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epbhdu
NA beer
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survey
3
What’s your opinion on it for someone in recovery?
rosegoldandstardust
1
0
40
2020-01-16 00:45:27
alcoholicsanonymous
What’s your opinion on it for someone in recovery?
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Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
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eo5fjw
Monday January 13th -Check In
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chitchat
1
Hows everyone doing today? If you want, in addition to checking in today, throw out some things your grateful for today. I find that it really helps me to acknowledge the good things going on in my life and not always focusing on the bad. I'm grateful for 3.5 years clean. I'm grateful for my health and my amazing fam...
oneyearthrowaway617
1
0
4
2020-01-13 15:18:42
OpiatesRecovery
Hows everyone doing today? If you want, in addition to checking in today, throw out some things your grateful for today. I find that it really helps me to acknowledge the good things going on in my life and not always focusing on the bad. I'm grateful for 3.5 years clean. I'm grateful for my health and my amazing fam...
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eixrd9
I don't know what I'm really saying I think it's kind of a rant
1a
rant
1
So i haven't self harmed for about 7 months but I relapsed about 30 minutes ago. I'm afraid it might become a habit. Also my parents are super religious and homophobic (I'm bi so that's kind of part of the reason I cut) and when my mom found a scar she told me that If she found out I was self harming I would be ground...
someone898
1
0
3
2020-01-02 12:40:34
selfharm
<es>So i haven't self harmed for about 7 months but I relapsed about 30 minutes ago.<ee> <efs>I'm afraid it might become a habit.<efe> <es>Also my parents are super religious and homophobic (I'm bi so that's kind of part of the reason I cut) and when my mom found a scar she told me that If she found out I was self har...
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Can you elaborate more on X ?
why did you relapse
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What do you need help with now that X?
you are afraid of your mom finding about your scars
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ekl55q
How to deal and change your negative self talk?
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help-seeking
1
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Dylan-mayes-
1
0
7
2020-01-05 23:42:18
selfhelp
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2
What happened that you want X ?
deal with your negative thoughts
What caused you to need X ?
change your negative self talk
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true
2
eie0hi
In opiate recovery. Homeless.
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chitchat
1
Latest video is up on my channel. Have a safe, Happy New Year everyone. Much love. Penny O'Radical or youtube.com/nothingiseasylap
Nothing_is_Easy
1
0
2
2020-01-01 04:37:34
OpiatesRecovery
Latest video is up on my channel. Have a safe, Happy New Year everyone. Much love. Penny O'Radical or youtube.com/nothingiseasylap
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f0u0r3
I [F] Was raped recently.
1b
help-seeking
1
Hey, I’ve needed to get this off my back and I might as well get some help. Basically, around 5 months ago, I was out With my friends and decided to go home. I didn’t live too far away from where I was so I decided to walk. I was about halfway through when a man began to follow me. I ignored it as a lot of people Live ...
justforwriting1322
1
0
13
2020-02-08 16:43:43
rapecounseling
<rs>Hey, I’ve needed to get this off my back and I might as well get some help.<re> <es>Basically, around 5 months ago, I was out With my friends and decided to go home.<ee> <es>I didn’t live too far away from where I was so I decided to walk.<ee> <es>I was about halfway through when a man began to follow me.<ee> <es>I...
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emifzt
I just destroyed my custom cardboard manalorean helmet in extreme rage because it didn’t fit and would always fall off
1a
rant
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Lucky-Evening
1
0
7
2020-01-10 00:00:23
Anger
<es>I just destroyed my custom cardboard manalorean helmet in extreme rage because it didn’t fit and would always fall off<ee> nan
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what caused the rage
How did X make you feel?
extreme rage
What do you need help with now that X?
the helmet is destroyed
title
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eitgwj
Wondering what the trade-off could be for giving up Zoloft for Adderall
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help-seeking
1
I'm a college student with pretty bad anxiety but I am curious how Adderall may affect me and my academic abilities (or lack thereof). I've tried other typical ADHD meds (Ritalin and Vyvanse) but they both made my anxiety worse. I'm just curious what the trade-off could possibly be. Looking to hear people's experiences...
hmalrie
1
0
0
2020-01-02 04:44:54
ADHD
<es>I'm a college student with pretty bad anxiety<ee> <rs>I am curious how Adderall may affect me and my academic abilities (or lack thereof).<re> <efs>I've tried other typical ADHD meds (Ritalin and Vyvanse) but they both made my anxiety worse.<efe> <rs>I'm just curious what the trade-off could possibly be.<re> <rs>Lo...
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Can you elaborate more on X ?
what makes you anxious
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etyxmg
What’s the best way to learn Spanish
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help-seeking
1
I just got a new job as a supervisor at a company and most of the guys that work under me speak Spanish. What’s the best way for me to learn the language and actually become bilingual. I can communicate with them with my basic knowledge of Spanish and their basic knowledge of English but I’d love to actually be able to...
cold_sphagetti
1
0
8
2020-01-26 00:00:50
selfhelp
<es>I just got a new job as a supervisor at a company and most of the guys that work under me speak Spanish.<ee> <rs>What’s the best way for me to learn the language and actually become bilingual.<re> <rs>I can communicate with them with my basic knowledge of Spanish and their basic knowledge of English but I’d love to...
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How did X make you feel?
you having only basic knowledge of Spanish
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fe3rte
Getting over a crush as an adult
1a
rant
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So, last summer I've met a girl. We clicked pretty fast and ended up sleeping together on our second date, although without sex, as I didn't think it was a good idea to have a drunken fuck next to a roommate at this stage. I was really into her. She, however, was not and said the typical "I am not looking for relations...
NietMolotov
1
0
4
2020-03-05 22:56:13
getting_over_it
<es>So, last summer I've met a girl.<ee> <es>We clicked pretty fast and ended up sleeping together on our second date, although without sex, as I didn't think it was a good idea to have a drunken fuck next to a roommate at this stage.<ee> <es>I was really into her.<ee> <es>She, however, was not and said the typical "I ...
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Can you elaborate more on X ?
what would help express your feelings to your crush
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ejqsed
Damit
1a
help-seeking
1
I relapsed today after 13 months clean. Not just a tiny slip up, one session, but twice! Today! My lower left arm and the inner side of my left calf. God! Why does this happen? It's not even like I was mad or anything just kinda numb and bored. Is that a thing? SH out of boredom? I don't even care all I know is that no...
pop-goes-the-hamster
1
0
20
2020-01-04 03:17:46
selfharm
<es>I relapsed today after 13 months clean.<ee> <es>Not just a tiny slip up, one session, but twice!<ee> <es>Today!<ee> <es>My lower left arm and the inner side of my left calf.<ee> <es>God!<ee> Why does this happen? <efs>It's not even like I was mad or anything just kinda numb and bored.<efe> <rs>Is that a thing?<re> ...
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what makes you cut yourself
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eihycg
❤️Satisfaction on meds❤️
1a
survey
1
TL;DR: activities that give you (or hopefully me) that sweet dopamine hit are wanted Hey, so my new meds give me an itch to “do stuff” but I have lived so long on battery saving minimal energy exhausted mindset that I don’t even know what I want to do. So i come here looking for maybe pointers on something satisfyi...
Izzythepan
1
0
2
2020-01-01 12:40:07
ADHD
<rs>TL;DR: activities that give you (or hopefully me) that sweet dopamine hit are wanted <re> <es>Hey, so my new meds give me an itch to “do stuff” but I have lived so long on battery saving minimal energy exhausted mindset that I don’t even know what I want to do. <ee> <rs>So i come here looking for maybe pointers o...
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Can you elaborate more on X ?
the meds you are taking
How did X make you feel?
taking the meds
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ejlhqy
Before you cut yourself
1a
rant
1
I'm sure most of the people here are here because they're are or have already cut themselves, but for people needing a reason not to it will cost you alot more trouble than it solves. I haven't cut myself for months but the scars are still visible and if you think it's fine because you'll cut yourself where nobody will...
JustCrimson0
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2020-01-03 20:47:48
selfharm
I'm sure most of the people here are here because they're are or have already cut themselves, but for people needing a reason not to it will cost you alot more trouble than it solves. I haven't cut myself for months but the scars are still visible and if you think it's fine because you'll cut yourself where nobody will...
