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I have had severely devastatingly intense stress consistently for the past four years. I'm 30 years old and although the environment that has created all that stress if over with, the damage was already done...
My memory is very poor, focus and energy is sapped. I'm afraid my brain is like permanently damaged, and don't want to have worse memory loss, alzheimers or dementia. I want my brain to be sharp as I get older.
What are some natural supplements, or herbs, etc that you recommend? i don't care how expensive, risky, or strong it is. I'll take anything.
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ptsd
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Ocd sufferer here - kind of drunk posting this. I watched a video today about the importance of having autistic experts in the autism field, and it made me wonder - how many, if any, OCD experts actually have it themselves? I feel like it would be really hard to expect someone who is an expert in OCD to truly empathize with this disorder WITHOUT actually having it. On top of this, I see SO many therapists who list OCD as one of their areas of expertise only to find that they think it's just like anxiety or can be cured with talk therapy. 🙄
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OCD
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hello i have adhd combined type since my entire life.
my dad has also been apart of my life since my entire life.
he has been really cool and epic. no one in my life ever says "just use a planner" or anything like that. they always ask and try to understand; when they dont understand, they say "i guess i would have to have it to understand."
the point of this post is because i am really grateful for this.
thats it.
also i start treatment thursday.
p.s i love you
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ADHD
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I appreciate justice as much as the next person, but I don't understand the idea of trying to get back at someone. I don't understand because there's no benefit to it. Like, it doesn't actually help the person who's trying to impose justice through their eye-for-an-eye mentality. All it does is create a pointless cycle where everyone loses.
One reason it may not be truly fair is that the original offense may be more innocent that perceived. *For example*, at work, I was sent a message that I saw right as I was leaving for an important appointment. I intended to respond right after I got back, but my mind was still preoccupied on my appointment and I forgot.
Now this person seems to not respond to my messages. I don't know for sure if this is an eye-for-an-eye thing, since they might just be really busy. But for arguments sake, let's say it is. Would it be a right or fair response? On one hand I ignored his message, but it wasn't with any intention-- I honestly just forgot.
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aspergers
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Since October/November last year I started having sexual thoughts about children. I've never felt pleasure or desire for them, but they still make me feel bad and make me feel like a monster. Most of the time I just feel the fear of being a pedo. In February of this year I improved drastically, and those thoughts that had subsided, but now they've returned. I believe they started to appear because since the beginning of the pandemic I had no contact with anyone except my family. It made me spend a lot of time alone, so these thoughts started to come up.
I'm 14 years old, and I'm always afraid that this is just a state of denial, and I'm still afraid that at some point in the future these pains will start to give me pleasure.
Yesterday I had my first therapy session and the first time I told anyone about it, and now I'm so scared and anxious to find out that I'm actually a pedophile.
I was taken by absolute fear. I can not handle it anymore. These thoughts make me want to commit suicide. I feel like a monster, even though I know these thoughts aren't real, as as I said before, I don't feel any kind of desire or pleasure from them.
I know I need help, but I'm afraid to find out I'm crazy.
NOTE: Sorry if any grammatical error has been made, English is not my native language.
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OCD
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[Source](https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/33593384/)
**Background:** Gut-brain axis (GBA) is a system widely studied nowadays, especially in the neuropsychiatry field. It is postulated to correlate with many psychiatric conditions, one of them being attention-deficit hyperactivity disorder (ADHD). ADHD is a disorder that affects many aspects of life, including but not limited to financial, psychosocial, and cultural aspects. Multiple studies have made a comparison of the gut microbiota between ADHD and healthy controls. Our aims were to review the existing studies analyzing the gut microbiota between human samples in ADHD and healthy individuals.
**Methods:** The literature was obtained using Google Scholar, Pubmed, and Science Direct search engine. The keywords used were "ADHD", "gut microbiota", "stool", "gut", and "microbiota". The selected studies were all case-control studies, which identify the gut microbiota between ADHD and healthy individuals.
**Result:** We found six studies which were eligible for review. The model and methods of each study is different. Forty-nine bacterial taxa were found, yet none of them can explain the precise relationship between ADHD and the gut microbiota. Bifidobacterium was found in higher amount in ADHD patients, but other study stated that the abundance of this genus was lower in ADHD with post-micronutrient treatment. This may suggest that micronutrient can modulate the population of Bifidobacterium and improve the behavior of ADHD patients. Other notable findings include a significantly lower population of Dialister in unmedicated ADHD, which rose after patients were medicated. A smaller amount of Faecalibacterium were also found in ADHD patients. This may explain the pathogenesis of ADHD, as Faecalibacterium is known for its anti-inflammatory products. It is possible the scarcity of this genera could induce overproduction of pro-inflammatory cytokines, which is in accordance with the high level of pro-inflammatory cytokines found in children with ADHD.
**Conclusion:** There were no studies that examined which bacterial taxa correlated most to ADHD. This might occur due to the different model and methods in each study. Further study is needed to identify the correlation between gut microbiota and ADHD.
**Keywords:** Attention-deficit hyperactivity disorder (ADHD); Gut; Gut–brain axis (GBA); Microbiota
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ADHD
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So, I (31M) was diagnosed around a month ago though I always knew that I had ADHD. The doctor prescribed me concerta 18mg, and during the month there were two days that I didn't feel anything so I took more of the medicine. I visited him today and he said that I should increase my dose to twice a day. The problem is that the pharmacy refused to give me the medicine because it hasn't been a month yet and it will be due in 5 days from now. I know I messed up bad and now I won't be taking the medicine for the upcoming 5 days since it's a controlled medicine. Are there any tips on how to manage the upcoming 5 days? And yes I know I really messed up and had learned the lesson.
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ADHD
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Do you struggle with the concept of love, or understanding how love should feel, how to love someone?
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aspergers
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Hello can anyone with IOCD please talk about their experiences because nobody ever talks about it and now I feel so alone cuz nobody is talking about it is this even a real disorder or am I just a sick weirdo
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OCD
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I obsessively check and worry about missing work, to the point where every night I have nightmares about missing work. I've been trying to stop being so obsessive about it but it's been difficult. Today i woke up late and almost missed work because i hadn't rechecked my alarm was set properly and now I'm paranoid I'm actually going to miss work and that my obsessive thoughts and behaviours are true. How do I deal with this rationally and not let this take over my life?
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It’s funny how getting my OCD diagnosis has been processed in waves. At first I was overwhelmed. Then I was “coming out” to those closest to me about my diagnosis. After that I found myself paying a lot of attention to things in my present life that could be explained by OCD. And then a couple of nights ago I had a realization that some of the issues I had when my depression and panic disorder wasn’t being medicated had all vanished when I got properly dosed on SNRIs. I didn’t give it much thought because I was so focused on the depressive symptoms and panic attacks I was trying to get rid of, but there were a lot of OCD thoughts and behaviors that I didn’t really understand. And now I see them for what they are, and that’s a strange feeling. So even though I just recently got diagnosed, I’ve been inadvertently treated for quite some time now.
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OCD
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Exercising is so boring to me, and it's even worse that it's so tiring and grueling. I'm a busy college student as well, so I always feel like the time I set aside for working out could have been spent studying or getting some free time. I've been doing this for a month and I don't feel like exercising is worth it anymore. I'm exercising to build muscle because I want to improve my body, but this is the slowest most time-consuming process ever (I'm female, takes much longer to build muscle). Any advice to stay motivated?
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ADHD
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I was there a few months ago when they had that mass shooting. Although I did not see it I heard the loud gunshots going off and ran like everyone else. Even though they killed the gunman almost instantly I didn't know at the time and thought he was gonna blast everyone away.
Now I'm scared of going to public events and anytime I hear a loud pop sound I instantly want to run. Even though it's unlikely to experience that again the thought that someone is capable of doing that scares me. I feel paranoid at times.
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ptsd
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Hi. I'm so sorry to bother you.
I'm a girl in her mid 20s that suffers from bad pocd thoughts. Although my pocd is better, it has developed a fixation with teens. Basically I'm afraid to be attracted to teens (14+ (14 included))
I hate it. I'm just so overwhelmed.
I don't want to attracted to teens. In fact, I don't want to be attracted to anyone younger than 20. It just feels wrong.
I'm so sorry for venting. I just hate when my obssessions came back. I feel such a monster. Such a pervert. I hate it.
Today, I saw the final episode of a game play of a game that is very popular today. It's called resident evil 8. Don't worry I won't spoil it. I just wanted to say that the baby (one of the game's important characters) is seen older at the end of the game.
I thought she was really 0retty and ofc the ocd just woke up and basically I felt attracted to her and began panikicng so much...
Im not the best at giving age to a person and because of my ocd I always assume they are younger than what they actually are.
To me, she looked at least 14 (which hit the nail of my ocd).
What did I do? Compulsively looking online for how old she actually was in that segment. And I didn't find an answer.
