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ejej89
anyone wanna talk?
1a
help-seeking
1
i’m close to throwing everything away
disgutted
6
0
10
2020-01-03 12:04:10
selfharm
<rs>anyone wanna talk?<re> <es>i’m close to throwing everything away<ee>
1
0
2
Can you elaborate more on X ?
why you are close to throwing everything away
Why are you wanting X ?
to talk to someone
null
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null
true
102
eipuj5
When did you know that you had to get sober? How many attempts did it take, and what changed that made it stick?
0
survey
1
I have a desire in my mind to get clean and then I’ll relapse and stop worrying about it for a month or so and then come back to it. It’s a recurring theme. I’ve been using for years and many of the years sobriety wasn’t something I ever considered. Now, it’s something that never goes away. I’ve reach an unsustainable ...
marty_byrd_
1
0
9
2020-01-01 23:46:35
OpiatesRecovery
<rs>When did you know that you had to get sober?<re> <rs>How many attempts did it take, and what changed that made it stick?<re> <es>I have a desire in my mind to get clean and then I’ll relapse and stop worrying about it for a month or so and then come back to it.<ee> <es>It’s a recurring theme.<ee> <es>I’ve been usin...
2
0
2
null
null
How did X make you feel?
staying off the drugs
null
null
title
true
202
ergypd
What to do about anger?
1a
help-seeking
1
When someone makes me angry, i can get so angry i either hurt myself (biting, clawing) or attack items (usually kick clothes or something) but i really want to know how to healthily handle the feeling of anger because when i have kids and a wife one day i don't want them to see that
xscarypotatox
1
0
4
2020-01-20 18:07:09
Anger
<rs><es>When someone makes me angry, i can get so angry i either hurt myself (biting, clawing) or attack items (usually kick clothes or something) but i really want to know how to healthily handle the feeling of anger because when i have kids and a wife one day i don't want them to see that<ee><re>
2
0
2
Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
null
How did X make you feel?
your anger
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null
true
202
einrx0
I have to admit it, I miss you..
0
rant
1
Well right before midnight I sent a text to a guy that I've been friends with and kind of stopped talking to him in the middle of the year. I told him I missed him,Happy New Year and if he needed anything I was there for him. I kinda wasn't expecting a reply but deep down I did want him to..but he didn't.. I hope 2020...
uhhhGreat
1
0
42
2020-01-01 21:05:27
sad
<es>Well right before midnight I sent a text to a guy that I've been friends with and kind of stopped talking to him in the middle of the year.<ee> <es>I told him I missed him,Happy New Year and if he needed anything I was there for him.<ee> <rs>I kinda wasn't expecting a reply but deep down I did want him to..<re><es...
2
0
0
Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
null
How did X make you feel?
the lack of reply
What do you need help with now that X?
you are disappointed about not getting a reply
null
true
200
ekwgog
Looking for peoples experience with financial monitoring during recovery
0
help-seeking
1
My partner’s working really hard to get clean. Right now we’re struggling with the temptation of financial temptation—when they have access to money it’s basically a trigger for relapse. I’m new to the recovery process and don’t really know where to begin or what resources to look at to be able to help. I’m wondering i...
unknowncinch
1
0
13
2020-01-06 16:35:33
OpiatesRecovery
<es>My partner’s working really hard to get clean.<ee> <es>Right now we’re struggling with the temptation of financial temptation—when they have access to money it’s basically a trigger for relapse.<ee> <es>I’m new to the recovery process and don’t really know where to begin or what resources to look at to be able to h...
2
0
2
null
null
How did X make you feel?
your partner working hard to get clean
null
null
null
true
202
eibf60
Happy new year
1c
chitchat
1
Fuck 2019...2020 will be bettexaxaxaxaxaxa why do i even have to be happy because earth did a whole circle around sun nothing will cange fuck my life hope u all have a better year that me...not better like just the opposite mine will be miserable sad and useless i know it. happy new year
eloustis
1
0
0
2020-01-01 00:33:06
depression
Fuck 2019...2020 will be bettexaxaxaxaxaxa why do i even have to be happy because earth did a whole circle around sun nothing will cange fuck my life hope u all have a better year that me...<efs>not better like just the opposite mine will be miserable sad and useless i know it.<efe> happy new year
0
2
0
What made you feel X ?
that your new year would be miserable
null
null
What can help you overcome X ?
the feeling of sadness
null
true
20
ej13m4
I’ve started cutting again after a year
1a
rant
1
I cut a few weeks ago, but my mind decided not to count as it truly was. Now I’ve started cutting again, and god do I hate myself for it. I want to throw my blade out, but I’ll just get another. I can’t stop now.
uwu-bapy
1
0
2
2020-01-02 17:22:33
selfharm
<es>I cut a few weeks ago, but my mind decided not to count as it truly was.<ee> <efs>Now I’ve started cutting again, and god do I hate myself for it.<efe> <es>I want to throw my blade out, but I’ll just get another.<ee> <es>I can’t stop now.<ee>
1
2
0
Can you elaborate more on X ?
why did you cut a few days ago
null
null
What do you need help with now that X?
you hate yourself for doing self harm
null
true
120
eib9v7
having no friends sucks
1a
help-seeking
1
I live alone and when I say I don’t have one single friend I mean it. I suffer from diagnosed bi polar disorder as well as ocd, adhd, and ptsd have absolutely no one to turn to. I feel so incredibly isolated. I’ve gone 4 years without having friends. It’s been 7 years since I had a group of friends. I spend most nights...
greengiantfanaccount
1
0
5
2020-01-01 00:21:24
selfhelp
<es>I live alone and when I say I don’t have one single friend I mean it.<ee> <es>I suffer from diagnosed bi polar disorder as well as ocd, adhd, and ptsd have absolutely no one to turn to.<ee> <efs>I feel so incredibly isolated.<efe> <es>I’ve gone 4 years without having friends.<ee> <es>It’s been 7 years since I had a...
2
2
1
Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
null
null
null
Can you elaborate more on X ?
healing when you have no one
null
true
221
eil4uy
I just spent the first day of the new year trying my very best to not cut
1a
rant
1
And I failed. After an extended period of time being clean.
un0m
1
0
2
2020-01-01 17:47:31
selfharm
<es>I just spent the first day of the new year trying my very best to not cut<ee> <es>And I failed.<ee> <es>After an extended period of time being clean.<ee>
1
0
0
Can you elaborate more on X ?
why you wanted to cut on first day of new year
How did X make you feel?
breaking your streak of being clean
What do you need help with now that X?
you broke your streak of being clean
null
true
100
ekvjpr
Just did my last H bag, and my methadone. It is now time to detox
1a
rant
1
Got off work for 3 days. Gonna bum it in bed then hopefully finally be off this shit. Wish me luck
hellomynameisnoname
1
0
8
2020-01-06 15:26:27
OpiatesRecovery
<es>Just did my last H bag, and my methadone.<ee> <rs>It is now time to detox<re> <es>Got off work for 3 days.<ee> <es>Gonna bum it in bed then hopefully finally be off this shit.<ee> Wish me luck
2
0
1
null
null
How did X make you feel?
methadone
Can you elaborate more on X ?
what would help you detox
null
true
201
ekhs81
My midnight thoughts that kept me awake last night
0
rant
1
null
activgamer
1
0
6
2020-01-05 19:34:00
sad
null
0
0
0
Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
null
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title
true
0
eiba99
It’s officially 2020 here. No one has wished me a happy new year. I’ve already cried once this year.
1b
rant
1
It’s 1:20AM. No one has wished me a happy new year yet. Not even my boyfriend, because we had an argument. So I spent the last hour crying. I feel like this is the year I die. Finally.
milovsflo
1
0
86
2020-01-01 00:22:16
depression
It’s 1:20AM. <es>No one has wished me a happy new year yet.<ee> <es>Not even my boyfriend, because we had an argument.<ee> <efs>So I spent the last hour crying.<efe> <efs>I feel like this is the year I die.<efe> Finally.
