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f6qmlb
I don’t believe in right and wrong like most people, I believe in respect and the truth
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I cling very strongly to my beliefs, they hold somewhat together when I should be completely upside down. I’ve recently been quite calm, my reasons for not being calm the last 10 or so years is a list that keeps on giving. I have terrible anxiety that hasn’t been so terrible recently, I was pcuchotic for many many y...
angrysaladstomper
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2020-02-20 09:27:30
Anger
I cling very strongly to my beliefs, they hold somewhat together when I should be completely upside down. I’ve recently been quite calm, my reasons for not being calm the last 10 or so years is a list that keeps on giving. <es>I have terrible anxiety that hasn’t been so terrible recently, I was pcuchotic for many ma...
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you are having rageful thoughts
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eqbiyg
Just logged into my Facebook account for the first time in five years and the person who raped/groomed me for two years as a child.has been trying to get in touch with me.
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help-seeking
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I got an email message today from Facebook about my account, I honestly had forgotten that i still had an active Facebook account as it's been years since I last used it. When I logged in to permanently delete the account I was surprised to see multiple messages from the person who spent two years grooming and eventual...
22cthulu
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2020-01-18 03:59:22
rapecounseling
<es>Just logged into my Facebook account for the first time in five years and the person who raped/groomed me for two years as a child.has been trying to get in touch with me.<ee> <es>I got an email message today from Facebook about my account, I honestly had forgotten that i still had an active Facebook account as it'...
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the person who raped you is contacting your on Facebook
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eibz9z
How To Go On Walks With My Kids And Three Dogs When The Idea Terrifies Me?
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help-seeking
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I have an intense anxiety with going on walks with both my kids and my dogs at the same time. I can go with one group at one time but I'm still stressed out when going out with my kids. My intrusive thoughts make me convinced that one of my neighbors will memorize my walking routine and kidnap me, my kids, or both. Whe...
Kai_Halo
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2020-01-01 01:20:37
Anxiety
<es>I have an intense anxiety with going on walks with both my kids and my dogs at the same time.<ee> <es>I can go with one group at one time but I'm still stressed out when going out with my kids.<ee> <es>My intrusive thoughts make me convinced that one of my neighbors will memorize my walking routine and kidnap me, m...
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how the fear affects you
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eisfzw
Does anyone else wanna move to a new city?
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survey
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I wanna move so bad from Boston but I feel like I am gonna fail again because of my social anxiety. The whole meeting new people and forming connections in my head I am not very good at. I keep thinking I will fail just like I did when i moved to LA 10 years ago when I was 18, I was soooo lonely back then. Anyone else ...
pnefc1177
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2020-01-02 03:15:59
socialanxiety
<es>I wanna move so bad from Boston but I feel like I am gonna fail again because of my social anxiety.<ee> <es>The whole meeting new people and forming connections in my head I am not very good at.<ee> <efs>I keep thinking I will fail just like I did when i moved to LA 10 years ago when I was 18, I was soooo lonely ba...
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eihzsy
ADHD and grades
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Hey guys, i was just wondering: are/were you guys's grades badly influenced by ADHD or did some of you make it through high school / college with good results?
Gionanni
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2020-01-01 12:45:16
ADHD
<rs>Hey guys, i was just wondering: are/were you guys's grades badly influenced by ADHD or did some of you make it through high school / college with good results?<re>
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to know if adhd affects school grades
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to know if grades are badly influenced by adhd
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ei7pkr
Can’t have a baby somethings wrong with me? Panic attacks non stop today from anxiety
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help-seeking
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My bf keeps blaming me for not conceiving and now I’m constantly looking up things that could be wrong with me which is causing crippling anxiety. Was I on BC for too long, did I have an std that didn’t get caught? Are my tubes blocked?? I hope I can post here but I can’t talk to anyone about this. I’m just not sure h...
singing_book
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0
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2019-12-31 19:39:01
Anxiety
<es>My bf keeps blaming me for not conceiving and now I’m constantly looking up things that could be wrong with me.<ee> <efs>which is causing crippling anxiety.<efe> <rs>Was I on BC for too long, did I have an std that didn’t get caught?<re> <rs>Are my tubes blocked??<re> I hope I can post here but I can’t talk to any...
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what would help you with your anxiety
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ejzqmm
Three years off opiates. Over ten years of using and am 29 years old, ask me any questions.
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chitchat
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I am currently three years off of opiates. I achieved continuous sobriety starting three years ago by using alternative methods along with fundamentals from the 12 step program. Changing my diet became everything. Because I had done such severe damage mentally to my wellbeing I seeked alternative treatment (ibogaine)...
elevencircles
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2020-01-04 17:46:37
OpiatesRecovery
I am currently three years off of opiates. I achieved continuous sobriety starting three years ago by using alternative methods along with fundamentals from the 12 step program. Changing my diet became everything. Because I had done such severe damage mentally to my wellbeing I seeked alternative treatment (ibogaine)...
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ekg4tl
Free Online Writing Treatment for Sexual Distress!
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chitchat
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The Sexual Psychophysiology Lab at the University of Texas at Austin is recruiting women from across the U.S. and Canada who have had unwanted, nonconsensual, or abusive sexual experiences in their childhood or adolescence to participate in a study assessing a novel treatment aimed at reducing sexual distress. Study pa...
mestonlab
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2020-01-05 17:38:07
rapecounseling
The Sexual Psychophysiology Lab at the University of Texas at Austin is recruiting women from across the U.S. and Canada who have had unwanted, nonconsensual, or abusive sexual experiences in their childhood or adolescence to participate in a study assessing a novel treatment aimed at reducing sexual distress. Study pa...
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eofp76
Chronic pain and mental health
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help-seeking
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Hello all. I'm a 22F with TMJ/TMD. I'm struggling with chronic pain and I'm seeking treatment currently. My pain and the favt that I feel like I have to live with it no matter what really weighs on me. How do you get past it and get on with your life even though its a daily struggle?
intherapy1998
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2020-01-14 03:40:56
mentalillness
Hello all. <es>I'm a 22F with TMJ/TMD.<ee> <es>I'm struggling with chronic pain and I'm seeking treatment currently.<ee> My pain and the favt that I feel like I have to live with it no matter what really weighs on me. <rs>How do you get past it and get on with your life even though its a daily struggle?<re>
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what caused the chronic pain
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chronic pain
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ejdcmj
Looking for some advice (getting a job)
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help-seeking
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Ill be graduating professional school in a couple of months and now its time for interviewing and talking to people and I am terrified. I already know I'm not going to get it because of my anxiety so I've been trying to convince myself to not even bother applying. I just want to hide in my apt but I know I cant hide he...
OvercomebySAD
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2020-01-03 09:53:10
socialanxiety
<es>Ill be graduating professional school in a couple of months and now its time for interviewing and talking to people and I am terrified.<ee> <es>I already know I'm not going to get it because of my anxiety so I've been trying to convince myself to not even bother applying.<ee> I just want to hide in my apt but I kno...
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the thought of giving interviews
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eoxmxc
If your drink was spiked without your knowledge or consent, do you start back at day 1 for sobriety?
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survey
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I went to my boyfriend's grandmother's house where she offered me a peppermint hot chocolate. After I drank some of it, my boyfriend came into the room and asked why I was drinking alcohol. Turns out she adds a shot of Schnapps. The thing is, you do NOT tell his grandmother ANYTHING personal at ALL. I've already been ...
brielzibub
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2020-01-15 04:49:48
addiction
<es>I went to my boyfriend's grandmother's house where she offered me a peppermint hot chocolate.<ee> <es>After I drank some of it, my boyfriend came into the room and asked why I was drinking alcohol.<ee> <es>Turns out she adds a shot of Schnapps.<ee> <es>The thing is, you do NOT tell his grandmother ANYTHING persona...
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f6ulzc
How do I stop this?
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help-seeking
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I want to stop getting so irritated with him. He’s just a kid, things aren’t always going to go smooth. How does my brain think that getting angry is going to help? I spent 25 years never getting angry, sad yes but never angry, now I feel anger so often I’m afraid of what I’m doing to him. I’m a control freak, I want e...
thinking_space
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2020-02-20 15:25:29
Anger
<rs>I want to stop getting so irritated with him.<re> <es>He’s just a kid, things aren’t always going to go smooth.<ee> <es>How does my brain think that getting angry is going to help?<ee> <es>I spent 25 years never getting angry, sad yes but never angry, now I feel anger so often I’m afraid of what I’m doing to him.<e...
