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My mom has PTSD from domestic violence. Today she is doing really well because got treatment and is working hard at her recovery. After we left my dad 3 years ago (I was 15 at the time) she used to disassociate to the point where she would think I was my abusive dad and she would throw things at me. Sometimes she thought my dad was chasing her and she would run out of the house and down the street and I would have to run after her. At some point after running for a couple miles she would come to and ask where we were and what was going on. During these episodes she was totally unconscious of what she was doing and saying. She couldn’t even remember them happening. But I lived in constant fear of when her next episode would be for a long time until she got treatment. I was told this was caused by PTSD and is an extreme form of disassociation but I felt so alone at the time having no idea what was going on. I used to read tons of internet articles and library books looking for information and I never found anything to explain it. Has anyone else experienced this?
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ptsd
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Hey guys,
I have these different kind of feelings for a while: it started 4 years ago, i lost my feelings, i didn´t feel happy or sad anymore, i just lost interest in everything. I wake up and everyday i just get through the day. I go out with friends and try to have fun and stuff, but everytime i try it, it doesn´t feel right. I don´t have plans for the future, actually I can´t imagine a future where I am happy. Sometimes i have suicidal thoughts, not like " i want to end it" more like "i would´t have to go through this anymore", but it´s not like i would ever do that, because i too afraid of the death. And there is also one special thing: I don´t experience emotional things anymore. I mean you know the feeling, when something really cool happens and stays in your mind? I don´t have that anymore, I can´t remember anything in an emotional way that happened the last years. I didn´t went to the doctor, because I wasn´t able, and I also don´t know if i have depression or not, but i just wonder if somebody feels the same? Especially witht the "emotional memories"?
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depression
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This will take you a few minutes and spare me hours of overthinking. Please help.
Ive been sad for a few months now. Almost everyday. Im also exhausted, irritable, physically/mentally slowed and small tasks overwhelm me. I have mood swings quite often and one moment i feel very depressed and the next im in an impostor syndrome, thinking that im not “sad enough” to call myself depressed. But generally i move between bad mood and a really bad mood. I have good days sometimes. I can be in a good mood. Its just that the sadness took over the majority of my time I think...
The problem is, that deep down i want to be depressed. (I know it sounds stupid, hear me out) I have no idea why, but i think its either for attention, for people to put less pressure/ responsibility on me or im just scared that feeling like this is normal. If this would be depression, it would mean that real life is not supposed to be this hard and that makes me hopeful.
Am I just making this all up? Am i just acting?
I cant take the confusion anymore. Its a horrible feeling when I dont know wether Im depressed or just sad and making it all up. Im overthinking everything. I would really appreciate any help. I will answer any questions 100% honestly.
Thank you
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depression
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For those of you who dont know, metaphysical contamination ocd is a rare form of ocd defined by the sufferer avoiding objects, people, and locations contaminated by trauma. Dr. Phillipson explains further here: https://youtu.be/hft28WtxvjQ
Ive been suffering with this for about a year and a half. I struggle to interact with any objects and places that my relatives, specifically mother and grandmother, interact with. Directly interacting/speaking to them and being around them is distressing and angering. I feel utterly gross and contaminated. They are probably linked to this issue I have because they are linked to many emotionally traumatizing events through my childhood to now.
The last year and a half+ has been horrible for me. Ive dealt with so many traumatizing events/encounters (including law enforcement) that I dont even view life the same. The sun has lost its shine. Even saying the words mom and grandmom disgusts me. Anything that I touch immediately after they do I have to wash my hands afterwards.
I hate when they touch my stuff because I dont even care to use my stuff. I just bought a cup a few weeks ago which I have not used but I think one of them messed with it. I now no longer care to use the cup and wish to get rid of it. This is sad because I spent my money on something I liked and now it’s ruined just as soon as I bought it. I nearly regret buying things at this point. I should not have to because I deserve to shop like other people :(.
I currently live in my grandmother’s house. Im trying my best to find a better job and save my money to leave in late December/ early January. Until then I know Ill have to deal with this disorder that my anxiety medication does not help enough with. Does anybody else have this type of ocd and what do you all do to cope with this? How do you decontaminate things? I usually have to avoid interacting with the object or location for a long time until the “bad energy goes away”. ) Im 20F btw.
***** I forgot to include this:
Contamination for me means being reintroduced to the trauma/ absorbing the the negativity. Contamination can be through touching objects and even air borne. Being in contact with the air theyve touched contaminates my energy; its like their bad energy is left behind. If Im contaminated I worry that theyll find a way to take advantage of me or hurt me. Its like Im being contaminated with bad luck.
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OCD
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Is it possible to stop having these thoughts or is the only "cure" just to ignore them. My issues are not just weird things like having to flick the light switch the correct number of times before bed (though I do have to do things like that) but also just thoughts and obsessions which stress me out and give me anxiety. Is it possible to make these go away?
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OCD
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Just got off the line with a wonderful person who listened to everything I needed to unload and she endured it all without judgement and without any agenda besides steering me to resources and just listening.
70 minutes. This lady knows every intimate detail of my life. She was so kind. We spent the last 20 minutes cracking jokes and making each other laugh, which is why I felt the need to end the call - clearly I shouldn't hog the time of such a nice stranger, someone else probably needs her more than I do, and 70 minutes is already a lot.
So for anyone apprehensive about calling the suicide hotline, please, give it a try. They really are great people, or at least some are. It really brightened up my day. I have no illusions about what tomorrow likely holds, but it was just... it was nice. It was human. I didn't feel alone. And I needed that.
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depression
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I feel like I can’t see things clearly. Like, I can’t see things as they are in reality. I’ll literally stare at something, like “discolouration” on my body and take pictures of it. But it will literally be completely normal. But I feel like there’s something wrong so I’ll keep taking pictures or looking at it, trying to get new perspectives and different answers. I do not trust my judgement at all but at the same time I get so anxious thinking like, what if I’m wrong to not trust my judgement? What if I’ll die if I don’t get this checked out and it’s my fault for not going to the doctor? It’s the same thing with other peoples health. I’m a caregiver so i am responsible for other peoples health, which makes this tricky. Do I ask for other peoples opinions on these things? Or will they think I’m crazy for even asking cuz everything is completely normal?? Ugh
Is this an OCD symptom?
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OCD
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I (29M) have a problem that I feel is privileged and niche, but happens without fail every year. It makes me feel miserable and I don't know what to do about it. Along with autism, I also have ADHD and I feel like this may be part of the reason I have these issues.
I have worked as an assistant manager at a small company for about 5 years. While I can't say I love what I do, I can't complain because it's better than most things I'm qualified for, helps people, has a good atmosphere, pays OK, and has a bunch of benefits. One of those benefits is vacation time. The company uses a system where you accrue a certain amount of vacation hours each month, with the amount increasing every year you are with the company. Obviously when I started, I didn't have a ton. Now that I've been here 5 years though, I roughly end up being able to take a week's vacation every four months.
Which should be great! I'm thankful I have that opportunity.
But it also makes me feel guilty on a number of levels. First, I work on a very small team (2 other people) that I feel bad with inconveniencing with a "long" vacation (my boss often uses all her days on her children and medical emergencies, my coworker doesn't have as much time off as I do). No one ever gives me a hard time about it (in fact they encourage me to take time off regularly), but I still feel guilty that I am leaving them short staffed.
Second, whenever I have one of these week vacations coming up, I often end up having anxiety attacks and my thoughts become much more negative. People start asking me if I'm looking forward to my vacation, and the answer without fail is No (but obviously I can't say that). What is supposed to be "fun" and "relaxing" ends up being an awful slog because I know I'm supposed to rest and enjoy myself, or at the very least get productive stuff or errands done, but I never seem to be able to. My theory as to why is that is is that I need a lot of structure in my life to get things done, and for me, work is structure. But once that is taken away, I feel aimless and drifting and don't know what to do with myself.
My best friend has suggested that maybe I should consider going away for vacation, or at least on some day trips (as that is what other people do). But I find the whole idea of going somewhere by myself really overwhelming and depressing. The other suggestion is that I relax at home, which is impossible thanks to the fact I live with my family (four other people). My mom, who I don't have a good relationship with, is home 24/7 and being around her makes me just want to stay in my room all day.
So this week, on my vacation, I have a dentist appointment and am taking my car in for maintenance. Along with what I imagine will be a lot of lying in bed depressed.
Now, if someone were telling me this, I would tell them to try and practice self care or do little things like go get takeout you normally wouldn't get. I would say something like "There is no right way to have a vacation, and you're letting other people's and society's expectations influence you too much." Which I understand. But I still feel bad and I don't know why I keep having this strange problem.
**TLDR, taking a vacation makes me feel worse than not taking a vacation, and I don't know why. Any advice?**
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aspergers
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I don’t think anything has really changed. Same medications, same diet for the most part, same physical activeness, emotionally feeling the same. Not much has changed at all yet I feel so different.
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I explained to my dad, explained to my mom, and today to my sister about OCD. I know I'm either doing a poor job by the way they react or it's the culture.
My dad didn't say much about it because I think he just wanted to support me even though he seemed to not understand saying everyone has those thoughts and will go away with time (mild reaction).
My mom said maybe it's my subconscious trying to get attention cus even if I said no I don't want attention she'd say maybe I can't even realize or something. She compared it to depression and that I could get it to stop if I have enough will(I agree partially on this) but ended up just accepting and supporting but I don't think she truly understands or accepts it fully (medium reaction).
My sister started supportive but then spiraled down lol admitted she couldn't understand ocd and why I have breakdowns because of it, it's all in my head and in latin america we just suck it up. She said if she sees me having a breakdown she will really feel like slapping me out of it lol and she wasn't kidding,she admitted it could be the latino culture. She did almost tear up at times(she doesn't cry easily) so I think she's feeling helpless and worried. (Aggressive/helpless reaction)
Anyone who's hispanic or even any other culture having issues like this 😭 I'm too afraid to ask them to read articles about it but it's looking like it will be necessary.
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Intrusive thoughts have driven me to a point where I question my worth as a person every day. I want to see a therapist, but options are limited where I live. I feel like a horrible person; I can convince myself sometimes that I'm not but the feeling never really goes away. I'm at a point where I don't see a way out; I'm not sure what to do.