2
1
0
Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
null
Can you elaborate more on X ?
how felt about no one wishing you
What do you need help with now that X?
you feel upset that nobody wished you
null
true
210
eyz45s
Something horrible I have done in the past (dont read if you have a dog)
1a
rant
2
Using a throwaway account for this. Hello reddit. I would like to tell you all about something really bad ive in the past. right now im almost 16 and this probably happened about 3 years ago. (I think im not sure) I had a dog about a few months old, I actually really liked him and I had no problems with him, but unl...
ThrowAwayChornoa
1
0
8
2020-02-04 23:13:34
getting_over_it
Using a throwaway account for this. Hello reddit. I would like to tell you all about something really bad ive in the past. <es>right now im almost 16 and this probably happened about 3 years ago.<ee> <es>(I think im not sure) I had a dog about a few months old, I actually really liked him and I had no problems with ...
2
2
0
null
null
null
null
What do you need help with now that X?
you are unable to have feelings
null
true
220
eipylg
Has anyone else had bad anxiety for a week straight?
1a
help-seeking
1
I've had anxiety accompanied by nausea, loss of appetite and insomnia for nearly a week now. It started with the flu/a virus, but now my anxiety has seemed to take over. Have you been through this? What helped you get out of this anxious cycle?
calmthemind7
1
0
3
2020-01-01 23:55:48
Anxiety
I've had anxiety accompanied by nausea, loss of appetite and insomnia for nearly a week now. It started with the flu/a virus, but now my anxiety has seemed to take over. Have you been through this? What helped you get out of this anxious cycle?
1
1
2
Can you elaborate more on X ?
your anxiety
Can you elaborate more on X ?
how your anxiety makes you feel
null
null
null
true
112
ek7pe7
Am I the only one that feels this way?
0
survey
1
null
AL0411
51
0
11
2020-01-05 04:00:28
sad
null
0
0
0
Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
null
null
null
null
null
title
true
0
eib7y6
Discharged from GP
0
help-seeking
2
I have seen the same GP for a few years now, but lately wanted to try experimenting with other ADHD medications. I usually take 20mg adderall but tried a month of Vyvanse and a month of Focalin. When I decided that Vyvanse works best he dischagred me saying "Upon Rx monitoring system and pharmacy review, I no longer fe...
omgboat
1
0
6
2020-01-01 00:17:15
ADHD
<es>I have seen the same GP for a few years now, but lately wanted to try experimenting with other ADHD medications.<ee> <es>I usually take 20mg adderall but tried a month of Vyvanse and a month of Focalin.<ee> <es>When I decided that Vyvanse works best he dischagred me saying "Upon Rx monitoring system and pharmacy re...
2
1
2
null
null
Can you elaborate more on X ?
how taking the ADHD medications make you feel
null
null
null
true
212
ejb35s
I just had a major think, and I’m more manipulative than I thought
1a
rant
2
I couldn’t sleep and decided to read old texts between me and my ex (I know, dumb). I started reading from the major fight that caused the downfall of our relationship and it basically confirmed that I wasn’t overreacting, and he was most definitely manipulative as hell and emotionally abusive and v gaslighty. But as...
chonkylizard
4
0
10
2020-01-03 05:46:47
BPD
<es>I couldn’t sleep and decided to read old texts between me and my ex (I know, dumb).<ee> <es>I started reading from the major fight that caused the downfall of our relationship and it basically confirmed that I wasn’t overreacting, and he was most definitely manipulative as hell and emotionally abusive and v gasligh...
2
2
2
null
null
null
null
null
null
null
true
222
ekohv9
Filling Space Around Other SA People?
1b
survey
1
Does anyone else feel like they overtalk when around other socially anxious people? I find that if the person I’m with seems more anxious than I am, I tend to babble incessantly about random shit or say/do silly things to fill space and try to make them comfortable, even to the point of making me feel like a complete f...
palmdownmassage
1
0
1
2020-01-06 04:02:44
socialanxiety
Does anyone else feel like they overtalk when around other socially anxious people? I find that if the person I’m with seems more anxious than I am, I tend to babble incessantly about random shit or say/do silly things to fill space and try to make them comfortable, even to the point of making me feel like a complete f...
0
0
0
Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
null
null
null
null
null
random
true
0
eq8udc
I get attached too easily
1a
rant
1
I noticed with myself, that I get attached to those who give me the slightest attention. I don’t talk to a lot of people, have a couple of friends and recently I met someone online playing video games and I’ve been finding myself thinking about her a lot.
IAm_Yu
1
0
7
2020-01-18 00:03:00
selfhelp
<es>I noticed with myself, that I get attached to those who give me the slightest attention.<ee> <es>I don’t talk to a lot of people, have a couple of friends and recently I met someone online playing video games and I’ve been finding myself thinking about her a lot.<ee>
2
0
0
null
null
How did X make you feel?
craving attention
What do you need help with now that X?
you get attached to anyone who gives you attention
null
true
200
emly55
I want to end my life
1b
rant
1
I found someone that makes me happy but his mom just told me he was in the hospital on drugs Wich is the same way my dad died and now his mother blocked me from all of his accounts and I'm not sure what's going on and my school life is hell and on top of all of that there r my family problems I just want to end the pai...
ihatelifejustkillme
1
0
4
2020-01-10 04:38:22
selfhelp
<es>I found someone that makes me happy but his mom just told me he was in the hospital on drugs Wich is the same way my dad died and now his mother blocked me from all of his accounts and I'm not sure what's going on and my school life is hell and on top of all of that there r my family problems I just want to end the...
2
0
0
Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
null
How did X make you feel?
his mother blocking you
What do you need help with now that X?
his mother blocked you from all his accounts
null
true
200
eim8gs
Example: If the BB's definition of fear, is an evil corroding thread. What is the BB's definition of Grace?
0
help-seeking
4
I love using my 1931 Webster dictionary! But recently I have been thinking about how the BB defines the word within the book. I cannot seem to narrow down Grace and therefore it assumes the reader knows what Grace is? Is the 'Grace Of God' explained in any AAWS literature? When this sort of thinking is fully establish...
164Pages
1
0
4
2020-01-01 19:10:43
alcoholicsanonymous
I love using my 1931 Webster dictionary! But recently I have been thinking about how the BB defines the word within the book. I cannot seem to narrow down Grace and therefore it assumes the reader knows what Grace is? Is the 'Grace Of God' explained in any AAWS literature? When this sort of thinking is fully establish...
0
0
0
Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
null
null
null
null
null
random
true
0
eosj0r
I’m a year+ sober. I *always* have a passing “oh fuck” moment at the very beginning of lengthy social gatherings where I calculate how long I’ll probably be there and I feel trapped. Not panicky, but just kind of dreading the evening ahead, for a couple minutes.
1a
rant
1
Off the bat, let me add that this “oh fuck” moment is not accompanied by any urges whatsoever. I arrive at small parties, dinners out, concerts — and immediately fixate upon how long I’ll have to be there. The thing is, I want to be there, I’m always with at least 3 or 4 people who are sober or know my story, and so fa...
DoorToDoorSlapjob
1
0
9
2020-01-14 22:16:05
alcoholicsanonymous
<es>I’m a year+ sober.<ee> <es>I always have a passing “oh fuck” moment at the very beginning of lengthy social gatherings where I calculate how long I’ll probably be there and I feel trapped.<ee> <efs>Not panicky, but just kind of dreading the evening ahead, for a couple minutes.<efe> <es>Off the bat, let me add that ...
2
2
1
null
null
null
null
Can you elaborate more on X ?
what would help you not dread social gatherings
null
true
221
ejtksl
Confused
1a
help-seeking
1
I’ve always admired the people that can go to any spontaneous plan or party and mingle well with whoever is there. I want that. But anytime the situation presents itself, I tell myself, “That won’t be fun, that’s just not who I am, and I’m just gonna be awkward because I don’t know everyone there” Whenever I make that ...
Ddon15
2
0
0
2020-01-04 07:29:20
socialanxiety
I’ve always admired the people that can go to any spontaneous plan or party and mingle well with whoever is there. I want that. <es>But anytime the situation presents itself, I tell myself, “That won’t be fun, that’s just not who I am, and I’m just gonna be awkward because I don’t know everyone there” Whenever I make t...
2
2
2
Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
null
null
null
null
null
null
true
222
emq80d
How to help my husband ?