People say she's between 15 and 20.
Here's a photo of her: https://static.wikia.nocookie.net/residentevil/images/6/61/Rosemary_Winters_Adult.png/revision/latest?cb=20210508124411
I hate it. I feel so grossed out when I feel attraction to someone who looks like 14 or 15! It's so gross to me! She's a kid??
God! I'm so sorry... This just makes me want to ending it all and be done with the suffering.
Currently, I like this woman (she's 2 years older) and she is just amazing and I feel like I don't even deserve to be her friend - she shouldnt be spending time with a monster like me.
(sighs) thank you for listening to me
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OCD
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So recently I have been fearing schizophrenia
. I have been compulsively imagining scary scenarios kinda like day dreaming) now my head is convincing me that this is a form oh hallucination and that I am actually hallucinating while doing this
This is scary and it’s really making me feel ill because im trying all I can to make sure when I imagine shit im not actually hallucinating it
I have a really vivid imagination and I can be staring and imagine shit and kinda see it, not with my eyes but in my mind kinda thing but now im not sure if it’s in my mind or my head like how can I tell for sure
Not only is this shit scary but the fact that my mums dad had this schizophrenia disorder, it makes it even more harder to brush off, I haven’t actually seen anything, but when I imagine these situation I’m not even sure anymore
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OCD
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I’ve been diagnosed with ADHD since second grade and recently (11th grade) I’ve noticed something that I do a lot. I will be having a normal conversation with someone (it doesn’t even have to be normal it could be any conversation) And I know what I’m going to say. But then mid sentence I will stop and I just can’t get the next word out, Almost as if that specific word was erased from my vocabulary. Instead of saying the word I will stumble upon a bunch of random sounds and noises trying to say that one word, in my head I know what the word is an exactly how it’s pronounced but I can’t get it to go out my mouth. eventually I have to take a complete pause and either restart the sentence or slowly finish it. Example: I love playing Bayonetta in smash bros she so fun to play and its so s-s-sahgscagsvsggwvgsvsuhwj-pbbbtttt............. satisfying. To. Pull. Off. A. Combooo. In. The. Air. As. One. Of. My. Favorite. Videogame. Characters.... sometimes that collection of letters and sounds goes on for a good 15 seconds.
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ADHD
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I'm getting a prescription for Vyanse but I'm getting a physical examination for weight, blood pressure and my heart.
I don't do drugs except for w33d, will they able to tell? Will I have to quit? I'm afraid of the doctors not giving me medication because of it. I'm afraid to tell them that I smoke it because it relaxes me. I'm just really worried about not passing the examination and not getting medication.
Thanks
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ADHD
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The rescheduling and the waiting and the sheer bureaucratic bullshit is just getting hard. I live in one of the most dangerous cities in America, and my attack was just one of countless numbers flooding our court systems, which are fucked anyway. The judge who saw all the evidence before a mistrial was called is retiring ,and my prosecutor who’s been there for me since day one almost two years ago couldn’t take it anymore and straight up left the justice system because my city is too fucked up for her, my attacker’s lawyers were the scummiest and monstrous as they could be, but it was all an act that they didn’t keep up once the career criminal they represented couldn’t pay so now I get to be verbally harassed by someone new.. I don’t even have a choice, I have a subpoena as a witness for the State but I have this terrible anxiety about court that just makes me want to run and never look back, like I can’t start anything until it’s all over and closed and finalized, and that only happens when my attacker is officially locked up.
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ptsd
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I grew up in a neighborhood where gunshots were very commonplace. I’ve never thought much about it and it never really affected me before since I’ve been so used to hearing them for literally my entire life, but recently I’ve been having panic attack-like reactions to hearing fireworks. My heart will start pounding, I’ll start sweating, sometimes I’ll just freeze up, and I get that horrible feeling of dread.
I also noticed that the closer the fireworks are, the more I’ll react. When I hear the sound in the distance (whether it be actual gunfire or fireworks/another gunshot-like sound) I’ll be able to just disregard it like I’d normally do.
I’m really concerned with the way I’ve been reacting. With more stores beginning to sell fireworks I’ve been hearing them much more often and it seems like every time it happens I react more severely than before. Could this genuinely be a symptom of PTSD or am I just overthinking it way too much? If this is possibly PTSD I really want to start looking at help options before it gets out of control and starts affecting my life even more.
TL;DR: The sound of fireworks is causing me to have panic attack-like reactions because they sound like gunshots.
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ptsd
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I don't want to go into details but I believe my partner is deeply clueless about what I'm going through. He keeps triggering me, then saying it's not his fault, that I have a mental illness, and doesn't want to change his behaviour. He even admitted he is being rough (with words, reactions, no support) because he believes being nice doesn't help this. I'm basically in a state almost all day almost every day. (It hasn't been this bad ever but first pregnancy and then childbirth really hit me.)
I'm looking for resources I could share with him to get through to him about the damage he's causing me.
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ptsd
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I lost my 2 favourite pairs of shorts over a couple days. I ordered them from one of my favourite shops, a boutique that sells handmade clothes in Montreal, so they're not cheap and I saved up for them. As soon as I got them, I wore them almost every day. Then suddenly, I couldn't find them. I live in a small 1 bedroom apartment, I swear that I've looked EVERYWHERE, but I just can't find them. I've been trying to remember where I last saw them, or where I last put them, but it's like those memories have been completely erased from my brain. I'm sure they'll turn up, but I was excited to get them and it just sucks how often this happens.
Anyway, I started Vyvanse a while ago. I'm on 30mg right now, and although it helps my focus, I still really struggle with things like procrastination, budgeting, and losing things. I have a follow-up with my doctor coming up soon, should I mention this to her? Or are meds not supposed to help with these problems, and I should talk to my therapist (ADHD specialist) about developing strategies?
Thanks!
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ADHD
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So, I'll try to explain as well as I can through text, but if none of you do the same thing, it might be difficult to understand.
I've had OCD since age 5 at the latest. I was predisposed to having it when I was born, and it probably got triggered when my dad died at 3.5yo. I remember my mom saying, "Stop doing that with your eyes!" once when she was talking to me (at 5yo), because I was doing a ritual and she didn't understand why I was moving my eyes back and forth. So anyway...
I have a touch of germophobia, checking, lots of intrusive thoughts, rumination, anxiety; a touch of everything, it seems. But the most dominant theme(?) I have is making patterns.
I make patterns out of literally anything and everything. I draw lines in the air with my eyes, connecting random (but soon to be important) points, and have to retrace the line exactly a 2nd time. If I fail, a pattern starts. I have to "undo" the 2nd time before I can go back and "undo" the 1st time. That usually doesn't work out, because it's difficult to retrace exactly, so I do things differently a 3rd, 4th, etc time, and get into a very complicated "game" of remembering what I did the previous time, and working backward to undo it, until I undo the 1st line I drew. This rarely happens and just have to stop after I get to a point to where it's just too complicated. It gets much worse than just looking around though.
It can and does involve every part of me. Setting my hand down and noticing the pressure and temperature on my fingertips and whatever other skin is making contact with a surface; what color and texture I'm looking at. Was I blinking? Breathing in or out? How full were my lungs? Was I (God forbid) swallowing at the time? If so, I have to repeat every single factor the exact same way, or I add another layer to the pattern to undo. It is exhausting and pervasive. A bit maddening as well.
What really sucks is that it is so natural to me. I don't even notice I'm doing it. If I don't notice I'm doing it, how do I stop it? It's been the way I think since I was 4! I'm pretty lucky to be a person who can (mostly) hide my rituals, but at the same time I wish people could see how bad it is. If I had to turn the lights on and off a certain # of times, I would notice and maybe be able to stop myself, but it isn't like that. I'm glad no one would watch me doing that and make fun of me or put me down, but I also have nobody seeing how much I'm suffering and how awful it is. I really am trapped in my head. My mind being a prison is very accurate!
I actually have stopped myself plenty of times, but if I'm doing it literally every waking moment, the number of times I stop myself in a day is insignificant. I don't know how to change thought patterns I've had since I was a toddler.
I met 1 person (in actual real life - not the internet!) who had the same type. After reading and searching this sub, it seems like a one in a billion chance that I met that guy.
One more thing, and this seems kind of important, but all the people I've read about talk about how they think something bad will happen (to whomever) if they don't do their rituals. I don't have that, but instead I just get the sensation that something bad will happen. That overwhelming sense of dread you get, but nothing specific happening to anyone or anything. Anyone else like this?? Thanks in advance to everyone.
