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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1ha5n8i/can_someone_talk_to_me_plzzzz/
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Open-Green3019
|
Can someone talk to me plzzzz? I am so lonely now and I need someone to talk to me
| 0
| 1,733,734,635
| 0
| 0
| 0
| 0
| 0
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hnsiud/i_hate_how_volatile_my_emotions_are/
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Open_Durian_3742
|
I hate how volatile my emotions are I hate how I'll mood swing so often. I hate myself. I just want to vent and I'm not going to kill myself. I hate how much I'll get so sad or angry for no reason. I think I have autism.
| 0
| 1,735,343,335
| 0
| 1
| 0
| 1
| 1
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hbquw1/need_someone_to_talk_to/
|
Opening_Newt_3811
|
Need someone to talk to (19F) I don't have any friends and need someone to talk/vent to.
| 0
| 1,733,914,183
| 0
| 0
| 0
| 0
| 0
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1heutq8/i_cant_stand_myself/
|
Ordinary_View_499
|
I can't stand myself I piss myself off with everything I do, nothing I do is perfect enuf, I used to struggle thinking that strangers whre judging me, but now I jst fvking hate myself for everything I do and how imperfect it is
I keep imagining like a better version of myself and how they wldve handled a situation, I keep thinking, damn,, if I ws jst prettier and skinnier and clearer complexion or mybe a more chic popular insta page this social interaction wldve went btr
People r really jst out to get you, if your lacking like me in a social situation your 100% the first one to be attacked, no stranger is wishing for you to succeed, everyone jst wana see you fail
| 0
| 1,734,276,349
| 0
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hb7bgb/need_affirmations_so_that_i_stay/
|
OrganicDiscussionk
|
Need affirmations so that i stay So im currently in a psychiatric hospital and really struggling. My nurse told me to create some affirmations but im not very creative.
Do any of you have some good?
| 0
| 1,733,852,267
| 0
| 0
| 1
| 0
| 0
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hixznz/i_might_kms_tn/
|
Ornery_Horse9835
|
i might kms tn. you read that right. im tired. tired of acting like im fine and that nothing bothers me. everything bothers me. i've already written my notes, and i feel so selfish. im just leaving my mom, baby sister (she's 7 months old), brother, friend, and boyfriend just because i've only gotten worse since it started (11-14). i want someone, ANYONE, to try to talk me out of it. i just want this to be over
| 6
| 1,734,741,073
| 6
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h4usf6/exhausted/
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Otherwise-Band6030
|
Exhausted Goddamn shit keeps getting worse. I can't keep up and I can't get ahead. My clocks ticking, I do not want to be here anymore. People say their 20's is the funnest and best time to have fun. If this is supposed to be fun I don't wanna see the future I'm so done.
| 1
| 1,733,145,605
| 1
| 1
| 1
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hohu3t/is_committing_suicide_brave_or_cowardly/
|
Otherwise_Error_3864
|
Is committing suicide brave or cowardly? Ending your own life seems unnatural and against your own nature, some people labelled it as an brave act, at least post mortem, when somebody already committed. For me this conclusion makes sense. It's not an easy decision and often has valid reasons.
Others see it as running from obligations and not sticking through till the end. I can also see why this is true. Running from everything without knowing how it will end, just taking guesses, also seems not right.
What is it? Everybody seems to have a different answers. The more suicidal, the more "brave" people potray it, probably also as coping mechanism, it seems, but I don't know.
| 0
| 1,735,427,051
| 0
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h3zz02/how_can_i_do_this/
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Otherwise_Law_2289
|
How can I do this? I can't keep living like this. I've tried talking to more people, connecting to others and socialising but it just makes me feel worse. My depression spiked yesterday and I just can't keep doing this. I wish to just die, I want to die. I want more methods n how to do this but jumping seems the better option. I can't keep on like this
I feel so selfish even thinking of this but I can't keep living like this. I want to die but I'm scared but I guess I'll conquer it tmr
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| 1,733,046,619
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hcb7bq/blood/
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Otherwise_Tutor_9589
|
Blood I can't stop fantasizing cutting my wrists and blood pumping all over, I look at my wrists with razor in my hand and I know exactly where to cut. I fantasize it so much that I almost see blood pouring down, it's like a fever dream. I look at that point for minutes, but then I don't cut. I stop myself, but this fantasy is hunting me. I don't want to hurt myself no more. I don't know what to do
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| 1,733,971,315
| 3
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hojtry/i_want_to_go_to_sleep_and_not_wake_up/
|
Outrageous-Way576
|
i want to go to sleep and not wake up my grandfather doesn't remember me since i've transitioned i don't know what to do i haven't felt this bad in so long.
| 1
| 1,735,432,838
| 1
| 1
| 1
| 1
| 1
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1heexyx/mental_health/
|
Outrageous_Mind5579
|
Mental health. Ive been struggling with mental health for a long time now and dont know what to do. Ive resorted to self harm and wanna commit suicide. I dont eat i get barely any sleep and im scared to tell anyone because last time i did i got called "lazy" and "selfish".
