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I (27f) have very recently realized I likely have ADHD. I grew up around the type of people who claim mental illness and disorders are just excuses. So I've lived my life thinking I'm just a lazy SOB and it's my own fault I can't do the things I not only want to do but need to do. But there's always been something blocking that ability, despite my own inner voice screaming at me to do the things. I (with the support of my husband) have decided to try getting a formal diagnosis. My problem however is, what the heck do I say when setting up the appointment? I already have extreme anxiety when making phone calls when I know what I'm supposed to say, but in this situation I don't even know how to approach it. So I've been putting it off for months. How did others ask for an evaluation? What am I supposed to say or ask?
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Shaved my beard of 11 months today. Just had to have the right elements in place to do so. Ive never been able to shave every day. Ever since i was in highschool it became too stressful and time consuming to try to get a good shave every day and have the sideburns even or just trim my beard and feel like even a single hair might be longer than the rest. Thus shaving became something that i avoided often. When my mental health is poor it's been a long time symbol of passing into better health when I'm able to shave.
Trimmed that sucker off today and i feel damn good about it. Now to decide whether to cut my hair and get that late 90s Josh Hartnett look going on haha
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Nov 2017 I had my first round of TMS (transcranial magnetic stimulation) for my treatment resistant depression. It was so effective I felt like my depression was deleted. Late 2019 I started having short periods of depression again and over the course of the next could of years it got worse.
I finished another round of TMS 12/1/21 and while my PHQ scores did improve from a 19 to a 6, I still felt a little muted/flat/numb. The last week I seem to be slipping back into depression already, back up to a 15 on PHQ. I would think some highs and lows shoild be expected, because life, but my experience this time with TMS is so different than the last time.
I wonder, is it COVID? I moved out of state and don't have the social group and active life like I used to. I feel like I need a new life soooo bad, but maybe I just need to practice more acceptance. I find myself picking apart every aspect of my life to try and fix it, but objectively it's a pretty good life. Steady and supportive boyfriend, steady job (call center, but still great pay/benefits/growth potential). I have a nice home and am doing fine financially. I just feel like I need to go on some grand adventure and have a group of awesome adventurous friends. I don't even trust myself anymore to decide what needs changing in my life. Emotional disregulation? I just don't know anymore.
Has anyone else experienced any of this? Help/advice welcome.
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Whenever I walk into this building I always tell myself I have to be off the carpet before the door closes or else something terrible will happen to me. So I usually just walk off to the side of the hallway to avoid stepping on the carpet.
This is mostly unconscious but if I'm aware of it, I can stop myself from doing it and reassure myself that it's nonsense.
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It's hard to overcome. A lot of the time it takes my breath away. My biggest compulsion is rumination so sometimes it feels like I want to think the thoughts for a split second too.
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I made a horrible mistake that will cost me my time at uni it's better that I just kill myself. I will get expelled
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How long did Euphoria last.
I felt Euphoria the for the first 2 weeks of Adderall XR. Then it worse off. Got off it for 2 days. Went back on and felt it again for another 4-5 days I would say. Did anyone else in here feel any type of Euphoria from Adderall XR? How long did it last for for you?
It would be so helpful if you tell me your experience!!
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Please someone help me. I feel so much anxiety and dread. It’s torture. Last year I was diagnosed with OCD. Over the past year I’ve noticed the destruction of my comfort place in my head. My head is a war zone. I’m not that adept with dealing with OCD. I constantly argue even when I try my best not too and constantly make everything worse. I have so many themes and it just hurts so much. Lately I’ve been having OCD in regards to “Intelligence.” To give a little context, I notice that I’m afraid of representation using numerical values. I hate ratings and hate that every time I search up something the ratings always appear. So naturally I would dislike things that measure Intelligence such as IQ and the SAT. I can’t concentrate on improving my SAT score because I’m afraid that’s my intelligence. I couldn’t fight my obsessions and ended up seeking reassurance by googling things and ended up making it worse. Much worse. I always feel like every time I use the internet for reassurance, fate always punches back hard. Instead of finding things that would reassure me I found things that made it worse and this went for almost any obsession. So for this intelligence OCD I found people saying IQ tests were accurate and measured “general intelligence” with people who seem to be somewhat knowledgeable (I saw a NYT article about this which I think it was opinionated and the professor or whoever who wrote that article said “if your disturbed by this then too bad” they literally said that). Now to be fair I did find people disagreeing and people in the middle but I doesn’t help that I’m stuck in this uncertainty wondering who’s right. I’ve been so obsessed that I try to measure other people’s intelligence as well. There’s another OCD that was a precursor to this one and this was what I call“Opinion OCD” where I was afraid of differing opinions about things and afraid that my opinions were wrong and there must be something wrong with them. This stunted my ability to be confident in my opinions and it bothered so much. The reason why I mention this is because these OCD kind of merged where I was afraid of speaking with people who I perceive as smarter because of varying opinions. And with this Intelligence OCD, I just feel so trapped. I don’t know how to overcome it because it just feels so overwhelming. I’m increasingly more harsh on myself when I make simple mistakes and I feel like I’m not capable of making basic cognitive decisions because OCD keeps telling me I’m dumb. My mind keeps telling me I’m not smart enough to to think about things or use things. I can barely function and the anxiety just swells inside me. I’m afraid I’ll lose my motivation to study and I regret every second of searching things up on google. I just want to live a normal life not be bombarded with anxiety every corner. Ik I probably wasn’t able to articulate how bad it is in this post, it’s hard to describe what I feel. But the pain and anxiety is there. I’m just so scared. I wish I could forget but I can’t. I wish I couldn’t care but I can’t. I wish when I think of ppl the first thing that didn’t come to mind was wondering what their intelligence was. I’m sorry for rambling I understand this post really isn’t comprehensive. I just need help in dealing with OCD.
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Hi guys, so ive been diagnosed with PTSD but most likely have had it since a child. Ive learnt over the years that I cant trust anyone and as such have very few friends as I feel like anyone who knows me too well will just use their knowledge of me against me.
So what im asking is, does anyone else have this problem and if so how do you go about starting and maintaining a relationship (with friends or something more). You see I do get lovely and would like to be in a relationship with someone, but I just cant bring myself to trust anyone.
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Hi there. I’m just another college bound student struggling to be content with where I am career wise and academically. It’s lonely where God has me currently. I feel like maybe God wants me to be a outcast and loner. I just feel empty and a lack of comfort. I don’t know how to comfort myself, I’m not really happy with being alone in my own company 24/7. The relationship I have with myself is negative. I feel unable to provide myself peace and make me happy. When I feel happiness, it’s usually short-lived moments, then I’m back at feeling down again. I smile all the time so others just think I’m happy but inside I feel negative (I’m surprise no one else feels my energy).
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I know logically many difficult things are happening, both in a personal and general sense, so it would make sense to feel unhappy, but I cannot recognize the feeling. I am very tired, but at same time feel almost unbearable restlessness, almost like bugs are crawling all over my body all the time. I think that the sensation is being caused by many unpleasant emotions occurring at same time, but I cannot feel them in real time, so it is just like an unpleasant pulsing of energy around the periphery of brain. I am able to recognize rage, and can identify it in there, and I learned to recognize feeling of love towards a friend, he did something kind for me today so I can identify that feeling. But I do not know what else is going on. It feels like I have a robot brain in a cartoon, and it is about to overload and start smoking and explode haha. I do not know how to get past this sensation, it feels like it is getting worse every day. Does anyone know how to fix this?
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I love my partner very much and they have been very supportive of me in a lot of ways, but they just don’t understand OCD at all.
Sometimes when I’m having thoughts that are causing a lot of distress, I’ll tell them about it in hopes of them helping me calm down (not looking for reassurance, just physical comfort like hugs and other calming sensory input, the same as when they help me calm down from an anxiety attack or sensory overload).
The problem is that I can’t seem to get them to understand that I’m not in control of my obsessive/intrusive thoughts, and when I tell them about certain types of paranoid thoughts (things like being afraid that my friends hate me or that everyone I care about would be better off if I was dead), they get frustrated with me and say things like “you clearly *want* to be miserable if you keep telling yourself that” or “well you must find it fun to catastrophize, or else I don’t know why you’d keep doing it”.
It’s just so upsetting because I can’t seem to explain to them that no, I don’t *want* or *choose* any of these thoughts, it’s things that my brain convinces me are true, it’s distressing and it feels like I’m being attacked by my own mind when thoughts like that happen. I’m not telling them about it because I’m trying to “self-flagellate” or because I’m looking to pick a fight, I’m telling them because I’m experiencing a lot of distress and I need a distraction to keep my mind off of it, because I’m not capable of just “not thinking about it.”
I know OCD is hard to comprehend for people who don’t have it, it’s just upsetting trying to explain over and over that I don’t want to be having these thoughts and then being told that I must get some type of enjoyment out of them.
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I am 33 and was diagnosed bipolar at 15. I spent most of that time suicidal and depressed but got on meds at 27 that have changed my life. No serious depression or manic episodes since. The idea of the depression being what it was terrifies me.
But the last week I am feeling like I am fighting my brain. Like it is trying to make me depressed. I end up reading information that makes me sad. It’s very weird to feel like your brain is talking down to you and trying to make you think things are a shitty way when they aren’t but then feel like some other part of your brain is trying to beat the fuck out of it and shut it up. I KNOW that’s not the case. But it’s weird so much can be happening in my head. It feels like my brain is pushing for depression and everything else in me is desperately beating it back repeatedly.
