stopped caring.
When I stopped caring about it, when I stopped putting *value* to it, THAT is when I felt relief.
**You do not need to figure it out.** It’s not important. What’s important is living life.
Uncertainty really is key to recovery. Relief is in the middle.
HIGHLY recommend watching OCD and Anxiety.
https://youtube.com/c/ocdandanxiety
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i get it. i need to reach out, i need to be proactive, i need to take the first step. but i'm so tired. i am so sick of blaming myself for not doing those things, but also so tired of hearing these tips. sometimes imagining myself dead is the only thing that makes me calmer. that's so fucked up.
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I have autism and I've tried interacting with women but they all seem uninterested in me. Women like funny guys who understand social cues. I don't have a good sense of humor and due to my autism social cues and interactions are challenging for me. The autistic hyper-focus that we tend to have comes off as repulsive and clingy. Trying to successfully seduce is nothing but an uphill battle for us autists. I've been labeled as a creep so many times due to not understanding social cues.
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I've been on 15mg Adderral going on my second month now, and while it works in keeping me focused during the day, I feel like the quality of my sleep is beginning to change and has only been changing in this way since Sunday (when I refilled my script; of note - new script is pills of 15mg each, where last month I was working my way up gradually using 5mg pills).
Naturally I'm concerned about this, I want to ask how long something like this should last? Since Sunday my sleep has been improving slightly and I'm aware it could be too soon to tell, but specifically - I have this feeling that my sleep isn't as *deep* as it was compared to last month. Is this something that will go away the longer I take this? If it isn't, is there a risk of this medicine *permanently* compromising my ability to have deep sleep?
I am in contact with my medical professional who says to try sleep hygiene, taking it earlier in the day, and I am recently trying to do those things but again, since it was just this week that I started doing it I'm aware it could be too soon. More than anything I at least want some sense of whether this is going to be a permanent problem or something that attenuates with more tolerance, and that (soon) I'll be back to deeper sleep.
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I’m thinking I might want to start medication for my symptoms bc I’m constantly on edge and can’t get myself to calm down. I snap at loved ones often and for no reason. (I also have Generalized Anxiety Disorder, so maybe I need to medicate for that instead?)
Did meds help you? With what symptoms?
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I was in the military from 05-09 and had some rather traumatic experiences that I just kinda shoved away/self medicated with alcohol. I felt that I didn't need to see anyone about what I was dealing with and also didn't want to take away from those that had "real" physical injuries. I thought that I had buried the issues away successfully but looking back they just kind of changed me into an angrier version of myself. I've been angry for years.
Fast forward to a few months ago and I suffered yet another traumatic experience that made all the old shit resurface and I've been taking it out on my family, just angry af all the time with a really short fuse. I have zero drive to do anything and I could give two shits about things I used to enjoy. So clearly I need to see someone about this.
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So to my original question - should I see a private doc or see if the VA is able to help? Is it worth trying to get all this service connected?
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Thanks for the help.
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Because I dont really care about cleanliness that much, but if there are bugs near me i freak out (like there was a bug in my room over half an hour ago and im still really paranoid and i cant breath well). Every so often i get stressed over cleanliness, but it comes in bursts and never lasts long.
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Lately at work I have been doing great.
Almost to the point where I forget I have ADHD. Been feeling really good about myself too.
Then yesterday I had to work a place
that I hadn't worked in many years. Because I was messing up in another place I was working.
I got overwhelmed and made simple mistakes that I feel the normal person wouldn't make. I was also talking to myself and cursing a lot. Everyone could really see how stressed I was. I was so embarrassed.
It's a pretty important part of the job where I work.
Worst part is that the next person had to fix my mistakes, which makes me feel even worse.
Nothing really bad happened but, just reminded me how much my ADHD interferes with my life and brain.
Made me feel really stupid just like I have felt my whole life before getting diagnosed/treated for my ADHD.
So much to the point I called in sick today. I know would've had to work there again today.
I didn't want to cause other people more work by having to fix my mistakes and feel like a moron again.
My eyes are tearing up writing this. I just feel like an incompetent child.
Tldr: had a bad day at work, feel like a failure, an idiot, and a child
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So I'm wondering if anyone can relate or have some insight, I have ASD which is in the final steps of getting diagnosed and I have ADHD, which comes with multiple comorbidities, one of them is I suffer from extreme anxiety and panic attacks. I have been trying to get vaccinated and I couldn't due to having extreme panic attacks on my way, as I have an extreme fear of needles, so now I need to travel to sort some of my documents back in the country where I was born but I don't have enough time till I go nor do I have the energy to get more panic attacks, has anyone been able to get an exemption from the vaccine for ADHD and anxiety/panic.
Just a disclaimer, I still want to take the vaccine, I do want to get the immunisation, I just need to travel and I fear I will have such a hard time, also considering that I have been trying to take the vaccine without success since it's been out is killing me. Has anyone been in a similar position?
Edit: The reason I'm asking is because on the UK website on the exemption thing it says that you can get an exemption in case you have a learning disability or autism and no accommodations can be provided, so I was wondering if anyone managed to be exempt using that point.
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So sometimes I’ll worry about whether or not I’ve gone insane from my ocd. Which like I understand why I feel that way because the amount of stress it causes me. However, sometimes I’ll subconsciously like convince myself I’m going insane/crazy. I’ll have this weird ‘vibe’ like feeling that makes mr feel as if I’ve gone insane. It’s really weird, I’ll start to feel off, stutter when I speak, I don’t even feel like myself at all. I can’t identify myself with things I normally like or enjoy. Idk its just frustrating and I want to feel like myself again :(.
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I am not diagnosed with OCD, so I hope I don’t come across offensive. But I have a few questions regarding OCD behaviours that don’t fall into the compulsive category.
Has anyone on here been diagnosed with OCD, just having the thoughts?
I have GAD (general anxiety disorder) and it was mentioned to me about OCD, but I don’t have the need to perform rituals. Except in my mind as thoughts. I will obsessively go over certain thoughts for hours, despite not wanting too, it feels like I have too if that makes sense. I’ve done this since I was a child and have always been told it’s anxiety. Which I do believe because anxiety is present while I’m stuck in these thoughts.
But I’m trying to understand if it’s possibly part of OCD. Because I naively only thought OCD could be diagnosed if performing certain rituals were present.
Just trying to understand and get other people’s insight.
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At my uni, any student considered disabled has a kind of contract with a list of any accommodations they may need. One of the things on my list is that should a situation arise where a presentation is required, I can request an alternative task.
I emailed my tutor and made them aware of this, and also asked if I should still do the slides for the presentation and submit them, or if they wanted me to do an entirely different task. Keep in mind this was a difficult enough email to send in the first place as I’m working hard to try and establish comfortable boundaries for myself this year.
Anyway, I received the reply from my tutor, and they asked if I’d feel more comfortable doing the presentation one-to-one over Zoom - knowing full well I’m non-verbal during Zoom lessons and instead use the chat feature.
