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el2ovx
I need someone to talk to about this, i am currently on day 12 of withdrawl and the low mood, hopelessnes, insomnia etc is starting to take its toll on my mind and body! Anyone out there that can give some word of wisdom and guidance? Im feeling very weak right now and have 4 oxy 30s in my pocket..
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I swear i dont want to take them and need reassurance i guess that this does actually get better, i cant see it getting better and i could just reach into my pocket, but fuck that, im fucking sick and tired of this merry go round and want to put a stop to it once and for all! Does it really get better?
Mcoyle777
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2020-01-06 23:52:19
OpiatesRecovery
<rs>I need someone to talk to about this.<re> <es>i am currently on day 12 of withdrawl.<ee> <efs>the low mood, hopelessnes, insomnia etc is starting to take its toll on my mind and body!<efe> <rs>Anyone out there that can give some word of wisdom and guidance?<re> <efs>Im feeling very weak right now and have 4 oxy 30s...
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why you were taking oxy
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f4v2db
Advice for a friend
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help-seeking
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Hi there. First time posting. Was in a relationship for four years in which time my then bf hit me three times. Have since broke up. My friend, a guy, was in a relationship with a girl and she would get blackout drunk, they would fight, and on maybe three occasions she scratched at him when he tried to leave her. I ...
helloclarebear
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2020-02-16 18:49:13
domesticviolence
Hi there. First time posting. <es>Was in a relationship for four years in which time my then bf hit me three times.<ee> <es>Have since broke up.<ee> <es>My friend, a guy, was in a relationship with a girl and she would get blackout drunk, they would fight, and on maybe three occasions she scratched at him when he trie...
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your abusive relationship
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f28osn
Should I reach out or just move on, knowing that I did nothing wrong?(long story)(overthinking)
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rant
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TL;DR at the end. So, backstory: I(22M) dipped my pen in company ink, we moved in together and 2 years later, this december, we had a rough breakup. Reason being, we weren't on the same page in life and we didn't see any other solution than to just be thankful for what we had and end it.Disclaimer; it was all a practi...
Arbenoben
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2020-02-11 13:59:53
getting_over_it
<rs>Should I reach out or just move on, knowing that I did nothing wrong?<re> TL;DR at the end. <es>So, backstory: I(22M) dipped my pen in company ink, we moved in together and 2 years later, this december, we had a rough breakup.<ee> <es>Reason being, we weren't on the same page in life and we didn't see any other so...
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how you feel about your ex's actions
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eib3j7
The language of mental illness - what I noticed
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I’m going to start with some history/context: I am currently being successfully (yeah!) treated for OCD, anxiety and depression. During my suffering, before I found a psychiatrist, I would “commiserate” with a close friend who happened to be going through a lot of the same symptoms. Over many Months of sharing storie...
cuteandfluffy13
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2020-01-01 00:07:29
mentalillness
I’m going to start with some history/context: I am currently being successfully (yeah!) treated for OCD, anxiety and depression. During my suffering, before I found a psychiatrist, I would “commiserate” with a close friend who happened to be going through a lot of the same symptoms. Over many Months of sharing storie...
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eiqa74
I was almost 2 years clean...
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rant
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Just cut myself in the shower. It felt soothing. With school on break I feel like I have no reason to even wake up. I want it to be over.
BruhGoSmokeATaco
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2020-01-02 00:22:02
selfharm
<es>I was almost 2 years clean...<ee> <es>Just cut myself in the shower.<ee> <efs>It felt soothing.<efe> <es>With school on break I feel like I have no reason to even wake up.<ee> <efs>I want it to be over.<efe>
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why you cut yourself in the shower
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you broke your 2 year clean streak
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ek35jz
Deleted everything
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rant
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I deleted every social media I had bc I had an anxiety attack. Currently downloading one back to talk to some friends, but that’s it
ewwhoisluke
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2020-01-04 21:54:35
mentalillness
<es>I deleted every social media I had bc I had an anxiety attack.<ee> Currently downloading one back to talk to some friends, but that’s it
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what caused the anxiety attack
How did X make you feel?
the anxiety attack
What do you need help with now that X?
you have had a anxiety attack
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eiq84j
I'm going to visit with the mother of my recently deceased best friend and I want to flake but am not going to.
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rant
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This is really tough. I bought a tee shirt to help raise money for his family and I'm picking it up from his mom tonight. I don't know how it will go, if I should bring him up or just quickly say thanks and leave. I just don't know what to expect visiting his family home. I don't know who's there and don't know them we...
Mikkiep
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2020-01-02 00:17:26
Anxiety
<es>I'm going to visit with the mother of my recently deceased best friend and I want to flake but am not going to.<ee> <es>This is really tough.<ee> <es>I bought a tee shirt to help raise money for his family and I'm picking it up from his mom tonight.<ee> <es>I don't know how it will go, if I should bring him up or j...
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you feel afraid of going
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eyqi37
What to say....
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help-seeking
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Hi, so I'm really unsure of what to do. It's just been over a year since it happened and I've made great progress since. However the past week or so I've been feeling anxious and depressed, I've been withdrawing myself more and more. I've been going out with someone for some time and I want to be able to share how I've...
lesnuitsfauves
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0
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2020-02-04 14:05:01
rapecounseling
<es>Hi, so I'm really unsure of what to do.<ee> <es>It's just been over a year since it happened and I've made great progress since.<ee> <efs>However the past week or so I've been feeling anxious and depressed, I've been withdrawing myself more and more.<efe> <es>I've been going out with someone for some time and I wan...
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what would help you share your feelings with your partner
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eianb8
I feel like I don't matter
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rant
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It feels like my mom doesn't care about me, my siblings always come first. I can talk to her, but she usually gets mad and calls me ungrateful, at one point she got so angry that she told me that I would get thrown into a mental-hospital. When she gets angry she'll say things that hurt, and later give me a hug and tell...
HandsAreBrokeYo
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2019-12-31 23:31:33
sad
<efs>It feels like my mom doesn't care about me, my siblings always come first.<efe> <es>I can talk to her, but she usually gets mad and calls me ungrateful, at one point she got so angry that she told me that I would get thrown into a mental-hospital.<ee> <es>When she gets angry she'll say things that hurt, and later ...
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you feel that your mother doesn't care about you
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eibjxp
It is BECOMING UNBEARABLE
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rant
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Before I could deal with this depression and mood swings by distracting myself and listening to depressing music. NOTHING FUCKING MAKES ME AT EASE ANYMORE. ALL MY ESCAPES ARE GONE. I'm gonna try to go on meds but I can't fucking do this anymore. The constant anxiety, loneliness. I wish I could feel sad. I wish it. S...
jumpingtape
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2020-01-01 00:43:33
depression
<es>Before I could deal with this depression and mood swings by distracting myself and listening to depressing music.<ee> <efs>NOTHING FUCKING MAKES ME AT EASE ANYMORE.<efe> <es>ALL MY ESCAPES ARE GONE.<ee> <efs>I'm gonna try to go on meds but I can't fucking do this anymore.<efe> <efs>The constant anxiety, lonelines...
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ekndla
Flashbacks to the over whelming sense helplessness and scary amount of shame
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rant
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I was ten. Sitting on the air mattress. They had already shut the door and had a scary look on. When you’re a kid you don’t know what that look means but you somehow instinctively know it’s not good. It’s really really not good and it’s terrifying. They stood over me and started grinding on me. I got them off. They jus...
Kay1999
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2020-01-06 02:31:58
rapecounseling
<es>Flashbacks to the over whelming sense helplessness and scary amount of shame<ee> <es>I was ten.<ee> <es>Sitting on the air mattress.<ee> <es>They had already shut the door and had a scary look on.<ee> <es>When you’re a kid you don’t know what that look means but you somehow instinctively know it’s not good.<ee> <es...
