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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hi5mua/im_here_to_talk_about_anything_for_anyone_that/
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Incognito98789
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I’m here to talk about anything for anyone that wants to talk Please don’t hesitate to reach out. I can’t promise I’ll be fast at replying but I promise I will reply
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| 1,734,649,186
| 0
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1haveqy/anonymous/
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Individual-Pin-6935
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Anonymous Im really tired of everything when I die I hope it all just ends
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| 1,733,811,283
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h4chwa/every_single_small_thing_makes_me_wanna_kill/
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Individual-Use-8751
|
Every single small thing makes me wanna kill myself Life is hard
| 2
| 1,733,084,487
| 2
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| 2
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hefku5/i_choose_to_live/
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Individual_Tea_3273
|
I choose to live 🌝 I choose to stay alive because I have very supportive parents, and I will keep pushing until the end, whatever it takes.
| 0
| 1,734,219,138
| 0
| 0
| 0
| 0
| 0
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hb1mxz/im_relapsing/
|
Inevitable_Dish4537
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I’m relapsing I thought I was okay but something set me off and I can’t stop thinking about harming myself or worse
| 2
| 1,733,837,004
| 2
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h6fywk/im_so_tired/
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Informal-Pie-7919
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I'm so tired 😴 Long story short. Was engaged to an abusive man had two kids with him he almost killed me I escaped with both kids he's in prison I wait three years try to start dating again get raped/stabbed, spent a month in the hospital now due to missing work got fired, got a new job but don't make enough to get by so I constantly starve so my kids can eat and now I can't afford Christmas so I'm failing them. I'm tired in every sense of the word I can't do it anymore
| 1
| 1,733,318,872
| 1
| 1
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| 1
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hgndb6/love_wont_save_you/
|
InitialPomegranate45
|
love wont save you stop it
| 0
| 1,734,476,362
| 0
| 0
| 0
| 0
| 0
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hliaod/trying_to_make_it_past_christmas_but_i_dont_think/
|
Inside-Turnip8757
|
Trying to make it past Christmas but I don’t think I can Already have my plan in place. I’ve been suicidal on and off for about 15 years and I just don’t have the will to live anymore. There’s nothing left I want to see, or do. I’ve made peace with my decision. Even a little bit excited. I’m just trying to save my family the additional trauma by carrying it out on Christmas, but I don’t see myself making it another 12 hours. I just want to be free already.
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| 1,735,061,483
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hmdnf2/i_feel_like_im_severely_misunderstood/
|
Interceptionister
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I feel like I'm severely misunderstood For context, im autistic and ibhave a very shirt fuse because of it. Today we went to visit our family that lives in another city and me, my older brother and my cousins went to play a random game they picked. I had a lot if trouble understanding the rules and instead of trying to explain the rules a little simpler, one cousin and my brother, (both of which i was good friends with) started calling me stupid and said they were gonna kill me out of frustration. After that pressure I completely crashed out and started cussing them out for intentionally hurting my feelings, and suddenly I was the bad guy. Was I in the wrong?
| 0
| 1,735,176,057
| 0
| 0
| 0
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h944go/my_suicidal_thoughts_have_been_getting_worse/
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Internal-Anything781
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My suicidal thoughts have been getting worse Im 15m i just found out my ex fling is pregnant im mentally unfit for a child i cant do it, but i cant live with the fact in doing the same thing my father done to me , since ive found out i just wanted to commit suicide. I dont know how to tackle what im tackling im diagnosed with bipolar 2 i have no clue if im having an episode or not but my current girlfriend i feel will leave me if she finds out i cannot take that she is all i have. How can you stop the thoughts?
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| 1,733,610,875
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1ho1iid/suicidal_over_chronic_illness/
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International-Dot-34
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Suicidal over chronic illness Hi there,
I have been chronically ill and out of work for a while now. It's been a struggle. I have spent thousands of dollars on treatment and not anywhere near recovery.
All I do all day long is lay in bed and watch cartoons, because my attention span is so bad from the brain fog from my illness that I can't focus on anything else.
Wanted some support here to see if anyone else has these kinds of thoughts while dealing with a chronic disease? Or just support in general. Really down about this and think about suicide all day every day.
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| 1,735,374,619
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hnrv9l/thinking_of_ending_things_soon/
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InternetSmark
|
Thinking of ending things soon Can't really see a path forward anymore. It's the end of the line I think. I think it's time for me to go.