I don’t know how to reply to this message. Obviously I’m not comfortable doing that - I don’t do presentations at all and have a contract saying so - but I don’t know how to tell them this without it coming across as me being a ‘difficult’ student.
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So here’s the story. I’ve been in manufacturing for a year now and I gotta say. It’s not great. (For me anyway) I found out I’ll be losing my job “possibly” next month cuz I’m not performing well. I wanted to come here to ask you lovely people what kind of jobs you have and what kind of jobs in general are good for people with adhd. I’m a combined type (idk if that matters search wise but yee)
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Since I began medication two months ago(which led me to finally accept my ADHD diagnosis)I became really fixated with the idea of an ADHD friendly home. Have more urgent things to do but that's all I've been doing/ thinking about. Tought sharing what I tried could be helpful , so here is everything that worked for me.
IMPORTANT!
-don't be hard on yourself and don't be a perfectionist. Begin this tasks with the mindset/ goal of making life easier,even if just a little bit. If the house looks good that's a bonus , not the main thing.
-Also: thrift and repurpose everything you already have because even if a single organizer is cheap you'll have to get several and it gets expensive really quick
-this are the things that worked for me but everyone is different so if it doesn't end up working for you don't feel bad about it! Some things I tried didn't work for me too. Anyway, it's all about trial and error
1.DECLUTTER:
First thing you gotta do . The more things you have the more you have to stress about: they can hide the stuff you need, you can lose them or simply forget about them so they sit there depriving you of space and making cleaning a nightmare. Make tree bins/piles: keep, throw in the thrash and I really suggest sell/ donate. Focus your energy on selling properly just the valuable things because in the extra step of selling you can easily forget about it and the clutter will continue to stay where it is. The rest if you have a garage, garage sale everything really cheap to get rid of it. The thing that really worked for me though was giving things to friends and family. That way I could let go objects that I couldn't bring myself to throw because they where still perfectly fine and it was easier to get rid of them . I sent photos to people and if they wanted my stuff I gave it to them when I saw them or they came to my house and collected the objects. If you can mass donate to a third party It's Even better because you can just bring them everything all at once. Also for me it was rewarding and made me feel good about myself because of helping others and the environment.
Look or just listen to a bunch of YouTube videos on decluttering , It's really helpful.
Read about minimalism. You don't have to actually Become a minimalist but practicing it even a little helps
2.BINS ALL AROUND THE HOUSE: this tip I found here and it's a life changer. Keep some bins in the rooms to drop wathever you don't feel like putting in the place it goes. That way the room won't get messy and you'll lose less things because everything is there . Also easier to sort through the moment you decide to organize them. I have two little ones on my desk and it's been amazing because it was always full of random Little stuff and I couldn't use it, now I use it everyday. For the bins I used that plastic pots that you use to cover the real plant vases to make them pretty .I already had them around because two plants I had died but they are really cheap anyway ( at least the plastic ones).
Some people here suggested having two bins in their room,one for dirty clothing one for clothes that you can use one more time. This way the room is less messy and you'll have clothes for when you can't/forget/can't bring yourself to do laundry. If cleanish clothes stay in the same pile with dirty clothes they can smell dirty too, in a different pile that has less of a chance to happen.
Also if you're short on money in the meantime you can just use the sturdier cardboard boxes you can find in vertical (making a hole) and wrapping them with gift paper that matches the room.
3: CLOCKS: put clocks all around the house where you often stay for long periods of time . Recently did it and it helped with my time blindness. I would suggest digital clocks ( I can't bring myself to read the classic ones because that extra second makes me distracted) the ones with dark background and bright numbers. They're a lot more visible but not so shiny that they don't bother you at night. Bonus if they have a plug so forgetting to put the batteries is not an option . Also bonus if they have a color/ character you like . I have two hello kitty clocks I thrifted and I really like hello kitty so I constantly look at them because I really like them. Honorable mention, the clock I have on my night table facing my direction. I never want to wake up and I procrastinated telling myself it was early in the morning . Now I see the hour and get out of bed earlier ( not everyday but it's a neat progress)
4:TINY SPIRAL NOTEBOOKS: also all around the house, also in the places you spend more time, at eye level . I put a tiny pencil / crayon in the spiral and leave them open. Everytime I remember something I have to do i scribble it in there as fast as I can . Then going about my day I see the notebook and remember that thing I had to do . Eventually I get it done . Doesn't make miracles but definitely helps me getting more things done than before . I would suggest having one with pages in a bright color, if it's a color you like it's better because more chances to look at it, or if you have one with normal white pages writing with a bright colored crayon can also do the trick. Especially red.
5: AVOID BUYING HOUSE DECORATIONS LIKE THE PLAGUE: pretty self explanatory. They quickly become clutter and also attract dust like a magnet. But if they have a function they're ok. For example the figurines you can use to hang jewelry on.
6: TRY TO KEEP EVERYTHING IN ENCLOSED SPACES :
This one is especially for the ones that are buying some piece of furniture. Choose furniture that Keeps things as enclosed as possible, avoid everything open, because everything you leave in open air needs to get dusted at some point , or if it's not organized it shows immediately. If you have figurines a glass showcase is a good investment . Sometimes you can also find them in thrift stores. Also pick furniture that sits directly on the ground ( don't know how to explain it better ) because often the furniture that has space underneath and doesn't touch the ground collects a lot of dust underneath , lots of things get lost down there and it's a nightmare to clean. Try also to get furniture as square and simple as possible ( if you like it! Not everyone likes the stile and it's ok ) because it's also easier to dust.
7:PLASTIC TABLECLOTH :
On the kitchen table is awesome , because you don't have to worry about staining it or washing it, just need a cloth with detergent and it's clean. Being inattentive when I had fabric ones they where always a disaster and stained all over and even if I washed them the stains remained there . Just get some trivet to put on hot dishes or the hot pan because if you put something hot directly on the plastic it melts. I put a piece of transparent plastic tablecloth also on most of the bathroom furniture because I couldn't remember for the life of me not to put wet things on the furniture ( and that can damage it)
8: HOUSE CLEANING WET WIPES:
This is not strictly ADHD related but a lot of times with ADHD it's easy to skip cleaning . Especially if you have other mental illnesses. House cleaning wet wipes where a quick fix for me . They don't resolve the problem, you can't consider things completely clean with them, but they make things a little better and require minimal effort. You just take the wipe and rub it on the surface of choice and that's it. You can use them all around the house because they are multipurpose.
I probably forgot to add things but so far this are the things that helped me at home managing ADHD and I'd really like to hear yours!
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Hello everyone. Quick post wondering if anybody had been on this combination of medications and how it affected you. I originally was on 20mg of lexapro and 10mg of Adderall IR 3x a day. I started getting very bad sexual side effects to the point that I had no libido and no way to get or attain an erection. My Psychatrist was out of office so they offered to let me speak to another person in the office. They basically talked over time the entire time and didn’t listen. They also had no concern with me explaining how much the sexual side effects were affecting me and refused to even let me try cialis and told me to talk to my GP. They said I could try Wellbutrin to see if it helped but she refused to do anything until I completely stopped Lexapro which I explained I wasn’t comfortable with. I left basically feeling defeated and as though I F’d up big time talking to somebody who didn’t know or care about my medical history.