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Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
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ek7yoz
How to manage social anxiety in small settings?
1a
help-seeking
2
Okay so I’m an introvert and I have social anxiety but I wouldn’t say it is enough to be considered a disorder. See I only experience social anxiety in smaller group settings rather than a crowd. I can do parties at clubs if I actually want to go but usually I don’t since I’m a homebody. When I was in college I didn’t ...
alicat0522
1
0
4
2020-01-05 04:23:18
socialanxiety
<es>Okay so I’m an introvert and I have social anxiety but I wouldn’t say it is enough to be considered a disorder.<ee> <es>See I only experience social anxiety in smaller group settings rather than a crowd.<ee> I can do parties at clubs if I actually want to go but usually I don’t since I’m a homebody. <es>When I was ...
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Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
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emife2
2 days clean
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help-seeking
1
My poison is Oxys. I’m 2 days clean and counting. I’ve gone sober multiple times for months at a time without any treatment but I always end up back where I started. I’ve been using for about 3-4 years now. I just want to quit. It’s a scary cycle and I don’t want to go threw it anymore. If anyone has anything they can ...
Qrose94
1
0
12
2020-01-09 23:59:11
OpiatesRecovery
<es>My poison is Oxys.<ee> <es>I’m 2 days clean and counting.<ee> <es>I’ve gone sober multiple times for months at a time without any treatment but I always end up back where I started.<ee> <es>I’ve been using for about 3-4 years now.<ee> <rs>I just want to quit.<re> <efs>It’s a scary cycle and I don’t want to go threw...
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Can you elaborate more on X ?
how you feel without taking opiates
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epmluy
What to do when your trigger and source is home?
1a
help-seeking
2
Long post ahead I've been an on/off user for a while. Over the summer, I experienced an injury that left me in constant pain and thus began the longest binge I have been on since the last time I quit using consistently. I was able to stay clean for the most part while living out of state for college but I am back in ...
enzigurity
1
0
7
2020-01-16 17:37:20
OpiatesRecovery
Long post ahead <es>I've been an on/off user for a while.<ee> <es>Over the summer, I experienced an injury that left me in constant pain and thus began the longest binge I have been on since the last time I quit using consistently.<ee> <es>I was able to stay clean for the most part while living out of state for colle...
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eif9vu
Question: ADHD and injuries/illness?
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help-seeking
1
Hello people! I’m the mom of a lovely ADHD person. I have a general question: my son seems prone to accidents and injuries and often seems like he’s uncomfortable in his body. He is constantly sick/hurt/new mole/dying. Is this something others experience? I love him like crazy and just want to support him the best way ...
jetaylor132
1
0
7
2020-01-01 06:45:00
ADHD
Hello people! <es>I’m the mom of a lovely ADHD person.<ee> <es>I have a general question: my son seems prone to accidents and injuries and often seems like he’s uncomfortable in his body.<ee> <es>He is constantly sick/hurt/new mole/dying.<ee> <rs>Is this something others experience?<re> <rs>I love him like crazy and ju...
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0
2
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How did X make you feel?
your child being constantly sick
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en73uz
Serious help needed ASAP
0
help-seeking
1
my girlfriend lives in Los Angeles, it's a long distance relationship and I'm somewhere else not even in the US She's 19, she has an abusive, violent filthy stepdad, who wants her to marry an abusive dude who already raped her before and her stepdad knows but he doesn't give a fuck he still wants her to marry that pig,...
Mohammed4587
1
0
1
2020-01-11 12:57:14
domesticviolence
<es>my girlfriend lives in Los Angeles, it's a long distance relationship and I'm somewhere else not even in the US.<ee> <es>She's 19, she has an abusive, violent filthy stepdad, who wants her to marry an abusive dude who already raped her before and her stepdad knows but he doesn't give a fuck he still wants her to ma...
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0
2
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How did X make you feel?
your girlfriend's situation
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ej6up5
Fent again :/
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chitchat
1
24 hours in feel fine well I guess ok I got about 25 4mg xans to help me I need to stop. Wish me luck. I hope in 5-6 days I feel a lot better. Msg me if you'd like to talk it'd be nice.
fentypressy
1
0
0
2020-01-03 00:07:25
OpiatesRecovery
<rs>24 hours in feel fine well I guess ok I got about 25 4mg xans to help me I need to stop.<re> Wish me luck. <rs>I hope in 5-6 days I feel a lot better.<re> <rs>Msg me if you'd like to talk it'd be nice.<re>
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0
2
What happened that you want X ?
to take xans
Why are you wanting X ?
xans
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2
fz23nz
I can’t get over racist bullies
1b
help-seeking
1
I can’t stop being angry at my racist bullies I( Black male) went to a mainly white high school and I was a really nerdy kid growing up. I was also an only child and very lonely. So I became friends with another group of nerds in freshman year and had such a horrible experience. They were causally racist and said some...
knockout_21
1
0
5
2020-04-11 10:27:23
getting_over_it
<efs>I can’t stop being angry at my racist bullies<efe> <es>I( Black male) went to a mainly white high school and I was a really nerdy kid growing up.<ee> <es>I was also an only child and very lonely.<ee> <es>So I became friends with another group of nerds in freshman year and had such a horrible experience.<ee> <es>T...
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eiaey1
Another New Year’s Eve alone.
0
rant
1
I’m going to a party tonight and not excited. I’ll be surrounded by friends and family and i don’t care. I’m going to feel even more miserable when midnight hits and every couple around me is kissing and smiling looking into each other eyes excited for the new year. I want to cry just thinking about it right now.
major_lame
1
0
0
2019-12-31 23:12:54
depression
<efs>I’m going to a party tonight and not excited.<efe> I’ll be surrounded by friends and family and i don’t care. <efs>I’m going to feel even more miserable when midnight hits and every couple around me is kissing and smiling looking into each other eyes excited for the new year.<efe> <efs>I want to cry just thinking ...
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0
What made you feel X ?
miserable
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What can help you overcome X ?
the miserable feeling you have seeing other couples
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20
eikd33
2019 Year in Review: What DIDN’T suck?
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survey
2
**Challenge: tell us the things in 2019 that didn’t suck!** I tend to focus on the negative, which is fairly common amongst adhd’ers. But this year, I’ve started playing this game with my kids called “wonderful day” - every day, no matter how bad, we all have to find ONE THING - even if it’s ONLY ONE thing - that ...
Pritheeanon
1
0
28
2020-01-01 16:47:26
ADHD
**Challenge: tell us the things in 2019 that didn’t suck!** I tend to focus on the negative, which is fairly common amongst adhd’ers. But this year, I’ve started playing this game with my kids called “wonderful day” - every day, no matter how bad, we all have to find ONE THING - even if it’s ONLY ONE thing - that ...
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Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
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eirz45
Panic attack because fear of new epidemic
1a
help-seeking
1
I saw a post in hot where they talked about a new epidemic would come in the 2020's because each "20's" (1920-1820-1720 etc.) had an epidemic.... and a guy said thats it inevitable because they come in cycle and we can't escape it and there' also cases of plague in china so yeah... being an hypochondriac I'm now having...
AlxBoii
1
0
4
2020-01-02 02:37:28
Anxiety
<es>I saw a post in hot where they talked about a new epidemic would come in the 2020's because each "20's" (1920-1820-1720 etc.) had an epidemic....<ee> <es>A guy said thats it inevitable because they come in cycle and we can't escape it and there' also cases of plague in china so yeah...<ee> <efs>being an hypochondri...
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Can you elaborate more on X ?
what would help you deal with the panic attack
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eixwv6
Getting back into the work grind
1a
help-seeking
1
Hey Guys. I hope you all had a wonderful break and enjoyed some time off. I am a very regimented person and always have a definite schedule to follow. When I break this schedule, I can become very anxious and it’s all around not a good time. I wasn’t sure if anyone else is this way. If so, how do you integrate back i...
greatsirius
1
0
2
2020-01-02 12:56:34
Anxiety
Hey Guys. I hope you all had a wonderful break and enjoyed some time off. <es>I am a very regimented person and always have a definite schedule to follow.<ee> <es>When I break this schedule, I can become very anxious and it’s all around not a good time.<ee> <rs>I wasn’t sure if anyone else is this way.<re> <rs>If so,...
