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So I got a severe illness, I almost died and that implies I was in a hospital for a long time. I felt very happy after I left, treasuring life a lot, I didn't get flashbacks or anything just recently, I've been starting to do stupid things without much tought, all I can think about it's the abuse, the hospital abuse, t...
ptsd
Hi everyone, (I'm sorry in advance this will be a long message) I'm writing to you guys because I've been dealing with depression and anxiety symptoms that are very connected to a traumatic event I've experienced in the past, but I have always been very confused about how traumatic it actually was, and whether it was ...
ptsd
I was recently in the hospital. Stayed for a while, had some medical emergencies. I wish it would have just ended there. I would have been done with this. The pain, the loneliness. I’ll never get better. It’s cruel, that I’m still here when much more deserving people haven’t survived. I don’t want to do this anymore.
depression
Hi, for quiet some time I have a feeling that I am really bad friend. Here's the thing, me and my friend know each other for 6 years and I think that in 2019 our friendship changed a little. I got my diagnosis at the end of 2019 and since then I've learned a lot about myself and definitely matured a lot. Also at the sa...
aspergers
Im 15 and although my mom watches a lot of shows and such about people with autism it would seem like she understands when i mess up or don’t reply to her yet she still gets mad at me for these things i cant control much like answering with a head nod and not words
aspergers
Ive posted here before but its gotten so much worse now. Last week at the body shop where i work( which i used to love) i had a thought saying "i hate everything about the body shop" now i dont feel the joy i used to working there now and within the flick of a switch i think i hate it. In turn this works with things i ...
OCD
I am going to try and make this as short as possible. So-not one, but both of my brothers have been diagnosed, both at an early age. My older brother really struggled because of it for most of his life, especially when he was younger. It was kind of always “his thing”, something that I *seemingly* could never understan...
aspergers
Hi guys! First of all if you're on here I'm sorry you have to be on here, it really truly sucks ass. If you ever need a specific stranger to reach out to for judgement free support my inbox is open. I just wanted to get my feelings out somewhere to discuss something I've really been struggling with now that I've turne...
ptsd
I used to be a fan of a fictional character until i noticed the character i liked is a terrible written trash character that has no fans. I can't stop hating this character whenever i remember they did a lot of bad things and had no character development or seeing people hating them. I really need to move on and i real...
OCD
Im curious if anyone else has experienced a recurring thought i'm currently dealing with, because its so different than my usual OCD triggers. For context: I am a 30 year old male who was finally diagnosed with OCD at 25 after a lifetime of struggle mostly related to obsessive and obtrusive thoughts. In the last year...
OCD
Hey guys, Ritalin has not been working for me so my Psych said next in line is Adderall. I’ve heard Vyvanse is the least addictive but my insurance won’t cover it. I’m nervous to try because i really just don’t want to become dependent and addicted to it. I have a semi-addictive personality. I work in a sales position ...
ADHD
Hello! I'm an Occupational Therapy student with recently diagnosed ADHD and disordered eating. Turns out the ADHD is the primary cause of my issues around food. You know the whole, forgetting to eat, meds making you not feel like eating, eating everything you have because you're not paying attention, going a whole da...
ADHD
I thought my emotions were greatly represented by roller coasters but oh boi was I not expecting it getting worse. I think I’ve been crying every day now. I started college in something that really really motivates me. I’ve gained so much confidence and I have a really nice relationship with the love of my life. I’ve f...
ADHD
I am not diagnosed but have had symptoms of pure ocd. I have posted on this subreddit before, but need to talk some more. My thoughts tell me that I’m a terrible person, and when I stop having the thoughts temporarily, the next time I have those thoughts, they also tell me since I haven’t them in a while it means I nev...
OCD
Laugh therapy is a real thing, feeling the need to control a sub Reddit and act like memes are awful because you may laugh a little is most likely from The need to control your environment. Which isn’t even your environment it’s Reddit. That’s pretty toxic. I’m out .