Fast forward 2 days later I talked with my GP about all of my symptoms and they actually listened and wanted to help. I explained how Adderall has helped me so much in that I can focus, have meaningful conversations, stay organized, have motivation, feel ready to do mundane tasks and my depression and anxiety is almost completely gone. I explained my depression was still there a bit and thought It was due to the libido issues somewhat. They agreed that I should bring down the lexapro dosage a bit and also prescribed a small dose of cialis and 150mg of Wellbutrin XL.
It’s day 2 of taking Wellbutrin and I do feel a bit fatigued and like Adderall isn’t helping as much. Will this feeling go away? Should I push through the side affects for now? The fill in psychiatrist said the Wellbutrin should help amplify the positive effects of Adderall. I’m just afraid that I’ve made a lot of progress with Adderall. I’ve been focusing on long term goals, making positive life changes and turning my life around. I don’t want to F*** it up and ruin everything just for a boner and some depression lol.
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I feel like a burden on my wife. Recently diagnosed but was living with major symptoms since 2007. Just want to piece myself back together for my family.
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ptsd
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Thank you, Max. Well said and a good discussion topic. I appreciate your content more than you will ever know and wish you were around years ago when I was struggling with my diagnosis. It has been helpful sharing your content with my friends and family and even some of my colleagues at work understand me better because of your insightful videos. Thanks again.
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Hi. I am completely new to reddit and was suggested it for coping. I have a relatively good life, but my past isn't the best. I wasn't born in the states making anything relatively different from others a huge thing to strangers. I had an abusive drug addict father who on top of everything did human trafficking. He would let his friends do whatever he wanted with me and my sister like molest, rape, steal for them, whatever you could think of. It was awful. He eventually went out of it and nearly got caught and killed himself and my sister and attempted to kill me. I was in the hospital and lost all hope in love since the only thing I ever did love died. I have only talked about this with my partner. I haven't really been able to cope with it.
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I am trying to figure out if this is just a personal thing. Oftentimes when someone will ask me for the time, I say the wrong time. I am physically looking at the correct time, mentally thinking of the correct time, but 40% of the time, I'll say the wrong time.
Say it's 1:30pm, I will say "oh, it's 1:30am" or "it's 12:30pm." Someone will go "1:30am" and I'll say "yes, 1:30am." I will keep doubling down on it until they correct me, and that's usually when I realize what I've been saying the whole time. It sometimes happens with names and places as well.
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I just cant , its too much to bear !!!
I really dont know what to do.I was abused badly as a child , that was at 12 years old . I was traumatized. Since then ( from 12 years old ) ive been having intrusive thoughts all the time about the incident that happened to me , with really very strong emotional flashbacks , which makes me feel very vengeful and oppressed, pity, guilty , shameful , you name it!! Ive became 20 & these intrusive thoughts never subsided , as a matter of fact they aggravated . From literally 6th grade I couldn’t read one word without an intrusive thought while studying . IT aggravated to the point where IAM in a climacteric crucial exam , & having intrusive memories/flashbacks while writing in the exam , once I start thinking they come back it’s horrendous!! Ive barely passed my GCSES & A -levels. Not only that but I cant even drive , ONCE I start the engine of the car intrusive thoughts flood in like never before , with the emotional flashbacks & all the emotions ive experienced in the traumatic event , I CANT focus on driving because theyre literally bombarding my brain with disgusting/ painful stuff , I CANT even drive due to being scared of killing someone while ruminating 24/7 . MY intrusive memories are something probably the worst youd see of a kind .I really cant fathom what happened to me , IVE read about intrusive thoughts for CPTSD patients/victims, and it seems mine is very severe & very exquisite when compared with others . I was a normal kid before the incident , studying normally , having ambitions , dreams & being determined. No intrusive thoughts , just a normal person . IVE LOST ALL OF THAT, and most importantly my sanity , I cant complete a sentence in my head without a tsunami of flashbacks . My condition is worsening every second , and I dont understand whats going on with me , IAM about to enter uni , & AT THIS PACE , I WILL fail . I DONT know what to do , this is 24/7 . I CANT REALLY DO ANYTHING , LITERALLY UNTIL I SOLVE THIS PROBLEM . LITERALLY. I just cant live , IM losing LOSING HOPE AFTER 8 years of suffering . So is this a type of ocd ?
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OCD
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Hi so i'm currently 22 and i've been dealing with ocd since 2016 now, and i was wondering if it would be interesting to make a ocd related youtube channel where i would tell my story and give advice and mostly talk about things etc.
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OCD
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I can rarely touch him. Rarely hug him. The other day was the first time in months I kissed him and I ended up having a flashback. Its probably been a year since we have done anything more than kissing. I miss it. My PTSD gets in the way. I want to be able to hold him again, kiss him again, feel love instead of fear when I'm with him, but I'm always tense and scared. I want to be able to do more than just kiss.
He would never hurt me, but before, I had the tendency to dissociate when I was scared and consent when I didnt actually want to because of this. I'm scared that will happen again. I'm scared I cant trust him or that he will hurt me or take advantage of me like my ex. After anything sexual, I get anxious, depressed, scared no matter how much I had wanted the encounter. I overthink and wonder if I actually did want to.
What do I do? I have a therapist. I'm taking medicine. None of it helps. I just want to feel safe again but my body and brain always perceive my boyfriend as a threat. I miss being intimate with him, but it's been years and nothing seems to help.
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ptsd
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Hello I would just like a bit of advice as I’m very new to these symptoms. What I’m about to type may be triggering.
I’m not going into much detail but I was sexually assaulted when I was around 4 and basically only found out 2 years ago. Recently I’ve felt very out of it and started waking up screaming thinking something is trying to get me. This time I was at my boyfriend’s house and it was very embarrassing. I actually hurt him during this episode, not too bad thankfully, it was just some kicks. However, I’m frightened it may get worse and I may actually hurt someone. I was looking up night terrors and they involve you forgetting but I am so petrified I can’t sleep. I believed the thing is still coming for me and in my dream it looked so real, I was having panic attack afterwards for about 15 minutes so that makes me believe it wasn’t a night terror.
I’m not sure where these dreams have come from I have had 2 in the past 2 months (these two weren’t as bad. I was running away in my house and my mum came to help me and that was very effective, I wasn’t scared afterwards ) and I’m not sure if it’s the incident that is causing them as it’s been bothering me more. Things such as being scared to have sex or seeing myself naked when in a bad mental state. I’ve been very dissociated too. I’m really confused about the way I feel and I really want it all to stop because I can’t deal with how frightening the dreams are. Has anyone here experienced anything similar?
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ptsd
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For the last 2 days my depression has me feeling like there is too much emotion for me to absorb and then what usually happens is an extreme low where I bawl like a baby, I’m wondering if my meds aren’t correct, I’m 35 years old and antidepressants are very new to me, I’ve been medicated since April or May of this year. I also “self medicate” with a lot of marijuana in various forms, which I have also heard can affect one of the meds I currently take, I have considered taking a break as my “highs” typically don’t last more than minutes. Thanks in advance guys for any help, I’ve floated around Reddit for years but never had the courage to ever be this vulnerable, just writing this has reduced me to tears.