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| 1,735,341,446
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h4p2he/i_couldnt_take_meds_and_now_im_having_a_panic/
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IntrepidCost4461
|
I couldnt take meds and now im having a panic attack help I got sick and kept vomiting yesterday so I couldnt take my anxiety meds at night and now I woke up super stressed. I already have health anxiety and hate vomiting so its really hard for me. Im scared to take meds bc i dont want to feel sick again. It has been 7 hours since i last felt nauseus
| 0
| 1,733,122,167
| 0
| 0
| 0
| 0
| 0
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hp4rpk/i_dont_want_to_live_like_this_anymore/
|
IntrovertPug
|
I don't want to live like this anymore I just left my girl over some guy flirting with her knew I could do shit because I'm weak as hell and can't stick up for himself I don't know what to do anymore I'm doing shit at school I'm sh all the time I'm a porn addic no friend I don't want to deal with this shit anymore I wish I could just disappear without a trace just gone I just my body to not be found fuck everything.
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| 1,735,503,503
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1ho1khx/dont_quite_have_the_urge_but_the_thought_is/
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InvidumEnvious
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Don't quite have the urge, but the thought is getting more appealing Haven't felt too awful in a while, but I'm hating myself more and more. Been 3 years since my last actual attempt and maybe a month since the last time I hurt myself. The thought of actually cutting to bleed out seems more and more appealing. I just want to rest and stop feeling this way. A pathetic parasite like me wouldn't cause much of a stir, and I'd fade into obscurity pretty quick.
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| 1,735,374,873
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h7s328/what_pushed_you_from_ideation_to_execution/
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InvisibleChorus
|
What pushed you from ideation to execution? It seems that some people here are actually on the verge of executing their suicidal ideations. What flipped the switch?
| 0
| 1,733,455,843
| 0
| 0
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| 0
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hm28pv/i_feel_done_empty_depressed_thinking_about_suicide/
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InxUA
|
I feel done, empty, depressed, thinking about suicide No helplines in my country. I have been rejecting the therapy sessions. No one understands, no one thinks about me. Can't even open up to my family because they already mad at me for the current status of my life. I have no one to talk to. I don't know if I feel blessed when I die. I'm afraid that my impossible hopes will try to block my attempts again. I want to die, but I still have these impossible hopes
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| 1,735,138,974
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h4kibj/my_girlfriend_is_offended_that_i_have_suicidal/
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Iridescent_puddle23
|
My girlfriend is offended that I have suicidal thoughts I really need advice. I told my girlfriend that I have been feeling suicidal but had been hiding it because I thought I had moved past these thoughts I've had in the past. She felt bad but then she said "so am I not enough of a reason to want to live?" I honestly have no idea how to respond to that. It feels like she is making it about herself but I see her perspective as well. I love her dearly and care about her so much. But that doesn't dictate whether I want to end my life or not.
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| 1,733,106,478
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| 2
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hp4or6/why_wont_anything_work/
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Its_Mae_Mae
|
Why won't anything work? I've honestly tried everything. Ibuprofen. Tylenol. Chemicals. Other things. Why can't I just leave this earth without any struggle with myself? All the Tylenol did was fuck up my kidneys. Ibuprofen had no effect. I drank chemicals. What the fuck? I'm tired of starving myself. Of staying up all night, and when I do fall asleep its due to crying. Tired of trying to please all of those around me. Tired of pretending I'm ok when I really am not. I just want to feel peace for once in my fucking life instead of feeling like I'm worthless and a failure. If anybody has any fucking ideas on how to kill myself successfully that would honestly be great.
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| 1,735,503,284
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h5ijle/i_just_dont_want_to_do_it_any_longer/
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J-M-C-C
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I just don't want to do it any longer Depression since 14 after watching my mum die. Tried everything available to just feel ok.
Constant cycle of fighting my addictive demons and losing… and then hating myself for it before I just end up repeating the same over and over
I just want to not wake up, so I'll be free
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| 1,733,212,996
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hcyc5o/i_thought_i_had_a_reason_to_live/
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J0eMama69
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I thought I had a reason to live now she's gone. now all I have are these pills. Funny that she's gone bc of these pills.
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| 1,734,045,503
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h5as89/have_you_thought_of_how_you_would_do_it/
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J_ames03
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Have you thought of how you would do it Recently I have thought about it a lot, like where how but never when, when isn't in the question I am near the last straw but I'm hanging on as tight as I can, I know whatever way I do it I don't want my family to be the ones who find me so I would call the emergency services before hand and tell them where and how to get to me,but not give them enough time to save me, I would also do it in a way my family could have an open casket if they wanted to and I would have all my affairs in order before hand.
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hnw338/dont_know_what_to_say/
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Jango_fett_fish
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Don't know what to say My mind feels all hazy and blurry. Overwhelmed by dysphoria. Can't bring myself to do healthy stuff. Not enough for my boyfriend. Just feel generally miserable and stressed and dunno why. Gonna take about 2/3s month of my HRT to see what happens. That's what I have left
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| 1,735,354,269
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1ho5ghx/i_was_hospitalized/
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JaniestOfDoes
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I was hospitalized I've been going though a lot of stress lately, including anxiety, depression, and panic attacks. I recently had a bad break due to taking way too much THC gummies and I tried to commit. I didn't go to the hospital because it was Christmas.