OCD
I have a good group of friends who mean the world to me, but I just met this guy about 2 months ago and I immediately became like grossly infatuated and obsessed with him slightly because I was into him but majority he was a new friend and like one of those people who I really wanted to think I was “cool” or something....
depression
I just feel so down right now. I have no motivation to get out of bed, everything feels the same and things that used to bring me joy are just becoming boring. I’m losing the will to keep going, and I just want to quit trying. I feel like I should be sad, but I just don’t feel anything at all. I don’t know why either, ...
depression
i’ve never thought i had ptsd. and then on november i got into a car crash. quite literally changed my whole life. the paramedics told me they didn’t know how i survived anyways. i went down hill from there. got into alcohol and messing with my perceptions. and then unfortunately leading to multiple times of attempt o...
ptsd
This is kind of a rant as I wasn't sure who to talk to about this, so I am posting it here. Sorry if I make any grammatical errors as English is my second language. I am kind of in the process of a diagnosis rn. But I hate looking at my non-adhd friends and seeing them successful when I can't even get out of bed. I u...
ADHD
i don't really know how to make anything i think of make sense.. so I'll just mush it all here i still sometimes think about what happened.. the worst ended not that long ago.. I know it's finally over but I'm still scared sometimes that it will come back.. and everything I have will be gone again.. sometime...
ptsd
Anyone else struggle with oral hygiene? I literally only brush my teeth if I have to go somewhere but I will always use my Waterpik cause ya know the odor and plaque build up 😅 If I had a partner it would be different Not sure if this is an ADHD thing because I also have bipolar2. It’s probably a part of both diagn...
ADHD
Does anyone have a good recommendation for an inpatient for depression and trauma? In the US? I am In Michigan but anywhere in the US would be fine. Someone please help.
ptsd
I have an obsessive thought that is so ridiculous that I have troubling sharing it because I feel like it will manifest itself and turn into reality if I speak about it. Nonetheless, I feel like I have to share it to progress in my life, so if you want to talk to me about it, we can talk privately. This thought caus...
OCD
Got bulied in middle and highschool had a shitty childhood and my life is ruined so far, lost grandmother, uncle, grandfather, (which we shared same name and surname) some of my buddies died. Cut our ties with releatives due to blood feud, because of heritage my grandfather has left and now they want to evict us from t...
depression
I'm losing my mind. Am I dreaming? Is anyone real? Help
OCD
I was speaking with my psychiatrist yesterday and I was telling him how my meds have been working (focalin XR 10mg) and I said that at first I was really able to get stuff done, but now it's getting harder and harder. I know I want to do stuff, but I can't just think "oh, do this" and then do it. It still takes me a lo...
ADHD
…who blames religion for their OCD. Religion being forced on me when I was a kid introduced concepts like magical thinking and a vengeful god that can read your mind and could take anything or anyone from you in an instant, which is the exact type of OCD I suffer from (one of many types, for the record). Has this affe...
OCD
I get this thing where I think God is giving me a premonition like "this next thing your going to click on is about Christianity" That actually just happened and came true not very long ago today. But I also I feel as though I might be thinking I'm telling the future, but only after it happens. I saw a video not long ...
OCD
In 2019 I was so depressed, my emotions were too overwhelming to deal with, I went through a phase of thinking I was bipolar or something like it. I have a cancer and dealing with that has been a struggle if its own, couldn’t understand why I wasn’t one of these cancerous people who’s life and health choices are bett...
ADHD
The nature of my job requires me to check on things, specifically cleanliness, but in a fast manner (hotel). And my OCD goes haywire and really slows me down and that takes a toil on my performance. "What if you didn't check the cupboard?" "What if you didn't look well enough?" "Look again (and again and again...) to...
OCD
I usually have co-existing hyper-fixations, with some only lasting a few hours or days and others lasting months at a time. Whenever I look it up it usually only mentions short term hyper-fixations so i’m just curious on if hyper-fixations can last for months to years? I have a list in my notes app that I started a fe...
ADHD
I also posted this to r/gay but I need help deciphering between ocd and real feelings 😞. It’s very hard to sort through all of the shame and fear. I’m not sure if I’m gay or not (maybe bi or pan), but am currently in a heterosexual relationship. I am certainly territorial and jealous when my partner talks about past...
OCD
Hi So I wanted to ask a couple of questions (the second relating to the first). This is related to my Pocd So basically, this year I've had a really bad year on the internet. Online I've come across illegal stuff without searching for or wanting to find it. It's appeared on completely legal searches. This year has be...
