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eiax3o
Worried that I might go crazy or believe things that aren’t there
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rant
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I’ve got pretty bad anxiety and have been dealing with intrusive thoughts and learning to accept. My anxiety is at an all time high but that’s the purpose so that I can get used to it. However, I recently had a dream that I was in a zombie apocalypse and I woke up panicking and my heart was racing. It felt so real to ...
shoga29
1
0
0
2019-12-31 23:53:29
Anxiety
I’ve got pretty bad anxiety and have been dealing with intrusive thoughts and learning to accept. My anxiety is at an all time high but that’s the purpose so that I can get used to it. However, I recently had a dream that I was in a zombie apocalypse and I woke up panicking and my heart was racing. It felt so real to ...
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ekc34o
I had an episode during a lunch detention ☹️ *description of what happened*
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rant
1
So I had a lunch detention for tardies (it takes alot to get up in the morning lol) and I brought my lunch that was on one of those foam trays to the room but I turned too quick and I hit my lunch against the door and it hit the ground and splattered everywhere. This triggered an episode (flashback/anxiety attack) for ...
marvelousme04
3
0
2
2020-01-05 11:51:21
ptsd
<es>So I had a lunch detention for tardies (it takes alot to get up in the morning lol) and I brought my lunch that was on one of those foam trays to the room but I turned too quick and I hit my lunch against the door and it hit the ground and splattered everywhere.<ee> <es>This triggered an episode (flashback/anxiety ...
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What do you need help with now that X?
you are anxious about getting into trouble
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ep4983
Just got out of an abusive relationship &amp; still struggling to make sense of it all.
1b
rant
3
I never really got the chance to talk out what happened so I thought I’d just get it all out here. I’m a 19 year old girl and the guy that I was dealing with was 22. I met him on Facebook messenger after he messaged me and he genuinely seemed like a nice guy. After us talking for a few days he brought up the subjec...
ThewitchDoctor20
1
0
4
2020-01-15 16:12:22
domesticviolence
I never really got the chance to talk out what happened so I thought I’d just get it all out here. <es>I’m a 19 year old girl and the guy that I was dealing with was 22.<ee> <es> I met him on Facebook messenger after he messaged me and he genuinely seemed like a nice guy. <ee> <es>After us talking for a few days he b...
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how you felt about the relationship
What do you need help with now that X?
your partner abused you
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ejtsxy
I Feel Like I Can Never Be Myself
1a
rant
1
It's like I have to be a different person to deal with everything and to be able to interact with people. I have to act uncaring and confident when deep down I'm such a sensitive person, too sensitive. Things wear on me so badly and when I'm by myself I feel like crying. I just feel lonely because I have no one I conne...
sleep_dirt_
2
0
4
2020-01-04 07:54:11
mentalillness
<es>It's like I have to be a different person to deal with everything and to be able to interact with people.<ee> <es>I have to act uncaring and confident when deep down I'm such a sensitive person, too sensitive.<ee> <efs>Things wear on me so badly and when I'm by myself I feel like crying.<efs> <efs>I just feel lonel...
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what would help you come out of the awful cycle
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eitivk
Almost 1 week off suboxone!
1a
help-seeking
1
I had posted earlier talking about quitting suboxone and just posting how I was doing and feeling. Well tomorrow at 6pm will make 6 full days off the subs and I cant believe that it wasnt as hard as I expected. My body does ache and I have no energy. I have trouble sleeping at times and get the occasional hot flash. It...
idontlikeposting03
1
0
11
2020-01-02 04:49:55
OpiatesRecovery
<es>I had posted earlier talking about quitting suboxone and just posting how I was doing and feeling.<ee> <es>Well tomorrow at 6pm will make 6 full days off the subs and I cant believe that it wasnt as hard as I expected.<ee> <efs>My body does ache and I have no energy.<efe> <efs>I have trouble sleeping at times and g...
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eoyg01
Seriously need advice
1a
help-seeking
1
How do other people do it when they're in a relationship with another addict ... But you deeply love that person and they wanna be clean just as much/ if not more than you... We sit and sweat out the physical wds together in misery and longer everytime and wait til we feel good and one of us just maybe is struggling a...
briannavk
1
0
3
2020-01-15 06:06:55
OpiatesRecovery
<es>How do other people do it when they're in a relationship with another addict ...<ee> <es>But you deeply love that person and they wanna be clean just as much/ if not more than you...<ee> <es>We sit and sweat out the physical wds together in misery and longer everytime and wait til we feel good and one of us just m...
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how you feel doing the detox together
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ejcbog
It is valid
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chitchat
1
I often times see posts asking if their trauma is valid. I sometimes wonder that myself. But I am here to say IT IS valid. Doesn’t matter who or what caused it. Your feelings matter. Idk if you all heard of the term suffering olympics but it’s when people who have been through something compare trauma to see “who has i...
Lonestar189
22
0
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2020-01-03 07:51:36
ptsd
I often times see posts asking if their trauma is valid. I sometimes wonder that myself. But I am here to say IT IS valid. Doesn’t matter who or what caused it. Your feelings matter. Idk if you all heard of the term suffering olympics but it’s when people who have been through something compare trauma to see “who has i...
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elnkaa
Please help me. I don't react well when people "ghost" me and I have panic attacks.
1b
help-seeking
2
Firstly, I have bad anxiety and I get way too clingy to people especially over snapchat. If I see that someone deleted me off snapchat or blocked me I take it so personally. This girl I matched with on tinder seemed interested at first and then supposedly got a boyfriend. Then she deleted me off snapchat and so I DM he...
Novus_97
1
0
0
2020-01-08 04:20:26
mentalillness
<es>Firstly, I have bad anxiety and I get way too clingy to people especially over snapchat.<ee> <es>If I see that someone deleted me off snapchat or blocked me I take it so personally.<ee> This girl I matched with on tinder seemed interested at first and then supposedly got a boyfriend. Then she deleted me off snapcha...
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What do you need help with now that X?
you have panic attacks whenever someone blocks you
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eoxsdn
Expediate detox with Narcan?
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help-seeking
2
I don’t know if this is false information, but from what I was told, withdrawals increase gradually once you stop using, peak at day 3, then subside during the rest of the week. That is because it takes 3 days for all the dope to leave your system. Once all the heroin is gone, then your brain get the chance to start t...
cstofd20
1
0
11
2020-01-15 05:03:21
OpiatesRecovery
I don’t know if this is false information, but from what I was told, withdrawals increase gradually once you stop using, peak at day 3, then subside during the rest of the week. That is because it takes 3 days for all the dope to leave your system. Once all the heroin is gone, then your brain get the chance to start t...
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eiu9cq
weird memory loss?
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help-seeking
1
so when my mood swings to the depressed side, i have almost no memory, whatsoever. i can remember general things, but not anything specific at all. but when i am in an ok or positive mood, my memory is just fine. i’m 18 so it’s a bit frightening to me. has anyone else had this? how did you help it? i have also had many...
ajaxsoccer11
1
0
8
2020-01-02 05:56:55
BPD
<es>so when my mood swings to the depressed side, i have almost no memory, whatsoever.<ee> <es>i can remember general things, but not anything specific at all.<ee> <es>but when i am in an ok or positive mood, my memory is just fine.<ee> <efs>i’m 18 so it’s a bit frightening to me.<efe> <rs>has anyone else had this?<re>...
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how forgetting things during mood swings make you feel
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emx5xl
Quitting cigs
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survey
1
Alright. I am slowly weening off and am down to 2 cigs a day. My teeth hurt and my head feels like it's under water entirely. What other lovely symptoms have u guys experienced?
bks7744
1
0
1
2020-01-10 21:04:36
addiction
Alright. <es>I am slowly weening off and am down to 2 cigs a day.<ee> <efs>My teeth hurt and my head feels like it's under water entirely. <efe> <rs>What other lovely symptoms have u guys experienced?<re>
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Can you elaborate more on X ?
what made you quit cigarettes
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eijkcl
I promised myself not to start to self harm (cutting) whatever happens. Now im in a pretty bad situation.