1b
help-seeking
2
Hi everyone, Me and my husband are big weed smokers since we are together (I actually made him smoke daily because he didnt before he met me). So it's been 5 years that we smoke every day. The problem is that he lost his job 1 month ago and now we're out of weed and we only have 1 income left. He's going through a...
MimiLaFripouille
1
0
4
2020-01-10 12:20:47
addiction
Hi everyone, <es>Me and my husband are big weed smokers since we are together (I actually made him smoke daily because he didnt before he met me). <ee> <es>So it's been 5 years that we smoke every day.<ee> <es>The problem is that he lost his job 1 month ago and now we're out of weed and we only have 1 income left. <e...
2
1
2
Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
null
Can you elaborate more on X ?
how you feel about your husband's addiction
null
null
null
true
212
ej4ads
This happens every time
0
chitchat
1
null
CliffyYapper
99
0
3
2020-01-02 21:05:51
socialanxiety
null
0
0
0
Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
null
null
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null
null
true
0
ei91ja
What's this feeling
0
help-seeking
1
Disclaimer: Sorry if this is not the right subreddit Sometimes I have a short burst of realization, continued by fear of what would happen to me if I became deaf or blind, or lose the ones close to me. Fear, that the death is close (I'm 17 yrs old). Is this depression or something else?
hakszi
1
0
0
2019-12-31 21:22:10
depression
Disclaimer: Sorry if this is not the right subreddit <es>Sometimes I have a short burst of realization, continued by fear of what would happen to me if I became deaf or blind, or lose the ones close to me.<ee> <efs>Fear, that the death is close (I'm 17 yrs old). <efe> Is this depression or something else?
1
1
0
Can you elaborate more on X ?
short burst of realization
Can you elaborate more on X ?
how you feel after the sudden realization
What can help you overcome X ?
your fear
null
true
110
ei73d3
No one understands my pain
1b
rant
1
I am 30 and never had a girlfriend and I do everything I can to try to stay positive and be okay but its impossible, i have to go through hell just to keep myself together theres no way i can enjoy life or do anything. Wasted thousands of dollars in years of therapy and medications - they did nothing and made me worse...
RelevantLychee
1
0
1
2019-12-31 18:55:02
depression
<es>I am 30 and never had a girlfriend and I do everything I can to try to stay positive and be okay but its impossible, i have to go through hell just to keep myself together theres no way i can enjoy life or do anything.<ee> <es>Wasted thousands of dollars in years of therapy and medications - they did nothing and m...
0
0
0
Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
null
Can you elaborate more on X ?
why you feel life is a meaningless struggle
What do you need help with now that X?
you feel depressed and tired
null
true
0
eir51f
Fuck ADHD
1a
rant
1
I fucking hate it when usually when i wake up i start yelling n shit before i have taken my medicine 😤
NuuNuuNuutti
1
0
4
2020-01-02 01:29:58
ADHD
<es>Fuck ADHD<ee> <efs>I fucking hate it when usually when i wake up i start yelling n shit before i have taken my medicine <efe>
1
1
0
Can you elaborate more on X ?
you ADHD
Can you elaborate more on X ?
how you feel without the medicine
What do you need help with now that X?
you start yelling when you wake up
null
true
110
ezflgl
I feel like I do everything wrong, that everyone hates me, and I will never achieve my goals.
1a
help-seeking
2
I’ve always struggled with depression and anxiety. In the past I was also suicidal. I managed to move past that with the help of my boyfriend, who I’ve been with for 4 years. I was fine through most of our relationship, but in the past couple of months I’ve felt myself slipping worse than ever before. It’s strange beca...
Temporary_Definition
1
0
4
2020-02-05 20:13:43
getting_over_it
<es>I’ve always struggled with depression and anxiety.<ee> <es>In the past I was also suicidal.<ee> <es>I managed to move past that with the help of my boyfriend, who I’ve been with for 4 years.<ee> <es>I was fine through most of our relationship, but in the past couple of months I’ve felt myself slipping worse than ev...
2
2
0
null
null
null
null
What do you need help with now that X?
you are doubting everyone around you
null
true
220
eqbcpy
I hate myself for all the times ive gotten angry and destroyed things
1a
rant
1
Always had a bad temper since growing up, usually slamming my fist, knocking things over, punching a hole in the wall, etc and I feel really guilty about expressing my anger this way. I think about all the money I've wasted to replace or fix broken things and I call it the stupid tax. Seeing the dents or the half ass f...
flcuban
1
0
2
2020-01-18 03:43:11
Anger
<efs><es>Always had a bad temper since growing up, usually slamming my fist, knocking things over, punching a hole in the wall, etc and I feel really guilty about expressing my anger this way.<ee><efe> I think about all the money I've wasted to replace or fix broken things and I call it the stupid tax. <es>Seeing the d...
2
1
0
Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
null
Can you elaborate more on X ?
the guilt you feel
What do you need help with now that X?
anger makes you break things
null
true
210
eicf5y
Who else spending their new year alone ?
0
survey
1
null
sandyB0i324
1
0
160
2020-01-01 02:00:47
socialanxiety
<es>Who else spending their new year alone ?<ee> nan
1
0
0
Can you elaborate more on X ?
why you are alone
How did X make you feel?
being alone
What do you need help with now that X?
you feel lonely
null
true
100
ej3v73
DAE Have Other Personalities and Talk to Them?
0
survey
1
I don't know if I make them up or not. They seem real and then I realize they doesn't exist.
NotSchofield
2
0
2
2020-01-02 20:37:25
BPD
I don't know if I make them up or not. They seem real and then I realize they doesn't exist.
0
0
0
Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
null
null
null
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true
0
eibgli
It’s been 14 days
0
rant
1
I made a commitment, unfortunately you’ll never know. I made this commitment because all I want is to be that man you thought I was. Ego, I wish I could have let it all go because in the last 14 days I wouldn’t have the pain of losing you. If only I had that one more chance, you should have been with me, you should ha...
wocka3
1
0
0
2020-01-01 00:36:09
sad
<es>I made a commitment, unfortunately you’ll never know.<ee> <rs>I made this commitment because all I want is to be that man you thought I was. <re> <efs>Ego, I wish I could have let it all go because in the last 14 days I wouldn’t have the pain of losing you.<efe> If only I had that one more chance, you should have b...
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so upset and regretfull
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what would help you correct your mistakes
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eiy935
New Year, New Reminder That My Suicide is Long Overdue
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It's a brand new year to constantly suffer and force myself into daily normal-people stuff. My traumatized ass has given up on therapy. I'm a broke college drop out who lives with her shitty father. I've no friends or any kind of support system. I fucked it up with my boyfriend just like I do with every relationship ...
marlaminger
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2020-01-02 13:30:33
BPD
<es>It's a brand new year to constantly suffer and force myself into daily normal-people stuff. <ee> <es>My traumatized ass has given up on therapy.<ee> <es>I'm a broke college drop out who lives with her shitty father.<ee> <es>I've no friends or any kind of support system.<ee> <es>I fucked it up with my boyfriend jus...
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you are feeling hopeless about your life
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er08an
Mom is leaving dad, and made a blog to cope. Thought I would share for those in a similar place.
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chitchat
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My mom (60+) has been pushed around by my alcoholic dad for as long as I can remember. She's been really depressed for years. This week, she finally got the courage to leave, and is making a blog about her travels and starting her life over at an age where she ought to be retired. I thought I would share it here for th...
brainyspecs
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2020-01-19 18:40:47
getting_over_it
My mom (60+) has been pushed around by my alcoholic dad for as long as I can remember. She's been really depressed for years. This week, she finally got the courage to leave, and is making a blog about her travels and starting her life over at an age where she ought to be retired. I thought I would share it here for th...
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eisxpi
In love with an addict
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help-seeking
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So I’m a female and was in a relationship with a meth female addict for over 8 years it wasn’t till around the first 5 years I found out . Throughout the years we were on and off . We became really serious 3 years ago I remember looking for her 3 years ago and she was homeless on drugs and lost it really broke my hear...