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how you feel about the conversation with your kid
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esobo7
I left and I keep hoping he will call
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help-seeking
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There is something so wrong with me. I was forced into getting a restraining order today and having him arrested today and I feel so guilty. I knew I could sleep there because I don’t feel safe at all. I left and I can’t go back ever. I know that but I keep hoping he will reach out. It’s so fucked up and I just feel so...
NotThis2020
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2020-01-23 04:48:29
domesticviolence
<efs>There is something so wrong with me.<efe> <es>I was forced into getting a restraining order today and having him arrested today and I feel so guilty.<ee> <efs>I knew I could sleep there because I don’t feel safe at all.<efe> <es>I left and I can’t go back ever.<ee> <es>I know that but I keep hoping he will reach o...
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why you were forced to get a restraining order against him
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what would help you not feel guilty
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eiq45x
Hey guys!
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chitchat
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Hi everyone. It’s been awhile since I’ve been on reddit, but I did the Facebook group ADHD community thing only to be made to feel like a shitty fucking person for working hard to keep my shit together and sharing with others. I like the reddit mental health communities because that’s what we are, a community. It’s a r...
boogerdouche
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0
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2020-01-02 00:08:19
ADHD
Hi everyone. It’s been awhile since I’ve been on reddit, but I did the Facebook group ADHD community thing only to be made to feel like a shitty fucking person for working hard to keep my shit together and sharing with others. I like the reddit mental health communities because that’s what we are, a community. It’s a r...
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ei723q
Desperate
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rant
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A few weeks ago, it was my birthday. I have this game that wishes you a happy birthday when that time comes, that game was the only thing that said happy birthday to me. I’m just so damn tired of it, relying on a GAME to wish me happy birthday. I honestly don’t care about my birthday anymore.
Topherz19
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2019-12-31 18:52:23
depression
A few weeks ago, it was my birthday. <es>I have this game that wishes you a happy birthday when that time comes, that game was the only thing that said happy birthday to me.<ee> <es>I’m just so damn tired of it, relying on a GAME to wish me happy birthday.<ee> <efs>I honestly don’t care about my birthday anymore.<efe>
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how not getting birthday wishes made you feel
What do you need help with now that X?
nobody remembered to wish you
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eknswv
Sleep problem question...
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help-seeking
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Ok, so I had a trick. When i sleep, if i hear things while i'm asleep It sort of invades my dreams. I'm a super light sleeper, and the nightmares I usually have because of, well, years of abuse, are horrific. But the trick I found, is old episodes of are you being served. It's an old british sitcom, very repetative...
jax9999
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0
1
2020-01-06 03:05:31
ptsd
<es>Ok, so I had a trick.<ee> <es> When i sleep, if i hear things while i'm asleep It sort of invades my dreams.<ee> <es>I'm a super light sleeper, and the nightmares I usually have because of, well, years of abuse, are horrific.<ee> <es>But the trick I found, is old episodes of are you being served.<ee> <es> It's an...
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what would help you get a peaceful sleep
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embkhq
1/9/20 Daily Check In
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I decided the other day that I want to work towards getting my CADC. This had been a long time in the making but something finally clicked and I realized it is what I want to do. I'm currently on the 4th class out of like 45 or so. Feels good to have something to work towards. I was too complacent at my current job. I ...
Dirty_D_Damnit
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2020-01-09 15:59:18
OpiatesRecovery
I decided the other day that I want to work towards getting my CADC. This had been a long time in the making but something finally clicked and I realized it is what I want to do. I'm currently on the 4th class out of like 45 or so. Feels good to have something to work towards. I was too complacent at my current job. I ...
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ej2mpd
Man Donates Kidney To Woman He Loves, Later Proposed Her For Marriage, Gets Rejected
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2020-01-02 19:11:44
sad
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fg4mxt
Good things are gonna happen but I'm afraid it'll get fucked up
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rant
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After much effort and many appointments with different guidance counselors and social services I finally got into a vocation school paid for by the government with several other classmates who are mostly around 18-20 (I'm 19). Not only am I going to have a chance to increase my work skills, it'll be the first time in m...
lordbostonchrist
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2020-03-10 00:02:16
getting_over_it
<es>After much effort and many appointments with different guidance counselors and social services I finally got into a vocation school paid for by the government with several other classmates who are mostly around 18-20 (I'm 19).<ee> <es>Not only am I going to have a chance to increase my work skills, it'll be the fir...
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what would help you control the feeling of dread
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eihg0q
I cant bring myself to do it
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rant
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Ive never cut before but i really want to. The knifes in my hand but im afraid of the pain. Im such a pussy
SadSkywalker
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0
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2020-01-01 11:30:05
selfharm
<es>Ive never cut before but i really want to.<ee> <efs>The knifes in my hand but im afraid of the pain.<efe> Im such a pussy
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why you want to cut yourself
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you are having the urge to cut yourself
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ekt0o1
I was as confident as I could be that I would marry the girl that left me yesterday. The breakup doesn’t make me as sad as the looming thought that I’m just not compatible with anyone.
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Reptarticle
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2020-01-06 11:39:43
sad
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why the girl left you
Can you elaborate more on X ?
how you felt about the girl's actions
What do you need help with now that X?
you feel you are not compatible with anyone
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eia2h2
Does anyone relate to this? lol
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survey
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Started 2019 with a self harm relapse wanted to end it with suicide. I’m still dealing with the after affects of my last attempt and I guess I don’t want to die. Not because I’m happy now but if I die I can’t hurt myself anymore. I’m depressed I should want to die.i have suicidal tendencies. I shouldn’t want to live to...
yeeyeeiwanttodie
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0
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2019-12-31 22:45:00
selfharm
<es>Started 2019 with a self harm relapse wanted to end it with suicide.<ee> <es>I’m still dealing with the after affects of my last attempt and I guess I don’t want to die.<ee> <es>Not because I’m happy now but if I die I can’t hurt myself anymore.<ee> <es>I’m depressed I should want to die.<ee><es>i have suicidal ten...
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the thoughts of self harm
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ekcers
Anyone use Twitter?
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I love this sub and wouldn’t mind following you all on Twitter. Feel free to add me @therealashiver Happy 2020 beautiful people!
analyzedthought
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2020-01-05 12:27:07
selfhelp
I love this sub and wouldn’t mind following you all on Twitter. Feel free to add me @therealashiver Happy 2020 beautiful people!
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ei9dwx
Don't
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rant
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I feel like doing it again. I feel too hurt too neglected I keep getting hurt when I deserve the world but I feel like they hurt me then don't even care so put the pain on the outside. They still won't understand. What's the point. I'm so pathetic I hate myself I wish I was strong I wish people treated me well yet here...
solitaryfeline
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2019-12-31 21:49:50
selfharm
<efs>I feel like doing it again.<efe> <efs>I feel too hurt too neglected I keep getting hurt when I deserve the world but I feel like they hurt me then don't even care so put the pain on the outside.<efe> <es>They still won't understand.<ee> <es>What's the point.<ee> <efs>I'm so pathetic I hate myself I wish I was stro...
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like doing it again
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your feeling of hurt
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eml4sg
Chemical Dependent Here
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chitchat
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Hello Reddit folk, 21F, I've been addicted to various substances including both uppers and downers and have struggled especially with alcohol for years. I would withdraw as little as 3 to 4 hours after my last drink. Hallucinations, shakes, sweats, seizures, you name it. Even after a particularly violent seizure, whic...
eataplateofshit
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2020-01-10 03:28:03
addiction
Hello Reddit folk, 21F, I've been addicted to various substances including both uppers and downers and have struggled especially with alcohol for years. I would withdraw as little as 3 to 4 hours after my last drink. Hallucinations, shakes, sweats, seizures, you name it. Even after a particularly violent seizure, whic...