I thought I was doing better and decided to go to my friends party and I felt like such a fucking loser. No one cared when I spoke, I knew no one there except for said friend. I tried making friends and I feel humiliated. This led me to spiral and now I'm in a hospital gown. So fucking fun.
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| 1,735,391,750
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h4ovg4/3_failed_attempts_in_2_days/
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JaySaidHey27
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3 failed attempts in 2 days Needless to say or go into detail. I'm exhausted. I'm so tired. I want to go home but home doesn't exist anymore. I've pushed everyone away from me in the hopes that they'd maybe get it. I just wanna give up. Most of my family is gone. And I swore I'd never leave. But I miss home..
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| 1,733,121,389
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hdjxc6/its_my_birthday_and_i_cant_feel_anything_anymore/
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JazzJared
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It's my birthday and I can't feel anything anymore. I turn 20 today… Hope everyone has a fine day, I unfortunately have a closing shift today so I'll try to push through.
| 0
| 1,734,117,512
| 0
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hew64x/i_feel_trapped/
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Jazzlike_Term_3521
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I feel trapped I've tried everything in life: a job in a company; a university career; currently, I work in a school as a teacher. It all sucked: currently I'm in a total crisis, one step away from giving up everything, but I don't have the strength to start doing anything else again. I'm alone, and I almost always have been, and the more depressed I get, the less likely it is that I'll be able to start a relationship. I go to a psychologist and a psychiatrist, but it's not working. I can't talk about it with my parents, I talk with some friends about it, but it doesn't help very much.
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| 1,734,280,077
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hcgtgu/24f_could_use_a_little_support/
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Jiayouba
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24f could use a little support Dealing with some heavy stuff, would be grateful for a little conversation
| 0
| 1,733,992,870
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h8a4df/took_18_500_mg_paracetamol_tablets/
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Jimothy-Juice
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Took 18 500 mg paracetamol tablets Basically what it says on the title. Am I gonna die?? I was sure about it before I took them but now I'm really scared and idk what to do. I don't want to tell my parents cause they'll probably ground me. I read that this much is enough to kill you
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hnm1vk/do_i_open_the_brachial_or_do_i_keep_trying_i_am/
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John-X-Watson
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Do I open the brachial or do I keep trying? I am tired. Brachial or perpetual exhaustion?
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| 1,735,325,874
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hogd0d/i_dont_know_what_to_do_anymore_i_just_feel_empty/
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Jr8506
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I don't know what to do anymore, I just feel empty and hopeless I feel alone while I'm not really alone, I feel humiliated while no one humiliates me, I'm getting sick of this world day by day, even though this world hasn't really been bad for me. I got into this boring cycle, a cycle that may be normal and not that terrible, but it's definitely boring because there's nothing special about it except for the absurdity and emptiness.
Pray for me so that I can escape from this cycle, whether the way to escape is life or death.
| 1
| 1,735,422,893
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hc9cp1/i_want_to_die/
|
JumpEmbarrassed1778
|
I want to die im only 16 but nothing good has ever happened in my life. My mom is severely depressed so it makes it hard for me to grow up while she is raising me. She has also passed adhd, anxiety, and depression down to me which makes my life feel like hell. I really dont have friends at school, and i've been bullied in the past which makes it hard for me to make friends and socialize mixed with my anxiety. I also just feel like im a failure to my entire family. Idk how to explain and maybe i sound dumb but i just feel like my life was setup for failure.
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| 1,733,965,646
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hhbmop/i_sometimes_wish_i_had_terminal_cancer/
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Justanotheruser707
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I sometimes wish I had terminal cancer I know it sounds extremely selfish but sometimes I wish I had a terminal illness. It would bring me great comfort knowing I was going to die soon and wouldn't have to go through the process of ending my life by myself.
| 1
| 1,734,555,585
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hl2zx5/help/
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Justanotheryou420
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Help Pls talk to me
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| 1,735,004,950
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1ho2lfm/i_wanna_do_it_but_i_am_scared_that_i_might_get/
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Justlaughitout
|
I wanna do it, but I am scared that I might get trap forever on this lonely apartment. I don't wanna be get stuck in my apartment as a ghost
| 2
| 1,735,379,616
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hm7sq9/im_not_trying_to_kill_myxelf_but_im_about_to_die/
|
Kakashi_is_mine_back
|
I'm not trying to kill myxelf but I'm about to die I'm so fucking high I don't know if it's just the weed I'm too high to write an opening again but I feel like I'm gonna die I'm around friends but they don't understand what I'm going through I tell them I'm high they don't understand! I feel like I'm gonna die
| 0
| 1,735,156,827
| 0
| 0
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h7m2m9/ic_ant_handle_being_an_adult/
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KaleidoscopeNice189
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ic ant handle being an adult i quit I cant do it. Its too hard. Classes are ahrd and theyre ginna be harder. EVerythings expensive. I cant do this I cant take care of myself abd my roorms a mess and i dont know how to do ANything at colegee and i feel dum. I cant do this im sorry
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| 1,733,438,486
| 0
| 0
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hm8l6z/another_suicidal_teen/
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KaleidoscopeNo2069
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Another suicidal teen How do I decide what to do with my life or figure out what I wanna do with my life???? I just dont know
| 0
| 1,735,159,366
| 0
| 0
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hdkfvt/i_cannot_take_it_anymore/
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Kalipri
|
I cannot take it anymore. I just dont know what to do anymore. Everything is bigger than me, everything is out of control. I cannot do anything for anyone. I feel helpless and hopeless and alone and responsible and unhappy.