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Having a hard time saying this to anybody so there it is!
A week off of meds..not by choice. At first I comforted myself into seeing it as a good thing. I have control! I won’t take meds. I’m fine. Wow it’s nice to be able to sleep again! I must have really been tired. Built up fatigue really adds up huh! Whhhhew
6 days later I am almost crying at Starbucks as I can’t easily put a pen lid on a pen. It feels like being at the optometrist when images are mirrored until the focus is clear again. Except I don’t have meds so the metaphor ends there. Everything is a blur
I feel grief stricken and alone. I am
I am building a roadmap to wellness
1) look for a new doc on x website
2) ask my dentist for a referral to his brother who is a psych (why do people offer things that are so important casually. Don’t say things u don’t mean)
3) request med records from the hospital psych who has yet to share my “discharge” letter with me or my shite former GP; this info could help me find an alternative to Vyvanse which is currently not available in Mexico where I am visiting for another month
…I have no clean laundry at home. Forgot my laptop in the states on my way here last month. I have been kicked out of the coding boot camp I started last month. Dropping out of another part time upskilling program via ghosting. Have no appetite. Have 100 hot wheels to my name but no job or household appliances for my new ish apartment. Feel miserable and unproductive
All of this because the medical system and the people in it failed me on purpose. By design. I’m heartbroken and it’s sincerely too overwhelming to be present in that grief so. Aside from reading your comments I will just carry on with my shopping addiction to pass the time untill well
Oh and my parent died this week
And my taxes got ducked up and I have to follow up on some admin work to resolve that
And. I fear becoming homeless again soon. And the holidays spent alone again soon and :))))))
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My PTSD manifests usually through dreams in which my abuser/cousin pops up and fucks with me the whole time. Sometimes he's just following me, other times he pins me down and tells me to calm down. I categorize these dreams by how unpleasant they are, usually in the marginally better ones I can at least beat the crap out of him but he's still there regardless.
They've been more frequent since I've cut off his family. His sister pretty much baited me into talking about why I've been avoiding him for the past 5-6 years (to clarify, I didn't know if she knew anything at all about the situation he put me in) and pretended to be super supportive until I got one word in, and then she started gaslighting me for "excluding" her brother. Their mom also began to stir the pot by talking shit about me to relatives, so I blocked them. They even started *kind of* menacing me by texting me that I need to be careful.
So now the whole family is in my dreams... Great. I'm getting pretty tired of the same type of nightmare over and over. When I first had the gusto to smack him with a chair (in a dream of course) it felt somewhat therapeutic, but no matter what I'm able to do, how lucid I am, it's unnerving and frustrating. It would be nice if I went back to having dumb "nightmares" about bees or whatnot like I used to, or normal things.
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Hi guys, I (21F) caused a really bad argument with my best friend (21M) because my OCD was so bad today. I was really triggered by seeing recent friends I lost (also due to health and OCD related things), and I was so anxious I couldn’t even stop my mind racing and bringing my mood down. I was emotional and needy. We tried to watch a show but I was so concerned he was upset with me (he was tapping his leg and on his phone) and I asked him at least 8 times if he was okay and another 8 times if he was mad at me. I don’t mean to be annoying. I know I am. I just couldn’t stop it. I didn’t want him to get angry so I always think if I ask it will be okay. But it made him angry and he said I was making him feel like a bad person, like he did something to make me feel that way. He ended up saying I needed to chill and just relax, and that he has stuff to do and needed to leave. Then he left as I was crying because I felt I messed up, but was still so dreadfully anxious and feeling like a horrible person.
What can I do here? How can I communicate my OCD? I recently had to switch therapists but I don’t see my new therapist until Friday.
In the meantime, how do you communicate your OCD? Specifically ROCD and maybe also PTSD (I have a lot of fear from bullying and verbal abuse). How do I save my relationships from going south when I get anxious? I don’t mean to be the way I am, I just can’t not compulse sometimes when it gets bad — even with major improvement prior to this.
Thanks guys!!
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OCD
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Adhd sucks, brain fog is the worst. Legit sometimes a friend says to me: 1+1=2 and ill just not understand and then forget what the equation was.
The other day I need to drive to a friends house, drove to my work instead which is 30 minutes opposite direction of my friends.
Trash day, i have six small trash cans around my house. I always forget to take one out or I forget its even trash day in the first place.
Morning routines suck. I forget something literally every day at my house. From brushing my teeth to bringing my backpack to college. (I made a list of stuff i need to do in the morning and I follow it everyday)
Im on 40 mg of vyvanse, gonna see if adderall er helps more. I take vyvanse at 9 am, it peaks at noon and then at 5 pm i am just brain dead again. I have a regular sleep schedule and healthy diet so idk.
This was my little vent because if i explained this to my mom its always “you just don’t care enough about stuff thats why” or “you have add not adhd thats why!”.
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ADHD
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My twin died by suicide using an illegally obtained firearm. Anything related to gun violence makes me angry and upset. I can't stop reading tweets and stories about the shootings.
I'm going to take a break from the internet today.
Sending loving kindness to others having troubles with the news coming from America
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ptsd
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Once my medicine kicks in I’m always in bed looking for something I can do. I usually make lists on my phone, organize my photos, go on Pinterest and add to Pinterest boards, delete people off my Snapchat friends list, find diy projects (and usually don’t do them), stuff like that that makes me feel “productive.” I used to be able to sit and clean my room for hours but I don’t have the motivation for that anymore so I just do smaller things. I also like doing art and making crafts but when projects are too big I just abandon them. Does anyone have any ideas of things I could do? It could be on my phone, it could be art or crafts related, diy, organizing, anything. Feel free to give as many ideas as possible because I’m stuck right now.
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ADHD
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hey so i got this tocd thing a few months ago but it went away after i found out it was just ocd and felt reassured and lived peacefully for about 2 months then the thoughts came back and they won’t go away.
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OCD
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Long story short my family is a bit toxic. I'm pretty positive my dad has ADHD but he never followed up on my advice to get any kind of mental health treatment. Mom insists I'm just stupid because I have no street smarts and she had me tested 3 times when I was little and all the evaluations were inconclusive. She was told by one to use positive reinforcement then another told her positive reinforcement would make me lazy. You can guess who's advice she followed.
It is very tiring to be consistently discounted and teared down. The final straw was my bf (has ADHD too) coming over for the holidays and hearing how my parents treat me. He said it was very apparent that they don't respect me. My dad tried to even entertain him by repeatedly insulting me right in front of him in a sarcastic Bill Maher type of tone. It really cut deep and my boyfriend knew that, *but my dad was only joking and he can't help that I take things so personally*.
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ADHD
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I tend to have a mini panic attack when I pass a cop car or in front of one. I'd go so far as to say I hate it. I appreciate good law enforcement and I don't hate THEM but I hate the feelings they typically give me based on my own "trauma"
As a white guy its almost disrespectful for me to consider tickets as traumatic incidents when people of color have FAR more traumatic experiences to talk about.
To my point, my record is pretty clean. Ive gotten tickets for speeding, illegal turn, lapsed registration and was let go after a DUI stop (the scariest incident) They were all justified but those experiences of being fearful of getting tickets I couldn't afford, insurance being sky high, living with parents at the time I was deathly afraid of them finding out have really stuck with me. The association people have with law enforcement doesn't help either. I never know what type of cop I will run into so when they are riding my ass I get panicky worrying if I'm speeding, worried if everything is up to date, worried that the person will frame me for something, worried if I make a move I might make this person afraid for their life. Etc.
I mean no disrespect to law enforcement. I'm thankful for all the good ones that keep us safe and everything but cops never pulled me over to give me a briefcase of money or anyhting
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ADHD
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Hi all. I have primary diagnosis of CPTSD from childhood shock and relational trauma repeated from ages 5-12. As a result I’ve developed many underlying fears of death, dying and coped by having hyper vigilance/arousal, anxiety, fears of abandonment and need to be near others - especially romantic or sexual partners.
In my mid-30s a traumatic few months of being stalked brought out panic attacks, despair, impending doom and a constant perseverance on parents dying, growing old alone and having no one - as well as a meta-fear that these invasive worries will never cease thus preventing me from having a happy life and being present. I know these are constant flashbacks/dissociations.
I emailed Janina Fisher and began working with a skilled therapist she recommended. It’s been helpful but not enough - yet.
My doctor suggested Wellbutrin or Lexapro and I’ve been on 3 days of Lexapro at 5mg (I hate the side effects and can’t imagine going up though I know these should subside in a week or two).
Questions:
1. Has anyone experienced these similar trauma responses/states of being and processed them and got past them?
2. Has anyone used medication temporarily (6-12 mos) and been able to week off and live a happy life?
Thank you 🙏
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ptsd
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i have covid since like a week, and i need to stay inside until im fully ok and all that, but this has led to a huge decline in my mental health and ocd has been killing me lately, i highly think a part of my sickness is caused by intense anxiety that i get from ocd. Yesterday i spent the whole fucking day just ruminating and obsessing, today i started my day with obsessing and ruminating on a thought that im sure 100% its intrusive. I am tired, I AM TIRED. i dont know how much should i fucking yell and cry and beat myself to feel better, i cant take this anymroe i seriously cant deal with this anymore, nothing is working and i dont feel there is any other way out of this hell other than killing my self which is something i highly want to, like i fantasize about making my fucking stupid brain explode, or returning to binge drinking and smoking. I seriusly dont know what to do now, live with ocd or drown myself in alcohol until i get cancer or something and die
i cant take it anymore
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OCD
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I'm currently unmedicated for ADHD. My therapist is helping me a lot to try to organize everything so I can fix that. She's been working with me on getting in touch with a psychiatrist to manage my meds. It is, you know. Going a bit slow. It took a few weeks of telling her every week I would get to finding a psychiatrist *this* week before I finally found and emailed one. Now I'm on week... three or four of needing to get back to that psychiatrist with my insurance, photos of my ID, and a photo of my Covid vaccination card. I finally got around to the ID today and insurance card, but now I need to find my proof of name change certificate and Covid vaccine card. They're downstairs somewhere. So, you know. All that unmedicated and at a low mental health point FUN that ADHD likes to bring to the table.