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OCD
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I should have been working but I felt a bit down, so I transferred [Black Dog Institute's mood diary](https://www.blackdoginstitute.org.au/wp-content/uploads/2020/04/19-dailymoodchart.pdf) into Google Sheets:
https://docs.google.com/spreadsheets/d/1ortqwKPNGFMQ4Db32by3E9nOKlAKQZgYlAPgJg1WdmI/edit?usp=sharing
Feel free to grab a copy
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ADHD
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Not looking for help just need to vent. I have been having such intense anxiety over the fear of being cancelled lately. Literally for no reason. I generally hold very progressive views, I have not done anything cancel-worthy and as far as I know there is no one who has it out for me in any way. Still I can’t escape this crushing fear that someone will come after me or that I may have said or done something in my past that could be taken out of context and get my life ruined. Ugh I just wish I could enjoy a day off like a normal person without totally spinning out
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OCD
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I've just started to get diagnosed with PTSD but now I'm starting to question everything. So far I've talked with a dr but havent gotten a therapist yet. I was started on meds but i kinda stopped them. My mom is visiting in a week and I can only remember good memories. I know there were bad things in my childhood but all I can think of now is the good times. I'm starting to think that I'm wrong and everything was ok as a kid. At the same time when i was younger i told people about my mom and they always told her what i said so I'm terrified shell find out about what I've been doing on her visit. Or I'll spend money on a therapist and they will tell me it's all in my head and everything was fine. I just feel like this is all wrong and I'm wrong about everything. I dont know what to do I just feel horrible.
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ptsd
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23F. Just started uni this year and finished my first semester exams. My mental health has just been the worst to the point of suicidal ideation. Tried the free therapy uni offers and it turned out to be useless. On top of it all, I've done really bad in all my exams and will most probably end up with the worst score in class. That absolutely fucked up whatever self worth I've had for myself and was like the final nail on my coffin.. I've distanced myself from literally everyone because it...just feels strangely overwhelming to put on an okay persona. I've tried to talk to my friends and family to the point I feel like I'm perceived as a negative person to be around with. So I've stopped that.and I can't drop out at this point due to some reason. Everything is overwhelming me and I don't want to stay awake. I know this sounds very incoherent. I'd really like it if someone with similar experience can kinda talk to me about this. And I'm also down for long term friendships.
Excuse the really bad grammar. My head is not straight.
Any help is appreciated.
Thanks and have a great day
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depression
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I think this would get downvoted to hell on r/ApplyingToCollege. I hope this doesn't happen here.
I just want a college that focuses on academics and its internal interactions between the students. I don't care if you're the leader of 100 clubs or won 100 national level medals or raised 100000$ to chidren in aftica or planted 1000 trees. I just want you to be able to work well in the feild you're studying and to have a tight knit community in the college
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aspergers
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I have had POCD for awhile and delt with false attraction/arousal (or what I think it is) for the majority of my time having it, and it’s always felt very realistic, but what I’m going through now feels so unbelievably real I can’t shake it. I don’t get an erection from it, but my body feels aroused and it feels like I have this “fetish” for kids who act like teens. I don’t think this is my mind fucking with me anymore I think this is just actual arsoual. A lot of the times I feel like I actually like kids and shit like wtf is wrong with me anymore. If anyone is experiencing something similar or wants to talk to me I would really appreciate it.
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OCD
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How do you cope with your shitty existence? 39 year old male. Family all fucked up and we barely talk. No friends. No significant other. I overeat constantly. Hopefully one of these times it will kill me. I think I’ve come close. I make “ok” money but it’s hard to work most days.
No one wants single men around. I have completely stopped even trying to date as it’s just more failure.
Maybe there’s a coping method I haven’t tried. Maybe not. What do you do?
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depression
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Basically my ocd likes to switch from one obsession to another. It’s gone from harm ocd, germ ocd, religion ocd, relationship ocd, and now hocd. So pretty much whenever I manage to control my thoughts on one obsession it changes to something else. Has anyone experienced this? I also will be okay for a month or so then I’ll have two to three weeks of extreme anxiety and guilt and one of the past obsessions will come back. But they eventually subside. But when there here they are really bad. Is this normal? I’d just like to know that I’m not alone in this because it makes me feel crazy.
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OCD
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I posted yesterday about how my OCD had become debilitating. I talked about one of the events that triggers my obsession and my therapist responded in a way that caused me to have a panic attack afterwards. I told him about a extremely taboo erotica story I had read when I was 16 and how it feeds my intrusive thoughts. His response was "Do you have fantasies like that as a adult?" And it triggered me. I explained that theses do not translate into real feelings and that I feel tremendous guilt and shame over it. He said with that in mind that it's just my anxiety. But after the session my mind ran lose. And now I'm worried that he doesn't think it's my anxiety and that I am that type of person
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OCD
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We learn so many helpful techniques in therapy to help prepare us for tough moments. We learn how to properly respond to the OCD so that we aren't giving in and making it stronger. But how many of us actually have the mental capacity in moments of intense-anxiety to search through out toolbox and pick out the perfect one to get us through in the moment? It's usually after the fact that we can reflect on what we could have done differently to help us better deal with the OCD or anxiety. What's been super helpful for me are these mindful reminders. They're bracelets with phrases that are pulled directly from Cognitive-Behavioral Therapy. They say things like "brave the uncomfortable," "embrace uncertainty," or "i let go of what i can't control" that remind us, wherever we are, that we are stronger than our anxiety and we are stronger than our OCD. Reminders that act as a little nudge that our therapists might give us while in-session. They've helped me a lot. Check them out. [www.thinkpresently.com](https://www.thinkpresently.com)
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Like politics and stuff of the sorts. Someone saying something that you don’t agree with isn’t a “trigger” a trigger is what happens when I get into any sort of slight disagreement and go full flight or fight mode. A trigger is when I see someone with the same face as my attacker. A trigger is when I see someone staring at me and get ready to stab them. A trigger is not when someone doesn’t agree and say everything you want them to.
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ptsd
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im trying to write a personal statement to apply to college but im bad at writing. both in my native language and in English. i wish i could have a mentor/counselor that accepts to help me in the process of writing.
the same thing happens every time. i have an idea for a sentence. i struggle to find a way of putting it out. every sentence literally takes me half an hour to write. i end up either writing something bad or getting distracted by another thing.
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aspergers
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Looking for new friends who are willing to listen and talk
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depression
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This is my second year of high school
There was a girl who faked a friendship with me made sure that I got feelings for her and that I would be harassed because I cared to much about her. Once I told a friend that I was worried about her then I was harassed by people saying that I was planning on raping her she lead it all for the background she even got someone to try to fight me I then realized that she was trying to get me to kill myself so I vent to a friend that I was mad at her for that she then took me to court were both her and her mother said that I am the worst person ever her mother then said after the judge which they lied to BTW that the girl has for the whole been going into a shell and didn't smile but I have seen her smile and then her mom said that she feels bad for what I had to go through and she is happy that I feel better even though both of them lied and said that I was going to shoot up the school
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depression
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So this sounds silly but to me it’s very uncomfortable. I have this problem when watching tv or my phone or even playing games, that I forget how to watch the tv ect . I panic as I don’t know where I’m supposed to look and can’t relax and I’m constantly trying to adjust my vision. I realise this is stupid but it’s extremely uncomfortable and taking the joy out of everything I find relaxing. Any tips or tricks to combat this ? Thanks
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OCD
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I’ve been taking adderall XR 30mg @8a.m. for about 6 months now with amazing results. About a month ago though, I started waking up multiple times during the night. I don’t feel rested at all. Could the meds be causing this, or is it just my ADHD torturing me? I’m just confused because this started out of nowhere. Anyone else experience anything like this?
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ADHD
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I got diagnosed with ocd a little over a month ago, and my therapist put me on erp last week. To start, we did my sensorimotor ocd. I couldn’t read books because everytime I did, I would focus too much on my blinking and stress over it. This would lead me to focus on my breathing, and then my swallowing. Well, after a little over one week, I can happily say I can read books again without the blinking issues. ERP really does work!
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OCD
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Hello everyone. I'm going to try to keep this as concise as possible to avoid wandering all that much from hearing what anyone's thoughts are.
About 2 months ago now I finally got my diagnosis for ADHD after a 6 month rigamarole with the specialist waiting on results. The specialist suggested that I would benefit from medication and continued work with my therapist. At the time I was somewhat relieved because I had much more certainty that everything going on with me was ADHD and not something else. Since then Ive been working with my primary physician trying to find a medication that works for me. So far I've been through 3 different ones and now I am on my 4th. I expected there to be some trial and error involved but its getting a bit disheartening at this point. I dont expect this one to me the one either really given how I feel on it which comes to my question for you all.
What should I be expecting from the pills to help with really? I was diagnosis as primarily inattentive and just really suffer from not being able to get motivated when I need or want to be. Theres more to it of course like the comorbidities involved like anxiety as well. So far the best luck Ive had with any of the pills is with concerta which gave me just much more focus for a decent period of time but it felt like it came and went through the day and then after they wore off I ended up going through a drop in mood. All in all though non of the pills I've tried have really helped with an anxiety, or my fidgetting(the concerta made me fidget even more really), or really any other part of my ADHD.