| 0
| 1,734,118,896
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hhse9d/i_let_my_intrusive_thought_win_and_just_took_a/
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Kasen_Dev
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I let my intrusive thought win and just took a bttole of tylenol. I am tired of living tbh. I am also late for work.
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| 1,734,613,295
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hlziyh/i_think_about_suicide_everyday/
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Keviidog234
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I think about suicide everyday I hate how I'm jobless, not going out often and have really bad social skills. I just feel like I can never be fixed and suicide is the only way to solve my problems. I've attempted before and I want to attempt again, last time it was by slitting the wrists, now I'm thinking about hanging myself.
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| 1,735,128,101
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hbmvxu/i_dont_know_what_to_do/
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Key-Season-8546
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I don't know what to do So I have been compulsively been thinking about suicide for 5 months and I'm not sure what to do to make it stop. I really don't wanna take meds and I don't know what I want to do to make myself better. I don't know what to do. If anyone has been here please let me know I just need ideas on how to be happy again. I can't tell if I'm actually suicidal or if I'm just dramatic
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| 1,733,896,456
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h78gfa/i_tried/
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Key-Transition7613
|
I tried Welp, I tried to hang myself tonight. Almost passed out but then my cat started meowing, I have two. Anyways, my head hurts now, eyes kinda hurt, next time, maybe I'll try a different way.
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| 1,733,403,055
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h8uyfw/this_is_my_third_overdose_and_i_hope_i_dont_make/
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Key_Temperature_5741
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This is my third overdose and I hope I don't make it out this time I'm 15m living in Australia and I took 8000 mg of paracetamol last night hoping it kills my liver again. I have done this before and have gotten help after telling people and was treated. I also have tried overdosing on my adhd medication which killed me and I was brought back. This time I am not telling anyone close to me and I'm going to let it kill me
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| 1,733,585,687
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hdlwnb/i_am_happy_my_health_is_declining/
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Kind_Error5739
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I am happy my health is declining I stopped doing drugs a month ago then relapsed once like a week ago. I can say life's been getting so bad that not even short term pleasure is worth anymore, I have to say suffering became so bad I stopped all my addictions because of the lack of meaning for everything.
Today I started pooping and peeing blood, I hope I will die soon
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| 1,734,122,876
| 1
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hoqux0/captive_bolt_systems/
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Kindly_Entertainer_7
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Captive bolt systems Would a high powered captive bolt “actuator” be any good for one to use as a tool to make an exit permanently?
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hd7yo3/suicide/
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Kindly_Machine_6040
|
suicide does sliting your wrists kill you? i'm talking like hannah baker style.
| 3
| 1,734,078,903
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hnkqhr/i_lost_my_faith_in_humanity/
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KingRileyTheDragon
|
I lost my faith in humanity I have a hard time seeing humanity as good since it feels like so many people are just awful
| 0
| 1,735,322,467
| 0
| 0
| 0
| 0
| 1
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hbarx3/think_i_might_be_gone_soon/
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Kleptosteomaniac
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Think I might be gone soon I'm tired and it's all downhill from here so oh well. I've been doing a lot of research and so far helium inhalation seems like my best option. Carbon monoxide sounds good too but I'm not sure how I'd go through with that and I already have a plan for the helium
I know it's what's best for me, I just gotta work up the courage
Please don't try to dissuade me or tell me that "it gets better" no it doesn't. I'm not looking for that, I just wanted to share I found a way out I'm comfortable with
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| 1,733,860,933
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hf05zx/mental_breakdown/
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Kn1515
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Mental Breakdown I am a young boy presently in college. When I moved out of my city i noticed a lot of poverty around and small kids living a life full of difficulties. Now I can't concentrate even on my own studies and life and keep consistently thinking about them that why they didn't get those proviliges which other kids get . What's their fault in this .. please help me i am getting mentally exhausted after observing this unequal world....
| 0
| 1,734,290,788
| 0
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h4i6eu/help/
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Known-Scar6457
|
Help I wish I can die and not exist anymore. The demon inside me possess me for so many years and I cant shake them off . my mind is tormenting me so much that the way out for me is to just go. :(
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| 1,733,099,542
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hgmx36/suicidal_thoughts/
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Kooky_Juggernaut_347
|
Suicidal thoughts Suicidal ideation has plagued my mind due to a rapid decline in my life. Lost my girl, lost my job(80k), lost our apartment, lost seeing my kids daily(have them 3 days a week), crippling weed addiction (needs to be daily at least once), on top of blowing 60k on bullshit(nothing to show for it). I recently started taking gear which is throwing my hormones way off. I don't know if it's the gear talking or me wanting to address it finally. Either death or go to rehab.