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Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
null
Can you elaborate more on X ?
how you feel stagnant
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eivurc
My semester starts next week, I’m scared my anxiety will come back, help!
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help-seeking
1
I started experiencing anxiety 2 months ago, it happens when I’m in a room full of people, or crowds. I panic and I can’t breathe and sometimes I start to faint. This happened while I was halfway through my university semester and ended up missing most of my classes, I didn’t do as good as I wanted this semester, but I...
J4SME3N
1
0
2
2020-01-02 08:54:16
Anxiety
<es>I started experiencing anxiety 2 months ago, it happens when I’m in a room full of people, or crowds.<ee> <es>I panic and I can’t breathe and sometimes I start to faint.<ee> <es>This happened while I was halfway through my university semester and ended up missing most of my classes, I didn’t do as good as I wanted ...
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eiqfab
Any alternatives to cutting?
0
help-seeking
1
I am searching for an alternative to cutting. I don't find it wrong to cutt but I should not run around on the volleyball field with cuts on my arms. It would look wrong. So would appreciate some alternatives to feel the same feeling witch will relive me of sadnes. Thanks in advance
Ogrrr3
1
0
5
2020-01-02 00:32:45
selfharm
<rs>I am searching for an alternative to cutting.<re> <es>I don't find it wrong to cutt but I should not run around on the volleyball field with cuts on my arms.<ee> <es>It would look wrong.<ee> <rs>So would appreciate some alternatives to feel the same feeling witch will relive me of sadnes. <re> Thanks in advance
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2
Can you elaborate more on X ?
why you cut yourself
How did X make you feel?
the cuts
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ekq3k0
I'll never fall in love again
0
chitchat
1
I have always been a huge fan of old school music. Recently I heard a song from Sir Tom Jones "I'll never fall in love again", that one has become my new Anthem. I hope I don't fall in love again until I see a small amount of receiving back what I offer.
Elmini654
1
0
0
2020-01-06 06:28:21
sad
I have always been a huge fan of old school music. Recently I heard a song from Sir Tom Jones "I'll never fall in love again", that one has become my new Anthem. I hope I don't fall in love again until I see a small amount of receiving back what I offer.
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el7df7
Why can't I get it together.
1a
rant
1
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TheLawfulCitizen
1
0
0
2020-01-07 06:02:42
sad
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en1umw
Why don,t we just kill drug dealers to get rid of addiction?
0
chitchat
1
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amethystlover2000
1
0
6
2020-01-11 03:04:51
addiction
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Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
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random
true
0
el6r7a
I’m so freaking sensitive!
1b
help-seeking
2
I am so freaking sensitive that I cry about even the littlest things/criticism. How tf will I get through life being this delicate? Some of the sensitivity stems from confidence and low self-esteem because if anyone critics my personality or appearance I will immediately shut down and cry. For example; yesterday I wa...
nogoodgirl0789
1
0
24
2020-01-07 05:08:11
selfhelp
<es>I am so freaking sensitive that I cry about even the littlest things/criticism.<ee> <rs>How tf will I get through life being this delicate?<re> <es>Some of the sensitivity stems from confidence and low self-esteem because if anyone critics my personality or appearance I will immediately shut down and cry.<ee> <es...
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eiontn
How to forget?
1b
rant
1
I'm trying to forget about a very negative job experience I had this year. I wanted to leave it in 2020 but it's been a struggle. It was my first job experience and I was totally undervalued and treated with toxicity by a group of people who didn't understand me because I wasnt like them. It makes me so mad.
Jretzul
1
0
3
2020-01-01 22:12:13
ADHD
<rs>How to forget?<re> <rs>I'm trying to forget about a very negative job experience I had this year.<re> <es>I wanted to leave it in 2020 but it's been a struggle.<ee> <es>It was my first job experience and I was totally undervalued and treated with toxicity by a group of people who didn't understand me because I wasn...
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how the bad first job experience
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elhmt8
PTSD TREATMENT
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help-seeking
1
I'm new here and I would like to know how to properly get treated for PTSD. I'm aware of having it but I don't know which type it is. So far I've dealt with it since 2011. It peaks throughout the whole month of December, which is a bad time for me. I really want to know what to do 😣
KingCorvux
1
0
6
2020-01-07 20:58:23
ptsd
<rs>I'm new here and I would like to know how to properly get treated for PTSD.<re> <es>I'm aware of having it but I don't know which type it is.<ee> <es>So far I've dealt with it since 2011.<ee> <es>It peaks throughout the whole month of December, which is a bad time for me.<ee> <rs>I really want to know what to do <...
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Can you elaborate more on X ?
your PTSD
How did X make you feel?
your PTSD
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f5f1tb
My SO can’t do the dishes without getting really angry. What can I do?
1b
help-seeking
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I WANT to help him, but I don’t know how. I don’t know how to show that he doesn’t have to get so upset at trivial things. I do the grocery shopping/cooking, and my SO does the dishes. He will spend an hour doing the dishes when it should reasonably take 15min. He will scrub with soap and water every nook and cranny ...
disabilityopenhouse
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2020-02-17 20:28:08
Anger
<rs>I WANT to help him, but I don’t know how.<re> I don’t know how to show that he doesn’t have to get so upset at trivial things. <es>I do the grocery shopping/cooking, and my SO does the dishes.<ee> <es>He will spend an hour doing the dishes when it should reasonably take 15min.<ee> <es>He will scrub with soap and ...
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eiktmi
How anyone here done residency treatment?
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survey
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I’m curious about your experience? And what a stay length looks like? Not long ago I asked about a hospital, because I am just not functioning well. I went to my therapist appointment yesterday and she asked me if I’ve ever considered residency treatment. She said even though it’s really expensive it’s a better alterna...
shweetpea
1
0
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2020-01-01 17:23:47
BPD
<rs>How anyone here done residency treatment?<re> <rs>I’m curious about your experience?<re> <rs>And what a stay length looks like?<re> <es>Not long ago I asked about a hospital, because I am just not functioning well.<ee> <es>I went to my therapist appointment yesterday and she asked me if I’ve ever considered residen...
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what your are experiencing
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el7odr
Help please
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help-seeking
1
My sister is 19 years old and I am 21, she started drinking because she has been hanging out with the wrong crowd who taught her how to drink. Fortunately she started going to see a therapist and going to AA meetings but today she tricked my mom into buying alcohol (my mom does not know how to read english). I asked my...
LuckyHunter5
1
0
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2020-01-07 06:30:30
alcoholicsanonymous
<es>My sister is 19 years old and I am 21, she started drinking because she has been hanging out with the wrong crowd who taught her how to drink.<ee> <es>Fortunately she started going to see a therapist and going to AA meetings but today she tricked my mom into buying alcohol (my mom does not know how to read english)...
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sister's drinking habits
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f17b44
I was sexually assaulted as a young boy (triggers).
1b
rant
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When I was 11 years old my neighbor across the street was in her early fifties. She asked me to come over and fix her computer (early days of PC’s) and I agreed. While I was fixing her computer she wakes into the bedroom and called me inside. As soon as I got to the open doorway my stomach flipped and I nearly turned t...
Evil_Empire27
1
0
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2020-02-09 11:08:29
rapecounseling
<es>When I was 11 years old my neighbor across the street was in her early fifties.<ee> <es>She asked me to come over and fix her computer (early days of PC’s) and I agreed.<ee> <es>While I was fixing her computer she wakes into the bedroom and called me inside.<ee> <es>As soon as I got to the open doorway my stomach f...
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you feel sick of what you were made to do as a kid
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eitvoe
Anyone else get random bursts of intense fear/paranoia?
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help-seeking
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Hey all, hope you're all recovering from the hectic time that was the recent holidays. I've been struggling with some exhaustion and my anxiety acting up lately and have begun experiencing some severe fear when evening/night rolls around. I start feeling extremely frightened- not of anything in particular though, just...
foxtain
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0
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2020-01-02 05:21:23
Anxiety
Hey all, hope you're all recovering from the hectic time that was the recent holidays. <es>I've been struggling with some exhaustion and my anxiety acting up lately and have begun experiencing some severe fear when evening/night rolls around.<ee> <efs>I start feeling extremely frightened- not of anything in particular...