Jboo___
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0
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2020-01-02 03:57:01
addiction
<es>So I’m a female and was in a relationship with a meth female addict for over 8 years it wasn’t till around the first 5 years I found out .<ee> <es>Throughout the years we were on and off .<ee> <efs>We became really serious 3 years ago I remember looking for her 3 years ago and she was homeless on drugs and lost it...
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what would help her cure her addiction
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epwvv2
Keep slipping up. No idea what to do
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rant
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Keep having tiny slips I took kratom today. A week ago took phenibut, and week before that took kratom. I’m committed to sobriety but really not. I’m afraid I’m a fucking fraud and just fake it to appease those around me but as soon as I get the opportunity I’m slamming a fat goofball. Fuck idk what to do I thought ...
hulkhoganblue
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2020-01-17 06:54:18
OpiatesRecovery
<es>Keep having tiny slips<ee> <es>I took kratom today.<ee> <es> A week ago took phenibut, and week before that took kratom.<ee> <es>I’m committed to sobriety but really not.<ee> <efs>I’m afraid I’m a fucking fraud and just fake it to appease those around me but as soon as I get the opportunity I’m slamming a fat goof...
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you keep having tiny relapses
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eynxi4
Does it have to define my identity?
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I have finally admitted to myself that I was raped at least once, but probably twice. The first time was ten years ago when I was a teenager. In my head, I called it “bad sex” or “a stupid decision”, but it was more than that and I think I always knew on some level. One thing I always knew for sure is that I was trauma...
Still_confused88
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2020-02-04 10:07:16
rapecounseling
<rs>Does it have to define my identity?<re> <es>I have finally admitted to myself that I was raped at least once, but probably twice.<ee> <es>The first time was ten years ago when I was a teenager. In my head, I called it “bad sex” or “a stupid decision”, but it was more than that and I think I always knew on some leve...
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em6afi
IF YOU ARE STRUGGLING PLEASE READ THIS. Thirteen Years and one month later my mom texted me something heartbreaking tonight. I want to share it with you and my journey with addiction. I hope this finds those who need it most. In case you haven't heard it today. I love you homie. Please stay strong.
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Here is the text she sent me... "I had the most real surreal dream last nite aaron called me and said momma I've got someone here that wants to talk to you and he out the phone in the persons hand and I hear this voice and he said hey Mom I'm here and I started screaming Toby oh My god where have you been and he said ...
HumbuckMe
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2020-01-09 07:18:28
addiction
Here is the text she sent me... "I had the most real surreal dream last nite aaron called me and said momma I've got someone here that wants to talk to you and he out the phone in the persons hand and I hear this voice and he said hey Mom I'm here and I started screaming Toby oh My god where have you been and he said ...
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fx6eh5
It's not you it's me
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rant
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I oftentimes feel like I'm at fault for the way I ended up. Not in a I'm a piece of shit and I deserve to feel like it kind of way but more like everything that's wrong with me is in direct correlation to my past decisions and behaviour. Like everything began with just me and then it became this. There isn't one part...
sharing_space
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2020-04-08 13:24:15
getting_over_it
<efs>I oftentimes feel like I'm at fault for the way I ended up.<efe> <es>Not in a I'm a piece of shit and I deserve to feel like it kind of way but more like everything that's wrong with me is in direct correlation to my past decisions and behaviour.<ee> <es>Like everything began with just me and then it became this...
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how you feel about your past decisions
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what can help you deal with your past decisions
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el89fk
Struggling with my thoughts
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rant
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I have been following this sub for awhile and have always appreciated the positive words of encouragement everyone seems to share with each other. So thank you. But lately I have been struggling with wanting to use again. I was really close to picking up some H tonight but was able to talk to my brother who is also str...
willskin88
1
0
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2020-01-07 07:27:30
addiction
I have been following this sub for awhile and have always appreciated the positive words of encouragement everyone seems to share with each other. So thank you. <es>But lately I have been struggling with wanting to use again.<ee> <es>I was really close to picking up some H tonight but was able to talk to my brother who...
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how are you feeling lately
What do you need help with now that X?
you are struggling to control your cravings
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f2lh6c
Doing better(ish) but having trouble letting things go
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help-seeking
3
I’ve done a lot to change my habits. Generally, if I feel like I’m going to snap at someone I just try to leave the area/go for a walk. When I’m in a situation where I completely understand that I’m angry for stupid reasons that just compounded and got me to a boiling point I try to ask for a minute alone before I...
grump313
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0
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2020-02-12 04:26:32
Anger
I’ve done a lot to change my habits. Generally, if I feel like I’m going to snap at someone I just try to leave the area/go for a walk. When I’m in a situation where I completely understand that I’m angry for stupid reasons that just compounded and got me to a boiling point I try to ask for a minute alone before I...
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eit9jc
Does anyone else have more than one debilitating fear/phobia that's ruining their lives?
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I am in counciling and a psychiatrist for adhd medication. I have a fear of abandonment which hurts my ability to recognize unhealthy relationships before they go on too far because I am so scared of being alone. Irrationally scared. I have not eaten almost anything in the last three days and have lost 5 lbs (but I di...
La_Chica_Salvaje
1
0
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2020-01-02 04:26:25
Anxiety
<es>I am in counciling and a psychiatrist for adhd medication.<ee> <es>I have a fear of abandonment which hurts my ability to recognize unhealthy relationships before they go on too far because I am so scared of being alone.<ee> <es>Irrationally scared.<ee> <es>I have not eaten almost anything in the last three days a...
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f091bz
Just.blind rage
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Have you guys ever felt blind rage the kind where you feel absolutely nothing someone could punch you in the head and you would be unfazed the kind of rage that just shuts you off completely and can and will get what you want I feel that just under the surface everyday but when it does come out I am not myself I want t...
grantjesse27
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0
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2020-02-07 11:09:14
Anger
<efs>Have you guys ever felt blind rage the kind where you feel absolutely nothing someone could punch you in the head and you would be unfazed the kind of rage that just shuts you off completely and can and will get what you want<efe> <efs>I feel that just under the surface everyday but when it does come out I am not ...
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you feel blinded by rage
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eilwsz
I ended 2019 trying to lift up a friend who was feeling down
1b
rant
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i wake up today, forced to go out and shop with my mom and sister, and experience the worst anxiety i’ve felt in about two weeks. and now things that i used to really enjoy are giving me anxiety and i have no idea why. i can’t even play one of my favorite games without struggling to get a deep breath in. and neither of...
Hutch2Much3
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2020-01-01 18:46:32
Anxiety
<es>i wake up today, forced to go out and shop with my mom and sister, and experience the worst anxiety i’ve felt in about two weeks.<ee> <es>and now things that i used to really enjoy are giving me anxiety and i have no idea why.<ee> <es>i can’t even play one of my favorite games without struggling to get a deep breat...
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what made you anxious
How did X make you feel?
the anxiety attack
What do you need help with now that X?
you aren't able to enjoy things due to anxiety
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einiar
Do you think theres a difference between stimulant addiction and reliance?
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help-seeking
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So long story short. I move a lot between FL and NJ. I've been prescribed adderall regularly for over a year, but my new psychiatrist switched me to vyvanse and wont listen to me when I say I have a high tolerance and need higher doses just to physically function. Therefore, when they dont prescribe me enough, I run ...
mileygirl08
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2020-01-01 20:45:38
ADHD
<rs>Do you think theres a difference between stimulant addiction and reliance?<re> So long story short. <es>I move a lot between FL and NJ.<ee> <es> I've been prescribed adderall regularly for over a year, but my new psychiatrist switched me to vyvanse and wont listen to me when I say I have a high tolerance and need ...
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being accused of addiction
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ejp16k
I obsess and over-analyze every single damn conversation. I can't even talk with people anymore.
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I can't even talk with any of my buddies without choking up mid sentence then looking down to the ground in an embarassed manner, I panic to keep the conversation alive and for there not to be any awkward silence. Now I can't stop over-analyzing conversations even when watching movies and tv shows, someone says somet...
Asskisser123
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2020-01-04 01:02:54
socialanxiety
<es>I can't even talk with any of my buddies without choking up mid sentence then looking down to the ground in an embarassed manner,<ee> <es>I panic to keep the conversation alive and for there not to be any awkward silence. <ee> <es>Now I can't stop over-analyzing conversations even when watching movies and tv shows...