So while all this is going on - some back story. I went to a psychiatric crisis center a several months ago and was prescribed with an anti-depressant. IT WORKED. It has helped SO MUCH (not enough to eliminate my depression completely, but enough to eliminate the Big D, Can't-Get-Out-Of-Bed-Or-Be-Interested-In-Anything Depression). Only problem? That prescriber could only give me so many refills. So, you guessed it. I'm out now.
Withdrawal symptoms from anti-depressants are fun. ALSO they will be enough to motivate me to find my Covid card and name change certificate as well as call the crisis psychiatrist and see if he can prescribe one more refill while I'm waiting on my new psychiatrist to set me up an appointment. I will get to that all tomorrow because the brain pings are... well, they're as motivating as addiction (I guess... that's what they are?) in terms of making me get off my ass. Nothing like the consequences of your own actions to remind you to get shit done.
Anyway. Long post. Just... venting. Because it sucks. I hate the brain zaps. I hate the migraine. I hate everything, and there's nothing to do but get through the night, get everything sorted tomorrow, and hope to ALL THAT IS HOLY that I can get my hands on my anti-depressant tomorrow or Thursday. Just. This shit sucks. I hate ADHD with a fiery passion.
That is all. I could really use some sympathy and understanding.
Thanks.
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ADHD
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Before I continue, if you are sensitive to topics like rape, I'd suggest not reading this. So, for context, I have tiktok. Tbh, I'm definitely not the target demographic (I am 24 and a female). But I sometimes like to post stuff, primarily me staring at the screen and putting a bunch of text on it with some trending sound. So, recently, I posted something along the lines of me not comprehending having sex sober. Well, people in the comments arrived at their own conclusions and labelled that as rape. So in my ocd fucked mind, I thought that meant they were calling me a rapist. In the past, when I've had sex, both my partner and I were under the influence. But since I didn't specify that, now I'm afraid someone is gonna find my (now) deleted tiktok and I won't be able to move forward with my life in terms of a successful career. All in all, I think I'm doomed.
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OCD
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TL:DR: I think that my (severe and worsening) poor memory/executive dysfunction issues that are counted as a side effect of my MDD/GAD are actually undiagnosed ADHD. I'd like to hear your thoughts, and also ask if ADHD meds could hurt my anxiety relief. Yes I'll talk to my doctor next appointment.
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Hi everyone,
I've been on treatment for MDD and GAD since around 2016. MDD was --pretty sure-- the result of an abusive relationship I went through in my twenties. My anxiety started after high school and stems half from my mom's side of the family, but also because I was always on high alert at home, it wasn't an emotionally safe place.
My depression these days is luckily well under control, since my life has turned 180 degrees and I'm in a safe environment. My anxiety is also doing better, but I still have issues with concentration and memory.
Now... my psychiatrist feels my concentration issues and working memory problems come from my anxiety, which makes sense, as you can't pay attention if your mind is thinking about 100 other things, past and future, at the same time, so you don't forget it, or get it done, or w.e.. Along with my meds I'm encouraged to meditate to try to center myself. I've also read that after depression goes into remission, the cognitive issues tend to linger.
But here's the thing, my stressors are less and less nowadays and the issue just gets worse. Sometimes I get really upset because I feel I have early dementia or something. Processing speed, severe short-term memory issues (I can't finish sentences, I think of something and as soon as I grab the phone from my pocket to write it down I already forgot it), executive disfunction issues. I scare myself, ofc I start thinking next thing is just getting diagnosed with Alzheimer's in 10 years, lie down, try not to cry, cry a lot.jpeg
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I want to (though I worry I'll sound like a hypochondriac..) tell him I'm pretty sure I'm in the undiagnosed club, that I've had this since I was a kid but my anxiety masked a lot of the symptoms. I'm losing my mind, which causes more anxiety, and so on. My main concern is, if the meds are stimulants, is it gonna make my anxiety pains worse? Like if I had too much caffeine, or a Red Bull? Anyone can share some thoughts? Experiences? Anything? This thing has me in a bad spot lately.
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Thanks everyone
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ADHD
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I have several characters that I have an autistic or other neurodivergent headcanon for. These are all characters that, so far as I know, are never explicitly diagnosed with ASD or another neurodivergence, but some of these I have reasoning for and others just "feel right". I'm curious if anyone else may have elaboration on these or would like to share their own autistic or other neurodivergent headcanon.
\-Geralt of Rivia (The Witcher): ASD
\-Sherlock Holmes (Elementary and BBC Sherlock): ASD and possible/probable ADHD
\-Prince Zuko (Avatar: the Last Airbender): ASD
\-Jason Todd (DC Comics): ASD
\-Naruto Uzimaki (Naruto): ADHD (barely even a headcanon) and possible ASD
\-Rock Lee (Naruto): ASD
\-Spock (Star Trek): ASD
\-Castiel (Supernatural): ASD
\-Michael Westen (Burn Notice): ASD and PTSD
\-Raymond Holt (Brooklyn 99): ASD
\-Tina, Gene, Louise, and Bob Belcher (Bob's Burgers): ASD
\-Linda Belcher (Bob's Burgers): ADHD
\-Sterling Archer (Archer): ASD
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\*These are just a few I could think of, I would love to see what everyone else thinks.
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I'm having the problem of needing medicated, but my weight is too low. I'm currently at 86 pounds, being 5'7". Normally i am 115 pounds. I lost 30 some pounds in about 9 months. Its part of what pushed me to see a doc and a mental health provider.
My mental health doctor won't presribe me any medication at all until i get my weight up. But i can't do it. I have had the same eating habits all my life. I eat the same handful of things and can't stomach anything else. Nothing changed in my eating habits this year.
Type 2 diabetes runs in my family pretty heavily. And now im experiencing this problem where my blood sugar keeps dropping down to the low 60s.
I'm 38 now and went my whole life until this month not knowing why i was so "different". And i WANT to eat better. I actually eat a good bit. But its the same few things over and over. Pizza, fries, spaghetti, toaster strudels, pb and j, lunchmeat, and tacos sometimes. Horrible diet actually. No variation. I do take a multivitamin and this month i added some extra biotin to the multi bc my hairs falling out.
But I've never gained weight from it. And in fact i lost 30 pounds eating these very foods all year. I had a ton of labwork done last week and everything came back normal except my blood sugar.
I'm afraid I'm going to hurt myself with my eating habits and my blood sugar being what it is. But I'm unable to even make myself eat anything else. Is that familiar with ADHD? Or maybe a separate eating disorder? I'm brand new to all these problems I'm having, so i don't know much. I need more advice than what my docs giving. My next appointment with my regular doc is over a week away and I've called twice with questions and was told to go to the ER because I'm having low blood sugar symptoms.
Also to be clear, i do NOT want to lose weight. I feel like i look TERRIBLE like this. So i don't mean an eating disorder like anorexia. I just feel like my unwillingness to eat anything else than the "norm" isn't normal. And i don't know what to do.
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I hate how lonely PTSD is. I don't know about you guys, but I don't have a whole lot of a support system besides maybe family and a therapist (that I don't see that often due to scheduling), but even then it can be kind of iffy. I also have such a hard time trusting people and have made the mistake of telling the wrong people what I've been through and them using it against me or using it to make themselves look like a "savior" (if that makes sense) (Ex: them saying: "I would never treat you like that. I want to beat up the guys who did that to you", but then they treat you the same way and also praise how good they are). It just makes the PTSD spike and trust issues go up even more. I guess this is sort of a vent and also an asking for advice post. How do you find good support systems or hold out until you can? How do you deal with the flashbacks and the anger and loneliness in helpful ways?
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So I'm still learning and trying to cope with my intrusive thoughts but whenever i go about my daily life i might have read a book or perhaps drew something earlier, completely normal right?
A few weeks pass by or months and my mind immediately somehow makes me doubt whether i did something bad or disturbing and i somehow give in and i try to remember and remember what i did that day and even if i recall everything i still doubt and the uncertainty is there just growing
Is that still ocd? Or is that something else?
I go by hours and maybe days trying to think on what i did exactly
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OCD
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In my head, ADHD feels like playing Street Fighter II (OG arcade machine) where it's me vs. player 2
Quarters have already been put in and i'm being rushed to choose a player, having trouble deciding until i'm forced to pick one last minute. Now I feel obligated to play so I can avoid the guilt and shame of backing out.
Starting game and not knowing what the hell i'm doing so I just start hitting all of the buttons as fast as I can while moving the joystick furiously, cramping up both hands. Knowing i've damn well played the game before but as soon as the game starts I forget what the moves are.
All while people are watching and yelling at me saying "you're doing it wrong!' or "Use this move instead! Hurry you're dying!" and shouting wrong advice and me blindly taking it, leading to CONSTANT ASS WHOOPINGS and an endless cycle of Hadoukens and KO's.
AND to add more chaos, the machine sound system is blaring the loud music and sound effects and you have no way of controlling the volume and all you want to do is just reach behind and unplug the damn thing.
I can never fully articulate and express what it feels like. But this feels about right. Am I alone in this orrr..
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I have this thing where if I don’t hear/comprehend the exact words someone says I obsessively think about it and think something horrible will happen if I don’t find out. This leads to people getting annoyed with me asking them to repeat themselves all the time.
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Bit of background. I live in the UK, I’m 42, married with two kids. My marriage has had its ups and downs, and at the moment we’re not in a good place, although working on it with a therapist. This therapist has questioned whether I might have Aspergers. She is not the first person to suggest this, although I have never looked into it — but I think I owe it to myself and to my wife to find out for sure, as this might shed some light into some of the issues we have as a couple. So, I want to find out, but not sure how to fo it. I have tried googling “Aspergers test”, but all I get are small tests that feel like a personality quiz from a magazine, and don’t give me much confidence.
I will be very grateful for any advice you can give me. Thanks!
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aspergers
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I ran the dryer without the lint trap and a trash bag that was on top of the dryer got partly stuck where the lint trap should go. I pulled it out and it seems to be in tact. I cleaned the lint trap and put it back. I’m freaking out cause I’m afraid I caused a future fire hazard. What if tiny pieces of the trash bag got stuck in the dryer vent?