There is literally nothing I should be depressed about right now. But I’m currently feeling sad and panicky because I realized i started high school 20 years ago, my first long term relationship started 20 years ago, my favorite emo songs as a teenager are now 20+ years old. My mother laughed when I started going wtf wtf wtf and I was playing it off like a joke. But now I’m in bed feeling sad af because time passes so fast and I don’t know how to deal with it. I literally googled how to deal with grief over passing time but reading that just made me more sad and think about sad shit I wasn’t thinking of before. 🤦♀️
What is my brain doing and how do I make it stop?
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I have an IPhone and really good about charging it. Most of the time it gets a good charge. Sometime when I charge it on the wall it will charge on and off. It is so annoying and gets me really frustrated. I keep having to charge it different ways with the cord and charging block and the charging noise gets so annoying. I just worry that when it does that it’ll not get a good enough charge or a swelled up battery.
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I live in Florida and my dog jumped in the neighbors pool and started drowning so I dove into the save him snd got a bunch of water in my nose in the process.. the pool has minimak chlorine if any and has a slight green to it.. am I gonna live ?
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Hello all,
I recently had an appointment with an OCD therapist and she think I was misdiagnosed. My diagnosis was BPD but she thinks I in fact have OCD. Has this happened to anyone else? Is it possible to have both?
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Im not functioning at all and am losing all hope to ever be a normal functioning person. Im thinking of stopping social media so i never have to compare myself to a normal person again.
I feel so pressured by the people in my life
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I've been drinking alot. And I'm scared I'm gonna end myself. I take alot of pills when I'm drunk.. i don't want to die. But I don't want to live. But I do. I just want to talk to someone. I know I need help.
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I have had really bad ocd for a very long time now but this is by far the worst. It is a mix between real event OCD and false memory and I’m starting to think that the memories are true and that I’m actually a terrible person and if what I think is true I think I have to kill myself. Here is my story: between the ages of 15 and 17, I was addicted to cubersexing. I would go on Omegle a lot and show my abs and then any time I saw a girl I would ask them if they wanted to cubersex. So this was 2 years ago the last time I didn’t, and for the last 11 months I have been going crazy. First, I was just scared a sex tape of me would leak. Then, I was scared that I was a flasher and that somebody younger might have seen me. Now I am absolutely horrified that I may have cybersexed with like a 12 or 13 year old. Here is why I think I may have: I was so desperate that I would literally just click until I saw a girl, and I didn’t care if it was a fake camera or not, I would just get off with it(I’m crying writing this I know it’s horrible) also, even though I was not seeking out younger girls, I never really asked for ages and I’m now scared that maybe I just didn’t notice someone was younger and I did it with them. Now here’s why I think I didn’t: I have no attraction to younger girls and had no interest in cybersexing with them, I remember skipping obviously young people before but I fear maybe one slipped through the cracks, and I remember one time a girl telling me she was 13 and me realizing she was too young and skipping.
I went back onto the website and saw a fake camera of a girl that looked like she was around 12, and for the past 3 months I’ve just going back and forth in my head obsessing over whether I would have talked to her. Sometimes I am 100 percent certain I wouldn’t have, and sometimes I feel like I would have. I can’t just live with this uncertainty, I live in constant fear that some video is going to come out and ruin my life, and I basically have anxiety attacks every day. Thanks for reading this if you did, please help me.
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I am 110% convinced that I have ADD. I have been for over three years - and the consequences of my inattentiveness is taking more and more of a toll on my mental health and the future I'm creating for myself.
But - the one small (but huge) hole that may keep me from getting diagnosed as I keep working with my doctor - is the age when I started noticing symptoms.
I was thirteen when I started having severe problems. What's more: before that, I was a straight-A student. I always took advanced/honors classes, I competed in (and won) three spelling bees, I won two science fairs in elementary school - blah blah etc. My parents considered me above-average and I excelled in everything.
But when I was around thirteen - with no major changes to my life - it became impossible to do work. I'd often do my work from the moment I got home to about 10 or 11 pm - and I was rushing to do just a little more homework in almost every class period - and during lunchtime. I started failing a couple classes. (This was eighth grade.)
Now, three years later, the weight of the problem is getting heavier. I spend about eight hours on my homework every day - and finish roughly 20% of it in that time. Over weekends, I spend between nine and fourteen hours - and finish roughly 30% of it. I haven't had a full day off from homework since summer break, and I likely won't until Thanksgiving.
So sure - I was a straight-A student before the eighth grade - but that does not discount the weight of my obvious symptoms. My doctor agrees; he says that my case isn't conventional - and he's "not really sure what this is" for the time being. Hopefully, my next appointment in a week and a half will give me more insight - but I can sense a long, LONG journey ahead of me before a diagnosis.
Anyone have any thoughts? Is it plausible that I have ADD - even if the symptoms weren't prevalent before thirteen?
P.S. Could it have been "hyper-focusing"? I remember - before eighth grade - finishing all my homework before the end of the school day. In elementary school, I'd do all my work during the half-hour drive home from school. But - when I tried reading for leisure (which I did for hours each day in elementary school) - I couldn't stay focused for more than two minutes. I often pretended to be a bookworm by hiding myself in new novels each week - and I didn't even know the plot of 90% of the books I had.
Just maybe, I still had symptoms that were less prevalent before I was thirteen.
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Hello everyone! After a very long journey, I finally got an appointment made by my university for an ADHD assessment with the psychiatrist next month. I have been advice to answer all questions truthfully. Does anyone have any tips or advice that I should do to further help me on why I have concerns?
I already have my elementary and middle school report cards with me (along with my transcript from grad school that I failed) and 16383739 calendar/journals that I’ve bought and never wrote anything in it. Not sure what else I can physically show? Or should I write down experiences that I’ve had?
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Looking for 'lived experience' accounts focusing on special interests or lack thereof.
I'm still in the process of getting an official diagnosis, and the "special interests" criteria always confuse me. I'm not sure I have them. I get very into things, more so than my NT peers, but it feels like it's less than what the diagnostic criteria would demand or what I've seen in other ND people.
So yeah, please tell me about how it feels to have special interests, how that impacts your life.
Or maybe you don't have them? What's it like to be on the spectrum and not have special interests?
EDIT: specially grateful if any bipolars would weigh in on how special interests interact with episodes.
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Hello! I am new and just have some questions and am asking for some pointers, i hope it is okay that I am here asking for some advice...
I myself don't have OCD, but my boyfriend does. He struggles with it a lot and i try really hard to understand and support him but i have no clue how. He struggles with it in many ways but i dont feel as though it is my place to disclose what exactly he goes through, but if anyone could help me and give me some ways i could be there for him or help him through his moments or just be there in general would be great. I really want to learn for him so i know how to deal with it and how to help him deal with it as well.
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I keep seeing spinning wheels of flickering light in my vision while in the dark. I recreationally used DPH a couple of days ago (I know it was stupid) and I've been having a bit of a hangover for the past two days. It was pitch dark in my room and there was basically no noise..
I also have nocturnal insomnia
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Waking up is the worst part because it’s a reminder I’m still here
I’ve got to deal with another day of internal torture
As if the day before wasn’t enough
Maybe today will be the day I do it
Heights used to scare me, but falling from a building sounds pretty pleasant now
Right into the concrete head-first, then that’s the last of that
Dear lord I’m fucked in the head
I’m sorry to everyone who knows me
I hope I haven’t been acting too weird
I’m more fucked than you realize
I’m sorry
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This might be a bit of a rant, but I also wonder if you have similar experiences.
Whenever I argue with somebody and try to establish a consensus I need things to be said very literally. I have no idea whether we’re on the same page at the end.
I recently fought with my boyfriend about stepping on boundaries. I don’t think I cross his boundaries. If I do, it’s because I don’t understand them. We had a conversation about all of this but I genuinely don’t know whether he’s still mad at me, I can’t sense his emotions towards me.
I’m tired of not knowing what’s going on because I don’t get these little cues and changes in attitude.
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For context, I'm 27 (tomorrow, technically, but whatever), working three days a week at two very mentally demanding jobs and working on my MA thesis the rest of the time, as well as taking language class once per week and maintaining my physical health, apartment and social life. And to be honest, I've been really drained. Just recently I lost two whole weeks *again*, when my hormones, ADHD brain and a sudden drop in temperatures combined to make me so lethargic and fatigued I barely functioned. It got so bad that I finally caved and took my ADHD meds a couple of days ago - just once - despite knowing it would worsen my insomnia - which it did for about three nights - and got a LOT done, thank god.
But while all this was happening, I was dreading one fateful email. A while back, I submitted an article I wrote and reedited hoping to have it published, my first ever academic publication. But I didn't anticipate just how much editing and rewriting they would ask for at the same time as me trying to see my family abroad during covid and going through nightmarish bureaucracy for it. Given how behind I am on my thesis and my existing workload, plus other life things, I knew I had to say no. I couldn't fit in the time to basically completely rework whole sections, do MORE reading and redo my citations to make sure they're all perfect. At my pace, knowing I rarely manage more than 4 hours a day of academic work at a time (unless meds are involved, but I can't take them every day because again, insomnia), it's at least a full week of work that I just don't have. Plus, if I'm being very honest, I am already stretched very thin.
So I sent that dreaded no, and it made my stomach sink. I put in a lot of work getting that first draft edited on time, days of work, but my damn brain just regularly goes into "nope" mode and I end up being WAY slower than most of my peers (though my grades are still good). I always feel like I could do so much more if I didn't have such an erratic, easily tired, easily distracted brain. Sending it brought back some dark, negative thoughts.
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so basically, my aspergers makes me sometimes prounounce some letters weird, even though i can say them perfectly right. for example, i pronounce the letter o as oo, so for context, i play minecraft to calm myself down in an evening, i have a survival world with pet cows, i will greet them by saying helloo coos, does anyone else doo anything like this.