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you have difficulty in holding conversations
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ei7bc5
Im done.
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Fuck.
cyfrifffug
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2019-12-31 19:10:35
Anxiety
Fuck.
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eiq20v
Anything to help me get through, advice, book recommendations, personal success stories, anything
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help-seeking
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Hi, so first off, please no hate. I’m 18f and started vaping at 14, a little bit after I picked up a cigarette habit around that age and ditched it. Lately, I’ve been dying to quit and my boyfriend (21) and I agreed we’d quit together. The cravings are the worst thing for me. I decided to quit cold turkey yesterday...
ak1702
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2020-01-02 00:03:16
addiction
Hi, so first off, please no hate. <es>I’m 18f and started vaping at 14, a little bit after I picked up a cigarette habit around that age and ditched it.<ee> <es>Lately, I’ve been dying to quit and my boyfriend (21) and I agreed we’d quit together.<ee> <es>The cravings are the worst thing for me.<ee> <es>I decided t...
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quitting nicotine
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eijlcb
My 2019 self-reflection Calendar
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chitchat
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[Link to Calender](https://imgur.com/a/P3QT4YW) I wanted to try a self-reflection calendar for 2019. I've been on anti-anxiety medication for a year and a half now. Before, I was angry almost every day, very depressed, and had a poor outlook on life; being unable to control the emotions that plagued me my entire life....
ASpicyStrawberry
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2020-01-01 15:40:54
Anxiety
[Link to Calender](https://imgur.com/a/P3QT4YW) I wanted to try a self-reflection calendar for 2019. I've been on anti-anxiety medication for a year and a half now. Before, I was angry almost every day, very depressed, and had a poor outlook on life; being unable to control the emotions that plagued me my entire life....
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en6zzx
One addiction instead other
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help-seeking
1
I've been addicted to heavy drugs like meth/mephedrone and adderall for 6 years, sooner I went to rehab and stayed sober for few years. Sooner I relapsed, and now i'm drinking alcohol almost every day, and it makes me sick and ashamed. I really force myself to visit NA meetings (I visit them 2-3 times per week), but i'...
VinceBlackout
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2020-01-11 12:44:47
addiction
<es>I've been addicted to heavy drugs like meth/mephedrone and adderall for 6 years, sooner I went to rehab and stayed sober for few years.<ee> <es>Sooner I relapsed, and now i'm drinking alcohol almost every day.<ee> <efs>it makes me sick and ashamed.<efe><es>I really force myself to visit NA meetings (I visit them 2-...
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why you have no motivation for recovery
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eizrqy
fp and last person i have is leaving (again.)
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i need to get this all out of my system somehow. sorry for formatting. around a year ago i latched onto someone from my friend group because my oldest brother became schizophrenic and lost all of his defining features as the human he used to be. that person ended up leaving near the end of may, and since they were m...
kikibirb
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2020-01-02 15:42:34
BPD
i need to get this all out of my system somehow. sorry for formatting. <es>around a year ago i latched onto someone from my friend group because my oldest brother became schizophrenic and lost all of his defining features as the human he used to be.<ee> <es>that person ended up leaving near the end of may, and since...
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your NFP is leaving you
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ezpzl6
Tough appointment with a woman who is currently living what I lived.
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help-seeking
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I work as a behaviour support clinician, and I met with the Mum of two of my clients today after she dropped off the radar for a couple of months. She is late 30's, with an 11 year old who is currently exploding with anger (not my client), and two younger children both with level 3 ASD. It was three hours of counse...
anon_smith
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0
2
2020-02-06 09:32:19
domesticviolence
<es>I work as a behaviour support clinician, and I met with the Mum of two of my clients today after she dropped off the radar for a couple of months. <ee> <esShe is late 30's, with an 11 year old who is currently exploding with anger (not my client), and two younger children both with level 3 ASD. <ee> <es>It was th...
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what would help the woman
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eikalg
Relapse -ADVICE issues with husband
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rant
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Not sure how to start, other thank thank you to all willing to help. I'll do my best to summarize. I relapsed after rehab, had 63 days. I did a tiny bit of fentanyl. Freaked out about getting sick, started taking kratom. Would do kratom for 5 days then do a bit of fentanyl. This went on for 2 weeks. I hated myself. Las...
butwhy001234
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2020-01-01 16:41:41
OpiatesRecovery
Not sure how to start, other thank thank you to all willing to help. I'll do my best to summarize. <es>I relapsed after rehab, had 63 days.<ee> <es>I did a tiny bit of fentanyl.<ee> <es>Freaked out about getting sick, started taking kratom.<ee> <es>Would do kratom for 5 days then do a bit of fentanyl.<ee> <es>This went...
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what would help you deal with your husband
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eo7ov6
Need to find a councilor
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Hey! My girlfriend got prescribed suboxone and the dr wants her to find a councilor to fill out this therapy progress report. I figured I’d start looking for her while she’s at work. Where do I even begin to look for this? I’m assuming I’ll need to find a specific kind of therapist or drug councilor for this. Sorry so ...
lilcoffeebeen
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2020-01-13 18:00:56
addiction
Hey! <es>My girlfriend got prescribed suboxone and the dr wants her to find a councilor to fill out this therapy progress report.<ee> <rs>I figured I’d start looking for her while she’s at work.<re> <rs>Where do I even begin to look for this?<re> <rs>I’m assuming I’ll need to find a specific kind of therapist or drug c...
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why your girlfriend was prescribed suboxone
How did X make you feel?
your girlfriend getting therapy
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en3bcw
Anti addiction camping
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im 17 and have huge problem with addiction and when i get 18 im going on a very long camping in a remote area so i can get rid of my addiction problem.But don,t worry i will bring food and water.
amethystlover2000
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2020-01-11 05:19:42
addiction
<es>im 17 and have huge problem with addiction and when i get 18 im going on a very long camping in a remote area so i can get rid of my addiction problem.<ee>But don,t worry i will bring food and water.
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your addiction problem
How did X make you feel?
your addiction
What do you need help with now that X?
your addiction is causing problems
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ei96by
Nothing quite hurts like trying to help/accommodate a depressed/insecure person and then seeing them get exponentially better once they've burned you out.
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rant
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And they are utterly remorseless of the time and energy you put in. The toxicity you endured. They are suddenly just "better" and every single other person they interact with is free of the burden their past relationship scarred them with. No insecurity, no toxicity, no cruelty or shaming or blaming for their toxic beh...
noreasontopretend
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2019-12-31 21:32:55
depression
And they are utterly remorseless of the time and energy you put in. The toxicity you endured. They are suddenly just "better" and every single other person they interact with is free of the burden their past relationship scarred them with. No insecurity, no toxicity, no cruelty or shaming or blaming for their toxic beh...
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ewnmiu
My girlfriend is physically abused at her home
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Hello, I'm in need of advice I really don't know what to do. My girlfriend (23) still lives with her parents and her brother (21?). Ever since she was little her parents began to hit her. As her brother got older he started hitting her as well. I don't want to go too much into details but nowadays the father doesn...
MrMeska
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2020-01-31 12:16:03
domesticviolence
Hello, <rs>I'm in need of advice I really don't know what to do.<re> <es>My girlfriend (23) still lives with her parents and her brother (21?). <ee> <es>Ever since she was little her parents began to hit her.<ee> <es>As her brother got older he started hitting her as well. <ee> <es>I don't want to go too much into d...
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your girlfriend's situation
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emmtxv
Stellate Ganglion Block Treatment
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I’m wondering if anyone has any experience with stellate ganglion block? I had a consultation and am planning to get the treatment regardless, but I was hoping to hear some stories of what it was like for others? I don’t personally know anyone else with PTSD and I feel really uneasy considering I can’t ask someone how ...
broken_vases
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2020-01-10 06:02:34
ptsd
<rs>I’m wondering if anyone has any experience with stellate ganglion block?<re> <es>I had a consultation and am planning to get the treatment regardless.<ee> <rs>but I was hoping to hear some stories of what it was like for others?<re> <efs>I don’t personally know anyone else with PTSD and I feel really uneasy conside...