26 y/o pnw
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| 1,734,475,143
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hciamw/i_want_to_die_but_its_painful/
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Kurisoooooo
|
I want to die but its painful. i can think of is getting drunk and drowning. hoping the numbness will mask the pain. im tired.
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| 1,733,999,681
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hlv90i/i_want_to_kill_myself_but_cant_stop_thinking_in/
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LFinch117
|
I want to kill myself but can't stop thinking in my family and how it will affect them... That used to stop me, used to be a motivation to keep going but lately is something that weights on me more and more as days pass... I keep telling myself that I'm not alone, that there's so much ahead, but the pain, the noise and the pressure to live is getting unbearable...
I been fighting with myself for so long and it drains me... I can't do nothing productive, not because I don't wanna, is just so hard to get myself into the right mentality...
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| 1,735,107,666
| 2
| 2
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1ho62ad/ocd_is_making_my_life_miserable/
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LabSquare5663
|
Ocd is making my life miserable Ocd and social isolation are making living a normal life difficult. I have no friends either so it hurts even more. I don't know how much more I can take
| 0
| 1,735,393,933
| 0
| 1
| 0
| 1
| 0
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h6yeij/still_alive_unfortunately/
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Laievski30
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Still alive. Unfortunately. I don't even know how I'm still alive. I tried to commit suicide multiple times and all my suicide attempts failed. It sucks. Autistic, bipolar 2 AND POOR! I couldn't have been more cursed. I am sick and tired of this shitty life where every day is a calvary. I didn't ask to be born, yet I am supposed to have a life full of limitations imposed by the universe.
| 1
| 1,733,365,540
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h6ox2c/i_need_someone_to_talk_to/
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Lanky_University_361
|
I need someone to talk to. I'm right now going through a very tough time. Need someone to talk to
| 0
| 1,733,340,841
| 0
| 0
| 0
| 1
| 0
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1ha3tji/bye_bye_earth/
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Last-Focus6338
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Bye bye earth I just took both a bottle of pain reliever and ibuprofen hoping it works I don't feel anything yet
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| 1,733,726,574
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1ha0zy9/im_tired/
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LastHistory5465
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im tired what are you even supposed to do when you've finally had the courage to tell someone that you've been feeling suicidal and you were met with a response of them mocking your crying. especially if that someone is someone you love endlessly
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| 1,733,716,248
| 2
| 2
| 2
| 2
| 1
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1ho8wm3/feel_off/
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LateInvestigator6528
|
Feel off I have no friends at all and every attempt failed. No one wants to be my friend and no notifications for months. I feel like im going crazy while being alone in my room every single day. It hurts man
| 0
| 1,735,402,537
| 0
| 0
| 1
| 0
| 1
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hjjaas/i_hate_being_autistic_so_fucking_much/
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Latter_Actuator8655
|
I hate being autistic SO FUCKING MUCH I'm a 21 year old adult man... but mentally I'm still a child. I can't control my impulses at all, and it feels like my brain just can't slow down. I have autism, ADHD, and BPD. This horrible combination means I'm a nightmare to be around. Having autism and absolutely 0 impulse control whatsoever... it's the worst thing in the entire world. I wish I was never born, I make my entire family's life so much worse.
| 1
| 1,734,815,487
| 1
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| 1
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hfhnvu/ill_kill_myself_because_i_couldnt_catch_tge_train/
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LawLeading622
|
I'll kill myself because I couldnt catch tge train 😡😡 I was so close to get into the train and that faggot decided to just drive away. He even saw me! I bet he was laughing his ass off.
So i'm going to kill myself instead of wauting for an eternity abd it's all the train driver's fault!