1a
help-seeking
2
A few years ago i made a promise to myself to not to cut myself whatever happens because i had a fear i might go wrong and accidentally puncture my nerves or the situation might get even worse. Whenever i make a mistake or fuck up my mother would point out of how i "inhinerited" my father's trait of being a smart; but...
ZanSquintox
1
0
1
2020-01-01 15:38:17
selfharm
A few years ago i made a promise to myself to not to cut myself whatever happens because i had a fear i might go wrong and accidentally puncture my nerves or the situation might get even worse. Whenever i make a mistake or fuck up my mother would point out of how i "inhinerited" my father's trait of being a smart; but...
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ekth7r
Ooga booga
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chitchat
4
Oog to the boog
zoomzoom666
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0
1
2020-01-06 12:24:19
socialanxiety
Oog to the boog
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ejcrxc
How to get over an obsession
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help-seeking
1
How do I get over an obsession with someone. How do I move on? The only way I know is with a new one and I don't want to go that route. I'm not using people to fill the void like every lowkey neurotypical.
jadexsasha
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2020-01-03 08:45:09
BPD
<rs>How do I get over an obsession with someone.<re> <rs>How do I move on?<re> <es>The only way I know is with a new one and I don't want to go that route.<ee> <es>I'm not using people to fill the void like every lowkey neurotypical.<ee>
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Can you elaborate more on X ?
your obsession with that person
How did X make you feel?
being obsessed with that person
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emtmh2
100 Day Hype!
1a
rant
2
Well technically speaking 104 days. My last check update thread was around the 50 day mark. I’ve started to notice some really positive physical changes. My youthfulness has started to return and I just look a lot healthier. I recognize myself in the mirror again. I finally got around to going to a general doctor and g...
BlueWindows1
1
0
10
2020-01-10 16:51:10
OpiatesRecovery
Well technically speaking 104 days. My last check update thread was around the 50 day mark. I’ve started to notice some really positive physical changes. My youthfulness has started to return and I just look a lot healthier. I recognize myself in the mirror again. I finally got around to going to a general doctor and g...
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ek59gu
You can live a life free of abuse. I’m proof.
1b
chitchat
2
I grew up in abusive home, and got married to escape it. As you might guess, he abused me too. It got so bad that he had me living 500 miles away from my family, in a rundown trailer in the Missouri backwoods. For 4 years I lived in a prison without escape, enduring daily beatings. I was too afraid to leave, as I thoug...
LaynaBuggy007
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2020-01-05 00:35:55
domesticviolence
I grew up in abusive home, and got married to escape it. As you might guess, he abused me too. It got so bad that he had me living 500 miles away from my family, in a rundown trailer in the Missouri backwoods. For 4 years I lived in a prison without escape, enduring daily beatings. I was too afraid to leave, as I thoug...
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Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
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eq500x
23 days free. Longest clean time in almost a year and there is no going back.
1a
help-seeking
2
After the awful way my entire family found out I was using (shit I had xmas Eve was laced and had to go to ER in the middle of family xmas at my gmas) I have honestly had zero cravings. The thought of doing that to my family again makes me sick. Even if and probably when the cravings do hit again all I’d have to do is ...
catmom2040
1
0
3
2020-01-17 19:20:43
OpiatesRecovery
After the awful way my entire family found out I was using (shit I had xmas Eve was laced and had to go to ER in the middle of family xmas at my gmas) I have honestly had zero cravings. The thought of doing that to my family again makes me sick. Even if and probably when the cravings do hit again all I’d have to do is ...
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Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
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eo7hrr
Cried through my first meeting and left early
1a
survey
1
Anyone else have this experience? To admit that I’m an alcoholic just seems so.... permanent. I’m on day five, and my detox reaction is pretty much just nightmares and tears.
Ilovemytoes2
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0
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2020-01-13 17:46:50
alcoholicsanonymous
<es>Cried through my first meeting and left early<ee> <rs>Anyone else have this experience?<re> <efs>To admit that I’m an alcoholic just seems so.... permanent.<efe> <es>I’m on day five, and my detox reaction is pretty much just nightmares and tears.<ee>
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Can you elaborate more on X ?
your first meeting
How did X make you feel?
the nightmares
Can you elaborate more on X ?
what would help you with the detox
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ei86ba
NYE is a fucking joke
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rant
1
While everyone I know is drinking with their friends, I sit alone in my room. Maybe I'll read, maybe I cry (probably not) or maybe I just yeet myself out of the window. Idk, surprise me. And I have a beer, so, it's not that bad
little-daydream
1
0
3
2019-12-31 20:14:13
depression
<es>While everyone I know is drinking with their friends, I sit alone in my room.<ee> <efs>Maybe I'll read, maybe I cry (probably not) or maybe I just yeet myself out of the window.<efe> Idk, surprise me. And I have a beer, so, it's not that bad
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why you were sitting alone
Can you elaborate more on X ?
how you were feeling
What do you need help with now that X?
felt alone
suicidal
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eiat50
Is this technically Anxiety?
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help-seeking
3
I've had issues related to anxiety for a while, and I'd just like to hear your opinion on them. I'm not asking for a diagnosis, it's just, I somewhat need help pinpointing what I'm feeling. Whenever I view triggering content, my mind has a tendency to theorise on the opinions presented and attempt to perceive them fro...
ParanoidAndroid353
1
0
1
2019-12-31 23:44:35
Anxiety
<rs>I've had issues related to anxiety for a while, and I'd just like to hear your opinion on them.<re> <rs>I'm not asking for a diagnosis, it's just, I somewhat need help pinpointing what I'm feeling.<re> <es>Whenever I view triggering content, my mind has a tendency to theorise on the opinions presented and attempt ...
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flb8mg
How to get better without wanting to be happy?
1b
help-seeking
2
Most advice I see is about feeling better and living in the moment. Appreciating life as it is. The older I get, the less I want to do that. The world is shit. We're here for no reason and we suffer for no reason and no, appreciating my morning coffee doesn't make up for the fact that my 30yo friend died of a horrible...
visionsofyoyoma2
1
0
11
2020-03-19 14:50:01
getting_over_it
Most advice I see is about feeling better and living in the moment. Appreciating life as it is. The older I get, the less I want to do that. The world is shit. We're here for no reason and we suffer for no reason and no, appreciating my morning coffee doesn't make up for the fact that my 30yo friend died of a horrible...
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ezjrgp
I don't know how to explain this to my partner
1a
help-seeking
1
Every sexual encounter I had before my husband was non consensual, which he is aware of and understanding of. But lately, my self esteem issues and anxieties about initiating sex have started to kill our sex life, and I dont know how to handle it.
littlehummingbird91
1
0
4
2020-02-06 00:40:18
rapecounseling
<es>Every sexual encounter I had before my husband was non consensual, which he is aware of and understanding of.<ee> <es>But lately, my self esteem issues and anxieties about initiating sex have started to kill our sex life, and I dont know how to handle it.<ee>
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How did X make you feel?
the non consensual sexual encounters
What do you need help with now that X?
your self esteem issues are affecting your sex life
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enotid
Not really addicted anymore but
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help-seeking
1
Will I ever feel great again. I have beat heroin addiction, beeb sober from that for 10 years. I've beat weed addiction, I just smoke here and there like 6 times a year. I take acid/ molly a few times a year as well. I awake this morning wanting to feel great. Anyone have experience where you feel content with s...
xnotacopx
1
0
49
2020-01-12 15:34:45
addiction
<rs>Will I ever feel great again.<re> <es>I have beat heroin addiction, beeb sober from that for 10 years.<ee> <es>I've beat weed addiction, I just smoke here and there like 6 times a year.<ee> <es>I take acid/ molly a few times a year as well.<ee> <rs>I awake this morning wanting to feel great.<re> <rs>Anyone h...
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How did X make you feel?
being sober
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ejq8av
My parents get mad at me when I forget to take my meds, but I forget because I'm stressed out and forgot to take my meds.