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My PTSD stems from a cascading series of traumas I suffered over the course of almost 2 years when I was 14-16. That was about 45 years ago. I wasn't diagnosed until I was 37 and went into what was basically a mental breakdown. I'm now 60.
I've never had any significant treatment. I've sought out therapists over the years but I've never been able to find anyone who was either trained in treating trauma or had any real interest in doing so. For the most part, they all wanted to just treat whatever issue was causing difficulty at the moment, which to my mind is not particularly helpful because those issues are just symptoms of the deeper problem. I never felt like I gained anything from the therapy I did have.
I'm highly functioning. I've learned to recognize my triggers and I have pretty good coping mechanisms for the most part, but I do suffer from PTSD and it can be very hard and debilitating sometimes. I've felt for a long time that just talking about the things that happened to me, in a safe environment, would be helpful. Probably hard, but helpful because I've never had the opportunity to really unpack that stuff.
Problem is, talk therapy doesn't seem to be at all in vogue anymore. So just wondering if anyone here has utilized it and if they've found it helpful at all.
Thanks.
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ptsd
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Anyone here had urine retention when on the drug? did it heal when after? I'm off of it now for 2 months but my bladder's a mess and it actually fuels my OCD cause my pee goes everywhere between my butt/legs/etc. and I have COCD. recovery stories would be appreciated, I hope things can go back to how they were before, i'm so depressed over this...
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OCD
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Hello,
I've been on 300mg of bupropion (hydrochloride) for one week now. I was on 150mg for the first 4 days and then moved to 300 mf as I was instructed. I'm on it for my mental health but have suffered all my life with sexual issues and being unable to control my eating.
I've had a tiny increase in libido, but that's not what I'm asking about. I'd like to know when you all began to have appetite suppression and when you think I may begin to feel it?
Please help me. Thanks!
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depression
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Insecure people see our gifts and decide we must be stepped on, lest they don't feel superior for half-a-second.
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aspergers
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Are there any online exhibitions/galleries or just individual "openly-autistic" artists?
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aspergers
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For legal purposes everything in this thread is alleged. I was born with cerebral palsy and therefore I have needed medical care my entire life I have had more than 15 surgeries and eight of those were for eight consecutive years, I have flashbacks every day because something in my life always reminds me of a medical trauma. I have constant chronic pain and will most likely eventually be completely bedbound. I was born in 1990 so a lot of my medical experience was being a guinea pig for medical treatments. It wasn't until I started seeing my most recent therapist that I even realized that I had medical trauma. Anyway, that's not the main reason why I am posting here but I feel like it's still important to mention. After I graduated college, I went into my dream graduate program for, ironically, a Psy.D. I had been dreaming of getting this degree since I was 12 years old and this program is one of the best in the country. When I interviewed there the head of the program was incredibly nice and literally told my mother he would do anything I needed for me to succeed in the program. Anyway by the time I started the program he had been replaced with someone who very clearly did not want me in the program. She would say insulting things to me to my face and I'm pretty sure she was working in tandem with the head of disability services, who was also a different person from my interview to the time I started the program because the original person had died, to make me quit. My caregivers were not allowed to drive me to school and the bus that was supposed to pick me up was frequently either late or did not show. Professors would make comments about my fingernails and other things regarding cerebral palsy and how disability was not a diversity variable etc. Because I was out of state, I did not qualify for disability services and therefore had to use the caregivers that were provided for me by the school. As an undergraduate I hired and managed all of my own care and had 11 different caregivers. Now I had two, and I did not get to choose them. One of my caregivers was amazing and I firmly believe if I did not have him I would have died. My other caregiver frequently missed shifts which cause me to miss class. I would frequently be stuck in bed in my own urine and feces for long periods of time with no one to help me. Eventually I fired him but they did not help me look for a new caregiver so I had to find one on my own while managing graduate school. As you can probably imagine, this made graduate school impossible and I eventually had to leave the program. I selected a new program closer to home but I hate it. It's a different degree and the professors there have also said things about my disability. Every time I read a textbook or do schoolwork I get triggered which makes school really hard but I need a job. I am so bitter and angry and I do not know how I will ever get over not having the career or degree I want as well as the trauma from my experience. I'm in two different forms of therapy including occupational therapy to get me out of hypervigilance but it's such a slow process. I also feel like I used to know so much more about the field I'm going into. Now I feel like I know nothing, not only because my new program is nowhere near as rigorous or as high of quality, but because I can't retain anything I read. I have literal years missing from my memory and I don't know how I'm going to be a functioning human being. I went undiagnosed with PTSD for about six years. They kept giving me an adjustment disorder or saying it was depression. I used to volunteer for a crisis hotline during my new program that I had to quit when I fell and fractured my hip and broke my ankle, which required two surgeries. I know I can do the work because my GPA is 3.89 which is pretty good for graduate school and I know that if I had been supported in my old program, I could have flourished. It's so hard seeing everyone else from the program have their doctorates while I'm not even done with my Masters. I'm bitter and I hate everything and I have no idea what to do. I feel like I will never get better. I have nightmares of being neglected essentially every night. I feel like it's impossible to heal while I'm in graduate school because everything is a trigger and although I'm very grateful for my parents, the environment is toxic. When I left for graduate school, my parents literally said well Mark is on his own now and we don't have to take care of him. Now I live with them full-time and I feel like such a burden.
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ptsd
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I’ve been working from home a good portion of the time because of COVID. I’ve been depressed since before I knew what depression was and deeply afraid of ppl.
Today’s my bday and I decided to get my hair and nails done even if I have no one to celebrate with. I genuinely just missed taking a stroll. From the old man walking slowly to his destination. From seeing ppl interacting outside, the good and bad. From the school children rushing out of the schools.
Sometimes I don’t know why I’m so afraid of everyone when working from home and living alone has been so unhealthy for me. It’s not that I dislike ppl it’s that I’m scared of meeting people for fear of rejection.
I should do this more often but how do I get into a routine. How do I meet ppl.
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depression
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I’m starting emdr today, I'm very nervous but hoping for the best. Thank you guys for being such a supportive group❤️
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ptsd
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Hello! So i have been dx w ADHD-PI and consider getting meds,because i am failing two subjects in class. I enjoy them,it is just really hard to sit and learn the topics...because my brain just doesnt want to. I have serious executive dysfunction and my mind doesnt shut up. It bothers me,so i want to start meds,but i am really afraid of loss of my personality. What if my whole personality is defined by ADHD and PCOS ? I dont really know what defines ME anymore. Have you seen any changes in personality when on meds? Any advice to calm my mind? Will i still be able to retain my sense of humor and quirks? I want to be myself,but improved when on meds. Is it possible? Thank you for advice! (Sorry this is messy,i had to go somewhere,so i didnt have time for neatness)
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ADHD
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In my math 1 class people have been slacking and the teachers said something about and they were talking about people being lazy and that's when the feeling got worse and there's only 3 people who truly work in the class but I guess the assistant kinda seen me slouching and looking away and he let me know not to worry because I was one of the people who actually works and man was that a relief all I can say is thx mr A he took a huge burden off my shoulders even if it wasn't pointed towards me
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ptsd
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I know that this may sound like a silly thing to be upset about, but this YouTube group, known as the Lunch Club, means the world to me. I have never had anything make me laugh, smile, and overall be happy as much as they have. I overcame depression that I got from when I was sexually assaulted in December of 2018, simply from watching their videos nonstop everyday. Watching their videos not only made me happy, but it also got me through COVID-19 lockdowns and all the overall stress that 2020 brang. I was always looking forward to whatever they had planned next, because they always gave me a smile.