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I get worried about this sometimes. Hearing other people talk about their OCD and their rituals and intrusive thoughts and it made me worried that I might not have OCD because some of these things I don't do or don't think. But logically speaking I know I have OCD and it doesn't have to match with anybody else's.
Having fears that you might not actually have/are just faking OCD is actually a very common intrusive thought. The thing is, OCD tends to target the things that you care about the most. For instance I have ROCD (relationship) because I care a lot about my relationship so I tend to obsess over it/relationships as a whole. I also do have various physical ritual behaviors and number things that are typical with people with OCD. I sometimes get worried because I hear people talk about how they'll constantly check locks to make sure they're closed and things like that and I get worried because I don't do that so I worry I might not have OCD. In reality though, I honestly don't care about whether or not my doors are locked. I feel safe in my home and live in a low crime area so I almost never lock doors of any kind. Which isn't to say that rationality is a cure for OCD and me thinking rationally prevents me from doing that. After all, OCD thoughts are by nature irrational and have very little foundation in logic.
What I'm getting at is that if you don't care about something then your OCD is unlikely to target that specific thing. If you don't care about locks, your OCD probably won't make you check them constantly, if you hate your family then you're unlikely to have intrusive thoughts regarding their harm, etc.
And as for physical rituals go, just because a physical ritual works for someone else doesn't mean it will for you. We all have different rituals for different purposes. Maybe something that makes my hands "feel even" might not work the same for someone else and they have to to a different thing, or maybe they have a different "number" as you, etc. When you worry about things like this it becomes another obsession and follows the same patterns as the rest.
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I am absolutely terrified of dreaming. Whenever I start to drift off, or catch myself drifting off then I get a massive panic attack and it continues for the entire night. I’ve tried so many sleep techniques, and it’s gotten to the point where if my brain associates the activity with sleep, I get a massive panic attack. I’ve tried sleep meditation and it’s ruined all of them for me. I tried so many sleep techniques, like breathing, counting, and all of them just give me a panic attack because my brain correlates them with falling asleep. I tried medical marijuana and had a severe reaction to it. I tried a drowsiness med and it just gave me extreme panic attacks for the entire night. Today is my 2nd night this week of not sleeping a single wink. How do you guys deal with this? Any and all tips would be greatly appreciated, thank you
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Since starting my current job just over 2 years ago, I’ve found I’m very good at taking large amounts of data and summarising it to the point senior management have taken notice.
I love nothing more than someone turning to me like ‘I need stats on [x thing]’ and working out how to get data to tell me what I want and the satisfaction of completing a report. It’s almost like completing a puzzle to me.
Does anyone else get this or am I just strange lol.
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I used to be a really positive guy in the group. Always laughing and cheering people up. But i dont know who am i right now. Like i dont feel the way i used to. I dont feel whole. I get uncomfortable around people. I feel very confused about whatever im feeling. Please help 🙏
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hi everyone this is my first post on here sorry if its a little messy
lately ive been obsessed with the idea of potentially being a rapist and ive been reviewing all the signs of being one and i remembered during middle school i used to think about freezing time and having sex with my classmates idk if i was just really horny but now looking back i feel like a fucked up person and idk if anyone else has ever thought of some weird shit like that also i remembered that i masturbated to some animated porn where time stopping was part of it i wasnt getting off to that part but maybe i was aroused by the artstyle i dont fucking know anymore
i dont know if i deserve to live please fucking help me
edit: just to add idk if these even counts as an intrusive thought i guess it was more of a fantasy
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I cannot begin to tell you all the ways medication has helped me, but one thing that stands out to me most is how easily I am now able to handle social situations. I often entered new social situations with tremendous anxiety just because I'd become incredibly overwhelmed with how easily distractible I can be. Thanksgiving was a huge test for me because I went to lunch with my boyfriend's family of 5, his sister's fiance, and the fiance's mom. It was held at the fiance's mom's home (somewhere I'd never been with some people I'd never met) and not once did I feel the usual overwhelming sense of uncertainty that typically ticks up my social anxiety. I felt level the entire time, able to hold conversation, able to maintain eye contact without overthinking it, and not once did I overthink my responses or get stuck with mental echolalia. What a breathe of fresh air it has been.
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I'll be honest here but like making friends. Specifically friends just because I don't feel any attraction. But whenever I would try to tell my family I made a new friend (2 to 3 year gap) I knew I didn't want to get anything from them. I wasn't like that. I was around 15 and 16 but my brother would always tell me I should "Get those pics brother!" Which I didnt know what to say. I felt sadness from it because I was abused by him for so long. He would call me names, threaten me and just be a bad person. I went with what he told me to not only because he wanted me to but because I had an embedded fear of him. It was never obvious and it never showed but I was scared of him. It's why I did what he said. Whenever he would tell me this I tried to show him I did it. He never looked and I am grateful he never looked because I want to keep the people's identity a secret. I looked at the photo and then flicked off of it after trying to show him which obviously didnt work.
I'm glad I apologized to the people and I'm glad he didn't see them or their bodies. My guess is he never looked because he never paid much attention to me whenever I tried to tell him something and he would always blow me off. I think I did a good thing by not showing him the photos but it's the guilt of it happening that I can't get over. Am I a bad person for this? Why can't I move on from this? Am I to blame for doing this in the first place?
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Hi, sorry if this has been asked before, but I’m pretty new to this sub and haven’t seen much about this topic.
I want to start by saying I’m recently diagnosed (28m), and discovering this sub has been totally eye opening. This community is awesome. Everyone seems so thoughtful and caring toward each other and it’s so refreshing to be a part of. I went through my entire life feeling out of place and alone in the way I felt. This sub has shown me that I’m not alone and for the first time in my life I feel truly validated. I cannot express how great it feels to know that there are others like me, and that I have a place to go to feel understood. Thank you to everyone in this sub that posts and comments. You guys are amazing!
Now to the question at hand. Are ticks a symptom of ADHD? I don’t experience them constantly, they maybe come on every couple of months and typically last anywhere between 2-4 weeks. They tend to mostly be related to my face, I’ll scrunch my nose, or touch my top lip to my nose. Lately it’s been clenching my teeth, which has become very annoying and I find that I can’t help it unless I focus very hard on not doing it. Is this something that’s ADHD related? If so, does anyone have any tips on stopping themselves from doing it?
Tl;dr: are ticks a symptom of ADHD? If so, any advice on how to stop or manage them better?
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TW: su*cide and violence. 21F. A few months ago, I was in a very very bad state. I was su*cidal and I depressed. I would feel a bit better when I would hang out with friends, but that would be rare considering Covid. Anyhow, I one day went to the beach and while going back it had gotten dark. Now I kinda didnt care if I died or anything. I wanted my pain to stop. Which also made me risk taking. I did not make any plan or anything no. I just begged my friend to let me drive his car just for fun. It was dark and I had never driven in the dark, but I didnt overthink it. I just thought, that even if I crashed and died my life was trash anyway. I didnt tell him I was a bad driver cuz he wouldn't let me drive. I drove his car abit and I was a terrible drive. I would scream alot cuz I was scared and I couldnt see shit considering it was dark and I had never driven at night before. I stopped after two mins and moved to passenger seat. But I'm scared that I risked my friends lives. I tried to kill them didnt I?
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OCD
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I went to university studying aerospace engineering, and I took advantage of all of the resources available to me and studied for countless hours only to fail my classes anyways.
I then switched majors to cinematic studies and only found that slightly easier. But I failed 2-3 of my classes and realized that it was going to be an uphill battle and that I might fail out of school anyways.
Then I went to learn a trade (electrician) because I hear people suggest this option for those who are unable to complete college, but found that it wasn’t simple either and ended up failing multiple times with that route.
I’m 25 and I need to figure out something to do. I don’t want to live a destitute life, but I’m realizing that I’m not very intelligent.
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depression
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I dont know if this challenge is something i can overcome. Whenever i need to talk with my voice, I notice that my mind goes blank. If i cant see my words, or the other person’s words, I am at a complete loss. It feels like my entire mind goes blank and i forget everything. Its like im grasping for words in a place in my mind where there aren’t any. And I hate that. It makes it hard to talk to my therapist and get help. It makes it hard to speak up in classes. It makes it hard to support my friends.
A friend of mine was having a hard day and they were grieving. I felt I was doing well with knowing what to say and how to comfort them while texting them. I wanted to be there for them more and give them a place to talk IRL. But I was at a complete loss for words, and feel like I made things incredibly awkward and didn’t help at all.
I want to get better at talking with my voice, but I don’t know how to even begin looking for and pulling words out of my head to form into meaningful sentences in the moment. I have to take a long time to think about what to say and how to say it, and most often still end up lost. Tone is also hard for me. I struggle to speak with a natural or appropriate tone. I want to learn how to better communicate with others so I can be more reliable and supportive. But I don’t know how.
In general, im also just really upset with how things went with my friend. I feel like I failed them and made things worse/uncomfortable. I just want to be able to be there for others in a meaningful way, but I cant use my words well at all, and that makes me feel terrible. So what can I do to get better with my words?
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aspergers
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I started therapy today. I went through Teladoc since it's covered by my insurance. Did the video session in my room near the window to get better reception. I forgot to close the window before the session started.
I thought it went really well for the first session. I had a bad experience last time I tried therapy. I was given an initial diagnose of generalized anxiety disorder and told we can explore the trauma related side of things in future sessions. I scheduled another appointment for next week and am actually looking forward to it.