| 2
| 1,734,217,266
| 4
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hl0qp7/i_cant_take_it_anymore/
|
Outside_Education455
|
I cant take it anymore ive been neglected and starved for my whole life, nobody loves me, i suck at everything, i have permanent brain damage, im ugly, stupid, forgetful, problematic, and worthless i just wanted love and i found love, but then she started ignoring me and i started to talk to somebody else, we were still dating and i was talking to somebody else, i betrayed the only person that loved me, im undeserving of love and i deserve to die
| 2
| 1,734,997,737
| 2
| 1
| 2
| 2
| 2
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hbh3hr/im_supposed_to_be_dead_in_four_days/
|
Outside_Throat_3667
|
I'm supposed to be dead in four days my date is coming up. It's in four days, December 14th. I planned this awhile ago. I don't want to but I feel like I need to. everything will be easier
| 5
| 1,733,877,703
| 5
| 5
| 5
| 5
| 5
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hiyp92/i_want_to_end_it_tonight/
|
Over-Share7202
|
I want to end it tonight I want to end it tonight. I can't. My family would never forgive me. But every god damn day I pray to a god I don't believe in, begging for death. At least something natural and “out of my control” so it can't be held against me. I don't care if I get sick (which I'm already chronically ill and physically unable to even leave my own god damn house), hit by a car, a fucking brain aneurysm, anything. Just make it stop. Please make it stop
| 3
| 1,734,743,310
| 4
| 4
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| 2
| 2
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hjh6fa/not_in_a_good_place/
|
Over_the_Stars_666
|
Not in a Good Place I'm in a place of deep depression. And I need help.
| 0
| 1,734,809,318
| 0
| 0
| 1
| 1
| 1
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h7cypu/it_doesnt_get_better/
|
Overall_Influence_97
|
It doesnt get better ? For context I have been suicidal for a very long time of my life.. It became worse after my gf left me (now ex).. yet I have tried to hold on, live normally and enjoy my life since everyone said it will get better with time and that I will get over it.. It has been 8 months and even though it no longer hurts I still miss her and just wish to die and be at peace. It seems like it doesnt get better afterall.
| 2
| 1,733,415,708
| 2
| 2
| 2
| 2
| 1
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hbwaae/ive_overdose/
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OwlEarly3986
|
I've overdose I've just taken about 30 500mg paracetamol tablets, Idk i think i might die.
| 6
| 1,733,931,700
| 6
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| 6
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hge5br/iam_gonna_do_it_tomorrow/
|
Own_Fox_3160
|
Iam gonna do it tomorrow Finally I have decided to hang myself tomorrow. Just do it. I will take alcohol and hang myself tomorrow when nobody will be at home. I love you all
| 5
| 1,734,452,187
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hevwjk/i_dont_know_what_to_do/
|
Page-Fair
|
I don't know what to do. My youngest cat broke one of her fangs and I can't afford the vet bill. I want to surrender her, but that costs money. I can't bear to watch her suffer.
| 0
| 1,734,279,329
| 0
| 0
| 0
| 0
| 0
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hb2q3x/is_this_weird/
|
Paggle__
|
Is this weird? I'm only a teenager, with a good family life and amazing friends and gf. But I still want to die, sure SOME bad stuff happened to me..but I still feel like I have no reason to feel bad. I feel like two people are controlling me at once, and the other me that's in my head knows who I truely am. They're the only one that who knows who I truely am. I had thoughts of suicide since 2022 but this year has only gotten worse, each week feels like an eternity but I can't help but feel like I'm wasting my life away, everything I love either leaves me or dies. I don't know how much more I can take
| 2
| 1,733,840,202
| 2
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h3ynhj/and_once_you_are_awake_you_shall_eternally_remain/
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Pale_Consequence2765
|
And once you are awake, you shall eternally remain awake. <3
| 0
| 1,733,040,795
| 0
| 0
| 0
| 0
| 0
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hao5jk/im_tired_of_addiction/
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Pale_Reflection_4225
|
I'm tired of addiction I drink every night and smoke week everyday. I abuse my prescription medications. I have an eating disorder that I can't stop. It's been some form of addiction for 8 years and I'm tired. I'm tired and it's ruined my life. I want to end it all so I don't have to experience addiction anymore. I've tried so many times to stop my behaviours but they always come back. Life isn't worth living if it's like this.
| 1
| 1,733,788,219
| 4
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h7zz5l/goodbye/
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PancakeGirl3
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Goodbye. By the time you read this I'm gone. Bye.