1b
help-seeking
1
What should I do to show them that I get stressed out when they yell at me, I've told them that they stress me out, but they just blame it on me and say that I think the world revolves around me. And that I'm blaming it on them to avoid the blame. Also what should I do when I'm stressed I usually go to my room, but my...
Burntninjas
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2020-01-04 02:33:59
selfhelp
<es>My parents get mad at me when I forget to take my meds, but I forget because I'm stressed out and forgot to take my meds.<ee> <rs>What should I do to show them that I get stressed out when they yell at me,<re> <es>I've told them that they stress me out, but they just blame it on me and say that I think the world r...
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How did X make you feel?
these arguments with your parents
Can you elaborate more on X ?
showing your parents how you get stressed when they yell at you
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eibzcq
Damm This hits me hard :/
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Donghoon
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2020-01-01 01:20:49
socialanxiety
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f3hasc
How do I stay quiet?
1a
help-seeking
1
I definitely have an anger problem. Every time someone annoys or angers me I can’t stop myself from insulting or berating them. Just now I called my own mother a stupid bitch because she called me attention seeking and accusing me of faking my DIAGNOSED anxiety disorder. How do I just stay quiet and let go? I wish I ...
M4R134
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2020-02-13 21:33:39
Anger
<es>I definitely have an anger problem.<ee> <es>Every time someone annoys or angers me I can’t stop myself from insulting or berating them.<ee> <es>Just now I called my own mother a stupid bitch because she called me attention seeking and accusing me of faking my DIAGNOSED anxiety disorder.<ee> <rs>How do I just stay...
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How did X make you feel?
your anger outbursts
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eiaquq
Goodbye to the worst decade of my life
1a
rant
1
Looking back I realized I’ve wasted ten whole years of my life. Since 2010 I haven’t been able to do anything, to complete nothing, I spent my teenage years literally locked in my room in the dark, ignoring the outside world. I have ruined my 2010 and I cannot blame anyone else, just myself. I don't want to have the sa...
Ammpera
1
0
6
2019-12-31 23:39:23
depression
Looking back I realized I’ve wasted ten whole years of my life. Since 2010 I haven’t been able to do anything, to complete nothing, I spent my teenage years literally locked in my room in the dark, ignoring the outside world. I have ruined my 2010 and I cannot blame anyone else, just myself. I don't want to have the sa...
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How did X make you feel?
depression
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erpid2
...wow.. *could trigger???*
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help-seeking
1
Without even realizing it I think I have gone a couple of days without cutting! Though the more I think about it the more I'm tempted.. my thighs get a little like.. bland I guess(?) without the scars.. idk.. I guess I just like seeing the freshly scabbed ones?
armadillo809
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0
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2020-01-21 04:33:27
selfhelp
<es>Without even realizing it I think I have gone a couple of days without cutting!<ee> <es>Though the more I think about it the more I'm tempted.. my thighs get a little like.. bland I guess(?) without the scars.. idk.. I guess I just like seeing the freshly scabbed ones?<ee>
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Can you elaborate more on X ?
why you are doing self harm
How did X make you feel?
cutting yourself
What do you need help with now that X?
you are getting urges to cut again
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eiqvdb
oops
1a
rant
1
ive been clean for months and I just messed it up, I was finally starting to get somewhere and I turned back to it in a moment of impulse, I can’t believe I broke it im just stupid :(
ginandchoke
1
0
2
2020-01-02 01:08:21
selfharm
<es>ive been clean for months and I just messed it up, I was finally starting to get somewhere and I turned back to it in a moment of impulse, I can’t believe I broke it <ee> <efs>im just stupid :(<efe>
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why you cut yourself
Can you elaborate more on X ?
how breaking your clean streak make you feel
What do you need help with now that X?
you broke your clean streak
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eobcgj
Wtf is going on
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rant
1
I don't feel emotions anymore. I used to like a year ago, but nothing. My emotions were dampened as a kid(I'm 16)but I still had fear happiness etc. Sometines I feel emotion, but then I am back to my usual blank slate. Wtf could have caused this.
mike_och
1
0
2
2020-01-13 22:13:14
mentalillness
<es>I don't feel emotions anymore.<ee> <es>I used to like a year ago, but nothing.<ee> <es>My emotions were dampened as a kid(I'm 16)but I still had fear happiness etc.<ee> <es>Sometines I feel emotion, but then I am back to my usual blank slate.<ee> Wtf could have caused this.
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How did X make you feel?
the lack of emotions
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etfiik
Why is it all coming back now?
1b
help-seeking
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When I was 5 I was molested by a family member.. I had no clue what happened till I was older and started having dreams about it.. When I was 15 I got raped by a "friend" who laced a blunt I never told anyone till I was 18.. I'm 21 now and I thought I was fine until today I had a panic attack because it all came flood...
naconawildchild
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2020-01-24 19:47:13
rapecounseling
<es>When I was 5 I was molested by a family member..<ee> <es>I had no clue what happened till I was older and started having dreams about it..<ee> <es>When I was 15 I got raped by a "friend" who laced a blunt I never told anyone till I was 18..<ee> <es>I'm 21 now and I thought I was fine until today I had a panic atta...
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how did the flashback make you feel
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euvqsx
So I survived a genocide as a child and never spoken to anyone about it much.
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Like the title says. When I was very young my family lived in Bosnia in the early to mid 90s. I've spoken little about it over the years. The little bit I have mentioned to people makes them uncomfortable and made me realize I need to talk some about it. I cant even bring myself to talk to my wife. If anyone wants to l...
Tuchaya
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2020-01-27 22:32:41
selfhelp
<es>So I survived a genocide as a child and never spoken to anyone about it much.<ee> Like the title says. <es>When I was very young my family lived in Bosnia in the early to mid 90s.<ee> <es>I've spoken little about it over the years.<ee> <es>The little bit I have mentioned to people makes them uncomfortable and made ...
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bottling up your emotions for so many years
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ejrcvl
I can’t feel anymore.
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I don’t know what’s happened to me. And I don’t particularly mind. I can’t feel much anymore. I cried earlier, but afterwards I felt no relief. No normal feeling. I don’t know what’s happened to me. I started cutting as a punishment, and also a desperate want for scars-pain, but now I think I’m a worthless being. I do...
ClassyPessimist
2
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2020-01-04 04:03:07
selfharm
<es>I don’t know what’s happened to me.<ee> <es>And I don’t particularly mind.<ee> <efs>I can’t feel much anymore.<efe> <efs>I cried earlier, but afterwards I felt no relief.<efe> <efs>No normal feeling.<efe> <es>I don’t know what’s happened to me.<ee> <es>I started cutting as a punishment, and also a desperate want f...
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why you cut yourself
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en0u0z
Boyfriend [37M] Quitting oxycodone with suboxone. Starting tomorrow. Need some insight and advice, please!
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Tomorrow my boyfriend is going to the methadone clinic to get his first dose of suboxone. He only wants to be on it to avoid withdrawl symptoms of his oxycodone addiction. I've read that 3 weeks with of tapering suboxone is enough, or else he will become dependent on subs. What will he expect to experience during th...
Girlfriendproblemsss
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2020-01-11 01:41:19
OpiatesRecovery
<es>Tomorrow my boyfriend is going to the methadone clinic to get his first dose of suboxone.<ee> <es>He only wants to be on it to avoid withdrawl symptoms of his oxycodone addiction.<ee> <es>I've read that 3 weeks with of tapering suboxone is enough, or else he will become dependent on subs.<ee> <rs>What will he ex...
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your boyfriend going to start taking suboxone
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eig9do
I feel anxious around my parents
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rant
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I’m almost 19 now but ever since I was probably 9 or 10 I’ve been hesitant to smile or laugh in front of my own parents. I’m thinking that it may be because of naturally feeling embarrassed to show emotions. Or it could be because I’ve never really smiled much my entire life and kept to myself. But also whenever I lau...
throwaway71498528411
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2020-01-01 08:46:20
Anxiety
<es>I’m almost 19 now but ever since I was probably 9 or 10 I’ve been hesitant to smile or laugh in front of my own parents.<ee> <es>I’m thinking that it may be because of naturally feeling embarrassed to show emotions.<ee> <es>Or it could be because I’ve never really smiled much my entire life and kept to myself.<ee>...