OCD
Well, my name is Gabriel, I'm 17 and finishing high school in december, english is not my first language so I'd like to ask for yall to don't mind little mistakes here and there, tysm <333 I am basically terrified of living, whenever I think about college and work I get so freaked out, my childhood was ok, not very go...
depression
I was recently diagnosed with an unspecified obsessive compulsive and related disorder. I have no clue what that means. Why not just OCD?
OCD
TW - brief mention of SA/RPE Hi :) So the we’ve just had an unexpected fire alarm which made me jump but then dread settled in my stomach and I went back to the event that caused my ptsd but it has literally nothing to do with loud noises or fire etc (it was r*pe). It’s like whenever I’m caught off guard I react so ...
ptsd
Since grade school it’s been a problem to commit to any constant routine. At most I get to like a week and then I run out of willpower or something falls apart. Is there anything that’s helped for you guys in creating routine?
aspergers
I have never posted here but I’ve been diagnosed with ocd for years now and I need help from some like minded individuals. I hope this post doesn’t come off as stupid or insignificant because I’ve honestly been struggling a lot lately and need a happy escape. In the real world, at my current state, I cannot go outsid...
OCD
6 weeks, that's how long I lasted. I had managed to stay out of it for months, but things have only gotten worse, and now I did it again, I was just driven to the knife. At this point I feel like it's beginning to become a drug, I almost enjoy the pain. Next time it might be 5 weeks, then 4, and it will keep getting wo...
depression
I’m a 30f that has been diagnosed since super young. I feel like I remember a lot of negativity about being medicated, but I don’t necessarily remember if it was actually that “traumatic” or if it was just portrayed that way to me cause it was really stressful on my mom. (Seriously, teachers were such dicks to her and ...
ADHD
I’ve been contemplating if I have rejection sensitivity dysphoria, and I feel like this is one of the biggest signs for me. Not only did they disagree with my opinion, but they went on an entire explanation of why they did. It actually hurt a lot- felt like something was pushing against my chest. I’ve been trying to no...
ADHD
i was always emotionally neglected as a child, just thrown off for no fucking reason, not matter how much i tried to tell my parents they said i was acting crazy and would just make me feel more miserable and im tired of it. help me or i might just kill myself
depression
***TW: GUN VIOLENCE, ASSAULT, ROBBERY, SELF HARM, SUICIDE, RACE*** Hello everybody, this topic is one that's been very hard for me to address and come to terms with. I feel like I can safely unpack my thoughts here, but I do request that no one tries to make me feel guilty about this topic, as I am already consumed...
ptsd
TDLR; be careful and be totally sure your coffee is decaf kids. I just need to get this out bc I’m struggling rn famz. I love drinking black coffee but I’m a small person who takes an adhd medicine (don’t know how to spell adderall even tho I’m a 23 yo with an English degree so i just say adhd medicine even tho I’ve ...
ADHD
I have been dealing with ptsd for nearly 5 years and during that time i have had repeated traumas. Ive been in therapy for a long time and tomorrow i’m starting ART therapy which is similar to EMDR. EMDR was insanely triggering for me and we had to end the session early because of how i responded to it. since then i ha...
ptsd
Earlier this year I (F28) was diagnosed with CPTSD. My whole life I thought it was just anxiety, until I had a massive trigger and my life spiralled. Funnily enough, my sister was also diagnosed with CPTSD unbeknown to me. Anyway… I’ve attempted to get help many times in my life, usually when I’m really struggling. ...
ptsd
I have been reading more about dopamine and it's roll in taking action and feeling a reward for completing a task, and how dopamine transporters can be overactive in ADHD cases, basically stripping off this ability to take action and feel good about what one acheives. All my adult life I've spent countless hours think...
ADHD
I have had OCD as a kid but it got particularly bad a few years ago when I started my first full time job. It went away when I changed my job: being in a new city, spending time with friends or exploring new things helped quite a lot to reset my mind properly. However, being indoors in the pandemic, not having any clos...
OCD
I have never really felt that I fit in, and I am constantly told that I overreact to situations or am overly defensive and easily agitated. Most of this I’m told by my parents, and my relationship with them is rocky at best. I don’t feel happy anymore here, and I just want to stop feeling bad, but what if I’m the reaso...
depression
Feeling and emotions hurt me, school hurt me, family hurts me, friends hurt me, my mental illnesses hurt me...I am so desperate for just a little endorphin I would do anything And the worst thing is that this is a toxic circle, it's like school is making me sad and depressed and it;s genuinely hard for me to do good i...
depression
I was diagnosed with ADHD earlier this year. I thought by getting this diagnosis I'd be to get the help I need and reach some sort of salvation, especially as my life has largely been falling apart these past 2 years. Even though I'm getting medication, I feel like I've already invested a lot of time and money but have...