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you are having flashbacks about the incident
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epf27c
Anyone else bothered by this?
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survey
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Idk if this sounds dumb, but i live with my best friend and her bf is over a lot. To preface I was raped while i was passed out about 6 months ago and am still dealing with it. I love my best friend so much and her bf is nice, but i feel so anxious when i hear them having loud sex. It makes my chest feel tight and i ge...
ignoreignore69696969
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2020-01-16 05:42:42
rapecounseling
<es>Idk if this sounds dumb, but i live with my best friend and her bf is over a lot.<ee> <es>To preface I was raped while i was passed out about 6 months ago and am still dealing with it.<ee> <es>I love my best friend so much and her bf is nice, but i feel so anxious when i hear them having loud sex.<ee> <efs>It makes...
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f27ij6
Intimacy
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help-seeking
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My husband is abusive. It escalated to breaking my nose last month. I can't leave because I'm bipolar, and last time I tried he won custody due to my mental illness. He continues to be intimate with me, and I can't help but turn my brain off and just try to breathe to get through it. I don't know how to handle it. I fe...
InTheBackoftheCivic
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0
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2020-02-11 12:15:27
domesticviolence
<es>My husband is abusive.<ee> <es>It escalated to breaking my nose last month.<ee> <es>I can't leave because I'm bipolar, and last time I tried he won custody due to my mental illness.<ee> <es>He continues to be intimate with me, and I can't help but turn my brain off and just try to breathe to get through it.<ee> <es...
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eitxnk
Anybody else knows how to cope with rejection on dating apps like Grindr or general ones?
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rant
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As a gay guy, dating can be pretty rough because there are so many standards in the gay community that I'm just not on par with - which is fine because I'll never change for anyone. The downside is that it's harder for me sometimes, but the rejection consumes me completely. And I'll go through months where I forget abo...
bl1293
1
0
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2020-01-02 05:26:20
BPD
<es>As a gay guy, dating can be pretty rough because there are so many standards in the gay community that I'm just not on par with - which is fine because I'll never change for anyone.<ee> <es>The downside is that it's harder for me sometimes, but the rejection consumes me completely.<ee> <efs>And I'll go through mont...
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ekz417
When to step away
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rant
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I (34) broke up with my boyfriend (36) for various reasons, one huge one being his personality that borders covert narcissism, but it's coupled with addiction. Typical, I held onto who I met- a person with much more enthusiasm for life. We did things. He took me to places I haven't seen and I did things I've never d...
TheDandyCats
1
0
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2020-01-06 19:43:38
addiction
<es>I (34) broke up with my boyfriend (36) for various reasons, one huge one being his personality that borders covert narcissism, but it's coupled with addiction.<ee> Typical, I held onto who I met- a person with much more enthusiasm for life. We did things. He took me to places I haven't seen and I did things I've...
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how you feel about your boyfriend's situation
Can you elaborate more on X ?
what would help your boyfriend fight addiction
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eyg1jp
https://www.gofundme.com/f/1vw9wup4g0?utm_medium=copy_link&amp;utm_source=customer&amp;utm_campaign=p_na+share-sheet&amp;rcid=c200763653db418db0d3d4085f519e26
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chitchat
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lynnlawr
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2020-02-03 23:16:49
domesticviolence
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ej5bsg
How to stop self harming because of video game rage?
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help-seeking
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So, I always self harm when I'm mad, but when I rage because of games, my SH is always worse. I usually play PUBG Mobile, and whenever I lose, I get so mad I SH or throw my phone. I had to repair the screen of my phone once because I got so angry I threw it straight into the wall, luckily only the screen broke. But whe...
dohukkurdi98
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0
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2020-01-02 22:18:06
selfharm
<es>So, I always self harm when I'm mad, but when I rage because of games, my SH is always worse.<ee> <es>I usually play PUBG Mobile, and whenever I lose, I get so mad I SH or throw my phone.<ee> <es>I had to repair the screen of my phone once because I got so angry I threw it straight into the wall, luckily only the s...
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losing in online games
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ej1r7v
Asked to talk with a coworker’s child, who also has ADHD. What advice would you give your younger self?
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survey
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TL;DR: Coworker (very respectfully!) asked me to chat with her daughter about organizational and social strategies and general ADHD advice. What would you have loved to hear as a 8-10 year old with ADHD? Hi Everyone! I am relatively open about my ADHD diagnosis, and as I am a teacher, I do think it is important for...
Tomyoldbrownearth
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0
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2020-01-02 18:09:42
ADHD
<es>TL;DR: Coworker (very respectfully!) asked me to chat with her daughter about organizational and social strategies and general ADHD advice.<ee> <rs>What would you have loved to hear as a 8-10 year old with ADHD? <re> Hi Everyone! <es>I am relatively open about my ADHD diagnosis, and as I am a teacher, I do think...
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f55gn3
I have a long list of examples that explain why my ex best friend emotionally abused me and I’m just wondering if anyone else had been abused by a friend so I don’t have to post the long list to feel justified
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survey
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HelpMeIveBeenAbused
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2020-02-17 07:58:18
domesticviolence
<es>I have a long list of examples that explain why my ex best friend emotionally abused me.<ee> <rs>I’m just wondering if anyone else had been abused by a friend so I don’t have to post the long list to feel justified<re> nan
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Can you elaborate more on X ?
why you think your best friend abused you
How did X make you feel?
being emotionally abused by your friend
Can you elaborate more on X ?
what would help deal with the emotional abuse
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eiahyt
I'm happy to announce that I didn't yeet since the last decade
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chitchat
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I'm going to get downvoted to hell
kpr9
1
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2019-12-31 23:19:48
selfharm
I'm going to get downvoted to hell
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enjv2c
techniques for nightmares¿
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help-seeking
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What techniques have you found most helpful for nightmares? My nightmares have been debilitating for over a year now, and I’m wondering if anyone has experimented with lucid dreaming and/or other methods for avoiding nightmares
healingisntbinary
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0
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2020-01-12 06:06:38
ptsd
<rs>What techniques have you found most helpful for nightmares?<re> <es>My nightmares have been debilitating for over a year now.<ee> <rs>I’m wondering if anyone has experimented with lucid dreaming and/or other methods for avoiding nightmares<re>
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what caused the nightmares
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the nightmares
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epi0gg
Weekly Off Topic Chat - January 16, 2020
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This is a place for off topic discussion of whatever is going on in your life. Rules regarding civility still apply.
AutoModerator
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2020-01-16 11:17:23
mentalillness
This is a place for off topic discussion of whatever is going on in your life. Rules regarding civility still apply.
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ei8fr3
How do you cope with being alone on NYE?
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help-seeking
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So last year, my friends and I had a small get together, and it was real nice. This year, due to people traveling and other people wanting to spend it alone with their partners, I’m alone on nye. In all honesty, I’d actually prefer just staying in and drinking wine in the bath, but I’m the back of my mind, I feel lonel...
apatheticdude44
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0
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2019-12-31 20:34:25
getting_over_it
<es>So last year, my friends and I had a small get together, and it was real nice.<ee> <es>This year, due to people traveling and other people wanting to spend it alone with their partners, I’m alone on nye.<ee> <efs>In all honesty, I’d actually prefer just staying in and drinking wine in the bath, but I’m the back of ...
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ej1nz9
Core of self
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chitchat
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How do you get to the core of yourself to discover who you truly are and what you truly want?
ellanaponders
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2020-01-02 18:03:26
selfhelp
<rs>How do you get to the core of yourself to discover who you truly are and what you truly want?<re>
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to discover your true self
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emtsr3
Am I going mad?
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help-seeking
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Am I going mad? My mental health has never been perfect, I have a few problems (Bipolar 1, Anxiety) But it’s definitely not the worst. This past month however, my mental health as a whole has taken an absolute pitfall. I started out super depressed and suicidal, and then for 2 weeks I went into a mixed manic episode t...