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So what it comes down to is I dont know if I am expecting too much from medication and I need to just find one that deals with the focus/motivation to do things and learn to cope with the rest or what.
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ADHD
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I've been taking antidepressants (ssri, tca, snri, benzodiazepine etc) for 6 months now but I still cant focus/understand texts.
Im currently 12th grade and have a CSAT coming up next november.
it would be highly appreciated if you have any tips on studying. thank you
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depression
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I’m pretty sure I have ADHD (inattentive type). Like I have every single quality. I talked to my therapist and she agrees and it’s explained all my life.
I’m just curious if anyone can agree on how I feel. I’m just now trying to put it into words and what I’ve come up with is I feel like a 12 year old having to adult. Imagine forcing a 12 year old to go to meetings, sit at a boring desk job for hours, balance a schedule, keep up with doctors appointments, take constant criticism and rejection, maybe raise children etc. sure a slightly responsible 12 year old but that’d be really stressful for them. I also feel I gave the nice qualities such as creativity, imagination, compassion, hopefulness etc. I feel it sounds kind of mean, like sure I am smarter then a 12 year old but still. (Im 20). What are your thoughts? I’m sure everyone has a different experience.
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ADHD
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I had an appointment scheduled for last week, but I only realised the day before that it was half an hour before uni (I enrolled very recently, so I'm still getting used to the new schedule). So after I tracked down the clinic's email ~~because I wrote the one she gave me wrong~~, which I only managed on the day of the appointment, I asked to reschedule it, for today at 10am. I even wrote it down on my notes app.
Come today, I wake up at roughly 10:30. Shortly afterwards, I get a phone call. Who could be calling me at this... *Oh.* God, I'm a dumbass who somehow didn't even make the connection that I had to wake up early.
This marks the third time I've missed a session with this particular therapist, I'm mortified.
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ADHD
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I regularly lose my shit over stuff I did between the ages of 12-16. I'm only 17, so some of it was not \*that\* long ago but damn... I've changed and grown so much in literally just the past 6 months.
A lot of it has to do with fanfiction i read (sexual and non-sexual) that was inappropriate/weird/problematic.... I worry it says something about who I am and it makes me like... tainted or perverted or whatever. I wish that I hadn't been able to access the kind of stuff I did when I was that young. I know that thoughts are just thoughts, reading something isn't the same as doing it etc. etc. but its hard out here.
I was just starting to feel a bit better and then I had a new memory. I just don't want to live with all of this.
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OCD
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**potential trigger warning: mentions of burns, blood, and infection, might trigger someone's contamination ocd somehow or really gross them out**
i mildly burned myself while baking like every other human being on this earth and now i'm trying to find burn healing remedies on the internet and i'm applying way too much antibiotic and i'm really stressed out because i need to heal if i don't stop fixing my burn i wont heal and now i've rubbed it with neosporin so much it's bleeding and leaking pus
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this isn't the first time tho, i got a sunburn a few months ago and i was SOOO obsessive about it that it ended up getting infected because of how much i touched it and applied random creams to it and peeled it, etc.
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i know this isn't safe and i swear no matter how bad my ocd and anxiety gets that i will never do this again but i took three ibuprofens instead of half of one and used a bunch of online tricks that didn't work to "heal" my period cramps
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i feel like if i'm not obsessively doing shit to my injuries then they will never heal and get infected and i'll be left in agony much longer than i should
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tldr: has anyone else experienced this type of ocd when it comes to attempting to speed up injury healing? i also notice that after the injury i take 'extra caution' (compulsions) to avoid the injury from happening again like my sunburn i got a few months ago made me wear sunscreen even if i'm gonna be out for five minutes, and i take tylenol the day before i expect my period to avoid getting period cramps
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OCD
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So over the last few years, I feel like I've been struggling with depression and anxiety and it's been more noticeable during the last couple of years. I've been kind of putting it off for the longest time since those thoughts about depression mostly come before going to sleep and since during the day I'm mostly busy/distracted with something (work, studies, games, series) that I end up putting it off and feel like I'm fine.
Anxiety is probably what has been more present with me during the day and might be having some signs of depression (lack of motivation and self-care, overall sadness/satisfaction with my life) that have been showing more each week that goes by. (Some of them have been there for years, and I've only been thinking about them recently).
So, at night I always think that I need help and decide that the next day I'll tell my parents that I need to go to a psychiatrist, and I always end up forgetting about it or letting it go.
Also, how do I approach my parents and tell them that I need help? They always supported me and always will, but how do I tell them without making them feel like they're bad parents because this subject might come as a shock/surprise to them since I still live with them (I'm 25) and don't show/talk to them about any of this.
Thank you.
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depression
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I’ve been in a depression hole for two weeks now and it start with leaving work early because “i didn’t feel good” and now I’ve called out yesterday and today… that’s so unlike me now I’ve learned to go to work and just deal with what I’m feeling.. last week I upped my dose on lexapro and ever since then my minds been foggy and unclear I’m hoping it goes away soon. I feel like I don’t want to interact with anyone and it’s effecting my school work as well. I only have three weeks left of classes i just want to finish out strong 🥺 and go back to
Work and stop feeling this way.
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depression
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I (21 M)really don't know what to do with myself right now, I've been dating this girl for four years, she was my first girlfriend, and she broke up with me because she didn't want to deal with my emotions. To make things even worse, she started dating her "gay" best friend a week after we broke up. I feel like absolute shit, and I don't what to do anymore. I've been mainly coping with alcohol and loveless sex with this random chick I met online just for the dopamine, but I feel so fucked up. I've lost all trust in women, and I stay up all night thinking about it. I was already extremely depressed before the breakup, and now I just feel like breaking down and crying in public every time I see a girl who looks like her, or I walk in public feeling like I don't exist. I know I shouldn't be so hung up on a girl, but, stupidly, I believed I would spend the rest of my life with this girl. I stopped taking my prescribed sertraline a couple of weeks ago, it wasn't helping. How can I see the joy in life again?
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depression
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Any other scapegoats internalize feeling like a bad person and get paranoid others will think you are even though you're not? How are you detoxing that internalized belief?
My sociopathic mother projected their evilness onto me. They called me evil and a bad apple. They turned the whole family against me and I was heavily scapegoated. I now see that they were the evil one and were jealous and hated me especially because of dad was abusing me.
So throughout my life, I felt like a bad person and when I was young it became a self fulfilling prophecy since sometimes kids do make mistakes which my mom loved because then she would have proof: "see? she is bad!"I learned to stop caring to a degree what others thought of me because they were going to hate and find reasons not to like me anyways. For the most part, I walked to the beat of my own drum and developed strong integrity and values at a young age.
So now I am in my late 20's and have really worked on developing my sense of self and boundaries. I now know I was never evil and am actually very empathic and what one may call an empath. So while I know this about myself and know I always try to do the right thing and when I don't I hold myself accountable and change.. I still don't trust that others see this in me and am suspicious they will assume I will do bad things. I still haven't detoxified myself from the bad message. I have had experiences with a couple bad therapists who acted like I was bad and judged me after I was open to them about my past and fighting with my sociopathic mom (one told me that they thought i was a borderline and there was no cure and was hopeless. they then acted scared of me. wtf!).
So a lot of my healing work over the years has been self isolating myself from people as a way of setting a boundary from others' assumptions of me. This way I could figure out who I was instead of sucking up others' thoughts which is easy to do as an empath.
When something bad happens, I often assume someone will think I did it like my sociopathic mom and brother used to do. In the past, I sometimes would say bad things about myself so others would think poorly of me because it was normal and familiar for people to see me as bad I thought.. and it made me feel in control if I made them not like me right away instead of being hurt when they rejected me later on. I basically was setting up scenarios over and over again where I would be scapegoated.
I would also overshare and feel like I had to prove I was honest and a good person to others.. which of course made people suspicious. I have internalized self blame for things that were not my fault such as sexual abuse. Also, I am a mixed black woman, so I have been negatively stereotyped at times and have had to learn how to detoxify from society's messages as well.
Who else struggles with worrying that others will think you are bad and how are you getting rid of that toxic message?
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ptsd
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Hi guys!
I recently got diagnosed with PTSD but I’m having trouble coming to terms with it. I do not believe that I’m depressed in any way because I don’t show many signs of it, but I also wouldn’t know because I’ve never had it.
Lately I’ve had times where the memory of the event just pops up in my brain for no reason, or I do get triggered. I sometimes feel emotionally disconnected from people. The best way to put it is almost as if real people seem more distant then people in like vlogs or tv shows as of late. And then I just have random, really intense fatigue. But I have rather good levels of confidence, and I love myself as a person and feel strong. Do yall think this is aligned with PTSD alone or some sort of depression? And do these symptoms tend to fade as PTSD is treated? Like after treatment and therapy do the feelings of being connected to others come back? I’m trying to be really optimistic and hopeful
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ptsd
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Like, sometimes I'm feeling down and I remember some good memories from the past in order to make me feel good, is this rumination?