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Help…. I am dying on the inside here is my situation, or what has happened I have had OCD my entire life. I had my first serious gf at 15 of course ocd would not let that happen, I then suffered from now come to realize it as HOCD. I turned suicidal for 3 years and went on struggling mom took me to some therapy but it didn’t help much but provide reassurance. At 19 I tried something thinking it would make it go away it feels like a huge backfire on my life. If this shit never would have started then I would just be “fine” I regret my decision to actually try something I feel shame guilt and disgusting my body was screaming no no no. I am a fucking train wreck now my OCD thrives on “what women will think of you when they find out about your past” this shit is eating me alive it’s caused me massive distress trauma and simple misery. I don’t know how to cope anymore or what the hell to even say or do. I feel ashamed and horrible about my past I am 35 now. I wish I had gotten the help I needed growing up it should have never gotten to this point. God help me please….
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OCD
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İ always Fear for things like dying from infections and doing harm to others. When i ride my bicycle, my brain always tell me that i kicked a person and they hit their head on the ground and died because of me, so i always check back and there isnt anybody in the scene. Usually i take video recording of the scene to make sure that i checked correct. İt also happens when i pass near wells or holes, always thinking about “did i push someone there” And stuff like that. Sometimes I get so scared that I check in dumpsters to see if there is anybody there because my mind always tells me that I killed someone and threw him or her in the dumpster, as I’m sure I didn’t do anything I am thinking about, I always check because I just want that relief of being sure. Same with the car tours. Sometimes I return from 5 - 10 km to the scene my brain said I hit someone. Always checked, nothing related to anything my brain says. İ also fear animals that arent home pets. İ usually think that i will contain rabies if i touch an animal. Once i got so scared from a dog that scratched my leg while he was playing with me, I got insane for 7 days, went from hospital to hospital to get a rabies vaccine. They told me that I was becoming psychologicly ill. After 3 hospitals a doctor accepted my vaccination request. She suggested me to go to an psychiatrist, I already did . I have a fear of bats. Even the thought of it makes me thinking about containing rabies. How can I overcome my harm and contamination ocd? I am really tired of this anxiety and it is wearing me down everyday.
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OCD
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Hello! My name is Oliver. I have been diagnosed with OCD for some time now. I am just curious if other’s with OCD share my similar experiences; I love plans. I love having my week planned out in advance, but when somebody breaks those plans, or they happen to change, my anxiety goes crazy, to the point where I may even have a panic attack. Is this a personal matter or something perhaps related to OCD?
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OCD
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Every single day when I get out of the shower, I take out my contacts/take off my glasses and do my thing. When I get out, I sit on my bed with a towel for around an hour, then when I get up, I am dizzy/ have a headache because I still haven’t put my glasses on/contacts in. Does this happen to anyone else?
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Recently put on Vyvanse after first diagnosis at 39 years old. What an incredible difference. I can barely stop working now. It's absolutely brilliant. Confidence rising, productivity tripled, anxiety falling.
But man, I have never wanted to put assholes in their place so badly.
I'm a kind-hearted person, I always have been. I have never been in a fight in my life because I've always avoided it. But I genuinely dislike when someone is hurtful to another without prompting, when they could so easily be helpful or just walk away easily enough.
Now, I *want* to argue, but it's out of emotion as much as conviction. I'm so ready to tear assholes a new asshole. I want to get in their face and completely blow them out intellectually and morally. It feels powerful and good.
I'm not sure I like this side of me. Anyone else experience this? How did you handle?
Edit: Thanks so much everyone for a really positive, diverse set of responses. You have given me a ton to think about as I get familiar with my new “powers.”
Huge update: My friends, I have to share with you the a-ha! moment that came out of this post and your responses to it, particularly u/robotsexsymbol's comment. Retrospectively, my experience of the above was illustrative of feeling real anger combined with real power for the first time in my life (I am ADD non-hyperactive and have very low mental energy by default, so I simply do not have the mental energy for confrontation).
I was so positively struck by your comments as they began to describe both sides of my internal experience of the aggressive feeling, which were basically "Be careful, that can do much more harm than good." and "Good! Sometimes you need to stand up for yourself and others." -Both sides are correct.- And for me, here's what was missing, or rather, dormant: my mind's situational calculator for which one is appropriate in each situation.
Before now, -everything- that angered me made me feet that the latter sentiment was the correct one. That I could and should react to all personal and empathic injustices. And why not? It felt good when I did it. And I should stand up for myself, right? Eh, about 50%.
If ADHD treatments activate the executive inhibitory mechanism of the mind, then you all have been my treatment for the -emotional- inhibitory mechanism. I realize that I have never felt anger and power at the same time. Never. And for my low mental energy profile, stimulants are a very good fit. Now I realize that there is an entirely new dimension of self-control that I will need to learn with a stimulant regimen, and it's one of emotional inhibition, one that I have never had to use, because my kind nature kept me from exposure to anger, and power has simply never been a thing for me, until recently.
So thank you to everyone in this thread, and particularly u/robotsexsymbol (thanks, Bender!) for the comment that legitimately activated a doormant part of my own mind. I read every single comment. So glad you're all out there.
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Hi this is gonna be a long text but I really can't take it anymore.
Summr vacation I saw a tiktok that said "you're gay". That same day I watched a movie with an attractive acress (im a 15 year old female btw) Then the thouhts hit me " am I gay?". The next days I found all women on tiktok attractive so yeah it didnt get better. School started and I realized I had a crush on a boy. All the distress was gone, Later hen the crush as over someone else asked me to be his gf but I said no, still no distress.
But then, my friends started talking about doing spin the bottle on a party, and immediately I was scared that I would enjoy kissing one of my friends (they are girls). All the thoughts came back, and I was afraid again " am I gay? Do I like one of my friends?"
But after a month it as better. I even met my now best friend ( a boy). Everyone in class says we loo like a couple haha.
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But now it is worse again. I got the thoughts again and they are worse then ever. I first just got thoughts that I have to come out. Now I ot a mental image about me kissing a girl I know is on my school and with who I text on snap.n Immedially I was afraid that I like her or have a crush on her ( still am) And now aain every girl in my school is attractive again, even tho I never thought of them that way before all his. Im afraid im Bi now, and im afraid that I dont have that much distress anymore, im afraid that im accepting [it.Im](https://it.Im) afraid that I would be relieved when I come out.
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I jus want to be the girl again from 4 to 5 months ago... The having a crush on a boy while being on vacation, who is happily straight girl.
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my mind also says that "you're calm now, must mean that you have accepted you are bi"
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I get thoughts that I have to come out, and my mind makes scenarios of me doin, and im afraid of my parents and my bes male friend their reaction. Is this also hocd cause I read somewhere that peple with hocd aren't afraid of reactions from others. I hope someone replies.
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Also im not homophobic, I have alo of gay and bi friends who I think are amazing...
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I'm not sure if I typed the whole story but this is a big part of it I think.
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Please help.
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yesterday my ind constantly said that I had to say o my mom that I think im bi. Like 1 to 2 hours long, It was so disstressing.
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I struggle so bad to make myself do anything and my mom yells at me daily because of it. It’s gotten worse as I’ve gotten more depressed. But even on good days I can’t get myself to do much of anything. My therapist a few days ago basically just acted like she didn’t believe me when I told her I struggle to motivate myself and she acted like she thought I was lazy. My whole life everyone has told me I’m lazy and now I just feel so worthless. I don’t know why I’m like this and I wish I wasn’t this way because I hate myself so much.
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I was suffering from an OCD wave about false memories that relate to real events and it has been hellish since this started. There was this colleague that I felt conflicted about and shortly after, I realised I just liked him as a friend. One time we ordered lunch and he told to come and eat at his disk. I sat but thought the distance was too close and thoughts rushed through my head that what if I'm cheating what if I might do something inappropriate but I battled my thoughts and said I'll hold my ground and I want nothing and mean nothing bad and just setting close to someone doesn't mean shit and we are with a group so nothing to worry about. I just wanted to prove to myself that I could handle this. Then my colleague just stepped back and I figured maybe we were really too close and I didn't make the right choice. I never thought about the event after that nor ruminated about it. This event repeated itself with all my male colleagues and I approached it the same way. But my thoughts tell me(about 7 months later) that I'm a bad person who's a cheater. Anyways, I had to do some self-reflection and I realised the following things happened in my childhood: As a child, I used to hear voices that would tell me to harm myself or that everyone is waiting for the perfect chance to get rid of me or that I've done something wrong that might lead to ruining all my loved ones future. One time, my family wanted to go shopping and I refused to go because I felt anxious (don't remember about what). After they left, I started to hear voices in my head that told me that they won't come back and that they have been planning to leave me and this was their perfect opportunity. I tried to calm myself. Turned on my favourite cartoon but I started pacing back and forth talking to them in my head. They kept telling me that the house will be lit on fire and I'll burn with no way to escape and kept insisting that I should scream for help. I ran to the balcony and kept screaming but then when people on the street noticed I quickly hid thinking I might get in trouble. I was about 10 years old at the time and it shocks me that I always thought that I had minor issues. Many similar events happened to me throughout my life but I was always careful that people won't know or notice. I used have religious OCD as well. Hearing voices in my head cursing god, telling me I'm no good. I had to confess these thoughts to my mother to ease the feelings of anguish. I used to curve into a ball and cry on the bathroom floor and keep repeating 'not true' to these voices. I did request that my family take me to get therapy when I was about 14 because I figured I had a problem and maybe being molested many times as a child has contributed to this constant sense of guilt and shame and these voices who keep telling that I'm bad. But my parents dismissed it and made fun of me. I used to harm myself in my private areas and breasts (still). I used to get these sudden urges and intrusive thoughts. With time as I grew up, I thought that I've got rid of my monsters, but it appears to me that I just repress memories and pretend to be fine until I it rushes in and I'm back in the dark. Now I find it very difficult to seek help. I'm afraid I'll be judged and ridiculed. I'm also scared of getting a diagnosis that involves pyschosis. I don't think I'll be able to handle that.
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He's referring me out to a psychiatrist. But let me tell you, I got a burst of energy from doing that. Is that normal? Just going to the doctor about it and telling a professional instead of posting in these forums is making me feel sooooo good. Did anyone else feel like this? I feel like it's one step toward figuring out what's wrong with me. Yay
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Why can't I find anyone to date. I am turning 23 in 2 weeks and I have never had a girlfriend or anything close to it. I am too shy to ask any girl out on a date in person and I have never done it before so i have no clue what to do.