Throwaway135969
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0
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2020-01-10 17:03:24
mentalillness
Am I going mad? <es>My mental health has never been perfect, I have a few problems (Bipolar 1, Anxiety) But it’s definitely not the worst.<ee> <es>This past month however, my mental health as a whole has taken an absolute pitfall.<ee> <es>I started out super depressed and suicidal, and then for 2 weeks I went into a m...
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the suicidal thoughts
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your mental health has worsened
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exwuvy
Unhealthy or healthy anger
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chitchat
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Isn't anger supposed to be our drive force, determination, inner strength, that is what I believe. It is meant to self empower guide us and to stand our ground. But if it is not used to help ourselves grow then it might be called negative or destructive?
Mystical-Prince
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2020-02-02 22:49:46
Anger
Isn't anger supposed to be our drive force, determination, inner strength, that is what I believe. It is meant to self empower guide us and to stand our ground. But if it is not used to help ourselves grow then it might be called negative or destructive?
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em14jd
6 months clean
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Never thought I’d be here !! 6 months H free, fuck yes !
BBaBiii
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2020-01-08 23:47:08
OpiatesRecovery
Never thought I’d be here !! 6 months H free, fuck yes !
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ejjkow
My girlfriend [22F] of almost 4 years punched and kicked me [23M]
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help-seeking
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Ah man how do I even start.. I guess from the start. My girlfriend and I live together and have so for 2 years. Last month I made a horrible mistake when I went out of town. I visited a friend \[24F\], that I was fooling around with many years ago.Lets call her B. We have stayed friends since then and is for sure my be...
Wild-Isopod
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2020-01-03 18:37:05
domesticviolence
Ah man how do I even start.. I guess from the start. <es>My girlfriend and I live together and have so for 2 years.<ee> <es>Last month I made a horrible mistake when I went out of town.<ee> <es>I visited a friend \[24F\], that I was fooling around with many years ago.<ee><es>Lets call her B.<ee> <es>We have stayed frie...
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emlxzu
Anger is making me a fascist
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help-seeking
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Background:Im in the middle of a really shitty home situation. My dads an alcoholic prick, and is in a brutal divorce with my mom. I have really horrible anger issues and i can't really go to a therapist. Recently i had a bit,of an episode, when someone brought up the topic of alchohol, I went on a crazy fucking nazi...
plata-prostitute
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2020-01-10 04:38:03
Anger
Background:Im in the middle of a really shitty home situation. My dads an alcoholic prick, and is in a brutal divorce with my mom. <es>I have really horrible anger issues and i can't really go to a therapist.<ee> <es>Recently i had a bit,of an episode, when someone brought up the topic of alchohol, I went on a crazy ...
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why you are pissed all the time
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what would help you feel better
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eot5qf
mindset
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rant
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somebody made a joke about oxys earlier and now all I can think about is oxys every once in a while I get into this mindset where I keep thinking back about drugs and I’m fucking miserable shit sucks
DPHSombreroMan
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2020-01-14 22:59:31
addiction
<es>somebody made a joke about oxys earlier and now all I can think about is oxys<ee> <es>every once in a while I get into this mindset where I keep thinking back about drugs and I’m fucking miserable<ee> shit sucks
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thinking about drugs
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you can't stop thinking about drugs
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el3wit
01:23:00
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rant
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I woke up, stared at the ceiling and cried because I have to go through another day of saying, "I'm okay." when really, I'm fucking not.
amyells
1
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2020-01-07 01:23:16
sad
<es>I woke up, stared at the ceiling and cried because I have to go through another day of saying, "I'm okay." when really, I'm fucking not.<ee>
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why you were not fine
How did X make you feel?
pretending to be fine
What do you need help with now that X?
you didn't feel ok
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eibtkj
Last year was the worst
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I have been struggling with a divorce, not seeing my kids, house got foreclosed on on top of a huge pile of debt, and I'm in this hole that I cant seem to get out of. A few months back I almost shot myself, luckily my dog was there to comfort me. I drink myself to sleep almost every night now even though I tell myself...
beanstalk1323
1
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2020-01-01 01:06:38
depression
I have been struggling with a divorce, not seeing my kids, house got foreclosed on on top of a huge pile of debt, and I'm in this hole that I cant seem to get out of. A few months back I almost shot myself, luckily my dog was there to comfort me. I drink myself to sleep almost every night now even though I tell myself...
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f492oi
I'm 27 and have NEVER been angry in front of people. Is there help for learning how to release anger?
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help-seeking
1
I grew up in a severely abusive home and it wasn't safe for me to express anger. As such, I never learned to express it and especially talk back. I've been in recovery for 5 years now, but for the past 2 years I'm ALWAYS angry when I'm alone and it's scary. I'm just now learning that what I'm feeling is anger. All the...
mamaduck2099
1
0
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2020-02-15 12:57:38
Anger
I grew up in a severely abusive home and it wasn't safe for me to express anger. As such, I never learned to express it and especially talk back. I've been in recovery for 5 years now, but for the past 2 years I'm ALWAYS angry when I'm alone and it's scary. I'm just now learning that what I'm feeling is anger. All the...
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Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
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How did X make you feel?
all the anger
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enbzag
It’s not me, it’s the world
1c
rant
1
Despite a lot of shit happening in my life, I remained overall happy and optimistic. Recently, something absolutely horrible has happened to me and it just seems like the cherry on top of everything. The world just loves to play games with me and I’m sick of it. I don’t have depression, I don’t know how anyone is suppo...
throwawaycandy69420
1
0
0
2020-01-11 19:32:26
Anger
Despite a lot of shit happening in my life, I remained overall happy and optimistic. <es>Recently, something absolutely horrible has happened to me and it just seems like the cherry on top of everything.<ee> <efs>The world just loves to play games with me and I’m sick of it.<efe> <es>I don’t have depression, I don’t kn...
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Can you elaborate more on X ?
the horrible thing that happened
Can you elaborate more on X ?
how you feel about the world
What do you need help with now that X?
sick of the problems
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f307p7
Keep thinking about something my father said and it affects my wellbeing
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help-seeking
2
First of all, I(23F) think that everything that hurts us is valid even if for some people it seems to not be a big deal. About 1 or 2 years ago, my father told me that boys prefer blonde girls. I wanted to explain to him that everyone had preferences but he replied that boys really prefer blondes that's why all the gi...
Dariannaway
1
0
1
2020-02-12 23:22:07
getting_over_it
First of all, I(23F) think that everything that hurts us is valid even if for some people it seems to not be a big deal. <es>About 1 or 2 years ago, my father told me that boys prefer blonde girls.<ee> <es>I wanted to explain to him that everyone had preferences but he replied that boys really prefer blondes that's wh...
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ejgccd
Surviving productivity and performance anxiety with BPD in late stage capitalism
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rant
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It's been ages since I've posted here, and I guess I need to vent a little bit. I've grown, a lot. I see how I've found many things about myself and BPD. I haven't acted within a rage episode in ages and have managed to not be reactive towards my own feelings. Meditation and exercise have come a long way of helping m...
princess420blaze
2
0
2
2020-01-03 14:48:13
BPD
<rs>It's been ages since I've posted here, and I guess I need to vent a little bit. <re> <es>I've grown, a lot.<ee> <es>I see how I've found many things about myself and BPD.<ee> <es>I haven't acted within a rage episode in ages and have managed to not be reactive towards my own feelings.<ee> <es>Meditation and exerci...
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you feel your job is irrelevant
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em1v1x
other teenage/young adult redditors with PTSD, and see the person that traumatized you during school, how do you cope? and how do you focus and get things done in school?
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survey
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kyle61603
1
0
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2020-01-09 00:42:27
ptsd
<rs>other teenage/young adult redditors with PTSD, and see the person that traumatized you during school, how do you cope?<re> <rs>and how do you focus and get things done in school?<re> nan
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What happened that you want X ?
you want to cope with PTSD
Why are you wanting X ?
advice on how to focus in school
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el8d89
Feeling jumpy out of nowhere?