Now I discover when I go outside however that my landlord/roommate (I rent half the house) went outside to do yardwork right outside my open window at some point during the video session, without me hearing him go out. Usually I would hear but at one point he turned on some loud music so I wonder if he used that as a cover to go outside without being noticed. I already disliked him and have just been trying to live and let live but this isn't the first time he's snooped like this. Before he's pulled similar tactics to try to overhear my partner and I talking. I feel really violated by this.
How am I going to feel comfortable talking to my therapist next week knowing that my landlord is going to try to listen in on my therapy session?? 😨 Talking to him is not an option. He's one of the most passive aggressive people I've ever met. Ugh.
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ptsd
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That’s it . That’s the post. Your ocd is lying .it lied to you about all those other things remember ? What makes you think it’s right this time ?
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OCD
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I’d like to learn to just be comfortably numb. I don’t really see a point in life. I don’t believe in love. I don’t remember ever really being happy, maybe some points when I was a child but even that was short lived. The way I feel about existence, I don’t think can be changed unless some medication can do it. I’m just not sure where to start. I have a medical card from my free insurance but I’m yet to get set up with a primary doctor or an actual insurance company. I could wait to see if I get any more information in the mail like they said they would. But if they don’t…I guess what I’m trying to ask is, if I go to the emergency room or in my small town in Illinois, they have an “urgent care” building would they do anything for me or….I honestly have no clue where to seek professional mental health. I don’t know if any of this even have sense. I’m sorry.
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depression
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How do you talk back to your thoughts? Every twinge I feel in my body, every tiny pain makes me think that I’m dying. It’s driving me insane. I can’t have a single peaceful day without constantly ruminating on my “symptoms.”
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OCD
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yeah.. so I’m currently inpatient and I was diagnosed w depression, GAD, social anxiety and ednos, also e-bpd all about a year ago(ish). I got a report back today saying that I also have ptsd and I’m just.. idk . I guess it makes it more real but I spent so long trying to convince myself it didn’t happen. So I’m going to tell my story.
HUGE HUGE TRIGGER WARNING, PROCEED CAREFULLY
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When I was 12, I was on my way home from school. It was the middle of January and so it was p much dark at around 6.15. I was smoking in the car park a few blocks away from my school. And a man came up to me w a knife and told me to go with him. I was terrified. So I followed him, for maybe 10/15 minutes. Then I saw another guy. He was the lookout. The first guy started to touch me. And then he raped me. And I am so so fucking angry. It was a total stranger. I’ll never know who he was. I’ll never know the right person to be angry with. I was 12 fucking years old. But for some reason I still think it’s my fault. I know it was my fault. But anyway if anyone had any advice on processing the diagnosis it would be greatly appreciated.
Thanks
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ptsd
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A couple of months back a man jumped off a bridge and landed in front of my car. I actually called the police before he jumped (I saw him standing on the railings so turned around and went back which is when he jumped).
I’m so consumed with guilt, I don’t know why I didn’t stop the moment I saw him on the bridge and I’m ashamed of myself for not acting quicker. I haven’t told anybody of my guilt because I’m so embarrassed.
For the past month I keep having dreams where a girl is stood on a bridge and I choose to keep driving because I don’t want to deal with it but then I later find out she jumped and died and feel really guilty for not stopping.
I’m not looking for sympathy, just somebody who might have have dealt with something similar who I can talk to.
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ptsd
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I’m (24F) looking for my first trauma/PTSD therapist. Being Autistic makes my particular case a little unique, so I got recommendations from my autism therapist. I have two good options that he recommended, and I’ve got an appointment with one (the other I have to call back). When you were first meeting new therapists specifically to work through your trauma, how did you know which one was right for you? What was the moment it clicked? We’re there specific questions you asked that helped you make the decision?
Thanks for the help and support, guys!
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ptsd
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Basically I have to wait until April 2022 before I can even be put forwards for titration of medication.
In the meantime, I feel like I'm barely keeping my head above water.
My symptoms seem to be whiling out at present and I'm just super embarrassed by them because I cant seem to get it under control.
Impulsivity is off the chain, maladaptive coping strategies are in full play and my organization skills are at an all time low; hello unfolded laundry and "due tomorrow, do tomorrow" mentality.
It's got to the point where I'm only passing my assignments by the skin of my teeth, when I KNOW if I could just apply myself properly, I could smash it out the park.
I just want to hide away because I'm tired of feeling judged by others for being so chaotic and then I'm scared that even when I get to titration, it wont help and I'll just be spinning in my chaotic spiral forever.
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ADHD
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On meds my brain is soo quiet, I never knew I had chatter in there until I started meds and I was just appalled!
Any Neuroscience nerds want to chime in to explain what all that brain noise is?
And why do stimulants quiet it?
(I love psychology and neuroscience so PLEASE feel free to be as technical as you want lol. I love learning about this stuff!)
Bonus question: What would cause a methylphenidate to quiet but not an amphetamine? (On Vyvanse the quiet is not as evident but with ritalin I just feel completely, ZEN 😌🧘♀️😌🧘♀️.)
I get it has to do with individual brain chemistry and not everybody's going to be the same, but I guess my answer request has more to do with the detailed chemistry of it all.
Whew! It's so fascinating!
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ADHD
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<Possibly triggering> I just had to share this bizarre thing that happened because I have no one to tell. I went to listen to a podcast that I like that I haven't listened to in a while and the newest episode was titled something along the lines of "What if you had a bizarre fear?" so immediately I am thinking that I relate to this because my current OCD theme is a fear of rabies and therefore bats. I looked in the description of the episode and it said "What is you had a bizarre fear and it came true?" at that point I started freaking out. So then I started listening to the episode on double speed because I wanted to reassure myself that it had nothing to do with rabies and why would it when I have never met anyone else with this fear. Throughout the episode it was weird how much my story was the same as hers. OCD started as a child with health OCD. Had fears of tetanus. Didn't get her license till she was 24 because of OCD (I'm 22 and still working on getting mine). Afraid of flying. etc. Then she goes on to say that she has had a strange recurring phobia of.... rabies. Literally, chills ran down mine spine and I had to stop what I was doing and calm down. What are the chances?! The rest of the episode is about how the fear became real when her son had a bat land on his hand (which actually did make me feel a little better because I am afraid of having a bat scratch me and not notice) and everything turned out okay for her but it made me feel again like my fear is justified again which isn't great.
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OCD
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TLDR; Enrolled in online MBA program, took an LOA, seeking suggestions for what kind of accommodations might be helpful to ask for.
Putting a TLDR at the beginning because I already know this is going to go into too much detail.
I (32f) just enrolled in an online MBA program this fall. I take one course at a time with each lasting 6 weeks. My first course ended November 2nd and my second course began November 3rd. I did okay in the first course but started to struggle with meeting deadlines due to travel, a job change, and a decline in my mental health (thanks, seasonal depression). I managed to come out with a C which I guess is pretty normal for me.
Immediately, I struggled with the second course. I missed the first seminar because I couldn't figure out where the link was and I completely gave up, shut down, and didn't do any of the assignments due the first week. I was able to catch up and turn in both the week one and week two assignments by the end of week two. I fell asleep during the week three seminar, and finally just decided to give up.
I spoke with my advisor and she suggested a mid-term leave of absence. I applied and it was approved. I'm due to return at the start of the next term on January 5th, and my advisor suggested speaking to Student Accessibility Services about possible accommodations. I'm honestly clueless. It's so hard for me to wrap my head around the idea that some of my struggles are a result of ADHD and not just some kind of fatal character flaw. I've never asked for help. I don't even know where to begin.
What accommodations are reasonable to request for someone with ADHD?
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ADHD
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For some strange reason, I’ve been experiencing more side effects from my med which I’ve been on for several years now, at the same dose.
recently I’ve been experiencing things like more mild jaw tightness/tmj, more mild headaches, and a tad more anxiety, more yawning and eye heaviness, and just feeling kind of numb throughout the day. I’ve also been experiencing the slightest overstimulation at times, which I never had before.
It’s not super uncomfortable during the day or anything like that, and overall I feel normal and balanced. But are these signs that my dose might be too high? Or maybe it’s not the right med for me anymore? I know less is more with stimulants and I’ve experienced that myself, but my dosage is on the lower end to begin with (mydayis 25 mg)…
Edit: I’m also dealing with some low grade depression and trying to figure out what the best balance to add to my stimulant med is (I’ve already tried Zoloft, etc…) I know sometimes balance is key. Finding the right complimentary treatment can mean the stimulant works better
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ADHD
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For me personally, OCD is like I’m smart enough to know my thoughts aren’t real, but on the other hand, I’m smart enough to be able to put myself down in spite of that knowledge.
Can anyone relate?
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OCD
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Hi again, i posted before and english is not my first language but i still just wanted to come write this to just get it off my chest, i dont need advice nor do i want it i just want to put it out there.
I havent had a job in a while, and even before that my jobs had to always be unofficial and kinda illegal tax free because my father (who abused me and my sisters) had to pay for my sustain as a ruling of the court until i turned 28, but if i found a legal actual paying job he would've stopped.
And I knew in my heart all he cares about is money, he doesn't give a shit about anything else in his life he doesn't feel love for anything at all. His brothers and nephews would take turns on us, and he would do nothing. He liked to control how I dress and how I cut my hair. Liked it when I acted like "daddy's little girl". He'd yell at us if we didn't obey and he'd hit my brother if he ever spoke up to him. He just was a monster.
So I wanted to at least hurt him where it hurts him, his wallet. But recently he sued us, specifically me, for taking more money than I need from him and despite his tricks and actually lying in court, he won and now he doesn't have to pay anything.
So, now I'm looking for a job, an actual job, and meanwhile I try to sell art on the side, and my sisters moved in with their respective boyfriends (they're not his biological daughters so he didn'thave to pay for them just me) and I am happy for them, I am.