And when I have tried online dating, I am either to nice with the girl or not interesting enough, but I mean how else are you suppose to start a conversation on tinder other than "how is it going". So girls ended up ghosting me, and I stop getting anymore likes which gets me depressed and delete the app only to go back to it few months after.
On top of that, I have really have no friends or friends group, all I have is acquaintances, whom I considered friends, but recently realized that although I considered them friends, they don't really considered me as their friends. I am always the one reaching out to them. I can go months without being in touch with them, and unless I reach out to them, they never reach out to me (this has happened countless of times).
I am finishing my last year of college and I have no motivation for school or anything, I am stress about finding a job, I apply to jobs and never hear back from them. In general this does not really bother me, but being an immigrant, I have to find a job by graduation or would have to leave the country. And grad school is not an option for me because my grades are shit and I don't think I have the mental strength or motivation to do anymore schooling. Not to brag, but I actually think that I am pretty smart if I apply myself even just a little, but the past 3 years have been a mental shit for me, and don't even put 20% of my effort into anything.
I live off campus in a house with some other college student (I don't know them), and they have all gone to friends or family for thanksgiving, so I have been home alone. And the only souls I saw the past 3 days have been the cashier at the local store. I have never been too much into porn, but the past 3 weeks have been so bad, to the point that I watch porn like 3 or 4 times a week and this has really fuck up my sleep schedule.
Life really really sucks right now (or the past 3 years), and I don't even think that things will be better in the future. Things are just gonna get worse and worse. And I don't know what to do. And no I am not suicidal , I just don't feel the need to do anything and I am afraid this is gonna fuck up my future but I can;t seem to know what to do about it. I am just looking to make some friend on here and have someone to talk to.
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Something popped up as an ad when I was watching something else and now I’m convincing myself I’m a monster for seeing it. Trying not to give into my compulsion by confessing what I saw to my mom. Very hard but I really want to try to get through this without doing the compulsion. Wanted to share this here so I’m more likely to stick to my goal.
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OCD
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I’ve had sleep paralysis pretty consistently since I was about 11 years old. I’ve always thought it’s probably because my sleeping schedule has been whack since I was a small child, but lately I’ve been wondering if it’s an adhd thing? Anyone else?
TL;DR
Is there a link between frequent sleep paralysis and ADHD?
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ADHD
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Like when you show someone your hobby that you have spent years fixating on and they either don't care/ don't like it. It just feels like such a punch in the gut because it's like they don't care/like a big part of you, and you can't describe how much it hurts without seeming like a bad person. I never feel like I want to open up to anyone because I'm afraid of the consequences
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aspergers
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This is probably a dumb question, I’m not sober right now. Sorry. I’m going to keep the text as correct as I can.
I’be self medicated with alcohol over a periods of a few years sporadically. Sometimes very intense, sometimes periods of abstinence.
I’ve also been afraid of psych meds for frying my brain, especially now as I am about 3 concussions in. One of those being a more serious TBI that i am probably going to live with the rest of my life. And first hand observed horror story experiences of benzos and heavy anti-depressants.
But alcohol suppresses all the nervous system symptoms that I feel inhibit me the most in my daily life.
Is there anything I can get for “anxiety” or just nervous system activation that is similar to the way alcohol suppresses those things? Specifically without the cognitive affects as alcohol…
Doesnt have to be a legal psych med.
Kratom works kind of, but too much and it gives me a false saccharine euphoric feeling that I don’t like.
I just want something that turns down the hyper vigilance without fuckin up my train of thought or making me feel not sober.
Can meditation really provide that for me?
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ptsd
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I have motor tics sometimes, well not sometimes anymore, but it used to be just when I got stressed and I’d have a little “twitch” that’s what I used to call them, but now it’s just all the time- I feel them coming seconds before they happen, earlier I was laying in bed and I couldn’t stop. It’s frustrating me, it makes me angry that I have these tics I wanna stop but I can’t. Does anyone else here experience this?
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aspergers
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I was diagnosed with ADHD combined subtype (and dyslexia if that helps) but im starting to question my diagnosis. Basically im very inattentive and I lose everything around me. I stim a lot, and I never concentrate in class. I also can't sit still in lectures. So it makes sense how I got this diagnosis. But I also feel like my social skills are a lot more impaired than my fellow ADHDers. I don't know how to conduct myself around other people. What I say to my friends are the same things I say at work. I also make a lot of repetitive noises which is controllable to a degree but the urges are still there. I really don't know what's up. If you're had similar thoughts or similar experiences, comment down below.
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ADHD
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Hey so I just got to my first duty station and Iv been here for about 6 months. Anyways I came in with prior depression treatment and now it’s getting bad….I don’t know what to do. I love my job but I’m so scared to tell them I need help. Like grippy socks help. Do you have any advice?
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depression
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Hey all.
Tdlr: big rant ahead. Some weird issues of elvanse 20mg really unsure if it works. Physically disabled so no good metric to see if it is working like work, study of house cleaning. Day 1 and 2 more happy, energy, focus and better conversations with major crashes of fatigue 6 hours later, day 3 is today and nothing has happened, feel tired with teeny bit of anxiety.
Backstory: I was diagnosed last week at the lovely old age of 33. A lifetime of therapy and trauma and no one bothered to see how my actual childhood was until the Internet made me realise why depression meds did absolutely nothing for me in my past. Alas the root cause is clearly ADHD, I've never had so many realisations in quick succession followed by a major break down because of missed opportunity or impulses making me drink to oblivion and end up with trauma (no guesses what happened there) or move in with abusive people without thinking it through and people pleasing . Failed business, attempted a degree 4 times, being clever enough to get 95% in first assessments and then it tailing off to failure. I have comorbid social and general anxiety, clinical depression and ptsd. Likely all results of unreated adhd. I am also physically disabled from chronic illness, which theories show likely a result of high stress in childhood and adverse events, constant stress and low self esteem.... body just sort of stops working. Although I do think there's some underlying autoimmune issue still being investigated, like my mum. So auto immune from mum, adhd probably from estranged father and the mess I am today is a result. Cheers fam! 😭😂
Psych gave me non stimulant meds first and they made me really sick, like in bed all day wanting to be sick. He then immediately stopped me on them and gave me elvanse (vyanse 20mg). I honestly didn't know what go expect, as I cannot work and don't study so didn't have a clear metric on how to know of it is working, like I cant run around and clean the house physically for example. Day 1 had a tingly in my brain sensation, felt a little hyper like super energy, but when you have chronic fatigue and inattentive type adhd it probably feels like a buzz to feel that way. It felt a little hyper but definitely more focused. About 5 or 6 hours after it ran out and i went back to tired.
Day 2- still a teeny hyper feeling and energy wide awake feeling. But actually got dressed , came down stairs and although a small task, took my bug hotel that has been sat in my kitchen unopened for 3 months and 9ut it outside. It isnt the task but it was the lack of chatter telling me to "why bother, just do it later " it didn't exist. I just did it. Had family visit and I had full conversations without distraction in my head, or tangent thoughts. My partner who is also my carer noticed that I would acknowledge him properly when I was looking at my phone, normally I'd be hyperfocused and know he is there, can here words but cannot fathom the words or pull myself away from what I was looking at. Then 5 or 6 hours later a major major crash, mid convo with family, I just felt soooo tired and drained immediately. Suddenly I was distracted but times 100, could not concentrate and looking at my phone then thinking so many things except what was being said. I rested a bit and had a little boost feeling after that but not a big enough boost to motivate, then normal tiredness.
Day 3- today. Really little has happened. I had a terrible night sleep, and have a pain day today. Sitting in sofa resting. Took meds and 3 hours later, really wouldn't notice. Maybe had a slight inner hyper feeling, more akin to a teeny bit of anxiety. Still tired. I don't have as much chatter maybe but it definitely isn't quiet. No energy, no motivation. Can barely get through a youtube video without boredom. Writing this and thinking, omg these people are going to think im stupid or that I don't have adhd, like imposter syndrome, I suppose. Im not sure what to do. Second med and it has stopped working on day 3? Did it even work at all as it should? Do I even have adhd even though I'm diagnosed, because the elvanse gave me energy ( i read if it makes you energy hyper, you don't have adhd, but it made me a little happier day 1 and 2, and more anxiety hyper feelings).
Help me.. so sorry for the big rant, im just so lost 😞
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ADHD
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I used to feel quite insecure about never being in a relationship when I was around 21, but approaching 30, I realised that although I was insecure about how I compared to others, I never actually desired a relationship/sex/romance for any other reason. Now the insecurity has gone, I have little to no desire for relationships or sex. I don't feel empty or lonely without it. To each their own, but I just don't care. I have other goals and desires in my life and I think a relationship would just get in the way of that.
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aspergers
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Honestly I don't know how long I can keep up with this.
its getting so exhausting and I keep thinking about the night I drove home after my college class. that was the longest hour and a half making sure I didn't hit any animal or person.
I've even convince myself that I heard something hit the car even though there is absolutely no evidence of me hitting anyone.
I've gone days and nights looking at the local news to see if there were any injures or accidents. I even called the local police department but didn't give them the exact streets because I was familiar with the area.
i started medication so I know it won't fully start working.
I just feel hopeless because of my mind saying "what if you actually did hurt someone?" and I start feeling like a bad and dangerous person that deserves the worst
I've stopped driving overall because of that day
im so exhausted, I just want to be in peace
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OCD
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Any foods or drinks that are best for ADHD? Any foods or drinks that you should avoid if you have ADHD? Are there any vitamins or nutrients that are absolutely important for ADHD? Also I can't think of anything else to say, so I'm putting this sentence here so that the post is at least 300 characters.
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ADHD
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I keep a narrow mind all the damn time and I want to combat it. A good example is when I’m introduced to a game I never played before. Usually when I play that said game I feel the sensation I’m being forced. I don’t know where the hell I developed this emotion. It’s probably from my late childhood. One philosophy I have used to combat it is to fake it till I make it. I want to fight this mess a step further, but I don’t know what to do. What are ways I can combat this mindset? I would love to hear everyone’s thoughts.