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help-seeking
1
I was feeling really on edge yesterday and I dont see why, as nothing really happened, nor the day before, thatvmay have caused this. I dont know if this is ptsd but I know its not 'just me' as it clearly stood out from my usual behavior. Also, any tips to feel less like that would be appreciated!
Just_a_Lurker2
1
0
2
2020-01-07 07:39:03
ptsd
<efs>I was feeling really on edge yesterday and I dont see why, as nothing really happened, nor the day before, thatvmay have caused this.<efe> <es>I dont know if this is ptsd but I know its not 'just me' as it clearly stood out from my usual behavior.<ee> <rs>Also, any tips to feel less like that would be appreciated!...
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your PTSD
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f05g5z
No hope. Exhausted.
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rant
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I skipped clinic. Haven't eaten today. Didn't shower. No energy. No friends. No family. No hobbies. No goals. No job. Meds don't work. I've been trying so hard for so long. It can't get better anymore. If it could, it would have already. Whenever my therapist asks if I have a plan for suicide, I lie. I h...
Accipiter_
1
0
11
2020-02-07 04:45:45
getting_over_it
<es>I skipped clinic.<ee> <es>Haven't eaten today.<ee> <es>Didn't shower. <ee> <es>No energy. <ee> <es>No friends.<ee> <es>No family.<ee> <es>No hobbies.<ee> <es>No goals.<ee> <es>No job.<ee> <es>Meds don't work. <ee> <es>I've been trying so hard for so long.<ee> <es>It can't get better anymore.<ee> If it could, ...
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Can you elaborate more on X ?
what made you skip clinic
How did X make you feel?
the medicines
What do you need help with now that X?
the medicines are not working
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evukk8
I left. How do my children and I heal?
1b
help-seeking
1
I (25F) left my partner (25M) of 5 years. During these years he was emotionally and physically abusive. I’ve been choked, slapped, dragged, threatened with a knife, and terrified of setting him off. I went through years of trying to “better” the situation, help him; try to fix our family. Until I realized that I cannot...
Sweetlikehoneyyy
1
0
1
2020-01-29 22:29:50
domesticviolence
<es>I (25F) left my partner (25M) of 5 years.<ee> <es>During these years he was emotionally and physically abusive.<ee> <es>I’ve been choked, slapped, dragged, threatened with a knife, and terrified of setting him off.<ee> <es>I went through years of trying to “better” the situation, help him; try to fix our family.<ee...
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how you feel after leaving him
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ej8qz9
Just wanting to vent, comment if you want 🤷🏻‍♀️
1a
help-seeking
2
*i apologize for how all over the place this is in advance * A few years ago I met a guy when I was raving, I was apart of the underground rave scene for years.. doing illicit drugs (mostly molly) which I fell in love with. I went on a bad streak for about 4 months where I was doing it 2-3 times a week at heavy doses. ...
kaylaabearrrr
1
0
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2020-01-03 02:32:44
mentalillness
*i apologize for how all over the place this is in advance * <es>A few years ago I met a guy when I was raving, I was apart of the underground rave scene for years.. doing illicit drugs (mostly molly) which I fell in love with.<ee> <es>I went on a bad streak for about 4 months where I was doing it 2-3 times a week at h...
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Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
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eibelf
I need help
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help-seeking
2
How can i start loving myself? How can improve all of the things i do?
Substantial-State
1
0
2
2020-01-01 00:31:51
depression
<rs>I need help<re> <rs>How can i start loving myself?<re> <rs>How can improve all of the things i do?<re>
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What happened that you want X ?
to improve all the things that you do
Why are you wanting X ?
to improve all the things that you do
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f6f5dd
Is there anyway I can get a protective order extended longer?
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help-seeking
1
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throwawayhelppllz
1
0
1
2020-02-19 18:39:59
domesticviolence
<rs>Is there anyway I can get a protective order extended longer?<re> nan
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What happened that you want X ?
extend your protective order
Why are you wanting X ?
to extend your protective order
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ej51r1
BPD moment..
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rant
2
So today I had to learn parallel parking with my dad. Literally after the FIRST try I started crying cause I couldn’t do it right. I consciously know that obviously it’s my first try and it’s normal to not get it right, same goes with everything else in life. The idea of failing and not being able to do it triggered ...
avakazoo
3
0
6
2020-01-02 21:58:50
BPD
<es>So today I had to learn parallel parking with my dad.<ee> <es>Literally after the FIRST try I started crying cause I couldn’t do it right.<ee> <es>I consciously know that obviously it’s my first try and it’s normal to not get it right, same goes with everything else in life. <ee> <es>The idea of failing and not be...
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you get angry when you aren't able to get something in the first try
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eszxmo
Does anyone have any idea if these things could mean something? Like a illness or personality thing?
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help-seeking
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Imma start with this is a random account I made because I don’t want people knowing this about me, but I have some problems with these things and I was wondering if anyone had an idea on what it was. I’ve been struggling a lot with emotions lately, I’ll be in states of happy to sad constantly it gets to points where I ...
throwaway878790
1
0
6
2020-01-23 21:39:28
selfhelp
<rs>Does anyone have any idea if these things could mean something?<re> <rs>Like a illness or personality thing?<re> <rs>Imma start with this is a random account I made because I don’t want people knowing this about me, but I have some problems with these things and I was wondering if anyone had an idea on what it was....
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ei9uc2
Do you ever get over your EXs?
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survey
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i feel like ill never get over mine honestly
brotonius
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0
14
2019-12-31 22:26:56
BPD
<es>Do you ever get over your EXs?<ee> <efs>i feel like ill never get over mine honestly<efe>
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Can you elaborate more on X ?
why you are unable to get over your exes
Can you elaborate more on X ?
how you feel about your ex
What do you need help with now that X?
you are unable to get over your ex
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eshsgr
backlash
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rant
1
a real, true to form backlash. currently overreacting greatly over something that should be unimportant. its been a stressful week and ive missed my meds a couple times, managed to withdraw from the issue and am now trying to calm down. i wrote a song about this once and the lyrics almost feel like self sabotage at th...
dasfeueristschuld
1
0
3
2020-01-22 20:37:46
Anger
a real, true to form backlash. <es>currently overreacting greatly over something that should be unimportant.<ee> <es>its been a stressful week and ive missed my meds a couple times, managed to withdraw from the issue and am now trying to calm down.<ee> <efs>i wrote a song about this once and the lyrics almost feel lik...
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Can you elaborate more on X ?
what caused the stress
Can you elaborate more on X ?
how you feel
What do you need help with now that X?
you feel so stressed
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emq2i7
I don’t know if this is the right place to post this.
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help-seeking
2
I[31M] dated my ex [28F] for almost 5 years. We lived together for about 3 years of that time. She ended things with me in February due to my drinking and behavior. We briefly tried to reconcile in the summer but it didn’t work out. I have two children from a previous marriage, [9F] and [13M]. I have joint custody(1 ...
CEV789
1
0
3
2020-01-10 12:04:52
ptsd
<es>I[31M] dated my ex [28F] for almost 5 years.<ee> <es>We lived together for about 3 years of that time.<ee> <es>She ended things with me in February due to my drinking and behavior.<ee> <es>We briefly tried to reconcile in the summer but it didn’t work out.<ee> <es>I have two children from a previous marriage, [9F...
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How did X make you feel?
your PTSD
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em85ym
Truly blessed to have such a strong sponsorship family.
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chitchat
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Hey im BlazeLE, im an alcoholic. So i just woke up about 7 minutes ago and im waking up thankful which is very new to me. Ive been in and out if the rooms since april or early may and i just came back on 1/2/20. Thats the day i finally surrendered to the program and my higher power. I refused to give in and take the ...