For me well, I have never been able to be intimate with a man, I am in my mid 20's and I still get panic attacks whenever a man so much as tries to be a little more than friendly with me or gets handsy.
I started going to therapy and it really helped. But now, just now, after I finished cleaning up, I heard my mom talking on the phone with one of her friends. That's all good and nice yes? Well, she started talking about how she doesn't have 3 daughters anymore, "two left and one is just problems" and I... listen, I know I'm just a problem, I know I stopped being even useful the moment my dad stopped paying for my expenses and my life became irrelevant again, and he just can go on with his merry life. I know I am useless and worthless and just occupying space. But is one thing to know it and another to hear it right out of her mouth, with her own words.
Just, it's hard to hear all I know just being confirmed to me. By her, and probably everyone else, my brother, my sisters probably. I'm just left behind, I'm leftovers of all the crappy shit that happened to us while my mom was married to that monster and I am a daily reminder that it happened and it's never going away. Maybe I should just, leave. Not even find a job or another place to stay, just, leave. I think if I left, if I went to waste away somewhere no one could find me nor my body, it'd all be okay, because then everyone could just pretend nothing ever happened, because the biggest evidence that it happened is gone.
She is right. I'm nothing but problems. I can barely sleep, I can't have a healthy adult relationship, I can't even earn money on a regular basis. All I do is slowly decay, clean the house, take care of the pets and just stare at nothingness while everyone else sprints away from me and I am left in a tar pit, getting swallowed slowly.
Sorry, I just needed to say it. Sorry I am what's left of that man, sorry I am left behind and unable to change it. I'm nothing but problems and I am afraid I know the solution to those problems but I don't want to face it. I'd do us all a favour if I just got rid of the reminder tho, so maybe it wouldn't be that bad.
Ah, that's all from my part. Sorry if it's long, I had to take it off my chest.
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depression
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I had a major depressive episode and ended up not even showering for 8 weeks, i dragged myself out of that pit and felt so good yesterday that i sang in the gd shower, today i met with my university supervisor they told me id missed too much time and as a result was being kicked off the course and i would not be given any opportunity to even try to prove i could pass in the time left, i went home closed the front door sunk to the floor and cried... for an hour... my course was paying me 25,000k for the year i now have no income, no purpose and my lease runs out in 13 days and i have no idea what to do, i feel like it took all i had to get better and what motivated me was going back to university when i felt better but it turns out that isnt happening, so i feel like all the effort i put into getting undepressed was a waste and i shouldve just done the 'right' thing and slapped on a fake smile while crying on the bus home everyday for those stupid unempathic jerks so that way even if i was dying inside i wouldnt have fucked up my entire life for the long term
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depression
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I like to have a book be as detailed as possible so I can really imagine what I’m reading. It makes it so much easier to get immersed in a book. I just started reading the first wheel of time book and it’s very detailed so I enjoy it a lot. I wonder if you all feel the same.
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aspergers
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its really hard talking to my friends especially texting them making jokes with them and trying to respond to them in a way that matches their energy makes them laugh or makes me enjoyable to talk to and not seem like i have a redundant and bland personality. in the same way i obsess over things i say to them even if it isnt harmful or mean at all but rather light hearted or a simple joke i'll also obsess over things they said to me for hours even if there is no logical reason for me to.
in real life i often feel like my interactions with other people could have been better or i could have done something more to have made them feel more comfortable or interested in talking to me and always feel like i missed out on the opportunity even if i dont know what specifically that could have been. normal conversations with people sometimes make me wonder if i ended up making them feel uncomfortable weird or disrespected by me, like sometimes i just feel gross in comparison to other people for a reason i cant explain, but other times i get unreasonably uncomfortable by my friends and it makes me feel weird even when they didnt do or say anything wrong. i dont really like or get how i come off to other people as a person and i guess also feel like people wont take me seriously because i spend so much time trying to be lighthearted that it seems like i have no personality beyond that and when i do i just kind of look dumb. but anyways idk this was sort of a thought dump if anyone else feels the same let me know
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OCD
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Hi, first time posting here. I have severe complex PTSD from a lifetime (I'm 25) of physical and sexual abuse. Ive been married for a year now and it seems like no matter how hard I try to communicate to my husband what I go through, what my triggers are, and the way I feel when I'm having flashbacks or am anxious in certain situations he doesnt get it. Does anyone have any resources ( books, lectures, anything really) to help partners of abuse victims understand what we go through and how to be supportive?
Thanks 💖
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ptsd
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I took my first dose of Tyvense 30mg this morning and i'm not sure it anyone else has similar experience?? i'm kinda more focused but feeling a bit empty and depressed, i do have diagnosed adhd & bpd but i know the difference between my ordinary bpd, the most i'm feeling since taking the tyvense is agitation and low mood , anybody else ?
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ADHD
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Intimate setting:
You are invited over to someone's house for dinner. A small group of friends. You do not wear a mask at all. How would you behave and how would others respond?
Public setting:
You're at a little league baseball game. Weather is nice. There's people around rooting for their kids. There's a concession stand and you have a few bucks. How do you interact in public spaces?
Alone:
What are you like with no mask when you're alone?
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aspergers
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I live in a house with my 3 siblings and I have autism+adhd with some pretty intense sensory issues. A lot of these have to do with food and if I don’t have foods that I like and I am drawn to, I won’t eat. Which is obviously an issue.
So to combat this, I have to make sure there’s always enough of the foods I like accessible to me in the house.
But my siblings see this as unfair and like I’m getting special treatment (which I am because I am special needs).
I really dislike when people eat my food or touch my food so I often have meltdowns if I’m looking forward to my snacks and then I found out a sibling has eaten them all :/
Does anyone else have a similar struggle?
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aspergers
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I got diagnosed with ADHD about a month ago. I felt like there was finally some hope in my life after 20 years of nothingness and bullshit. I had waited way too long to be assessed and procrastinated until I was in complete crisis.
My psychiatrist wants me to trial both Wellbutrin and Strattera before stimulants. I’m two weeks in on Wellbutrin and the side effects make me feel terrible. She won’t give me a time frame for how long we’ll give it before trying the Strattera. She says we just have to take it one day at a time.
I’m going to have to quit my part time job (that I really love) to continue to trial meds, because they take a while to kick in and I’m prone to getting every side effect in the book. I’m starting full time college again so I genuinely don’t think I’d survive if I was in school, working, and trialing my meds. I’m already so depressed from the untreated ADHD that I can barely function, and now additional stressors are just getting piled on.
My therapist (a lovely woman who I’ve been seeing for four years, who also has ADHD) was very upset to hear that they’re starting me on non-stimulants. She told me I need to advocate for myself, but I can’t. I don’t want to lose my chance at fair access to treatment by getting labeled as a seeker.
All the hope I initially had when I got diagnosed has already gotten crushed. I feel worse than I did before. I know some people have success with non-stimulants, but realistically, I don’t think I’m going to be one of them.
I’ve been sobbing for an hour post psych appointment. I’m so frustrated and I just want a medical professional to listen to me for once. I don’t know what to do. I want to give these meds a chance but if things don’t get better soon, my life is going to completely fall apart. I know it’s my fault for procrastinating getting an evaluation for so long, so it’s my fault I’m not on the right medication yet. I could’ve had this figured out a long time ago. But I didn’t!
And now I have to pay the price and watch my life fall the fuck apart, as my psychiatrist who’s talked to me for a total of an hour and a half says we just have to play it by ear. I don’t know what to do.
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ADHD
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I'm in the depths of a really shitty time at the moment. I'm functional in that I can get out of bed, shower once every few days, hold a basic conversation, and scrape by at work. I cry multiple times a day, vomit when moments of panic set in, spend a disproportionate amount of time thinking about figuring out a life insurance policy that takes care of my family properly if this doesn't get better, toss and turn all night and am at best miserable to be around.
But, I am doing the right things for me to get through this. I see my GP fortnightly, am taking my meds, checking in with my husband so he doesn't need to worry as much (hopefully) about me hurting myself. Unfortunately the city where I live went into a strict covid lockdown ninety-something days ago, so that's made it hard to stay on top of things with my psychologist, but we check in by phone fortnightly. I probably need to see her more often but my last psychologist went on maternity leave the week before we went into this lockdown, so I'm just starting to get established with the new one.
My diagnoses are complex PTSD and depression.
What I need advice on is how to deal with friends who want to help? We are really fortunate to have friends who know things are bad at the moment and continue to send messages, funny memes and offers of help. But I have nothing they can help me with. I keep the freezer stocked as best I can so meals are not an issue, we are resourced enough to get through financially. When they keep asking how they can help, I feel like I'm pushing them away by saying 'its okay, we're fine, I'm doing the stuff I know I have to do... please just let us wait this out.' And a couple are starting to push a bit harder – I know its coming from a good and kind place, but I just want to scream that if I knew what would fix this I would definitely absolutely be doing it.
How do I respond to them without them thinking I'm an absolute sack of shit?
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depression
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I was discussing my prescription with a friend who is also prescribed adderall for their adhd, and he told me something very disturbing. He was started on 10mg 2x a day by his primary care doctor almost 2 years ago, and several months after he was given the rx, he went back to talk to his doctor about adjusting the dose because he didnt feel that it was that effective at 20mg a day (I take 60mg a day and this is barely enough, as I am narcoleptic on top of having pretty debilitating adhd) and he said his doctor immediately started treating him like a drug-seeker, and even asked him to sign a form saying he wouldn't seek adderall from any other HCP's. I was shocked that his doctor would do that, as it seems wildly unprofessional and smacks of covering their own ass over providing this person with effective treatment for something that can literally shut your life down.