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| 1,734,350,806
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| 2
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hdicbl/i_am_mentally_exhausted_i_want_to_rest/
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Lazy_Acanthisitta35
|
I am mentally exhausted, i want to rest. I feel this way everyday. What stops me is the effect that it would do to my wife and son. But i can't take it anymore. I am very tired, no happiness anymore only sadness. Life is simply everyday torture.
| 1
| 1,734,113,381
| 1
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hd4gx3/happy_holidays/
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Leading-Direction870
|
Happy Holidays ~ today I learned; my wife's been fucking my brother in my house ! Hohoho 28m 27f two kids 9-2
| 0
| 1,734,064,503
| 0
| 0
| 0
| 0
| 0
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hdcp8c/planning/
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Leather_Taste_9229
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planning I joined this subreddit a while ago and been reading posts and comments hoping I find something worthwhile which makes me wanna live. I'm writing this to let myself know I fought the thoughts, a lot. but I guess I'm done fighting. my parents are totally unaware what I'm planning, I'm planning to die tonight
I have no will to live nor do I think I'll find it anytime soon.
have previously suffered from depression but never attempted anything. tired and exhausted of myself and my thoughts. my family is tired of having to bear with me. hope I succeed and not have to face myself again.
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| 1,734,098,112
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hjuy1u/im_not_built_for_life/
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Left-Statistician-35
|
Im not built for life I'll keep this short. I don't think I'm built to be alive. I don't think the world is meant for me. I want to kill myself but, in doing so, I would just hurt more people. A part of me still thinks it's unhealthy to think all of this even thought I know it's true. The matter of the fact is that the world is not for me. People are not for me. Love is not for me. Nothing is for me. How do I make that questioning part go? I want to convince myself I don't deserve to live.
| 2
| 1,734,858,277
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hkdrqv/im_only_staying_for_my_dog/
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Legitimate-Remote221
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I'm Only Staying For My Dog Last year, my wife left me for someone else because she was tired of dealing with my disability. I had to move back in with family who are convinced I am an idiot. Everything I do is questioned or second guessed. If I didn't have my fur baby, I would be gone.
| 2
| 1,734,920,109
| 1
| 2
| 1
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h793po/is_slitting_your_wrists_painful/
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LexingtonBritta
|
Is slitting your wrists painful Is the blood draining painful?
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| 1,733,405,108
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| 3
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h8agd5/im_going_to_the_mental_hospital_please_wish_me/
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LextheDevil_
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Im going to the mental hospital. Please wish me farewell im so nervous… After 4 years im finally going…
| 0
| 1,733,515,705
| 0
| 0
| 1
| 0
| 0
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h6etmy/getting_told_to_kll_yourself_multiple_times/
|
LifeIsHorrible_
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Getting told to k!ll yourself multiple times through your many years of life doesn't mean you should. If they tell you with words, videos, forums, or
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| 1,733,315,303
| 0
| 0
| 0
| 0
| 0
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hfyni5/i_dont_know_if_i_want_a_future/
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Limp_Egg2210
|
I don't know if I want a future It feels so pointless to aim for a future the way the world is going. Climate disasters will ruin our economy and agriculture leading to some fucked dystopia. What point is there in a future if it's a wasteland of glass, steel, silicone, and concrete without an animal in sight. I'll watch thousands of animals and plant life go extinct before I turn thirty, and by then it'll be too late to undo what we've done on earth. We'll have to live (if we even can) with uncomfortably hot temperatures, flooding, and a ruined environment.
| 1
| 1,734,396,867
| 0
| 1
| 1
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| 1
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h4jui7/i_plan_on_doing_it_tonight_got_hundreds_of_pills/
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Little-Ad226
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i plan on doing it tonight. got hundreds of pills from my grandmothers stash wrote my letter. gonna wash everything down with alcohol. i have no fight in me left. I'll never be successful, own a home, have children or a wife. or just have some type of stability. Im too mentally ill. im 25 and feel like i have no value to offer this world. i dont even want to die, i just feel like i have to. Im also a music artist and i go by "sadboisurge" across all platforms everything produced by me. if anyone cares. probably my only accomplishment. But in the grand scheme of things im just a statistic, who overstayed his welcome.
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| 1,733,104,455
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hebbfw/i_dont_know_if_im_suicidal/
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Logical_Psychology20
|
i don't know if im suicidal i have this overwhelming sense of what if i just diseappeared. i don't know how to describe it. im a medical student. i know these feelings often correlate with depression but for some reason, i just feel like a fraud. i don't feel depressed. i feel like a fraud. like i don't deserve the opportunities i have. like i shouldn't burden anyone with my presence. i just want to disappear and if i did i wonder if it will matter? sorry if this is not the right place or i didn't make much sense.
| 1
| 1,734,207,024
| 1
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| 1
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1ha3ysz/my_life_is_so_bad_it_has_always_been_bad_since_i/
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Lonely_Poor_DelhiGuy
|
My life is so bad it has always been bad since I can remember and now I've been thinking of offing myself too often I wish I would get eaten up by the earth.
| 2
| 1,733,727,165
| 2
| 2
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hf5o22/this_shouldnt_do_anything/
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Longjumping_Quiet_26
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this shouldn't do anything will 5000mg of paracetamol do anything to me
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| 1,734,306,001
| 3
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hkujbg/i_need_help/
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Loud-Platypus7600
|
I need help I'm meet my long distance partner soon and I need help hiding my scarring from them.