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en7n3c
Short Term Memory
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Does anyone here have short term memory issues? I moved into a new home a few months ago. My mind draws an automatic blank when trying to recall the address. I have to keep it written down, so I have it handy when needed. The same with my phone number that I have had since this summer. With my career, I write dow...
grayghostsmitten
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2020-01-11 13:52:21
ptsd
<rs>Does anyone here have short term memory issues? <re> <es>I moved into a new home a few months ago.<ee> <es>My mind draws an automatic blank when trying to recall the address.<ee> <es>I have to keep it written down, so I have it handy when needed. <ee> <es>The same with my phone number that I have had since this s...
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emtf1m
Constantly feel like crying but can’t- help?
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Hi, for a couple of months I often have the urge to cry but I never do and it gets really annoying. When I’m distracted it’s mostly fine and not as strong, but whenever there’s a silent moment I just feel like and wish there were tears falling, to let them finally out. I’ve never been a huge crybaby and only two movi...
goldenintention
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2020-01-10 16:36:36
selfhelp
<es>Hi, for a couple of months I often have the urge to cry but I never do and it gets really annoying. <ee> <efs>When I’m distracted it’s mostly fine and not as strong, but whenever there’s a silent moment I just feel like and wish there were tears falling, to let them finally out.<efe> <es>I’ve never been a huge cry...
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f2v93l
"HOME" i will have never known
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rant
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im 58 so scared almost to point of being petrified and doing literally nothing all day. i am facing possible eviction soon and i have no money but there is a large chunk just 5 yrs to break me. t waiting on me to send the damn papers. i dont. i dont do anything anymore. why i do not know i am broken and he did that to ...
SparklesGreenEyes
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2020-02-12 18:03:49
domesticviolence
<efs>im 58 so scared almost to point of being petrified and doing literally nothing all day.<efe> <es>i am facing possible eviction soon and i have no money but there is a large chunk just 5 yrs to break me.<ee> <es>t waiting on me to send the damn papers.<ee> <es>i dont.<ee> <es>i dont do anything anymore.<ee> <es>why...
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elsns2
Weds Jan 8th check in
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Morning y'all... I'm so tired I can barely think. In an uber omw to work rn stuck in mad traffic (you know how there's always that oneee intersection that has like 15 min of traffic leading up to it because of a combo of bad urban planning and people driving like idiots? Yeah). Got therapy after work which im happy abo...
kollaps3
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2020-01-08 13:24:39
OpiatesRecovery
Morning y'all... I'm so tired I can barely think. In an uber omw to work rn stuck in mad traffic (you know how there's always that oneee intersection that has like 15 min of traffic leading up to it because of a combo of bad urban planning and people driving like idiots? Yeah). Got therapy after work which im happy abo...
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eneu7j
Twenty-Four Hours a Day, 1.11
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Thought When we were drinking most of us never thought of helping others. We liked to buy drinks for people, because that made us feel like big shots. But we only used others for our own pleasure. Do really go out and try to help somebody who needed help never occurred to us. Do us, helping others looked like a su...
Whtsox
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2020-01-11 22:59:03
alcoholicsanonymous
Thought When we were drinking most of us never thought of helping others. We liked to buy drinks for people, because that made us feel like big shots. But we only used others for our own pleasure. Do really go out and try to help somebody who needed help never occurred to us. Do us, helping others looked like a su...
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ejpvbv
feeling fake for starting “late” (TW)
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rant
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i’m 17 years old. i started actually sh-ing around October (previously i had occasionally burned myself and hit myself, but it was not often enough for me to have considered it a problem). i know the whole “everyone’s problems are valid” stuff, no matter how bad the sh is or why you’re doing it or whatever else. but i ...
nocreativeusernames
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2020-01-04 02:06:30
selfharm
<es>i’m 17 years old.<ee> <es>i started actually sh-ing around October (previously i had occasionally burned myself and hit myself, but it was not often enough for me to have considered it a problem).<ee> <es>i know the whole “everyone’s problems are valid” stuff, no matter how bad the sh is or why you’re doing it or w...
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you are feeling you don't have the right to stop your self harm
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ei8yj1
I don't know what to do
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help-seeking
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I think for the past month now I can't feel anything not one single emotion apart from the occasional lust I hate anything and everyone Is there something wrong with me?
viperink24
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0
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2019-12-31 21:15:27
mentalillness
I think for the past month now <efs>I can't feel anything not one single emotion apart from the occasional lust<efe> <efs>I hate anything and everyone<efe> Is there something wrong with me?
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no emotion for that past month
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this feeling of hating everyone
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ej731r
How do i face my classmates after this
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help-seeking
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This sounds really exaggerated and so stupid i feel like such a loser but i just need some tips to not care about this and move on. On new years i was drunk and stoned as one should be, and no one in class really interacts with me because im silent and intimidating, however in our group chat ppl often send drunk week...
uhsnakes
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2020-01-03 00:24:53
socialanxiety
<efs>This sounds really exaggerated and so stupid i feel like such a loser but i just need some tips to not care about this and move on. <efe> <es>On new years i was drunk and stoned as one should be, and no one in class really interacts with me because im silent and intimidating, however in our group chat ppl often s...
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Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
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fjvxt9
What are some things on your Bucket List / Life Goals?
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survey
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So I think I'm finally ready to come out of the depressive mire I've been in for the past 1-2 years now My old life, and who I wanted to be then, didn't work out - but I'm ready to stop looking back at those failures and start looking forward. The only problem is, I have no idea what I'm looking forward *towards.* ...
foxes300
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2020-03-17 00:44:22
getting_over_it
<es>So I think I'm finally ready to come out of the depressive mire I've been in for the past 1-2 years now<ee> <es>My old life, and who I wanted to be then, didn't work out<ee> -<rs> but I'm ready to stop looking back at those failures and start looking forward. <re> <es>The only problem is, I have no idea what I'm ...
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your depressive mire
How did X make you feel?
you old life
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eiqd83
How to stop taking beta-blockers?
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I’ve been taking 13mg of metoprolol for anxiety after a psych visit for a little under a year now. If I quit taking it cold turkey, is there any danger, or should I slowly wean off of it? Should I take it every other day or go from 13mg to 6mg and lower until I’m off. From what I’ve read 13mg is a small dose. Thank you...
seekingeagle
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0
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2020-01-02 00:28:31
Anxiety
<es>I’ve been taking 13mg of metoprolol for anxiety after a psych visit for a little under a year now.<ee> <rs>If I quit taking it cold turkey, is there any danger, or should I slowly wean off of it?<re> <rs>Should I take it every other day or go from 13mg to 6mg and lower until I’m off.<re> From what I’ve read 13mg is...
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your anxiety
How did X make you feel?
taking metoprolol
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g0f2hn
Are there any resources which you have helpful in learning more about depression and what causes it?
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I'm specifically looking for papers and other medical articles on depression because I want to understand what I'm feeling. I feel like I've just been making random guesses based on what i feel rather than looking at already existing research done on the subject. Thanks in advance.
Pseudonimous_bosch
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2020-04-13 08:40:06
getting_over_it
<rs>I'm specifically looking for papers and other medical articles on depression because I want to understand what I'm feeling.<re> <efs>I feel like I've just been making random guesses based on what i feel rather than looking at already existing research done on the subject.<efe> Thanks in advance.
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What happened that you want X ?
articles related to depression
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emmzij
Symptoms i have questions about
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help-seeking
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So i think i have ptsd from being raped like a year and a half ago and im happy to have gotten away from him and im in a relationship now and sometimes when we have sex i start to have bad anxiety like im on high alert. Then i start to feel confused and scared and my boyfriend is very helpful. But nothing helps, i star...
Yuri_05
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0
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2020-01-10 06:17:41
ptsd
<es>So i think i have ptsd from being raped like a year and a half ago and im happy to have gotten away from him and im in a relationship now and sometimes when we have sex i start to have bad anxiety like im on high alert.<ee> <efs>Then i start to feel confused and scared and my boyfriend is very helpful.<efe> <efs>Bu...
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f2vl4u
I was abused and it changed my dog, now we could lose our housing.