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OCD
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“From This One Place” by Sara Groves is a beautiful and very honest/relatable song for those of us who struggle with OCD. I think the hope in it (through Jesus!) is very real. I love the chorus:
“From this one place I can’t see very far,
In this one moment I’m square in the dark,
These are the things I will trust in my heart:
You can see something else.”
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OCD
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So I'm meeting my friend tomorrow afternoon and I'm not sure how it's going to go for many reasons. First, I haven't spoken to her in over a year and I got my OCD diagnosis after we stopped talking. I've known her for half my life and she struggles with mental illness as well so hopefully she'd be supportive, but you can never really be sure, my entire family rejected my diagnosis so what are the odds she'd be supportive? This'll also be the first time really going somewhere in a very long time. Obviously there have been times I've gone to the store or whatever, but nothing recreational. I'm not sure how I'm going to handle it. I'm also worried about meeting her in general. Like I said, we hadn't talked in a year, and I cut off communications with her because I didn't like the path she was going down. She was constantly in some kind of drama and her new friends were bad news. I tried to help her at the time but she wasn't having it so I just quit talking to her. She messaged me a couple days ago out of the blue and was all apologetic and saying that she misses me. I hadn't thought about her for a little bit and could honestly say that I'm fine leaving the past in the past as long as she's committed herself to being a better person. But I'm still apprehensive about the whole thing, I've only spoken to her once and I don't really know what to expect when I go to her house. She directly asked me to come to her house to talk to her in person. She said we were probably just going to watch a movie with her and her brother and talk and catch up. I'm supposed to leave at 1PM and it's 2AM now and I'm worried that I'm going to sleep through it and so I'm struggling with if I should sleep at all, so that's just another thing to worry about. Hopefully it goes well, I'm only supposed to visit for a couple hours so if it ends up going poorly at least that'll be the end of it, I can just go back home and forget about it. I'm worried about how it'll go, but I think I'll be okay at the end of it. Anyway, that's all, just wanted to get this off my chest I guess. Sorry for the sloppy writing, it's almost 2AM and I don't really feel like forming paragraphs and stuff so this is just going to be a wall of text.
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OCD
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I recently started taking Sertraline/Zoloft 2 days ago. I keep googling things about it (ruminating, I know, bad) and I’m scared. I’m worried it’ll make me a different person or that it’ll shorten my lifespan, etc. I also have health anxiety. So pretty much all of my fears are around that.
I guess I just wanted to say it to someone. But also if anyone has anything nice to say about being medicated that would be encouraging.
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OCD
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I’d obsess over this one specific thing and not be able to convince myself that it’s not actually what I perceive it as, then have a few sudden moments of clarity where I realize “oh that was really irrational.” and eventually go back to obsessing over it until it gives out and my mind finds something new to ruminate over
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OCD
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I know this has been touched on here but I’m 18 and one thing I’ve noticed with my PTSD is when it really spikes up (more nightmares, hypervigilance/anxiety) I have trouble remembering anything at all, not even to do with forgetting memories of the event, just anything. My memories are basically an inkling of knowing I have to do something but not being able to place what it is, and even if I do remember I remember it wrong, I’ve shown up at parties days early on multiple occasions, rocked up to work at the wrong shift times, forgotten things I’ve agreed to do, I lose everything and it’s so embarrassing and everyone can see my memories are bad because my coworkers are constantly reminding me of things (which is kind of them and I appreciate it) but I’ll still forget or get confused, I don’t like being unreliable. I’ve always been an organised person and I like to be prepared but it’s almost impossible with how shocking my memory is lately, I have almost no capacity to absorb information and I’ve just become the girl who forgets everything.
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ptsd
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Or that they constantly seem to repeat themselves over and over like i am too stupid to understand what they're saying, it is super exhausting to listen to.
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aspergers
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ADHD
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There is plenty of money for weapons, sports, TV, movies, etc. but when it comes to just getting food to everyone, we fail.
I get why we fail, we are wired up to be apathetic about it, but it's hard on the soul. So many problems are easily fixable if the people in charge would just act in the people's interest, yet here we are.
And in my country, America, I really do believe the elections are legit. Every year there are at least a half dozen or so candidates for various positions that seem to have a real vision of the future, and be willing to change things.
Yet people vote for the same tired policies and seem confused when the results remain the same. And it crushes me.
I'm wired up to just want to die when faced with this problem, which doesn't help either. It all seems so hopeless.
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depression
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i’ve had this problem since i was a little kid. i’m 16 now and it’s gotten worse. i have big blisters on the back of my head that is very red and inflamed due to picking scabs there. my mother is constantly looking through my scalp and keeps telling me i’ll get an infection. which isn’t great for me because then i’ll be thinking i have skin cancer or some wack shit. i used to do this with my ears, and would pick the scabs i created by literally tearing a layer of skin off my ear with my nails. i do this when i’m very stressed and anxious as it helps me to relax and focus. sometimes i just do it when i’m bored. is it just my ocd? does anyone else have this problem? and i could treat it? thank you! :)
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OCD
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So I've been taking 150mg of zoloft every day for 2 years. I had to taper off my meds since I expected to miss my psych appointments due to having left the country (I brought all my meds with me but I knew they would run out so I slowly tapered down. I cant continue seeing a psychiatrist since government treatment is limited for non citizens and i cannot afford seeing a private psych). I\\ve been tapering off to taking only 50mg a day now after months of tapering down but ive completly run out and the withdrawal is absolutely kicking my ass rn (brain zaps are the fucking worst). Anyone just stopped taking meds before with any advice on how to get through this? I looked it up and apparently discontinuation symptoms could last anywhere from a week to a month. I just dont think I physically have it in me to get through this shit rn. I feel like jumping off a bridge and pulling all the hair out of my scalp rn. Help?
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depression
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Hi,
I've posted previously about the insane productivity gains I've seen since taking meds.
I'm about 3 months in and my heart rate is now worryingly high.. I'm scoring circa 100 BPM when taking pressure readings.
I'm not sure what do, has anyone experienced this and combatted it?
I don't want to come off the meds but I equally value living more and I can't find much online other than seek a doctor..
I stopped vaping yesterday as I know that can strain the cardiovascular system.
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ADHD
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# I'm going to take the liberty to speak for all of us as a collective/community, to all of us. Empathy all around.
In the past 30 minutes I've come up with loads of ideas for posts that would blow your mind, in every possible field of what's interesting, fun and relatable to us easily distracted weirdos. But I couldn't decide what to share... *and also I needed coffee.. ugh my fingers are cold... I should turn up the heat... ermm.. what was I doing? (Just had a thought that we might be the best at flow-of-mind writing btw? also just had to look up that it's called "stream of consciousness", and now I have 10 more tabs open in my browser.)*
**ANYWAY!!!**
I think that we all do that *(come up with ideas)*, all the freakin' time, but rarely/never execute on it. All the lost potential.
**But I just wanted to tell you all that we all know. We know! We agree! We cannot possibly share all our brilliant thoughts and it's frustrating as f\*\*\*. But I'm certain we share this experience.The world would explode of overexposure to amazingness, if we shared all our brilliant ideas. It's honestly a fact, our ideas are brilliant. But let's just feel a little bit easier knowing that at least WE know.**
So yeah, if you don't share that amazing idea, thought, fun fact, joke, question etc. know that without ever talking - someone out there with a mind like yours knows.
*Now I should start doing the tasks I had planned for 3 hours ago. And also now 3,5 hours ago, after spending time changing the post... okay now I've spent another 30 minutes on it...*
***TL;DR: Your ideas are amazing and brilliant, even if you don't share them.***
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ADHD
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Hello everyone,
So I’ve in the last weeks stumbled upon the very high likelihood that I have ADHD. I’m 25M and it’s such a helpful revelation. So many of the comments and posts in this group make me go, “oh I’m not alone!” Or “I thought I was the only one with that problem!”
Now, I’m wanting to medicalize it because I also tried some Adderall from a friend and had the calmest, most centered experience. It was like all of me was in one place for once. I wasn’t tuned into the infinite realities occurring around me.
So my question is, as someone with low income, no insurance, and about to be moving back to the US (I’m a citizen) how would you recommend getting a diagnosis?
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ADHD
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i’m at my wits end with college lol. almost 23, been in college since 18, and i haven’t finished my second year yet to even get my associate’s.
i keep having these brief moments of “YES I CAN FINALLY DO IT” and then it fizzles out within a week or two because i remember how hard it is to do school and work at the same time. my adhd is unmedicated as i have tachycardia so nobody wants to put me on stimulants, and strateera would conflict with my anti-depressant and if i’m depressed i will continue to function poorly so i’d rather cope with the adhd somehow.
right now i work at a theme park. there is upwards movement in the company (and it’s generally easy on my adhd) but as much as i like this job i don’t want to do it forever. i’d just really like to hear what others are doing so i can maybe have some hope and/or ideas. i constantly feel like such a failure. my older sister has adhd too but she graduated early and works for the fckin government now. idk what to do lol.