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aspergers
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This is the first time that I have throughly divulged any information about my mental state to anybody. I’m not sure that it’s a topic that those close to me are really capable of comprehending (not any fault of theirs, I just suspect that my case is rather odd and unusual, but I could be in error.)
I recently turned 18 close to the exit of 2020, with college and the next phase of my life eager to contest me. I exhibit a wealth of OCD-like symptoms, and while I can’t conclusively assert that I suffer from the illness, though the symptoms do mirror that of the disorder (or, at least I believe they do) Often, my mind is locked in a constant battle with my own intrusive
thoughts, most of which are wrought with irrational doubts levied at my personal moral and philosophical beliefs, but what plagues me the most is an obsession that I have developed centered around intelligence, learning, and scholarship. I fear that if I don’t possess an unshakeable control of these concepts that I will be unable to achieve my personal goals (the most cherished of which is my dream of becoming a fantasy novelist).
What cultivated this obsession was a growing fear (or perhaps, suspicion) that my cognitive potential was not sufficient enough for me to even function as an adult. I would spend hours pondering my past mistakes and comparing myself to my fellow students in my mind. Soon, I began to compulsively analyze my behavior during basic daily and academic activities, searching for any scrap of evidence that could invalidate my worries. On a few particularly irritating days, I took several online IQ assessments late into the night (even while being aware of their inaccuracy). The severity of the obsessions only swelled with time, eventually reaching a point where if I were to make a trivial error at either school or work, there was a decent chance that the incident would send me whirling into a despondent episode that could last for several days.
Everyone in my life believes that I am reasonably intelligent, but I feel like I am deceiving them, that if they were to bear witness to my obscure self, they would shun me and promptly remove me from their lives. I feel so unprepared for my future. As I stated previously, I yearn to become a novelist or to enter the science field, but my nerves and instructive thoughts prohibit any real personal improvement. I will finally feel as though I am scaling the slick walls of my own mental abyss, the fresh air of freedom on my breath, and then a small mistake will restart the cycle again.
I haven’t really delved into my belief-associated intrusive thoughts, but they do also occupy my brain and lead to squandered time.
I just thought I would share the details of my experience both to relieve some of the accumulating stress and to know if anyone else has had similar manifestations of the disorder.
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OCD
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So I’ve just gotten out of a year long ocd cycle and my brain is trying to make sense of not being anxious and traumatized by my intrusive thoughts and compulsions anymore, which for some reason is causing me some minor generalized anxiety. Has anyone ever experienced this?
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This happened about 4/5 hours ago now. And sorry for the rant because this has really pissed me off.
They said they would refer us back to our local dr and we both laughed because they genuinely don’t give a shit and have fobbed my wife off many times. Even to the point of giving her medication she didn’t ask for and didn’t want and won’t take it off her repeat.
This man sat there and had the audacity while my wife was crying asking for help to say that going out and exercising and eating healthy will be better for her right now until she sees a therapist about her ptsd.
Mf I rushed her down to our nearest clinic because she sat next to me bawling her eyes out and begged me let her die. I’ve hidden all her normal pain meds incase she overdosed. I’ve hidden knives so she can’t cut herself.
One dr (who was so fucking nice and felt like he would go to the moon and back to help us) said we will give you X and X medicine right now and if it helps we will continue until I see you again but now there is another dr taking over and is coming for a home visit. They’re called the crisis team and their dr works for a psyc ward here anyway but we have no idea what he’s like.
I swear some people only think you’re after the drugs. Have you ever asked the drs and they’ve looked at you in the way that you’re just wanting to get high? These cunts did earlier. The people before today where lovely and helped us anyway they could but today even I was ready to tell them to get the fuck out because they where so condescending.
She wants to die, I am stopping this. They want her to go for a jolly down the road and back every day and when she feels suicidal to just stop thinking about it and go back outside or eat some healthy food. Fucking unbelievable man. Yes getting out might help her with the slump she’s in but all she can think about is taking her own fucking like **YOU FUCKING CLOWNS** man if they didn’t help before and didn’t have actual nice people on their team I would’ve kicked them out within 5 mins. They’ve given her 15 diazepam and said she can have 2 a day with 1 more if needed. And the appointment is next Friday and they want to see diazepam left over because when she was given some previous she used it to help sleep in the night also with panic attacks on top of what she was having dosed
Anyway that’s my rant over. I could go for more but fuck these people. It’s no wonder people kill themselves or buy prescription pills off of dealers online because they think you’re after that and that’s it not knowing that taking that drug helps you get on with your day 20% better than previously
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I had to do a paper on the English physicist Sir Isaac Newton, and after going through his personal life and his childhood, I'm getting a hunch that he might've been autistic.
Has anyone else noticed or is it just me?
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aspergers
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I feel overwhelmed even thought I don’t even have much on my plate. I just always feel so behind and lost. I have been on antidepressants for a while but i don’t even know if they are working
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depression
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What accommodations have you found are helpful to be successful in and out of the classroom?
I’m 27 and starting in person college in January. I failed miserably in high school, tried four different schools before I finally just got my GED. I’ve tried going to college several times; Online, in person, trade school and never lasted longer than six months.
I finally have decided to try again so that I can give myself and my son a life we both deserve, which will (hopefully) help provide some motivation.
I’ve been talking to my psychiatrist, therapist and disability services, and they want me to come up with what accommodations I may need
If anyone also has any tips on going to college as a single parent with adhd, that would be really helpful as well!
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Let me, for the purposes of reaching the arbitrary 300-character minimum, phrase this in rather a round-about fashion:
Are you, fellow r/ADHD subscribers, also finding the Holiday Season to be somewhat of a struggle? It would be marvellous if we were to share our experiences in this online message board thread, so that we might better support one another emotionally!
Warmest regards,
u/meejle
💖
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I ve always found the engagement, choices and power you get in games to be awfully calming although i ve never been able to get into some of the more "aspie" games like Paradox stuff/KSP/Rimword/Factorio and im not entirely sure why. If you have a history with them, id love to hear your experience, as well as any experience that made a big impact on you.
On the other hand i felt an inhuman connection to the way some books are written(mostly hard sci fi) without liking other books from the same author. Do you suffer from the same or you can confidently list favorite authors? Do list important works to you either way!!
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I hate myself. I and myself…like two different people in my brain. I hate myself so much I want to die sometimes. I hate myself so much that it’s like my heart is sinking into my stomach when I do something wrong.
Today I found out self hate is a coping mechanism. I can’t cope with the things I can’t change about myself. Usually stemming from being disapproved of as a child. The one phrase that keeps ringing in my ears is that there are things I HAVE TO BE! I disapprove of who I really am.
There are two people in my head trying to kill each other. One dude is pressuring me all the damn time and the other one just wants to be left the fuck alone.
Why? Why is this guy always on my ass about who I am? He thinks he’s going to make my life better but he’s almost driven me to suicide. He’s killing me. And he is me….
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It feels kind of validating to finally know that the days I could not get up to work or study was not because I was lazy or stupid.
I'm a working law student and it's been a hard couple of weeks mentally, which eventually caused me to get medical attention because I got scared when... when the thoughts started to get darker. And now I'm here, diagnosed and starting to take meds.
Now that I know what I'm facing, I just want to know if people could share how you guys cope with living with depression? Or any tips you could give me to keep fighting through down moments/down days?
Right now, I'm really just having a hard time doing anything productive and just keep sleeping to not feel the things I feel when I'm awake. I am taking a week off of school and work but I'm afraid I won't be able to handle things when I get back.
Anyways, that's it. Thank you so much in advance.
Much love to everyone.
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sometimes i will be sitting with my friends and i will get an intrusive thought telling me
that i should say extremely offensive/hurtful things to them. then i will start feeling a very strong and overwhelming urge to do so. of course i would never do it and i feel so guilty that this happens. i can’t stop thinking about it. i get worried that i would do it. it’s not something i have ever wanted to do and i would rather do anything else.
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I often feel inadequate, and that it’s just a matter of time until everyone will realise that. I don’t know how to stop feeling like that. I don’t even think I am capable of achieving anything, and this lingering thought sucks. I really want to end up satisfied with how I lived or what I have contributed, but these feelings that I am dreaming of things so out of my reach hinders my overall motivation. I feel like I have to put in double the effort anyone would just to be on the same level.
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I hate where I live but I can't leave because my parents refuse to move and I won't survive on my own. And have to rely on others for transportation. I feel completely lost and every time I ask someone for help nothing comes of it. I always feel the same or worse after it. Plus I kind of doubt that moving anywhere would make a difference because there is always something getting in my way. Living sucks and is just one disappointment after another.
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aspergers
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Does anyone know how to stop feeling guilty for the things you’ve done? I feel like I can’t develop serious relationships anymore because of the immense guilt I feel. Does anyone know how to get rid of or at least lessen these feelings?
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OCD
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Who do you talk to about your fears that's able to calm you down?
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OCD
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I take 20mg of Vyvanse and 80mg of Stratera and can’t stop sweating! It isn’t just my armpits but my entire face and body. I am a larger woman (I am working on this!) and currently 5’4” and around 250lbs. My face regularly has become rosey and drenched in sweat! I look like I’ve worked out at the gym, so it isn’t really great currently. I’ve always run hot temperature wise but the really odd part is that I am sweating but have ice cold hands!
Has anyone ever dealt with this and do you have any advice?? I am new to combo therapy with Stratera, and am surprised at the difference! Fairly certain the Vyvanse is to blame as I was a week without the script and just restarted after a week off and only Stratera.
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Hello all! I have found this sub to be super supportive to the posters and I’m hoping I can bother you all for some ideas.
I started a new job a couple of months ago and I love it! I’m good at it and I have gotten a lot of positive feedback BUT……
My job consists of:
• answering and making calls with detailed notes • scheduling meetings for my boss • data entry/updating in 2 programs • creating one main list from 4 separate lists - current clients, new clients, updated clients and unreachable clients.
Let me preface the rest with - there was no one to train me on this. I am being compensated appropriately for that and my boss is awesome - BUT, he also has adhd and while that helps in a lot of ways, it adds a level of difficulty.
I can do all of this and somehow manage to get it done well. But my anxiety is through the roof because my call notes are in a notebook with no rhyme or reason, I have to double check EVERYTHING because I can’t track what I’m doing efficiently and i am used to using my phone for keeping everything in my personal life on track.