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what caused the exhaution
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fk1lqo
Should I limit the negative 'entertainment' I consume?
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*I'm thinking I shouldn't listen to any sad, thriller or horror media including youtube videos in the morning NOT in the afternoon or evening/night Because I am more vulnerable then and emotionally sensitive. But, that’s avoidance and unhealthy right? Any better strategies? E.g reframing? Or acceptance?*
CautiousPath
1
0
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2020-03-17 08:16:53
getting_over_it
<es>*I'm thinking I shouldn't listen to any sad, thriller or horror media including youtube videos in the morning NOT in the afternoon or evening/night Because I am more vulnerable then and emotionally sensitive.<ee> <rs>But, that’s avoidance and unhealthy right?<re> <rs>Any better strategies?<re> <rs>E.g reframing?<re...
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watching thriller or horror media
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fe477s
needing advice
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help-seeking
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or a slap in the face lmao idk if im doing this right, so feel free to call me out, i just need to say something, somewhere. this time of the year is usually the worst for me but things have been getting worse than ever. im in a state of complete apathy. im just sitting in my apartment letting every day pass. for...
3valia
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2020-03-05 23:25:43
getting_over_it
<rs>needing advice<re> <rs>or a slap in the face lmao<re> <rs> idk if im doing this right, so feel free to call me out, i just need to say something, somewhere. <re> <es>this time of the year is usually the worst for me but things have been getting worse than ever.<ee> <efs>im in a state of complete apathy.<efe> <es>...
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ej3kdm
Feel hopeless about the future
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help-seeking
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How do you start a future? I make it through the day. Every day. Day in, day out. I don't want to live like that anymore. Suicide attempts obviously failed, but I can't stop thinking about ending my life. I don't want to live like that either. It makes me stuck in limbo. And it has for more than a decade. I need someth...
Soylent_green_day1
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2020-01-02 20:16:34
BPD
<efs>Feel hopeless about the future<efe> <rs>How do you start a future?<re> <es>I make it through the day.<ee> <es>Every day.<ee> <es>Day in, day out.<ee> <rs>I don't want to live like that anymore.<re> <es>Suicide attempts obviously failed, but I can't stop thinking about ending my life.<ee> <rs>I don't want to live l...
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why you feel hopeless about the future
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ej5li0
Could really use help tapering off of a long journey with Tramadol.
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help-seeking
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Hi everyone. I've been on tramadol for 9 years and am currently up to a 1500mg a day habit. I have 44 100mg pills left and do not have access to get anymore to make tapering easier, as I haven't been using a doctor to get my pills. I've gone through tramadol withdrawal before, so I know the hell that is ahead for me. I...
whatsyourwagesbuddy
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2020-01-02 22:37:26
OpiatesRecovery
Hi everyone. <es>I've been on tramadol for 9 years and am currently up to a 1500mg a day habit.<ee> <es>I have 44 100mg pills left and do not have access to get anymore to make tapering easier, as I haven't been using a doctor to get my pills.<ee> <es>I've gone through tramadol withdrawal before, so I know the hell tha...
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tapering
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ek1iu3
Twenty-Four Hours a Day, 1.4
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chitchat
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Thought Have I admitted I am an alcoholic? Have I swallowed my pride and admitted I was different from ordinary drinkers? Have I accepted the fact that I must spend the rest of my life without liquor? Have I any more reservations, any idea in the back of my mind that some day I'll be able to drink safely? Am I abs...
Whtsox
5
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2020-01-04 19:56:23
alcoholicsanonymous
Thought Have I admitted I am an alcoholic? Have I swallowed my pride and admitted I was different from ordinary drinkers? Have I accepted the fact that I must spend the rest of my life without liquor? Have I any more reservations, any idea in the back of my mind that some day I'll be able to drink safely? Am I abs...
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Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
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ekk8uj
Day 1 on Suboxone - How to minimize withdrawal while avoiding precipitated withdrawal
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chitchat
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i know everyone dreads that time from the last dose to inducing suboxone, so i wanted to share some experience of how one was able to start the subs with basically hardly any withdrawal and absolutely no precipitated withdrawal. this method requires some comfort meds, but typically it isn't too hard to get a prescript...
want-to-kick-it
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2020-01-05 22:38:45
OpiatesRecovery
i know everyone dreads that time from the last dose to inducing suboxone, so i wanted to share some experience of how one was able to start the subs with basically hardly any withdrawal and absolutely no precipitated withdrawal. this method requires some comfort meds, but typically it isn't too hard to get a prescript...
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Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
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eiswbf
I feel like my absolute worst anxiety nightmare would be being on reality TV.
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chitchat
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MorganaDaSquid
1
0
0
2020-01-02 03:53:42
Anxiety
<es>I feel like my absolute worst anxiety nightmare would be being on reality TV.<ee> nan
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Can you elaborate more on X ?
your worst nightmare
How did X make you feel?
knowing your nightmare would be on TV
What do you need help with now that X?
you feel your worst nightmare would be on TV
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eta8si
Conquering my world, learning to love myself, finding amazing love in my partner for life, after being left by my Ex who had at least a dozen affairs. Do not give up! The road can be long and hard, but the destination will be worth the journey!
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shadows-light
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2020-01-24 13:13:39
selfhelp
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eph003
PAWS from opiate withdrawal, or having to face normal life?
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rant
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So anxious lately. Been 16 days. I've been blaming the PAWS, and I'm sure it's playing it's part, but these fears and feelings revolve around things which are my fault. I've neglected my responsibilities for years while using. Professional, personal, interpersonal, physical. Didn't care. Now it's all there without a...
diedro
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2020-01-16 09:18:32
OpiatesRecovery
<efs>So anxious lately.<efe> <es>Been 16 days.<ee> <es>I've been blaming the PAWS, and I'm sure it's playing it's part, but these fears and feelings revolve around things which are my fault.<ee> <es>I've neglected my responsibilities for years while using. <ee> <es>Professional, personal, interpersonal, physical.<ee> ...
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you feel anxious and are having thoughts of relapsing
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ez3vxl
*SERIOUS* Advice for a family member with depression
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My cousin has severe depression and is currently living at a mental health hospital in Toronto. I want to help her and give her everything she needs to overcome this hump in her life, but she says she's hopeless. Any advice or strategies to help her cope would be greatly appreciated. She is against smoking weed but is ...
Reddddeye
1
0
15
2020-02-05 04:41:51
getting_over_it
<es>My cousin has severe depression and is currently living at a mental health hospital in Toronto.<ee> <rs>I want to help her and give her everything she needs to overcome this hump in her life, but she says she's hopeless.<re> <rs>Any advice or strategies to help her cope would be greatly appreciated.<re> <es>She is ...
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your cousin living in mental hospital
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eio5qj
For those who can't be medicated....how do you live?
1a
survey
1
Medication...well when I'm not medicated it's gonna be bad. Unmedicated gets worse as you medicate yourself... I'm only 19 &amp; my parents decided not to medicate me as a child. I'm for the most part ok with that decision. My brain gets confused a lot. Like a lot. Yall know. I get so afraid of when I'm like 30 &amp; ...
ManabimasuXZ
1
0
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2020-01-01 21:34:23
ADHD
<es>Medication...well when I'm not medicated it's gonna be bad.<ee> <es>Unmedicated gets worse as you medicate yourself... I'm only 19 &amp; my parents decided not to medicate me as a child.<ee> <es>I'm for the most part ok with that decision.<ee> <efs>My brain gets confused a lot. Like a lot.<efe> Yall know. <efs>I g...
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ej8zst
i’m writing a realistic fiction book, inspired by my “adventure” through PTSD, and healing. any tips? anything that i should make sure to include?