BlazeLE
1
0
3
2020-01-09 11:04:25
alcoholicsanonymous
Hey im BlazeLE, im an alcoholic. So i just woke up about 7 minutes ago and im waking up thankful which is very new to me. Ive been in and out if the rooms since april or early may and i just came back on 1/2/20. Thats the day i finally surrendered to the program and my higher power. I refused to give in and take the ...
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Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
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ei9vct
Killing my dad.
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help-seeking
1
I'm in the highway, my dad is driving, he is mad, really mad. He has done this before, but before it was just me, he is treating to kill us, I don't know what to do, I don't want to die like this, I don't want to die by his fucking hands, I'll rather a painful illness that him taking my life, he doesn't deserve my life...
lunaticanuto
1
0
11
2019-12-31 22:29:09
mentalillness
<es>I'm in the highway, my dad is driving, he is mad, really mad.<ee> <es><efs>He has done this before, but before it was just me, he is treating to kill us, I don't know what to do, I don't want to die like this, I don't want to die by his fucking hands, I'll rather a painful illness that him taking my life, he doesn'...
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Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
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ekd38b
severe anxiety around work colleagues
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rant
2
I have a general social anxiety but it's FAR worse at work. This crippling fear of colleagues having negative feelings towards me. And they do. Currently dealing with someone at work who hates my guts and finds fault in literally everything I do even though she herself sucks balls at her job. I hate her just as much b...
bendido
2
0
2
2020-01-05 13:36:42
socialanxiety
<es>I have a general social anxiety but it's FAR worse at work.<ee> <es>This crippling fear of colleagues having negative feelings towards me.<ee> <es>And they do.<ee> <es>Currently dealing with someone at work who hates my guts and finds fault in literally everything I do even though she herself sucks balls at her jo...
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Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
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What do you need help with now that X?
you feel more anxious at work
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eibtfg
I’m in another country, working far away from home.
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rant
1
My Christmas and NYE have been quite lonely because all my mates from home here have gone home for the holidays. I had a bf from here who I love but I got dumped a few days before Christmas so I’ve just been stuck in my kindle for the last 2 weeks. Relapsed into SH again. I am absolutely f-ing miserable and idk h...
thunderp00ps
1
0
1
2020-01-01 01:06:21
BPD
<es>My Christmas and NYE have been quite lonely because all my mates from home here have gone home for the holidays. <ee> <es>I had a bf from here who I love but I got dumped a few days before Christmas so I’ve just been stuck in my kindle for the last 2 weeks. <ee> <es>Relapsed into SH again. <ee> <efs>I am absolut...
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What do you need help with now that X?
your boyfriend broke up before Christmas
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eip2ci
Anyone else have a difficult time relaxing without the use of drugs?
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help-seeking
1
My entire life i've been super highstrung and stressed out because of the disorder and also high expectations and etc. I have a very difficult time just relaxing and doing something I enjoy without feeling guilty and less I use drugs. Any tips?
KingoftheFools
1
0
1
2020-01-01 22:46:49
ADHD
<es>Anyone else have a difficult time relaxing without the use of drugs?<ee> <es>My entire life i've been super highstrung and stressed out because of the disorder and also high expectations and etc. <ee> <es>I have a very difficult time just relaxing and doing something I enjoy without feeling guilty and less I use d...
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How did X make you feel?
not taking the drugs
Can you elaborate more on X ?
what help you feel better without the drugs
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f2a4if
This is FUCKING UP my life...
1b
rant
2
Hello everyone, I have never done this. Post this on the internet... never crossed my mind cause of the consequences. But today is not a good day for me. I woke up non stop thinking about this man and what he did to me. It was a long time ago, more than five years ago and it fucks me up so much that still today it feel...
kittykc04
1
0
15
2020-02-11 15:46:40
rapecounseling
Hello everyone, I have never done this. <es>Post this on the internet... never crossed my mind cause of the consequences.<ee> <es>But today is not a good day for me.<ee> <es>I woke up non stop thinking about this man and what he did to me.<ee> <es>It was a long time ago, more than five years ago and it fucks me up so m...
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what would help you feel normal again
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eo9ybb
I messed up again...
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help-seeking
1
Last night, I disagreed with my husband about a rule in a game. Whenever I tried to explain it, he said that's not how language works. Then he told me to define the word "choose." I felt stupid. So I lashed out and said "well if you're too dumb to understand what I'm saying it's not my problem." This is pretty much my...
amberdowny
1
0
7
2020-01-13 20:40:17
Anger
<es>Last night, I disagreed with my husband about a rule in a game.<ee> <es>Whenever I tried to explain it, he said that's not how language works.<ee> <es>Then he told me to define the word "choose."<ee> <efs>I felt stupid.<efe> <es>So I lashed out and said "well if you're too dumb to understand what I'm saying it's no...
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Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
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What do you need help with now that X?
your husband was hurt by your words
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eo17al
Hard to get too meetings
1c
help-seeking
1
I recently moved to my parents, it's in a smaller town kind of boonies. I fond it hard to get to AA meetings and they're not enough. I've been relapsing and not able to hold more theb 3 days clean time. Any advice?
dinizhok
1
0
7
2020-01-13 07:59:23
alcoholicsanonymous
<es>I recently moved to my parents, it's in a smaller town kind of boonies.<ee> <es>I fond it hard to get to AA meetings and they're not enough.<ee> <es>I've been relapsing and not able to hold more theb 3 days clean time.<ee> <rs> Any advice?<re>
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How did X make you feel?
relapse
Can you elaborate more on X ?
what would help you stay clean
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ejcefj
I’m addicted to masturbation
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help-seeking
1
Hi umm, I’m 15 years old and, I just can’t stop, I normally do it about twice a day, even thrice a day, it’s fucking me up, I have been doing this for years, I don’t know how to stop, it’s just so difficult not to do it
DerEisendrache68
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2020-01-03 08:00:09
addiction
<es>I’m addicted to masturbation<ee> <es>Hi umm, I’m 15 years old and, I just can’t stop,<ee> <es>I normally do it about twice a day,<ee> <es>even thrice a day,<ee> <efs>it’s fucking me up,<efe> <es>I have been doing this for years, I don’t know how to stop,<ee> it’s just so difficult not to do it
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how masturbation is affecting you
What do you need help with now that X?
you are unable to control you masturbation
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elnk63
Does anyone sometimes wish they had a more tangible disorder to overcome (like addiction)?
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survey
1
It seems that people are much more understanding of an addiction like drugs or alcohol (maybe because it can be measured) than simply depression which most people think it’s your own fault and can just be thought away.
throwawaylife58924
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0
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2020-01-08 04:20:12
getting_over_it
It seems that people are much more understanding of an addiction like drugs or alcohol (maybe because it can be measured) than simply depression which most people think it’s your own fault and can just be thought away.
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f658vs
At dusk
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rant
1
I can't stop losing my cool. I will be fine just relaxed, happy even, I will have all good intentions for the evening but then bam. As soon as anyone enters my bubble my mind goes red as well as my ears. I can't think straight and can barley speak. I have been this way even since I can remeber. It's like I'm watching ...
vibewitmecheeze
1
0
5
2020-02-19 04:25:34
Anger
<es>I can't stop losing my cool.<ee> I will be fine just relaxed, happy even, I will have all good intentions for the evening but then bam. <es>As soon as anyone enters my bubble my mind goes red as well as my ears.<ee> <es>I can't think straight and can barley speak.<ee> <es>I have been this way even since I can reme...
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Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
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you are unable to control your anger
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ejfddk
The difference it can make when you feel supported and understood by those around you
1b
chitchat
2
So let me preface this with saying that part of my social anxiety extends to me not being comfortable with being touched unless it's by my SO or very close friends. This post is meant to compare two similar situations and how the people around me reacted. The first instance being a new year's party I went to with my ...