What I need: Ideas for paper or computer based organization and task tracking (my phone is too small to use efficiently for this, I only use it to make appts in a shared calendar) something that can be color coded like excel, but NOT excel because I haven’t had time to become proficient with it and I need something that’s more intuitive for me.
I’m willing to buy something but I don’t want to put $100s of dollars into it. I’d prefer it be available on multiple devices OR be paper I can take along.
I’ve considered - multiple notebooks? A program/app - but which one? 🤷🏻♀️ A work planner - but I can’t find one that has enough space to do all of this.
*important to Keep in mind that I write things down because it’s faster and I can input them later since it’s not sensitive info.
I thought a bullet journal would help. But it’s not the right tool for this.
I would be so grateful for any suggestions. I’m thinking there has to be some great ideas here from people who think similar to the way I do.
Please ask questions if you need more info - I’m more than happy to answer!
Thank you all in advance!
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I have really bad ocd and everything has to be clean. If not I feel legitimately sick to my stomach. We just bought a brand new futon mattress, and my cat peed all over it....like ALL over it. It soaked through and there were three puddles on the floor (some kind of fake wood/laminate flooring). We are getting rid of the futon despite spending 250+ on it, which is sickening but I cannot handle knowing there is cat pee inside of it, and I would absolutely never sit on it and would feel sick if anyone did, so I have no choice. Now I'm panicking because the urine spots on the floor might have soaked through and are now under the floorboards and the urine might never truly be gone. I feel so sick and I truly do not know what to do, I am absolutely paralyzed. Please help.
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I am diagnosed OCD, however I haven't been diagnosed with ADHD yet. Despite being female, as a child I was pretty much textbook hyperactive (couldn't sit still, constantly socializing, never paying attention in class, impulsive, constantly in trouble with teachers) and I'm pretty sure the school recommended I get tested but of course my parents just swept it under the rug. As I've aged I think I still have ADHD symptoms but I don't find myself to be as disabled by it (for lack of better terms?) as others seem to be. This has left me feeling kind of alien because while I do think I have it and it does impact my life (and am working towards getting a diagnosis) I feel as though I'm 'not suffering enough to have ADHD'.
I'm wondering if this is because of my OCD having a sort of 'counter' effect. For example, I used to be notorious for forgetting keys to my work, driving 40 minutes there and then realizing I forgot them. But then I got obsessive about checking for the keys before I leave the house. I wouldn't say this checking behaviour is at all out of hand, but I haven't forgotten my keys once because of it. And this happens with other things too obviously, the OCD almost seems to counteract the potential ADHD. I'm wondering if anyone else can weigh in on this?
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It’s not like I’m trying to loose weight or anything. I just forget to eat. Like I’ll be in my room or whatever and suddenly it’s almost noon and I haven’t eaten anything. I’ve been having blood sugar issues for a while. Mostly it’s too low. I’ve been drinking protein/meal replacement shakes to help and they have been helping but I still need to eat. I guess I just get too absorbed in whatever I’m doing to remember to eat.
At meals, I get such small portions too. Sometime I don’t even finish my food. Even if I have the smallest amount on my plate. It’s gotten my family to be concerned about me. My sister accused me of being bulimic for a while. And I’m pretty sure that my parents are worried about me being anorexic. I’m not purposely trying not to eat. I’ve always been really skinny and underweight. It’s frustrating when I feel sick because I’m not eating and my mom asks me if I hate myself. Like no. I just forgot to eat.
Anyways, is this normal. I am diagnosed with ADD, I’m not on medication for it. Every one I’ve tried have had awful side affects. So I’m not gonna try more for a while. Anyways, is forgetting to eat something caused by ADD? If so, any non-medicated advice?
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1. Feel intense anxiety about the weight of the decision you have to make. It will completely change your future.
2. Begin to research the possible choices. Realize that there are a near infinite amount of choices (for example: I could move literally anywhere in the USA, or even elsewhere).
3. Panic about how you are possibly supposed to pick the right choice from so many possibilities.
4. Give up out of frustration after failing to identify the single correct choice. Repeat steps 1-4 for 6 months.
5. With 24 hours remaining to make your decision, choose the one most convenient to stumble into without any real thought or consideration.
Congratulations, you have now spent 6 months worrying about a decision and only actually spent 5 minutes making your final decision
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So apparently now people are coming forward finding me giving me false hope and then breaking my heart.like why even bother. Am I a sport to you. It veryuch seems so.
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depression
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Like most of the time. I have a roommate, he's a bit high maintenance, self-centered and uppity, but overall a good person. He's trying to build a relationship, but i just don't want to socialize with him. This lack of desire to socialize is something that's happened since i was a kid. Quite often, i find myself trying to avoid people. I don't want to be rude, but i only want to socialize once every like 4 month with people.
How do y'all navigate this?
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aspergers
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I can't write with a pen and paper without my OCD telling me the smallest of mistakes. I have no choice but to stick with writing on my laptop because with a laptop, I can just undo the mistake I made with no problems, but with writing with a pen? Nah. I make a mistake, my OCD will haunt me until I find a way to correct my mistake, which is hard because you can't just easily erase pen ink. I absolutely hate it, I want to write on paper with a pen but I can't thanks to my OCD.
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I don't know where to start. On September 23rd 2021 I contemplated suicide in the back of my car. I'm a 28 year old man who's been living in his car for the most part of 3 months. Why? Because my ex was an abusive alcoholic and raged at me one night in her apartment. Me being brown skinned and her being white, I was scared of the outcome if the cops were called. So I just took the beating and left without struggle. Now I'm living at a truck stop, eating out everyday. A part of me doesn't care that I sleep in my car because I've fantasized about Van lifing since I was 16. Just pictured me being prepared and not being kicked out so abruptly. Yes, I still have my job... They don't know my situation, not like they'd care, but I continue to work this job because it gives me time to play my video games for 8 hours to find some sort of peace and escape, that's been the saving grace for me. They pay only 480 a week. Recently I started visiting with my mom on my off days every week, and with her knowing my situation, she's been begging me to live with her and start over. Thing is she lives in a small town population is around 2-3k. I've worked in that city before and the jobs aren't in abundance and I don't want to commute 45 minutes to the nearest considerable job. I don't really have friends, nor a girlfriend so I feel alone almost every night. The friends I do have don't know about this. I'm depressed all the time because I feel like I should have some grip on life at 28 years old. I didn't have it extremely rough growing up, I had everything I needed or wanted. I went to college and I've worked for the state. What am I doing wrong? Am I wrong for not wanting to go back to living with my mom and finding some crappy job and start over? I just feel a sense of I'm a grown man and I can do it myself, but I'm fading guys... Fast.
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I was having such a good time going to school and the whole routine of everything. I am on break for 17 days and I already am having a hard time.
I feel like there is way too much time in a day. This morning I woke up read a book for a few hours and than played a couple video games. By the time the afternoon roles around I tried going for a nap which I usually don't have the chance for.
I just feel detached from everything I do where I do these things but its like I am just trying to fill the time and don't actually enjoy anything. I spent two whole hours frozen in place feeling depressed and numb at the same time.
I finally seem to have gotten out of those feelings by going for a walk but I am so tired of feeling this way. Even when I have to finish my day at school I don't look forward to going home.
No idea why I mentioned this here other than seeing if anyone else has similar feelings.
I get more than enough sleep between 8 and 10 hours. Yet I have very little energy most of the time. I honestly think I am crazy at times because its not like a constant thing but I'll have these awful days that are so crippling.
Struggling with addiction over the last five years did not help my ability to regulate emotions and deal with these things. Having been clean for almost two years I would have thought that I wouldn't feel as detached and as if I don't enjoy things.
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Hi. Just joined. I fucking hate this disorder. So much. it has stolen everything from me. I hate that I am STILL battling my most ingrained compulsions and obsessions, 17+ years into it. Fuck. That's all. Thanks for having me.
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OCD
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My englisch could be a little bad but i want to share my best day in a Long Time with you.
Today i was able to clean my whole Flat. It
was really necessary bc i hadn‘t cleanded in about 3 Months.
It felt so good to had my Flat real clean again.
I felt such a huge gain of Energy by cleaning that i went to a Club with my Friends. We had massive fun and partied all Night Long! It was brilliant and i wish all of you are able to gain the same amount of Energy ❤️
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I'm 20/M/USA. I just started junior year. Everywhere I go I see people with friends, with large groups, in relationships etc. But I have absolutely zero friends or even acquaintances, nobody to talk to.
I've tried to make conversation with people in my classes before the lecture starts, but they quickly indicate they aren't interested - they don't seem as enthusiastic as the other strangers chatting away and making friends. Their responses aren't as "helpful" to keep the conversation going, they're looking for an out.
I guess they see me as offputting in some way. Nobody's said it to my face, and my therapists say I seem normal.
I am just at a complete loss on how to build a social life. I'm cripplingly lonely and I'm trying to change that, but nothing I do works.
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I’m going to turn 20 very soon, and I am not looking forward to it. I was diagnosed by a therapist when I was 18, but only got my official diagnosis late last year. I live under my mom’s roof and rely on her financially, even though I’m desperately (and surprisingly quickly) working my way out from under her thumb.
Sadly, she’s never really accepted me, and the parts of me she does “accept” took years of therapy to do so. She claims to love and accept me for who I am, but I know it’s all surface-level bullshit. I know she spent my childhood praying that I’d be miraculously made normal (I have Cystic Fibrosis and Pulmonary Atresia, on top of AS, so even if I wasn’t autistic I’d still be very different). She desperately tried to force me to be a “girly girl” like her, even though I hated getting my nails done and my hair cut. I also hated dresses and clothes that were too thin and/or too tight. I still hate those things, but I like my own style, and most people like it too. Later, as a teen (especially around the time I was scheduling my autism diagnosis appointment), my mom got even angrier about it. Now, she is pretty openly resentful, going as far as to say she “resents” my autism and CF, and says she wishes I was normal so I could’ve had an “easier” life.
Well, tough shit. I wish I was normal too. But, I’m doing God-damn well for someone like me. I’m physically extremely healthy thanks to modern medicine. Mentally, I’m doing pretty well too, especially since my anti-anxiety meds kicked in. I’ve proven, over and over, to be a capable human being. I can drive, go to college, cook, stay home alone for nights in a row, take care of my dogs, take care of myself, take care of the house, make friends. All that good stuff. In the grand scheme of things, I am extremely blessed.