This month I had a really bad episode that left my leg in a bad state.My partner has been trying to help me stop but it didn't work and I know that once they see the damage they'll react badly to it. I need help immediately to hide or to lose the scars before I meet them, I only have less than 3 weeks and I'm scared of them breaking up with me.
| 0
| 1,734,979,879
| 0
| 0
| 0
| 0
| 0
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1harcfu/looking_for_someone_to_talk_to/
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Louis_Toadvine_HT
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Looking for someone to talk to Is anyone around to talk? Really need some help.
| 0
| 1,733,797,617
| 0
| 0
| 0
| 1
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h7pwtv/why_doesnt_suicide_teach_people_a_lesson/
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LoveTurtles24
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Why doesnt Suicide teach people a lesson? Families still mistreat their children, Bosses still mistreat their employees, teachers still mistreat their students, and then the general public still mistreats people. Why can't anyone change their behavior so that people feel more loved and less likely to end their lives?
| 0
| 1,733,449,207
| 0
| 0
| 1
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hhg8lc/is_there_suicidal_characters_that_dont_kill/
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Low_Goat1502
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Is there suicidal characters that don't kill themselevs I want a character to relate to that does not just end up killing the selves
| 0
| 1,734,568,121
| 0
| 0
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hdb17m/i_want_to_kms_i_want_to_kms_i_want_to_kms_i_want/
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Lucasplayz234
|
I WANT TO KMS I WANT TO KMS I WANT TO KMS I WANT TO KMS I WANT TO KMS I WANT TO KMS I WANT TO KMS My grades will never get better, I have only math and chemistry higher than 90 and the rest is just between 80 and 90 and they r not enough for my dream college
| 2
| 1,734,092,507
| 2
| 2
| 2
| 2
| 2
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hgp3z9/i_did_it/
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Luminarygemfairy11
|
I did it Took a handful of olanzapine. Just waiting now.
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| 1,734,481,343
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1honah6/suicidal_while_black/
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Lumpy-Pomelo-984
|
suicidal while black i feel like i have no one to talk to. having suicidal thoughts is such a taboo topic in my culture and my family would just blame it on me not going to church or not worshipping god, when even when i was forced to go to church, i still had suicidal thoughts. no one would take me seriously and i have no idea how to talk about my feelings because of the stigma around being depressed in a christian black family.
| 2
| 1,735,443,818
| 2
| 2
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hn5nc2/i_dont_know_what_im_going_to_do/
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Lumpy_Entrance_7663
|
I don't know what I'm going to do I'm about to enter the adult world but I feel I've never got proper advice to fucking thrive in this world nobody taught me anything I've made terrible life choices my grades are terrible and as of right now I see no point in even trying anymore
| 0
| 1,735,269,600
| 0
| 1
| 1
| 1
| 1
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hadxm4/my_friend_texted_me_and_i_backed_out/
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Lunanair
|
My friend texted me and I backed out It was impulsive. I was feeling bad and I had mustered the motivation and courage to go.
Then while I was going through with it, one of my friends texted me. I felt so guilty I went back on it and took a shower.
I live to see another day, but I feel awful. Not only because I failed, but also because I have to keep silent about it. It all feels so... meaningless, especially after I've tried to throw it out.
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| 1,733,762,469
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hl39yv/help_i_have_suicidal_thoughts/
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M00NWoon
|
Help I have suicidal thoughts I have these suicidal thoughts in my mind and in the bible, it says that commiting suicide or being suicidal is a sin. I want to tell my parents and my friends but I'm scared. :( I wanna reach out to someone but I don't know who. I already tried praying but nothing's working. I know its gonna get worse from the future
| 2
| 1,735,005,869
| 2
| 2
| 2
| 2
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h8qjcv/what_am_i/
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Mac97z
|
What am I I died 2 years ago, I'm unrecognizable, my brain works on extreme slow levels, I've lost all functioning of self, I haven't showered or brushed or helped anyone for months, I've damaged my healthy family. I can't seem to kill myself even after multiple stupid attempts. I should die for the good of my family and the community and I know this, I'm trying to go to the beach to drown, I'm postponing it alot. I should really do it for my family so they get back to normal and live happy
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| 1,733,570,819
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h6t83w/i_cant_go_on_like_this/
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MacheteCrocodileJr
|
I can't go on like this... I hate myself I really do.
I see people here struggling with real issues people that have gone through insane traumatic experiences.
Then there's me, who's just been dumped 2 months ago.
And I just can't fucking handle it anymore, I exercise every day, I walk because the sun should help I take antidepressants, it's all fucking pointless.
I just keep thinking about hurling myself in front of a train.