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how you feel around your parents
What do you need help with now that X?
you want to follow your passion
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elbj9g
A sad fuck on this sub has a father who wishes he had a son not a pussy. How very sad ☹
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rant
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whiteboyforsale
1
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2020-01-07 13:26:44
sad
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eojuod
First time poster( need sobriety advice and to tell my story)
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help-seeking
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Hello Reddit, this is my first time posting ever. I’m not very good at typing and it’s late so bear with me. My name is J, I’ve been using a variety of drugs for a while now mainly meth, ecstasy and pills. I’ve burned a lot of bridges, almost ruined my parents marriage and caused a lot of grief in my personal life. But...
berneraccount101
1
0
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2020-01-14 11:03:39
addiction
Hello Reddit, this is my first time posting ever. I’m not very good at typing and it’s late so bear with me. <es>My name is J, I’ve been using a variety of drugs for a while now mainly meth, ecstasy and pills.<ee> <es>I’ve burned a lot of bridges, almost ruined my parents marriage and caused a lot of grief in my person...
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being sober
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eo5exu
Daily Reflections January 13
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chitchat
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IT DOESN'T HAPPEN OVERNIGHT We are not cured of alcoholism. What we really have is a daily reprieve contingent on the maintenance of our spiritual condition. — ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS, p. 85 The most common alcoholic fantasy seems to be: "If I just don't drink, everything will be all right." Once the fog cleared for me,...
mufhn-man
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2020-01-13 15:17:17
alcoholicsanonymous
IT DOESN'T HAPPEN OVERNIGHT We are not cured of alcoholism. What we really have is a daily reprieve contingent on the maintenance of our spiritual condition. — ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS, p. 85 The most common alcoholic fantasy seems to be: "If I just don't drink, everything will be all right." Once the fog cleared for me,...
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eodqw1
Just received my book Dr. Bob and the Good Oldtimers!
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chitchat
1
Just got my book I ordered off of Ebay and looking forward to start reading in t minus 3..2..1...!!!
near_to_water
1
0
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2020-01-14 01:10:40
alcoholicsanonymous
Just got my book I ordered off of Ebay and looking forward to start reading in t minus 3..2..1...!!!
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ei94tg
Time passing is giving me more and more anxiety
1b
survey
2
Days, months, and years going by have always been one of those "oh wow, I can't believe it's been x years since x/y/z happened!" things for me. It was always simply a passing thought or, if anything, would cause minimal distress. The last month or so, I've been experiencing severe anxiety, distress, and hopelessness ...
DamnFineCalamity
1
0
0
2019-12-31 21:29:34
Anxiety
<es>Days, months, and years going by have always been one of those "oh wow, I can't believe it's been x years since x/y/z happened!" things for me.<ee> It was always simply a passing thought or, if anything, would cause minimal distress. <es>The last month or so, I've been experiencing severe anxiety, distress, and h...
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ekxjws
Maybe someone else can relate..? Or say something to calm my nerves
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help-seeking
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So I’ve been with this man who for some reason I love so so much for about a year. Over the course of the year I’ve been suffocated, choked , almost killed , I’ve had my old apartment broken into, holes punched in the walls , I’ve been beat up, called countless names but I keep going back. That’s my fault. Maybe a few ...
XoxoTee173
1
0
4
2020-01-06 17:53:09
domesticviolence
<es>So I’ve been with this man who for some reason I love so so much for about a year.<ee> <es>Over the course of the year I’ve been suffocated, choked , almost killed , I’ve had my old apartment broken into, holes punched in the walls , I’ve been beat up, called countless names but I keep going back.<ee> <es>That’s my...
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ekot7k
5 days sober from alcohol
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I spent the last days with my girlfriend and they were amazing. Cuddling with her, watching shows, making out and going out to get food. And I will remember it all clearly and I feel so much better not drinking. I smoke a little weed but that’s all. My family is happy and my girl is happy and I am happy. Just wanted to...
ihatemylifebruh
1
0
0
2020-01-06 04:29:33
addiction
I spent the last days with my girlfriend and they were amazing. Cuddling with her, watching shows, making out and going out to get food. And I will remember it all clearly and I feel so much better not drinking. I smoke a little weed but that’s all. My family is happy and my girl is happy and I am happy. Just wanted to...
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epwoxr
My confidence is based off of attention I get from girls
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help-seeking
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So as a teen I got rejected and ignored left right and center by girls. Then I hit the gym and became more attractive. I’ve been with a few girls and I’d say I’m fairly attractive now. But I have a physical and emotional need for validation from girls. This means that whenever I don’t ‘get with’ a girl in a few days ...
PolarSandy
1
0
4
2020-01-17 06:33:47
selfhelp
<es>So as a teen I got rejected and ignored left right and center by girls.<ee> <es>Then I hit the gym and became more attractive.<ee> <es>I’ve been with a few girls and I’d say I’m fairly attractive now.<ee> <es>But I have a physical and emotional need for validation from girls.<ee> <efs>This means that whenever I d...
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ekemw4
Is this weird?
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help-seeking
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I'm on day 2, been here before a few times over the years but I like to make myself go to the shop each day no matter how bad I feel and make myself walk the alcohol aisle to prove I can do it. Is this normal or very odd behaviour?
chelator79
1
0
14
2020-01-05 15:50:09
alcoholicsanonymous
<es>I'm on day 2, been here before a few times over the years but I like to make myself go to the shop each day no matter how bad I feel and make myself walk the alcohol aisle to prove I can do it.<ee> <rs>Is this normal or very odd behaviour?<re>
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your alcohol addiction
How did X make you feel?
only looking at alcohol
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eitdpv
Problems with relationships after the fact?
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help-seeking
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Does anyone else have trouble... feeling romantic love for people? Or switch between idealizing sexual activities but then hating the idea of anyone ever touching you again? I’m pretty young as of right now, but I still... feel so weird when it comes to this stuff. I don’t crush on people anymore nor do I feel anythin...
retrotheia
1
0
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2020-01-02 04:36:51
rapecounseling
<rs>Does anyone else have trouble... feeling romantic love for people?<re> <rs>Or switch between idealizing sexual activities but then hating the idea of anyone ever touching you again?<re> <efs>I’m pretty young as of right now, but I still... feel so weird when it comes to this stuff.<efe> <es>I don’t crush on people...
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eigyr0
My life
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help-seeking
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Hello people, 2019 was a mega shit year for me. Anxiety took hold stronger than ever. Unfortunately for me this lead to my contract ending with my employer just before Christmas :/ I try not to push on my problems as we all have them right? I am looking for part time work locally so hopefully something will pop up soon...
tallnut30
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2020-01-01 10:22:45
Anxiety
<es>Hello people, 2019 was a mega shit year for me.<ee> <es>Anxiety took hold stronger than ever.<ee> <efs>Unfortunately for me this lead to my contract ending with my employer just before Christmas :/<efe> <es>I try not to push on my problems as we all have them right?<ee> <rs>I am looking for part time work locally s...
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f1vuov
Proposed to afriend who was completed open with me..... Can't handle the uncertainly and rejection
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I (20m) had a really good friend I told her from the start I liked her and she told me she didn't exactly have a bf but there was someone else who she was intimate with. I was really bad at studies and didn't think I deserved her so waited.i told her that I needed a beak because I was developing feelings she said it's ...
idk--anymore
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2020-02-10 19:57:59
getting_over_it
<es>I (20m) had a really good friend I told her from the start I liked her and she told me she didn't exactly have a bf but there was someone else who she was intimate with.<ee> <es>I was really bad at studies and didn't think I deserved her so waited.<ee><es>i told her that I needed a beak because I was developing fee...