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| 1,733,487,088
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hop5um/im_not_strong_enough/
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ParkAffectionate3971
|
I'm not strong enough I can't do this anymore negative emotions hit be hard and I go into bad ways of coping I honestly don't know how long I'm going to hold for and at this point I just don't want to feel anymore this hurts this hurts so much I just can't anymore
| 1
| 1,735,450,307
| 1
| 1
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| 1
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h88es6/well_attempt_two_failed/
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ParsleyBig4625
|
Well attempt two failed Ever since I got out of the military, life seems to have no meaning. I struggle with anxiety and depression to the point I have attempted suicide twice, the last attempt was last night. The first time I took all my medicine at one, two whole bottles, and ended up in a hospital for a week then a psych ward for two and a half weeks. Last night I attempted to hang myself but the limb broke about 10 seconds into it. I hate myself for even doing those things but I can't see any light at the end of the tunnel. My marriage is strained the relationship with my kids is strained I go to therapy but what's it all for?
| 6
| 1,733,510,451
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h62sfr/just_turned_34_lost_my_job_in_debt_up_to_my/
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Past_Definition3000
|
Just turned 34. Lost my job. In debt up to my eyeballs. Bipolar 2. I'm just tired. I've considered suicide but don't think I really have the courage to do it. I just got served papers for a credit card debt. My last 4 jobs have lasted less than a year, which looks great on a resumé /s. I just don't feel like life is worth it anymore. My life is worth -30k.
| 0
| 1,733,271,780
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| 2
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h73jhp/benadryl_overdose/
|
Pee67
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benadryl overdose I've taken a total of 500 mg of benadryl tonight (200 a few hours ago and then 300 about 30 minutes ago) but now I regret what I've done, will I be okay?
| 6
| 1,733,382,745
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h8djbz/overdosing/
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Perfect_Big887
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Overdosing. Idk why I'm posting this.
Im 18. My life is so fucked up and it's all my own fault. I don't want to get into it but trust me, you should hate me. I have down AWFUL things and am an absolute joke to so many people and I get why.
I doubt this will work but I have 900mg of sertraline alongside quetiapine and melatonin, taking some two bottles of strawberry vodka with that too.
I hope this works even if it's a slim chance. If not I have razor blades and if I get drunk enough next time I'll probably do something drastic.
I should've done this forever ago.
| 6
| 1,733,523,931
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hm7p35/struggling/
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Perrin-Golden-Eyes
|
Struggling It's Christmas, I'm so filled with anxiety and depression and I am just so tired of people being awful to each other. Honestly, I am just so tired. Why is life so damned long.
| 0
| 1,735,156,508
| 0
| 1
| 1
| 1
| 1
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hbkl8v/what_pushed_you_to_this_point/
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PersimmonNarrow5999
|
What pushed you to this point? I am curious to know how many people here are feeling they are pushed to the edge of tehy have financial struggles and feel hopeless?
I am asking because I have been there done that and I may have a way to really help people. Im in the exploring stage but I wanted to first see if this is something I should be spending my time on.
| 0
| 1,733,888,416
| 0
| 0
| 1
| 0
| 0
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hcgzgt/a_death_in_the_family/
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Petena7873
|
A death in the family A close family member committed suicide yesterday, his 10 year old daughter found him. Why am I so angry that he did this?
| 0
| 1,733,993,690
| 0
| 0
| 6
| 0
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hm92gv/the_worst_day_of_my_life/
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Philosophighi
|
The worst day of my life This is has worse as it has ever been, I miss my mum my Teddy my childhood my innocence my life before this I am so sorry I beg to be free from this I miss you Molly I miss you grandad and Dolly and Rodger Badger Gwinny all of you I miss you all so dearly
| 0
| 1,735,160,871
| 1
| 1
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hc1dk1/i_attempted/
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PhilosophyNew7491
|
I attempted I failed. I tried partial hanging for 30+ minutes and it didn't work. I don't know what else to do, I don't want to try again and fail.
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| 1,733,944,395
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hlpq1r/failed_attempt_ready_to_try_again/
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Physical-Law4312
|
Failed attempt, ready to try again. T
| 6
| 1,735,085,133
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hedqgf/i_just_want_out/
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Physical_Gift3457
|
I just want out I have a day a plan and I just need a reason not to do it please help
| 5
| 1,734,213,777
| 5
| 5
| 5
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hi8xlv/ive_had_thoughts_of_hurting_myself_for_so_many/
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Physical_Tea_4929
|
I've had thoughts of hurting myself for so many years, will it ever go away Honestly since 2016 I have had thoughts of k*lling myself. I think of different ways to do it, every single day its constantly in the back of my mind. Do I think I'll ever actually do it? No because I couldn't leave my kids.
I don't know how to explain this but if I'm having these thoughts how do I make sure I don't get to the point to where I actually do it? If that makes sense. I've thought about it for so many years, one day am I just not gonna think about it anymore?
| 3
| 1,734,659,124
| 3
| 3
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h5gr48/i_hate_living_on_this_godforsaken_planet_anymore/
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PinCompetitive7107
|
I hate living on this godforsaken planet anymore (19M) Whats even the point of living anymore, Everything fucking thing is revolved around money, status or some other crap that I don't even want to think about, And no all of the so called "friends" I have don't even give a single crap about me and my parents "pretending" also to care about me and always lying to my face. So peace.
| 0
| 1,733,205,517
| 1
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hlz70p/god/
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PinkFairyQueen
|
God Does anyone else wonder why God ignores so many hurting people?