He didn't have a copy of the form so I don't know if there were any consequences threatened within, but I just had to know...is this a thing?! Did any of your doctors do that to you?? It's already BEYOND FRUSTRATING that treatment is so hard to get because of a bunch of selfish a-holes who abuse the medications meant to help others who actually need it, but for your doctor to come at you like that for being open and honest with him about your experience on a medication he prescribed you seems like a huge red flag to me. Has this happened to anyone else, has your doctor ever asked you to sign a paper stating you wouldn't seek adderall from another doctor?
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ADHD
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I don't want to work more than 28 hours per week when I finish college. Because 7*8 hours of productivity a day = 56 hours a week. To make it fair I would want a one-to-one relation between work and free time so 56 hours/2 = 28 hours. This way for every hour I work, I get one hour of freedom
But I don't see many vacancies in IT that allow 28 hours or less. It seems they all want 40, 36 or sometimes 32 hours. Does anybody know why this is the case? Why are they so obsessed with fulltime work? As if we live to work instead of work to live?
I see work as something that can be fun, but I wouldn't do it if I didn't have to. Not for a boss/company I mean. And freelance is an option but it would be to stressful for me though.
I want to do my own goals in life as well, besides working. For example I'm trying to compose a piano piece currently, just for fun. But if it becomes good, I will try and release it. But another month after that I could do something totally different. That is what to me is freedom.
This is how I want to live my life instead of being stuck in a full-time job as a slave for the company. A job to me is just a tradeoff: I do the work, I get paid. But when I don't work, I do what I want.
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aspergers
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So I was doing so well. I was comfortably obsessed with goblin core and cottage core and academia core. Especially academia core as it touched one of my two previous special interests, culture and music around the time frame of the Napoleonic wars and Jane Austen. Life at this time was mundane and the same thing everyday, it was beautiful. But now I am supposed to speak infront of a group for 15 minutes tommorow. The last two days I have dropped my special interest and going crazy! Honestly my most comforting special interest has always been a video game with deep lore that I can play and when I am not playing read about and research. I don't consider myself smart so I have begun to hate "academic" special interests. I am an action adventure escapist. Anyone obsessed with anything touching this genre? I got like 4 hours of sleep last night roaming Reddit, YouTube, Twitch and Steam hoping my mind would find something and just latch onto it.
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aspergers
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some of the artists include Taylor Swift, Fall Out Boy, and Ed Sheeran.
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OCD
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Hello, I’m 20F and I have Aspergers. Tomorrow my mother and I are going to to be meeting with a young girl (13 the same age I was when I found out) who also has it and her mother to talk about it. However, I just don’t know where to start. And maybe she might want to ask something but not quite know how to bring up. I know when I was younger if I didn’t know how to bring something up I would just never talk about it.
So, What’s something you wish you could have heard from a fellow aspie when you were younger. Especially something you could have heard from an older person?
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aspergers
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I am definitive I have both and OCPD was confirmed by therapeutist when asked. It took a while to realize I am not only in grasp of obsession-compulsion pairs and scenario running and numbness and social responses related to it, but also constant trauma triggers, constant trauma running, numbness and social responses related to PTSD. Having had wondered the chance of PTSD for almost year, I checked the symptom list and general diagnostic criteria and there was no much space for interpretation.
I am ultimately seeking new therapeutist, tho' I am cynical if I can find anyone able to help me (plz dont tell me I will find the one, that is zone you can not help me with). But I guess some of you might really know something I don't, so;
What should I know if I am cursed enough to have these both?
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ptsd
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Has anyone ever been on Focalin? My step son is supposed to start taking it. He has the most obvious case of ADHD I’ve ever seen in a kid. Everyone who meets him asks if he has it. This is his first time taking medication, and I want to know what to look out for as he isn’t going to likely realize what’s going on if he has side effects. I know I can Google those, but I’d like to hear personal accounts.
I am also curious to hear your experiences with it As a parent or as someone taking it. Did it help or make things worse? I also have ADHD but not nearly as severely as he does, and I’ve only ever taken Ritalin and adderall (which is what I take now) so not a whole lot of experience with medications.
Edited to add a question: His mom was a heavy drug user and Dad has primary custody. She also has a history of stealing pills. She only gets him every other weekend currently. I’m going to ask his Doctor, but does anyone know if they’d be okay skipping those days for medication? It’s only four days, and he’s not in school. I just don’t want her to use them or sell them.
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ADHD
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I accidentally dropped a tiny piece of tissue out of my pocket while I was getting my keys and it landed on the ground. I felt the intense need to pick it up or I'd be cursed, but it was on the ground and I didn't want to pick it up because of the fear of getting contaminatied. I stood there for a few seconds contemplating what to do before my brain decided the best solution was to violently stamp on it, to kind of remove it from existence entirely.
So there I was standing outside my door in the dark and in the rain, hands full of groceries, violently stamping on the ground in front of me. God that must of looked weird to passer bys 😅
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OCD
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Hi guys, I was wondering what people here do about the dentist?
I deal with pretty intense physical restlessness - I have quite stereotypical ADHD in that sense - and I worry that I wouldn’t be able to make it through dental work due to this, as well as tics. I’m also pretty scared of needles so being sedated ends up becoming a problem.
Does anyone else have dentist issues related to ADHD? I’m a bit lost when it comes to what to do, cos I desperately need work doing but the dentist is very ADHD-unfriendly
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ADHD
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This is going to be a more or less rambly mess concerning some insights I have personally gained regarding my OCD and mental health.
I have pure O OCD, intense rumination and feelings of being stuck inside endless loops in my own head. At it's worst it rendered me bedridden for a few hours, as I could do nothing but constantly repeat and retrace the "logical" steps to explain away the fear I was feeling. It is only now that I realize that my hyper-rational focus, which I took much pride in, made everything much worse. After all OCD is not logical, even if you are. It is not subject to philosophy, reasoning, Occam's Razor or anything you throw at it. It is a mental illness, and illnesses often occur for no reason. It is also not you, and as such does not share your qualities or weaknesses.
And as is the case with many illnesses - trying to pin them on specific reasons, or trying to explain, reason them away, will just not work. It will throw you into a pit of obsession.
It has been almost half a year since that very worst episode. And untill recently I thought my OCD as a whole was directly tied to it. I do not wish to speak much of it, but long story short: I have been abused online, accused of things I have not done and threatened with lawyers, becoming the target of an entire (albeit small) community over perceived wrongdoings. This has massively impacted me.
It did, however, NOT "cause" my OCD. OCD is not independantly arisen, there is no single instance or cause of it. I came to realize that a year before those traumatic events, I was obsessing over the pandemic. My then partner, her little sister and my best friend all got Covid at exactl the same time. I suffered a mental breakdown, and proceeded to spin into absolute obsession, researching all that I could.
It is also only now that I realize that my intense opinions re: journalistic integrity, my insatiable curiosity and thirst for knowledge, which I took a whole lot of pride in, were actually arisen \*due to\* my OCD. Incredibly intense research, trying to know as much as possible about the unknown, was all along a compulsion. A kind of suddent, jolt reaction to perceived threats. And while I still \*like\* that part of myself, I now realize how easily I could hurt myself by overdoing it.
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Was then the pandemic responsible for my OCD?
Of course not. Before that was university and Highschool, where I obsessed over state exams so much I felt sick to my stomach, got off the bus early in the middle of nowhere, and opted to \*study on my laptop and drink energy drinks in a literal forest\* rather than go to school or stay at home, because there I was constantly barraged by thoughts not only from the inside, but also the outside.
So, was that the culprit? Outdated schooling and a disdain for students rights and mental wellbeing?
Once again, no. It certainly made it much worse, but no. Before that there were my strained relations with parental figures, including needing to keep tabs on an alcoholic father. And before that was my experience as a child abuse survivor.
No single thing has "caused" or "led to" my OCD, it was always there. This is also why my obsessions change. And why, when I finally "get over one", my brain squirms, trying to imagine, create or pick a new one. Just today I had a small episode wondering if something vaguely illegal I maybe did (hooray for fake memories) online 8 years ago, as a minor, could negatively impact my current life. The obvious answer being "of course not". But just as it came to be, it came to pass. I do not think I will engage that thought again, for it is pointless.
I feel better than ever. Less anxious, on average. Certainly less scared. Still as tired as ever, but better. And while the last half year was hell, it got better much more than it got worse. OCD is a bit like a broken rollercoaster which didn't pass safety regulations, but is still in use due to widespread corruption. Sometimes it takes you for a wild ride, sometimes it mellows down so much you wonder if it is even there. What is important is to remember that, in the long run, your high will take your higher than your lows will take you down.
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Ah, I am sorry if this is nigh-unreadable. But just typing this out, I feel like a big weight has been lifted off my shoulders. And I hope that maybe, just maybe, this will inspire someone at least a little bit. Or lend some insight.
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OCD
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Recently my depression and real event OCD has kinda been killing me, to the point that I worry I'm a danger to myself. Sometimes I wonder if I should check into a hospital, but I dont wanna lose my job or embarrass myself.
If you've been to a mental hospital, what was it like?
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OCD
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Don’t get me wrong, I hate excersise lol. I am always annoyed and skeptical when someone suggests excersise as a remedy for anything. It’s so hard to peel myself off my bed and do it. But, I find that on the days I don’t excersise I get super jittery, anxious, irritable, and it makes the hyperactivity worse. But even if I walk or jog for 10 minutes, I get this really lovely calm and focused feeling. Any idea why? Does this happen to you?