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how PTSD makes you feel
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ejcwap
I had a panic attack on Christmas Eve and I'm not sure what to do next
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Hey, like the title says I had a pretty bad panic attack on Christmas Eve... And I've been feeling a lot of mixed emotions for the party week. I think I need some help, but I don't have too much money to spend on a therapist. Maybe I'll give a little backstory. I was at my uncle's place and there's a language barrier...
MadFries
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2020-01-03 08:59:34
socialanxiety
Hey, like the title says I had a pretty bad panic attack on Christmas Eve... And I've been feeling a lot of mixed emotions for the party week. I think I need some help, but I don't have too much money to spend on a therapist. Maybe I'll give a little backstory. I was at my uncle's place and there's a language barrier...
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what would help you overcome the panic attack
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eisrh1
Police caused my PTSD
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rant
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I’ve been suffering from traumatic episodes that get worse by the day. I’ve accepted what happened to me and the events that occurred but there is one thing I can never accept and I can not even believe.... Backstory: I was in a severe car accident that totaled my truck, shattered my femur, and fractured my hip. Th...
Anomaly-on-Earth
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2020-01-02 03:42:24
ptsd
<es>I’ve been suffering from traumatic episodes that get worse by the day.<ee> <es>I’ve accepted what happened to me and the events that occurred but there is one thing I can never accept and I can not even believe.... <ee> Backstory: <es>I was in a severe car accident that totaled my truck, shattered my femur, and ...
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ei9hmg
Slow death
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rant
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Live an unhealthy lifestyle. Hope that it kills you. "Active" suicide attempts would be too much for those I care about. My best friends live in other countries now. I have a gf. Been together 3 years in November. Feel like I can't talk to anyone. I sent her off to the NYE party we were meant to go to together. Told he...
aT1r3dM4n
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2019-12-31 21:58:27
depression
Live an unhealthy lifestyle. Hope that it kills you. "Active" suicide attempts would be too much for those I care about. My best friends live in other countries now. I have a gf. Been together 3 years in November. <efs>Feel like I can't talk to anyone.<efe> I sent her off to the NYE party we were meant to go to togethe...
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empty and sad
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the empty feeling you are having
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eibjna
Boy friend wants to take me on a date
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help-seeking
1
He wants to take me to olive garden but I cant public. I feel like I'm ruining his new years. He seems visibly disappointed that I said I couldn't. I really just can't. I can stand people watching me eat. And I really hate saying my own order and he never does it for me because he thinks hes helping me. Idk just tell m...
LittleUwULoli
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2020-01-01 00:42:48
Anxiety
Boy friend wants to take me on a date He wants to take me to olive garden but I cant public. I feel like I'm ruining his new years. He seems visibly disappointed that I said I couldn't. I really just can't. I can stand people watching me eat. And I really hate saying my own order and he never does it for me because he ...
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ejsv2x
Can only military personnel use the word PTSD?
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Over the summer, I had a life threatening pulmonary embolism that I almost died from. I was hospitalized for several days and then released and have been on blood thinners for 6 months. From this experience, I’ve had depression. I’ve had nightmares. I’ve had suicidal thoughts. I’ve had mental and physical pain. I’ve ha...
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2020-01-04 06:16:02
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<es>Over the summer, I had a life threatening pulmonary embolism that I almost died from.<ee> <es>I was hospitalized for several days and then released and have been on blood thinners for 6 months.<ee> <efs>From this experience, I’ve had depression.<efe> <efs>I’ve had nightmares.<efe> <efs>I’ve had suicidal thoughts.<e...
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eqo7gi
Finally in a Safe Place
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After a rough few months of being in constant fear, my worst fear came true; my abuser found the hotel I was staying at. I was forced to leave in the middle of the night. I frantically packed up all of my belongings and put them in a friend’s shed. I lost all of my groceries that I had just bought because I had nowhere...
hidmay83
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2020-01-18 23:23:24
domesticviolence
<es>After a rough few months of being in constant fear, my worst fear came true; my abuser found the hotel I was staying at.<ee> <es>I was forced to leave in the middle of the night.<ee> <es>I frantically packed up all of my belongings and put them in a friend’s shed.<ee> <es>I lost all of my groceries that I had just ...
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how did the abuse make you feel
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you are trying to settle in the safe house
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What do you guys think?
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Is life honestly worth living, not necessarily coming from a suicidal standpoint but what do you think? I think life is for some people but not for others
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2020-01-03 08:43:38
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Is life honestly worth living, not necessarily coming from a suicidal standpoint but what do you think? I think life is for some people but not for others
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Everyone Depressed on New Years because they dom't have plans - It's a dumb holiday, chill out tonight, watch your favorite TV show, have a few beers and realize that only a tiny fraction of the world's population is going out tonight.
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Seriously. Don't torture yourself. Relax, it's just another night.
dmvaz
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2019-12-31 21:22:37
depression
Seriously. Don't torture yourself. Relax, it's just another night.
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More People Need to Know This!
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2020-01-05 16:51:29
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einv42
I started my New Year off by driving home from work.
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I’ve had my license since I turned 20 in 2017. I’ve been behind the wheel less than a handful of times since then, but I’ve decided this is the year I finally get a car. I wouldn’t want my license to expire next year before I actually get my first car.
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2020-01-01 21:11:51
Anxiety
I’ve had my license since I turned 20 in 2017. I’ve been behind the wheel less than a handful of times since then, but I’ve decided this is the year I finally get a car. I wouldn’t want my license to expire next year before I actually get my first car.
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eibt84
I want to be the happy couple
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I want to be the happy couple who lives each other dearly Instead i am the one pushing away my partner because i just hate myself and i dont believe that anyone could ever love me. NYE was a quite talk with my partner that i dont want this relationship anymore. That he doesnt love me. The talk were you want to other on...
DieIsaac
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2020-01-01 01:05:49
BPD
<rs>I want to be the happy couple who lives each other dearly.<re> <es>Instead i am the one pushing away my partner because i just hate myself and i dont believe that anyone could ever love me.<ee> <es>NYE was a quite talk with my partner that i dont want this relationship anymore.<ee> <es>That he doesnt love me.<ee> <...
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pushing your partner away
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eij409
I just spent 3 hours looking for a sandwich video
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I just spent the last 3 hours looking for a video of a french woman making a sandwich that I saw like 10 months ago and now I'm watching matty Matheson's new lasagna video. Fuck me.
Breakfast_Bro
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2020-01-01 14:54:54
ADHD
I just spent the last 3 hours looking for a video of a french woman making a sandwich that I saw like 10 months ago and now I'm watching matty Matheson's new lasagna video. Fuck me.
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Hallucinations?
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yesterday I woke up in the middle of the night; it was still dark, but there was some light coming through the windows. In front of a window I saw a dark cloaked figure. First I thought it was just the shadow of something else that just looked creepy, but it was right in front of the window and I didn't have anything i...
caramellcreme
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2020-01-16 16:17:36
mentalillness
<es>yesterday I woke up in the middle of the night;<ee> it was still dark, but there was some light coming through the windows. <es>In front of a window I saw a dark cloaked figure.<ee> First I thought it was just the shadow of something else that just looked creepy, but it was right in front of the window and I didn't...
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how the hallucinations make you feel
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ei8mh4
Has anyone successfully "moved away" from their depression?
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survey
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I used to teach English in Japan, from 2013-2015 and now I realize these were the best years of my life. I went back to the US to get a master's degree but I have not attained any of the success I sought. I was scraping by, learning the language, hanging out with people from other countries, and it was great! Then I th...
AverageDingbat
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2019-12-31 20:49:01
depression
I used to teach English in Japan, from 2013-2015 and now I realize these were the best years of my life. I went back to the US to get a master's degree but I have not attained any of the success I sought. I was scraping by, learning the language, hanging out with people from other countries, and it was great! <es>Then ...