Phantomsgf
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2020-01-03 13:25:32
socialanxiety
So let me preface this with saying that part of my social anxiety extends to me not being comfortable with being touched unless it's by my SO or very close friends. This post is meant to compare two similar situations and how the people around me reacted. The first instance being a new year's party I went to with my ...
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Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
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eku2il
I kinda give up on it all lol. I’m fucking sad today.
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rant
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comfythug
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2020-01-06 13:20:55
sad
<es>I kinda give up on it all lol.<ee> <efs>I’m fucking sad today.<efe> nan
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what did you give up on
Can you elaborate more on X ?
how did giving up make you feel
What do you need help with now that X?
you are feeling sad after giving up
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fqltrg
IWTL How to accept something, instead of just shuffling blame around
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help-seeking
1
It's been 2 years since a bad breakup, and I still haven't dealt with it appropriately. Instead, I alternate between 3 states: - Punishing and isolating myself terribly until someone says I need to forgive myself to move on - Blaming and hating my ex until I remember she was just a normal, loving partner with her own...
foxes300
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2020-03-28 15:05:37
getting_over_it
<es>It's been 2 years since a bad breakup, and I still haven't dealt with it appropriately.<ee> <efs>Instead, I alternate between 3 states:<efe> <efs>- Punishing and isolating myself terribly until someone says I need to forgive myself to move on<efe> <efs>- Blaming and hating my ex until I remember she was just a no...
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ekntxu
Cocaine and Anorexia
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help-seeking
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Hi there, I've been dealing with a cocaine addiction for almost a year now, and in that time frame I became anorexic. I would be able to go a few days with using coke, feel fine, but then I would begin eating. I would look at my body and feel disgusted that I was bloated or feeling pudgy. I would then start using again...
Petemgkgeazy
1
0
7
2020-01-06 03:07:43
addiction
<es>Hi there, I've been dealing with a cocaine addiction for almost a year now, and in that time frame I became anorexic.<ee> <efs>I would be able to go a few days with using coke, feel fine, but then I would begin eating.<efe> <efs>I would look at my body and feel disgusted that I was bloated or feeling pudgy.<efe> <e...
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Can you elaborate more on X ?
how you got addicted to cocaine
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f8p15z
My anger is fleeting. How do I make my rage last longer?
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I think anger is a very useful emotion because it empowers you to fight for your rights. When you are angry other problems like insecurities, anxiety, depression etc are all gone. Sometimes I get angry at the way I have been treated and become angry, but the rage is so fleeting. I can only make it last a couple minutes...
bigbeatbox950
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2020-02-24 09:52:10
Anger
I think anger is a very useful emotion because it empowers you to fight for your rights. When you are angry other problems like insecurities, anxiety, depression etc are all gone. <es>Sometimes I get angry at the way I have been treated and become angry, but the rage is so fleeting.<ee> <es>I can only make it last a co...
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Can you elaborate more on X ?
what makes you angry
Why are you wanting X ?
to increase your anger levels
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eigeqi
I don't want to be alone.
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I don't want to be alone yet here I am alone again. I know I have good people in my life and that I am truly not alone but I sit here in my bed on new year's and I am alone. I was alone yesterday and the day prior and so forth and so on. I am at a lost of what to do with my life anymore. I've ruined every good thing ...
blackbear2044
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0
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2020-01-01 09:06:43
BPD
<es>I don't want to be alone yet here I am alone again.<ee> <es>I know I have good people in my life and that I am truly not alone but I sit here in my bed on new year's and I am alone.<ee> <es>I was alone yesterday and the day prior and so forth and so on. <ee> <es>I am at a lost of what to do with my life anymore.<e...
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ev1ghk
Self help is (to me) figuring out your love languages and using it to show others you care. I brought my mum and sister flowers because were having a hard time. Mine are acts of service, gift giving and sending stuff that made me think of them.
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day-by-day-baby
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2020-01-28 05:54:40
selfhelp
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eibwbf
Sorry
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Just turned 2020 and all I can think of is how I don't want to be alive anymore
freyamillie
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2020-01-01 01:13:16
sad
<efs>Just turned 2020 and all I can think of is how I don't want to be alive anymore<efe>
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What made you feel X ?
not wanting to live anymore
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how you are feeling
What can help you overcome X ?
this feeling of not wanting to live
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ftxcvx
Miss my friend
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I quickly became very close friends with someone. I lost that friendship due to my constant persistence in trying to talk and work on things, like I wouldn't leave them alone and I was obsessive. It only pressured them. I've been told I did it to make myself feel better. They want me to move on, my friends want me...
TempdotName
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2020-04-02 23:46:33
getting_over_it
<es>I quickly became very close friends with someone.<ee> <es>I lost that friendship due to my constant persistence in trying to talk and work on things, like I wouldn't leave them alone and I was obsessive.<ee> <es>It only pressured them.<ee> <es>I've been told I did it to make myself feel better.<ee> <es>They wan...
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eyobuj
Thought I'd write out everything and see if that makes me feel any better
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I'm (15m) and my whole life I got very very angry but I was very good at controlling it. First example I could feel the anger building up but I kept it inside. Never talked to therapists and cant for reasons. Didnt have the best family life and I dont know whether it's just because being a teen and getting more testost...
EpsteinOfficial
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2020-02-04 10:50:36
Anger
<es>I'm (15m) and my whole life I got very very angry but I was very good at controlling it.<ee> <es>First example I could feel the anger building up but I kept it inside.<ee> <es>Never talked to therapists and cant for reasons.<ee> <es>Didnt have the best family life and I dont know whether it's just because being a t...
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How did X make you feel?
the anger outbursts
What do you need help with now that X?
you can no longer control your anger
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ei84r4
Seeing everyone on social media reflect on their 2019 is a bummer.
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I look back at mine and think "Hmm, well...looks like a whole lotta nothing". =/ Here's hoping 2020 is better for you all in some way.
TotallyNotNSFWAlt
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2019-12-31 20:10:54
depression
I look back at mine and think "Hmm, well...looks like a whole lotta nothing". =/ Here's hoping 2020 is better for you all in some way.
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ekqrwt
Anyone can relate to this, mostly who are empty inside
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survey
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WildDJ23
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2020-01-06 07:37:16
sad
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er4joi
Embrace nature to help you gain peace of mind
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chitchat
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eljoseph7860
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2020-01-19 23:47:43
selfhelp
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emy96v
Inability to communicate anger...seeking advice.
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I am constantly pissed off. The world we live in sucks and I am too poor of a communicator to discuss my views without coming off as disrespectful or offensive. Same goes for my social and familial life. I know that there are positive aspects of life but I find them so hard to address. I feel like my mind is preoccupie...
stagert7
1
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2020-01-10 22:22:15
Anger
<efs>I am constantly pissed off.<efe> <es>The world we live in sucks and I am too poor of a communicator to discuss my views without coming off as disrespectful or offensive.<ee> <es>Same goes for my social and familial life.<ee> <es>I know that there are positive aspects of life but I find them so hard to address.<ee>...
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eioz40
Two months clean :)
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I don't really feel proud of myself but I think that it's an accomplishment of some sort. I don't feel great and there are definitely a lot of weeks with more bad days than goods ones, but it is getting a little better, or at least I think it is. We all just have to take baby steps and hope for a better future :)
WHunting17
1
0
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2020-01-01 22:39:45
selfharm
Two months clean :) I don't really feel proud of myself but I think that it's an accomplishment of some sort. I don't feel great and there are definitely a lot of weeks with more bad days than goods ones, but it is getting a little better, or at least I think it is. We all just have to take baby steps and hope for a be...