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help-seeking
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kylecello
5
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2020-01-03 02:51:34
ptsd
i’m writing a realistic fiction book, inspired by my “adventure” through PTSD, and healing. any tips?anything that i should make sure to include? nan
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Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
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What do you need help with now that X?
you are writing a book about your PTSD journey
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eies8o
A bleak outlook for the new year
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chitchat
1
For those who are alone in their room right now, while everyone in house parties. And everyone on your social media is partying. As you lay in bed by yourself and wonder “Will I ever be me again? Will this pain end. Will I rediscover my old self and rid of this demon?”. Just remember everyone loves you, and they alway...
chris10isleyen
1
0
8
2020-01-01 05:53:01
Anxiety
For those who are alone in their room right now, while everyone in house parties. And everyone on your social media is partying. As you lay in bed by yourself and wonder “Will I ever be me again? Will this pain end. Will I rediscover my old self and rid of this demon?”. Just remember everyone loves you, and they alway...
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eo3t8s
As Bill Sees It, 1.13
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chitchat
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People Of Faith, p. 300 We who have traveled a path through agnosticism or atheism beg you to lay aside prejudice, even against organized religion. We have learned that, whatever the human frailties of various faiths may be, those faiths have given purpose and direction to millions. People of faith have a rational id...
Whtsox
1
0
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2020-01-13 13:01:03
alcoholicsanonymous
People Of Faith, p. 300 We who have traveled a path through agnosticism or atheism beg you to lay aside prejudice, even against organized religion. We have learned that, whatever the human frailties of various faiths may be, those faiths have given purpose and direction to millions. People of faith have a rational id...
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Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
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f1222w
I have a growing anger...
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rant
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And depression. Add to that some anxiety. We'll just call it anxiety to sum it up. All three, in extremes, at times. I find that each one of them leads to either a feeling I can best describe as "hurt"—it's that "bottle it up and stuff it deep down inside"–kind of "hurt." I was told a long time ago that, no matter how...
dominusnine
1
0
2
2020-02-09 02:24:22
Anger
<es>I have a growing anger...<ee> <es>And depression.<ee> <es>Add to that some anxiety.<ee> <es>We'll just call it anxiety to sum it up.<ee> <es>All three, in extremes, at times.<ee> <efs>I find that each one of them leads to either a feeling I can best describe as "hurt"—it's that "bottle it up and stuff it deep down...
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Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
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What do you need help with now that X?
all your hurt is causing anger and depression
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ekrg1c
Life is A Dream
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I’m a high school junior. When I get really depressed and have an episode- when my mind is at rock bottom and I’m stuck there- it feels like I’m at a different mental/physical location. Like this life here is a dream and when I hit rock bottom I ‘wake up’. And when I’m not having a dip I know I’m ‘dreaming’ but I igno...
WaxCrane
1
0
1
2020-01-06 08:49:37
mentalillness
I’m a high school junior. <es><efs>When I get really depressed and have an episode- when my mind is at rock bottom and I’m stuck there- it feels like I’m at a different mental/physical location.<efe><ee> <efs>Like this life here is a dream and when I hit rock bottom I ‘wake up’.<efe> And when I’m not having a dip I kn...
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how you feel about your dream
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eiu8h7
Panic/anxiety attack when drunk
1a
help-seeking
1
WEIRD: I have this fear that when I am out drinking that I will run into an ex gf or one night stand or something like that and will have that Oh Shit feeling in my gut and then that fight or flight instinct kicks in and you know how it goes... At this moment of freaking out, you realize you are having a panic/anxiety ...
y0ungm0neyfr0g
1
0
3
2020-01-02 05:54:37
Anxiety
<es>WEIRD: I have this fear that when I am out drinking that I will run into an ex gf or one night stand or something like that and will have that Oh Shit feeling in my gut and then that fight or flight instinct kicks in and you know how it goes...<ee> <es>At this moment of freaking out, you realize you are having a pa...
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Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
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How did X make you feel?
this fear of meeting you ex girlfriend
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ek5uq4
24hrs off weed, tobacco and booze...
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rant
1
I am vomiting, shaking, no temp control, emotional and want to die. But I won't give up.
narcissash
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0
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2020-01-05 01:24:01
addiction
<es>24hrs off weed, tobacco and booze...<ee> <efs>I am vomiting, shaking, no temp control, emotional and want to die.<efe> But I won't give up.
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Can you elaborate more on X ?
what made you quit the drugs
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you are having drug withdrawl
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em5yp4
First normal shit since 3 years
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rant
1
I know it sounds stupid, but for the last 3 years I've been using either morphine or codeine with occasional 1-2 week brakes that ended in relapsing. But today, after over 15 days of being clean my bowels allowed me to do for myself what opiates did, which is holding it long enough to become normal poo. I know it soun...
bogodoo
1
0
6
2020-01-09 06:42:56
OpiatesRecovery
<es>I know it sounds stupid, but for the last 3 years I've been using either morphine or codeine with occasional 1-2 week brakes that ended in relapsing.<ee> <es>But today, after over 15 days of being clean my bowels allowed me to do for myself what opiates did, which is holding it long enough to become normal poo.<ee>...
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How did X make you feel?
being 15 days clean
Can you elaborate more on X ?
what would help you not relapse again
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eihq16
I'm angry and I'm pissed and all I want to do is hurt myself
1a
rant
1
I've been clean for a while now but the urge to cut today is really strong. I feel so much anger in my heart the only way I can see myself releasing that energy is by hurting myself. I need better coping mechanisms.
upsetti-spaghetti-
1
0
0
2020-01-01 12:08:25
selfharm
<efs>I'm angry and I'm pissed and all I want to do is hurt myself<efe> <es>I've been clean for a while now but the urge to cut today is really strong.<ee> <efs>I feel so much anger in my heart the only way I can see myself releasing that energy is by hurting myself. <efe> <rs>I need better coping mechanisms.<re>
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Can you elaborate more on X ?
why you are angry and pissed
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eo0qnh
Does anyone recommend any E-journals?
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help-seeking
1
Looking for something prompted, but not over scripted or hokey. Need to work on my mental health even more
chorussaurus
1
0
3
2020-01-13 07:05:40
selfhelp
<rs>Does anyone recommend any E-journals?<re> <rs>Looking for something prompted, but not over scripted or hokey.<re> <es>Need to work on my mental health even more<ee>
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Can you elaborate more on X ?
your mental health
How did X make you feel?
your bad mental health
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eiab17
New years eve 12/31/19 Opiate Recovery Forum Poll/Updates-Today I have 110 days clean that's 1,124 hours. I feel Grateful too simply feel alive again HBU? How many hours/days/years? What are you grateful for tonight? 🤔
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HAPPY NEW YEARS! LET'S MAKE IT A SOBER YEAR AND LIVE FREELY AGAIN! THAT'S MY RESOLUTION! WHO'S WITH ME!?!? 😃
etherealedenofmen
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2019-12-31 23:04:20
OpiatesRecovery
HAPPY NEW YEARS! LET'S MAKE IT A SOBER YEAR AND LIVE FREELY AGAIN! THAT'S MY RESOLUTION! WHO'S WITH ME!?!? 😃
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eic0gt
is cutting yourself considered self harm?
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survey
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fuckeduplifez
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2020-01-01 01:23:34
selfharm
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ei8yl0
I just don't know what to do with my life anymore.
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rant
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My mother is leaving us again meeting some foreign guy from internet. This have been happening for a few years now and my father doesn't know a thing about this. Everytime i hear my mom having sex with some nobody my heart hurts and i just cry a lot. Outside our house i never had a real friend who can listen to me and ...
imanwell
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2019-12-31 21:15:34
sad
<es>My mother is leaving us again meeting some foreign guy from internet.<ee> <es>This have been happening for a few years now and my father doesn't know a thing about this.<ee> <es>Everytime i hear my mom having sex with some nobody my heart hurts and i just cry a lot.<ee> <es>Outside our house i never had a real frie...
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How did X make you feel?
your mother's actions
What do you need help with now that X?
you are getting bullied
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eib9sp
Anybody else act like a total weirdo around people?
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survey
1
I spend alot of my time alone so when I'm finally with other people I'm not 100% sure how to Act. And feeling like I'm not sure what's the right thing to Talk about is so i just end up panicking inside my head. I always just end up oversharing and feeling embarrassed as hell Social anxiety is a huge bitch Making...
lonerStoner2001
1
0
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2020-01-01 00:21:14
socialanxiety
<es>I spend alot of my time alone so when I'm finally with other people I'm not 100% sure how to Act.<ee> <efs>And feeling like I'm not sure what's the right thing to Talk about is so i just end up panicking inside my head.<efe> <efs>I always just end up oversharing and feeling embarrassed as hell <efe> Social anxi...