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I moved into an apartment recently with my dog (a 19 pound terrier). I moved after being severely abused (physical and sexual), and, at the time, my dog actually saved my life by attacking my abuser and getting him off of me. Yesterday, as I was locking my door, a man was approaching me but actually just walking past...
thebrucekwayne
1
0
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2020-02-12 18:25:09
domesticviolence
<es>I moved into an apartment recently with my dog (a 19 pound terrier).<ee> <es>I moved after being severely abused (physical and sexual), and, at the time, my dog actually saved my life by attacking my abuser and getting him off of me. <ee> <es>Yesterday, as I was locking my door, a man was approaching me but actual...
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how you feel about your dog
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eqxp1h
Need tips and moral support 23m
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help-seeking
2
I’ve always had a on and off problem with opiates of all kinds but I’m currently Weening off a 5 month on and off h/fetty addiction for the last 2 months it’s been pretty consistent, I snort, I had a whole month off from school but I blew it (no pun intended) I was supposed to quit then but it didn’t work out, I tried...
Ill-Plenty
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0
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2020-01-19 15:36:16
OpiatesRecovery
<es>I’ve always had a on and off problem with opiates of all kinds but I’m currently Weening off a 5 month on and off h/fetty addiction for the last 2 months it’s been pretty consistent.<ee> <es>I snort, I had a whole month off from school but I blew it (no pun intended) I was supposed to quit then but it didn’t work ...
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epnhv0
What's your lamest, most outrageous excuse for using? (No judgment, y'all, or I'll throat chop yas)
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survey
1
I write best when I'm going thru opiate withdrawals. That pink cloud is an amazing thing. Because I'm an addict I've literally used the excuse, "Well, if you go thru withdrawals again you know you're writing will be fire." Yea.... Totally fucked up, I know. AGAIN, I REPEAT, "NO JUDGEMENT!" In this thread.
Google_1t
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0
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2020-01-16 18:39:34
OpiatesRecovery
I write best when I'm going thru opiate withdrawals. That pink cloud is an amazing thing. Because I'm an addict I've literally used the excuse, "Well, if you go thru withdrawals again you know you're writing will be fire." Yea.... Totally fucked up, I know. AGAIN, I REPEAT, "NO JUDGEMENT!" In this thread.
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emmxjw
Moment of silence
1c
rant
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Man who else thinks the world is fucking crazy atm? Like damn man I haven't been clean this past week shits been weird. Sex drive? Idk idk idk it's a weird feeling. Heading into 2 weeks idk I have the chance to ruin soon if I want tomorrow am. Idk I might wake up and have a change of mind. Weed and gaba and baths hel...
fentypressy
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0
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2020-01-10 06:11:55
OpiatesRecovery
Man who else thinks the world is fucking crazy atm? Like damn man I haven't been clean this past week shits been weird. Sex drive? Idk idk idk it's a weird feeling. Heading into 2 weeks idk I have the chance to ruin soon if I want tomorrow am. Idk I might wake up and have a change of mind. Weed and gaba and baths hel...
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ej71ms
BPD diagnosis rationale discussion
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Hey. I have met the DSM-V criteria for BPD, in 8 out of 9 parameters, for my entire life. It took a long time for them to officially diagnose, and I know there are a lot of reasons for that. Brief history; I am a mid-20s Male with 3 suicide attempts (2 very serious ex. Arterial severance), self mutilation that is ...
ulyssesintothepast
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0
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2020-01-03 00:21:47
BPD
Hey. <es>I have met the DSM-V criteria for BPD, in 8 out of 9 parameters, for my entire life.<ee> <es>It took a long time for them to officially diagnose, and I know there are a lot of reasons for that. <ee> <es>Brief history; I am a mid-20s Male with 3 suicide attempts (2 very serious ex. Arterial severance), self...
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your BPD symptoms
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ev3l7m
17 years and I can’t stop having nightmares
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help-seeking
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I (34f) was in a 17 year relationship where my partner (34m) would hurt me every time we had sex. During the relationship it made me uncomfortable but it wasn’t until I had space from it and different partners did I realize just how bad it really was. I was abused when I was extremely young so sex was never something...
thelizziepants
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0
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2020-01-28 09:54:14
rapecounseling
<es>I (34f) was in a 17 year relationship where my partner (34m) would hurt me every time we had sex.<ee> <es>During the relationship it made me uncomfortable but it wasn’t until I had space from it and different partners did I realize just how bad it really was.<ee> <es>I was abused when I was extremely young so sex...
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ei9226
Internship
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chitchat
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Pipergnome
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2019-12-31 21:23:19
ADHD
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f7f023
How do I get back to having dreams and goals?
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help-seeking
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I apologize if this is the wrong subreddit to ask something like this. Years ago, when I was about to start college, I had some growing doubt and worry about the future and what was the meaning/value of it. Most everyone assured me that once I started taking classes, I was going to figure things out. Instead, it lead...
spitefullyconfused
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0
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2020-02-21 18:06:00
getting_over_it
I apologize if this is the wrong subreddit to ask something like this. <es>Years ago, when I was about to start college, I had some growing doubt and worry about the future and what was the meaning/value of it.<ee> <es> Most everyone assured me that once I started taking classes, I was going to figure things out.<ee> <...
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eicgum
You matter, and you're not alone.
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chitchat
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Just wanted to say that. I hope 2020 is better to you. I hope it's better for us all. You're not alone in your fight, and if you've been thinking about talking to someone about your mental health then do it. From one human to another, I love you.
Muhfuggajones
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0
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2020-01-01 02:04:59
depression
Just wanted to say that. I hope 2020 is better to you. I hope it's better for us all. You're not alone in your fight, and if you've been thinking about talking to someone about your mental health then do it. From one human to another, I love you.
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Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
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eorxm6
Ready to quit just need some advice.
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help-seeking
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I’ve been taking opiates for about three years and I’m ready to quit. What should I take to help with withdrawal and post acute withdrawal? I’ve been told that 5htp and St. John’s wort help. If you know anything about that let me know.
Qrose94
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0
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2020-01-14 21:35:32
OpiatesRecovery
<es>I’ve been taking opiates for about three years and I’m ready to quit.<ee> <rs>What should I take to help with withdrawal and post acute withdrawal?<re> <es>I’ve been told that 5htp and St. John’s wort help.<ee> <rs>If you know anything about that let me know.<re>
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your opiate usage
How did X make you feel?
taking opiates
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eizlgb
Don't break my focus!
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help-seeking
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Hey y'all! When I'm hyperfocusing on something, or just focusing at all, I get really pissed when someone interupts me lol. I mean noticeably pissed, too. I spent hours yesterday setting up a new browser on my computer. And when a family member called my name multiple times, to tell me dinner was ready....i got sna...
ButteryBakedSalmon
1
0
10
2020-01-02 15:28:45
ADHD
Hey y'all! <es>When I'm hyperfocusing on something, or just focusing at all, I get really pissed when someone interupts me lol.<ee> <es>I mean noticeably pissed, too.<ee> <es>I spent hours yesterday setting up a new browser on my computer.<ee> <es> And when a family member called my name multiple times, to tell me d...
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elfvwb
Starting LDN
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I’ve been taking Belbuca (buprenorphine) as a transition off of other opiates. I’m down to about 40mcg/day of Belbuca/buprenorphine. I was prescribed 1.5mg LDN to help with the PAWS recovery and would like to start it ASAP. Does anyone have experience with this? I’m wondering if I’m ok to start it now, or if it’s best ...
CBDbeginner
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0
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2020-01-07 18:57:17
OpiatesRecovery
<es>I’ve been taking Belbuca (buprenorphine) as a transition off of other opiates.<ee> <es>I’m down to about 40mcg/day of Belbuca/buprenorphine.<ee> <es>I was prescribed 1.5mg LDN to help with the PAWS recovery and would like to start it ASAP.<ee> <rs>Does anyone have experience with this?<re> <rs>I’m wondering if I’m ...
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how taking belbuca made you feel
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eiebxm
Need some reassurance after going to a certain subreddit without realizing what it actually was...
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help-seeking
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Reposted to remove the name of the subreddit I’m not even sure if reassurance is the right word. Excuse my writing, my head is a mess right now... To preface, I (27F) was diagnosed with BPD when I was 18. I’ve had a lot of years of therapy and have learned to deal with and suppress many of my symptoms. 6 months ago...