Before I was cutting some food in the kitchen and my kitchen knife just looked so tempting, I'm just so fucking tired of being fucking alive
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| 1,733,351,375
| 3
| 3
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hl2mk9/im_tired/
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Maleficent-Rise2221
|
im tired I'm tired of everything, mostly myself and how society is, this world is so ugly, it's not at all like I imagined it when I was younger, I used to be optimistic and determinated, now I barely have the motivation to type this. Even if I were to change, the world won't. Society, people, our governments it's all so ugly and it's only getting worse, I wasn't meant for this world. Goodbye.
| 1
| 1,735,003,728
| 1
| 1
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| 1
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hcxjoe/i_just_attempted_to_overdose/
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MallObjective4165
|
I just attempted to overdose I took an ungodly amount of sleeping pills and for some reason I'm still here.
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| 1,734,043,282
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h58jss/self_harming_is_the_only_thing_keeping_me_at_bay/
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Many-Seaweed-6400
|
Self harming is the only thing keeping me at bay I keep spiraling being filled with anxiety and depression and so much stress that self harm is the only way I feel happy and in control while also grounded. Whenever I get suicidal thoughts I get extremely anxious and cutting just feels like my only solution but I know it's bad and don't know how to stop.
| 2
| 1,733,180,487
| 0
| 2
| 2
| 2
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hc9ola/i_just_really_need_someone_to_talk_to/
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MariiJags
|
I just really need someone to talk to Preferably someone long term where we can check in on each other and be accountability partners. Life is a bit too much for me right now, and I have no one to talk to.
| 0
| 1,733,966,611
| 0
| 1
| 0
| 0
| 0
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hidemc/to_everyone_here/
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Massive_List_801
|
To everyone here To everyone in the Reddit you are worth it a thousands times over, you are special you all matter and believe it because I understand wanting to end yourself. I had a few thoughts of taking my own but I never go through with it no matter how hard my life gets I won't or maybe one day. The point is you all are special and deserve to live
| 0
| 1,734,674,626
| 2
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hi0839/im_gonna_do_it_onfg/
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MasterSprinkles847
|
I'm gonna do it onfg Idc if I'm a kid I am gonna do it I'm so sick and tired of being treated like shit everyday I'm so tired of being bad at everything I am useless I can't do shit I'm ugly I'm weird
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| 1,734,634,735
| 4
| 2
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hmq27a/i_keep_waiting_for_something_to_change_but_it/
|
Master_Plant_3135
|
I keep waiting for something to change but it doesn't I don't have the will to live anymore. My whole child hood I was abused by my mother & always told myself growing up that when I am an adult I will find my person & have children & give them all the love I never had.
Now at 35 I realise that dream is most likely not going to happen. I don't want to live alone anymore & the thought of it makes me just want to end it now.
I have tried so hard to date and every date just ghosts me. I understand why though, why would anyone want to date a suicidal depressed person. Let alone breed with them.
| 2
| 1,735,225,324
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hcnmn8/attempt/
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MasterpieceTasty7195
|
Attempt?? i took 8 500 mg paracetamol pills. do u guys think ill survive now 😹 (hope i wake up dead pls anyone above me do it)
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| 1,734,017,541
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hj8xtt/overdosing_right_now_because_im_ugly_and_stupid/
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MasterpieceUpbeat563
|
overdosing right now because im ugly and stupid i will describe the process in detail if anyone wants to know how painful it is to die from paracet, so maybe others will be deterred
its my punishment for having no personality of my own, a pathetic jobless ugly loser
a fucking doormat because if i werent, i would have no love at all
everyone i care about have found their replacaments so i dont feel guilty about this at all, i think im doing them a favor
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| 1,734,784,332
| 6
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hp1hw5/i_have_realised_i_will_never_receive_humen/
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Matveim
|
I have realised I will never receive humen affection and dreams. So basically I am on weed withdrawal and I had a vivid dream which has destroyed my day. Basically the dream was about a girl which abandoned me. It felt like somebody stabbed me and I woke up in so much mental pain that I just balled up and sobbed for 2 hours. I have the feeling of extrem loss. Iam never going to experience somebody hugging me out of affection without an exterior motive.
Fuck
| 0
| 1,735,494,871
| 0
| 0
| 1
| 0
| 1
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h8pdyx/decapitation/
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Meadowind
|
Decapitation Hi! I have found a perfect way to commit suicide, I'm thinking of doing it within a year. So, tie a knot on one end of a very long rope to tree, and another one around the neck. Sit in a car and push the gas pedal all the way, with the rope going through the trunk. If one does not have such a long rope, a solution would be driving down a cliff or a hill with the same setup.
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| 1,733,565,681
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| null | 5
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hai9xe/failed_my_suicide_attempt/
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Meanpoptart
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Failed My Suicide Attempt Took a bunch of pills, chased it with alcohol and got drunk last night. Blacked out and woke up confused. Glad I'm still here. It gets better.
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hpq3a7/need_to_vent/
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Meikmik
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Need to vent I need someone to talk to. Anyone right now.
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