But on January 5th, something happened that changed me completely, and put me back into depression. My favourite member of the Lunch Club (and my favourite YouTuber overall), CallMeCarson, got exposed and cancelled on Twitter. It was discovered that he had gotten nudes from multiple 17 year old girls, even after he promised to stop doing it. Following this, all the rest of the Lunch Club cut ties with him, and the group dismembered.
When I read this news, I could not believe it. I spent the whole day crying because of this. And sometimes I still have breakdowns from it. I still cannot believe that Carson would do this.
But the thing is, I don't care about what he did, because I find him so damn funny that I'll give him a pass on almost anything. Hell, he could rape a baby's corpse by stabbing it with a knife and then fucking the stab wound, and I would still support him.
Anyways, my point is, I literally can't live without the Lunch Club. I've tried everything to resolve this. I've tried talking this over with myself. I've tried talking this over with my parents. I had dozens of therapy sessions. I've tried finding a new YouTube group. I've even tried to say "Fuck it" and just move on and forget about it. But nothing has worked, even in the slightest. I'm still as depressed as I was in January, and I haven't had any bit of true happiness since.
Literally my only option left other than killing myself is to get the Lunch Club back together somehow. So here's a message to everyone: PLEASE SEND THIS POST AND EVERY OTHER POST I'VE MADE ABOUT THE LUNCH CLUB TO EVERY FORMER LUNCH CLUB MEMBER, BECAUSE THEY MUST SEE THIS. I LITERALLY NEED THEM TO GET BACK TOGETHER AND MAKE MORE VIDEOS TOGETHER, BECAUSE I CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT THEM.
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depression
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Hello definitely a long rant about my symptoms and treatment history, apologies, but I’m mostly looking for advice regarding the title.
I’m 21 F and have struggled with attention and concentration issues my whole life in school work and social arenas.
Since elementary school I’ve taken longer on assignments as my peers, struggled with procrastination, often daydreaming, and was even removed from classrooms for being a distraction. However since the behavioral issues lessened and my difficulties in school weren’t reflected in grades I feel like I was overlooked. High School was really challenging but my grades remained okay. My main issues are that I can stare at a blank document for hours but nothing will come to mind until the deadline pressure hits or a million unrelated things come to mind and I can’t organize them or prioritize them as to what’s actually relevant to the assignment. Reading and math are challenging because I forget what I’m reading every few lines. Now that I’m in college and there are a lot more demands on my time I can’t be spending 2-5x longer on assignments than I should be.
With work I’m always making careless mistakes and getting distracted. I found when I’m working in restaurants I love when its fast paced and usually do better when I’m overloaded and really busy.
Socially I can’t tell a straight forward story to save my life. I’m always going on side tangents jumping around making connections that aren’t clear to others. I’m very forgetful about commitments, always need reminders, and would loose my head if it wasn’t attached to my body.
Ive seen three therapists since I was 12 who have all suggested I may have adhd but I have been unable to pursue this until now.
I had psych evaluation done over the summer. It was 3 hours and tested for ptsd, mood disorder, adhd, anxiety, and depression. The result was generalized anxiety and a personality disorder that is way out of left field and not applicable to me (my current therapist agrees). For the cognitive and executive functioning evaluation some test were below average while others were above so they said I overall am average with my peers.
I started seeing a prescriber shortly after. I started with Lexapro (ssri), didn’t notice any changes until the third week (therapeutic dose)until it caused rapid mood cycling. Consequently my prescriber took me off Lexapro put me on Trileptal, a mood stabilizer. Trileptal made feel sedated depressed and borderline suicidal. My prescriber didn’t take me off until I told her I was getting migraines that were causing me to have visual auras. Next I tried Abilify, also a mood stabilizer. Same sedation and depression the first few weeks, so I started dosing myself off for fear of having migraines again. My prescriber won’t discuss stimulants bc she’s worried about triggering a manic episode (only due to my reaction to Lexapro and not an actual diagnosis). All these side effects have made doing school work incredibly challenging and I’m left doing a semesters worth of work in two weeks.
I don’t know what my next steps should be. Mood stabilizers aren’t helping. My therapist agrees with my prescriber to continue mood stabilizers, but she has also over diagnosed me without any basis since I stated seeing her (she spent two session arguing that I’m autistic solely because I mentioned that I get overwhelmed when a lot of people talk at once). I frequently feel like they both put words in my mouth and get upset when I disagree with them. I’m worried if I seek a new therapist and prescriber and explain the situation they’ll think I’m fishing for a specific diagnosis.
TLDR:
* 3 therapist suggested adhd from ages 12-20
* Difficulty in school work and social life
* Tried ssri had a bad reaction and have been on two mood stabilizers also bad reactions / they’re not helping
* I’ve had testing done but had a bad experience with the company that did it
* Want to seek second opinions but I feel like I’m fishing for a specific diagnosis
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ADHD
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I'm sure some of yall do this too... life is monotone and boring and ever since I was younger I would escape by daydreaming about being the main character in a different life. For example, I'd have a Pirates of the Caribbean inspired imaginary life or a mermaid one.
My most recent imaginary life is imagining what it's like to be a rich teenager - think like Pretty Little Liars-eque lifestyles (yes I'm rereading pretty little liars). I'm no longer a teenager so it's kinda pathetic but it's one of the ways I deal with life being boring.
In my imaginary life, I have a jeep and a walk-in closet. My biggest problems are figuring out which cafe to study at and what designer outfit I'll wear on vacation.
In real life... I'm in bed thinking about my imaginary life and my space looks like a tornado hit it and I can't decide which career to stick to
Anyways, would love to hear your imaginary lives if you do this too
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ADHD
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To start, i was only diagnosed a couple years ago.. but!!
My biggest fear/stressor is being in big crowds, i feel so over stimulated with all the noise and people, and just realized this yesterday.
My town has a little festival for labor day, called blackberry festival, i met up with a friend and we walked around for a bit, and with her, I felt fine.. she got called away almost as soon as we got there, walked her to her car, and decided to go back.
As soon as i went back, my anxiety went up to the point my hands started to shake.. luckily, i had my headphones, as soon as i put them on i was calm and able to wander the fest alone.
Just wondering if anyone else finds music with headphones on as a safety net?