Sharpghost310
1
0
2
2020-01-01 05:07:54
BPD
<rs>Need some reassurance after going to a certain subreddit without realizing what it actually was...<re> Reposted to remove the name of the subreddit I’m not even sure if reassurance is the right word. Excuse my writing, my head is a mess right now... <es>To preface, I (27F) was diagnosed with BPD when I was 18.<e...
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what would help you not feel hurt and lost
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en11ye
Why can’t I connect?
1a
help-seeking
1
I’ve always felt like an outsider, in any scenario. School/work/social groups/ and now aa. I recently joined a sobriety group on Facebook that is for the women in my town. And I’m scrolling through seeing all the connections these women have, people who have gotten sober at the same time as me, commenting on others pos...
helanne
1
0
12
2020-01-11 01:59:15
alcoholicsanonymous
<efs>I’ve always felt like an outsider, in any scenario.<efe> <es>School/work/social groups/ and now aa.<ee> <es>I recently joined a sobriety group on Facebook that is for the women in my town.<ee> <es>And I’m scrolling through seeing all the connections these women have, people who have gotten sober at the same time a...
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eick5i
No sense of purpose, no passion, no love.
1b
rant
2
I'm dying so hard and so far I can't even filter my exhaustion from others. I have no sense of purpose, I feel broken inside, and completely out of options. I wish I could explain the full feeling, but it's too complicated and out of my ability to write or speak. Well, I feel like I could write it out, but every time...
TranslucentPigeon
1
0
1
2020-01-01 02:13:26
depression
<efs>I'm dying so hard and so far I can't even filter my exhaustion from others.<efe> <efs>I have no sense of purpose, I feel broken inside, and completely out of options.<efe> <efs>I wish I could explain the full feeling, but it's too complicated and out of my ability to write or speak.<efe> Well, I feel like I coul...
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what would help you be ok
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eryshh
I can’t deal with my dad anymore
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help-seeking
2
My dad is way too much. If I don’t watch literally everything I say, then he ends up getting extremely offended. I asked him why he still sees his abusive parents and he proceeded to use an extremely aggressive, slightly loud voice to tell me how he is extremely mature and I am just a child and will never understand. H...
lithaxbaby
1
0
0
2020-01-21 18:29:59
domesticviolence
<es>My dad is way too much.<ee> <es>If I don’t watch literally everything I say, then he ends up getting extremely offended.<ee> <es>I asked him why he still sees his abusive parents and he proceeded to use an extremely aggressive, slightly loud voice to tell me how he is extremely mature and I am just a child and will...
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how does your dad's actions make you feel
What do you need help with now that X?
your dad uses aggressive voice with you
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ftku8w
I don’t know how much longer I’ll be able to keep going
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rant
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I really thought this year was going to be different, but I feel worse than I ever have in my life right now. Instead of sleeping right now I’m crying. I’ve always thought therapy would help me, but I’ve never actually considered going until now. Suicide used to be something I thought about on occasion, but now I thi...
throwaway656543
1
0
1
2020-04-02 11:38:56
getting_over_it
<efs>I really thought this year was going to be different, but I feel worse than I ever have in my life right now.<efe> <es>Instead of sleeping right now I’m crying. <ee> <es>I’ve always thought therapy would help me, but I’ve never actually considered going until now.<ee> <es>Suicide used to be something I thought ab...
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Can you elaborate more on X ?
why you are having suicidal thoughts
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you are feeling lost and alone
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eod3m4
[Academic] Experiences of loneliness, shame and guilt in people who gamble (18+ of any gender)
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chitchat
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If you are 18 years and over and have a couple of minutes to spare, please take the time to contribute to my research study focusing on gambling!  The research aims at examining the relationships between gambling behaviour, self-conscious emotion experience (feelings of shame and guilt), loneliness (as both personali...
omort95
1
0
1
2020-01-14 00:21:38
addiction
If you are 18 years and over and have a couple of minutes to spare, please take the time to contribute to my research study focusing on gambling!  The research aims at examining the relationships between gambling behaviour, self-conscious emotion experience (feelings of shame and guilt), loneliness (as both personali...
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Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
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ei8hsj
I’m funny, always making people laugh, a smile on my face and positive but really...
1a
rant
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My heart is beating faster than a racehorse, I feel a dreading feeling in the pit of my stomach. There are days where I have to fight back tears. A month ago I almost jumped in front of a train. It’s like I have a split personality, how can I act so happy and be funny when I feel like I’m dying inside.
wildrosepetal
1
0
0
2019-12-31 20:38:45
depression
<efs>My heart is beating faster than a racehorse, I feel a dreading feeling in the pit of my stomach.<efe> <es>There are days where I have to fight back tears.<ee> <es>A month ago I almost jumped in front of a train.<ee> <es>It’s like I have a split personality, how can I act so happy and be funny when I feel like I’m ...
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why you feel you have a split personality
Can you elaborate more on X ?
how you feel about having contradictory feelings
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these contradictory feelings
suicidal
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eof6tu
Why is it when my son tells me no I fly off the handle?
1a
help-seeking
2
My 15 year old son has what was called Aspergers and ADHD. I find that recently that every time he tells me no or straight up defies me I for lack of a better term ‘lose my shit’. This last time I had taken his tablet because he was using it when he was supposed to be working on something else. He followed me downstai...
talensoti
1
0
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2020-01-14 03:00:43
Anger
<es>My 15 year old son has what was called Aspergers and ADHD.<ee> <es>I find that recently that every time he tells me no or straight up defies me I for lack of a better term ‘lose my shit’.<ee> <es>This last time I had taken his tablet because he was using it when he was supposed to be working on something else.<ee>...
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your outburst
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ej0182
I am struggling
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help-seeking
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Hey all i am new here . I never used to self harm ....and never thought i would do it . I am crying right now ,i dont know why i do it . It helps a bit ,it calms me sometimes, I am so lonely Before everything i used to cut when i was at the peak of my anger in order to release my rage i used to cut my arms a bit bu...
alex_tempest
1
0
2
2020-01-02 16:03:05
selfharm
Hey all i am new here . <es>I never used to self harm ....and never thought i would do it .<ee> <es>I am crying right now ,i dont know why i do it .<ee> <efs>It helps a bit ,it calms me sometimes, I am so lonely<efe> <es>Before everything i used to cut when i was at the peak of my anger in order to release my rage ...
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emie2r
PossibleTrigger: I think my relationship is triggering my PTSD :(
1a
rant
1
I was diagnosed with PTSD after a terrible long relationship. I was in a couple more relationships that were more emotionally &amp; mentally abusing than physical as the first one was. I met someone online that I wasn't expecting to fall for but it happened, sadly it is long distance but we will be meeting each other...
throwaway1112k
1
0
3
2020-01-09 23:56:30
ptsd
<es>I was diagnosed with PTSD after a terrible long relationship.<ee> <es>I was in a couple more relationships that were more emotionally &amp; mentally abusing than physical as the first one was. <ee> <es>I met someone online that I wasn't expecting to fall for but it happened, sadly it is long distance but we will b...
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you feel disconnected form your partner
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evfrup
Everything is going too well
1a
help-seeking
3
So I have had an incredibly tough couple of years, I'm 25 and went through an insanely difficult break up (I dealt with it worse than you can imagine, it was hard) but got through it. I'm only just starting to feel "normal". For context, I'm also very "average" looking, at best. Bit chubby, not that great to look at......
gotnothinson
1
0
5
2020-01-29 01:48:22
selfhelp
<es>So I have had an incredibly tough couple of years, I'm 25 and went through an insanely difficult break up (I dealt with it worse than you can imagine, it was hard) but got through it.<ee> <efs>I'm only just starting to feel "normal".<efe> <es>For context, I'm also very "average" looking, at best.<ee> <es>Bit chubby...
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eniec9
Fired for going to rehab?
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help-seeking
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I read that the ADA protects people from getting fired if they go to rehab. Is this true?