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erpp6c
never really recovered, feeling lost
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help-seeking
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throwaway because my actual u/ is recognizable. I also apologize in advance that I’m going to explain a lot and it’s going to be really long, but this will be the first time I’ve ever told the entire story to someone, and I just need to do it. In April 2018, I was at a university event with a ton of people that I kne...
tossinthisawaysohard
1
0
0
2020-01-21 04:51:04
rapecounseling
throwaway because my actual u/ is recognizable. I also apologize in advance that I’m going to explain a lot and it’s going to be really long, but this will be the first time I’ve ever told the entire story to someone, and I just need to do it. <es>In April 2018, I was at a university event with a ton of people that I...
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eskp1g
What would this be considered?
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help-seeking
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I’ve recently entered a PHP program (partial hospital) I have quite a few mental health issues among other environmental problems. After my intake/evaluation I was placed in trauma track for ptsd and some red flags. I’m enjoying the program so far and it’s helping but I’m unsure about some of what I’ve been through I ...
danii4121k
1
0
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2020-01-23 00:03:43
rapecounseling
<es>I’ve recently entered a PHP program (partial hospital) I have quite a few mental health issues among other environmental problems. <ee> <es>After my intake/evaluation I was placed in trauma track for ptsd and some red flags.<ee> <efs>I’m enjoying the program so far and it’s helping but I’m unsure about some of what...
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What can help you overcome X ?
the feeling of embarrassment and guilt due to what traumatized you
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eifn9w
State of Australia rn
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SupremeLeaderShaggy
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2020-01-01 07:29:11
sad
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einbse
Happy
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FP invited me to celebrate new years at their house. I went and cleaned their house because they're depressed and did not get the motivation to. We spent new years playing games and eating snacks. I felt genuine happiness from their expression. I felt happy, fulfilled, for the first time in an eternity. It was one of t...
sweetsandmadness
1
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2020-01-01 20:32:08
BPD
FP invited me to celebrate new years at their house. I went and cleaned their house because they're depressed and did not get the motivation to. We spent new years playing games and eating snacks. I felt genuine happiness from their expression. I felt happy, fulfilled, for the first time in an eternity. It was one of t...
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ejjc6m
The last thing i said to you
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Im a 21 year old girl. This is just something i need to get off my chest. Me and my husband went to austin TX on July 12th. It was his first time in Austin. He absolutely loved it, and we spent the whole day together. This story ismt about my husband, its about my grandmother. Once it began to get late, we decided ...
phatcow_
10
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2020-01-03 18:19:58
sad
<es>Im a 21 year old girl.<ee> <rs>This is just something i need to get off my chest.<re> <es>Me and my husband went to austin TX on July 12th.<ee> <es>It was his first time in Austin.<ee> <es>He absolutely loved it, and we spent the whole day together.<ee> <es>This story ismt about my husband, its about my grandmoth...
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your grandmother's passing away
What do you need help with now that X?
you regret your last words to your grandmother
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f6mnky
I packed up and left after my alcoholic boyfriend abused me
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I [23M] had been with my boyfriend [30M] for over 2 years. It started out great; we had a very strong connection, talked all the time, travelled together, and supported one another emotionally. I realized that he drank a lot early in the relationship, but didn't see any red flags since I was a young college student and...
tanhouse23
1
0
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2020-02-20 03:17:02
domesticviolence
<es>I [23M] had been with my boyfriend [30M] for over 2 years.<ee> <es>It started out great; we had a very strong connection, talked all the time, travelled together, and supported one another emotionally.<ee> <es>I realized that he drank a lot early in the relationship, but didn't see any red flags since I was a young...
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you are feeling confused after leaving your boyfriend
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eikvgv
Might have adhd but can't tell if I have problems with attention and distractions. Can you help me with this?
1a
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Hi, my first post here, please be kind :-) and sorry for the long text, hope you can get through... I (30f) have some pretty bad depression, dysthymia and anxieties since 15 years. Since 10 years I assume to have adhd. Made a testing back then and the docs said it is very likeley, but it might be symptoms from depress...
Larifar_i
1
0
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2020-01-01 17:27:32
ADHD
Hi, my first post here, please be kind :-) and sorry for the long text, hope you can get through... <es>I (30f) have some pretty bad depression, dysthymia and anxieties since 15 years.<ee> <es>Since 10 years I assume to have adhd.<ee> <es>Made a testing back then and the docs said it is very likeley, but it might be s...
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how your symptoms make you feel
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ei91xe
Continuous panic attack
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help-seeking
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As the title suggests I have been experiencing a panic attack that has lasted around 12 hours now. I'm not sure exactly what triggered it, partly some mild side effects from anxiety meds (hydroxyzine) which I'm not going to take anymore, and partially because my partner was sent out of town for work last minute when th...
Klynnd2015
1
0
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2019-12-31 21:23:00
Anxiety
<es>As the title suggests I have been experiencing a panic attack that has lasted around 12 hours now.<ee> <es>I'm not sure exactly what triggered it, partly some mild side effects from anxiety meds (hydroxyzine) which I'm not going to take anymore, and partially because my partner was sent out of town for work last mi...
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the panic attacks are affecting your health
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ei7y75
I want to die because i am ugly
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1
I can't have dignity because of my face
otamatata
1
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2019-12-31 19:57:05
depression
I can't have dignity because of my face
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epesmy
Embracing Death, a Cold and Peaceful Silence
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rant
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so close, but it needs to look like an accident
illbleed_
1
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2020-01-16 05:17:49
mentalillness
so close, but it needs to look like an accident
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ej9kh3
Get “Kind Words” on steam
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So recently over the Holliday’s I got a steam gift card. Because I have most of the games I’m interested and already feel bad enough about how much I spend online I decided to get Kind Words, an indie game I had heard fondly about. This is one of the most wholesome and greatest community’s I’ve seen anywhere on the int...
wolf123cub
1
0
0
2020-01-03 03:36:55
socialanxiety
So recently over the Holliday’s I got a steam gift card. Because I have most of the games I’m interested and already feel bad enough about how much I spend online I decided to get Kind Words, an indie game I had heard fondly about. This is one of the most wholesome and greatest community’s I’ve seen anywhere on the int...
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elefl3
Emotional meltdowns are exhausting when you get your feelings back.
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Today when making a phone call to a creditor my whole body went into shock, tears, panic etc. I used to feel like this years ago when I’d drank all my money and had no answer to why I could pay my bills. Now, even though logically I knew it wasn’t that serious I had the same reaction. It’s getting a LOT easier and I ...
thatluckyfox
1
0
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2020-01-07 17:16:07
alcoholicsanonymous
<efs>Emotional meltdowns are exhausting when you get your feelings back.<efe> <efs>Today when making a phone call to a creditor my whole body went into shock, tears, panic etc.<efe> <es>I used to feel like this years ago when I’d drank all my money and had no answer to why I could pay my bills.<ee> <es>Now, even though...
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why you went into shock after the phone call
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you had an emotional meltdown
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ene0u7
Night terror exhaustion
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Does anyone else wake up exhausted and super anxious from nightmares and night terrors? By the time I get to my days off from work, I’m beyond exhausted and can’t seem to do much of anything for a day, and I feel like a lazy loser.
sodafountainsuicide
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2020-01-11 22:00:18
ptsd
<es>Does anyone else wake up exhausted and super anxious from nightmares and night terrors?<ee> <efs>By the time I get to my days off from work, I’m beyond exhausted and can’t seem to do much of anything for a day, and I feel like a lazy loser.<efe>
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your nightmares
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you feel exhausted due to your nightmares
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el631k
My birthday is soon
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They always suck. I stopped even telling people when it was to try and avoid them being awful. Anyway, my boyfriend of over a year dumped me a few days ago over the phone. I'm out of town, but I would've been back soon. He couldn't tell me in person I guess. So now I have no friends to hang out with until I get back, ...
ccs223_
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2020-01-07 04:12:19
sad
<es>They always suck.<ee> <es>I stopped even telling people when it was to try and avoid them being awful.<ee> <es>Anyway, my boyfriend of over a year dumped me a few days ago over the phone.<ee> <es>I'm out of town, but I would've been back soon.<ee> <es>He couldn't tell me in person I guess.<ee> <es>So now I have no...