It never concurred to me that, that was a comfort to me since my normal practice is wearing headphones out in public, i.e.; riding the bus, shopping.
It was such a surprise to me that it kept me calm in a spot I'd normal avoid
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aspergers
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awwwwwwwww yeah, baby. I've been bored for the last two months, and the new Survivor season just came on, so my especially dopamine-deprived brain has clung onto it as it once has before. But not with the same strength as the previous time I hyperfixated on it. This chronic boredom needs to end.
Did anybody else / is anybody else experiencing this? How do you guys keep your life exciting (in a non-destructive way) once you get into a routine? Any tips for spicing up college life?
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ADHD
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Hi all, I have PSTD and am a sexual assault survivor. Long story short my assailant went to jail this past November for 7 years. I have a life long protective order. I came forward a few years before trial and he violated his protective order and broke into another victims house out of retaliation. There were 2 of us. This left me looking over my shoulder constantly. The police were vigilant and monitored my home, but I still felt uneasy. I thought him going to jail would help me but I just look at it as a countdown. So now that you have some backstory I am doing what I can to heal.
I do art as a career which is therapy in itself, yoga, I take anxiety meds morning and night, I try CBD occasionally. I have the option to get my medical card but have not pursued it yet. Overall I still feel uneasiness.
I have nightmares, I still startle easily, small things trigger me.
Anyway, the last two nights I have dreamt in detail my husband has killed me. I mean all the way up to the point that blood is drawn.
I have no idea why or where it comes from but I wake up in shear terror/fear of him.
Has anybody experienced this?
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ptsd
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hypersensitivity to touch is common in aspergers/ADHD. Is it so bad for anyone here that they completely avoid any sexual encounters? How has it affected you?
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aspergers
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Like, why is this shirt $200 when it looks almost the same as the one for $20? Why is this brand of clothing "uncool" when this brand of clothing is "trendy and nice" when they sell the exact same shit? Why are graphic tees suddenly not okay?
I've honestly always dressed in clothes I found cool or comfortable, not ones that are "trendy or fashionable". Cause honestly, the people in my life who truly love me wouldn't give a single fuck about my fashion sense. How do I understand NTs appeal to fashion? Seriously, I can't keep up anymore, yesterday's trendy is today's "cringy old-school" or whatever.
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aspergers
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I don’t have adhd but I’ve done a fair bit of research to know that adhd is a real diagnosis and that it is something many people struggle with every waking hour of their lifes. I do know that most humans have some “tendencies” that align with people who have adhd but that does not mean that that person has adhd! I tried to explain that to them but they just ranted that “everyone is on the spectrum” and “its just the people who has a little more adhd who needs help” I said that they were being SUPER disrespectful of the MILLIONS of people who struggle with this diagnosis but couldn’t convince those stubborn people. Any help for future debates?
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ADHD
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Hello fellow OCD commerades,
I need some support here to over come this debilitating issue of mine.
So I live in a miserable place health-wise, the petrol that is sold here, I suspect, contains lead and an amount of benzene. The directorate of health doesn't do shit to eliminate substances that cause harm. So everyday I walk out of the house I get anxiety attacks once I smell petrol fumes in the air. My anxiety attacks last for some time until I don't know I'm busied by something else. Worse, the neighborhood where I live has about 12 operators working on diesel. Diesel fumes are also harmful. The only times I am relaxed is when I'm home or at work in the office where I don't have those smells wafting. Now I could be over sensitive, because people around me seem to be oblivious to all of this. That's my question, how not to give a fuck about all of the smell and just ignore it? Just like everyone. I tried telling myself that I am not exposed to high levels for very long time but my intrusive thoughts cause me doubt. When I get anxiety attacks, I get out of breath, I hold my breath and I don't know how to breathe normally.
Kindly if you have been through this or know how I can cope with this, do let me know. I think, I hope I'm wrong, I tried everything.
Sincerely!
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OCD
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Hello. I am in a lot of pain for not being accepted at my job and being laughed at a lot. Even when they are not openly making fun of me I think they are probably talking about me because of how much I am not accepted. Has anyone else quit job because of this? I want to quit but I am afraid that my SSI wont be enough.
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aspergers
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I’ve been prescribed 30mg of Vyvanse and while there is many great positives (focusing,motivation,quietness) I have been experiencing some pretty weird side effects such as sporadic depression, anxiety, and coldness. I’ve been told that this is all normal and it is my body adjusting to the medication, so for all those on Vyvanse, how long did it take for you to fully adjust to your medication and/or have your side effects lessen?
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ADHD
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I moved during the pandemic. I was banking on meeting people in my college classes, but they are all remote and nobody else interacts more than the minimum amount they need to. I know you are *supposed* to find a hobby/activity to meet people in this kind of situation, but I know that anything I'm not 100% invested in will feel like a chore and will be painful to keep interested in and attend consistently. This is a somewhat rural area, and I'm kind of a homebody, so every activity I have seen seems off-putting. Also, there is a big demographic gap right on my age group; few people my age seem to live here. Should I try for unsolicited introductions with random classmates online? Force myself to join some club even though I know I'm going to hate it? I feel really lost and frustrated with myself. Everyone tells me to do the hobby/activity route. Is there a way to approach something like that like a normal person?
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ADHD
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I'm so fucking tired of this boring ass existence, having to maintain this shitty biological body. I'm so fucking tired of just existing and every day being the same old shit as every other day I just wanna go to sleep and not wake up again
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depression
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as much as I hate depression and being miserable all the time I sorta feel comfort in it im sorta scared going back to my old normal happy self sometimes I prefer being closed off and alone
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depression
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I'm currently doing a degree. It's a distance thing, and I've just finished a module and I needed to submit work for assessment. Naturally, this was left the the very last second while I agonize for a few weeks about what I should write/do.
Then, last minute, I just think we'll, fuck it, they get what they get. Then, just crank out any old shit, upload and hit submit.
And I see people on my uni/course facebook group near results time talking about how nervous they are, how they hope they did well etc.
And I, quite honestly, couldn't give a single shit to be honest.
I don't know if it stems from just automatically resigned to failure (even though I'm fairly smart, and I've never had bad grades at stuff, either don't even bother doing anything, or if I sling something out there I get back fairly okay grades)
I just wondered if this was common, and if it's something others experience I wonder what you perhaps think your subconscious reasoning might me.
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ADHD
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That's basically it. There are barely any good days anymore. There are days and there are bad days. If they day isn't 'bad', it's still shit, with me feeling either numb or just 'less-bad-than-some-other-times'.
If there's true happiness, it's fleeting. It's temporary. It feels *unnatural*. It's *scary*.
The crash after the bout of happiness is even worse.
Though at least, once you have crashed, you can just dwell in your misery.
It's like a pond. I'm swimming, just underwater. Sometimes, I get close enough to the surface to get a gasp of fresh air. When I do, I feel clear. For a moment. Then, I sink back down again.
Sometimes, you sink to the true depths. And that can be either very suffocating, or oddly peaceful. The darkness can be soothing. Almost like a cloak covering you on a cold day.