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ADHD
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I just realized that I turned into a jerk from my ocd. Whenever I got frustrated with my ocd, I would take it on others, I hate myself. To add on to this, I would purposely throw tantrums and sometimes even blame it on my OCD. Now my ocd is obsessing over the fact I might be a sociopath who likes power and control.
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OCD
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It's like the title says. I hate myself. I don't know why. There are a few reasons I'm sure about but, I just get these extreme mood swings where I just can't function. I distance myself from people, and start to think about how I can punish myself for being a bad person.
The stress and pressure due to college doesn't help either, neither does being very far from home.
I tried talking to friends, and it doesn't feel like it helps. Once I get back into another bad mood swing, nobody seems to notice even if I try my hardest to make it obvious. At this point, I think they are sick of it. But of course they wouldn't say so.
It is killing me. I want to have someone whom I could truly say everything too. And have them really care and try to understand me instead of giving advice based on what THEY have experienced.
I just want someone to hold me close and tell me it's going to be alright.
It gets worse every time. The swings last longer, and hurt deeper. I even started thinking about self harm.
I really hate myself. What's wrong with me? Why am I like this?
Sometimes, like right now, I wish I never existed so I don't bother people with this.
Sorry for doing this to you, my friends. I really wish I wasn't this miserable.
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depression
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How long did it take for you to feel the effects? What is your therapeutic dose? Side effects that you had but went away (or are bearable enough to live with)?
Recently started and I just need some perspective. Thanks.
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depression
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Pretty much the title. There are several sleep hypnosis videos for OCD. They claim to lessen symptoms and thoughts and such. Has anyone ever tried them or is knowledgeable about the subject?
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OCD
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I work in a highly demanding public safety field. About a couple of weeks ago, I was sent out of town for a deployment. When I got to our destination I found that I had forgotten my meds. Of course, upon discovering this I started kicking myself pretty hard thinking that I’d be a soup sandwich for the rest of the deployment.....
Nope, it went fine. I worked 12-13 hour days, operated vehicles, and didn’t kill anyone or break anything.
My question is then, is this; could this mean I should go off my meds? How would I know?
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ADHD
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I remember listening to my mum talking with someone about whatever, i dont remember s#!+ but she mentioned that i use different tones depending on who im talking to, (Younger, older, Stranger, Familliar ect.) And i was like, 'wait, i do?'
Anyone else do this? am i just weird?
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aspergers
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I’m starting cbt soon and i know everyone’s different but was just wondering if many people found it helpful
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OCD
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My ocd is about hypothetical, forgotten, promises to Gods that I may have made on purpose but without wanting it, due to ocd anxiety.
So, sometimes, when I remember something in the past, my ocd is giving me hypothetical scenarios like
ocd: what if you made a deal with Gods and asked for punihsment in case you do that?
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OCD
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So, I’ve known for the longest time that working for people who don’t give a damn about me as a person or my disability isn’t an option. I’ve done it. I’ve had a million jobs where people have taken advantage of my loyalty and forced me to do things I wasn’t comfortable with, while underpaying me. So I want to start a business. Fiscally, I’ve researched it and have the capital to cover it; but I know myself, better yet, I know my ADHD. I’m not good with things that don’t reward me instantly (shout out to that low dopamine level). I don’t want to spend the money starting a business, even if it’s something I’m passionate about… if I’m just going to fall apart when things get difficult or I lose interest. How do you guys stay motivated? How do you continue to work on projects when you’ve lost the drive? I’ve wanted to start this business for years, it’s my dream and after saving every penny I made from my last shitty job I’m ready to start.
¡¡Please keep your advice sympathetic as I don’t want to be talked out of this. I just want to know how I can find ways to keep myself motivated when my brain enters meltdown mode!!
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ADHD
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how i am is the class clown and can put a smile on anyones face during the day but at night, all i can think about it cuts and being sad and just numb. is this depression?
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depression
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I’m seeing a psychiatrist for general reasons, one being that I’m kind of convinced that I’m a manipulator and everything I’m doing is fake or for malicious reasons. Anyway, today I was walking back from school and my mum was going to pick me up - I called her to say that I was walking and we should meet but then my phone died half way through the call. Cue me rushing around trying to find somewhere to charge my phone or find her before ultimately panicking my way into a restaurant to use their phone. Now, after a situation like this, I’m thinking - did I let my phone die on purpose? Was I even that panicked or did I manipulate panic in myself or something. After every situation, if I forget something - I’ve just pretended to forget it, if I’ve done something wrong - I’ve done it on purpose. All of these are accompanied by a panging sensation that I’m just a manipulator - it feels like I’m enjoying what’s happening or the chaos Im causing or something. Additionally, I don’t know if I feel guilty or not - I know OCD is normally accompanied by guilt so I just don’t know. I don’t know how I’m going to broach this with my psychiatrist or with anyone really because when I write it down the sensation feels like it’s gone away and there never was a problem to begin with or writing it down makes me feel like I’m manipulating even more. I thought maybe I’m just delusional but even the thought of that probably means I’m not. If anyone has felt anything similar please let me know.
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OCD
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CW: Sexual intrusive thoughts
Hey! I’m a recent diagnosis, and I have what my therapist says is Pure O, and mine relatively revolve around sexual intrusions with a family member.
After telling my husband, we decided to take sex off the table for a bit. I’m finally getting to a place where I feel ready, and today when he was doing a bit of dirty talk an intrusion regarding this family member doing what was being described happened and I couldn’t continue having a moment with my husband.
We were both exhausted after a 6 mile hike, hadn’t really eaten and were a little high. I’m certainly not sure if that had anything to do with it but definitely curious.
It’s been soooo frustrating trying to gather up the courage to be intimate! I would love others thoughts on what could be helpful to seek out to work on this.
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OCD
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Hi All! I am pretty new to this community. I was diagnosed in middle school and was on and off medication til I was 20. I’m 32 years old.
I have developed a lot of routines to cope with a lot of my major life impacting issues or maybe that is just what I tell myself ha. Every so often I just completely fall off. Stop writing everything in my planner, stop cleaning, only eat easy junk and eat out a lot. Stop doing laundry and dishes. Then I’m overwhelmed and feel burnt out fuck off for a bit still. Then eventually I start to clean and make my own food and it slowly comes back together. Thank god for automatic payments.
I guess I am just wondering if this is common to a lot of people, I just wanted to get it off my chest because honestly I always feel so awful after it happens. I feel like it sets me way back even if that’s not true. I feel like I can’t get anything right. Thanks for listening and any suggestions or commiserating.
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ADHD
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Throwaway because I'm shy.
At this point I don't know where to look for help so I turned to reddit. I have two problems: loneliness and a huge fear of people. I find most people rude, superficial and unempathetic, and most interactions I have make me feel worse than before, to the point of breaking down once I get home. And there's also the braincrushing dysphoria that keeps me awake at night, makes me hate the mere thought of showering, let alone using my appearance as an interface for social interaction.
I've been depressed for a year and a half and had minimal social contact due to lockdown and feeling bad in general. Now I'm lonely as hell and I don't even have my SO for support anymore since we parted ways. My family and my therapist are no help either, and I have no job so no colleagues to talk to. I only really talk to people online, but it's not enough. Do you have any idea what I could do to improve the situation?
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Thank you for reading.
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depression
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Durring lockdown I started having POCD and that was triggering weird arousal feelings. I managed to overcome it, but yesterday the weird feeling came back. It's embarrassing to describe, but it feels like a dull tingly 'orgasmy' feeling in my foot. I can also feel it in my groin and back of the head almost. Like I'm hypersensitive. I went down the internet rabbit whole and discovered PGAD (persistant genital arousal disorder) and I had a massive anxiety attack. These things seem to happen when I'm under a lotof stress. But my mind always goes to the worst and I start obsessing. Has anyone experienced anything remotely similar?
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OCD
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I'm doing ERP and working on my aversion to sticky things. Does anyone whose done similar work have suggestions for videos that trigger your anxiety related to sticky things? Things like people not washing stickiness off their hands and shaking other people's hands, or getting the sticky thing all over the walls and the furniture, in their bed, that sort of thing? Thanks.
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OCD
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Life feels like endless pain and very few moments of joy, in which, sooner or later, you find out that happiness is just a big lie you tell yourself to carry on.
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depression
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I feel like my breath is sort of like this internal "appendage" that balances my nervous system. I've been riddled with so much anxiety in my life I've sort of view my anxiety as something like "touch" instead of an emotion.