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How did X make you feel?
her keeping you hanging
What do you need help with now that X?
your crush hasn't responded to your proposal
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eiccr8
Everytime I post someone writes something negative to me
1b
rant
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I just want to vent my fucking feelings okay. I feel like killing myself and no one fuckinf cares already and I get rude comments. Fuck those who leave rude comments on suicidal peoples posts
lildanibb
1
0
0
2020-01-01 01:54:21
depression
<es>Everytime I post someone writes something negative to me<ee> <rs>I just want to vent my fucking feelings okay.<re> <efs>I feel like killing myself and no one fuckinf cares already and I get rude comments.<efe> Fuck those who leave rude comments on suicidal peoples posts
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why you do you want to kill yourself
Can you elaborate more on X ?
how you feel about the negative comments
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emr5a5
Are You Living The Successful Life You Want Or Something Else?
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survey
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kokoshungsan
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2020-01-10 13:49:04
selfhelp
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eivb3s
Heck, This Is Major Sad Boi Hours
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rant
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Welp One of my posts was taken down because I didn't "flair" it. And it had great grammar and everything! I'm extremely new to Reddit, so... What the heck even-
We_Stan_Chickenz
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0
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2020-01-02 07:46:58
sad
Welp One of my posts was taken down because I didn't "flair" it. And it had great grammar and everything! I'm extremely new to Reddit, so... What the heck even-
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ep25f1
Discussion about visions and voices.
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survey
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i used to hear voices. they tells me to hurt myself and i hear songs that i never heard of in real life. once i smashed a glass bottle and cut my arm with it. and i see horrifying people. they are big like giants. i used to hear footsteps and breathing when i'm alone. what is this?
MrGhost23
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2020-01-15 13:11:39
mentalillness
<es>i used to hear voices. they tells me to hurt myself and i hear songs that i never heard of in real life.<ee> <es>once i smashed a glass bottle and cut my arm with it. <ee> <es>and i see horrifying people.<ee> they are big like giants. <es>i used to hear footsteps and breathing when i'm alone.<ee> <rs>what is th...
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the horrifying visions and voices
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what would help get relief from the visions and voices
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eire1l
Anxiety and Toxic Friends
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help-seeking
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I have recently realised that one of my oldest friendships has become toxic. I won’t go into loads of detail but in short: I have found that every time I see or speak to her (in person, on the phone or via messages) I find myself feeling bad about myself, doubting myself or feeling guilty. She is very intelligent (and ...
nebulouspeach
1
0
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2020-01-02 01:50:10
Anxiety
<es>I have recently realised that one of my oldest friendships has become toxic.<ee> <efs>I won’t go into loads of detail but in short: I have found that every time I see or speak to her (in person, on the phone or via messages) I find myself feeling bad about myself, doubting myself or feeling guilty.<efe> <es>She is ...
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f0oqte
Update about abuser dumping me. He's contacting me.
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help-seeking
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So as my last post says he got violent with me during sex and strangled me to the point I started having a panic attacks. He did things I didn't consent to. so I left in the middle of it and went home. He texted me within the days after asking what's going on, then saying it's best if we're friends. then the morning a...
Throwawayox1
1
0
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2020-02-08 08:10:05
domesticviolence
<es>So as my last post says he got violent with me during sex and strangled me to the point I started having a panic attacks.<ee> <es>He did things I didn't consent to.<ee> <es>so I left in the middle of it and went home.<ee> <es>He texted me within the days after asking what's going on, then saying it's best if we're...
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you are afraid to go back to your abuser's house
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eop9ye
I'm looking down this road, and it's looking back at me like "try it b*tch, I dare you"
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rant
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Hello Reddit! Idk what I'm expecting to come from this post, maybe just want to say something. I was raised super sheltered, didn't get into anything till around 22, (sides pot, been smoking that and cigs since 14) and around 22 I found Molly, and psychedelics. That was fun for a while, but I could feel myself craving ...
ExplicitlySweet
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0
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2020-01-14 18:34:05
addiction
Hello Reddit! Idk what I'm expecting to come from this post, maybe just want to say something. <es>I was raised super sheltered, didn't get into anything till around 22, (sides pot, been smoking that and cigs since 14) and around 22 I found Molly, and psychedelics.<ee> <es>That was fun for a while, but I could feel mys...
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How did X make you feel?
taking meth
What do you need help with now that X?
you got addicted to meth
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ej17r4
Day 18. New Year’s Day 2.
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rant
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If I said I felt amazing I’d be lying. Compared to withdrawing every couple of hours, I obviously feel much better, but not great. What bothers me most is, I have to constantly use the bathroom. I had forgotten how regular I am, I go no less then 3 times a day, and spend the rest of the day with my stomach in knots. It...
slick718
1
0
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2020-01-02 17:30:51
OpiatesRecovery
If I said I felt amazing I’d be lying. <efs>Compared to withdrawing every couple of hours, I obviously feel much better, but not great.<efe> <efs>What bothers me most is, I have to constantly use the bathroom.<efe> <efs>I had forgotten how regular I am, I go no less then 3 times a day, and spend the rest of the day wit...
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much better compared to withdrawing
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eia2t7
Adderall Rage/Cant let stuff go
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help-seeking
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So this will have been the second time this year I have tried Adderall. I feel like it helps me (30F)focus, but nothing amazing that I have noticed...except...I can’t let things go now. I’m talking to the point where I go to the restroom at work and stay in there for 20 minutes adjusting my glasses ever so slightly b...
vanstinky
1
0
4
2019-12-31 22:45:50
ADHD
<es>So this will have been the second time this year I have tried Adderall. <ee> <efs>I feel like it helps me (30F)focus, but nothing amazing that I have noticed...except...I can’t let things go now.<efe> <es>I’m talking to the point where I go to the restroom at work and stay in there for 20 minutes adjusting my glas...
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eicbux
My life gets worse every year
1a
rant
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That’s what it feels like anyway....
thatguybehindtheguy1
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0
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2020-01-01 01:52:01
depression
<es>My life gets worse every year<ee> That’s what it feels like anyway....
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why your life feels worse every year
How did X make you feel?
your life
What do you need help with now that X?
you feel your life is getting worse
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eiuk00
Has anyone here ever talked to a girl
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survey
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throwaway_233-94
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2020-01-02 06:25:22
socialanxiety
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ei7g2c
Bane of Existence: suitcase locks
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chitchat
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I have to laugh every time I travel, because I am reminded of how many time I lost or misplaced both my suitcase locks and the keys. I did this for years long before I was diagnosed with ADHD. It was always an enraging struggle going to or leaving a place because I would have some SOMETHING with them. My mom's soluti...
plantmaven
1
0
1
2019-12-31 19:19:47
ADHD
I have to laugh every time I travel, because I am reminded of how many time I lost or misplaced both my suitcase locks and the keys. I did this for years long before I was diagnosed with ADHD. It was always an enraging struggle going to or leaving a place because I would have some SOMETHING with them. My mom's soluti...
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eidmry
Strattera
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survey
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Has anyone taken Strattera or is taking it rn ?
HenryLai12
1
0
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2020-01-01 03:58:08
ADHD
<rs>Has anyone taken Strattera or is taking it rn ?<re>
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What happened that you want X ?
to take Strattera
Why are you wanting X ?
to consume Strattera
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eiy979
help
1b
help-seeking
1
ok so my parents are really controlling. they don’t let me go out much, I’m 18 in a few months, I’d like a little more freedom. Is that wrong?
fangirltwopointoh
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2020-01-02 13:30:51
sad
<es>ok so my parents are really controlling.<ee> <es>they don’t let me go out much.<ee> <efs>I’m 18 in a few months, I’d like a little more freedom.<efe> <rs>Is that wrong?<re>
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the controlling nature of your parents
Can you elaborate more on X ?
what would help you get more freedom
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er5c2p
I just shut down. Help.
1a
help-seeking
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I like to think that I am doing all of these fantastic things and I'm a functional adult healing and all that shit.... but my partner just left for a business trip on the other side of the world and they will be there for two weeks. I have already completely shut down. I just dont even feel like I can move and it makes...