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My brain is weird.
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depression
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I’ve been off work for about a month now, after being diagnosed with PTSD back in April; at this point, I won’t be working for at least the remainder of the summer, but possibly much longer. The people in my close circle know the coles notes of what happened, and it’s not an issue. I struggle when I talk to people who are in that “acquaintance” category. The ones who see you aren’t working, or notice your availability has opened up a lot. They’re not people I feel inclined to share my diagnosis with, but you can only use the “oh, I just took a bit of time off” excuse for so long. I know they aren’t entitled to more than that, just curious how others are navigating that conversation. Thanks.
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ptsd
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To give a brief summary:
I've started therapy sometime last year. At that time I had some tics (both motor and vocal) that I understand now to be compulsions. There wasn't a lot of them at the time and I've actually realized I've had them for a long time, but I've always managed to keep them hidden well enough. I've stopped therapy for months now ,in agreement with my therapist, as we saw that I made some significant progress over controlling my rumination and other compulsions (thought the topic of this 'tics' was not really brought up because, again, they weren't exactly my first priority at the time, and weren't that frequent either).
Flashforward to now, a day doesn't pass that I don't experience tics; sometimes it happens even in front of other people. They varied greatly: it's not just lil screams and headjerking anymore, it's full on neck-face scratching, armshaking ,various hand movements...not to mention weird noises and other stuff.
I don't know what this means, I have no control over these, as they come up immediately and automatically after an intrusive thought. I'm torned up about calling my therapist again, because I'd have to tell my parents about this, and they... Let's just say Its really difficult to make them understand that this 'tics' expecially the self-h4rming ones aren't out of any kind of spite towards myself or voluntary for that matter.
Basically, I've tried talking to them about it before,and their reaction really discouraged me from talking about too openly about my symptoms again, I don't want them to worry.
I don't really know what I'm going through right now with these 'tics' , I just know that they're getting more frequent and I'm scared that they might get more uncontrollable, especially when I'm with friends (they don't know either) and in public.
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OCD
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Hello! I just got diagnosed with OCD but I’ve been researching OCD and seeing if I can find something similar to what I’m going through so I don’t feel like the only one. I have this fear of bathrooms/going to the bathroom. One day I went pee at my old job and I accidentally touched the toilet seat with my toilet paper as I wiped and I instantly started freaking out. I started thinking what if someone had a std and I have it now because I used the bathroom after them , then I started thinking what if there was sperm on it and I got pregnant from it. I have a boyfriend so it scared me even more because if that happened he wouldn’t believe me, so I was constantly googling if that stuff could happen and having a lot of panic attacks. This type of OCD has stayed with me, I can’t touch the locks with my bare hands because I’m scared of it having a std or having sperm on it and getting pregnant from it. I always freak out and I don’t know what I can do to help it. I know it’s like a one in a million chance it can happen but it still scares me
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OCD
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Lately, I’ve been feeling extremely off. I’m worried about having schizophrenia-spectrum disorders/psychotic disorders, personality disorders among other things. (Please note that I have been formally diagnosed with severe OCD, ADHD, and PTSD and mild situational depression. I have been thoroughly assessed several times by psychologists and psychiatrists and I see one every two weeks. I have never received an official diagnosis of any psychotic or schizophrenia-spectrum disorder, nor personality disorder every time I talk to a professional, they tell me that I’m not psychotic or experiencing a personality disorder).
I worry relentlessly about having something seriously wrong with my mind beyond OCD. There are times when I cannot convince myself that I’m not in full-blown psychosis, when psychiatrists and psychologists tell me that I’m “not the least bit schizophrenic”. I will often have intrusive thoughts like, “that sound I heard was a schizophrenic hallucination. You’re having auditory hallucinations. You are schizophrenic. Think of every possible disorder that causes hallucinations. You have all of them.”. For a majority of the time, I’m able to forget about these intrusive thoughts. Other times, especially when I’m extremely anxious or sleep deprived, I will believe I’ve lost touch with reality, that I’m doomed to a life of inpatient psychiatric care. I will beg the people around me to help me. They will generally argue that I’m much too aware and insightful to have lost grip with reality, and that my behaviour is more normal than that of most people. Still, there are times when I can’t convince myself that I’m not absolutely crazy.
Part of what contributes to this belief that I’m crazy is that I feel I have little control over my thoughts and emotions and often I will have thoughts and feeling that are inappropriate for the situation, such as feeling agitated and aggressive for no apparent reason. But at the same time, I know that my emotional response is inappropriate and that my thoughts don’t make sense and for those reasons, I never express anger towards other people or allow my agitation to show, but I fear that I will lose control and do something terrible, despite having never done so in my life. I fear that this inappropriate emotional response is a symptom of something more than what I’ve already been diagnosed with and am greatly distressed by this.
Can anyone relate? If yes, what advice would you give? Also, how do I express these issues with a professional in a reasonable manner?
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OCD
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i am a survivor of CSA. it happened while i was spending the night at a friend's house at age 8. i remembered in vivid detail what happened to me, the house, the rooms, how the lights looked. but there were parts of the weekend that were fuzzy. as i worked through therapy, i recovered some more of the memories that my brain blocked for decades. unfortunately, it was that i saw my friend being abused by the same person.
i worked on it in therapy and felt like i moved beyond it. the last two days i can't stop thinking about it. i feel guilty that i didn't do anything to stop it. i remember walking away and sitting on the stairs so i wouldn't have to continue watching. last night i looked up the house on google maps street view and stared at it for 30 minutes. it looks the same. i know which windows were in the room we were in. i tried to find any real estate listings to see if i could see the inside. but why? that place is hell to me. and here i am seeking it out.
i didn't tell anyone in my family about the CSA until a few years ago when the dr. blasey ford testimony happened in the US and i couldn't keep this inside any longer. my family was very supportive and understanding.
part of my mind knows that it is unrealistic to expect a child that was just traumatized to intervene during another trauma. what could i have done? this is just my PTSD causing the guilt, right?
edit: corrected typo
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ptsd
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So I did something stupid, as usual, I tried to die of bloodletting I think it's called? So, as I was bleeding out I started feeling weak, and I felt fatigued and I started passing out, then I woke up in a hospital, my roommate had come home apparently, and I, unfortunately, survived. He just said "Dude..." I just said "shit" lol, now I kind of feel awkward being alive. I don't like being alive. I just don't believe there's a point in my pathetic life. You know what they say! Fourth times a charm...?
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depression
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This is honestly so ridiculous, instead of doing my case study that is due soon I have been researching how to crotchet,knit and paint. I have bought knitting and crotchet needles and yarn and tried for 10 friggen minutes then gave up, then started researching how to paint.
I have an issue where when I have adulting I need to be doing I start researching for hours how to learn new things. I have spent hours researching how to use resin, sketch, start a buisness, make authentic Greek and Italian food, learn japanese, paint by numbers, diamond dots, knit, sew, scrapbook, play drums, play piano, make bouquets, learn information technology and thats literally just scratching the surface.