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ei8zha
A destroyed good mood
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rant
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We actually had plans, but they were cancelled last minute. Now we spend nye like the rest of our holidays - him playing gta 5 and me either playing sims or being on social media. I’m sad, I know tonight I will once again cry myself to sleep bc I feel isolated, bc I feel like a mistake for not learning, for having a a...
elsusestus
1
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2019-12-31 21:17:34
depression
<es>We actually had plans, but they were cancelled last minute.<ee> <es>Now we spend nye like the rest of our holidays - him playing gta 5 and me either playing sims or being on social media.<ee> <efs>I’m sad, I know tonight I will once again cry myself to sleep bc I feel isolated, bc I feel like a mistake for not lea...
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why you have been suffering thorugh for the last 4 months
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you feel disapointed
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em2hpq
Lonely.
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I'm forced to shutter and hide like a scared field mouse to my ptsd that is a mighty hawk. Left with the tape over my mouth to suppress my screaming.
sagevoss
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2020-01-09 01:34:23
ptsd
<efs>Lonely.<efe> <efs>I'm forced to shutter and hide like a scared field mouse to my ptsd that is a mighty hawk.<efe> <es>Left with the tape over my mouth to suppress my screaming.<ee>
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your ptsd
Can you elaborate more on X ?
how ptsd makes you feel
What do you need help with now that X?
you are unable to confront your PTSD symptoms
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en469v
Recovering alcoholic &amp; pillhead
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My body is dying. I am shaking and sweating daily. My mouth tastes sweet. I wish I could go back to the alcohol and pills but I’m only 20 and I was an honors graduate and I had everything and I’ve lost almost everything due to my addictions
caliharls
1
0
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2020-01-11 06:51:34
addiction
<efs>My body is dying.<efe> <efs>I am shaking and sweating daily.<efe> <efs>My mouth tastes sweet.<efe> <efs>I wish I could go back to the alcohol and pills but I’m only 20 and I was an honors graduate and I had everything and I’ve lost almost everything due to my addictions<efe>
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your alcohol and pill addiction
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you are having withdrawl symptoms
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f7k26t
I am generally calm, but I suffer from uncontrollable meltdowns of crying and whimpering if I'm under extreme stress or failing to accomplish a task. I'm 36 years old.
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I have self awareness but in the moment, I'm so fixated and hyper focused on the task, that when I can't complete the task, i lose my mind. When I finally break away from the thing that triggered me, I am ashamed and embarrassed, but it's too late, I already lost control of my temper.
The_RawKus83
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0
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2020-02-21 23:48:42
Anger
<es>I am generally calm, but I suffer from uncontrollable meltdowns of crying and whimpering if I'm under extreme stress or failing to accomplish a task.<ee> I'm 36 years old. <es>I have self awareness but in the moment, I'm so fixated and hyper focused on the task, that when I can't complete the task, i lose my mind.<...
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you are unable to control your temper
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eia1xj
HELP Wellbutrin anxiety
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So I just started wellbutrin XL 150mg yesterday after an unsuccessful try with lexapro (headaches/jaw clenching wouldn’t stop), and my anxiety has been through the roof since. Feels like chugging coffee all day: constant agitation and restlessness, as well as elevated HR (resting is now 80 from what used to be 50). Ev...
dat_boi_128
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0
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2019-12-31 22:43:48
Anxiety
<es>So I just started wellbutrin XL 150mg yesterday after an unsuccessful try with lexapro (headaches/jaw clenching wouldn’t stop), and my anxiety has been through the roof since.<ee> <efs>Feels like chugging coffee all day: constant agitation and restlessness, as well as elevated HR (resting is now 80 from what used t...
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wellbrutin maxes you anxious
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ei6x0u
Having friends causes me severe mental distress and just socialising in general
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rant
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Ihatemyselfie99
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2019-12-31 18:41:53
mentalillness
<efs><es>Having friends causes me severe mental distress and just socialising in general<ee><efe> nan
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Can you elaborate more on X ?
why socializing causes you mental distress
Can you elaborate more on X ?
the distress you feel about socializing
What do you need help with now that X?
you feel mental distress on socializing
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ei7v8h
Another year of misery incoming
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Another year of trying my hardest, being told I don't try at all. Another year of disappointment and loneliness... Life's amazing riiight
LonelyWarLord
1
0
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2019-12-31 19:50:57
depression
<es>Another year of trying my hardest, being told I don't try at all.<ee> <efs>Another year of disappointment and loneliness... Life's amazing riiight<efe>
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how you feel after being judged for not trying
What do you need help with now that X?
you feel lonely and dissappointed
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ewonfq
Home is where it hurts the most.
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Me and my husband just booked a flight home and I'm scared. My best friend at the time her husband abused me many times when I lived with them and I was so happy when I moved to never have to see him again. Now we booked a flight home to visit family and friends because I haven't seen anyone in close to 4 years. I'm te...
CatchMousi
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2020-01-31 13:43:26
rapecounseling
<efs>Me and my husband just booked a flight home and I'm scared.<efe> <es>My best friend at the time her husband abused me many times when I lived with them and I was so happy when I moved to never have to see him again.<ee> <es>Now we booked a flight home to visit family and friends because I haven't seen anyone in cl...
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you feel terrified of running into your abuser
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eqki6x
Struggling to get over toxic friendships
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I'm honestly at a loss, and my head keeps going back to places it shouldn't, and driving me insane. It's a long story. In my online community, we tend to host online roleplaying games, rotating whoever the host is once the story is complete and moving onto the next one. This has been a part of my life for the better p...
Sendubbio
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0
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2020-01-18 18:51:41
getting_over_it
<es>I'm honestly at a loss, and my head keeps going back to places it shouldn't, and driving me insane.<ee> It's a long story. <es>In my online community, we tend to host online roleplaying games, rotating whoever the host is once the story is complete and moving onto the next one.<ee> <es>This has been a part of my l...
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you feel afraid to open up to your friends
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enbnf0
I have episodes where if someone touches me, even my SO, I have a mini panic attack. Can anyone relate?
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I haven’t been able to find much information about this online, so I’m reaching out to this community. I have sexual trauma from a couple years ago and it has been getting worse recently. One of the worst symptoms is that when my boyfriend touches me I just can’t handle it sometimes. It doesn’t even have to be in a s...
ogpuffyjones
1
0
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2020-01-11 19:08:33
ptsd
I haven’t been able to find much information about this online, so I’m reaching out to this community. <es>I have sexual trauma from a couple years ago and it has been getting worse recently. <ee> <efs>One of the worst symptoms is that when my boyfriend touches me I just can’t handle it sometimes.<efe> <efs>It doesn’t...
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what would help you deal with the obsessive thoughts
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ejrsuf
What are the best methods to stop the cravings?
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xTanjirox
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0
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2020-01-04 04:39:41
addiction
What are the best methods to stop the cravings? nan
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What happened that you want X ?
to stop the cravings
Why are you wanting X ?
methods to stop cravings
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elf7fn
Does anyone have strange scenarios or harm or death on repeat?
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survey
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I'll be crossing the street and think I'm going to get hit by that truck and my mind plays out the entire scenario in my head. Or walking down some stairs and think I'm going to fall and crush all my teeth on the pavement. Sitting in a restaurant and think I'm going to miss my mouth with the fork and stab my eyeball. S...
myakka1640
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2020-01-07 18:09:48
ptsd
<es>I'll be crossing the street and think I'm going to get hit by that truck and my mind plays out the entire scenario in my head.<ee> <es>Or walking down some stairs and think I'm going to fall and crush all my teeth on the pavement.<ee> <es>Sitting in a restaurant and think I'm going to miss my mouth with the fork an...