| 0
| 1,735,126,534
| 0
| 0
| 0
| 0
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h4nq7q/if_you_need_to_talk_about_something_im_here/
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Pitbull30MM
|
if you need to talk about something I'm here Really anything I'm unbiased to any situation just here to talk
| 0
| 1,733,117,051
| 0
| 0
| 0
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h6yf0h/i_dont_want_to_be_here/
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PittooYami
|
I dont want to be here I don't have the motivation to do anything or even my hobbies anymore. I only get up to do any task or chore my family makes me do. Today i relapsed after not sh for about 2 weeks, which isnt even a long time. Im so pathetic. My mom told me to wash the dished and i went to my room to bang my head against the floor. Why did i do that? Why am i acting this way? I hate it so much i just want to be gone. I hate that im here, but im only here because i know theres people who need me
| 1
| 1,733,365,580
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hbc3nx/polyamory/
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PlanAdministrative66
|
Polyamory Are there any experienced poly people that struggle a lot? I'm not looking for feedback from monogamous people. I want to talk to people that have been poly for years and know how dark it can get when you have to face your demons and insecurities right in the mirror in the most brutal ways. Looking for support...
| 0
| 1,733,864,287
| 0
| 0
| 0
| 0
| 0
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hmebqd/life_fucking_sucks/
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Plane-Intern-8219
|
Life fucking sucks Shit never gets better at this point I'm actually just better killing myself. At all times my depression could have come back, it decided to come back during the fucking holidays
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| 1,735,178,405
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1haxljz/overdose/
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Plastic_Magician_457
|
overdose i just overdosed with 49 500mg panadol tablets am i gonna die
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| 1,733,820,827
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h6gqcl/how_much_benadryl_will_kill_a_useless_bitch_like/
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Plenty_Ad240
|
How much Benadryl will kill a useless bitch like me? Female, 22, 105lbs. I just need to know how many Benadryl pills will get rid of my worthless existence. I have no life outside my room and I'll die alone with no future. I want to end things now. I can't wait to be gone.
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| 1,733,321,001
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hnapfk/hey_i_need_someone_to_talk_to/
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Plenty_Skin_4888
|
hey i need someone to talk to…? title
| 0
| 1,735,288,937
| 0
| 0
| 1
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1heo6o8/does_bathtub_and_cutting_wrist_work/
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Plus_Ad_5357
|
Does bathtub and cutting wrist work Help me go
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| 1,734,250,562
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h9awaj/could_anyone_help_me/
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PollyPocket212
|
Could anyone help me? Literally thinking about killing myself about to check in Tuesday to an resedential treatment center for an ED and today I got into a car crash. My car is not drivable at the moment and I spent evey last cent to my name ubering home. Unfortunately I haven't eaten all day due and don't have the money for food. Could anyone help me with some kinda food delivery maybe a pizza or just anything. I literally feel like my life will never look up. Any advice is also appreciated. Take care!
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| 1,733,632,297
| 2
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h5i4kk/recent_attempt_failed/
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Positive-Ad-5257
|
Recent attempt failed Got hospitalized and then sent to a maximum security mental stability center or something. After finally getting out I find myself with no money, no job, and no where to go. My parents both died recently, and my friends all turned into junkies.
I really hope I can pull something together out of thin air, I have a car but only for so much longer before it is repossessed.
If not then maybe Christmas I can give myself the best gift anyone can receive.
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h6ukus/i_discharged_from_the_mental_hospital_but_i_still/
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Potential-Formal-658
|
I discharged from the mental hospital but I still plan to kill myself. I had an overdose taking 100 ibuprofen pills and becoming very drunk. I also had a high dosage of pysch meds, which all caused me to have 7 sezuires.
I was in the hospital for 4 days and the mental hospital for 2 weeks.
They diagnosed me with BPD.
I still want to kill myself. I still have medicine leftover and still want to do it again.
I don't know what to do.
This was my 3rd attempt. Ive been to the mental hospital 6 times.
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h8zs4r/want_to_kill_myself/
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Potential-Mortgage89
|
Want to kill myself Have tried before once i overdosed with my depression and sleeping pills but it didn't kill me what are the pills that can kill please someone?
| 6
| 1,733,598,775
| 6
| 6
| 5
| 6
| 6
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h9bfuf/i_just_want_the_pain_to_stop/
|
Potential-Rip1193
|
I just want the pain to stop I'm not sure if this is the right place to post this, but I don't know where else to go. I just want to die. I'd rather be dead than live the life I do now. I want to kill myself just to make the pain of living stop. I don't even have anyone to mourn me, no friends, no family, no one. I might just do it to make the pain stop.
| 2
| 1,733,634,234
| 2
| 4
| 2
| 4
| 4
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hm0ze3/not_just_suicidal_thoughts_im_getting_kicked_of/
|
Potential-Wash4991
|
not just suicidal thoughts, im getting kicked of the room im renting on the 30th. everything is darker than before, the help im asking is teeling me how can i get 200 usd before the last day of the month, anything online work or tasks anything.