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the wrong decisions you took
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how feel about having nothing to do
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the feeling of being trapped
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ejgbgo
was this a justified way of reacting? what am i supposed to do
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this is my first time posting here. I've been trying to better myself and my bpd for a while now. long story short, my fp (technically ex bf) moved across the country a couple years ago. he acts romantic to me sometimes but occasionally avoidant. i suspect he has his own mental thing going on but he doesnt go to therap...
peachyfae
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2020-01-03 14:46:26
BPD
this is my first time posting here. <es>I've been trying to better myself and my bpd for a while now.<ee> <es>long story short, my fp (technically ex bf) moved across the country a couple years ago.<ee> <es>he acts romantic to me sometimes but occasionally avoidant.<ee> <es>i suspect he has his own mental thing going o...
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eib7t8
Empty and stuck in a loop every day
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In any order, I watch youtube, then when I'm tired of it, I look at animes, then I need to look at some mangas. When I'm bored of watching things, I play video games. When I'm done with those things, I take a look at people's opinions in different posts like Reddit while listening to some dumb music that vibes with my ...
WanderingSoul01
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2020-01-01 00:17:00
depression
In any order, I watch youtube, then when I'm tired of it, I look at animes, then I need to look at some mangas. When I'm bored of watching things, I play video games. When I'm done with those things, I take a look at people's opinions in different posts like Reddit while listening to some dumb music that vibes with my ...
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enl0t4
RKelly Documentary Creates Memory Flashback
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RKelly Documentary creates memory flashback I just finished watching the documentary on RKelly. I must say this show has opened up a flood gate of memories that I have been trying to keep closed for years. I see me sitting on the floor in the bathroom crying. I am sitting there thinking to myself “if only I would ha...
cr8tivelycomplicated
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2020-01-12 08:22:19
domesticviolence
<es>RKelly Documentary creates memory flashback<ee> <es>I just finished watching the documentary on RKelly.<ee> <es>I must say this show has opened up a flood gate of memories that I have been trying to keep closed for years.<ee> <efs> I see me sitting on the floor in the bathroom crying.<efe> <efs>I am sitting there...
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your boyfriend's forceful actions
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the documentary led to flashbacks
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eik8dv
Getting scolded for forgetting things by everyone sure is fun!
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Since being a kid, i have been forgetful for everything and have been rightfully scolded for it by my family and even now at 2020, nothing ever changes but its okay.
randompersonpao
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2020-01-01 16:36:28
ADHD
<es>Since being a kid, i have been forgetful for everything and have been rightfully scolded for it by my family and even now at 2020, nothing ever changes but its okay.<ee>
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being scolded for forgetting things
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you forget things easily
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eih8rf
My current situation
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Hi my name is Aidan and I just felt like making a post on my current state and my life I recently started to make audio recordings on my phone just talking to myself about my feelings and about how I feel and I am not sure it is helping probably just making it worse so I thought I would just share my thoughts on here a...
AidanK062603
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2020-01-01 11:02:23
sad
Hi my name is Aidan and I just felt like making a post on my current state and my life I recently started to make audio recordings on my phone just talking to myself about my feelings and about how I feel and I am not sure it is helping probably just making it worse so I thought I would just share my thoughts on here a...
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eprqdb
Good books for working the steps without being God based!
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Hey y’all! So I know that NA and AA isn’t religious based and that the “God” referred to in reading was a higher power as you understood it; however I still always struggled with this a lot. This had me never working the 12 steps Everyone says is vital for staying sober or being in recovery, also at times even causing ...
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2020-01-16 23:34:32
OpiatesRecovery
Hey y’all! So I know that NA and AA isn’t religious based and that the “God” referred to in reading was a higher power as you understood it; however I still always struggled with this a lot. This had me never working the 12 steps Everyone says is vital for staying sober or being in recovery, also at times even causing ...
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I'm 25 and I'm an alcoholic
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I need help.
stevenrjj
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2020-01-01 15:48:45
alcoholicsanonymous
<es> I'm 25 and I'm an alcoholic<ee> <rs>I need help.<re>
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alcohol addiction
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your alcohol addiction
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what help you control your addiction
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f14au6
Losing Time for Hobbies - Drawing and Music
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&gt;Posted i r/depression and I was recommended to post it here as well. So here is the post verbatim **TLDR**: I'm slowly losing the mental energy to practice my hobbies. The more work I put into life, the harder it becomes. So do I need to learn efficiency? ***Abstract:*** The problem appears to be multifacete...
PumpedSounds
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2020-02-09 05:33:07
getting_over_it
&gt;Posted i r/depression and I was recommended to post it here as well. So here is the post verbatim <es>**TLDR**: I'm slowly losing the mental energy to practice my hobbies.<ee> <es>The more work I put into life, the harder it becomes.<ee> <rs>So do I need to learn efficiency?<re> ***Abstract:*** <es>The probl...
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em4jt9
Any advice is greatly appreciated.
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I'm going to try and keep a long story short as best I can. So for the past few years I've gained a very intense relationship with drugs. I've done almost all of the usual drugs minus meth/heroin. I gained a particular interest in coke. (Shitty friends + shitty abusive relationship with an addict played a part in speed...
kaylas696
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2020-01-09 04:24:19
addiction
I'm going to try and keep a long story short as best I can. <es>So for the past few years I've gained a very intense relationship with drugs.<ee> <es>I've done almost all of the usual drugs minus meth/heroin.<ee> <es>I gained a particular interest in coke.<ee> <es>(Shitty friends + shitty abusive relationship with an a...
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what would help control your urge for coke
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ekk1nn
Taking Action is severely underrated!
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Hello Friends, who are trying to work on your social skill. One of the common things people suggest when it comes to improving social skills is books on overcoming shyness/anxiety, or links to youtube videos. While these are great resources to learn a skill, one can only internalize it by taking action. And massive amo...
hummus_wolf
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2020-01-05 22:24:59
socialanxiety
Hello Friends, who are trying to work on your social skill. One of the common things people suggest when it comes to improving social skills is books on overcoming shyness/anxiety, or links to youtube videos. While these are great resources to learn a skill, one can only internalize it by taking action. And massive amo...
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eiils1
Run Away
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I feel like a petal on the wrong flower. A sparkle from the wrong fire. A cloud in the wrong sky. An island in the wrong sea. A star in the wrong space. A black void in the wrong galaxy. All I want is to escape, but my legs are turned backward. It was as if my head detached from my body, traveled around the world, an...
Ecaille13
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2020-01-01 14:00:47
BPD
I feel like a petal on the wrong flower. A sparkle from the wrong fire. A cloud in the wrong sky. An island in the wrong sea. A star in the wrong space. A black void in the wrong galaxy. All I want is to escape, but my legs are turned backward. It was as if my head detached from my body, traveled around the world, an...
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eoxnhb
7 years today
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Seven years ago today, on January 14, 2013, I woke up. I’d had my last drink at midnight the night before. It was unceremonious, namely because I couldn’t really get a good dunk going anymore. I watched Tina and Amy host the Golden Globes, finished my drink and went to bed. My (half-hearted) plan was to try the whole...
SouthernKitteh
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2020-01-15 04:51:16
alcoholicsanonymous
Seven years ago today, on January 14, 2013, I woke up. I’d had my last drink at midnight the night before. It was unceremonious, namely because I couldn’t really get a good dunk going anymore. I watched Tina and Amy host the Golden Globes, finished my drink and went to bed. My (half-hearted) plan was to try the whole...
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eionof
I’m really nervous and scared for how fast time is going. Does anyone have any tips?
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Hi! I [F, 25] turned 25 this past year and it definitely caused me a bit of a quarter life crisis, but besides for that, I realized how time fast was going in my life. I started to think about aging and life and how long it would last for me and my loved ones. With it turning 2020, I feel like time is running out and...
doyouhaveatuba
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2020-01-01 22:11:53
Anxiety
Hi! I [F, 25] turned 25 this past year and it definitely caused me a bit of a quarter life crisis, but besides for that, I realized how time fast was going in my life. I started to think about aging and life and how long it would last for me and my loved ones. With it turning 2020, I feel like time is running out and...
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eiu8rm
Help I really messed up
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I accidentally made my gf mad and idk if I can fix things and she’s the only thing in the world that gets me through the week and if she leaves me idk if I want to live, I’m having a panic attack and I don’t know what to do I hate myself, i wish I could take it back, i wish I just would’ve suffered in silence.