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ADHD
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I've very recently developed HOCD (homosexual OCD), and I was in denial that's what it was at first because I actually am interested in exploring my sexuality. I feel like there are some actual signs in my past that indicate that I may not be 100% straight, and I've always been curious to try maybe dating someone with the same gender as me.
Unfortunately, while it started with me just wanting to explore myself, I now feel intense anxiety whenever I think about people of my gender, and I'm having what I think are "groinal responses" left and right (I \*seriously\* had one once when looking at a freaking swimming pool, so I'm 100% sure that my OCD is messing with me. Yeah, ik that's really weird...I don't know how that happened).
I'm now not sure what to do. I'm dealing with the obsession by not allowing myself to check whether I'm attracted to anyone and by repeating the phrase "I'm not straight" to force myself to deal with the anxiety.
I'm now kind of sad, because it seems that this means that I am 100% straight? I don't mean to minimize the struggles of being part of the LGBTQ+ community by saying this, but the thought of being just straight to me seems really...boring and limiting. Is there a chance of having HOCD when you're not 100% straight? I don't think there's anything wrong with just being straight, I was just honestly looking forward to exploring new things. Maybe I just feel that way because I'm getting out of a relationship with someone of the opposite gender who I was definitely not attracted to.
Any help from people who have struggled with HOCD would be nice, since this is all pretty new to me. It's going to be at least a few weeks until I can see my therapist again, so I'm just dealing with this on my own rn.
Thanks everyone :)
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OCD
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What do you do when you’re using ALL your tools and coping strategies and nothing seems to work? I am having an awful time. I can’t even sleep. And it’s messed up because I actually want to be happy this time. Things are actually ok for me except these intrusive thoughts. So crippling.
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ptsd
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Do you think anyone would be interested in a YouTube channel where I go in depth about whatever I’ve been hyperfixating on lately and do an informational video on it as a way to introduce people to new hobbies? My latest interest is aquariums but I’ve been into woodcarving, pastels, digital art, songwriting, poetry, journaling, letter writing, dinosaurs, dolphins and more in the past.
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ADHD
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extra flairs: venting and advice
hi! i’m so sorry to come here i just didn’t know where else to go and ask this.
I used to have an online friend who i went through a lot with in 2020 and she ended up betraying me to people who didn’t actually care about her (so it wasn’t worth it for her betraying me tbh). So she made me lose a friend who i thought the world of who i loved and cherished and now they never want anything to do with me again : i don’t mind now as i’ve gotten over it but i still remember that night it all happened.
Now the online friend is coming back into my life and i have no idea what to do, as soon as my cousin showed me that the friend had asked for me in her dms, i kind of started to feel weird, out of it and as if i was becoming a different person again and like i was not me. i felt like i wasn’t here and like i was out of it.
P.S. she’s only messaging me about a question apparently.
Any help would be appreciated, thank you, if you feel this belongs in another sub also let me know!
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ptsd
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I sometimes sit a setting with people and I see people talking deep intellectual conversations or like retain so much info in little time and iam like "how the heck do they have all this info" like I see myself can't think this deep in anything at all .
And then you just take the criticism and you don't even know what the hell is wrong with you...like I didn't choose this path and frankly nobody does at all.
People tell me iam smart, but they don't trust me,they tell me I have an amazing future, but doing being wrong all of the time begin to build inside you self self doubt , low self esteem and being incompetent, and like WTF am I supposed to do now. Frustrating.
I even can't complain to my psychiatrist of all subtleties that I face,but on contrary they tell me you way we see it your life is completely normal . Yeah this hardships I face the same ones must have a source .
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ADHD
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So say, if someone triggers my PTSD, they get all upset with me like I am childish and should be able to deal with things better.
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ptsd
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i’m a barista at a high-volume coffee shop, but we rotate between who’s on machine and who’s on register for each shift. i work 5-6 days a week, and have classes on my days ‘off’.
i’ve been put on mostly cashier shifts for whatever reason as of late, and i’m getting ridiculously burnt out and exhausted. it’s too loud in the shop to hear orders, and the fact that everyone is wearing masks doesn’t help; i already have auditory processing trouble as it is.
my insurance is also jerking me around about covering my medication, so i’m all sorts of screwed up with that too.
does anyone have any tips for handling this sort of environment? i can’t change jobs or switch to doing non-cashier things, so i have to figure out a way to make this work, but it feels like a gargantuan task and i’m at the end of my rope
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ADHD
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A few months ago as I started failing courses and realized that my struggles were not normal. I ended up being diagnosed with ADHD-C by a psychiatrist and sent back to my doctor to deal with treatment.
I was told by my primary care doctor that I needed to do some blood tests, an ECG and a stress echocardiogram before starting medication. The blood test and ECG were done quickly after that but for the past 2 months, I've been waiting for the stress echocardiogram. I went to the appointment earlier today and I was told that they can't do the stress echo for children since they are not pediatric certified. I'm 17.
I'm incredibly frustrated that I wasn't told this sooner. I'm making this post generally to ask if anybody else was required to get a stress echocardiogram or if my doctor is just being overly cautious?
TL;DR: Waited 2 months to be declined treatment. Did you need to do a stress echocardiogram?
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ADHD
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Hello, everyone. I am looking into a CPT therapist but am encountering a lot of practitioners with no availability or very limited availability with appointment slots that don't work with my schedule.
The two who have availability only have daytime appointments, but I work a stressful 8 to 5 job in a demanding career field. After listening to the This American Life podcast where CPT sessions were recorded, I feel like they will be way too intense for me to immediately go back to work and be able to function at the level required to do my job. I have multiple traumas, many of which are complex, and any time they are disturbed, I am a complete mess.
Do you think it's possible to do CPT on lunch breaks? Maybe I'm overthinking this or too wracked with constant anxiety and internal distress to make a rational decision regarding this. Any input would be greatly appreciated. Thank you so much, everyone.
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ptsd
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Hello. After many years of doubt, I finally went to a psychiatrist and got diagnosed with ADHD. I can’t even describe how useless and worthless I’ve been feeling for so long and how incredibly worse this has gotten ever since I’ve moved out and started uni. I instantly felt a wave of relief upon finding out the root of the problem wasn’t exactly me, but what I ultimately wanted was obviously medication. But my psychiatrist refused to prescribe me Ritalin (the only meds he mentioned) citing that I’m severely underweight, and told me he wouldn’t until I gain 8 kgs or so. The main problem is that I have an extremely fast metabolism, have a very low appetite and have never been able to gain weight — I’ve been this way my entire life. Even appearance wise, I have absolutely no desire to gain weight (and am quite frankly scared of that — I ended up also landing an anorexia diagnosis). Long story short, there’s no way I’m getting that medication (and even if I tried to gain weight to access it, it would genuinely take me months, and I need to get better now). I don’t know what to do. My whole life is a mess and I can’t keep up with anything or get anything done, I just feel horrible. I would appreciate it if someone could tell me what I can do to deal with this. Are there any stimulants out there that don’t cause loss of appetite, or just things I can do to get my shit together (other than tips on gaining weight)? Thank you.
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ADHD
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Hello friends. I want to share something which has helped me lately. Apologies if this has been posted before.
I've been trying to reframe my daily struggles in a more positive way, and *value* the times when I get partway to a goal rather than of seeing them as failures. Before, even if I did really well on a goal but messed up toward the end, I would feel shame about the whole thing and beat myself up over it. Focusing on how far I got instead of the fact that I fell short avoids the cognitive trap of "it's too hard, I shouldn't even try", and makes the struggle to better myself rewarding, not discouraging.
For example, last Monday I made a promise to myself that I would have no alcohol or videogames for two weeks, to better focus on school and to let my medication work as best as possible. Well, eight days later and I still haven't touched alcohol! There have been a few times when I really wanted a beer with dinner, but I resisted the urge, and now I feel great! Good success!
As for videogames, well... I ended up "convincing myself" that actually, no, the two weeks should start on Wednesday. And then after a few difficult days, on Sunday I gave in to temptation, downloaded an emulator, and started a Pokémon game.
Sucks, right? Maybe, but this was still a partial success! I'm playing *way* fewer hours of videogames than I was before, and what's more, the games I'm playing now are slower paced, less addictive, and more relaxing. Overall this break has been a positive thing for me and I'm glad I am doing it. Instead of beating myself up that I didn't get there 100% this time, I'm happy that I got 75% of the way. Next time I do this, I'll definitely get 80% or 90%, and eventually I'll get 100%!
Forgive yourself, and show yourself compassion and understanding. ADHD fucking sucks, and dealing with it is a scary, lifelong challenge. Rome wasn't built in a day- likewise, you don't need to build a better you in a day either. Recognize that even when you fall short of your goals, you still are putting in a tremendous amount of effort and making progress, and that is something to be proud of.
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ADHD
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Every day life somehow becomes more and more unappealing -- seriously, why (and, more importantly, how) the hell does anyone do anything at all? Doing something, anything at all, doesn't bring me any fullfillment and doing nothing doesn't help either. It's not that I even want to do nothing all the time, I want to do so many things, but it just feels impossible. I feel so tired and so restless all at the same time. This feeling has been going on for so long and it feels like it'll never end, maybe it never will.
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depression
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Few mouths ago he said there is a mandatory meeting on a freaking holy day and made us all come and he was like "Surprise we are going to fancy restaurant and have fun" i wore a blue sweatpants that day since its not an official work day i will wear what ever the hell i want.
Anyway her phone was stolen around a months ago, he is major simp for all our female coworkers and always talking about how much of great employees they and blah blah blah, i dont hate the girl but she is not my friend she is a coworker, something that he needs to remember.
I am eff-ing underpaid, i dont have a side source or income i cant even save money to buy something nice for myself.