TrueCrimeRiley
1
0
2
2020-01-20 00:49:28
rapecounseling
<es>I like to think that I am doing all of these fantastic things and I'm a functional adult healing and all that shit.... but my partner just left for a business trip on the other side of the world and they will be there for two weeks.<ee> <efs>I have already completely shut down.<efe> <efs>I just dont even feel like ...
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why you feel completely shut down
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you have completely shut down after your partner left
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eqzlyx
My anger
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rant
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I was dateing a girl and I was always angry from stress and issues in my life and I know I may never get her back but I wanna better myself for her and myself I'm tired of being angry
ronnielonnoe
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0
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2020-01-19 17:56:12
Anger
<rs><es>I was dateing a girl and I was always angry from stress and issues in my life and I know I may never get her back but I wanna better myself for her and myself I'm tired of being angry<ee><re>
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the breakup
Can you elaborate more on X ?
what would help you control anger
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eitk3k
Having an anxiety attack
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help-seeking
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My anxiety is always health related. And I’m having an anxiety attack because I have a zit on the back of my neck. (Right in the middle on my spinal bone and in the center of my hair) It’s the kind that won’t pop but for three days I’ve been trying anyways. Today I got this fear that I’ve pushed all the bacteria fu...
AsleepLeek7
1
0
1
2020-01-02 04:52:42
Anxiety
<es>My anxiety is always health related. <ee> <es>And I’m having an anxiety attack because I have a zit on the back of my neck.<ee> <es>(Right in the middle on my spinal bone and in the center of my hair) <ee><es>It’s the kind that won’t pop but for three days I’ve been trying anyways.<ee> <es>Today I got this fear ...
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the anxiety attacks
What do you need help with now that X?
you are having anxiety attacks
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ejh484
[OC] What I want to Achieve in 2020
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chitchat
4
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AlexanderRodgers
1
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2020-01-03 15:45:20
selfhelp
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elzec1
First Week Sober after a 9 month Relapse - No Pink Cloud this time
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survey
1
In early sobriety has anyone else experienced a sudden wave of Worry, Anxiety and Guilt? It’s like waking up and suddenly realizing everything you’ve neglected. The important things you forgot to do, the time you wasted, the people you hurt, the opportunities you missed and the even larger hill in front of you that yo...
Cygnus127
1
0
12
2020-01-08 21:40:58
alcoholicsanonymous
<es>First Week Sober after a 9 month Relapse - No Pink Cloud this time<ee> <efs>In early sobriety has anyone else experienced a sudden wave of Worry, Anxiety and Guilt?<efe> <efs>It’s like waking up and suddenly realizing everything you’ve neglected.<efe> <es>The important things you forgot to do, the time you wasted,...
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you are feeling sudden wave of anxiety and worry
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ei84zn
Does anyone else have a hard time accepting any form of praise?
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survey
1
I never even know what to do when someone compliments me. It just feels strange and wrong. I usually change the topic as quickly as possible since I don't know how to respond. If someone ever insults me, that somehow isn't as hard to accept. I just think, "Yeah, that sounds about right. I am pretty horrible." But any...
FrogginBullfish_
1
0
17
2019-12-31 20:11:20
BPD
<es>I never even know what to do when someone compliments me.<ee> <efs>It just feels strange and wrong.<efe> <es>I usually change the topic as quickly as possible since I don't know how to respond.<ee> <es>If someone ever insults me, that somehow isn't as hard to accept.<ee> <efs>I just think, "Yeah, that sounds about...
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what would help you accept complements
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esce85
I triggered someone else's trauma, and now I don't know how to fix it or how to think.
1a
help-seeking
3
I'm not sure if this is the right subreddit. I lurk a lot but never post. Please feel free to guide me elsewhere if I'm in the wrong place. I hope I've tagged/titled correctly and provided enough info. CW/TW: mention of violence ***TL;DR:*** *I \[28F\] slapped a guy \[32M\] with playful intent, triggered his traumas ...
hystericalsalad
1
0
5
2020-01-22 14:06:54
domesticviolence
I'm not sure if this is the right subreddit. I lurk a lot but never post. Please feel free to guide me elsewhere if I'm in the wrong place. I hope I've tagged/titled correctly and provided enough info. CW/TW: mention of violence ***TL;DR:*** *I \[28F\] slapped a guy \[32M\] with playful intent, triggered his traumas ...
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ej5niq
I want to throw away everything I could use to self harm but there’s too many things
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help-seeking
1
I haven’t self harmed yet this year. I really want to throw away everything that could be used to SH, to prevent another relapse, but there’s just too many things. I’m not going to make a list because I don’t want to give anyone new ideas, but there’s just so many things. How can I avoid self harming when I’m surroun...
My_venting_account_1
1
0
2
2020-01-02 22:41:18
selfharm
<es>I haven’t self harmed yet this year.<ee> <es>I really want to throw away everything that could be used to SH, to prevent another relapse, but there’s just too many things.<ee> <es>I’m not going to make a list because I don’t want to give anyone new ideas, but there’s just so many things. <ee> <rs>How can I avoid s...
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what makes you self harm
How did X make you feel?
self harm
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ej48ll
Games fucked my life up
1a
rant
2
Hi all, I know my addictions are nothing compared to 99% of people on here but I thought I would share anyway. I finally realised today I'm a addict, I'm not addicted to drugs but fucking video games. I started from a young age, 7-8 with the original call of duty but it only really got bad when I was 12-13. I did f...
IvarTheBloody
55
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2020-01-02 21:02:32
addiction
Hi all, I know my addictions are nothing compared to 99% of people on here but I thought I would share anyway. <es>I finally realised today I'm a addict, I'm not addicted to drugs but fucking video games.<ee> <es>I started from a young age, 7-8 with the original call of duty but it only really got bad when I was 12-...
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What do you need help with now that X?
playing games affected your academic progress
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f1jh1z
Anyone else scared of the future despite knowing you can't control it?
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survey
1
How do you manage to stay positive about the future? It just feels like we're all falling apart and it's only just the start. I try to pray and keep a positive outlook but sometimes it just doesn't work. The world is in bad shape and isn't getting any better at least not with the powers at be. I just keep going to the...
JealousPickle
1
0
6
2020-02-10 02:22:04
getting_over_it
<rs>How do you manage to stay positive about the future?<re> <efs>It just feels like we're all falling apart and it's only just the start.<efe> <es>I try to pray and keep a positive outlook but sometimes it just doesn't work.<ee> <es>The world is in bad shape and isn't getting any better at least not with the powers at...
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more on your depression
Can you elaborate more on X ?
why you feel like you are falling apart
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ei8nz0
New Year’s Eve in my family is very depressing
1b
rant
1
My friends ignored me once more this year, so I had to stay with my family again. We are not that much of a family. 5 strangers aged from 8 till 59 who gather at one table like 5-10 times a year. We eat together and then spend time on our phones. This year we didn’t even have presents like we used to. We’ve ran out of...
madcycleofhatenlove
1
0
0
2019-12-31 20:52:13
depression
<es>My friends ignored me once more this year, so I had to stay with my family again.<ee> We are not that much of a family. 5 strangers aged from 8 till 59 who gather at one table like 5-10 times a year. We eat together and then spend time on our phones. <es>This year we didn’t even have presents like we used to.<ee> ...
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How did X make you feel?
spending time with your family
What do you need help with now that X?
feel new year with family is depressing
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eqxh3w
Almost dying got me clean but i’m 1 month today.
1a
rant
2
Recently i got really sick which I thought was just the flu. After a few days things kept getting worse and worse. I then had an abcess appear on my left arm and my right arm started to swell up terribly. Long story short i went to the er and they gave me antibiotics and sent me home. Couple days pass and im still feel...
Toketheghoul
1
0
2
2020-01-19 15:18:51
OpiatesRecovery
<es>Recently i got really sick which I thought was just the flu.<ee> <es>After a few days things kept getting worse and worse.<ee> <es>I then had an abcess appear on my left arm and my right arm started to swell up terribly.<ee> <es>Long story short i went to the er and they gave me antibiotics and sent me home.<ee> <e...