| 0
| 1,735,134,286
| 2
| 2
| 1
| 2
| 2
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1haci48/i_dont_know_how_to_bring_back_the_old_happy_me/
|
PotentialCod4765
|
I dont know how to bring back the old happy me. The spark in my eyes has gone and it looks dead now. I have a child and I know she should be my strength but sometimes the feeling of extreme sadness and tiredness makes me wanna go.
| 0
| 1,733,758,797
| 1
| 1
| 1
| 1
| 1
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hkxe2u/i_dont_know_how_to_hold_on/
|
PotentialPurple333
|
I don't know how to hold on I don't want to exist anymore. My dog is dying. My best friend said that he needed space a month ago and he hasn't talked to me since then. Yesterday I texted him about my dog's situation. He hasn't replied. This last month has been really rough for me without him, I started w a new therapist but nothing seems to help. Yesterday my parents told me the reality of my dogs situation. My dog is everything to me, and I can't be without her. I don't want to wake up tomorrow, I can't keep doing this.
| 1
| 1,734,987,885
| 2
| 1
| 2
| 1
| 2
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hcytir/every_night/
|
Potential_Impress792
|
Every night. When I get in my bed, I make a small prey to the beings out there (there must be something that rule this universe right?) to let me sleep forever. I beg the world to let me die in my sleep. I'm doing this for around a year now. It helps me mentally that I have very little needs. I hope my wish come true one night.
| 1
| 1,734,046,897
| 1
| 1
| 1
| 1
| 2
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hb461u/im_done/
|
PournamiRajesh
|
I'm done I just feel like at this point, why the fuck am I existing? I have exams... Haven't studied a shit., procrastination daily routine, can't avoid it, scared of disappointing my parents.. who work damn hard.. For me. And what the fuck am I doing? Is it possible to suicide without making it appear as suicide... Like accidentally cross the road or something or whatever? Y'all can give me some ideas
| 3
| 1,733,844,161
| 4
| 4
| 4
| 3
| 3
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h3waf9/been_thinking_of_oding/
|
Practical-Line-498
|
Been thinking of ODing Just I dont know. I feel like a burden. I have no purpose in this life. I contribute to literally nothing. I feel like God is calling me to His kingdom. I git prescribed some Aripiprasole months ago, and a quick Wikipedia research showed me that 5x the normal amount of Ariprasole is enough for an overdose. Why not?
| 4
| 1,733,031,286
| 5
| 5
| 4
| 5
| 4
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hog3g1/gone/
|
Practical-Tourist824
|
Gone Deleting every single thing about my life.
| 0
| 1,735,422,139
| 0
| 0
| 0
| 0
| 1
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hghi3t/weird_question/
|
Practical_Ad_3699
|
Weird Question Not sure if this is the right subreddit for this but probably around a year ago I tried to kill myself, not much else to it besides I'm much better now and am not suicidal neither am I depressed, but I'm writing a biography currently and I want to touch base on that part of my life a bit although I'm finding it hard to think back to that time, it's almost like I can't remember it but I know it's there (I can remember snippets almost) and have like a uncomfortable feeling when thinking about it.
It's hard to explain but I tried my best, does anyone know what this is from or is it just something that happens
Thank you in advance
| 0
| 1,734,460,805
| 6
| 6
| 6
| 0
| 6
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hnwcpp/just_tired/
|
PrestigiousBerry4437
|
Just tired 34yr old female, have 2 boys 12&2months old . And I want to just go to sleep and not wake up again but, I can't leave my babies behind. That they may experience the cruelty that I have. Been feeling like ths for few weeks now. I just want it all to end I'm exhausted mentally, emotionally and physically.
| 1
| 1,735,355,125
| 2
| 2
| 2
| 1
| 2
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1ho3uj2/i_want_to_live_but_my_brain_has_a_huge_hatred/
|
Prestigious_Bit3104
|
I want to live but my brain has a huge hatred against me. Cmon man i have so much to live for but NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO mmy ppiece of shit brain has to be on crak, and also "political situation" what is wrong wi u people for calling iit that
| 0
| 1,735,385,266
| 0
| 0
| 0
| 0
| 0
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hd0ck0/i_dont_know_who_to_turn_to/
|
Pretend_Clay
|
I don't know who to turn to I'm honestly considering trying to kill myself again, but I don't want to end up disabled. I'm already partially disabled because of a knee surgery and I don't know when it's going to get better but I couldn't imagine being a fucking vegetable for the rest of my life. I can't get out of bed, my dorm is disgusting, my friends hate me, I have no one to talk to. If I reached out to family I think they would make me leave college which would fuck up my future. I have enough pills to end it all and I don't know what to do.