It's almost like an extreme practice of the emotional mind and wise mind in DBT. The wise mind guides the breath and the diaphragm and keeps my emotional mind at bay to keep up my ability to mask the emotion.
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ptsd
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I seem to have a hard time keeping them. It’ll usually be super attached to that person for a few weeks to a few months then this giant urge to just get out of it. My mind can go on and on racing about how I should get out of it. I shouldn’t be with them, all that jazz. It’s very irritating and I can’t comprehend if it’s me and my overthinking OCD brain or my ADHD side of me. If anyone knows anything, or has something similar. I’d appreciate some help. Thanks
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ADHD
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I haven't really done anything to get someone to want to love me. Platonically or otherwise.
If anybody did, they'd get hurt just like everyone else who does so.
I'm really sorry.
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aspergers
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I have a bunch of homework I’m procrastinating and I was browsing [r/fakedisordercringe](https://www.reddit.com/r/fakedisordercringe/), which is full of misinformation. But one comment stuck out to me in particular. A user said they wished that the Canadian government gave monetary aid to Canadian students. But...there are grant and loan programs for university students! ADHD is classed as a learning disability, and medication and therapy can get expensive. I compiled a list of resources and options by province and territory. In all cases, you need a medical professional (which kind varies by province- it can be a family doctor, psychiatrist, psychologist, etc) to fill out a form or provide a letter indicating that you have a permanent disability. Please use the resources available to you!
Alberta;
You need to submit a letter from a psychiatrist/psychologist as well as a Schedule 4 form. You’re eligible to recieve up to $4000.
[https://studentaid.alberta.ca/policy/student-aid-policy-manual/permanent-disability/applying-as-a-student-with-a-permanent-disability/](https://studentaid.alberta.ca/policy/student-aid-policy-manual/permanent-disability/applying-as-a-student-with-a-permanent-disability/)
British Columbia;
In BC you may be eligible for up to $10 000 in funding, but it looks like you need to contact your school’s accessibility office and go through them.
[https://studentaidbc.ca/explore/grants-scholarships/assistance-program-students-permanent-disabilities](https://studentaidbc.ca/explore/grants-scholarships/assistance-program-students-permanent-disabilities)
Manitoba;
In Manitoba, it looks like they use the Federal program, and you’re eligible for up to $4000. Scroll down the page for the “Students with Permanent Disabilities” section for more info.
[https://www.edu.gov.mb.ca/msa/planning-for-your-future/whats-available-to-me.html](https://www.edu.gov.mb.ca/msa/planning-for-your-future/whats-available-to-me.html)
Newfoundland and Labrador;
This seemed like the most comprehensive program. They provide up to an additional 520 weeks of funding if you’re taking a more manageable but reduced course load, they offer funding for therapy and other needs as well.
[https://www.gov.nl.ca/education/studentaid/disabilities/](https://www.gov.nl.ca/education/studentaid/disabilities/)
Northwest Territories;
Took some digging to find this form, but it is very short and it does exist!
[https://www.ece.gov.nt.ca/sites/ece/files/resources/disability\_assessment\_form\_3.pdf](https://www.ece.gov.nt.ca/sites/ece/files/resources/disability_assessment_form_3.pdf)
Nunavut;
Scroll down the website page to the section for Students with Disabilities. You are eligible to receive up to $8000 dollars per year, or $1000 per distance learning credit.
[https://www.gov.nu.ca/education/programs-services/financial-assistance-nunavut-students-fans](https://www.gov.nu.ca/education/programs-services/financial-assistance-nunavut-students-fans)
Nova Scotia;
Similarly to Newfoundland and Labrador, they will consider you a full time student with a reduced course load, and they work with school’s financial aid offices to figure out what you need. Their website was the easiest to navigate.
[https://novascotia.ca/studentassistance/apply/new/StudentsWithDisabilities.asp](https://novascotia.ca/studentassistance/apply/new/StudentsWithDisabilities.asp)
Ontario;
You are eligible for up to $2000 in grants for the school year. You need to get your family doctor to fill out a form.
[https://osap.gov.on.ca/prodconsumption/groups/forms/documents/forms/prdr018737.htm](https://osap.gov.on.ca/prodconsumption/groups/forms/documents/forms/prdr018737.htm)
Prince Edward Island;
Par for the course, a form needs to be filled out by a psychiatrist/psychologist and the application process through the portal seems pretty easy.
[https://www.princeedwardisland.ca/en/information/education-and-lifelong-learning/canada-student-grant-students-permanent-disabilities](https://www.princeedwardisland.ca/en/information/education-and-lifelong-learning/canada-student-grant-students-permanent-disabilities)
Quebec;
Turns out Quebec no longer offers funding for students with ADHD 😡 But please check out the federal grant assistance program.
[https://www.canada.ca/en/employment-social-development/services/education/grants/disabilities.html](https://www.canada.ca/en/employment-social-development/services/education/grants/disabilities.html)
If that doesn't work, try looking into this organization for help with scholarships and resources;
[https://www.neads.ca/en/](https://www.neads.ca/en/)
Saskatchewan;
Students can receive up to $2000 from the Saskatchewan government. It looks like you do need to complete a separate application in addition to getting a letter signed by a medical professional.
[https://www.saskatchewan.ca/residents/education-and-learning/scholarships-bursaries-grants/grants-and-bursaries/canada-saskatchewan-grant-for-services-and-equipment-for-students-with-permanent-disabilities](https://www.saskatchewan.ca/residents/education-and-learning/scholarships-bursaries-grants/grants-and-bursaries/canada-saskatchewan-grant-for-services-and-equipment-for-students-with-permanent-disabilities)
Yukon;
The government offers up to $2000 in loans per school year.
[https://yukon.ca/en/grants-permanently-disabled-students#canada-student-grant-for-students-with-permanent-disabilities](https://yukon.ca/en/grants-permanently-disabled-students#canada-student-grant-for-students-with-permanent-disabilities)
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ADHD
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does anyone know how to stick to a hyperfixation and not get burnt out from it? Because every time i hyperfixate on something I eventually get burnt out then fall into a depressive episode because i gave up but have no motivation to continue. i’m really back into skating now and I wanna stick with it and not give up. can someone give me advice on how to stay with it?
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ADHD
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I’m 19, and I often bounce up and down in my seat or while sitting on my bed. I do this when I’m happy, excited, or listening to music. My mom used to say I’m “too old” to be bouncing up and down in my seat, but now she doesn’t seem to mind anymore. I’m afraid to do this kind of stuff around strangers/other people, because I don’t want them to think I’m “crazy”, “childish”, or that something is wrong with me and become afraid of me. I’m afraid to do this around my friends (even though I don’t have many) because they might think I’m crazy and end our friendship, or stop coming over my house if they ever come over one day (I never had friends visit my house). I really enjoy bouncing up and down in a chair or in my bed, yet I feel guilty about it and sometimes I feel I should be more mature than that. I also enjoy skipping around the house while daydreaming. I don’t want other people to see me behave like this, or they’ll think I’m a lunatic.
Is this behavior common in ADHD or any other disorder?
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ADHD
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This girl and I were dating for 4ish months, then 2 months long distance, until last month. We were never in a committed relationship, because she has some serious hangups about commitment, but we agreed to tell each other if we decided to start dating other people. I asked her if we could break up and try seeing each other again in the fall (when I return for school) because I felt myself losing feelings (which I think could be due to the long distance). We were also arguing a lot for this one 3 or 4 week period; I felt like it would be short-sighted to ruin a relationship I liked a lot in person because of difficulties we had long distance. Plus, I felt like maybe giving it a second chance in a month or so would help my feelings become more clear to me. We agreed to do that, and have broken contact for the rest of the summer.
That was 4 weeks ago now. I STILL feel really conflicted about whether or not I like her, but the thing I'm wondering now is how much of that could be OCD. I was diagnosed with OCD about 4 years ago now, I received CBT for it for abt 18 months off and on 2 years ago and it helped me a lot.
Throughout our time dating, I had lots of doubts about whether or not I really liked the relationship. It's difficult to say because in lots of ways it wasn't a normal relationship - though we were exclusive, the commitment aspect wasn't really there. Plus, because of COVID restrictions we had in my college at the time, we were never able to hang out indoors or privately - quality time and physical touch were really missing from the equation, both of which are really important to me (though restrictions are looking like they'll be different this fall). However, I know for a fact that I felt genuinely happy to spend time with her lots of times. I have lots of good memories of time spent with her. What's tricky is there ARE things I don't like about her, and that makes it kind of ambiguous. Our love languages are kind of different, towards the end talking long distance got kind of boring (I felt like we were running out of things to talk about besides how our day went, we used to be able to talk for hours without getting bored), sometimes I feel like we don't have the same interests and can't relate to each other much. But I know I liked hanging out with her in person, even if it wasn't constant!!