Curiousity261
1
0
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2020-01-12 03:45:10
OpiatesRecovery
<es>Fired for going to rehab?<ee> <rs>I read that the ADA protects people from getting fired if they go to rehab.<re> <rs>Is this true?<re>
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why you went to rehab
How did X make you feel?
being fired for going to rehab
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eu3ajo
The Impact Of Mindsets In Our Daily Lives
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chitchat
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Jjthelzp
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2020-01-26 06:34:08
selfhelp
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ej4pp1
What are some techniques to handle or address extreme feelings of jealousy and insecurity?
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help-seeking
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One of my main issues in romantic relationships is jealousy. I've brought this up with my psychologist several times, and the main ways she suggests for me to address it is things like doing a schema diary entry. But I honestly feel like this isn't helping and I have mentioned it to her but alternatives she gives tend ...
sup3rnintend0chamers
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2020-01-02 21:35:41
BPD
<rs>What are some techniques to handle or address extreme feelings of jealousy and insecurity?<re> <es>One of my main issues in romantic relationships is jealousy.<ee> <es>I've brought this up with my psychologist several times, and the main ways she suggests for me to address it is things like doing a schema diary ent...
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eozkdv
Online resources on how to confront my boyfriend about his addiction?
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I’ve recently found out my bf has began using heroin, he has yet to tell me himself. I’ve never had to help someone through this, I’ve never gone through this myself. There isn’t anyone I can reach out to and a google search isn’t helping me. I’m so lost. I just want to help him if he’ll let me. I obviously want to do...
almondmilk47
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2020-01-15 08:13:25
addiction
<rs>Online resources on how to confront my boyfriend about his addiction?<re> <es>I’ve recently found out my bf has began using heroin, he has yet to tell me himself.<ee> <es>I’ve never had to help someone through this, I’ve never gone through this myself.<ee> <es>There isn’t anyone I can reach out to and a google sear...
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why your boyfriend takes heroin
How did X make you feel?
your boyfriend taking heroin
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eir5lx
This pisses me off. Mental Illnesses isn't a fad. Unbelievable.
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rant
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MediocreJedi32
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2020-01-02 01:31:15
mentalillness
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encf2o
I couldn’t stop them!
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rant
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[Long post] it all started when I [26f ] was 9 or 10. My family wasn’t the idea family. majority of my male family members were either alcoholics or drunks. Including my cousin 26m (now 43). He was always verbally sexual towards the females in the family. My family, including my mom would just laugh &amp; not make a bi...
Perfect-Beyond
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2020-01-11 20:04:13
rapecounseling
[Long post] <es>it all started when I [26f ] was 9 or 10. My family wasn’t the idea family.<ee> <es>majority of my male family members were either alcoholics or drunks. Including my cousin 26m (now 43). He was always verbally sexual towards the females in the family. My family, including my mom would just laugh &amp; n...
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eicz5l
I just wished a bunch of people a happy new year.
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I met a lot of kind people this year that have helped me or taught me something and I thought I'd wish them all a happy new year. I have different heartfelt messages set to send at the 11:59 PM. I can't take them back now and I genuinely wish them well but oh how my heart panics at the thought that they might be up and...
NetherSpirits
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2020-01-01 02:52:55
socialanxiety
<es>I met a lot of kind people this year that have helped me or taught me something and I thought I'd wish them all a happy new year.<ee> <es>I have different heartfelt messages set to send at the 11:59 PM.<ee> <es>I can't take them back now and I genuinely wish them well but oh how my heart panics at the thought that ...
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you feel nervous about their reaction
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en45y4
Struggling to quit smoking...
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rant
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Hey guys, I’m trying so hard to quit, but the pain is just to much to handle... I have not had any tobacco in 2 weeks.. But I have resorted to smoking things such as dried leaves from my neighbour’s garden, and then.. it gets worse, when I’m out of papers, Ive been smoking my own semen, sauces, juices in my vape pen.. ...
LilYungGoated420
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2020-01-11 06:50:37
addiction
<efs><es>Hey guys, I’m trying so hard to quit, but the pain is just to much to handle...<ee><efe> <es>I have not had any tobacco in 2 weeks..<ee> <es>But I have resorted to smoking things such as dried leaves from my neighbour’s garden, and then.. it gets worse, when I’m out of papers, Ive been smoking my own semen, sa...
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how smoking took over your life
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how you are trying to quit smoking
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f6u1pj
I (M20) was raped, when I was kid. Now the rapist have new kids at his place and I fear for them.
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I was raped multiple time as kid by our church pastor. I tried to tell my dad but he said I was misunderstood and have no proofs, " which I still don't" I always tried to forget about it and move to City as soon as I could. Now I was visiting my mother and I was looking around the area and found he still teach the reli...
akia5612
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2020-02-20 14:44:29
domesticviolence
<es>I was raped multiple time as kid by our church pastor.<ee> <es>I tried to tell my dad but he said I was misunderstood and have no proofs, " which I still don't"<ee> <es>I always tried to forget about it and move to City as soon as I could.<ee> <es>Now I was visiting my mother and I was looking around the area and f...
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ellj4s
What are the old timer views / theories on meetings running over time?
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It’s suddenly a hot debate in my town with a major group consistently doing it.
SeriousPhrase
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2020-01-08 01:40:59
alcoholicsanonymous
<rs>What are the old timer views / theories on meetings running over time?<re> <es>It’s suddenly a hot debate in my town with a major group consistently doing it.<ee>
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meetings running over time
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ejrgbk
Does anyone else listen to music while cutting?
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survey
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My go to song is Rocketman by Elton John
Andersssssss
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2020-01-04 04:10:31
selfharm
My go to song is Rocketman by Elton John
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ekm1ur
what does this mean?
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I have had many horrible things happen to me in my 16 year old life. I was diagnosed with depressiona dn anxiety at 13, but looking back on my years I realize these aren't the only problems I've had. I'm not going to pretend like my problems are the worst because I know there are people in the world going through much ...
brookibles
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2020-01-06 00:49:12
Anger
<es>I have had many horrible things happen to me in my 16 year old life.<ee> <es>I was diagnosed with depressiona dn anxiety at 13, but looking back on my years I realize these aren't the only problems I've had.<ee> I'm not going to pretend like my problems are the worst because I know there are people in the world goi...
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what would help with your anger issues
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eqbcwk
I’m such a bad person
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help-seeking
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I can’t do this anymore. Ik people try to help but sometimes it just hurts more. I’m so upset. Why don’t anyone understand? Why do people make it feel like her doing all that’s my fault? Ik I say it is but you don’t need to tell me to get away from her and block her out. That hurts that scares me. I’m already scared of...
angers-a-liar
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0
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2020-01-18 03:43:37
Anger
<es>I can’t do this anymore.<ee> <efs>Ik people try to help but sometimes it just hurts more.<efe> <efs>I’m so upset.<efe> Why don’t anyone understand? <es>Why do people make it feel like her doing all that’s my fault?<ee> Ik I say it is but you don’t need to tell me to get away from her and block her out. <efs>That hu...
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what caused you to be upset
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you are hurting
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eik47o
Hello, I was emitted to a mental health hospital on the 19th of November.
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wd_eyes
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2020-01-01 16:26:42
selfharm
<es>Hello, I was emitted to a mental health hospital on the 19th of November.<ee>
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why you were emitted to a mental hospital
How did X make you feel?
bein emitted to the hospital
What do you need help with now that X?
you have been emitted to a mental health hospital
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f2qu2c
Advice on my angry boyfriend
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help-seeking
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My boyfriend is very angry, he rants and raves when watching shows, drives aggressively and talks in great detail about how he would of solve a problem (generally with violence) He is a very passionate person, any shows about injustice make him insanely mad. I am looking for advice on how I can support my boyfriend...
touet-touet
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2020-02-12 12:58:33
Anger
<es> <ee>My boyfriend is very angry, he rants and raves when watching shows, drives aggressively and talks in great detail about how he would of solve a problem (generally with violence) He is a very passionate person, any shows about injustice make him insanely mad. I am looking for advice on how I can support my b...
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your boyfriend's angry rants
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f427fj
Did anyone struggle with extreme paranoia once they left, that lasted MONTHS to a year before improving?