| 3
| 1,734,051,373
| 6
| 6
| 3
| 5
| 4
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1ha690o/need_someone_to_talk_to/
|
Pretty_Acanthaceae_9
|
Need someone to talk to Pls
| 0
| 1,733,737,496
| 0
| 0
| 0
| 0
| 0
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1he7it1/i_am_doing_it_tonight/
|
Previous-Choice-1231
|
I am doing it tonight. I am in huge debt, I am a gambler, I have anxiety and depression. I lost everything and am not in contact with anyone from my family. I do not have a shit left, I will lose my job as bank is threatening to sue me, it is enough. I am nothing but a disappointment and will die tonight as it was intended for me from the first day. Take care of yourselves, be better than I was.
| 6
| 1,734,196,543
| 4
| 4
| 6
| 6
| 4
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hkd60s/hilarious/
|
PrinceWhiteFrog
|
Hilarious I just tried suicide by cops, called them by myself, following my script. You know, I'm a very good voice actor. Knives are ready, etc., but they don't want to come. I called them twice, and they still don't want to come. What a joke. I will burn myself with gasoline instead.
| 6
| 1,734,918,092
| 6
| 6
| 6
| 6
| 6
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hb0346/a_burnout_and_a_waste/
|
Professional-Bowl860
|
A burnout and a waste I can't deal with it anymore, I've been suicidal since I was fourteen and I've made a lot of bad decisions since, and I keep trying to change my life but it's just not happening and I don't know what to do. It wasn't supposed to be like this but it is, and I don't know how to cope with it. Now, I'm sitting for entrances again and it feels like gruelling. Every day is a struggle and I have panic attacks all the time. I wish I had died a long time ago. I really wish I wasn't here anymore.
| 2
| 1,733,831,670
| 2
| 2
| 1
| 2
| 2
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hf1hmd/i_just_tried_to_swallow_a_bunch_of_pills_i_cant/
|
Proof_Refrigerator68
|
I just tried to swallow a bunch of pills i can't take it anymore idk how to just die
| 6
| 1,734,294,383
| 6
| 6
| 6
| 6
| 6
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hmc9lx/why_wont_anybody_talk_to_me/
|
Proper-Pea4167
|
why won't anybody talk to me i've been crying and clawing at myself 2 days straight to the point my fingertips feel as numb as my thighs
all i've ever wanted was someone to listen
| 0
| 1,735,171,422
| 0
| 0
| 1
| 1
| 0
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1ho70ik/i_cant_live_another_year/
|
Proud-Wonder8557
|
i can't live another year I'm actively taking pills as I write this post, i didn't leave any letters whatsoever for my family or friends, it was more of a spontaneous attempt but it made me feel at peace more than anything...i have no idea what this'll lead to but if i passed out now my father will find me, i hope he forgives me.
| 6
| 1,735,396,990
| 6
| 6
| 6
| 6
| 6
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1ha17wv/living_is_a_sin/
|
Prudent_Bat2785
|
Living is a sin Damn who ever wrote that fake bunk le book was fucking right. Living is evil
| 0
| 1,733,717,014
| 0
| 0
| 1
| 1
| 1
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h92hce/exhaust_fumes/
|
Psychological-Job404
|
Exhaust fumes I know you can pass from exhaust fumes, but does it have to be gasoline or diesel?
| 3
| 1,733,606,206
| 5
| 3
| 3
| 3
| 3
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hexoja/final_attempt/
|
PsychologyBitter8919
|
Final Attempt 23 (F) here. I just wanted some opinions on this. I've been researching the Sodium Nitrite method and was wondering how affective would this be. I ordered from Amazon said it should be arriving by tomorrow. It's a half a pound bag. I'm going to buy nausea medication as well. planning on doing before my birthday (Jan 24th). Has anyone ever tried before and what mistakes did you make. I want this to go 100% right.
| 6
| 1,734,284,125
| 6
| 6
| 6
| 6
| 5
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hpmicv/im_horrendously_unwell/
|
Public_Candidate_391
|
Im horrendously unwell Its my fault lowkey.I jst wish i chose a different path in life
| 0
| 1,735,562,827
| 0
| 0
| 1
| 0
| 1
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h8oyom/struggling_and_alone/
|
Pure-External-5291
|
Struggling and Alone I keep having suicidal thoughts but I don't want to. I know it's not me, but life feels so fucked and like I'll never be okay. Life is so cruel and I just want a way out. I'm alone, the only person I have to reach out to is part of the problem, and they just think I'm threatening it for control. I already attempted twice last month, went to the hospital once but got discharged the same day. Started therapy. It's helping which is why I'm reaching out instead of planning now but it's still really hard and I'm struggling.
| 2
| 1,733,563,744
| 6
| 6
| 2
| 6
| 6
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hodbrj/dont_know_how_to_get_help/
|
PurgaznNings
|
Don't know how to get help! I am having a panic attack. It is mentally escalating into bad thoughts and I don't won't me to act on them. I attempted 10 days ago. It was different to the ones before. I have not talked to a psychologist about this even happening. Would have had an appointment for therapy yesterday, but it got canceled because my therapist was needed elsewhere. I am starting to really need help. I don't want to attempt again. I don't want police here though. I technically don't have anything illegal in my apartment, but I am about the just partially legalized weed. I don't know how to call for help. Any advice. I want to live but I can't help myself.