I feel like I get this rush from the possibility of becoming really good and something but I dont get enough out of learning. Its embarrassing being 27 and my main hobby is researching how to do things but never actually learning, so I preety much have a surface knowledge on a bunch of different things along side alot of unfinished tafe certificates and a bachelour degree that has taken me 2 years to finish the first year.
Every damn day I want to slap myself in the face because I know what I should be doing but my brain can't fathom doing it..
I dont know why I'm even posting this, Im just hoping there are other people that can relate...
I also dont mean to sound like such a downer but damn its just so frustrating that everyday its like a battle against my brain to do basic adult task and education...
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ADHD
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I'm in my last possible semester of college, I either graduate or the last six years were a complete waste. Things were going ok then I started getting massive anxiety and my doc switched my antidepressants and from Adderall to ritalin. It didn't work, I wasn't anxious anymore but I was depressed and getting work done got harder. I couldn't focus. Then there was a week ago, where I had three group projects two individual projects, two presentations worth 15% of my grade and 2 exams. I just shut down and couldn't handle it. I missed two projects and an exam. I was allowed to take the exam late but I didn't even bother asking about the two projects. I hate my brain I hate being like this. I hate that I can't even do my laundry without someone reminding me. I hate there I can't live up to my potential. I hate the strain I put on my friends and family. I hate that I can't even do little things like meal prep. I hate being a complete and total failure of a human being.
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ADHD
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He struggles after two years to write his name still, and we all agree he should be held back to help him. Is there a resource, flash cards, books, etc,. to help him? We want to avoid meds if possible because my brother and I both had negative experience with them but we understand it might be needed. Any advice is appreciated, thank you!
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ADHD
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I recently started trauma therapy. I find new memories surfacing. I am having more flashbacks. I am breaking down most days (and nights). I had to stop seeing a guy I have feelings for because leaving my house and balancing that relationship right now seems far too difficult. It feels like I am re-going through the trauma.
How have y’all handled trauma therapy? What has helped y’all gained a sense of purpose? What did you do between sessions (I have weekly ones) to maintain a a sense of self and composure? In need of any and all help/advice/support.
Thank you!
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ptsd
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I woke up at 10 am after peeing twice in my dream (that’s when you know you’ve got to go). I can only use 1/3 of the toilets in our family home because of how my OCD makes me feel. I feel contaminated every time I use the other two toilets and have to take panicked showers after using them.
I stepped out of my room to pee and my brother with his hair that goes down to his butt is in the shower in the only bathroom I can use. It’s not his fault; he doesn’t know, it’s just so inconvenient for me. I wish I didn’t have to deal with this :(
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OCD
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Cut me up
Throw me away.
Child, why wont you come out to play?
Go away.
Go away.
I'm so far from today.
She can't see.
Why he is defeating me.
Child, why don't you come out to play?
But they can't see.
That he is the one defeating me.
Go away.
Go away.
But he sticks around.
And I come to find the memories stay.
She's,
So sad.
So sad.
Too bad.
Too bad.
You left me in times of despair.
You're the ones I needed the most.
And,
You were'nt there.
Now I,
Don't care.
Don't care.
So,
Go away.
Go away.
I'm not ever coming out to play!
So, I was cut up.
And thrown away.
Because that is how I was shown love until this day.
Her heart no longer beats with vitality.
All of the emotional neglect and false hope feels like utter mortality.
She's so far from today.
From today.
I've learned the hard way.
And now I can say.
I forgive but I'll never forget.
And for you to continue to control,
I will not let.
Whatever you chose to be real,
However you feel,
However you deal,
I have to accept.
To tell myself this wasn't make believe.
To be sure you never decieve.
To face you today.
And no longer push my fears away.
Go away.
Go away.
Fear that held my captive.
Cut me up.
And threw me away.
Now it's today.
The day I can finally say.
The memories no longer taunt and tease.
I can breathe.
I'm at ease.
For I have chased fear away.
The day I am actually proud to say.
The fear didn't take my life away.
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ptsd
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iv just lost my empathy and emotions I have to over think and question every emotion because it feels like I’m faking it a year ago it’s like I was in love with this guy my feeling we’re real strong and pure now it feels like denial like I’m faking it all sometimes I don’t even feel any emotions to anything so therefore I’m afraid I won’t get into a relationship because I won’t have the boy crazy crush feeling and feel the way I did with boys before this happened iv been like this 8 months it’s been hard but got better but I just think it’s ripped apart of me away that I’ll never get back I’ll never be normal emotion me it’s like it’s ruined my life that might be abit dramatic idk
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OCD
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I've tried going to the gym to use the machines there but being in an unfamiliar environment whith loud music playing while also feeling like people are judging me gives me sensory overload and anxiety. So instead I have tried to use apps that plans a routine for you to do at home, but that doesn't work either because I feel unsure about how to do the exercises and that makes my stress and anxiety go 📈📈📈
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aspergers
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About a month ago I was badly triggered of a past trauma and I haven't been able to cry since despite the urge. I want to cry as I want to let my emotions out, but I just can't for some reason. Any suggestions?
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ptsd
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I have to blink a certain amount of times on each eye so one eyelid isn’t heavier than the other, I have to walk according to certain things on the floor. If I read, hear or see something interesting to me. I will become infatuated by it for weeks or even months at a time, this can cause my to get behind in schoolwork, and disconnect from social life. If I see a weapon or knife, a slew of thoughts about me hurting and killing someone I love or know and the image haunts me for days at a time. There are a couple of other minor things but that’s the majority of it. I’ve never been a tidy person which leads me to believe that I may not have OCD. These problems haven’t always been this big and they sometimes come and go. Do you think I have OCD and where can I find out?
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OCD
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Anyone have any recommendations for daily planners that they’ve found to be helpful? I’m really wanting a physical planner, not an app. I try to use my phone’s calendar, notes and various apps but it’s so easy to be distracted if I’m on my phone and I miss the feeling of pen to paper anyway.
I know this has been asked before but hoping I’ll get some new eyes! :)
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ADHD
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I've been doing a bit of research since I was diagnosed with OCD, I fall under the category they call harm OCD, but everywhere I look it explains harm OCD as only obsessions without compulsions.. Am I especially weak minded for giving in to the obsessions? Can everyone else stop themselves from causing harm? Or have I just researched in the wrong places.. Any advice would be appreciated
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OCD
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I'm starting to notice a trend.
A few of my friends who have POCD and have also experienced CSA.
I'm starting to wonder if this is a common thing for some victims/survivors.
[View Poll](https://www.reddit.com/poll/njm26a)
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OCD
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Hi. I’m on 20mg lexapro and I have been for like a year. It works fine for the OCD (not great, but it’s enough), but I get anxiety attacks still.
My doctor prescribed me an atypical antipsychotic at a low dosage. Seroquel 25mg. I am terrified because 1) does this mean that I am truly bonkers? Am i crazy for being put on a literal mood stabilising anti psychotic?
2) I am scared of weight gain. This drug sounds great for people with OCD at the dosage I was given, but I do not want to fuck with my metabolism. Advice?? Any guidance?
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OCD
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