ADHD
I enjoy office work and mundane tasks. Ideally, I'd just do data entry for the rest of my life, but I know that's not realistic. Does anyone have any suggestions what kind of careers I should be looking into? I thought about being a medical secretary, but I want to see what other choices are out there. I'm putting this...
aspergers
Trauma bonding is when you're attached to a person who consistently betrays you in one way or another. Yet, you feel addicted to the abuser and panic at the mere thought of leaving. One part of you want to leave, another, stay. This inner conflict usually stems from the abusers confusing behavior, shifting from cruel t...
ptsd
Honestly I don’t think anyone would understand this except for fellow OCD sufferers. I don’t know how to explain how incredibly painful OCD is. How debilitating it is. How consuming it is. It’s like our brains were wired with the purpose of torturing us. OCD takes the things you care about, love, and value, and absolut...
OCD
I feel like a fraud writing this as I’m undiagnosed ( getting an assessment done for both asd and adhd this Wednesday though) but I am just so done :( I crave busyness as I feel like my brain can kick in to get things done when it’s under pressure yet I get so overwhelmed when I’ve got a lot on as my brain just doesn’t...
ADHD
I think that I might be getting signs through coincidences and also premonitions from God to show that He is real (I'm scared that God in the Christian theology is real). I definitely know that I'm having intrusive thoughts, but it seems like God is telling me things as well. That seems really unlikely considering I kn...
OCD
For the diagnosis traject my care giver wants to talk with my parents about my behaviour from when I was a kid. But my parents are 70 and they don't remember everything correctly (it has been a long time ago since I was a kid, I am almost 36 now). &#x200B; I am just wondering if it will help for my diagnosis. Isn't ...
aspergers
how the hell do people make friends so easily? i dont get it, i try socializing, trying to get into things other people are interested in, i try to include myself, but everything just seems to fail and i get shoved or pushed out verbally, i have this one friend who i feel really close to, but as they develop a friend g...
depression
Do you guys know why some people have depression but without any headaches and some with? For me those headaches are the worst part of depression. Any remedies?
depression
add me on steam please : https://steamcommunity.com/profiles/76561199155607928/
OCD
a lot of my depression comes from me being understimulated. I didn’t even know this was a thing until it got brought up to me, and it makes a lot of sense.. I’ve always been super active, but recently I’ve been trying to suppress this and train myself to sit longer hours for schoolwork. But now I’m realizing that was a...
ADHD
I'm so tired of being alive. I'm a 30 year old unemployed ugly virgin loser. I thought I might feel better once I hit 30, like I might be able to let it all go and stop worrying. I feel worse. I've got in the habit of browsing dating type forums to see how I match up. Stories about men who won't clean their own ass, h...
depression
I'm due to refill my Adderall XR (30mg) and I just got a text from my pharmacy saying it's on backorder and not available from the manufacturer. What can I do to remain functional while waiting on a refill? I also have a prescription for 10mg non-XR, and since I don't always take them, I have a bit of an emergency st...
ADHD
New to Reddit, so I hope I'm posting this in the right place and following the rules. I'm going to try to keep this as short as possible, cause I know I could go on and on, but apologies in advance for the length. I grew up in an emotionally abusive family. On top of that, my whole family was religious and homophobic....
depression
Disclaimer: I'm not a doctor, so please discuss this with one before trying anything. And please be sure to get MTHFR tested FIRST, if this is your situation...your body may require a special type of vitamin! So, I stumbled across this on accident... There have been MANY mornings where my heart rate gets incredibly h...
ADHD
As a sufferer of existential OCD, one of mine is a Truman Show obsession (worrying thoughts about people being actors, lying to me, being watched, etc.) I watch videos and read articles related to the film often as exposures. I don't often see this one affecting others.