Sure, I was bullied in school a lot, to the point I had to switch schools almost every year to run away from my bullies. I also struggled academically, and mostly had to teach myself at home because I didn’t understand how the teacher was teaching most of the time. Of course, my CF flared up from time to time as well.
But, I’m still here, alive and well. I survived a pandemic unscathed (which, I and my small group of neurodiverse friends say my autistic tendencies definitely helped keep me safe during this last year, as I don’t care for crowded places and am a bit of a clean freak). I survived gradeschool and graduated with decent grades. I got over my driving anxiety and got my driver’s license soon after I graduated high school. I am thrilled about attending college soon, even if I just end up taking one or two classes at first. Overall, life is pretty good.
But, misery loves company, and my mom (who is a very busy real estate agent) refuses to stop giving me shit for the smallest things, and won’t even say a simple “thank you” if I do something nice for her or for others. I’ve been stuck with her for most of the pandemic, and now that I’m fully vaccinated, I’m planning on staying with my grandparents for a month or two to get away from her.
My grandpa recently suffered a heart attack, and is now at home resting for awhile. I made him and my grandma heart healthy oatmeal cookies earlier today (which, I have never done before as I’m not a big fan of cookies, but I managed to make a batch of delicious sugar-and-flour free oatmeal cookies using stevia and peanut butter), and plan on delivering the cookies to them in the next day or two. My unappreciative mom saw me trying out one of the cookies after they were done baking to make sure it tasted good, and almost slapped the thing out of my hand saying, “Don’t eat grandpa’s cookies!”, then she scolded me for “making a mess” in the kitchen.
I was really close to throwing my hands in the air and telling her to “fuck off!”, but I’m not a confrontational person at all. I’m also super emotionally sensitive, which is a main reason why I don’t like big crowds. I can feel others’ emotions very strongly, and as hard as I try to remain stoic, I still am influenced by what others are feeling.
So, I just sent a text to my grandparents asking when I should come over with the cookies and if I can stay with them for awhile (they said yes and to come over soon!), as well as a text to my therapist to see if she could talk some sense into my mom. I can’t and won’t put up with her shit forever, and as much as she guilt trips me by saying she saved my life numerous times, I am still planning on going very low contact with her once college starts.
One of my older aspie friends (he’s in his 60’s) told me it’s pretty common for mothers of autistic teens/college students to especially struggle. It’s already hard for mothers of NT kids to let them become adults. I’m sure me being her daughter only exacerbates the situation. But, on the bright side, my aspie friend said his relationship with his mom healed after he went away to college and only called/answered calls once or twice per year from the time he was a freshman till he got his doctorate.
Hopefully, my relationship with my mom can heal in a similar way. I love my mom, just like I love my dad. But, I don’t want to be treated like a dog all the damn time!
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I usually have a pretty good hold on my trauma but being at home instead of in my college town has been extremely triggering for me. I've been here for around 2 weeks which is the longest amount of time I've been home since going to college in 2017.
How do you cope with feeling trapped in a place where all of the terrible things that have happened to you took place? I just had a horrible flashback and took down all of my childhood art in my bedroom so that it wouldn't trigger any more of those memories. Any other advice would be much appreciated.
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I’ve (20F) started seeing a counsellor at my university and due to my prolonged problems she suggested I consult with a doctor on campus about going on antidepressants. She even went as far as booking the appointment with me. I’ll go, but I’m scared. I’m scared that they’ll tell me I’m eligible to take them and I’m scared about the idea of taking them, but I’m also scared that nothing else is working and that I’ll never get better. I don’t think I want to take them, but I also don’t know what else I’m supposed to do. Any guidance would be appreciated.
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depression
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I've been feeling quite tense and sore and want to get a massage after Xmas. I've never had one!
I feel like I would feel awkward and dunno what to expect. Afraid of falling asleep or on the contrary - being too stressed to fully relax.
Could any of you who has experience with this talk me through the process? Lol
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aspergers
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Hey I've been struggling lately and when I'm not depressed I'm super anxious. I'm finding it hard to leave the house for anything. Just the thought of leaving makes me want to throw up. It's getting kind of concerning that I'm legitimately scared to leave the house. I'm not sure why it's gotten this bad, but I'm not really sure what to do. I'm scared that this is how people become agoraphobic. I know I'm probably just being paranoid, but I hate feeling like this. Any advice?
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depression
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Hey! First time poster here from Sydney, Australia.
Just wanted to share that I’ve been taking Strattera (Lilly brand) for a couple of years and have always had an issue with the taste - it makes me gag and I have to hold my breath while taking it and eat as much as possible after swallowing so as to not get any Strattera burp (the absolute worst).
This week I found out my pharmacy can order a generic Sandoz brand (of my current 80mg dosage, not sure about others) version for a slightly lower price. I’ve been taking it for a few days and there is ZERO taste. I can’t believe it! I wish I was onto this before. I will never change back after this revelation.
Letting you know in case it’s available to you and you have similar gripes with the Lilly version!
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ADHD
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Does anyone else have trust issues regarding men or dating in general? I've had a string of bad encounters this week and feel very alone. I find making friends and being social difficult, but dating for me has been particularly awful and I can count the guys I trust on one hand. I'm in my thirties and a straight woman in case you need some background.
I just feel very alone today and I almost want to cry.
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ptsd
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I am so tired of this. I feel terrible and just so bad. Idk what to do anymore. Nothing seems to help. I try therapy and different methods, but they just lead to nowhere. He keeps coming back and I can’t keep running from him. This is becoming too hard and all I want to do is feel better. Nobody seems to understand. I’m so tired of understanding everyone, but never being understood. I’m not thinking of committing suicide or anything. I’m just not sure what to do anymore.
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ptsd
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Sorry if this has already been asked. I'm in my early 20s and I have a lot of trouble dating. It's not just social communication that's the problem. It's everything involving dating apps, the only place I know of to meet people. Sorry if this is a controversial post, I need to vent. Also I'm bisexual but lean more towards men.
The types of people on the apps are completely different from me. Their interests and personalities never overlap with me. They care about wealth and everyone seems plasticky, with the guys wearing tons of makeup, driving expensive cars, and having abs (which I don't find attractive). I haven't seen girls much on apps but if men are this concerned with appearance then why would women be any easier to date?
I'm pretty decent looking and in shape, but that doesn't matter because my conversational skills are bad. I've gone to so many classes to fix them, it does nothing. I haven't tried bars and clubs because I have no idea how to do that and I can't handle the noise/atmosphere. If I want to date a guy, how do I do it? Just walk into a bar and ask someone? I don't know what to do. To make it worse, I have no friends to go with. I don't know where to go to meet people, I've gone to so many events and meetings, but I'm bad with social interaction.
I've tried everything with this besides just giving up, which I'm tempted to do. I could focus on something I enjoy rather than wasting my time trying to find someone when no one like me exists. If you're in a relationship, how do you do it? Do you have advice? I could try going to a bar but I would struggle a lot there because of overstimulation. I can't do it at my college because I have 0 social skills. I'm out of ideas.
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aspergers
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Since I was a kid I've had OCD, and I was always anxious about the future. When I was about 12 years old I had severe OCD, mainly checking, counting things and ordening things. I was treated for that with CBT and the symptoms were almost over. Fast forward to now, I'm 31 years old and at this moment I have very bad OCD about being alone. I can barely be by myself because I get intrusive thoughts that I will always be alone, lose everyone in my life and end up with nothing. Every time these thoughts come to my mind and make me very anxious, I can barely do my work and I'm losing the people in my life because I can't relax. Every second of every day I'm thinking about this. The only thing that really helps is sleeping. Is this OCD and what would be a good treatment? I'm already using clomipramine which should be the best drug against OCD. Does anyone know other medications or therapies that have helped you?
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OCD
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Shouldn’t his psychologist explain the new studies around high functioning autism and told him he shouldn’t say Asperger (stigma also attached to the name).
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aspergers
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So basically I’m having a hard time because my mind is convincing me that I’m gay.
So I struggle with false memories and stuff like that not only do I have hocd but I have harm ocd and schizophrenia ocd.
But my head has latched onto a memory that I am sure didn’t happen. I’m fully sure it didn’t happen and that I never did this gay thing but now my mind has edited the evidence and changed it to something else. The thing is though I know I never did this thing but I still have the guilt of doing it so I can’t let go of it and my heads just making me think it happened another way
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OCD
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I think I just lost my job. And I’m in school. Which is kind of nice because I don’t have time for school if I’m working vice versa. But I won’t have enough money to pay for tuition next semester. I feel like Im re-emerging into an all time low. I don’t even have motivation to play video games anymore.
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depression
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I guess this type of question gets asked a lot, I hope you guys don't mind... TLDR: how do you follow through on a [jewellery making] hobby?
Okay, so here I go again. A new 'hobby' that I've not even tried yet, and I've just spent around £100 on beginner supplies...
I've bought polymer clay, resin, moulds, fixings, flowers, glitter, tools and materials... But I've never even tried it before.
I love jewellery, I buy a lot of it, and have a loads of time on my hands (not that that makes a difference, eyeroll). So, I thought I'd make my own.
Now, half the stuff has arrived I have a terrible feeling I just will not get around to doing anything with it.
Like, should I return it all? I think I'd just buy it AGAIN in a few months.
There is literally SO much I *could* make, but I'm overwhelmed with ideas. Also, I've started getting way ahead of myself thinking that I could start selling things one day 🙄🙄
Any tips on getting started/staying with it? I'm feeling stupid right now.
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ADHD
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I recently got a hold of my medical records for other reasons and found out my psychologist had ptsd listed as a diagnosis but hadn’t talked to me about it at all. I don’t know why, and I don’t know how to bring it up to her. I kinda thought I might have it but getting diagnosed always seemed so complicated I never pursued a diagnosis. Now I’m here and I don’t know what to feel.
Relieved that I was right? Worried about why she didn’t tell me?
I feel conflicted because I feel like I’m just starting to get control of my anxiety, depression, and adhd. And now I have something else to deal with too.
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ptsd
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