I thought being apart would give me time to forget about it and give us a chance to try again later with a clean slate, but it's only confused me more. I can't stop myself thinking about her, multiple times a day every day, and it's become genuinely unpleasant sometimes ... I can't tell if these feelings are me disliking her, or just intense anxiety produced by OCD. Thinking about her seeing other people makes me super upset, but I feel like jealousy isn't necessarily evidence of actually caring for someone (lol this kind of feeds into another recurring obsession of mine, the "what if I don't actually like the people I date and only want to manipulate them into physical and sexual intimacy" obsession). The idea of the relationship causes a lot of discomfort for me, and I can't tell if it's me being super anxious or me reacting to genuine loss of interest in the relationship (this wouldn't be THAT unreasonable). I know there are things I liked about her but I'm so consumed that I can't even think about what they are. The doubting now is definitely even worse than when we were dating.
I still kind of want to stick to the plan of trying dating again in the fall; I feel like seeing each other in person again could make things more like the way they used to be or take away some of the doubting. But I just don't know if it's a good idea or not. I feel really bad going into a relationship not even knowing if I like the person anymore!!! What should I do??? Do these seem like ROCD symptoms?
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OCD
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My bf has Asperger's. (His mom told me)
I have ADD not medicated.
I need help to understand his perspective.
Dishes: I make alot of dishes when cooking. This stresses him. I clean some of them while food is boiling.
I think it's fine I do 80% of the dishes because I make 80% of them. But now he stressed out because he isn't cleaning up at the same level as me.
Planning: I'm awful at planning anything. I'm trying my best to plan a week in advance, bit how can I know which day we run out of ketchup?
I get a lot of help. He have said to me, he would like some help too. He needs to swallow his pride and ask for help if he wants it. He have failed this exact college more than once before. I thi k he will listen when he hits rock bottom again, but I world like to help him get help before he gets to that point.
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aspergers
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The only tip I've seen for managing appetite loss is to eat the things that sound fun to you. The issue for me is that no food is fun unless I can't eat it because of my irritable bowel syndrome. Food was already a chore and now it seems impossible.. I'm only six days in and I've only managed to eat about 3000 calories since Monday.
No real point to this just wanted to vent. Unless someone has had the same experience?
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ADHD
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Just popped into my head that I rarely hear about other aspie/autistic business owners, but I bet there are in fact many of us. You hear about engineering, software development, and animal work very often, but just not too much on the business owner front.
On a personal level I am juggling a couple different small businesses (though they are very complementary and in the same industry, so that makes it much easier to manage without going too insane). Strangely enough, they are both very people-intensive businesses. One is a cleaning business, and the other a type of staffing agency.
Anyways, just curious on a Sunday night - do you run a small business or have a side hustle as well? If so, what is it?
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aspergers
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Has anyone had any success with exposure therapy? I’m thinking about bringing it up to my therapist. I hate the fact that I get triggered so easily every time something even remotely related to what I went through is brought up. It makes me feel like I’m not in control.
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ptsd
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I’ve spent over 2 hours just staring at my book and not being able to focus. I have terrible grades and my parents are very disappointed in me, and so am I.
I never pay attention in class even though I really want to. I think I might have adhd but when I mention wanting to see a doctor to my parents I instantly get yelled at and told that I’m just lazy and am desperately looking for an excuse to not study. I’m starting to believe they’re right. I find it very hard to focus and get easily distracted, even from things that I really love.
What should I do? I feel like a failure right now.
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ADHD
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Every picture I'm in, I look... Off. To various degrees.
It's so bad I had to buy specialized equipment and experiment with different shots to get something that looks somewhat natural.
I hate being in pictures so much, the flash is almost like a trigger to me.
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aspergers
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right now, all I want is an older, good looking man to tell me that everything is going to be okay and that they are here for me.
which is probably a dangerous thing to post.
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depression
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why I am the one taking meds when it is the society's fault??? I currently live in China being a college student. I think my depression is due to the strict censorship and the political environment. having been taken to the local police office and nearly forced to take a year off just because of posting some political shit. Also I have no access to drugs. My father is conventional and dont understand me. we quarrel everyday when I am home. I am so miserable. I wanna die. Can anyone relate????
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depression
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so im disabled and my "family" keeps screaming at me to just be normal and get a job. a few days ago my mom asked what would happen if something happened to her and i didn't have a place to stay anymore and i said "i'd die." then she asked what i would do about my dog and i said "i'd have to find a place for him to go."
then 2 nights ago her alcoholic husband who got shitfaced and was raging about me existing like he very frequently does screamed that i should kill myself and "there's the knife."
Anyway, yesterday, my Mom knocks on my door shouting my name, insisting that I need to come out and talk to her. I just close my eyes and try to go back to sleep. I'm pretty sick of her constantly waking me up by this point, she's *constantly* waking me up for no reason at all for the past several weeks.
She comes in and demands that I go to the ER because I threatened to self harm. I'm bewildered and annoyed. She keeps getting stern and saying that she talked to this person and that person and Ernie (the drunk) too and that I have to go because I threatened to self harm and I said I had a place to put my dog (implying I'd actively planned to self harm). I point out that isn't what I said, I said I'd have to find a place for my dog, and that I didn't threaten to self harm, but she wasn't having any of it. So I had to go to the ER and wait for an hour to explain what was happening. I had to lay in a hallway bed for 6 hours, talked to 3 or 4 different people, explained the same story multiple times. Multiple of them expressed confusion as to why I was brought there, especially given I'm already seeing a therapist and a psychiatrist. When I left the woman said, "I don't really understand why this happened to you, but I hope things go well for you at home. I'm sorry about all of this."
I forgot to mention earlier, the drunk was grinning when I left my room to leave. He was so self satisfied. He was very unhappy when I came home. He thought I was going to get committed. When I was home I went to go wash my hands before eating (my brother picked me up from the hospital and we picked up some fast food on the way home) and Ernie sent out my mother to talk to me so she could tell me not to eat in the morning because he didn't want me to. I just stared at her because the whole situation wasn't ridiculous. When I walked past him to go back in my room he started screaming at me and I just laughed and he started having a conniption screaming about how I have 30 days and then I'm gone. Something he often does. He has kicked me out before, twice. Once for a week and once for a month.
I'm living in hell with demons.
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depression
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I (24f) finally got a prescription. It’s been a long time coming y’all but my moment is here. I’m being put on Wellbutrin XL. I’ll be on this until I can be prescribed a stimulant but hopefully I won’t need one. If you’ve taken this what was your experience like? How old are you? What’s your dosage? What changed with your eating habits? Sleep pattern? What do you like? What do you hate? Has your life changed? Have YOU changed? I need to know all the tea pls and thx
Update: So I took my meds and… I’ve come to the conclusion that my brain before this was operating like an old, dusty laptop with a loud ass fan. You know what I’m talking about. It freezes randomly and you have to turn it off and turn it back on lol
Day 1: It’s technically still day one because I haven’t taken my 2nd pill yet. I decided to take my Wellbutrin at 6 pm because I was told by my NP that it would be a good idea because of possible drowsiness. Last night I didn’t fall asleep immediately (I never do) but I did fall asleep before midnight. I woke up not tired as hell for once. Also my thoughts of doom aren’t really there like they usually are??? If a bad memory comes up I just think “Well I didn’t know any better” or “It is what it is” and the thought goes away??? I know it’s only Day 1 and it takes a while to adjust but I’m not mad at it so far.
Day 2: Took my dose at 7:30 last night. Woke up tired. A few negative thoughts but I don’t dwell as long as usual. I feel a bit wired tho. Also… my vaginal discharge is gone??? Panties DRY. Edit: 1/3 of my hand is numb and I’m so HUNGRY.
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ADHD
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20y(f) I have been blackmailed by some terrible guy in India that was posing as someone else I thought would be at my college when I got to college. I really liked this fake person and I thought I would have someone there for me when I moved states. I stupidly did what they wanted and they received explicit videos and pictures of me.
Then the truth came out, as he knew I was afraid of my mother and if she ever saw any of those things, our relationship would be terminated and she would spread this to my other family. He threatened to show these things to her through FB if I didn’t give him money. He even sent her a message saying “hello, I have something to talk to you about your daughter” and showed me a screenshot. I don’t believe she ever read this in her requested messages.
I eventually scared him by pretending I knew all about how to get him arrested in India. He was afraid enough to make a deal with me and delete everything and then terminate communication. There’s no way he deleted everything and it’s probably on the internet somewhere.
The last time I ever talked to him was a year and a half ago. I still obsess over something more coming from this and about my mom finding that message and then talking to him. Recently it’s been so bad that I panic whenever I get a text or call worrying that it’s my mom. My mother lives in a different state. I call her daily and visit for holidays.
Please tell me, is this something I should worry about anything coming out of ever again? This thought is so intrusive, it’s burdening my everyday life.
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OCD
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