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Left him may 17th 2019, and every now and then I get these paranoid thoughts that I’m not safe (because I’m so used to being in danger) I can’t tell if this is from the trauma or if it’s caused by something else. The thoughts include feeling followed, feeling like he can hear me, etc
preciousavocado
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2020-02-15 01:17:44
domesticviolence
<es>Did anyone struggle with extreme paranoia once they left, that lasted MONTHS to a year before improving?<ee> <es>Left him may 17th 2019, and every now and then I get these paranoid thoughts that I’m not safe (because I’m so used to being in danger).<ee> <es>I can’t tell if this is from the trauma or if it’s caused ...
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you are having paranoid thoughts after leaving him
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en0hsq
Reddit Please help me find my rapist
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Okay, so, I really need your help. I was raped a few years ago in New York City. in 2015. It was in a hotel. I was fucking drugged. I had to have a fucking an abortion after. my child. that. like. I'm still in therapy, and I even went to Peru to try ayahuasca, but I still can't even begin to talk about it. Anyhwo. i re...
SaveMe613
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2020-01-11 01:13:49
rapecounseling
<rs>Okay, so, I really need your help.<re> <es>I was raped a few years ago in New York City. in 2015.<ee> <es>It was in a hotel.<ee> <es>I was fucking drugged.<ee> <es>I had to have a fucking an abortion after.<ee> <es>my child.<ee> <es>that.<ee> <es>like.<ee> <es>I'm still in therapy, and I even went to Peru to try ay...
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ejs3cf
I’m scared to know if I have a broken bone
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help-seeking
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Yesterday was bad. We argued and he ended up pinning me in the bed trying to hit me. I managed to cover my face and I balled up to avoid getting hurt more but he managed to hit me at least once on the face. After it happened I couldn’t stop crying because I felt pain on the right side of my face. I was scared to look a...
silentraibow
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2020-01-04 05:04:21
domesticviolence
<es>Yesterday was bad.<ee> <es>We argued and he ended up pinning me in the bed trying to hit me.<ee> <es>I managed to cover my face and I balled up to avoid getting hurt more but he managed to hit me at least once on the face.<ee> <efs>After it happened I couldn’t stop crying because I felt pain on the right side of my...
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what would help you deal with this relationship
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erfs1i
Confused &amp; stuck in a rut
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It’s probably bad of me to say maybe he was just giving me what I wanted. It’s confusing because I stayed. I shouldn’t have. But I did it anyway. I made a lot of bad choices. And I didn’t really understand something bad had happened until I talked about it aloud. I’m embarrassed and ashamed. I don’t want friends or fam...
collegestudent3565
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0
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2020-01-20 16:49:37
rapecounseling
<es>It’s probably bad of me to say maybe he was just giving me what I wanted.<ee> <efs>It’s confusing because I stayed.<efe> <es>I shouldn’t have.<ee> <es>But I did it anyway.<ee> <es>I made a lot of bad choices.<ee> <es>And I didn’t really understand something bad had happened until I talked about it aloud.<ee> <efs>I...
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f3quni
If you survived domestic violence in your childhood, how do you think it affects your ability to relax and to have normal friendships and relationships today? I hope this isn’t too intrusive a question. Please feel free to direct me to other links or discussions if this has been covered before.
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survey
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As a child, my boyfriend’s father was violent with his mother. He told me he tried to protect her at a very young age. I am very much in love with him, however he appears a little needy (though he spreads this out amongst his friends). I’m just wondering if anyone would like to share their feelings on their own experie...
Noni-Moose
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0
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2020-02-14 11:22:41
domesticviolence
<rs>If you survived domestic violence in your childhood, how do you think it affects your ability to relax and to have normal friendships and relationships today?<re> I hope this isn’t too intrusive a question. Please feel free to direct me to other links or discussions if this has been covered before. <es>As a child...
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your boyfriend being needy
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f64h7a
Worried about building a pc due to anger
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So my partner has an alienware computer that is in repair at best buy. He has a warranty and if the product cannot be repaired by a month, they give back the money in store credit. He decides that he does not want to buy a new computer and wants to save and buy parts to build a PC. This sounds fine for a neurotypical p...
artnbio
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0
1
2020-02-19 03:27:07
Anger
<efs>Worried about building a pc due to anger<efe> <es>So my partner has an alienware computer that is in repair at best buy.<ee> <es>He has a warranty and if the product cannot be repaired by a month, they give back the money in store credit.<ee> <es>He decides that he does not want to buy a new computer and wants to ...
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epbope
Jumping off subs starting tomorrow...what am I in for?
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Last dose was a very small tear of a 2mg strip. I would estimate less than half an mg. I have been taking them daily for 6 months or so, and on 2mg max for the last 1-2 months. Probably averaging 1mg/day for the past month. I'm doing it with professional/family support, very fortunately and probably undeservedly. But, ...
gatsby06
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0
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2020-01-16 01:01:44
OpiatesRecovery
<es>Last dose was a very small tear of a 2mg strip.<ee> <es>I would estimate less than half an mg.<ee> <es>I have been taking them daily for 6 months or so, and on 2mg max for the last 1-2 months.<ee> <es>Probably averaging 1mg/day for the past month.<ee> <es>I'm doing it with professional/family support, very fortunat...
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elssed
Need diagnosis or whatever, please help.
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help-seeking
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So there’s this guy that has been faking suicide, faking being homeless and faking being raped etc multiple times recently and I found out it was fake because of some detective work I conducted (it is 99% fake). He’s only been sending this stuff to me and no one else as I’ve asked around and even asked his best friend ...
pandaleet
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0
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2020-01-08 13:35:52
mentalillness
<es>So there’s this guy that has been faking suicide, faking being homeless and faking being raped etc multiple times recently and I found out it was fake because of some detective work I conducted (it is 99% fake).<ee> <es>He’s only been sending this stuff to me and no one else as I’ve asked around and even asked his ...
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ejl4vn
Hey y’all
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Was prescribed XanaX 7 years ago and have been a daily user since that day. I have never once abused it nonetheless I’m addicted and long overdue to make the journey to quit. I take a silly-small amount per day. I get (x 60) .5 peach footballs every month. I break that in half. And break that half in half. So. It’s a...
lilcoffeebeen
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0
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2020-01-03 20:23:19
addiction
<es>Was prescribed XanaX 7 years ago and have been a daily user since that day.<ee> <es>I have never once abused it nonetheless I’m addicted and long overdue to make the journey to quit. <ee> I take a silly-small amount per day. I get (x 60) .5 peach footballs every month. I break that in half. And break that half in ...
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the feeling of depersonalization
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ej1at6
What are your thoughts on the meaning of life?
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survey
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Nobody belongs anywhere, nobody exists on purpose, everybody's going to die. \-Morty
Suicidal_Bisexual
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2020-01-02 17:37:03
sad
Nobody belongs anywhere, nobody exists on purpose, everybody's going to die. \-Morty
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ejg3hi
(TRIGGER WARNING) Anyone else here who just doesn't give a fuck if the wounds gets infected?
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survey
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I see here over and over everyone talking about caring about the wounds and cuts but tbh I don't really care about it. It fells for, without offending anyone here, hypocritical bc if I want to hurt myself than why should I care about it later to be not hurt. I don't want to be misunderstood as someone who is ungrateful...
sad-waves
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2020-01-03 14:28:37
selfharm
<es>I see here over and over everyone talking about caring about the wounds and cuts but tbh I don't really care about it.<ee> <es>It fells for, without offending anyone here, hypocritical bc if I want to hurt myself than why should I care about it later to be not hurt.<ee> <efs>I don't want to be misunderstood as some...
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why you cut yourself
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you don't take care of your cuts
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eievam
Not lighting any fireworks
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chitchat
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My ptsd is not combat related by I feel for y’all, be safe everyone ❤️
sendnoodlesbaby
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0
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2020-01-01 06:02:01
ptsd
<es>Not lighting any fireworks<ee> My ptsd is not combat related by I feel for y’all, be safe everyone ❤️
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why you are not lighting fireworks
How did X make you feel?
fireworks
What do you need help with now that X?
you aren't lighting fireworks
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elkm6c
A Haka for a selfless man. Andrew O'dwyer a firey who perished in the Australian bushfires.