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withdrawing and being sick at the same time
What do you need help with now that X?
you are doing therapy
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eife9g
Twenty-Four Hours a Day, 1.1
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chitchat
1
Thought When I came into A.A., was I a desperate person? Did I have a soul-sickness? Was I so sick of myself and my way of living that I couldn't stand looking at myself in a mirror? Was I ready for A.A.? Was I ready to try anything that would help me to get sober and to get over my soul-sickness? Should I ever f...
Whtsox
1
0
1
2020-01-01 06:59:03
alcoholicsanonymous
Thought When I came into A.A., was I a desperate person? Did I have a soul-sickness? Was I so sick of myself and my way of living that I couldn't stand looking at myself in a mirror? Was I ready for A.A.? Was I ready to try anything that would help me to get sober and to get over my soul-sickness? Should I ever f...
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emiixg
1mg Xanax every 4 days for years
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help-seeking
1
So this has been my situation for years now, think about 3 years? How bad will withdrawls be? How long do you think until i am back to normal? I’ve read some bad things about even as low dose as that. I last took it 6 days ago, weaning myself down isn’t an option either
PMIFYOUWANTTOTALK
1
0
11
2020-01-10 00:06:42
addiction
<es>1mg Xanax every 4 days for years<ee> <es>So this has been my situation for years now, think about 3 years?<ee> <rs>How bad will withdrawls be?<re> <rs>How long do you think until i am back to normal?<re> I’ve read some bad things about even as low dose as that. <es>I last took it 6 days ago, weaning myself down isn...
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why you were taking xanax
How did X make you feel?
stopping xanax
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eiazcc
Does anyone else feel like two different people, the one cutting and the one with the scars?
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survey
1
When I cut, it's clear reasoning, at least I feel something, you know? But then after, the next day, I don't have a straight answer for why, and I look down at the scars and fresh cuts and don't feel like they're mine. It feels like someone else is the cutter and I just deal with the aftermath. It doesn't bother me,...
MidnightRaven1129
1
0
2
2019-12-31 23:58:42
selfharm
<es>When I cut, it's clear reasoning, at least I feel something, you know? <ee> <es>But then after, the next day, I don't have a straight answer for why, and I look down at the scars and fresh cuts and don't feel like they're mine.<ee> <efs>It feels like someone else is the cutter and I just deal with the aftermath.<ef...
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why you cut yourself
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you don't feel the pain on harming yourself
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eiwb29
I can’t stop crying
1a
rant
1
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justind5d
1
0
1
2020-01-02 09:49:27
sad
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ejxpt6
i need help..
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help-seeking
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BIRK980
2
0
2
2020-01-04 15:10:16
sad
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eiufv5
ADHD data analyst here- are there any good ADHD/ADD sites containing data metrics?
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Really curious to know what % of medicated ADD patients take which ADD drug I.e. 50% adderall, 20% vyvanse, 10% Ritalin, 10% concerta, 5% Wellbutrin 5% strattera
staceturn
1
0
1
2020-01-02 06:14:06
ADHD
Really curious to know what % of medicated ADD patients take which ADD drug I.e. 50% adderall, 20% vyvanse, 10% Ritalin, 10% concerta, 5% Wellbutrin 5% strattera
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eksc7l
A night in the cells
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help-seeking
1
So I’ve had a problem with alcohol for as long as I can remember. My problem is once I start I can’t stop drinking. It’s usually worse when I’m on my own. I’ve lost relationships because of it and lost friends too. I hit an all time low yesterday and ended up getting arrested. Got released and then went straight back t...
nobbysbeach
1
0
8
2020-01-06 10:28:17
alcoholicsanonymous
<es>So I’ve had a problem with alcohol for as long as I can remember.<ee> <es>My problem is once I start I can’t stop drinking.<ee> <es>It’s usually worse when I’m on my own.<ee> <es>I’ve lost relationships because of it and lost friends too.<ee> <es>I hit an all time low yesterday and ended up getting arrested.<ee> <e...
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the consequences of drinking
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eiojjl
When I know I need to do something I'll often set timers on my phone to remind me. So a timer just went off and I have no idea what I was supposed to do...
0
rant
1
This is clearly a flaw in my strategy lmao
ceb5585
1
0
5
2020-01-01 22:03:10
ADHD
This is clearly a flaw in my strategy lmao
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eio4h0
Getting Adderall perception
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help-seeking
2
So I have a meeting with a psychiatrist tomorrow about treating my adhd. I’m a college student so I’m concerned he’s thinking I’m just another college kid seeking it as a study drug, but I don’t feel that this is the case. My pathology does effect my studies to be sure, I can’t concentrate for more then 15 min and I pr...
LIKAB0SS
1
0
0
2020-01-01 21:31:47
ADHD
<es>So I have a meeting with a psychiatrist tomorrow about treating my adhd.<ee> <es>I’m a college student so I’m concerned he’s thinking I’m just another college kid seeking it as a study drug, but I don’t feel that this is the case.<ee> <es>My pathology does effect my studies to be sure, I can’t concentrate for more ...
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your adhd symptoms
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eq3knj
Another meeting
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chitchat
1
Went to another meeting today. So far so good.
therivor
1
0
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2020-01-17 17:37:04
alcoholicsanonymous
Went to another meeting today. So far so good.
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true
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eoxhyc
My problem with step 1 in a homegroup
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rant
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Hello, my name is Ann, I am a(n attempted recovering) alcoholic. I have been in my AA home group for almost 3 years. In those 3 years, I have less than a month continuous sobriety, outside of detox and 28 day treatment programs. I felt I had been at step 1 many times. As I'm sure many people will relate - step 1 ...
AnnMarie310
1
0
5
2020-01-15 04:37:17
alcoholicsanonymous
<es>Hello, my name is Ann, I am a(n attempted recovering) alcoholic. <ee> <es>I have been in my AA home group for almost 3 years.<ee> <es>In those 3 years, I have less than a month continuous sobriety, outside of detox and 28 day treatment programs.<ee> <es>I felt I had been at step 1 many times.<ee> <es>As I'm su...
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being sober and the treatment programs
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ej3x4m
Where are some creative places to hide your blades?
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survey
1
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emery-is-lemony
3
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2020-01-02 20:41:00
selfharm
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erkhj4
How do I stop the inner rage to hit my gf
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help-seeking
1
My girlfriend is irritating sometimes, we have fights and I have to hold the biggest urge to not run my fist through her face. I really don't want to do this but she does everything to get on my nerves. I try to hold myself but all I feel is extreme anger and the only thing that stops me is the law. I have sometimes s...
Typical-Salary
1
0
7
2020-01-20 22:01:30
Anger
<rs>How do I stop the inner rage to hit my gf<re> <es>My girlfriend is irritating sometimes, we have fights and I have to hold the biggest urge to not run my fist through her face.<ee> <es>I really don't want to do this but she does everything to get on my nerves.<ee> <es>I try to hold myself but all I feel is extreme...
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your girlfriend
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en3xso
how to deal with a crash after getting close to getting better?
1b
help-seeking
2
Sorry for the ramble its been a really tough few days. Thought I was on the track for recovery. Obviously it gets worse before it gets better, so my SH and suicidal ideation actually got worse, but I could tell I was on the upswing. Me and my therapist had a plan and though she said it would take a long time to even s...
dumbbastardtwink
1
0
2
2020-01-11 06:24:38
ptsd
<rs> how to deal with a crash after getting close to getting better?<re> <es>Sorry for the ramble its been a really tough few days.<ee> <es>Thought I was on the track for recovery.<ee> <es>Obviously it gets worse before it gets better, so my SH and suicidal ideation actually got worse, but I could tell I was on the up...