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you feel angry about the break up
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eiafv7
I think my suicide would be just..
1a
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I’m 25(M) and have spent the better part of the past 7 years addicted to heroin. I’ve been to rehab 15+ times and I’ve been on the run from charges in my home state for 3 years but just recently moved home to get my charges cleared up and I can’t stand it. I know I’m stressing my parents out because I’m so negative all...
Foltztrot
1
0
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2019-12-31 23:14:58
depression
<es>I’m 25(M) and have spent the better part of the past 7 years addicted to heroin.<ee> <es>I’ve been to rehab 15+ times and I’ve been on the run from charges in my home state for 3 years but just recently moved home to get my charges cleared up and I can’t stand it.<ee> <efs>I know I’m stressing my parents out becaus...
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you feel very low in life
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ekbhw3
How can psychology help me in my self-exploration (career choice)?
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I've been trying for quite some time to find out about who I am, what are my strengths and talents and my interests - all within the context of my future work of choice (career). I am now very interested (and kind of desperate) to engage in some internal self-exploration, contemplation, evaluation... For now, get a g...
jakub_friso
1
0
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2020-01-05 10:41:58
selfhelp
<es>I've been trying for quite some time to find out about who I am, what are my strengths and talents and my interests - all within the context of my future work of choice (career).<ee> <rs>I am now very interested (and kind of desperate) to engage in some internal self-exploration, contemplation, evaluation... For ...
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your chaotic life
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eia1za
Hey guys, quick question. Does either drinking a ton of water, or 5-HTP, change how Vyvanse works?
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I’m asking because my 40mg of Vyvanse feels significantly more potent than usual. about 30 minutes ago I drank about 6mL of “Lyteshow” ionic electrolyte concentrate. I drank it straight, I didn’t add it to anything like it says to do. I took two servings because I was extremely dehydrated due to my hyperglycemia this p...
5ernie
1
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2019-12-31 22:43:56
ADHD
Hey guys, quick question. <rs>Does either drinking a ton of water, or 5-HTP, change how Vyvanse works?<re> <efs>I’m asking because my 40mg of Vyvanse feels significantly more potent than usual.<efe> <es>about 30 minutes ago I drank about 6mL of “Lyteshow” ionic electrolyte concentrate.<ee> <es>I drank it straight, I di...
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how taking Vyvanse makes you feel
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ejbmfp
3 months clean. It has felt like forever to get to this day. I only pulled through from relapsing after a fight with my best friend. My group of friends has split into two. If I’m gonna help everyone, I’m going to have to stay clean. I’m doing it for them now. 💗
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ImHereForMemes89
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2020-01-03 06:38:17
selfharm
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eidnuv
Gifted myself for the holidays with a scar
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The holiday season this year has been so unbearably painful that I just cut myself to the bone. Spending my NYE in the ER getting stitches. Let’s hope I don’t spend the beginning of 2020 in a MH facility.
SilentAvocado
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2020-01-01 04:01:14
selfharm
The holiday season this year has been so unbearably painful that I just cut myself to the bone. Spending my NYE in the ER getting stitches. Let’s hope I don’t spend the beginning of 2020 in a MH facility.
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fkq1oi
What is your motivation for getting better?
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survey
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I used to be pretty disciplined and have goals mostly because I had to. My home life as a kid wasn't great and I wanted to get out and be independent. And I did that. I have a job and an apartment and a car and other grown up stuff. And my discipline and desire to improve have slowly chipped away over the years. The...
meadowcap
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0
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2020-03-18 14:07:17
getting_over_it
<es>I used to be pretty disciplined and have goals mostly because I had to.<ee> <es>My home life as a kid wasn't great and I wanted to get out and be independent.<ee> <es>And I did that.<ee> <es>I have a job and an apartment and a car and other grown up stuff.<ee> <es>And my discipline and desire to improve have slow...
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eo0p64
I Find Myself Questioning My Sexuality After My Sexual Assault
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I have been in a relationship with a man for almost two years. I was raped about a month ago by another man. My boyfriend was supportive at first but lately he’s been extremely insensitive and selfish about it. I feel extremely guilty about this, but ever since the rape I’ve been questioning my sexuality. I guess I jus...
evenitout
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2020-01-13 07:00:59
rapecounseling
<es>I have been in a relationship with a man for almost two years.<ee> <es>I was raped about a month ago by another man.<ee> <es>My boyfriend was supportive at first but lately he’s been extremely insensitive and selfish about it.<ee> <efs>I feel extremely guilty about this, but ever since the rape I’ve been questionin...
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your boyfriend is insensitive about your past
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ej0jm9
Is this a styro? How to tell if it is or isn’t?
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Yesterday I relapsed and I basically sat digging into my skin at one spot for 20 minutes. The cut maybe bled a little more but still minor bleeding. Today I washed it out and it’s a lot more tender then my other cuts and the inside is easier to see due to the gaping sides. It’s a lot lighter then other cuts but I would...
mmb123_
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2020-01-02 16:42:11
selfharm
<rs>Is this a styro?<re> <rs>How to tell if it is or isn’t?<re> <es>Yesterday I relapsed and I basically sat digging into my skin at one spot for 20 minutes.<ee> <es>The cut maybe bled a little more but still minor bleeding.<ee> <es>Today I washed it out and it’s a lot more tender then my other cuts and the inside is e...
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what made you relapse
How did X make you feel?
cutting yourself
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em1wli
I need advice for a complicated situation
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I got into a fight with a very close friend of mine. I love her to death and I'm scared that I've pushed her away too far this time. After the fight I spoke to another friend and basically started this self help / self discovery journey I'm on. I've discovered just how much my trust issues affect my everyday life. I re...
transcendence12
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0
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2020-01-09 00:45:41
selfhelp
<es>I got into a fight with a very close friend of mine.<ee> <es>I love her to death and I'm scared that I've pushed her away too far this time.<ee> <es>After the fight I spoke to another friend and basically started this self help / self discovery journey I'm on.<ee> <es>I've discovered just how much my trust issues a...
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you being defensive with everyone
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ewpowl
Any tips on what to do?
1a
help-seeking
1
I'm 19 and I've always had difficulties with my anger, I always used to take my frustration out on my family, their could be something wrong with me, I am dyspraxic and have dyslexia maybe adhd? But the thing is I've noticed how bad it is on my family, I'ts been so hard being calm, but I've done it I've noticed it, but...
aiddyboy01
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0
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2020-01-31 15:04:16
Anger
<es>I'm 19 and I've always had difficulties with my anger, I always used to take my frustration out on my family, their could be something wrong with me, I am dyspraxic and have dyslexia maybe adhd?<ee> <es>But the thing is I've noticed how bad it is on my family, I'ts been so hard being calm, but I've done it I've not...
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your mom's comment
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en4vvy
How long for new abuse-proof oxy’s to kick in?
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So, I’m at a point in my hydromorph contin taper where id like to switch to the abuse proof OxyContin, in Canada they’re called oxyneo. So my question is, how long do they take to kick in? My guess is like 2 hours... does anyone have experience swallowing these type of Oxy’s??? 1) I want to switch from nasal to oral ...
Dembry_345
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2020-01-11 08:17:27
OpiatesRecovery
<es>So, I’m at a point in my hydromorph contin taper where id like to switch to the abuse proof OxyContin, in Canada they’re called oxyneo.<ee> <rs>So my question is, how long do they take to kick in?<re> <rs>My guess is like 2 hours... does anyone have experience swallowing these type of Oxy’s???<re> 1) I want to sw...