| 6
| 1,735,414,520
| 6
| 6
| 4
| 4
| 6
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h8pmm8/i_think_this_is_my_finale_post/
|
Purple-Body7233
|
I think this is my finale post. I was in nursing school, but had to drop out due to financial issues. Ive those who I know who would not hear of my death goodbye messages, and I've taken the pills. More than lasg gidm. I'm riekd now sdnd I can't see strsugt anymore. Goodbye friends.
| 6
| 1,733,566,788
| 6
| 6
| 6
| 6
| 6
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hc84am/why_do_the_smallest_things_make_me_wanna_kill/
|
PurpleStep4797
|
why do the smallest things make me wanna kill myself? i probably sound like a baby saying this but i just knocked over a can of pepsi like 20 minutes ago and i feel like killing myself, i've had worse things happen to me in life (obviously) and they dont even seem to make me feel like this at all. why do these small ass things make me feel so down???
| 2
| 1,733,962,019
| 2
| 2
| 2
| 2
| 2
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hnunhw/im_out/
|
Putrid-Club-4374
|
I'm out. 45 years old. Had an amazing life. Feel sad looking back on it all like I wish I was that guy again. He was so happy.
Lost my career. Lost my drive, inspiration. Nothing brings joy anymore.
Lived a great life. I'm payed music with some legends like Debbie Harry, mark knophler, Clapton. Tremonti. Ziggy Marley. Krieger. So many good times.
None of that matters - it's just stories.
So that's it. Did my good things and fun times. Got me my revolver finally and heading up a remote hiking trail for the grand hurrah.
Here's to the good times.
| 6
| 1,735,349,697
| 6
| 6
| 6
| 6
| 6
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hmho7n/why/
|
Putrid-Hope-147
|
Why My life is so over. I think I've seen enough and don't need to see anymore. This place is disgusting. I think some of us really aren't meant to be here and we end up with a life of torture. I know there's someplace better and it's calling
| 1
| 1,735,190,625
| 1
| 2
| 1
| 1
| 1
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hlt75z/suicide/
|
Puzzleheaded_Ad6171
|
Suicide What percentage of people attempt suicide that are completely sober?
| 0
| 1,735,098,892
| 0
| 0
| 2
| 0
| 0
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hg7q65/i_just_need_a_way_out/
|
Puzzleheaded_Line210
|
I just need a way out. I don't know what to do talk to a 7th therapist. Life can be better but it isn't and I'm tired of putting up with this shit.
| 1
| 1,734,430,944
| 1
| 1
| 1
| 1
| 1
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hmk3nb/im_sorry_everyone/
|
QualityNew6799
|
I'm sorry everyone I'm 17 and I'm traumatized. I got sexually abused, mentally, physically my whole childhood. I am deeply sorry. I need to go man I can't keep living like this. It's sad to see everyone here post their endings I guess mine too. I have the courage to do it but only my friends and family and the thought of me being dead in their lives and their grief holds me back. I guess not anymore. I'm sorry everyone, see you on the other side. God bless you
| 6
| 1,735,201,182
| 4
| 4
| 4
| 4
| 4
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hon3id/i_just_want_to_be_done/
|
QueenOfSummer12
|
I just want to be done I have been struggling with my mental health for 25/30 years. I have tried everything. No improvements last. Every year that passes, I hate myself more. Everyone around me is worn out by me. I am drowning and nobody can help. I have no hope for the future.
I just want to be done.
| 1
| 1,735,443,158
| 1
| 1
| 2
| 1
| 1
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hkxlqq/i_wont_ever_achieve_my_dreams_because_of_the_way/
|
Quicklittlevent
|
I won't ever achieve my dreams because of the way I was born I have always dreamed of becoming doctor/surgeon or going to top university but sadly I have adhd,ocd and low iq.my grades in total are 62% rounded and I'm in 11th grade midterms
| 0
| 1,734,988,497
| 0
| 0
| 2
| 0
| 0
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hm7bse/watching_the_numbers_drop/
|
R2D2N3RD
|
Watching the numbers drop I have taken a huge amount of insulin. Just waiting and watching the number go down on my bs monitor
| 6
| 1,735,155,324
| 6
| 6
| 6
| 6
| 6
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hnpk6m/anhedonia/
|
R34P3R_0F_7H3_CRYP7
|
Anhedonia I have officially lost the ability to feel any pleasure whatsoever. I'm done doing anything. It's all such a fucking waste when my brain is already destroyed beyond comprehension
| 0
| 1,735,335,193
| 0
| 1
| 2
| 0
| 1
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hplxp2/i_told_my_mom_i_am_suicidal_she_said_lets_die/
|
Radiant-Cat4658
|
I told my mom i am suicidal she said "let's die together" Am I cooked
| 2
| 1,735,560,673
| 2
| 2
| 2
| 2
| 2
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hd4iep/there_is_no_point/
|
Radiant-Toe-2807
|
There is no point No point to being alive if you aren't happy. I treat everyone with kindness and people still treat me like a worthless piece of garbage. Less than that actually. They treat me like a worthless piece of garbage who is also terrible to everyone. I am done trying to get better. It is just continuing my suffering.