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the strange scenarios
Can you elaborate more on X ?
what would help you deal with the invasive thoughts
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ew3jq5
I feel guilt and I dont know why
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rant
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He got arrested today. I know he deserves it. I need to remind myself that. I need to keep remembering - how can someone be that fucked up that they even make that mistake to begin with. I confronted him recently. He wouldnt stop repeating "I feel so bad, I just cant believe it's still affecting you." Well it does y...
anonymous_monkey2
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0
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2020-01-30 10:46:13
rapecounseling
<efs>I feel guilt and I dont know why<efe> <es>He got arrested today. <ee> <es>I know he deserves it.<ee> <rs>I need to remind myself that.<re> <rs>I need to keep remembering - how can someone be that fucked up that they even make that mistake to begin with.<re> <es>I confronted him recently.<ee> <es>He wouldnt stop ...
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what would help you relive your guilt
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ema4gd
As Bill Sees It, 1.9
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Single Purpose, p. 304 There are those who predict that A.A. may well become a new spearhead for a spiritual awakening throughout the world. When our friends say these things, they are both generous and sincere. But we of A.A. must reflect that such a tribute and such a prophecy could well prove to be a heady drink ...
Whtsox
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0
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2020-01-09 14:09:34
alcoholicsanonymous
Single Purpose, p. 304 There are those who predict that A.A. may well become a new spearhead for a spiritual awakening throughout the world. When our friends say these things, they are both generous and sincere. But we of A.A. must reflect that such a tribute and such a prophecy could well prove to be a heady drink ...
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ejo0d8
Pissed off and need to rant.
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rant
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I'll start off by saying this will probably contain a load of terrible language. Wait out for long drip about my life 👍 My ranting starts with work today, since being back two days my boss pulls me into the office and asks if I'm seeing my therapist this year (since Oct last year I've been going once a week) I replie...
richc90
1
0
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2020-01-03 23:47:53
ptsd
I'll start off by saying this will probably contain a load of terrible language. Wait out for long drip about my life 👍 <es>My ranting starts with work today, since being back two days my boss pulls me into the office and asks if I'm seeing my therapist this year (since Oct last year I've been going once a week).<ee>...
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how did you feel about your partner's ignorance
What do you need help with now that X?
you feel frustrated from your problems
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emzvfs
Molly with Xanax? Good idea? Any Dangers?
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My buddy is off the molly and he wamts to pop half a yellow bar. Want to know if there's any dangers
Felixleclair9902
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2020-01-11 00:25:23
addiction
<es>My buddy is off the molly and he wamts to pop half a yellow bar.<ee> <rs>Want to know if there's any dangers<re>
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Can you elaborate more on X ?
why your friend wants to take the yellow bar
How did X make you feel?
your friend taking drugs
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ejfm4s
I lost hope at finding someone who can make me happy and wanted.... 🥱
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SilentPredator99
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2020-01-03 13:48:14
sad
<rs>I lost hope at finding someone who can make me happy and wanted....<re> nan
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What happened that you want X ?
to feel happy and wanted
Why are you wanting X ?
to feel wanted
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eit3le
I have a problem.
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I got diagnosed with ADHD 7 years ago. However I have never been medicated because my parents are against it. Because of this i have massively struggled at school. It's my final few months of school and my grades are massively behind where they should be. I can't revise. If I revise I feel like shit but if I don't...
DeadSpace666
1
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2020-01-02 04:11:28
ADHD
<es>I got diagnosed with ADHD 7 years ago.<ee> <es>However I have never been medicated because my parents are against it.<ee> <es>Because of this i have massively struggled at school.<ee> <es>It's my final few months of school and my grades are massively behind where they should be.<ee> <es>I can't revise. <ee> <ef...
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eiupii
Social anxiety and stuttering.
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Kinglens311
1
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2020-01-02 06:41:19
socialanxiety
Social anxiety and stuttering. nan
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your social anxiety and stuttering
How did X make you feel?
your social anxiety and stuttering
What do you need help with now that X?
you have social anxiety
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eitino
Emotional Regulation
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chitchat
4
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AfterismQueen
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2020-01-02 04:49:20
selfhelp
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ekhrf7
Needed hug so bad today, was crying and choking, couldn’t talk, never needed a hug more than today. Even bestie got angry becoz i dare to tell her my feelings when she is with her fam. Idk how to stop crying rn. Life is interesting huh.
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Eggs_lover
1
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2020-01-05 19:32:27
sad
<efs>Needed hug so bad today, was crying and choking, couldn’t talk, never needed a hug more than today.<efe> <es>Even bestie got angry becoz i dare to tell her my feelings when she is with her fam.<ee> <es>Idk how to stop crying rn.<ee> Life is interesting huh. nan
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what made you cry
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you feel upset
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eith00
Intense relationship beginning
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Hi everybody, happy new year! I matched with this guy on bumble and from his very first messages I could tell he was different in a good way. There's something about him that feels like seeing an old friend. Were the same zodiac sign (stupid i know but still) and were just one letter off from each other on the myers ...
allyloveslights
1
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2020-01-02 04:45:12
BPD
Hi everybody, happy new year! <es>I matched with this guy on bumble and from his very first messages I could tell he was different in a good way.<ee> <es>There's something about him that feels like seeing an old friend.<ee> <es>Were the same zodiac sign (stupid i know but still) and were just one letter off from each...
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ej8a2x
My (20M) girlfriend (19F) was sexually assaulted last night and I don’t feel equipped to handle it. I feel like an absolute monster
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My (20M) girlfriend (19F) told me she was sexually assaulted, I believe her and want to be there for her 100%, but I don’t think I can continue dating her About 4 months ago I met this amazing girl in class. Smart, funny beautiful yada yada I’m sure everyone gets the gist. We’ve been dating for about 3 months at this ...
shitty_victim_blamer
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2020-01-03 01:56:09
rapecounseling
My (20M) girlfriend (19F) told me she was sexually assaulted, I believe her and want to be there for her 100%, but I don’t think I can continue dating her About 4 months ago I met this amazing girl in class. Smart, funny beautiful yada yada I’m sure everyone gets the gist. We’ve been dating for about 3 months at this ...
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ey51to
Ex keeps coming back and destroying my peace :S
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help-seeking
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Sometime back I dated a girl, who was lying to me and broke my trust on several occasions. Would play weird mind games and even physically abuse me. I tried breaking up with with her several times, and she would just keep coming back and still keep lying. To a point where I started feeling very low self worth. That I ...
theshroomtrip
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2020-02-03 10:13:57
getting_over_it
<es>Sometime back I dated a girl, who was lying to me and broke my trust on several occasions.<ee> <es>Would play weird mind games and even physically abuse me.<ee> <es>I tried breaking up with with her several times, and she would just keep coming back and still keep lying.<ee> <efs>To a point where I started feeling...
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how your ex talking to you affects you mental health
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elwnxn
They banned me and I don't know why... r/rape. I'm confused
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I enjoy coming on here and venting and helping others.. just wanted to share my frustrations about it .... Got no clue why they banned me but I messaged the mods asking why but nothing yet... Is there something I'm missing?? Is there different rules in there that I don't know or understand?
TheOriginalTomboy
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2020-01-08 18:29:33
rapecounseling
I enjoy coming on here and venting and helping others.. just wanted to share my frustrations about it .... Got no clue why they banned me but I messaged the mods asking why but nothing yet... Is there something I'm missing?? Is there different rules in there that I don't know or understand?
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Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
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f9gab3
I'm incredibly indecisive, and now my personal life is suffering.
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I have no clue what I'm doing with myself at this point. I cannot sit here and think of one single thing that genuinely peaks my interest or gets me excited. I have no hobbies or collections or motivation for anything. &amp;#x200B; This has even effects big things in life such as career choices. I guess this started ...
groggyfonbire
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2020-02-25 20:09:42
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<es>I have no clue what I'm doing with myself at this point.<ee> <es>I cannot sit here and think of one single thing that genuinely peaks my interest or gets me excited.<ee> <eS>I have no hobbies or collections or motivation for anything.<ee> &amp;#x200B; <es>This has even effects big things in life such as career ch...
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Can you elaborate more on X ?
how you feel about your lack of interest in anything
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