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eiespj
Bringing up ADHD to my therapist
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help-seeking
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I've been going to therapy for a few months (I'm 17 if that matters) for depression and a few other things, but I've been wondering for a very long time if I have ADHD. I've never brought it up to anyone, but I've been doing a lot of research these past few months and I'm almost certain that that's what it is. I wanna ...
ahhh_dam
1
0
3
2020-01-01 05:54:29
ADHD
<es>I've been going to therapy for a few months (I'm 17 if that matters) for depression and a few other things, but I've been wondering for a very long time if I have ADHD.<ee> <es>I've never brought it up to anyone, but I've been doing a lot of research these past few months and I'm almost certain that that's what it ...
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0
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How did X make you feel?
going to therapy
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ejcidt
CPT - and the progress it's given me
0
chitchat
1
I started Cognitive Processing Therapy in October of 2019. Part of my intake forms was filling out a form called PCL-5 it has 20 categories, each with a minimum score of 0 and maximum score of 4. These are all added up to a maximum of 80, The Department of Defense who made this system to help quantify and view change, ...
30mofwebsurfing
5
0
2
2020-01-03 08:12:48
ptsd
I started Cognitive Processing Therapy in October of 2019. Part of my intake forms was filling out a form called PCL-5 it has 20 categories, each with a minimum score of 0 and maximum score of 4. These are all added up to a maximum of 80, The Department of Defense who made this system to help quantify and view change, ...
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eiazpx
I need to someone to talk to...I feel incredibly guilty
1a
help-seeking
1
I had an online friend I connected to very well. He was sweet and gave me a lot of advice. But I was a bitch. I was venting to him abut my suicidal thoughts and I could tell he had enough. I asked him if he wanted to part ways and he said yes and blocked me after. I fucked up. I hate myself I almost skipped my anti de...
fulffmeetspan
1
0
6
2019-12-31 23:59:35
BPD
<es>I had an online friend I connected to very well.<ee> <es>He was sweet and gave me a lot of advice.<ee> <es>But I was a bitch.<ee> <es>I was venting to him abut my suicidal thoughts and I could tell he had enough.<ee> <es>I asked him if he wanted to part ways and he said yes and blocked me after.<ee> <es>I fucked up...
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the online friend blocked you
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eiva7u
I just want to feel happy.
1a
rant
1
First post in here. Depression, anxiety and recently diagnosed with ADHD and now taking dexamphetamines. I have a job that pays well, long term partner, a house, no debts (apart from mortgage) yet I am still not happy. There are times I feel trapped and overwhelmed to the point where suicidal thoughts come in because ...
not-your-doll
1
0
1
2020-01-02 07:44:01
ADHD
First post in here. <es>Depression, anxiety and recently diagnosed with ADHD and now taking dexamphetamines. I have a job that pays well, long term partner, a house, no debts (apart from mortgage) yet I am still not happy.<ee> <efs>There are times I feel trapped and overwhelmed to the point where suicidal thoughts com...
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eiatv9
Me in gas station when it’s packed
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rant
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lemon-kid-241
1
0
6
2019-12-31 23:46:17
socialanxiety
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f57924
Forming a new identity after years of dysthymia, apathy, and depression
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help-seeking
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Hi everyone, I'm 21 years old and since I was a young teenager I have had dysthymia and occasional bouts of depression. I don't want to go into details, but I feel like I have been living permanently inside my head, crippled by severe apathy, social anxiety, eating disorders and feeling like I don't deserve to happy. ...
impatheticaf
1
0
8
2020-02-17 11:09:00
getting_over_it
Hi everyone, <es>I'm 21 years old and since I was a young teenager I have had dysthymia and occasional bouts of depression.<ee> <efs>I don't want to go into details, but I feel like I have been living permanently inside my head, crippled by severe apathy, social anxiety, eating disorders and feeling like I don't deser...
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evppox
I'm Afraid of Myself
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rant
1
My anger issues are something that only recently manifested in me. I'm 24 and it was around the time I was 18 I started having outbursts. I began holding grudges and became someone even I am afraid of. When I get angry I don't think, all I am is pure fury. I show no mercy to whoever wronged me. Even when I know it wasn...
frozencloudfractals
1
0
18
2020-01-29 17:09:57
Anger
<es>My anger issues are something that only recently manifested in me.<ee> <es>I'm 24 and it was around the time I was 18 I started having outbursts.<ee> <es>I began holding grudges and became someone even I am afraid of.<ee> <es>When I get angry I don't think, all I am is pure fury.<ee> <es>I show no mercy to whoever ...
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anger
Can you elaborate more on X ?
what would help you control the rage
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ejqp10
I cut for confidence
1a
rant
1
I cut myself to try and get enough confidence to kill myself I've been cutting for a few months and with those few months I've attempted suicide 4 times but I couldn't go through with it I'm hoping if I keep cutting I will finally be able to go through with it
itsnotworthit39
1
0
0
2020-01-04 03:10:29
selfharm
<es>I cut myself to try and get enough confidence to kill myself I've been cutting for a few months and with those few months I've attempted suicide 4 times but I couldn't go through with it I'm hoping if I keep cutting I will finally be able to go through with it<ee>
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why you want to kill yourself
How did X make you feel?
the suicide attempts
What do you need help with now that X?
you cut yourself to get confidence for suicide
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ej9yjb
Boyfriend doesn’t get it
1b
rant
1
I have been with my boyfriend for two years. I decided to tell him when I found out I had bpd because it was new for me and I didn’t know what to quite think. A year now since I’ve been diagnosed anytime we argue he will be like “oh that’s your bpd” . He cheated on me and I cheated on him as well. But he read that bpd ...
Stonergal710
2
0
5
2020-01-03 04:08:46
BPD
<es>I have been with my boyfriend for two years.<ee> <es>I decided to tell him when I found out I had bpd because it was new for me and I didn’t know what to quite think.<ee> <es>A year now since I’ve been diagnosed anytime we argue he will be like “oh that’s your bpd” .<ee> <es>He cheated on me and I cheated on him as...
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your boyfriend is using your illness against you
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eie16w
Happy new year guys, and I wish everyone much love
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chitchat
1
Hello everyone, it has been a tough year for most of you, and I want to say happy new years, and all of you are loved, no matter if you think your loved a lot, or if you think your not loved at all. You all deserve love and compassion, because we are all human. And if you still side with the idea of not being loved, we...
aidanbacon01
1
0
0
2020-01-01 04:39:31
selfharm
Hello everyone, it has been a tough year for most of you, and I want to say happy new years, and all of you are loved, no matter if you think your loved a lot, or if you think your not loved at all. You all deserve love and compassion, because we are all human. And if you still side with the idea of not being loved, we...
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ei8c0w
Somebody please
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rant
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just fucking lobotomize me, cause I can't live like this, and I'm sorry that I exist.
kelectro
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2019-12-31 20:26:25
Anxiety
<rs>just fucking lobotomize me, cause I can't live like this, and I'm sorry that I exist.<re>
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What happened that you want X ?
to get lobotomized
Why are you wanting X ?
to get lobotomized
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f3vlyl
I CAN'T SLEEP
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help-seeking
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My troubles get the best of me. Most of the time, my thoughts wander into situations. I probably wont get myself into. It mainly pertains to my 1st stable job i landed. In a foreign place with a very difficult language to learn. My family gives no helpful insight. Will be moving there in a few days . Need advice.
Zhellythejelly
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2020-02-14 17:36:20
getting_over_it
<es>My troubles get the best of me.<ee> <es>Most of the time, my thoughts wander into situations.<ee> <es>I probably wont get myself into.<ee> <es>It mainly pertains to my 1st stable job i landed.<ee> <es>In a foreign place with a very difficult language to learn.<ee> <es>My family gives no helpful insight.<ee> <es>Wi...
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How did X make you feel?
planning to moving to a foreign land
What do you need help with now that X?
you are anxious about moving to a foreign country
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emoue9
friday jan10 checkin
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chitchat
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#morning yall. what are you proud of today? 21months off dope/all full agonists for me. yay have a safe weekend fam&lt;3
chasingd0pamine
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2020-01-10 09:52:08
OpiatesRecovery
#morning yall. what are you proud of today? 21months off dope/all full agonists for me. yay have a safe weekend fam&lt;3
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Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
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