OCD
I think that this is an interesting topic that not too many people talk about, but something that came up for me recently was that I'm trying not to have my phone's wallpaper be of my ex who was abusive. She had her sweet moments, and that's what's captured and displayed as my wallpaper. I don't know what this could m...
ptsd
Hey. I (pretty sure on the spectrum) struggle with sensory overload and stress sensitivity and I also have a difficult time with change and with having my routine and planning interrupted. I guess that I may also not be pretty good with understanding/executing the basic things people usually/clasically do to show th...
aspergers
Thought I'd rant in advance. Sorry to complain but I just wanna get this off my chest. I'm not thrilled about paying taxes but I can live with that. I know that they pay for vital services; while I'm skeptical that my tax dollars are being used effieciently it is a nesecarry sacrifice; as is giving the gov a zero int...
aspergers
I once looked into the mirror and understood.That no one will understand.Haven’t looked at mirror the same since.
ptsd
I’m still young so the thought of having a child still awaits me but I’m scared. What if my child was diagnosed with adhd because of MY genetics? would they go through the same thing I did? I wouldn’t want that. I’m scared of that to happen. Even if it were to happen, how does my family members think of my adhd? Of cou...
ADHD
This has been one of the worst years of my life. I was with someone for 8 years, engaged to be married this month. I ended it because I wasn’t happy and I started to feel like I didn’t know who I was. I loved him more than I loved myself. I just wanted to find myself. We were both seeing other people. I’d like to think...
depression
My boyfriend (23M) and I (24F) have been living together for a year and a half now. I was just diagnosed with moderate ADHD-C last week. My boyfriend says that all of his teachers recommended he get tested for it, and that doctors have always talked about it with him since he can remember. We don’t know if that’s a “pr...
ADHD
I stumbled upon this subreddit after finding out that I will most likely die 16 years earlier than my non-autistic counterparts(insanely scary statistic there). A little bit about me- I’m 19 years old, I was diagnosed with Aspergers syndrome at the age of 12. My mother later told me that I was falsely diagn...
aspergers
I was on generic ritalin 10mg 2-3x daily and was doing great, i went to generic concerta 36mg it didnt do anything noticeable and i started to get anxiety towards the end of the week and a panic attack. &#x200B; I am back on generic ritalin but i switched pharmacies from CVS to Marianos and its not the same pill i us...
ADHD
I have Pure OCD. My ex fiancé and my daughters mother left me about 3 months ago. I’ve been absolutely devastated since then. She is all I can think about. It’s always intrusive thoughts about her fucking someone els. Everything reminds me of her. Shit we used to do all that. Every fucking memory we have together runs ...
OCD
I believe it's supposed to be a compliment... and at this time of my life (35 years old) I'm more or less accepted how different I am then everyone else. So many people don't understand data, numbers, or business intelligence. I'm good at it and have been for nearly 15 years. As expected, I'm not the best at communica...
aspergers
Basically all in the title. I’ve been having new intrusive thoughts and have no idea how to control them without reassuring myself.
OCD
I am a stem major, I do find my subject interesting compared to others, but I certainly wouldn't consider myself passionate about it. Its really tough but as someone who grew up poor I am afraid of being broke my whole life so I picked a high paying major, and I can't do any subject with heavy amounts of reading. I'm ...
ADHD
It always seems as once I solve it, it creates a new puzzle for me to solve
OCD
I’ve had to sell my home. I’ve had to run away from the town I live in to escape being harassed. It was excruciatingly painful to make the decision to sell my house. But I knew as long as I lived here I would be too scared to leave my house. Too scared to exist. Too scared to run into the person whose made my life hell...
depression
Hii, sooo i was looking at a post on here and someone said you can have (c)PTSD without flashbacks? Is this true? when I addressed possibly having PTSD to my therapist once but she said people with PTSD often feel like they’re constantly reliving the event. I have a lot of symptoms of trauma. But no flashbacks? soo...
ptsd
My brain constantly tries to convince me that I'm gonna be homeless. I've researched for hours and hours about homelessness in the UK, thinking about how I'd survive etc. I try to resist the urge to do this but my brain comes up with really convincing reasons for why I will end up homeless - ironically one of the reaso...
OCD
I was thinking about this today, as I was cleaning and organizing my apartment. We must have instances, in the present or past. Where the things we’ve impulsively bought, have actually been a good thing or have helped us in some way. Side Note: This is for fun and no one should be judged or criticized for their pur...