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MrReeRee
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2020-01-08 00:30:12
sad
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em9ksq
8 Days Sober!
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chitchat
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{ Today marks the longest I’ve been clean from meth in 6 months (daily IV-user). I already posted on here about getting clean a couple days ago, and I was shocked by how friendly, and compassionate people were on this thread. *Feel free to go and check out my last post*, *as it describes my reasons / Desire to get clea...
Andy553
1
0
4
2020-01-09 13:23:47
addiction
{ Today marks the longest I’ve been clean from meth in 6 months (daily IV-user). I already posted on here about getting clean a couple days ago, and I was shocked by how friendly, and compassionate people were on this thread. *Feel free to go and check out my last post*, *as it describes my reasons / Desire to get clea...
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esd5v7
30'sM -- Starting Over, Ideas for Avoiding Negative Reminders???
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help-seeking
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Hey, I posted here before without really much of any feedback. Some guy wanted to share his loneliness on my behalf. I'll try to be more brief this time. This situation applies to anyone that is trying to apply positive changes to your life and when people and things of the past try to hold you down. People from y...
soggyluckycharm
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0
0
2020-01-22 15:01:19
selfhelp
Hey, I posted here before without really much of any feedback. Some guy wanted to share his loneliness on my behalf. I'll try to be more brief this time. This situation applies to anyone that is trying to apply positive changes to your life and when people and things of the past try to hold you down. People from y...
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you are having negative thoughts
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ewk4za
Does anyone know what are “counts”
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help-seeking
1
I might just ask the detective when she calls next But he got 2 counts of sexual assault Is it because he took my clothes off without my consent first? He tried to kiss me and I pushed him off and said no. He went away, but came back and that was when I was sleeping he assaulted me again Is it because he tried twic...
pumpkinjasminet
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0
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2020-01-31 06:25:18
rapecounseling
<rs>Does anyone know what are “counts”<re> <es>I might just ask the detective when she calls next<ee> <es>But he got 2 counts of sexual assault<ee> <rs>Is it because he took my clothes off without my consent first?<re> <es>He tried to kiss me and I pushed him off and said no.<ee> <es>He went away, but came back and t...
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how did the assault make you feel
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emd78i
Food Addiction/Binge Eating
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help-seeking
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Hi Friends, I'm not overweight. That's, I think, why it's so hard for me to ask for help. I look pretty normal. I'm tall, well proportioned. It's my metabolism I have to thank for that, because I have a serious food issue. I think I've always been like this, but I binge eat to the point of making myself sick. I do it ...
JxxMxx
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2020-01-09 17:51:31
addiction
Hi Friends, <es>I'm not overweight.<ee> <es>That's, I think, why it's so hard for me to ask for help.<ee> I look pretty normal. I'm tall, well proportioned. <es>It's my metabolism I have to thank for that, because I have a serious food issue.<ee> <es>I think I've always been like this, but I binge eat to the point of ...
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Can you elaborate more on X ?
what makes you binge eat
How did X make you feel?
binge eating
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eiz05r
ADHD is knowing that meal prep could help you with your time management and planning problems, but every aspect of ADHD also, consequently, prevents you from regularly pulling this off
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¯\\\_(ツ)\_/¯ Insanely frustrating catch-22. I've had this problem for YEARS; getting a mid-day text/getting home from work and wife asking "what's dinner plans?" (I'm the cook in the household) and swearing at myself because I have NO defrosted meat ready, or I'm lacking ingredients for my usual emergency easy dinners...
cdiannek
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0
8
2020-01-02 14:40:09
ADHD
¯\\\_(ツ)\_/¯ Insanely frustrating catch-22. I've had this problem for YEARS; getting a mid-day text/getting home from work and wife asking "what's dinner plans?" (I'm the cook in the household) and swearing at myself because I have NO defrosted meat ready, or I'm lacking ingredients for my usual emergency easy dinners...
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elake1
Intro and advice?
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help-seeking
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TW: domestic assault in front of a child Oh I'm so new here and found y'all amidst some desperation for understanding. I was assaulted 12 years ago by my newly ex-husband in front of our, then, six year old daughter. She is 18 now and wonderful and complicated (as we all are). There is a protective order in place t...
brawler2007
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2020-01-07 11:51:54
ptsd
TW: domestic assault in front of a child <es>Oh I'm so new here and found y'all amidst some desperation for understanding.<ee> <es> I was assaulted 12 years ago by my newly ex-husband in front of our, then, six year old daughter. <ee> <es>She is 18 now and wonderful and complicated (as we all are).<ee> <es> There is a...
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eidkcb
most of the thing making me want to do it is myself
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rant
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I mean, I take a look at everything I've been doing. Most of it is just me. I can't even handle little things, even the slightest thing can trigger it, even if it isn't anything to do with sh. I can't handle conflict, whether it's physical, emotional or verbal or anything else anymore at all, and afterwards this is alw...
-_-Lily-_-
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2020-01-01 03:51:10
selfharm
I mean, I take a look at everything I've been doing. Most of it is just me. <es>I can't even handle little things, even the slightest thing can trigger it, even if it isn't anything to do with sh.<ee> <es>I can't handle conflict, whether it's physical, emotional or verbal or anything else anymore at all, and afterwards...
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What do you need help with now that X?
you are unable to handle the slightest conflict
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erol25
The nightmares came back today for the first time in ages.
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rant
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I don’t even know what to say. Just. Don’t even know.
Chunksies
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2020-01-21 03:13:47
rapecounseling
<es>The nightmares came back today for the first time in ages.<ee> I don’t even know what to say. Just. Don’t even know.
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Can you elaborate more on X ?
your nightmares
How did X make you feel?
the nightmares
What do you need help with now that X?
the nightmares came back after a long time
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ekg9i7
i hate lunch
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help-seeking
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last year was the absolute worst for me with social anxiety, to the point where i had no friends. i began to go to therapy and slowly build up my confidence and thankfully through that am slowly building relationships! but there’s just one problem: i can’t sit with them at lunch. like for some reason my brain refuses...
rosyemily1
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2020-01-05 17:47:05
socialanxiety
<es>last year was the absolute worst for me with social anxiety, to the point where i had no friends.<ee> <es>i began to go to therapy and slowly build up my confidence and thankfully through that am slowly building relationships! but there’s just one problem:<ee> <ee>i can’t sit with them at lunch.<ee> <es>like for ...
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Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
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How did X make you feel?
your social anxiety
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ejfw8f
First relationship after break up with violent long term partner.
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help-seeking
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Hi everyone. Asking for your advice because I'm experiencing some pretty out of proportion heart ache right now. I was with violent ex for 6 years. It was so bad that I stayed single for 2 whole years. I felt ready last year and met a guy on Tinder. He was gentle and quiet as well as handsome and the combination made ...
Shorse_rider
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2020-01-03 14:12:03
domesticviolence
Hi everyone. <efs>Asking for your advice because I'm experiencing some pretty out of proportion heart ache right now.<efe> <es>I was with violent ex for 6 years.<ee> <efs>It was so bad that I stayed single for 2 whole years.<efe> <es>I felt ready last year and met a guy on Tinder.<ee> <es>He was gentle and quiet as we...
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Can you elaborate more on X ?
how you felt about your second relationship
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elhex5
How do I deal with anger?
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help-seeking
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Sometimes I'm so angry I just want to scream or punch something, but I can't do any of those because my family would hear the noise and start asking me why I was doing that. That would piss me off even more because they're usually the reason why I'm angry. But there isn't one room in this house where I can scream and I...
antonio_1027
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2020-01-07 20:43:17
selfhelp
<efs>Sometimes I'm so angry I just want to scream or punch something, but I can't do any of those because my family would hear the noise and start asking me why I was doing that.<efe> <efs>That would piss me off even more because they're usually the reason why I'm angry.<efe> <es>But there isn't one room in this house ...
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so angry
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eitbz7
Mourning
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rant
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I just found out a good friend of mine from my hometown over dosed last night from percocet . I'm pissed off and incredibly sad . Please stay away from drugs folks.
Cupcake_Octopus
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2020-01-02 04:32:30
sad
<es>I just found out a good friend of mine from my hometown over dosed last night from percocet .<ee> <efs>I'm pissed off and incredibly sad .<efe> Please stay away from drugs folks.
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Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
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What do you need help with now that X?
you feel sad about the loss of your friend
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