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taking hydromorph contin
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eo5euv
People keep saying it’ll get better but it doesn’t
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rant
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I’m so tired of this phrase. “It’ll get better.” No. It won’t. It never does. Every time I think things are starting to go ok in my life, something comes along to fuck it up. My mental illness won’t stop. The depression won’t stop, the PTSD won’t stop, the suicidal thoughts won’t stop, the food obsessive thoughts won’t...
bubblyqueer
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2020-01-13 15:17:07
mentalillness
I’m so tired of this phrase. “It’ll get better.” No. It won’t. It never does. <es>Every time I think things are starting to go ok in my life, something comes along to fuck it up.<ee> <es>My mental illness won’t stop.<ee> <es>The depression won’t stop, the PTSD won’t stop, the suicidal thoughts won’t stop, the food obse...
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your illness is not getting any better
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ejp90k
Does it get easier?
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survey
1
Not necessarily only about opiate recovery, but in regards to the whole journey/battles... I personally attend two separate therapies. One with my sub doctor and one with a separate therapist and as of late, I just feel like throwing both of them away! I can't explain why exactly but it just feels like a combo of issue...
Ryknow87
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2020-01-04 01:19:06
OpiatesRecovery
<es>Not necessarily only about opiate recovery, but in regards to the whole journey/battles... I personally attend two separate therapies.<ee> <efs>One with my sub doctor and one with a separate therapist and as of late, I just feel like throwing both of them away!<efe> <efs>I can't explain why exactly but it just feel...
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why you want to throw both therapies away
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ei8iwh
This one will be better!
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Hi guys! Just wanted to wish you a happy new year. My 2019 was a hell of a ride. It was a year when I got off the pills, a year when I finally started feeling better. I'm happy that I helped my self without the doctors and other people. However, as someone who got better I can say that now, my depression is a healed sc...
fluffybutt95
1
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2019-12-31 20:41:01
depression
Hi guys! Just wanted to wish you a happy new year. My 2019 was a hell of a ride. It was a year when I got off the pills, a year when I finally started feeling better. I'm happy that I helped my self without the doctors and other people. However, as someone who got better I can say that now, my depression is a healed sc...
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eog1yv
relapsing.
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tw// i’m relapsing. after every meal. i want to fucking throw up. everytime i am alone i want to fucking slut my whole body open. i’m tired of living this life. and i don’t fuvking know what to do.
nihilisticmaniak
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2020-01-14 04:10:18
mentalillness
<es>tw// i’m relapsing.<ee> <es>after every meal.<ee> <es>i want to fucking throw up.<ee> <efs>everytime i am alone i want to fucking slut my whole body open.<efe> <efs>i’m tired of living this life. and i don’t fuvking know what to do.<efe>
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what caused the relapse
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the relapse makes you feel nausea
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eidrqy
WhatsApp group invitation.
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chitchat
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Hello everyone, I hope you are doing good. We have created a WhatsApp group for meditation, exercise, self improvement and to listen each other. If anyone is interested into joining, just text me and I will add you. We have people from around the world and is quite helpful. Have a nice day/evening/night. :)
SuryanshuBhandari
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2020-01-01 04:11:33
Anxiety
Hello everyone, I hope you are doing good. We have created a WhatsApp group for meditation, exercise, self improvement and to listen each other. If anyone is interested into joining, just text me and I will add you. We have people from around the world and is quite helpful. Have a nice day/evening/night. :)
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eo21nk
How long should I take Suboxone?
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So I’ve decide to get clean after about 5 to 6 years of dealing with doing oxy daily. I only ever got up to 60mg a day an that’s what I’m quitting off of right now. I was able to get ahold of a decent amount of subs to get through this. I’ve been taking a very small amount 1/4 of a 2mg in the morning an another 1/4 of ...
Sydni219
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2020-01-13 09:44:27
OpiatesRecovery
<es>So I’ve decide to get clean after about 5 to 6 years of dealing with doing oxy daily.<ee> <es>I only ever got up to 60mg a day an that’s what I’m quitting off of right now.<ee> <es>I was able to get ahold of a decent amount of subs to get through this.<ee> <es>I’ve been taking a very small amount 1/4 of a 2mg in th...
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taking the subs
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ejgijk
They are living their best lives while I suffer every day.
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I feel like it's not worth it anymore. I'm trying to put myself back together. I am going to start therapy in a few days. I was physically abused by my father my whole childhood and my ex. I just can't stop thinking on how to hurt them back. I won't, but I want to. They are so happy now. I blocked my ex but he was send...
TreeFucker5000
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2020-01-03 15:01:15
ptsd
<efs>I feel like it's not worth it anymore.<efe> <es>I'm trying to put myself back together.<ee> <es>I am going to start therapy in a few days.<ee> <es>I was physically abused by my father my whole childhood and my ex.<ee> <efs>I just can't stop thinking on how to hurt them back.<efe> <efs>I won't, but I want to.<efe> ...
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what would help you move on from your ex
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eitxnt
My father in law had a heart attack on NYE
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And my husband and I were sober. He lives 5 hours away and we were able to make the drive. He is not out of the woods yet, but it looks like he might just pull through. Obviously I hate that this happened but I am SO thankful to all my AAs who have helped me get sober the last 3 months so that we can support our family...
patrick12521
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2020-01-02 05:26:21
alcoholicsanonymous
And my husband and I were sober. He lives 5 hours away and we were able to make the drive. He is not out of the woods yet, but it looks like he might just pull through. Obviously I hate that this happened but I am SO thankful to all my AAs who have helped me get sober the last 3 months so that we can support our family...
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ei839j
I'm in my room hiding from a dinner party
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I just can't face these people. I just wanna be by myself. I don't understand why I'm like this, I took my meds this morning.
EveryHolyShroud
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2019-12-31 20:07:36
depression
<efs>I just can't face these people.<efe> <rs>I just wanna be by myself.<re> <efs>I don't understand why I'm like this, I took my meds this morning.<efe>
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What made you feel X ?
anxious of meeting people
Can you elaborate more on X ?
why you can't meet people
Can you elaborate more on X ?
why you want to be by yourself
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eiro7w
Don’t want to live like this anymore.
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rant
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pregnantthrowaway756
1
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2020-01-02 02:13:13
selfhelp
<rs>Don’t want to live like this anymore.<re>
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What happened that you want X ?
to escape living like this
What caused you to need X ?
this
Can you elaborate more on X ?
moving on from this way of living
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eurbbt
Bad relationship with anger
1b
help-seeking
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I want to end my bad relationship with anger. Ever since I was small, I was picked on for being overweight or slow, or just different. While it’s not an excuse for being angry, I’ve always used that feeling to retaliate against the world. From early on I’ve gotten into fights, and towards the end of high school,...
iamhurtingsam
1
0
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2020-01-27 17:42:12
Anger
<rs>I want to end my bad relationship with anger. <re> <es>Ever since I was small, I was picked on for being overweight or slow, or just different.<ee> <es>While it’s not an excuse for being angry, I’ve always used that feeling to retaliate against the world.<ee> <es>From early on I’ve gotten into fights, and towa...
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Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
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ekn0lu
I made contact with someone on messenger who my anxiety is tied to, and...
1b
help-seeking
2
It was a simple conversation, but the entirety of the conversation I felt so anxious and panicky that I had a hard time coming up with something to write about, and I had to spend the rest of my day recouping from the panic attack it caused me. I also broke down crying later today, I have lost too much time on ...
trinketstone
1
0
0
2020-01-06 02:03:32
ptsd
<es>I made contact with someone on messenger who my anxiety is tied to, and...<ee> <efs>It was a simple conversation, but the entirety of the conversation I felt so anxious and panicky that I had a hard time coming up with something to write about, and I had to spend the rest of my day recouping from the panic attack i...
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ekoml1
When I was 17 I, I escaped my abusive live-in boyfriend. (And the smartest thing I did as a victim)
1b
chitchat
1
Im not going into massive detail because it's going through court still. But back in october I fucking kicked him out and now that I'm an adult I'm glad i did it. Over several months I took pictures of every bruise, then eventually I was sick of his shit, turned it in. I have a 2 year restraining order on him and I am ...
jodieraven
1
0
9
2020-01-06 04:13:28
domesticviolence
Im not going into massive detail because it's going through court still. But back in october I fucking kicked him out and now that I'm an adult I'm glad i did it. Over several months I took pictures of every bruise, then eventually I was sick of his shit, turned it in. I have a 2 year restraining order on him and I am ...
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Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
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random
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