ADHD
It’s so hard to speak up to my family and people close to me because I feel like a bother when it comes to my mental health. My mom pushes it all away and I feel so alone. My brother barely cares about anything when it comes to me but is very selfish and just entitled to be better. It’s hard to keep going and the thou...
depression
Background, my kids haven’t been with their father for a year now because he was abusive and would hit them, call them cuss words, get in their faces, and then some. They keep asking questions about what my and their dads relationship was like. They were abused by him but he and I broke up when they were babies so they...
ptsd
I’ve had depression my whole life and mainly deal with sever symptoms of lethargy, exhaustion, inattention, forgetfulness, disorganization, complete lack of motivation for basic house keeping, sleepiness and insomnia. I can’t make connections with others as well so I’m very alone. I’ve tried every SSRI, most SNRIs, ben...
depression
We've just been made aware of a banned user who has been spamming people (he claims 150 right now), "educating" them about the "dangers" of ADHD medication and scaring them into stopping their medication. Folks, this is *fucked up* beyond belief. Yes, medication comes with side effects. Yes, there is a *very small* ris...
ADHD
So I came across a Reddit post about OCD that totally shook me to my core.. something I’ve struggled with my own life, someone else has been experiencing the same thing too. (I never thought I had OCD myself, if I did it was too mild to diagnose.) but then, that specific post meant so much to me because it made so much...
OCD
I learned that I’m not lazy or procrastinating something that stresses me out. It’s called avoidance because it causes me the same stress and feelings that the event that caused me ptsd caused. I’m not LAZY. I’m not PROCRASTINATING. I’m AVOIDING it because it doesn’t make me feel human, or happy. It just causes anxie...
ptsd
So I have been hyper fixating on mental health and wellness for a while now, reading and watching videos about adhd, and bipolar, and autism, and burnout, and depression and anxiety...etc. And the other day I am thinking maybe I did just have burnout anxiety and depression, maybe it's not really adhd at all... This m...
ADHD
I get the impression that if someone without OCD learns what "intrusive thought's" are, They could potentially think that those with OCD are... obsessed with the thoughts. As in they enjoy what they think about! It's more common for "obsession" to mean your extremely passionate or a HUGE fan of something like a tv sho...
OCD
tw: mild self-deprication I'm struggling a lot with this fear lately. It's always in the back of my mind. I'm not diagnosed, but I heavily suspect I have ADHD. I'm well on my way to getting a therapist I can trust and talk about this suspicion with, but I almost don't want to, just in case I don't actually have it. I ...
ADHD
Hey everyone! I’m new to my diagnosis and also new to starting medication, so I’m working on titrating right now. This is my first week and I’ve been taking adderall IR 10mg 2x a day. It lasts for about 4 hours, and after the second dose I’m getting rough crashes sometimes. After the first couple of days, I developed ...
ADHD
I wanna start off by saying I would never do anything to anyone that’s young or doesn’t consent. That’s a terrible thing to do But the reason I’m worrying is my parents said earlier today if a man becomes hard he likes whatever’s going on. I remember a few years back when me and my parents were babysitting I was holdi...
OCD
Maybe I'm angry because I had a stressful day but sometimes I just don't get it. If I was too young to understand it, why do I have PTSD? I don't get why it was traumatizing. I don't get why I couldn't just forget it. Most of all I don't get why the hell it happened to me. I feel like I'm waiting until the day I ...
ptsd
As mentionned in the title, today is my first day back to work since completely shutting down 2 months ago. My shutdown was unexpected, and as I wasn't diagnosed at the time (got diagnosed the last week of June), I was feeling very lost and broken. I originally did not want to take a sick leave that long, but my boss...
aspergers
TW: Alcohol I left my job a few days earlier than I was supposed to. I already have new work lined up so am not concerned about that, but am feeling really depressed for how I ended things with my now previous employer. It's spilling over into my personal life, and I'm so ashamed I have yet to tell anyone I actually...
depression
Hello, I have just been diagnosed after years of seeking treatment, as having ADHD, looks like I will be prescribed Elanse / Vylanse in the next few days. I am hoping to hear from other adults in my situation who got diagnosed late, I am 45years old and have been struggling for 5years. I am shocked at the diagnosis, ...
ADHD
If I had to describe it, living is uncomfortable. Disinterested in everything, absence of pleasure and care. I'm an empty vessel, I wake up and act out a movie of being Betty, cleaning and working. There is no emotion attached to it, I don't feel angry or sad, I feel nothing at all. Life is uncomfortable.
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