NPocky
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2020-01-02 05:55:27
BPD
<es>I accidentally made my gf mad and idk if I can fix things and she’s the only thing in the world that gets me through the week and if she leaves me idk if I want to live.<ee> <efs>I’m having a panic attack and I don’t know what to do I hate myself, i wish I could take it back, i wish I just would’ve suffered in sile...
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you accidently angered your girlfriend
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eiedgv
Anyone else scared of the new year?
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I HATE New Years because of my anxiety. I get so terrified and depressed over the new year coming in. I cannot stop thinking about "What are all the horrible things that could happen this year?". If the new year were a physical bridge I had to cross, you'd never get me to go over it. I hope others' NYE are better.
shutupmyhead
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2020-01-01 05:11:32
Anxiety
<es>I HATE New Years because of my anxiety.<ee> <efs>I get so terrified and depressed over the new year coming in.<efe> <efs>I cannot stop thinking about "What are all the horrible things that could happen this year?".<efe> If the new year were a physical bridge I had to cross, you'd never get me to go over it. I hope...
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what makes you anxious
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ei920n
SO has been inhaling RX
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I recently found out my boyfriend has been crushing or opening then snorting most of his prescription medications. We had been arguing non-stop over his marijuana addiction, but this brings it to the next level. Not just his ADHD meds, but his depression and anxiety meds too. He claims it makes them more effective. ...
TheGunslingerRises
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2019-12-31 21:23:13
addiction
<es>I recently found out my boyfriend has been crushing or opening then snorting most of his prescription medications.<ee> <es>We had been arguing non-stop over his marijuana addiction, but this brings it to the next level. <ee> <es>Not just his ADHD meds, but his depression and anxiety meds too.<ee> <es>He claims it ...
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how your boyfriend abusing medicine makes you feel
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your boyfriend is not taking medicines properly
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ep6hg2
How do I ask for help financially so I can stay at the mental hospital my psychiatrist recommends? So many people don't want to help the mental I'll. It's so sad.
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2020-01-15 18:51:22
mentalillness
<rs>How do I ask for help financially so I can stay at the mental hospital my psychiatrist recommends?<re> So many people don't want to help the mental I'll. It's so sad.
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financial help for staying at the mental hospital
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eiawck
Avoiding NYE festivities...
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A friend asked me to come over for a small NYE get together, but then she told me my former best friend was also coming, and my anxiety went through the roof. I keep telling myself that I've come to terms with not having the same relationship that we used to have. People change, right? But why is his name one of the fe...
Starmaker603
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2019-12-31 23:51:49
Anxiety
<es>A friend asked me to come over for a small NYE get together, but then she told me my former best friend was also coming, and my anxiety went through the roof.<ee> <es>I keep telling myself that I've come to terms with not having the same relationship that we used to have.<ee> <rs>People change, right?<re> <rs>But w...
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eo1f3m
I am hopelessly addicted to looking at naked women on the Internet.
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It’s so annoying. Every day I have off work I end up looking at pictures for hours and feel like I wasted my time.
Savage-Nobody
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2020-01-13 08:25:43
addiction
<es>I am hopelessly addicted to looking at naked women on the Internet.<ee> <efs>It’s so annoying.<efe> <es><efs>Every day I have off work I end up looking at pictures for hours and feel like I wasted my time.<efe><ee>
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Drinking alone on NYE
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So I'm spending another NYE alone and holed up in my room. I decided to get drunk this year, though. I feel conflicted cause I feel horrible, but the alcohol is making me feel good. I don't usually drink so this is a new feeling. I think I'm understanding why people drink, and this might become a regular thing. Cheers ...
nocturnal_data
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2020-01-01 01:29:09
depression
<es>So I'm spending another NYE alone and holed up in my room.<ee> I decided to get drunk this year, though. <efs>I feel conflicted cause I feel horrible, but the alcohol is making me feel good.<efe> I don't usually drink so this is a new feeling. I think I'm understanding why people drink, and this might become a regu...
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how you were feeling on being alone
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eib16q
Worst decade ever
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Good f\*\*king riddance, 2010s decade. &amp;#x200B; Hopefully the 2020s won't be as bad. But I'm not going to get my hopes up... &amp;#x200B; Happy New Year/Decade to you all.
EuphoricSorrow91
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2020-01-01 00:02:44
depression
<es>Worst decade ever<ee> Good f\*\*king riddance, 2010s decade. &amp;#x200B; Hopefully the 2020s won't be as bad. But I'm not going to get my hopes up... &amp;#x200B; Happy New Year/Decade to you all.
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why 2010s was the worst decade
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the past decade
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the past 10 years were bad
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ej1pcv
So anxious trying to call subway to get a interview
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So im 17 and I really want a job so I can learn how to be responsible, but IM SO fucking anxious my hands are shaking that I can’t even call them. Like what is wrong with me. I wish I wasnt like that.
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2020-01-02 18:06:00
socialanxiety
<es>So anxious trying to call subway to get a interview<ee> <es>So im 17 and I really want a job so I can learn how to be responsible, but IM SO fucking anxious my hands are shaking that I can’t even call them.<ee> Like what is wrong with me. I wish I wasnt like that.
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your anxiety
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Does life lessons learned in the past really helped you?
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survey
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I feel like its good to know things but they become useless as long as u get to know about them, because next challenges gonna teach you something new which it has no relation with your past lessons!! Hope u understand.
achourmeguenni
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0
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2020-01-02 10:43:10
selfhelp
<efs>I feel like its good to know things but they become useless as long as u get to know about them, because next challenges gonna teach you something new which it has no relation with your past lessons!!<efe> Hope u understand.
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What made you feel X ?
this? Is there anything in particular
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ej4ujy
6 months clean
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rant
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Now I’m not lol big rip in the chat.
Qispies
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2020-01-02 21:44:49
selfharm
Now I’m not lol big rip in the chat.
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Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
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ejdq9e
How to help my depressed flat mate?
1b
help-seeking
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So my flat mate has pretty bad depressed but is also getting therapy for this. However, they’re not engaging with it. On top of this they’ve spent the last week doing nothing, claiming that they’re ill. When I say nothing I mean that they’ve not even had a shower or brushed their teeth. This has been going on for a...
hgrobin
5
0
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2020-01-03 10:35:57
mentalillness
<es>So my flat mate has pretty bad depressed but is also getting therapy for this.<ee> <es>However, they’re not engaging with it. <ee> <es>On top of this they’ve spent the last week doing nothing, claiming that they’re ill.<ee> When I say nothing I mean that they’ve not even had a shower or brushed their teeth. <es>...
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Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
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Can you elaborate more on X ?
how you feel about your flatmate not bothering with therapy
Can you elaborate more on X ?
what would help your flatmate see therapy seriously
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eii8ah
Boyfriend in hospital
1b
survey
1
So we were in a big fight and I looked away for just a second and next thing I know I’m ripping away a knife from him and he has u cut down to the bone and his mom took him to the hospital but I’m freaking out He said I had to promise I would never break up with him And I am so so so scared One about the fight bc o...
esc-tay
1
0
1
2020-01-01 13:15:00
selfharm
<es>So we were in a big fight and I looked away for just a second and next thing I know I’m ripping away a knife from him and he has u cut down to the bone and his mom took him to the hospital<ee> <efs>I’m freaking out .<efe> <es>He said I had to promise I would never break up with him .<ee> <efs>And I am so so so sca...
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Can you elaborate more on X ?
what would help you control your emotions
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exlbzr
Advice on Domestic Violence - living with a parent (long story)
1b
help-seeking
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My story's a long one, but I'll cut it short as possible: Y'see I'm adopted, the circumstances of why, because my biological mother almost beat me to death .. was jailed for it and then on the 2nd occurrence was forced into giving me up for adoption. Later on, was adopted by this couple, seemed to take good care of m...
AuSSiETiG3R
1
0
1
2020-02-02 08:11:15
domesticviolence
My story's a long one, but I'll cut it short as possible: <es>Y'see I'm adopted, the circumstances of why, because my biological mother almost beat me to death .. was jailed for it and then on the 2nd occurrence was forced into giving me up for adoption.<ee> <es>Later on, was adopted by this couple, seemed to take go...
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