| 1
| 1,734,064,647
| 1
| 1
| 2
| 1
| 2
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hib0ri/lonely_angry_feeling_like_a_loser_and_like_im_not/
|
Random4284
|
Lonely. Angry. Feeling like a loser and like I'm not good enough I get angry in my own head a lot and remember fights and arguments with people and I also feel very low like I'm not good enough and that I'm a loser and trash. I think about killing myself because of this and also feel very lonely. This is what I go through almost every day and I feel like people don't really understand what I'm going through.
| 2
| 1,734,666,058
| 2
| 2
| 2
| 2
| 2
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hp6e54/im_begging/
|
RatsSurroundMe
|
Im begging Ive tried and failed before , overdosing just made me sick and i couldnt slit properly. Ive been waiting the whole day to try again. I cant live like this anymore. I have nothing to live for. Everyday is unbearable. I cant stand being awake. Just a few more hours. I hope it works this time. I hope i wont be a coward. Please let me die
| 6
| 1,735,507,799
| 6
| 6
| 6
| 5
| 6
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hjud69/really_struggling_tonight/
|
RaverKev
|
Really struggling tonight. Hello all,
I am writing this post in the hopes that I'll be able to talk to people to distract myself. I'm currently struggling with a lot of lack of motivation, boredom, and ambivalence/apathy towards my current routine. None of my coping skills have worked, and tonight, I'm really struggling to deal with all these emotions/feeling overwhelmed by my daily life routine.
| 0
| 1,734,855,472
| 0
| 0
| 0
| 0
| 0
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h424wm/looking_for_spanish_learners_who_have_a_connect/
|
Ready-Attitude6980
|
Looking for Spanish learners who have a connect with suicide or mental health in general. Hi, my name is Chris.
I'm starting a project that combines my goal of learning Spanish with raising awareness and funds for mental health and suicide prevention.
I would like to get people's opinions about my project.
| 0
| 1,733,055,717
| 0
| 0
| 0
| 0
| 0
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h7xnyb/im_currently_the_worst_version_of_myself_and_want/
|
Ready_Extent8141
|
I'm currently the worst version of myself and want to die My looks, wealth, status, health has all hit a new low. This is my downfall. I don't think I'll recover from. I'm weak and pointless. I need to die. I'm just deteriorating not improving my life. It's ashame.
| 2
| 1,733,477,451
| 2
| 2
| 2
| 4
| 2
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hktxbg/i_want_to_end_it_all/
|
Real-Performer5111
|
I want to end it all I can't lie, I have no idea why, but I truly want to die. Is there anyone that can relate?
| 2
| 1,734,978,168
| 2
| 2
| 2
| 1
| 2
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h8w2ck/i_cant_stand_being_poor_anymore/
|
Realistic_Fun_1523
|
I can't stand being poor anymore Seriously, why did I have to born dirt fucking poor? With no hope for the future or a light at the end of the tunnel, being forced to live this hell.
I just want to fucking end this, just exit this life I don't enjoy
| 2
| 1,733,588,771
| 2
| 1
| 2
| 2
| 2
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hd2j9z/too_short_to_kill_myself/
|
Reasonable-Bar9073
|
too short to kill myself hello. currently sitting on my chair in the middle of my room after a failed (or barely tried) attempt.
got the belt, turned the ceiling fan off, and was ready to use it as a makeshift noose to hang myself but my height made hard to barely even reach; not to mention the fact that the belt was hardly long enough to make a loop.
not sure if its appropriate to find it funny. did get me out of the mental headspace of “i need to kms rn” for a bit. oh well
| 6
| 1,734,058,115
| 6
| 6
| 6
| 6
| 4
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1he6oxj/am_i_weak/
|
Reasonable-Film-7462
|
Am I Weak? M13, My father forces me to program stuff, I hate it, he gets angry when I say I hate it, lately he has been asking me where my programming journey has reached, tbh I don't like programming, rather I despise it. this has gone to a point where I think I will snap. Bye.
| 0
| 1,734,194,217
| 0
| 0
| 1
| 0
| 0
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hprdts/losing_everything_soon/
|
RedHotTruck
|
Losing everything soon I got fired from my last job now it's been 2 months and no one seems to want to hire me. I live alone, I have no one to rely on. The 1st is coming up and I have way of paying rent so I'll be losing my place. I have nothing I'm losing my mind I want to just end it all!
| 2
| 1,735,577,114
| 4
| 2
| 2
| 4
| 1
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h9mlk9/i_wanna_kms/
|
Reetuuw
|
I wanna kms And I have no one to tell it to. I called a hotline yesterday and they just said that it sounds like I need friends. I'm much more private with my feelings novadays compared to the past. I have some friends but I don't want to scare them off with this shit.
| 2
| 1,733,675,500
| 2
| 2
| 4
| 4
| 2
|
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