Sorry for the long rant, i am just pissed at the whole situation and i cant say anything about it because everyone else is on board, F$#%ing Bootlickers.
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aspergers
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Hi everyone, I hope the holiday season is treating you well.
I will be starting Zoloft very soon (I picked it up today, but not sure when to actually start for a few unrelated reasons I won't get into now) and I wanted to ask what the side effects were like for those of you who have used Zoloft before.
Just that, that's all, have a great day!
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OCD
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Hello I’m (21f) and currently in my last year of university. I was recently diagnosed this semester and currently taking Adderall. I have been very open and honest to people about my adhd and medication process (to those who are affected by me or have to interact with me on a almost daily basis , and my friends). But every time someone new knows about my medication they always (jokingly/ not ) ask me to give them some of my medication). I feel very uncomfortable about it and usually laugh it off, but it recently frustrating bc they see it as something to abuse rather it being medication that actually helps me function and work during the day.
I also come across some of my friends being alittle annoyed or persistent with me stopping or declining stuff. Once starting medication I decided to cut out alcohol and caffeine which they are sad that I don’t drink with them when we go out. I tell them mixing my medication and alcohol is not good and it best I don’t drink. But there been couple of times they try to pressure me into a shot or trying to plan a party on my birthday (which is coming up soon ) where they want to get me drunk (note my birthday on a week day and I have finals coming up). I guess my overall question is how do i approach these situations with seriousness without trying to laugh it off as a joke, and wanting them to understand this is important to me and my health (mentally , emotionally , physical)
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ADHD
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A month ago, I found this somewhat lewd gay meme (not visual - it was just txt). By gay, I mean... Gay men. And I found it funny and send it to a friend. We both laughed and I don't remember how but I turned the joke upside down and changed a bit and applied to gay women (I'm a gay woman myself).
OK here's the thing, I halfly told the joke directed to a girl I like.... Not really directed because I made myself as the joke but at the same time I was thinking of her, in a way?
It has been a month and I fully regret doing this... I feel like I objectified her. Or did sexual assault in a way.
She means the world to me. And we have fallen for each other... I would never hurt her and do anything to make her feel uncomfortable but I feel so bad for this.
I'm so sorry for the venting. I just needed to get this out of my system.
I have high moral ocd and if I do a mistake, I cant say how serious it is so I just assume it's horrible and blame myself.
One thing I hate is that I half-knew I was going to regret making this joke but I still did it... Idk why. Maybe to fight the ocd. I can't remember what went through my mind. I think I wanted to make the joke to fight the ocd but I didn't directly mentioned the girl I like because I knew I was going to regret it. But the way I phrased the joke is questionable and I'm afraid I didn't care at all at the moment. Sorry... I also suffer from false memories so I'm confused about what thoughts went through my mind at that time.
Do I deserve forgiveness for this? I feel so bad that I had such a lewd thought and made a joke... I feel like I betrayed her in a way... She's such a sweet woman and I love her to bits.
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OCD
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( I have POCD, I think) Today I was doing so great, yesterday too, the thoughts were easy to dismiss and felt proud of myself. On my dîner break I was browsing on FB and saw a girl in my recommended friends thing she didn’t look that young but not old to( my trigger are teenagers), don’t know why I clicked probably cuz I had to test myself... she was 18 but you know still looked young but I wasn’t stressed. But I wasn’t still sure or idk but I decided to look at her pictures and I saw one don’t know if I thought she looked younger or older (she did have a shirt that showcased her chest... she looked developed( I don’t like writing this))I can’t remember if I thought she was cute or not at that moment but I was the date, 4 years ago, she was 14 in that picture. I began stressing the fuck out, my POCD usually never go that low, weird thing is I was so stressed I didn’t even recognize it was the same girl so I checked her profile to find out, I remember thinking « maybe she is older » but they were the same age, I was very depressed, then I got a good look at her face and I saw that she kinda look around that age as in not a adult face, not a attractive one, it kinda felt like a blind fold got lifted off my eyes, but idk, that feeling of like being blinded by stress or not seeing something well has happened to me before but Idk, I got thinking that maybe because I knew her age I’m trying to conceived/reassure myself. Idk I thought : what if someone would have shown me that picture and told me she was an adult would I have been attracted? I just feel depressed right now, I have the urge to look at that picture again but to check... now i feel like girls my age (21) look to young and I’m ashamed/scared to like them...I was doing so great... I hate this
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OCD
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OCD
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The thoughts about pedophilia, all the fear, disgust, and confusion literally nearly happened over night. I am a teen who is nearly 16 and I scared that I might be a pedophile. Not because I might hurt a child (I trust myself enough to know, no matter the circumstances, I would never hurt a child), but because I can’t live with myself knowing that I might feel like this. There a have been a lot of thoughts over the last few months, but the most recent one is about my classmate. I‘ve been thinking these horrible pedophilia thoughts long before this one, but there is a boy who is around two years younger than the rest of us. He doesn’t look that much younger than us. I always thought he was pretty sweet (he was strangely enough one of the most mature and kind boys) and cute, which is now something that is driving me insane. When he came back after the summer, he had grown and looked a bit older and I still think he looks cute (the only good sign). But now I’m wondering if I’m a pedophile because I liked him (it wasn’t a crush crush but I found him somewhat attractive) even then and I feel really horrible. When I have other crushes, I force myself for having them, because I feel like I don’t deserve it, but also feel like it’s an attraction I’m forcing myself to feel, when in reality I’m attracted to kids. In the start of these thoughts, I was mostly scared of being attracted to babies, so I would check myself, both when shows, movies, films, and even situations in person where there were babies. More often then not, I would be more confused, because I could never tell or be certain. Then I started purposefully pulling up picture and revaluating my lady memories. This also turned into an incest and pedophilia fear (normal kind of?) Where I was scared of being attracted to my sister (still am scared) and dad. However, another thing that worried me is that the thoughts about my dad disappeared pretty quickly, so I think I’m making it all up in my head, maybe I am just a sick freak. I can’t be in any situation without asking if I’m attracted to that person? Did I look at them wrong? Etc. Another recent thing is that, when I usually have these thoughts I have to research to see if people say what I’m feeling is right or wrong, etc. Recently, I discovered something called POCD, so after I have these thoughts I get reassured by the fact that it could be POCD. This means that my research revolves around that. (Does a person with POCD feel this? How does groins response work? Etc). Now, I really scared that I’ve made all of this up and I’m in denial. I don’t know what to feel, I’m both numb ( that scares me too). On top of this, I scared I might be sociopath and narcaccist which contradict my POCD thoughts. So basically, I a big blob of anxiety and confusion.
I‘m sorry for the long post, but I don’t know what do.
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OCD
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I feel so weird because I'm an atheist and radical skeptic yet I do this weird new agey prayer thing before bed to "cleanse my pillows of negative energy" where I have to say this mantra word for word until it and have my hands touching the pillows until it "feels right" and if I don't I'm afraid to go to sleep, as it's possible I could psych myself into actually having nightmares since that's kinda how it works. It used to be worse, because it involved me repeatedly flipping the pillows over until I was satisfied that they landed on the "correct" side. It's just so bizarre that I'm aware that this is all bullshit and goes against my lack of belief in anything like that. I guess that's just how this disorder works. I have made a lot of progress through ERP, but this particular compulsion I just can't seem to kick. My OCD is predominantly obsessional like ruminating and really just pure O in general, but this is one of my few compulsions with a physical component
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OCD
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Basically I was masturbating and I l fantasised about my friends ex, my ocd is making me feel like I am a bad friend a snake and that I am hiding something from my friend what do I do?
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OCD
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Not my tiktok, but just thought I’d share because I’ve used the term aspergers interchangeably with autism since my diagnosis but I don’t think I will anymore!
[on mobile but this is the vid](https://vm.tiktok.com/ZMJKTd5TL/)
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aspergers
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What tips do you guys have for helping me(who's not OCD but I am autistic) in helping me deal with a roommate who's undiagnosed OCD but also has a hoarding issue? We've been living together for three years (I live with her and her parents) so obviously patience and understanding is a huge thing and I feel like I've been pretty patient and understanding and I've let alot of the things slide but sometimes it feels like she's micromanaging me as a result of her OCD(I've lived here three years and I don't do any chores around the house...not because I don't want to or haven't offered because I offer to take the trash out,sweep, vaccum,empty the dishwasher etc alot...it's just that I'm always getting told no because my roommate with her OCD has a certain way she likes things done and she won't teach me how to do chores her way because she doesn't trust I'll do them right)...but where the micromanagement comes in is that I can't even shower without her feeling like she has to oversee me, because she feels like if I shower alone I won't shower as thoroughly as she wants me to. She acknowledges that she has OCD but doesn't want to see a psychiatrist because she can't stand taking meds and she refuses therapy because she just isn't comfortable opening up to people she doesn't know...is there anything I can do to make life easier on both of us? Besides continuing to be patient and super understanding like I've been?
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OCD
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How to deal with ocd feelings as soon as the thoughts hits you? Thank you so much for the help
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OCD
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my ocd is for the most part pretty tame. but when it comes to the past and overwhelming guilt related to the smallest of memories i'm a mess. i'd like to get help but i feel this topic is hard to find and i wonder if anyone knows a book with great advice on the subject.
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OCD
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It's one of those sleepless nights again where suicidal thoughts happen to appear out of habit. However, I just realised, if I killed myself that some people would care and that I can claim that I made legitimate friends over the past few years
There are people that would care if I was gone and that they'd be legitimately sad, and that, even though my personality can be hard to handle sometimes, they like me and would miss me
It's so odd to feel that way because it's the first time that I think I would be missed
And I think that's a good thing?
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depression
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